#gallavich is killing my brain

[hella-cious]

I’m an invariant whump writer so the fic that’s pinballing around my brain but won’t get on paper is of course gallavich whump

Angsty/whumpy canon diverge from 7x11 when they’re on the way to Mexico. Somehow, they’re found out. They’re in a gas station getting food and smokes when cops/marshals/feds catch up.

It’s Mickey who realizes first. He’s got his head on a swivel, and notices that both attendants are gone. And then sees the cars and people outside, just barely out of plain view. He knows they’re surrounded.

So he suddenly drags Ian behind the counter/into the bathroom. Maybe Ian is thinking that he’s looking for a quicky and is all smiles and teasing.

But Mickey is serious. Dead serious. “I love you, Gallagher. You know that, right?”

Ian is taken aback by the emotion. “Yeah. I love you too.”

Mickey pulls him into a deep, serious kiss. This isn’t about sex, it’s about getting as close as he can. When he pulls away, he says, “You’ve made something of yourself, you’re way better than I’ll ever be. Got a job and a damn medical license.”

“EMT not—“

“Oh shut up you know what I mean.”

And he can’t bear to ruin Ian. Mexico is over, they’re not going to make it. Soon he’ll be behind bars with years tacked onto his sentence, and Ian might be locked up as an accomplice. Everything he’s built back in Chicago will be gone.

“I love you.” He says again. Then punches Ian across the face.

It turns into a scrap, with blows on both sides. Ian more confused and annoyed than anything else. But he’s pinned and demands what the fuck Mickey is doing.

“They’d never believe I forced you down here without a scratch. You’re a fighter, Ian Gallagher.”

And Ian is starting to catch on. “You didn’t force me. I want to go with you, I want to be with you. This is my choice!”

“I can’t let you. I can’t let you throw everything away for me.”

The only way Ian goes home is if they tell the cops that Mickey kidnapped him. That when Ian said no to running away to Mexico, Mickey pulled a gun and forced him in the car. It wouldn’t be a far cry— plenty of cons don’t take kindly to being dear John-ed, they’d buy that Mickey wouldn’t let anyone else have Ian.

But Ian isn’t down with that. It was his choice to come with Mickey! How could he pretend Mickey kidnapped him and hurt him? He knew the risk when he got in that car, knew this might happen. And if they think Mickey kidnapped him on top of everything else, he’ll never get out of jail.

But Mickey has the gun, and he tells the cops that he’ll kill Ian if they come inside. Makes a whole show of the crazy hostage taker.

And when Ian pleads “Mickey, don’t do this! Please!” The cops think he’s begging for his life. They don’t know he’s begging Mickey not to throw away the rest of his.

[tiktaalic]

klance vs gallavich is driving me balls to the walls insane . as somebody who “liked” both . liked in quotes bc i was 14 when i discovered klance and it was . fun . ooh red and blue ooh teamwork and friendship blossoming into something more WHATEVER . gallavich. oh gallavich i discovered when i was 16 and depressed and it permanently altered my brain chemistry . people say that all the time but everything is DUST compared to what shameless will do to the budding brain. ian what you and i have makes me free guess what we’ve been doing daddy we’ve been fucking sorry i’m late yeah mick i’ll wait i wanna be where you are mickey you’re under my skin man the fuck can i do . SET THE BAR FOR REPRESSED GAY LOVE . i cannot stress this enough . mickey was born in a wet cardboard box all alone and went through allllll the horrors that people love to pretend their vanilla fave went through and got GAY MARRIED . ian gallagher suffered more than jesus and went on to get married to the rough kid he met when he was FIFTEEN . every single complexity people on here love to pretend their gayboring faves have is IN THE TEXT for them . this got long sorry . this is what they do to a person and i could go on . i had a shameless blog for multiple years and didn’t even scratch the surface of what makes them possibly the most compelling gay couple on modern television. klance is for when you’re a bit bored

KLANCE IS LITERALLY A SUMMER FLING! I know because I summer flinged with them! I was there! I watched the last season when it dropped at 3 am! But they are the definition of I made you up in my head. Gallavich is. Ohhhhh my god. People will literally make shit up and pretend it happened to their fav in an au or whatever but it happened to Mickey for REAL! his father for REAL shotgun married him to a woman because he found him in bed with a man! His father for real got in his face and told him he would kill him if he married a man and Mickey said Alright thanks dad. And then MARRIED IAN! Mickey better than any fake little guy with daddy issues because he. He’s the only one to ever do it. He’s the onlyyyyy one to ever do it. Everyone else makes up their little characters with their little daddy issues but mickey is mickey forever. Gallavich have so many. Lines. But the one that gets me every time is. when mickey’s trying to visit ian (in jail? hospital? I don’t remember). Your relationship to mr. Gallagher? Partner lover family y’know. He just rattled them off one after the other. He fucking LOVES ian. And ian loves him. And they got married. Im sure this is the most mainstream take in the world but it’s so good it’s soooo good when they’re living at mickey’s house with mickey’s wife and raising mickey’s toddler. And it’s so good when Ian spins out hard and Mickey is so staunchly There. Does not waver for a fucking second. What’s going on with Ian. Ask Mickey. Gallavich sweep

[jrooc]

Writer Interview

Tagged by @mybrainismelted and @creepkinginc 🥰

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

8 (1 is a collab)

2. What’s your total AO3 word count? 

175K

3. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Actually I recently passed 1000 kudos on Ao3 which was a pretty exciting milestone.

1 - Drunk Text 2 - Prosthetic Love. 3 - Redemption Tale 4 - In My Veins Like Lightning 5 - Staring at the Sun

4. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Yes! It takes me a couple of days 'cause I'm freaking out in excitement and therefore can't put together a coherent response that doesn't sound idiotic. I used to get so nervous about saying the right thing I sometimes wouldnt when I started writing but I soooo appreciate comments I try to respond.

5. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

Confessions But I'm a happy ending kinda lady usually 😉

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

Staring at the Sun probably

7. Do you write crossovers?

I don't but love those who do. Special mention to @loftec's MIB/Gallavich collab

8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

No, but I've seen other people get it and it kills me. People have questioned my character's choices, and that's fair.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I do! It's pretty vanilla but I'm trying to get better. Shoutout to those who write amazing smut (Looking at you @whatthebodygraspsnot)

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I'm aware of

11. Have you ever had a fic translated?

No

12. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yes! I have a collab with the hilarious @mybrainismelted on Weed Dreams (Although it's mostly Kat hilarity with me assisting here and there). It's the funnest project I've done 'cause we're just being silly and having a good time.

13. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

Gallavich, all day.

14. What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

Maybe some Weed Dreams chapters floating in my head

15. What are your writing strengths?

Ummm unclear. Some days I feel like I am great at dialogue. Some days I'm awful. I'd like to think I can convey emotion?

16. What are your writing weaknesses?

A lot of them. Explaining environments and what people are wearing without losing the story flow. (So much respect for writers like @ian-galagher can write that so well, it's very impressive!)

17. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

It's very cool. If you can make it work in a way that flows. If I spoke another language I'd definitely give it a shot.

18. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

Shameless

19. What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t written for yet but want to?

Not sure!

20. What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

In My Veins Like Lightning although its still a WIP. Just love these idiot bike boys! And the response to it has been so lovely. Also writing about Ian drooling over Mickey's thighs in Lycra is my happy brain rot.

Tagging anyone mentioned above! And @mmmichyyy @juliakayyy @notherenewjersey @ms-moonlight-inn @crestfallercanyon @ifallonblackdays @sgtmickeyslaughter @stocious @spoonfulstar @dancermk

[spaceofentropy]

20 questions for fic writers (and artists)

I was tagged by @dragonflylady77 and, why not? Why not procrastinate a bit? :P

1. How many works do you have on ao3(Tumblr)?

14.

2. What's your total ao3 (Tumblr) word count?

253,035 as of right the fuck now. Holy moly that's a lot.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

I've written for Why R U? and now for Stranger Things.

4.What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Of soulmates and colors (a chonky metalsandwich soulmates AU)

What happens in Vegas... (a WhyRU? canon divergence with Tor waking up in Vegas, married to his ex)

I just came to say... (modern era Harringrove meet cute)

Amok (modern era Harringrove thing about Billy meeting his mom by chance and being conflicted as fuck)

Like a curse (the WhyRU? heist AU nobody had asked for but they still had to face)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I try. Sometimes I'm slow as fuck and sometimes I'm perched on my inbox like a starving hawk, but I always try.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Probably What doesn't kill you makes you a monster, which is an angst fest built around body horror and body mutation which ends with Steve having basically no hope about the future. But then, months after, I went and wrote a follow up fic where Steve gets to find another monster and fall in love with him and have a HEA, so I guess it only half-counts ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

7. What is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Uh... I honestly don't know. I mean, I mostly write fics with a good ending or at worst a hopeful ending (like Come Close) and I honestly don't think I can't rank which of my HEA fics is the happiest, so, all the happy ones? I guess?

8. Do you get hate on any fics (Art)?

So far, never.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Yep, I do, even if it's hard as hell and I always feel like it sucks. As for what kind... uh... I don't know how to answer... The smutty kind? Sometimes it's soft. and sometimes it's hurried, and sometimes it's filthy monsterfucking because monsters, too, deserve to get laid.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

My heist AU is a crossover between one show, a different show, and an AU of the first show. Two actors from the first show play minor parts in the second show. It's a wild, wild thing.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

No.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No.

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

Harringrove.

15. What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Probably that one Gallavich thing I wrote 90k words of because I had to put it out of my head and is close to the end but when I look at it makes me feel eh because Ian's part of the plot feels to passive and NOPE!, that's so fucking wrong, vade retro Satana!

16. What are your writing strengths?

Plotting and dialogue. And wild ideas.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Descriptions. Smut.

18. thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

To quote Guin, "get it checked by a person who speaks that language before you post". Preferably a native speaker who can tell you if it sounds like your easy going teenager was possessed by the ghost of a stuffy academic from the 1820s. Also, it's a hard balance to make it not too distracting, to make sure it doesn't kill the pace of the story, so good luck in your endeavours, fellow writers!

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Honestly no idea.

20. Favorite fic you've written?

I love them all, they are my self-indulgent nuggets of entertainment and I won't pit them one against the other trying to choose a favorite. I reject this question. U_U

I should tag people, theoretically, but honestly I don't have the brain power for it tonight. If you read this and want to do this, consider yourself tagged. Have fun! :3

[deedala]

okay, deanna, you put it on my dash, so i'll throw gallavich!mummy au at you. i have no thoughts beyond this, make of it what you will, i just needed to get it out of my brain, thanksokaybye.

Nosho!!!! thank you for these brain worms!! they have not left me all day!! i watched the mummy while i worked this afternoon and thought really hard about it and i decided this is how i would set up a gallavich!mummy au ...

