#g o d i love them so much its unreal

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smut prompt 8 and smut scenario 4, xinyu with fem reader :3?

aaaa my first official triples request!! thank you so much for requesting this!! 🫶 i need xinyu so bad its unreal

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zhou xinyu (triples) x fem!reader

genre: smut

summary: smut prompt 8("if you want to cum you better beg") & scenario 4(strap-on) from my 100 follower event

warnings/tags: nsfw content, language, non-idol!xinyu, strap-on, begging, praise, top!xinyu, bottom!reader, established relationship, strap is referred to as "cock"

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"c'mon, princess, you can take it, can't you?"

your eyes stare up at xinyu who's smiling devilishly at you, whimpering at the feeling of the tip of the strap sliding up and down along your wet folds. you nod your head at her words after a few seconds. "yes- yes, please i can take it," you say.

"that's my girl," she says, the smile not leaving her face. slowly, she pushes the strap inside of you, her hands resting on your waist as she gently caresses your skin.

"ffuck!" you gasp out at the strap entering you, your eyes squeezing shut at the size of it. your almost relieved when it's fully sheathed inside you, only for xinyu to slowly start pulling out and you immediately whimper at the emptiness. "pl-please fuck me, please d-don't tease," you manage to get out.

xinyu giggles at your reaction, her hands sliding up and down your waist as she pushes back in. "awe, baby, i'm not teasing. i'm just taking my time," she says with that damn smile on her face still, leaning forward so her face was inches from yours. "don't worry, sweetheart, you'll get what you want," she whispers into your ear while she suddenly pulls out and slams back into you.

you whimper again when she whispers and your eyes shoot open and roll back as she starts building a slow pace but pounding back into you every time. "o-oh my god! f-fuck!" your hands instinctively reach for her back, your nails digging into her skin while you let out strings of curses from your mouth. "fas-faster- shit!- p-please fuck m-me."

xinyu doesn't respond and instead lets out a quiet giggle at your responses. pressing a quick kiss on your cheek, her hands grip your hips tighter as she starts pounding into you faster. her hips snap against yours while she smiles down at you. "look at you...you're taking me so well, baby...you look so pretty like this. tell me how it feels, princess," she says in a sultry voice, her eyes peering down at you while you struggle to form an answer.

"s-so good, mmph, f-feels s-so good," you somehow get out past moans and whines as your hands claw at xinyu's back, your eyes screwed shut with your bottom lip tucked between your teeth.

"i know, i know," she says in an almost taunting manner, angling a particular thrust to hit that special spot in you. "you just love this cock, don't you baby? keep your eyes open, princess, look at me." one of her hands moves to push your hair out of your face, smiling down at you while her other hand is still secured on your hip.

your eyes shoot open and you let out a sharp gasp when you feel the tip hit your g-spot, and your back arches up as your nails drag down xinyu's back, a loud moan falling from your lips. her words send waves of arousal pulsing through you, and you nod your head quickly, feeling tears brimming in the corners of your eyes. "yes- yes i-i love it- fuck!-" you start to feel the knot in the pit of your stomach growing tighter, bound to snap soon as you gasp sharply again when the tip hits your spot again. "i-i'm gonna cum- ohmygod!" you whine loudly.

as soon as you speak those words xinyu halts all her movements, pushing the strap so deep inside of you but not moving anymore. you let out a broken whimper and try to move your hips in an attempt to get some sort of relief when she grabs your hips and holds them down with a tight grip, making you whimper again. "uh-uh," she shakes her head. "if you want to cum you better beg, then maybe I'll give you what you want," she tells you, staring down at you.

her serious tone has you letting out another whimper as a blush quickly forms on your face knowing if you don't then you definitely wouldn't be getting any sense of relief tonight. you peer up at her with tears in your eyes as you find it in you to beg. "please-please let me cum, please please I'll be good for you i swear- i want you to make me feel good, please, please," a few stray tears fall from your eyes.

xinyu coos at the tears, wiping them with her thumb and cupping your face in her hands. "there we go, baby, that's all you had to do," she smiles at you again. "now, be a good girl for me," she says before kissing you deeply, starting her movements again.

moaning into the kiss, your arms hook around her neck while your legs wrap around her waist pulling her closer to you. the wet sloshing of the strap moving in and out of your pussy and your whiny whimpers into the kiss had xinyu's head spinning, and her thrusts were becoming more erratic and out of pace but still hitting that spot every time.

you pull out of the kiss to breathe with broken moans falling past your lips and you put your face in xinyu's neck, biting at the skin in an attempt to quiet yourself. you whimper loudly next to her ear every time the strap pushes back into you, and you swear you hear a quiet whine come from her when you bite down on her neck again, which only makes you get even closer to coming.

"f-fuck!" you gasp at one particular thrust that has your eyes rolling back as your body shakes from your orgasm. your hands tug on xinyu's hair and she lets out a quiet hiss along with a curse.

she slows her movements down to a stop and looks down at you, her hands moving your hair from your eyes as she smiles at you. "you okay?" she asks softly.

"yeah," you nod your head as you flash a smile up at her. "i love you."

"i love you too," she leans forward and kisses you.

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THIS IS PERSONAL WHAT THE HELL

[naberiie]

from which stars have we fallen, to meet each other here?

….is taking a short break while Eva and I recharge and get ready for the next set of updates!

In the meantime, please enjoy the first in a series of planned worldbuilding/background/lore posts about all the work we’ve done for this top-tier rarepair:

Just over a month ago, @aerefyr wrote this Fives/Rabé ficlet that may or may not have made @evaceratops​ and I yell for weeks, because oh my god have you ever read something so INCREDIBLE in your ENTIRE LIFE? It ended with Fives proposing to Rabé in Mando’a, and the last line really struck a cord with us:

“We will raise warriors.”

So we wondered, if Fives and Rabé had been able to get their happy ending, if we gave them a fix-it, most-everybody-lives AU (which we also have ideas about) - what sort of warriors would they raise?

Meet Kida, a heavy gunner in the 501st, and her younger brother Rohan, Jedi Knight. (Fives doesn’t know which one worries him more and can you really blame him)(also can we take MINUTE to appreciate the CHARACTER DESIGNS by @evaceratops like oh my god)

Kida Bhutia; Lionheart

Around the same age as the Skywalker twins, and is good friends with them

Born with the random blonde hair mutation, just like Rex!

It gradually beomces closer to Rabé’s color as Kida gets older, but she dyes the tips the same blonde - she likes having that connection to her uncle and mentor

In training to become a Republic soldier - more specifically, a heavy gunner, much to Uncle Hardcase’s delight

Rex is in charge of her group of cadets at the Republic Academy, pushes her because she’s half-clone and knows she can take it (he is unofficially/officially her mentor)

Her least favorite words in the entire galaxy are: “Cadet Bhutia! Again!” She hears them a lot. Multiple times, every single day. And they usually mean pain.

HOWEVER, there was That One Time when Rex had to leave for a week or so (to help sort out some mischievous Skywalker twins at the Temple), and Commander Wolffe was his replacement

Inherited her dad’s bravado and penchant to show off at all times

Built like her father and uncles: tall (5’8”), broad, and strong

Is extremely focused and driven to be The Best at everything - she excelled in her classes at school because of this

But she has trouble adapting when plans or orders fall through, has trouble thinking on her feet - until Echo sits her down and talks it through with her

Has gotten into fights about the following things: someone insulted her because she’s half-clone; someone scoffed about how she wears her hair; someone picked on her kid brother

All Fives and her uncles care about is if she wins - which she almost always does

Eventually earns jaig eyes, as bestowed to her by Rex (who also gives her her clone name)

Earns them by saving her brother’s life on the battlefield

Rohan Bhutia; Riptide

Two years younger than Kida, Luke, and Leia

Is usually dragged into elaborate pranks by the Skytwin Terrors and Ezra Bridger, but everyone knows Rohan is not the mastermind

Force-sensitive and in training to become a Jedi; his master is none other than Jedi Knight Ahsoka Tano

Essentially adopted by Ahsoka, Anakin, Plo Koon, and Shaak Ti, all of whom would absolutely eviscerate anyone who made Rohan feel less or worse for being half-clone

Takes after his mother - tiny (5’2”!!), gentle, but deceptively lethal

Inherited his father’s short attention span, and hates lessons that are purely lecture or reading based because of this 

He needs mental stimulation in order to focus but loves any lessons on Jedi-Sith conflicts

A terrible liar, also like his dad

Padmé gives him his clone name, handing down her nickname from her time as Queen to the next generation 

Their parents’ older siblings, whether they are blood-related or not, gave the kids their clone names

Wants everyone to be happy

Is an artist, like uncles Tup and Hardcase (yes, both of whom survive their respective arcs)

Once gave Ahsoka a drawing of the two of them as Master and Padawan before his apprenticeship began and he was like, five years old 

Ahsoka had to take a moment to compose herself because he’s just so Good

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faking it's finale is so garbage its unreal...

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TALK ABOUT SURPRISES

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fast facts;

fact #1; suna actually RUNS a meme account, not that he’d tell his friends that. osamu follows suna’s meme accounts and often sends him the links to the memes suna’s meme account posts because he thinks suna will enjoy them, but little does he know...

fact #2; komori doesn’t drink when he knows suna and washio are going to be involved. he knows how dumb those two are and how they make dumb decisions, so komori is there to soothe things over if it ever gets to be too much for anyone else in the presence of the middle blockers.

fact #3; kita is osamu’s rice supplier, they’re partners, y’know. osamu helps kita promote by using the rice in his onigiri, as well as selling it to help kita gain more recognition for his rice, bc damn y’all. kita’s an excellent rice farmer.

fact #4; whenever suna and washio play drunk truth or dare, it usually just ends in a competition to see who can make up the worst dare. komori usually spoils their fun by taking the alcohol away.

✨) summary; l/n y/n is a single mother living with her 5 year old son in sendai. suna rintarō is a professional volleyball player, the middle blocker for the ejp raijin. the msby black jackals vs the schweiden adlers is a game between two of japan’s v league division 1 teams that bring together many old rivals. y/n is dragged to the game by her cousin, tsukishima kei, claiming she needed to get out and do more than just work and take care of her child. reluctantly, she goes along with the usually salty blond — leaving her 5 year old with a babysitter — to watch the game between two of tsukishima’s ex-teammates. suna makes the executive decision that he will be going to the game to support his former teammate and setter, miya atsumu, with komori asking if he could accompany the middle blocker so he could support his cousin, suna readily agrees and they also invite washio to go with them, knowing he’d want to see bokuto as well. a chance encounter at the game of old reunions brings together two old friends and feelings start to re-emerge. follow y/n and suna as they get to know each other again, fend off any unwanted attention, and work through parenthood in “talk about surprises!”

a/n; hey all! thanks for waiting for this fic! i’ll be updating every monday, so keep an eye out for those updates! i knew i wanted to get to writing this fic bc bro, i have so many ideas for this fic it’s UNREAL- yall i’m so excited to write this smau?? like- idk, something abt it just makes me soft and like dksndksnfk anyways- happy birthday, suna rintarō! i love you so much g o d. 🥳🎉🤍✨

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[yukiobeyme]

Would you be willing to do one of the NSFW alphabet headcannons for Beel? I just read your Levi one and it was good 💓

NSFW under the cut! Thank you for the request <3

Beelzebub NSFW Alphabet

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Didn’t really know what aftercare was, just figured it was staying together and sleeping. You end up bringing up your needs or the idea of aftercare. Beelzebub then makes sure to keep extra snacks and drink for you; he even goes as far as finding the electrolyte drinks to make sure you stay hydrated.

He also adores giving you soft kisses on your back and shoulders, holding you close to him.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

He loves his hands, Beelzebub is huge for a demon but compared to a human, even of average or above-average size, he is massive. He absolutely marvels at the sheer difference between the sizes.

He loves your mouth; he loves how your mouth makes him feel. But he also loves your hands and how small they are compared to his dick. He honestly overall loves everything about you, especially when it’s on him.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

The first time you swallowed his cum, he was beyond shocked and turned on again. He let out a groan when he felt his dick twitch interested in the scene that was in front of him. If he ever comes on your chest you should expect him to finger feed you his cum until you are clean.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self-explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

It’s not necessarily dirty but it’s probably one of the secrets he has kept from you. He likes how much bigger he is than you, he also knows the pure power he has over you as someone so much bigger as you and as a demon. But it’s something inside him snaps when you take charge and control. Something about seeing you smaller and weaker body on top of him, he is completely submissive and is practically putty in your hands.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

Is surprisingly experienced? He is by no means easy but promises of breakfast in the morning definitely motivates him to give his best performance. But it’s only a handful of partners but treats every time as his first time. Not necessarily in a clumsy/awkward way but more in the sense of teasing and casually touching you, making sure you are doing okay before he completely devours you.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

Missionary, he is a simple demon and he loves the closeness of it. Sure he is down for you to top him or even occasionally take you from behind, but something about watching you fall apart under him drives him wild.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

Can be pretty goofy, sex is weird and awkward sometimes. And sometimes weird noises are made and he constantly reassuring you that it’s all good. But he also just loves your laugh and smile and bringing them behind closed doors and to an intimate moment just drives him wild. Very rarely is it super serious, those are reserved for times when you need to be reminded of how loved and precious you are.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

The carpets do match the drapes, he is naturally not very hairy but he is well-groomed, something about his wrestling outfit. Out of season, it’s a toss-up, It is either well-groomed for a bit but he’ll let it grow for a while, getting annoyed at the length and then the cycle starts all over again.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

Is more on the romantic aspect, there is always a date or something beforehand. He tries to woo and seduce you every time. Makes sure to worship you and praise your body. You would be covered with his kisses and love before being wrapped tightly in his arms.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

Doesn’t jack off often, after meeting you, he would have more urges for sure. But Beel used to having food turning him on, so for you to turn him on he was equal parts confused and curious. After getting in a relationship he rather just message you he is hungry for you rather than food and forgoes jacking off alone.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

Food Kink

It was your idea to bring food to the equation and Beel was more than eager to participate. Whip cream and strawberries are his favorites but there something about licking chocolate off you is amazing too. Likes to be one that gets to eat but will occasionally be allowed to be eaten off of.

Size Kink

It’s just something about how much bigger his is than you. How he can corner you and just tower over you. Your hand is so tiny in his and it drives him up the wall. While he isn’t into power play, he thinks his size kink influences his thoughts about how you could easily break when he towers over you. He also enjoys how much he can touch of you at once.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

Your room, he doesn’t want to risk having Belphie ruining the moment. Though your room isn’t much safer. Occasionally the shower/bath and there was even a wild incident in a random closet at RAD.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

You. Purely seeing you and seeing you react to him and how he moves. Its intoxicating and makes him hungry in other ways. He is being honest when he wants to devour you. Teasing is always a good thing to get him going especially when you try to eat the most sexual foods innocently. Praising and moaning over the taste, he tells you he is the only one that can make you sound like that.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Anything that can be considered dangerous and isn’t into BDSM. He just won’t do it, anything he is iffy on takes a lot of time and communication before he would consider it.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

Giving all the way, he takes eating you out to a whole other level. You know that recent video of the Hawaiian Papaya eating contest? That’s how he eats you out, he constantly going down only coming up when he needs air before diving start back in with enthusiasm.  