(i dont actually know shit about the military or admissions at oxford in the 1920s so my apologies to History because i'm about to commit some flagrant disregard lol) Okay so Ian and Mickey are both born in Chicago in the early 1900s. Mickey flee's the US when he's a teenager after the Chicago police begin rounding up members of the Milkovich crime family. His options are severely limited so he ends up in joining the French Foreign Legion. Ian joins the united states military when he turns 18. He serves for a few years stationed in Europe but as the US army downsizes from post-WWI he finds himself discharged from service and, not wanting to go back to Chicago, he ends up in England where he enrolls at Oxford and studies Egyptology. Mickey ends up stationed in Algeria at a garrison that becomes obsessed with tales of treasure in Egypt at a place called Hamunaptra. Mickey isn't terribly convinced but when the men march off to Egypt, he doesn't really have any other choice but to go along with them. This is how he ends up at the battle at Hamunaptra in 1923 where the entirety of his fellow legionaries are killed by an opposing army that was sent to execute them for marching through Libya without orders. (this shit is from the wiki i could not figure out who that opposing army was nor could i have ever pulled this out of my ass, so anyway...) Mickey does manage to escape this massacre along with his dubious legion buddy, Damon. They are the only survivors! After some some years of study Ian moves to Cairo to continue his studies and research working at the Cairo Museum of Antiquities. His older brother, Lip, having burned through all his opportunities back in Chicago, moves to Cairo to be with Ian. Lip spends most of his time drinking a little bit too much while gambling, pick-pocketing, and running random schemes around the city. Mickey decides to stay in Egypt and hires himself out as a sometimes mercenary and sometimes guide. He runs low key scams and robberies to keep himself afloat. One day Lip and Mickey encounter each other in a tavern where they play in the same card game. Lip pick-pockets an artifact off of Mickey, who swiftly realizes his precious box is gone and a large bar-fight breaks out when Mickey starts aggressively accusing the men around him. Lip, however, has already slipped away! Mickey is arrested and put in prison. He is sentenced to death for inciting disorder and probably also fighting the guards who showed up to the tavern to stop the fight. Lip brings the puzzle box artifact to Ian to find out what it is and if it's valuable. They discover the map, they find out its a map to Hamunaptra, they go find Mickey in prison and save him from his death penalty in return for him guiding them to Hamunaptra. When they board the river boat Mickey discovers Damon is, at the same time, guiding a group of American treasure hunters to the same ancient ruins. Etc etc, and there you go you have your Ian and Mickey and Lip and Damon(lol) The Mummy AU.

[lilaccoffee]

Hello i am once again going insane

So JP Saxe just released this song and are the lyrics so Ian and Mickey that it hurts or am i just really out of my mind?

Like Ian about Mickey yanno?

No?

[socialtomcat]

@galladrabbles prompt: “silk” from @mininusketears

awesome prompt! for this one my first and only thought was this song by wolf alice which reminds me of s4/5 just so terribly (please listen to it its my fav ever!!) i added the word silk in just to cover all my bases but rly all i did was listen to this song a bunch, black out for an unknown amount of time and come to with whatever this is hope u like it or don’t, also content warning its about ian’s depressive episode so yea be aware of that maybe 0-0

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“Ian,”

His name this time. Softer.

“Time for lunch, sleepyhead” and “princess” and “lover” since tossed into the wastebasket. He still doesn’t move.

Or rather it doesn’t; the half-creature thing that took the wheel, locking him in the trunk letting him scream his throat sore, pray to a god that wasn’t his, knowing nobody would hear. A half-creature half-Ian joy stealing joyrider.

Then, a face. Hands running through red silk streaks and muzzle delicate against his cheek.

“Mick,”

He sits up. Punches out a tail light. The tears flow against his lovers collarbone and he doesn’t try to stop them.

[gallavichthings]

Spring is here! (well, in the Northern Hemisphere it is) The boys are ready for some spring cleaning. Are you?

Welcome to the first ever Gallavich Spring Cleaning!

What is that, you ask? Easy! It’s a multiwork event hosted by @gallavichfanficlibrary and yours truly (with some help of @gallavichprompts​, thank you!) . That means any kind of work is accepted: fics, fanart, videos, gifs, you name it! Oh, and did I mention there are no requirements either? Drabbles and one-shots are more than welcome (my burn-out brain actually thanks you). 

The only rule for this event is: it’s got to be PG-13 - in other words, clean. (Get it? Cause of spring cleaning? *wink wink* I’m very smart). That means no mature teams, no smut, no M18, no ~lemon~. Of course swearing is allowed (I mean, it’s still Ian and Mickey we are talking about), just keep it sfw. Think of it as a reverse kinktober, if you will.

Prompts are under the Read More. You can use only one, several or all of them. Mix and match, if you want to! Repeat them, even!  They’re just your starting points! 

This event will run through the whole month of April, so you may post whenever you want. Tag me (@gallavichthings) so I can see and reblog it as soon as possible. Feel free to also tag the Library if you’re posting fics (oh, and if you can, please put your fics under read mores if they’re too long and you post them here in full, as a courtesy to those roaming the tags). 

For those using AO3, here’s the Collection for this event.

Let’s have some clean fun!

Situation prompts:

Spring cleaning.

It's the first sunny day in what feels like forever, after several weeks of bad weather and storms that have kept them spending most of the time in their apartment. 

Spring: sniffles, pollen, and tissues.

The Big Easter Egg Hunt.

The only thing Mickey knows about his soulmate is that he’s supposed to meet him in the spring.

Teenagers Ian and Mickey somehow end up spending St.Patrick’s Day together, and it’s not a date but it also kinda sorta feels like it might be? 

Spring on the Westside feels different than on the Southside.

Ian and Mickey are slowly turning their apartment into a ‘home’, bringing small touches of themselves into it.

Mickey’s always been a light sleeper who has suffered from nightmares. It’s only when they finally get their apartment sorted that he starts to sleep well and really understand what a good night's sleep can be.

The lease on the apartment is almost up. (Do they stay in the apartment? Move out? Go apartment hunting? Hire a realtor?)

One day Ian comes across an injured cat and nurses it back to health. After a few days he finds a stranger on his couch and the cat is nowhere to see. (Shapeshifting AU)

The last thing Ian expects to see in the mysterious box that Mickey brings to the dugouts is kittens. And he definitely didn’t expect that they would end up caring for them together.

5 times they visited family members + 1 time the family members visited them.

Debbie wants to make a good old Gallaghers’ style BBQ. (Everything goes wrong.)