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

Slow and sensual all the way. Very rarely is he fast and rough, only times when he thinks he was going to lost you or if you spent the whole day working him up. He rarely desperate enough to want it fast and rough, He thoroughly enjoys slowly take you apart. Starting with kissing all over you, ignoring your sensitive areas. Before he finds his way to your thighs, where he will nip and bit. Your hands will be threaded in his hair and voice hoarse with pleading with him to touch you before he finally gives in.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

Doesn’t haven’t often, he just doesn’t like being quick with you. He wants to take you apart piece by piece. He doesn’t want you leaving him without feeling worn out but most important he doesn’t want left to feel unloved.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

With you he is willing to experiment, it makes it more fun. He is never too serious so any idea you have he won't shoot down and is willing to figuring it how to make it come true.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

He can go 3-4 rounds; he considers rounds the amount of time you get off. He usually cums twice maybe a third time depending on the day. The first round is always focused on you feeling good without penetration, then focused on both of you with penetration, and the third is working you through another orgasm after you already felt spent. If you are up for another round, it a very slow and sinful round. Beel lasts way too long for your liking if that is even possible but he somehow manages his lust and desire perfectly.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

Isn’t the biggest fan of using toys, unless if you express you would like to use toys, he wouldn’t even think about it. Doesn’t own any toys. Though he was a fan when you suggested edible lingerie

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Is very unfair and what makes it so unfair is he doesn’t mean to be. He just enjoys making you feel good and you spend all day worshipping your body. He loves all the noises you make, and it only encourages him, the amount of times you have been close to tears due to his teasing is unreal. You learned that tugging at his hair can usually get him to move on from the teasing but some days it seems like he wants to tease and work you up.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

Isn’t very loud, he likes to only make noise when he is beside your ear. So you know exactly what noises you pull from him. Whenever he is receiving pleasure it isn’t a surprise to see him biting his lip or have a hand over his mouth to try and quiet himself.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

It took a long time before you were able to talk Beel into letting you wear a gag ball. He just hates not being able to hear you or communicate with you. But then again there was something seeing your mouth stretched around a red ball, like a roast pig, that sparked a fire instead of him. The sex was rough and desperate, as you had drool at the corner of your mouths and tears threaten to leak from your eyes.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

Is HUNG, like damn. Like to the point, it is intimidating that first time you see it, but if you were to be split open… what a way to go. He knows he is huge too and makes sure to always be gentle and never pushes you or your body. The first time you saw it, or rather an outline was during a wrestling match and you were distracted and concern.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

Is average for a demon, maybe a tad below average. But he would never turn down sex with you, especially because of the soft and intimate moments with you in the afterglow.

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

He isn’t going to sleep until he eats to restore his stamina and most times it’s a food coma that will knock him out after sex. But he always brings you water and some food too, encouraging you to at least eat something before he will pull you onto his chest.

[stitchkiss]

College!Adam Headcanon

This is kinda old but i thought i’d post it anyways! Declan and Adam at college!!!

adam gets accepted to the ivy league college of his dreams

but, to ronan’s horror, its the same university declan attends

declan likes adam and he approves of his relationship to his brother, so he takes adam under his wing

ronan thinks declan just wants to corrupt adam with boring political shit and a never ending supply of conversational hors d'oeuvres

they drive to d.c. together

they drive home together on the sundays adam doesn’t have work or an assignment due

ronan is a bit jealous of how much time they spend together

but then adam comes home and they spend an entire afternoon doing rather unholy things for a sunday and his jealousy is forgotten

(ronan doesnt know he’s the topic of their discussions a majority of the time)

adam and declan also share a study group

the members are friends declan made (shocker!) in his first year

they think declan’s pleasant and kind, but sometimes a tad boring for a twenty year old

there are moments his friends see The Real Declan, but they find it’s best to enjoy the part of himself he’s giving them

he’s also suspiciously private

so when he introduces them to adam parrish, a mysterious freshman with stellar work ethic, they start to see a little more into declan’s world.

they’re apprehensive of adam in the beginning

he’s younger than them first of all

and he’s nearly as private as declan is

but when he allows bits and pieces of himself to be known, it seems… fake. unreal.

he uses tarot cards regularly

they’re accurate enough to end up causing someones midlife crisis at the tender age of 19.

he says offhandedly that he’s a magician, but not that kind like there’s any other kind

he’s freakishly great with plants and animals

one guy in their group swears the plant adam sits by in the study room seems to stand straighter when he’s around

another claims she saw a herd of random cats crowding around adam on campus and he simply told them to please go away i have places to be

and they just. left. ???

he also somehow managed to get into sophomore and junior classes that aren’t offered to freshman

adam parrish is a mystifying creature and it scares them.

declan listens to these complaints and rolls his eyes

this raises some eyebrows

“adam parrish is the smartest little shit i’ve ever met. befriending him will get you farther than you think”

thats how the study group finds out adam and declan went to the same prestigious academy and thats how they know each other

things go smoother after that

they find out where declan fucks off to every weekend and sometimes takes adam too

this is also how they find out about adams boyfriend

they do not find out he’s related to declan

(adam and declan want to keep ronan on the DL for safety reasons, and declan had never mentioned the names of his brothers anyways so it wouldn’t matter, right?)

anyways they come back from cow shit valley, virginia and the group gets together for a pre-midterm week schedule organization session before everything gets messy

they’re ivy league, what’d you expect?

they chatter about their weekend as they jot down times and finals and the most opportune part of their day to grab a coffee

then someone complains they won’t have any time to spend with their girlfriend for two weeks

thus generating an uproar of a little over a half dozen young adults dejected over loss time with their significant others

there’s comfort and pouts and cute couple stories

declan realizes he’s the only single one, which, fuck.

he’s proud his friends have such happy romantic lives, but if he has to endure another second listening to hallmark grade romance stories, he’s going to throw up.

then:

“adam, what about you? you gonna survive not seeing your mans ass for two weeks?”

adam blushes and rightfully so, but declan makes a face

“we spent the whole weekend together because i knew i wouldn’t get the chance to see or talk to him for a while. it’s not that big a deal, we’ve been apart longer”

the sappiness of adams voice would be endearing if it weren’t declan’s b r o t h e r he was talking about

ronan lynch and endearment were two emotions on opposite sides of a fucked up love spectrum

adams love spectrum was a goddamn puzzle

“oooo. did adam get some this weekend???”

declan blanched as others around the table howled and catcalled and raised suggestive eyebrows

this...this was not a conversation he wanted to be apart of

at all.

adams eyes flickered over to declan as he laughed the comment off

he decided to tread lightly over the brother to the snake’s territory

“we’re not just a physical couple. there’s a lot of love and worship between us”

“aWwWw LiKe WhAt??”

“he's very thoughtful. he, uh, makes me hand cream because he knows how much i work with them—“

“he has a HAND KINK adam you can’t ignore this!!!!”

declan tries to ignore this greatly.

adam stayed respectfully quiet, though more to the fact that ronan did actually have a hand kink but he wasn’t about to expose his boyfriend

besides, that information was adams to know and adams use to his advantage when need be

declan was glaring intently at the planner in front of him

adam didn’t even think he was breathing!!!

“are you a top or a bottom” someone winked

declan dropped his head into his heads heavily

“can we please stop talking about this?” came muffled from his position

“don’t be homophobic, declan! we always talk about the saucy details, and now youre all uncomfortable because it’s guy on guy?”

adam willed himself to die on the spot, but even his magician powers could not grant him instant death to escape violent embarrassment

declan straight g a g g e d because that was worded ever so eloquently

“i don’t want to talk about the saucy details of parrish’s sex life because he’s dating my brother.”