The king sends his best knight to kill the monster that lives in the forest. Turns out, the monster is pretty charming and doesn’t actually harm anyone. 

Dialogue prompt

“Well, this is new.”

“This isn’t what it looks like, I swear! Okay … it’s kind of what it looks like, but just give me a chance to explain.”

“I’ll take that as a compliment.”

“So hang on, let me get this straight.”

“Oh, good, you’re here! Hold this.”

“Oh, wow, you weren’t kidding.”

“Don’t just stand there looking at me.”

“Now, before I say anything, promise me you’ll stay calm.”

“You are remarkably well-behaved tonight. What have you been up to?”

"We both know this will be the first time and the last time we ever attempt this."

"Strike three! You're out!"

���How much longer till we’re there?”

“Ten bucks for this piece of crap!”

“Why do you have that look on your face?”

“No. Hell, no. Absolutely not.”

“And you can’t think of any other reason?”

“Do you maybe think, in retrospect, that this was a terrible idea?”

“Talk to me, okay? I need to know what’s going on.”

“Don’t take this the wrong way, but you don’t exactly blend in.”

“Is this your first time here?”

“We need to come up with a new strategy.”

“I wasn’t sure you remembered me.”

“I never, ever want to hear you say that again.”

“What on earth happened here?”

“You gonna eat that?”

[zutaralesbian]

I posted 1,800 times in 2022

274 posts created (15%)

1,526 posts reblogged (85%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@thegoatsongs

@whaticameherefor

@anniejanuarygf

@royaltealovingkookiness

@emilyskinners

I tagged 1,782 of my posts in 2022

Only 1% of my posts had no tags

#fanart - 399 posts

#killing eve - 317 posts

#villaneve - 241 posts

#spop - 223 posts

#shameless - 190 posts

#* - 177 posts

#atla - 170 posts

#gallavich - 161 posts

#first kill - 140 posts

#catradora - 135 posts

Longest Tag: 140 characters

#and i’m afraid that in the end the villaneve content they give won’t be worth it and all these extra characters are just using up screentime

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

It’s funny that JKR considers herself some kind of champion of women just because she shits on trans people when even her books are actually riddled with misogyny and favoritism towards the male characters. Name 1 prominent relationship between two women in Harry Potter that’s positive, not filled with petty animosity, and gets a decent amount of page time.

You can’t

198 notes - Posted January 7, 2022

#4

The Killing Eve writers (at least the head ones) have always looked at the idea of Eve and Villanelle being in a “domestic” relationship through very heteronormative lenses I think. Like…Eve and Villanelle could have very easily ended the series as a happy couple and still be a little dysfunctional and commit crimes together. Their idea of being domestic didn’t have to align with what was “normal” and I don’t think anyone ever really wanted or expected that.

But the writers are too black and white and simple minded to think like that I guess.

257 notes - Posted April 11, 2022

#3

Will never get over the big brained storytelling of Fear Street. The cop who played the hero the entire trilogy and his rich ancestors turned out to be the villains the whole time. And the “witch” who was scapegoated as being the cause of the curse was completely innocent and was persecuted and punished simply for being gay and loving another woman. Like, I’ll be screaming about that years from now.

291 notes - Posted August 27, 2022

#2

I do think it’s funny how Eve and Villanelle have both caused extreme bodily harm to the other (the stabbing and shooting) and yet Villanelle frets over Eve having a minor injury on her hand and Eve loses her shit when Helene has Villanelle shot with an arrow.

It’s very “no one is allowed to do that except me” of them.

351 notes - Posted March 21, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

I don’t know where the KE writers ever got the idea that Eve is someone that is “meant” for a normal life and just got dragged into the chaos by Villanelle. It actually goes against the core of her character lmao. (And it is a pattern with them bc Emerald Fennel said similar shit about Eve in her post S2 interviews). In the beginning, Eve was literally introduced as someone that was bored with her normal life, which is why she started chasing Villanelle in the first place.

Eve is a woman who has canonically:

- Broke laws and got someone killed in her determination to track Villanelle

- Repeatedly gaslit her husband and put his life at risk in her obsession

- Stabbed Villanelle while they were lying in bed together

- Seriously contemplated pushing a man in front of a bus for being rude to her

- Left a man for dead in order to save Villanelle

- Gleefully helped finish off killing Dasha (and then later agreed with Villanelle that it was romantic that they both killed her lol)

- Unapologetically shot Konstantin

- Admitted that she wanted Villanelle to fuel to her “monster”

- Kidnapped a child

- Got visibly horny watching Villanelle kill Helene

- Gorged out Gunn’s eyeballs

And you’re trying to say this woman would function well in normal society? Lmao.

Anyway, I remember when Sandra Oh said that the finale could be described as “killing Eve” even though Eve didn’t technically die. I take this to mean that she thinks killing Villanelle IS killing Eve in a sense and that scream after she resurfaces the water is one of complete despair at losing the one person who truly understood and accepted her. Eve’s ending was just as tragic as Villanelle’s.

I take her word on Eve’s character over Laura Neal’s, whose only been with these character for 1 full season.

860 notes - Posted April 12, 2022

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Love the the majority of my top posts was me bitching about Killing Eve. That tracks lmao

[buffymilkovich]

“You're not friends. You'll never be friends. You'll be in love till it kills you both. You'll fight and you'll shag and you'll hate each other till it makes you quiver, but you'll never be friends. Love isn't brains, children. It's blood. Blood screaming inside you to work its will. I may be love's bitch but at least I'm man enough to admit it.”

This may be a Buffy quote but it fits Ian and Mickey so perfectly

anon…..ANON…….

i could honestly write essays about the parallels between spuffy and gallavich. there are. so many. they drive me BONKERS. also this spike quote……when i first heard it i literally rewound it and played it again like what a fucking SERVE. UGH. YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOUVE DONE SLIDING INTO MY ASK BOX WITH THIS. IM SPIRALLING.

[goldiesocks]

Some lyrics that remind me of Gallavich :

"I love it when you talk that nerdy shit

We're in our twenties talking thirties shit

We're making money but we're savin' it

'Cause talking shit is cheap and we talk a lot of it

You won't stay with me, I know

But you can have your way with me 'til you go

And before your kisses turn into bruises, I'm a warning"

Let’s Fall in Love for the Night FINNEAS

"Gave love 'bout a hundred tries (hundred tries)

Just running from the demons in your mind

Then I took yours and made 'em mine (made 'em mine)

I didn't notice 'cause my love was blind"

Without Me Halsey

"Your eyes, so crisp, so green

Sour apple baby, but you taste so sweet

...

And I say I'm only playing, but

The truth is this

That I've never seen a mouth that I would kill to kiss

And I'm terrified, but I can't resist"

Finally Halsey

"Being back here makes me hot in the face

Hot blood in my pulsing veins

Heavy memories weighing on my brain

Hot and heavy in the basement of your parents' place

You used to be so sweet

Now you're a firecracker on a crowded street

Couldn't look away even if I wanted

Try to walk away but I come back to the start"

Hot & Heavy Lucy Dacus

"Now my heart is broken and I'm crying on the floor

And every part of me hopes you walk through the door

But you're not here, baby, and I can't love anyone else

'Til I forgive myself, ooh"

Forgive myself Sam Smith

"If you have to hurt me, hurt me once

If you have to end it, get it done

You have all these choices, I have none

You're all that I have to lose

Couldn't hurt you if I wanted to

I've decided on you, I've decided on you

And if I'm disappointed

It's 'cause you're not the person I knew

If I had it my way, I'd be kinder than you

I'm sure I'll forgive you, and soon

I'm ashamed but I'm proud of it, too

I decided on you"

Hurt me once Ben Platt

[gallavictorious]

I was delighted to be tagged by Our Lady of Words and Joy @howlinchickhowl Cheers, dear!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

Earlier today it was 40. Now it’s 39. WHAT GIVES? Did someone eat a story? Which one? I am so confused.

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

137 098. At least that hasn’t changed...

3. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Highs, and Your Lows (i will weather them)

This Time (We'll Be Fine)

Teenage Tales

To Keep Your Gentle Heart

Captive Look

Huh. Would you look at that. All Gallavich stuff!

4. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Eh. Well. Listen, I always want and mean to respond to comments, because as a commenter I always love a response from the author, but I am procrastinator supreme so a lot of the time I just... don't. Not for a great long while at least. Then, two years AFTER you left a comment, you might get an e-mail notification about me responding. It's horrible, really, because I keep the comments in my heart and treasure them so much and the lovely people taking the time to leave a few words on my silly stories really do deserve better.

5. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

Life, Still to Come has the one main character Jim Moriarty killing himself and his lover Sebastian Moran after he's diagnosed with incurable brain cancer, so I guess that's pretty angsty? The tone of the fic, however, is... kinda soft and peaceful, really. It doesn't feel so very sad, I think.

For Gallavich, I've got Chapter 7 of my ficlet collection Highs, and Your Lows (i will weather them). It's an Wild West AU kind of deal, where Ian Gallagher is visited by the ghost of the young fiend Mickey Milkovich after his dad beats him to death. That one is sad, but there's the glimmer of a promise that they might meet again one day, in a better world.

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

My fics mostly end on a happy note, and I have a hard time pinning down which is the happiest. Hm. I'm gonna say Pressure or possibly Foreign Country, if only because the happy endings there are offered in contrast to the otherwise angsty story and so seems all the happier for it.

7. Do you write crossovers? If so, what is the craziest one you’ve written?

I have, once. Well, started one, really. Notes Regarding the End of the World is a crossover between Sherlock BBC and Mark Lawrence's The Broken Empire trilogy. I still feel there's a bunch of potential there, but I'm very hesitant I'll ever finish it.

8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Not to my recollection, no. Back when I posted my SW fic on the Jedi Council forums you might receive critical comments at times, but no hate.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Not really, no. I'm not very interested in reading it, and so see very little point in writing it. There's been a few semi-explicit depictions of sexual acts – most notably in Claim – and I'm not averse to writing kink fic, even if they don't typically include actual sex when I do. For instance, I did The Ways We Bend and Break and Mend for X-Men, and the whole point was Charles first whipping Erik and then cuddling him – except in the end it turned into a character study with lots of emotions, and I think any attempts to write smut would be like that for me. Accidental character drama. XD

I might have a Gallavich thing for kinktober that is likely to be pretty explicit and kinda messed up. We'll see.

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

I don't think so. There have been a few instances of stuff popping up bearing a strong resemblance to things I've written, but there's also been times when I realize that things I have written bear a (very much unintentional) strong resemblance to other stuff that predates them, so I really think that's the nature of the beast. In any big fandom, the same ideas are likely to occur to multiple people, and we are all, often unconsciously, inspired by the same things and by each other.

11. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yeah, to Chinese and Russian.

12. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yes! Pathoftheranger and I co-wrote (How to Break the) Alibi Armistice, which was fun!

13. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

I'm a creature of ever-changing affections, so I'm not so good with ”all-time favourite”  and to be honest, I mostly tend to have favourite characters and ship them with everything in sight... Currently it's all about Gallavich but pretty much all ships including Jim Moriarty is forever gold to me (though MorMor is The Best. Or is it Sheriarty? Or maybe Mormorlock? Or Moriadlock? Or Johmlock – notice the 'm'?). Cherik's a big one too!

Ask me again in six months and my answer might well have changed!