[kpop-ruined-my-social-life]

Hongjoong NS*F Alphabet

Gonna put this under the cut cause I know some of yall wanna get to some other writings or something + these can get super long with all the gaps

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Hongjoong is a sweetheart, but he is also a busy boy, I expect baths on the morning after but def some slight wiping down with a wet rag or something to clean you both up a bit, will make sure you both drink water and he’ll just give you all the kisses ever 

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

He really likes his smile and his lips, literally just the smallest thought of you makes him smile so wide it’s unreal, when it comes to his lips he just likes to use them on you, like I said before he’ll give you all the kisses in the world. On you he loves your hands, wants them all over him, scratching and pulling at him all the time. Also in a none smut way he just wants you to hold him and hold his hands too

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

Pretty clean, most of the time he cums in a condom or in your mouth, he is like okay doing it inside you but it really just isn’t his favorite. Likes releasing on your chest sometimes but only on ‘special’ occasions

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Honestly has a slight pet play and master kink, wants to have you call him master or sir and even though he knows you don’t have a problem with it he still is anxious to ask you about the pet play thing. Nothing extreme but like just a choker with a bell and calling you his kitten or something ya know? (Sometimes if you ever sarcastically say like ‘yes sir’ and roll your eyes or something he is sooooooo into it it legit takes all of his power not to put you over his knee and spank you right there)

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

Honestly I don’t see him as having any experience, maybe a little bit but def not more than one partner. Super good at foreplay but when it comes to sex the first few times you’ll have to tell him what feels good and what doesn’t because hes still a bit scared if he is hurting you or not

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

He loves positions where you can grab at him, so facing him or you on top, legit just anything where your hands can reach even if its like you’re on your hands and knees as long as you can reach back and touch him hes okay

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

Anytime you guys try out something new or just newer there is always a laugh, one time he wanted to try temp play with ice and he was about to go down on you and he dragged it down your tummy and you started laughing saying it was weird and it tickled and he just went all heart eyes and laughed so hard before going down on you like his life depended on it

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

Clean, short, almost bald. Doesn’t like it long and wild he just prefers to have it trimmed, doesn’t like it bald cause he just thinks it looks weird. If you ask him to keep it a bit longer or even a bit shorter he’ll do it as long as it is still uniform and clean looking

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

I already said he is one goofy boy, but when I say a true romantic I’m talking roses, baths, music, candles, the works like this boy is like “you’re stressed I can handle that” and he’ll get out massage oil and once you start moaning that’s when he gets going

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

Doesn’t do it a lot but he def doesn’t not do it ya know? Like 2-3 times a week but most times just 2 and that is only if he can get alone for enough time

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

I said earlier he wants to try pet play and has a master kink, def has a power and corruption kink. Likes roleplay, spanking, super super light bondage, maybe a blindfold?, temp play was a hit when you tried it, sort of likes food play but only sometimes, etc. 

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

Anywhere except like large practice rooms and dressing rooms, he is okay with the studio, bathrooms, closets, etc. In your house he loves the bed, the couch, the kitchen counter, etc.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

Just touch him. Doesn’t matter how just do it. He wants your hands all over him and even the slightest touch gets him soooo hard like oh my god if you really wanna mess with him then lightly trail your fingers over his neck so it tickles slightly and then go down his chest until you’re about to reach his waistband and then just stop

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Does not like brattiness, I know I said he has a master kink but like he doesn’t like it to the point one of you is being just pure rude or something. DEGRADATION IS A NO GO this boy is someone who never wants to hurt your feelings even in the slightest way or as a joke, even if it turns you on he just feels wrong doing it

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

Loves giving and receiving a like, waking him up with a blowjob or you waking up with his head between your thighs is not something unusual or only occasional, it happens maybe once a week or more.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

He is all over the place, it changes mid round most of the time unless you guys are in like a super short schedule or like a love making session ya know?

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

Doesn’t mind them but if he can take his time with you he would prefer it. Occasional quickies happen in the studio or just to relieve some stress quick, I’d say at least like 3 a month?

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

Nothing that would hurt either of you extremely or emotionally, like I pointed out previously he is down for spanking he loves that shit but degradation is a no go for this man. Also doesn’t really like the risk of getting caught, although he is okay with semi public he doesn’t like knowing that people can hear you and will most likely catch on

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

Depends on the day honestly, if he is super tired he just wants maybe foreplay or just one round, at most he can go for like three rounds and maybe just maybe a round of foreplay but that doesn’t happen often

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

Likes light bondage but that is really it, doesn’t care for other toys, maybe a vib and maybe a dildo if it is only used when he is gone (def got one of those like “mold a dick” things and made one of his own for you lolol)

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Doesn’t tease much, if he was gonna take the time to tease you he could just fuck you so why not fuck you instead

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

Tries to hold back as much as he can but noises do slip out, moaning groaning whining whimpering it all happens but when he tries to hold them back you get whimpers that are more hums and heavy breathing. When he cums tho its like gasp and then a whine and maybe a moan

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

When I say pet play I think he also wants to sub as like your “puppy” or something, lowkey likes the feeling of being owned but doesn’t ever want to make you feel that way unless you’re like super into it

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

Like smaller than average but also gives me the vibe that he is average, def not super big. I see him as like 5-5.8in doesn’t really make it to 6in all the way, pretty good width though

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

Pretty medium sex drive, when he is super stressed his sex drive is high high high but honestly sometimes his tiredness gets so bad that he legit wont want to at all unless he can fully savor it

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

Falls asleep pretty fast but only once one of you have finished aftercare, sometimes if he is super tired please tell the baby it is fine if he goes ahead to sleep cause if not he will make sure to go through the whole set of aftercare for you

[fratresdei]

Spirituality Defined

Where did our working definition of spirituality come from? How has it evolved over centuries of research, ritual and belief? Philosophy grad Brayte Singletary stopped by the blog this week to take us on deep dive into the ever-elusive meaning of spirituality. Enjoy!

What even is spirituality? Rachel asks that very question in one of this blog’s first posts, and gives her answer there too. It’s one of the fundamental questions of spiritual direction. Those seeking or giving spiritual direction are liable to stumble on it sooner or later, through education or reflection. This post is one of those trips—and since it’s a bone we may need help chewing, I attempt to shine some Sirius-light on the best research I could dig up. Hopefully it’s illuminating.

In 2016 some researchers in Germany and the U.S. published the results of a formal investigation into the meaning of spirituality [A]. They based their investigation on a 2011 survey of Germans and Americans that asked, among other questions, “How would you define the term ‘spirituality’?” Approximately eighteen hundred different definitions came back, about forty percent German and sixty percent American. Quantifying these samples, the researchers started running statistical analysis.

First they looked for categories of response, grouping similar categories together and narrowing the list down to just those that make the most sense of overall response patterns [B]. They found that ten basically distinct concept clusters [C] come under the heading of spirituality, almost always in some combination [D]:

A keenly-felt connection to and harmony with nature, humanity, the world, the universe, or the whole of reality.

Dependence on, relationship to, or union with the divine; a part of religion, esp. Christianity.

A search for one’s higher or true inner self, meaning, purpose; knowledge of these things; attainment of peace or enlightenment, esp. in terms of a path or journey [E].

Holding and daily acting according to ethical values, especially in relation to others, one’s community, or humanity; a moral way of life [F].

Faith or belief in transmundane forces, energies, beings, a higher power, gods or God.

A noncommittal, indefinite, but intensely emotional, maybe loving sense that there is some thing(s) or being(s) higher than and beyond this world, this life, or oneself [G].

Experience and contemplation of reality and the truth, meaning, purpose, and wisdom, esp. if considered beyond scientific or rational understanding, inexplicable and indemonstrable.

Awareness of and attunement to another, immaterial or supernatural realm and its denizens (spirits, angels, ghosts, etc.); feeling their presence; using special techniques to perceive and interact with them (tarot, crystals, seances, etc.).

Opposite religion, dogma, rules, traditions; unstructured, irreverent, religious individualism.

Individual or private religious practice; prayer, worship, or meditation; relationship-deepening or connection-fostering personal rituals and devotional acts. 

Doing the same grouping and narrowing to unearth anything deeper, they found that all of these ten clusters fall somewhere on three scales, which they call the dimensions of spirituality [H]:

I. Vertical vs. horizontal general terminology for transcendence [I]

II. Theistic vs. non-theistic specific terminology for transcendence

III. Individual vs. institutional mediation of transcendence

Finally they found that this analysis confirms their larger research team’s theoretically-grounded hypothesis that the root definition of spirituality is:

Individually-mediated, experience-directed religion, esp. among religious nones [J]: i.e., religion oriented away from mediation through institutions, dependence on organizational structures and absolute authority claims, toward the immediacy of firsthand experience, emancipatory independence and value relative to the individual [K].

All this verbiage cries out for explanation. But for the moment let’s step back to marvel at our good luck in having research like this. Its conclusions about the meaning of spirituality—at least the ten concept clusters and three scales—came through something nearer experimentation in a laboratory than reflection in an armchair. In philosophical jargon, this argus-eyed approach was a posteriori rather than a priori; in anthropological jargon, emic rather than etic. As a result, we better see wrinkles in the meaning of spirituality, including internal inconsistencies that a cyclopic definitional scheme might smooth over, e.g., as a part of religion (2) and as opposite it (10).

For starters then, we see that this definition of spirituality is tripartite: “individually-mediated”, “experience-directed”, and “religion”. Since spirituality here is a kind of religion, religion is the core concept, so we’ll take it from there. That will lead to the three scales of spirituality, ‘vertical vs. horizontal terminology’ (I), ‘theistic vs. non-theistic terminology’ (II), and ‘individual vs. institutional mediation’ (III). “Individually-mediated” will come along with the third. That leaves only “experience-directed” and closing remarks. Now where did I put my patience for dry exposition…?

If none of it jibes with your own sense of spirituality, all the better! We all have much to learn, and outliers—you whose lives are led under stones yet unturned by science—have much to teach us.

First “religion”: For these researchers religion is any socially constructed system of symbols and rituals that interprets transcendent experience in ultimate terms [L]. This applies even to people who don’t consider themselves religious, including those who would self-describe as “spiritual but not religious”. But precisely what do transcendent experience and ultimate mean here? Transcendent experience—or simply ‘transcendence’—is any experience of “distance and departure from [the] everyday”, above and beyond the boundaries of ordinary experience [M]. More than just extraordinary, it exceeds our expectations of life and the world as we know it, e.g., by excelling in its class or defying classification (almost) altogether: the weirder and more wonderful, the more transcendent. So transcendent experience is often what we would traditionally call ‘religious experience’, but they make the distinction that it only counts as religious if on interpretation it’s cast in ultimate terms. Turning to “ultimate” then, here this is really elliptical for ‘of ultimate concern or importance to a person’. The ultimate is what “gives depth, direction and unity to all other concerns”, as theologian Paul Tillich puts it, from whom they draw the idea—e.g., our answers to basic questions about the world and our place in it [N]. Bringing these ideas together, a merely transcendent experience becomes genuinely religious when we see in it something all-important to us, and it becomes full-fledged religion when we build around it a symbolic-ritualistic framework of beliefs and practices. One’s framework needn’t be grand or widely-shared: it might be a slim private affair, like a single-person tent that’s as easy to pitch as to pack up and carry. Likewise a person can bring to transcendent experience a religious interpretive lens, or craft one afterwards just to come to terms with it. Either priority fits.

Before we move on to the next concept, let’s clear up some potentially misleading language in this definition of religion. To start, “socially constructed” here doesn’t necessarily mean ‘made up’, ‘fake’, or otherwise unreal. It just means that if nobody thought or talked about religion, there wouldn’t be any: its existence depends on its exercise. Likewise the claim that it “interprets” transcendent experience doesn't imply that it therefore misinterprets it. Indeed the opposite may well be true. Even elementary sense perception needs interpretation to become understanding: naked experience unclothed by categories or classifications is at best a muddle—e.g., in rounding an unfamiliar corner in the city or in coming out without warning on an open expanse in the country, when the sudden change of scenery produces a visual experience of undifferentiated shape and color, it’s all just optical nonsense until reason and intellect, as it were, catch up, and organize this sense data into a coherent picture: only then when interpretation goes to work does one finally know what she’s looking at. Although we may at times be apt to make meaning where there is none, often enough we find it right where it belongs. So this definition doesn’t debunk religion; it merely says that, assuming it has this experiential basis, it’s imbued with the meaning we give it, veracious or fallacious.

The terminology of our interpretation, i.e., our way of using terms for and ideas about the ultimate, admits of a couple distinctions. These are also the first and second scales of spirituality above (I-II): vertical-horizontal, and within that, theistic and non-theistic [O]. The former measures the metaphysical distance transcendent experience crosses. The latter measures the unity and personality and sometimes also the clarity of the religious object. Vertical terminology characteristically evokes what we would traditionally call the transcendent, e.g., God and heaven—generally, the otherworldly. It aims at things other than and over this world and oneself in it. Horizontal terminology tends the other way, toward the traditionally immanent, e.g., nature and humanity. Leaning this-worldly, it aims at things in and of the world and the world itself. Notably, whereas the vertical is often explicitly religious, the horizontal’s religiosity can even escape the notice of the person professing it [P]. Within this distinction is that between theistic and non-theistic terminology. The apparent presence of God, gods, and god-like beings or forces maps an important area of vertically transcendent experience, as their apparent absence does an antipodean area of horizontally transcendent experience. But this also sheds light on terminology between vertical and horizontal. This family of views sees the ultimate as in neither our world nor a world beyond, but rather in “a world behind”, i.e., behind and beneath the world’s surface appearances [Q]. Typically this is non-theistic, e.g., about ghosts, spirits, energies, or forces.

A gloss of the third scale (III) now moves into view, and with it “individually-mediated”: Individual-institutional mediation of transcendence measures the directness or indirectness of a person’s access to transcendent experience, i.e., the extent and power of the gatekeepers standing in her way. As these researchers put it, “Institutionalized mediation says that ... there is no other way to transcendence than through the church, sacraments, and priests; that there is no other truth than the sanctioned teachings; and that the ultimate concern is determined by the institution and its tradition” [R]. By contrast, and often in vociferous reply, individual-mediation says, “there is no or very little mediation of transcendence, but rather the experiential immediacy of the individual; there are no claims of absoluteness, but the individualistic evidence of experience; there is no or very little organization or structure" [S]. In this way, against so-called organized religion’s usual mediation by institutions, esp. hierarchical structures operating them, spirituality favors an unpatrolled, gates-wide-open setup. Yet it doesn’t follow from such independence that spirituality is therefore a lonely pursuit—though “flight of the alone to the Alone”, i.e., hermetic mysticism, is surely right at home here too [T]. We’re able to have experiences with others, just not for them, so it can be equally possible to pursue direct experience of transcendence with others as by oneself.

Lastly, “experience-directed”: This means that, whereas transcendent experience might play no ongoing role in a religion’s usual exercise, e.g., as none other than an oft-remembered historical event, in spirituality it takes the lead. Ritual, symbol, etc., become at best aids to pursuit of transcendence, but at worst impediments. Therefore spirituality in its purest, i.e., barest, form may focus on such experience exclusively; and since “directed” here means both ‘directed to’ and ‘directed by’, the religious ideal may resemble an upward spiral of being led from transcendence to transcendence by transcendence. Still this isn’t to say that spirituality takes direction from nothing else, or that by focusing on transcendence even exclusively, the rest of familiar religion vanishes. A spiritual purist may disavow religious side projects in pursuit of her wonted mode of transcendence, or she may simply subordinate them to it as various means to this end. Yet while she might style herself as therefore unencumbered in her pursuit of raw experience, her religious interpretive lens remains ever-present, however unwittingly. It must, or else her chase after the spiritual would be of the wild-goose variety. E.g., someone undergoing a crisis of faith might discover to her horror that she’s no longer able to participate in her favorite religious exercises, since the vinegar of doubt now spoils every well from which she used to draw joy. Since her experiences can’t mean what they used to, they can’t be what they used to either.