14. What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

The aforementioned Notes Regarding the End of the World. And I have this superlong Star Wars fic I started writing when I was 16 and wrote for years and years and then just... stopped writing, when I was maybe 20 pages from the end? It's currently at 180k words. This one I DO have some hope that I will go back and finish one day, although it's likely to be a jarring experience since I'm very much not 16 years old any more and my ideas about writing and the characters and everything have shifted quite a bit.

15. What are your writing strengths?

I do pretty well with the short format, I think. And with dialogue? Finding the voice of the characters (some more than others, certainly). Writing in my native Swedish, I think I'm pretty good at offering decent prose – I'd like to think I have a fairly developed ear for the flow of the text, and the melody of it? But when writing in English, that gets quite a bit harder. This really annoys me, because I'm rather preoccupied with the stylish elements of writing – though I've found that a lot of people seem happy enough to overlook clunky writing as long as they find the story otherwise engaging, which is a huge blessing for me. I believe I can build a decent plot, but since I can't write anyting longer than a few K these days there's no telling, is there?

16. What are your writing weaknesses?

Primarily getting any writing done at all. Mostly, I stare at a blank page and despair and then I give up. This is why I no longer write long fic. I also tend to reuse favorite phrases or themes far too often. And there are so many subclauses... Proofreading happens to other people (I'd like it to happen to me too, but I'm terrible with it). I'm not good at accepting constructive criticism, even when I ask for it. I will often favour style over efficiency, and I'll stubbornly refuse to admit that this can be a problem.

17. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

This question makes me feel like I ought to have developed thoughts on this, but I don't so much... I don't mind it? I've used it. Uh. It's a good idea to do a bit of research and not just rely on Google translate for it? If you don't like it, don't use it. Those are my thoughts.

18. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

Star Wars. <3

19. What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t written for yet but want to?

Buffy/Angel/Spike. The Book of All Hours. Heroes. Maybe something based on The Coldfire Trilogy... ? Oh, and the Bible. I'm sure there are others.

20. What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

I really don't have one. There are a few I'm particularly happy with, but no one that truly stands out... That said, I was quite chuffed with how the first ficlet in Or Else Into the Light, my (tiny) collection of Anakin redemption one-shots, turned out. And Claim. I’m very pleased with Claim.

Tagging @dreamylyfe-x @fiona-fififi @pathoftheranger @abundanceofnots and @captainjowl

[stillbeatingheart]

Ao3 tag game

Thanks @browney3dgirl6 for the tag!  It’s taken me awhile to get to (required a good mood about my stats page), but here we go:

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

64

2. What’s your total Ao3 word count?

1,125,328  

Yeah I had to copy/paste that one, that number was too much for my brain...

3. How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

5

AK, Shameless, Stranger Things, TW, and VM

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Uneasy In This Skin

So Very Naked and So Unafraid

Magic Finds You

Like Magical Babies?

Shut Up and Kiss Me

(They’re all Sterek)

5. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

I’d say my angst always has a happy ending but probably the one where I killed off Mickey, but by the end Ian was dead too.  Reunited in the afterlife kind of thing.  

Blue Stained Glass

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

They all have happy endings, but I’ll go with the Chipmunk Stiles Series just because it ended on a wedding night.

7. Do you write crossovers? If so, what is the craziest one you’ve written?

I wrote an AK/Shameless apocalypse crossover and then got cranky and took it down, but maybe someday it will be revisited.  Crossovers are just too much of a niche crowd but I’ve been head-writing a Naked and Afraid mash-up mega crossover that’ll probably never hit the point of actual words, but maybe two other people would find wildly entertaining :)

8. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

But of course.  Except it always ends up being smut with feelings so I never deny some good old fashioned love-making.  

9. Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

Yes, unless it’s clearly someone just wanting to nit-pick then I delete and move on.  Actual constructive criticism is welcomed.  And positive feedback gets me high.

10. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

It’s a ritual in the Gallavich fandom.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

I don’t know if that’s a thing with Fanfic, but I’d hope if anyone ever wanted to steal a fic idea, they’d credit me in inspired by and write their own.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes.  Waiting for the Boy that doesn’t Come Home was translated by the lovely Ayann

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yep, the first time was a cute little one-shot for VM with my wonderful friend and talented writer @charleylynn called Kiss Me At Midnight (If I was that kind of girl) and the second time was with my partner in sisterly bullshittery and crazy headcanons @ms-moonlight-inn for a Gallavich kid fic called Zero To Six

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

I will respectfully ignore that question...  it’s too hard to choose!

15. What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t ever think you will?

I have a collection of abandoned fics, and two that are hanging over my head but damn it!  I will finish them some day!

16. What are your writing strengths?

Pssshht.  All of it.  Just all of it.  

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

There are no chinks in my armor.  Yeah, no, there totally are.  The list would be longer than my strengths if I made it myself, so I’ll pass on this one too.

18. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

I’ve done it with the assistance of google translate so I’m sure some of the grammar is off, but polyglot! Derek needed to actually use the dialogue, when I had Mickey the tiger trainer speaking Ukrainian I just told the audience to pretend his dialogue was in Ukrainian because it would have been distracting in that instance and also, I would have gotten it very embarrassingly wrong.   

19. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

Shameless

20. What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

I’m going to go with Uneasy In This Skin because it tested me.  A lot.  And I suppose that is how you grow as a writer, to test yourself!