Let’s sum up with a little illustration. Consider this spiritual foil: one an atheistic nature lover, the other a Catholic anchoress. The former’s approach is thoroughly horizontal and non-theistic. She takes regular hikes to feast on natural beauty and sublimity, but deems it all mere serendipity in a chaotic cosmos. She’s a proficient adventurer, as comfortable with friends as without. She might not spurn a Beatrice to guide her through some earthly paradise, but her trust would be that when she came face to facelessness with wild abundance, her delight would need no shepherd. The abundance itself would call out of her everything necessary for its appreciation. In this way she mediates her own pursuit of these experiences. Their ultimacy for her comes not only from her denial of the otherworldly, but also from her judgment that nature is intrinsically, i.e., ultimately, good—or at least, that immersion in it stirs and sustains her is. Conversely, the latter’s approach is thoroughly theistic and vertical, and manifestly ultimate. She spends her life in solitary prayer. Sometimes during contemplation of the divine she has ecstatic visions or auditions. But whatever happens, her daily goal is total abandonment to God. Still even with the individuality of her self-mediating lifestyle, it retains considerable institutionality. She holds fast to piety towards the Church, its orthodoxy and orthopraxy. Yet despite this rigid adherence to ecclesiastical authority—or, she would say, because of it—, she lives as a recluse whose sole aim is attaining union with Him Whom she worships as Transcendence Itself. Both in their disparate ways are individually-mediated, experience-directed religion.

Here we are then! We’ve gained at long last the real meaning of spirituality, right? Well, maybe: We have to trust not only that German and American ideas of spirituality are the same as everybody else’s, but also that the notions of these particular people are the same as those of other Germans and Americans [U]. Moreover we must take for granted that what they put in Tweet-sized writing when a survey bluntly asked them their opinion is the same as what they think all the time, even when they’re not thinking about what they think [V]. Still science has yet to master the art of mind-reading. So even if this isn’t the definitive definition of ‘spirituality’, it’s got my money for our best guess yet.

In Rachel’s post, she’s wise to the width of variety, saying, “Spirituality has been defined and redefined throughout human history, and it is now my intention to shout yet another definition to the abyss.” For her, its definition is: “the practice of deriving any amount of meaning from any event, thought, or activity.” Looking back at the ten concept clusters above, this bears striking resemblance to parts of (3) and (7). She’s in good company. Clinicians and care professionals typically promote this conception: e.g., psychological measures of wellbeing that account for spirituality usually cast it in these terms, viz., purpose and meaning. Though some have wondered whether this confuses spirituality with a part of mental health, the findings above resoundingly vindicate it as an important part of the spiritual puzzle [W]. If they also solve that puzzle, hopefully they do so more in the spirit of Ariadne’s clue out of the Labyrinth than Alexander’s sword through the Knot. At the very least, such research is a waypoint on the path to understanding. If none of it jibes with your own sense of spirituality, all the better! We all have much to learn, and outliers—you whose lives are led under stones yet unturned by science—have much to teach us. So it’s still worth asking:

What does spirituality mean to you? Please share your definition in the comments.

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Endnotes:

A. Eisenmann, Clemens, et al. “Dimensions of “Spirituality”: The Semantics of Subjective Definitions.” Semantics and Psychology of Spirituality: A Cross-Cultural Analysis, ed. by Heinz Streib & Ralph Wood, Jr., Springer, 2016, p. 125.

B. Op. cit., pp.129-35. Before grouping and narrowing them together and down, these were the forty-four recurring categories they found:

Faith and belief, believing, belief system

Connectedness, relationship, in touch with, harmony

Individual, personal, private, subjective

Everyday, daily life, way of life, to act

Values, (higher) order, morals, karma

God (also the Father, Lord, Creator, the Divine)

Unspecified transcendent: something bigger, beyond, greater; “may be”

Feeling, emotion, intuition, empathy, heart, love

Within, self, higher Self, inner core, essence

Seeking, path, journey, reaching, to evolve, to achieve

Awareness, consciousness, sense of, feeling a presence, in tune

Supernatural, non-material, cannot see or touch

Transcendental higher power/forces/energy

Thinking about, to understand, to reflect, contemplation

Relation to the world, nature, environment, universe

Cannot be explained or scientifically proven, beyond understanding

Higher/beyond/greater/other than oneself/humans/this life

Relation to others, community, all humanity, humankind

Experience, sensory perception Spirit and mind

Rest (i.e., the remainder of uncategorized responses)

Practices, to practice (one’s faith), music, prayer, worship, meditation

(Inner) peace, enlightenment and other attitudes and states of being

Guided, destined, controlled, saved, healed, dependent

Part of religion, Christian, biblical

All-connectedness, part of something bigger

Meaning and (higher) purpose, questions and answers

Transcendental absolute, “unity of existence,” omnipresent and indiscriminate, the one

Otherworldly, beyond this world, “spiritual” realms Acknowledge, to recognize, to accept, to realize Vague, unclear, unsure; bullshit, fantasy, hocus pocus Without rules, tradition, norms, dogma, structure, directions (21) Something else than religion, without worship

Energies, vital principle, ghosts, angels and demons, spirits

The truth, true nature of existence, wisdom, reality (4) Jesus, Christ, Holy Spirit, the Son Greater being/person, deities, gods Soul

Universal category, basis of mankind Esoteric, occultism, spiritism, mystic, magic (39) Deal with, interest in, engagement, focus

Part and beyond religion Obedience and devotion Life after death.

C. I borrow the notion of concept clusters from passing familiarity with Ludwig Wittgenstein’s philosophy of language.

D. Op. cit., pp. 137-8. Paraphrase.

E. Whereas spirituality conceived of as a part of religion (2) fits nicely with its mostly premodern history as just that, the conception immediately following of it as a journey to one’s true inner self (3) sits well with modern social movements toward individualism and subjectivism: op. cit., p. 146.

F. Spirituality conceived of as living out one’s values may partly underlie the self-identification “spiritual but not religious”. Here ’spirituality’ primarily indicates an ethical concern that being merely ‘religious’ doesn’t—not just talking the talk but walking the walk: ibid. More clearly this identification involves some combination of clusters with (9).

G. The much-maligned vagueness of spirituality’s meaning may come from this conception of it as a sense of something indefinite and beyond: ibid. N.b., philosophers of language usually distinguish vagueness, i.e., unclear meaning due to imprecise extension over borderline cases, from ambiguity, i.e., unclear meaning due to polysemy—having multiple meanings.

H. Op. cit., p. 143. Paraphrase. Their dimensions are: (I) mystical vs. humanistic transcending; (II) theistic vs. non-theistic transcendence; and (III) individual “lived” experience vs. dogmatism.

I. I use “transcendence” and “transcendent experience” interchangeably throughout this post. Though there may be other forms of transcendence than experience, talk of ‘transcendence’ as an event and not, e.g., as a divine attribute, usually means ‘experience of transcendence’, i.e., ‘transcendent experience’.

J. Religious nones get their names from those who answer “none” to demographic polls asking their religious affiliation. In other words, they are the religiously unaffiliated. Cf. unchurched.

K. Op. cit., p. 148. Paraphrase. Their definition is privatized experience-oriented religion, following research by other members of their team: Streib, Heinz, & Wood, Jr., Ralph. “Understanding “Spirituality”—Conceputal Considerations.” Semantics and Psychology of Spirituality: A Cross-Cultural Analysis, ed. by Heinz Streib & Ralph Wood, Jr., Springer, 2016, p. 9. Ensuing fns. refer to that ch.

L. Op. cit., p. 11. Cf. Emile Durkheim’s definition of religion, popular esp. in U.S. religious studies depts.: “a unified system of beliefs and practices relative to sacred things, that is to say, things set apart and forbidden—beliefs and practices which unite into one single moral community called a Church, all those who adhere to them”: The Elementary Forms of Religious Life. trans. Carol Cosman, Oxford Univ. Press, 2001, p. 46.

M. Op. cit., p. 10.

N. Op. cit., p. 11.

O. Strictly speaking, non-theistic terminology could be either vertical or horizontal, while theistic terminology is by definition vertical. As it happens however, or at least according to this research, our thinking about spirituality typically separates out the theistic and vertical from the non-theistic and horizontal.

P. Op. cit., p. 12.

Q. Ibid.

R. Op. cit. p. 14.

S. Ibid. They also mention here sectarian middle mediation “through a prophetic and charismatic person”.

T. Famous last words of the Neoplatonic classic: Plotinus. Enneads. VI.9.11. trans. Andrew Louth, qtd. in The Origins of the Christian Mystical Tradition: From Plato to Denys, Oxford Univ. Press, 1981, p. 51.

U. Cf. WEIRD bias (Western, educated, industrialized, rich, and democratic), an ongoing problem for representative sampling: Henrich, Joseph, Heine, Steven J., & Norenzayan, Ara. “The weirdest people in the world?” Behavioral and Brain Sciences, 33, 2-3, 2010, 61–83. In fact there were some statistically significant differences between German and American responses: American definitions of spirituality were more Christian or otherwise traditionally religious, mentioning Jesus and the Holy Spirit much more, but God only a little more—presumably because theism goes beyond Christianity. Still when they did mention God it was more often in Christian terms of a personal and sovereign lord. Likewise they mentioned faith and belief much more often, and this was more often faith or belief in something beyond, higher power(s), god(s), or God (5). Their notions of spiritual power were also further outside and over themselves, as in talk of guidance or obedience. By contrast German definitions of spirituality were warier of dogma and authority, whether religious orthodoxy or scientific consensus. They mentioned experience, as opposed to belief, more often, and were generally more esoteric, occult, and magical in their terminology, talking of the otherworldly in more universal but impersonal or abstract, terms. They were also more critical of spirituality, oftener complaining of its vagueness or even dismissing it as bovine fecal material. Still despite all this the researchers noted that American and German definitions were much, much more alike than different. These differences should therefore be understood as in emphasis, not substance. Their considerable overlap, striking in itself, forms the basis of the ten concept clusters and the three scales.

V. We must also assume that the scientific method deserves our confidence, and that the concept of spirituality, if not spirituality itself, is amenable to investigation by it. Other assumptions include those about word meaning, natural kinds, and other hot topics of debate in the philosophy of language and science—all of which would take us far afield of the present discussion. May curious readers experience transcendence of this post!

W. Eisenmann, Clemens, et al., p. 147.

[hol-whore]

GANGSTER BOYS BEING SOFT AND DOMESTIC WITN CASUAL PHYSICAL AFFECTION IS MY KINK

MOOD???? IT’S JUST. GOOD GOOD GOOD.my nail painting sesh went AWRY (we ended strong tho!!) but the whole time i was like “hmmmmmm i sure wish abba was painting my nails and then he’d let me paint his after” and yknow then they’d get chipped while he’s doin his gang biz but does he care? no, his partner can redo them anytime he likesalso like. passing each other in the kitchen while cleaning and lightly touching the others side/shoulder? g o o d. snuggling on the couch after a long day and waiting on dinner? ALSO good. hearing him hum stuff in the shower when ya pass the bathroom? just fuck me up!!!! i love domesticity so much its unreal

[moonchildhcs]

yeonpark hcs!

yo lets g o i might be in a funk but i can be productive

the most teasing boyfie alive!! hes like. 9 inches taller lmaooo u BET ur ass that whenever u wanna smooch not only does he refuse to lean down to meet you halfway he goes on his tip toes just to piss you off

and ur like “u know what? ill never kiss you ever again!” and then yeonjun goes Instant Babie Mode and goes ‘w A IT-”

yall just have that cute dynamic where yall tease each other but more often than not yeonjun has the upper hand bc. hes older. taller. part of a successful idol group. the whole shebang ! hes just got an advantage in terms of superiority in more ways than one

but at the very least,, you dont have to call him oppa owo

some common dates!!

honestly b e t yall go to mcdonalds or something at 2am for like. ice cream or fries or straight up a Feast because you dont sleep and hes always at practice so youre both still enthusiastic and fun and the workers arent fazed by yalls attitude but d a m n

you: “do you think this cookie would taste good if i dipped it in ranch”

him: “oh my god fucking bet?”

you, almost vomiting: “it tastes so good, try it”

also just driving aimlessly in general! its good content especially if neither of you can sleep because uwuwuwu you get to watch the sunrise together!

and you say something cheesy like “you shine like the sun! uwu” and this boy. this soft angel. he refuses to be outdone in cheesiness and hes like “you glow like the moon uwu” and yall are in SHAMBLES in the car like... shishters... get them uwus under control

you guys also like going to the arcade !! arcade hours ACTIVATED the competitiveness has jumped out lads

you guys almost fist fight over dance dance revolution bc. homeboy is literally an idol but he didnt even TRY to go easy and lessen the gap a lil but its okay bc ur the number one dancer and musician in his heart anyways uwu also he won you several plushies so !

on the topic of musician ! yall playing the guitar and singing a duet together? a nice soft love song that leaves yall in a soft mess of uwus ? adorable and incredibly realistic

also just. hes the Adult member of the group so sometimes he just stays over at your place and yall cuddle and now just imagine:

you wake up in the morning, your eyesight bleary as some rays of sunshine stream through the curtains. you try to get up but youre pinned down by yeonjun, fast asleep with his arms wrapped tightly around your waist. you try to inch away to get a glass of water, rubbing the sleep from your eyes, but yeonjun wraps his arms tighter

he mumbles a good morning, sleep dripping from his deep voice as you mumble a quiet good morning back, asking him if he could let go of you so you can relieve your throat, but he drags you back to him. “later. let me cuddle you.” 

and you both slowly fall asleep again in each other's embrace as the sunshine kisses your skin

that is LITERALLY so soft and so ideal and yall have mornings like that so hecking often

also !! lemme get into some pda :^)

first of all: hugs!!! he literally gives the best hugs bc he fucking towers OVER you you barely reach his shoulders !!

so he just. engulfs you !! and its so nice especially when youre feeling overwhelmed and overstimulated so he just hugs you and the world melts away and all you can sense is him

like... truly and ideal mans!! also because yall are real playful you guys do running hugs a lot !! like when he gets home early from practice you just YEET through the halls and throw yourself at him and he picks you up and twirls you around ! and hes like !! princess!!

yes indeed he calls you PRINCESS how soft is that...

anyways: kisses!!

usually yall peck each other wherever !! you tend to just. smooch his shoulder or, if you rlly put in the effort is neck or his jaw, which sends him into a fit of giggles

he loves to peck your forehead, your nose, your cheeks !! he just loves to SMOOCH bc ur small and pretty and cute and lovely

like... wowza !!

but most importantly he loves to actually KISS you !!! and usually its real soft and sweet

but sometimes,, homeboy is tired and anxious and riled up and so he just. kisses you so needily and youre like.. :o but also :^) and it quickly devolves into a nice long makeout session

he likes having you sit on his lap/straddle him during those :^) and i will end it at that

sometimes yall get into some funks and thats so valid!!! it happens to the best of us

so yall order some of your fave foods and desserts, pull up netflix and marathon your favorite movies as yall distract yourselves for the time being

and afterwards, yall put on some nice jams and just. talk about whats bothering you, what life has been like, etc! because both of you are big ol softies at heart and your feelings tend to be rather transparent and you guys cry it out, be it sadness or frustration

and it makes you guys all the more closer because youre at that level of comfort where really, you can talk about anything without feeling awkward or uncomfortable

anyways, back to some nice fluff

you steal his clothes a l l t h e t i m e and its kinda funny because hes literally nine inches taller so you are just SWIMMING in his clothes but it makes you all the more cuter

and sometimes when he wants to make you laugh he’ll steal your clothes, the ones with a nice stretch, and model them for you (with a strict no photo policy unless youre feeling down) and its the funniest thing seeing this toned, 5′11 guy wear your crop top that BARELY covers anything for him

and hes just like “just look dont touch” with the s a s s i e s t voice and youre in fucking s h a m b l e s

overall hes a really nice guy that might tease you sometimes but he loves you SO much its unreal and hes ready to be with you through good and bad

and hes down for all the adventured that youll have and he hopes--no, he knows--that he will spend the rest of his life with you :^)

[nctzenchuu-blog]

I am you, you are me

request: hello! Can I get an au with nct's Johnny where soulmates communicate/talk to each other only at night?