I’m going to tag @ms-moonlight-inn, @fiamac, and @charleylynn but won’t be offended if you decide not to play :)

[lilaccoffee]

Guys i’m going insane here. Why do i keep thinking about Ian and Mickey? Like right now i can link ANYTHING with them like this fucking song? Just heard it again and i was like WAIT! AS IF ITS NOT THEM LOL

[mishervellous]

tagged by my beloved @energievie 💙💙

Author Interview

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

7

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

43477

3. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Nobody makes me crazy like you (ambivalent)

Mick's Sunshine

Back on Track (Off the Rails)

Por Fin

Fix You

4. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I usually do! lately I’ve been falling behind on answering them but I’m planning on doing it really soon! I’m incredibly forgetful, but I appreciate every single one of them

5. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

I wouldn’t necessarily call it an angsty ending, but I think the ending to Fix You is kinda open ended, so that technically isn’t happy…? though it’s hopeful! I don’t really write angsty endings tbh

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

I would have to say Nobody makes me crazy like you just because it’s the only finished one with an actual structure and a possibility for a happy ending lmao

7. Do you write crossovers? If so, what is the craziest one you’ve written?

I’ve never written one but I’m planning to 👀👀

8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

not publicly, just some anons with nothing better to do 🤷🏻‍♀️

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

yup! pretty standard romantic stuff really lmao nothing beyond some dirty talk and such. planning something for Gallavich kinktober though eheh

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

nope!

11. Have you ever had a fic translated?

unfortunately not 😫 would love to

12. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

nothing that has been published yet, but something’s the works 👀

13. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

I would have to go with Destiel. you know I love me my Gallavich boys, but Dean and Cas own my whole heart and then some. I’d say Ian and Mickey are reaaally close seconds!

14. What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

there’s this Gallavich canon divergent one that is halfway done but it’s just too much work for my weak brain! 😫😫 I would love to publish it one day sigh

15. What are your writing strengths?

humour I guess? banter more specifically! just because it’s really fun to write so I think I’m not doing that awful of a job with it lmao

16. What are your writing weaknesses?

backstories!! like establishing things and building relationships from the ground up is what kills 99% of my writing ideas, I just can’t do it

17. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

why not! if I know that language I would totally write some dialogues in it, with translations when necessary

18. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

Hetalia dbsidndk I will not elaborate on that

19. What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t written for yet but want to?

Destiel!! I have some fic drafts here and there but I would love to write a fully realized thing and publish it someday

20. What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

uuuhhh probably Back on track (Off the rails) because it’s the one I’ve had the most fun writing 💙

it’s social anxiety night (it’s a recurring theme I know) so I’m only tagging @mere-mortifer because I love bothering her AND she’s my favorite author ever 😌💙 but if you’re reading this: you’re tagged! 🔪

[silverftn]

Time Travle <1>

Gallavich

BigIan&LittleMickey

　　

　　The other side of the bed kept bouncing.

　　Ian was not awaken. More precisely, he's dream did interrupted by that weird bounce. But he did not open his eyes. It's still dark outside. Their sleeping position were always aggressive. Be kicked off from bed by husband were just some regular occurrences on that bed. And some weird bouncing are far more harmless than that. It not even deserved any attention.

　　However, another idea caught him. Maybe Mickey is having a nightmare? He can totally ignore some weird sound, but he will not ignore his husband…

　　Half-awake, half-asleep, Ian reached out his arm and held the man next him.

　　Weird feelings. His intuition rang drowsily, like some alarms with low battery. Mickey was definitely NOT this thin. This figure's waist was just too tight. Did Liam climb into their bed at midnight or what?

　　Ian's relationship with Liam was……not bad. But he really hated the idea of waking up and realizing that he had hugged and kissed his LITTLE BROTHER all night. NO.

　　His brain urged him to open his eyes while his body just wanna keep sleeping. Ian struggled and struggled——

　　Till the kid in his arms hit his jaw.

　　All the sleepiness was lashed away by pain. The two of them: Ian and the the kid in his arms, shouted at the same time:" THE FUCK ! "

　　Ian, while held up one of his pillow, was shocked by the scene he was looking at.

　　Mickey was nowhere around. And there was a BOY kneeling on their bed. With Mickey's vest (which looked like a short dress on him). And, with their wedding ring in his fist.

　　He looked just like the way Mickey looked at 15 or 16.

　　WHAT THE FUCK……？

　　Ian believed he's still in a dream. This HAD TO be a dream. He could totally tell what was happening in the real life. Maybe Mickey just hit him on his jaw uncoinsciously so his head was making up some weird dreams about all…THIS.

　　The boy stared at Ian warily. He looked around, intending to find some weapons but got nothing but pillows. The weapons storage place was not in their bedroom. They didn't wanna make love with the risk of false triggering some of those guns. Mickey already had enough scars on his butt.

　　Ian ignored the boy's gestures. He tweaked the skin on his waist, waiting for the dream feaded away, revealing the real world where his Mickey slept next to him.

　　and…NO.

　　He's still here.

　　WHAT THE FUCK?

　　The boy looked at Ian with dislike like he thought this red-head man was retarded or something. He clenched his fist with the ring uncoinsciously, and asked:"Who the HELL are you? Where the fuck is here?"

　　Ian was still not really lucid. He answered stiffly:"Ian. Ian Milkovich."

　　Ah. Fuck. Wrong answer.

　　They had been calling each other by exchanging last name since wedding. Ian realized that he had got used to it too much that he just answer the question with Mickey's last name. Fuck.

　　The boy rised up from the bed, standing in sheets with the hem of the vest hanging on the half of his thigh. It's kinda cute. But there was NOTHING near cute in his eyes.

　　"I don't know you. Don't fool around with Milkovich. You mess with the wrong man. GO TO HELL, you fucking pedophilia!!!" He shouted, jumped off the bed, tring to run away.

　　But Ian dragged him back to the bed without a thought. He had down a lot of things like this with Mickey and became kinda professional. Also the boy was far more weak than his Mickey.

　　They were so close. He could smell the smell of the boy. The SKIN. Cigarettes. Alcohol. A little gunpower, some puddings and also chips maybe. The smell of HIS Mickey.

　　His heart went altogether again. Ian lower his head with no consciousness, rubbed his nose in the boy's neck and kissed him lightly. Just like what he do with Mickey at every morning.

　　The boy was blushed. But it's definitely not the sign of shyness. Anger, burnt all the way out his pupil, almost reached Ian's nose. He twisted his body insanely, screaming:"GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME!!!"

　　His movement didn't last long.

　　Morning, same bed, same smell, twisting body…Ian didn't want to admit that he just got hard.

　　The boy obviously realized THAT, too. He stopped immediately. Those blue eyes stared at Ian with so much anger.

　　"DON't YOU DARE FUCK ME. I'll put the gun in your ASSHOLE then shoot it. I FUCKING MEAN IT."

　　“Don't…I mean…There are too many misunderstandings between us.”The situation twisted Ian's tongue. Where should he begin to explain?

　　He decided to ask the key question first.

　　"Are you Mickey Milkovich?"

　　The boy stared at him reluctantly. But he knew Ian won't let him go before get the answer. So he nodded…not so willingly.

　　……FUCK.

　　So this boy is mickey. His husband. His husband, who came from 10s years ago, who didn't married him yet, who may not even know him.

　　What the hell? Is the world just got tired of torturing Gallaghers with normal methods so that decided to add some magical factors in their life?

　　There always some people keep saying that they should write a script with their life and Netflix will definitely take it. In fact Netfilx almost take all scripts from all human-beings. But, if he add THIS into the script, even Netflix will not accept it. It's just…unreasonable.

　　Ian tried to block out all the irrelevant ideas. Anyhow this is not an utterly bad situation. He got another chance to see the kid-version Mickey. When they first hooked up, they basically just FUCK. There's not much chance for them to stay with each other peacefully. Not to mention that Kash put Mickey into juvenile real soon.

　　But the precondition of that is that kid-version Mickey is willing to stay with him calmly. Which was, obviously, not gonna happen. It's pretty easy to figure out that this Mickey will run away like a rabbit as long as he let go.

　　Ian didn't let go.

　　“I need to explain something to you.”Ian said calmly,"Reself-introduction. I'm Ian. Ian Gallagher."

　　"Bullshit. Gallagher is shorter than me."

　　"…I'm the grown up version of him."

　　Mickey laughed with sarcasm:"Are you out of your mind? We are not living in some shitty Disney Princess movies!"

　　"OK. I know this is unbelievable, but I can prove it. I know things that nobody but you know."

　　"Like?"

　　"How old are you now?"

　　"…16. And it's none of your fucking business."

　　16.

　　Which means that Mickey had already slept with him. The kid-version him. And it's still in secret.

　　"You have already slept with me, haven't you." Ian said with a tender smile,"Our first time was in your house. I wanted the gun back, and we got into a fight. You got hard and so do I so we fucked…And you gave me the gun. I think I began to like you that day. And, let me think, our second time was at——"

　　"SHUT the fuck UP!!!"

　　Mickey shouted with the top of his lung. He blushed again. This time, it's because mostly of shyness and embarrassment.

　　Ian smiled:"So you believe now?"

　　Mickey avoided his eyes and murmured：“Hell, no.”

　　But Ian was good at reading Mickey's body language. He could tell that the boy was already believed. Just didn't wanna admit it cause he's a Milkovich.

　　Ian let go carefully. Mickey pushed him away as soon as possible and sat up. However, he did not tend to running away. He just sat there, thinking quietly.

　　Ian put his hand on Mickey's back. Mickey was so attracted by the whole Time Travel thing, that he bearly noticed Ian's movement. He reached out his hand and showed the wedding ring to Ian.

　　"So where am I? Whose cloth is this? And who the hell own this ring? Why am the future me still sleep with you? We still fool around till now? after all these years?"

　　He always believe the relasionship between he and Ian will not last more than a year.

　　But…Take Ian's dick in consideration, this is not THAT unbelievable.

　　And…

　　He looked up and down at Ian:"Why are you this…big, now? what does this from? Pills? Inject hormone?"

　　"No. Just diet and exercises.And this is the Gallagher's house. My room, our bed. your own cloth. Our wedding ring."

　　Wed…

　　Wedding…

　　Mickey loosened his fist. The ring jumped into the sheets.

　　"…Wedding…ring…" Mickey said stiffly. His pupile dilated.

　　That's new. A mickey with fear of wedding ring. Ian wanna flim this scene. Mickey was always treat the ring really carefully. He had never dump it like the kid-version Mickey did.

　　"If you wanna watch, I still got the wedding tape."With lots of sex tapes beside.

　　"Fuck you. No. Why are you, and me, are both alive? Terry didn't try to kill us or what?"

　　"…He did burn the church we decided to use at the fist place. And also gun-fired our room after the wedding. But, umm, he didn't make it and yes we both stay alive."

　　"So he knew I'm gay."

　　"Yeah."

　　Shocked by that, Mickey rubbed his face into his hand.

　　“…Between the marriage of us and the fact that Terry knew you are gay…The second one shock you more? Really?”Ian didn't know how to react. Does it means that he was not as important as Terry, or Mickey already liked him from the begining so much that he's not fully surprised of their future marriage?

　　“Yes! That old shit-head fucking piece of shit couldn't kill me! Ha!”

　　It made him so happy that Mickey even ignored the fact that he just came to a different time line. He stand up, looked down at Ian:"So now what? Are we gonna bang or what?"

　　"…Isn't that some kind of cheating?"Ian said uncertainly.

　　Mickey shrug his shoulder carelessly:"Don't know. Don't care. If you don't wanna fuck I'll just go find some other guy——"

　　Ian drag him down on the pillow. He pressed Mickey's chest:"Mickey. We are already married."

　　"Not ME. I have not married with you, carrot head."

　　"You smelled like him."

　　The smell of HIS Mickey.

　　"So?"

　　Ian kissed him on the lips. Mickey scratched his back trying to get the damn tongue out of his mouth but failed…Fucking kisses-addicted Gallagher! Ugh!

　　He didn't wanna admit that he actually liked it.

　　"So, there is no 'some other guy'."Ian said tenderly, reached out to the lube.