 Hello! Ok I hope those reading this won’t hate me since I made this into a bullet thing,,, also char is a better writer so plz don’t hate me- millie

This is CHEESY but johnny is a greasy man what can I say,,,

 a/n: btw he looks godly here

Soulmate AU!💙💙💙

Johnny/reader

·         Ok so this request straight up made me think of bf johnny like its cute ngl~

·         Your parents used to tell stories about how everyone was destined to be with someone that made them whole, and that you would know the minute you spoke with them

·         This was called “crossing” bc many people actually met their soulmates IRL

o   and when u met them it felt as if you were pulled together

o   soulmates were shown to have matching scars on their bodies

  ·         so you knew you had a soulmate because they always got hurt or did something dumb

·         one time you woke up with a giant black bruise that showed your soulmate probably,,broke their leg

·         as a teen they were more frequent so you guessed they did athletics since u didn’t play out much

·         some of your classmates would tease you because you haven’t discovered your soulmate

·         it was common to have already met them

·         so one night after studying you were a bit down worried, “ will I never meet them?”

·         you lied down onto your bed when you just started talking to yourself when you hear this D E E P voice break through the SILENCE

·         it freaks u out so bad that you knocked your head against the headboard,,,tragic

·         so youre just angrily whispering where the heck that voice came from

·         and the mysterious voice responds back with, “wait- you can hear me too?”

·         you both realize you’re not making this up so the two of you introduce yourselves

·         johhny he tells you, but you swear you’ve heard and seen that name before,,

·         since the two of you are intrigued by the fact that the two of you can communicate y’all just become friends right away

·         school, gossip, it was all comfortable talking to johnny about this stuff

o   it felt natural since he always listened and offered his input

o   there was still a thought that nagged ur brain whenever he would sleep so he couldn’t hear you think, “ could he be my soulmate?”

·         you find out johnny is a single child, in the football team,and a ladies man (though you didn’t ask him to tell you)

·         as time progresses, the more you want to learn about him besides the times when the two of you could talk at night

·         it wasn’t enough! So you thought about the voice that filled your head every night with new stories

·         during a night where johnny didn’t talk to you, it hit you at that moment that you missed him BADLY

·         like to the point you worried about him and tried to dial his number to ask if he was ok,,,,but you forgot to ask

·         at this time a truck of emotions hit u

·         worry, anguish, but love?? It never occurred to you that you felt such feelings towards johnny even though the two of you have never met??

·         Bc of that you looked into your journal where you document all the imprints that appeared on your skin since the day you could remember

·         And you find a journal entry where it said that one of the bruises was from your side when you fell down a slide and cut your elbow, and ended up with a crescent scar on it

·         So seeing that you thought back to one night convo w johnny

·         And he told you about how he had an unusual scar hohohO-guess which one

·         It was the crescent! But he said he thought he got it during football practice but you knew!!

·         He was your soulmate!

·         So at this point you’re trying to call out his name in the darkness hoping he could hear you

·         A thought comes up that maybe you should do it while looking around the city

·         A dumb,,,dumb + dangerous idea (what are u getting yourself into)

·         So downtown with just a jacket and pajamas your just calling him out in your head

·         But you KNOW hes near,, something strong was just pulling at you to search for him

·         Hours pass and it’s a busy night and you end up in front of a pond at a park

·         Its breathtaking, and it reminds you of all the things that led up to that moment

·         “ I wish u could see the moon with me, here beside me you know”

·         “ yeah wouldn’t want to miss the view”

·         But you heard his voice so clear you thought it was a fluke, it was impossible he was here!!!???

·         You turned around and there he was in all his boyish glory

·         A literal giant

·         You were holding in your breath bc you thought it was a dream

·         He was worried you weren’t responding so he was about to ask if you were ok before u SLAMMED into him, the poor LOG

·         It felt unreal, I mean he was real, him breathing, him smiling, him existing

·         It was something you would never have thought possible ??

·         You tell him everything , about the scar, your fears, you even blurted out how worried you were

·         And it didn’t cross your mind that you were clueless as to wether he reciprocated your feelings

·         Cue freaking out

·         He just smiles that goofy grin (yall know WHICH ONE)

·         “hey, didn’t it cross your mind that I fell in love since the first moment we spoke to each other?”

·         A cheesy G R E A S Y line

·         But its johnny, and u loved it regardless

·         Now that the two of you were tgt, the pull blossomed into a beautiful feeling between you two

·         Abd from that you no longer needed to only be limited to talking at night

·         Bc now fate led you to each other

·         All beneath the moonlight, and for many moons more

[straydays7-blog]

My Day6inNYC Experience!

EDIT: I typed this up in word and pasted it into Tumblr. Tumblr kinda make some things look a little weird so excuse that please.

This is super late coming but as soon as I left NYC I had to cram for a ton of exams and now that most of those are over I can take the time to talk about my experience seeing Day6 perform live and even hi-touching them;;;; This post might be a little bit all over the place, but I cant help but to feel SO MANY FEELINGS when I think about this okay. Its still so surreal I cant believe it actually happened it felt like a really good dream okay. Also, I wish my English were better to express myself here I have so many emotions I wish to express but honestly, I dont know how Id even describe these feelings in any other languages I know SO ILL TRY MY BEST WITH ENGLISH. Also, fair warning, thisll probably be really long so prepare yourself.

Okay, first things first. I arrived like 30 mins early to pick up my P2 wristband and apparently had I been a little earlier I could have seen day6 enter the Town Hall! Somehow, even though I was not the first that arrived at the venue to pick up my wristband, I did end up being first in the P2 line. And lord behold. Someone opened the backstage door. Then and there, I caught a glimpse of Sungjin, playing his guitar singing his part in the You Were Beautiful chorus. EVERYONE AROUND ME STARTED SCREAMING LOL. I was in such shock. Sungjin is so beautiful (in present tense) and has one of the best voices Ive ever heard okay. I dont think I really realized until then I was going to see Day6, like the band that inspires me to work hard every day and makes me so happy. Even though I had bought the ticket and everything that brought me to NYC, it felt surreal and then I knew it was R E A L. Theyre real and I was about to watch them perform live and even meet them afterwards like what the heck? After getting my wristband, I picked up a fanproject banner that would later be used to move day6 to tears:) These boys are so wholesome.

I went back to my hotel for a while after that because it was rainy and windy so walking around didnt sound so nice. Around 5:30 I left to get a bite to eat and then head back to the venue. Ended up getting a burger at Five Guys (and okay totally off topic from seeing Day6, but the Five Guys burger I had in NYC was so much better than any Ive had here in VA? Or maybe excitement makes stuff taste better.) I arrived at the venue at like 6:00 and the line was already pretty long! There were some My Days handing out photocards and I bought a Sungjin badge from one girl. (This experience is gonna make me sound so Sungjin biased but omg my bias is definitely Young K)

Once I was in the Town Hall I decided to buy a lightstick to cheer for the band! Id already ordered some of the other merch from the Subkulture Shop, because I was literally only traveling with one backpack and didnt want to buy more than I could fit in to take back home.

I had no idea on which side my seat would be, I only knew I would be 12 rows away from the stage. So, when I found my seat I was beyond happy to see I was on Young K and Wonpils side of the stage omg. With a really clear view of the both of them also! All the MyDays there were so sweet man, I had a great time talking with some while waiting for the concert to begin. Though I do honestly really wish that @mikulinneamew or @reading-river would have been there with me. Day6s instruments were already set on the stage and oh my goodness I fell in love with Sungjins Gibson Les Paul. Its white body with the black pickguard and golden hardware is SO BEAUTIFUL. Makes me want to go out and buy a Les Paul just like it, but going to this concert I used money I was originally saving for a new Fender P-Bass (That aint happening for a while now lol) but I am so not complaining. Sungjins Martin acoustic is also really beautiful, but I still prefer Taylors. Young Ks bass is also super pretty. Really, I was drooling over these instruments while waiting for the concert to begin.

Its two minutes before the concert was set to begin and everyone is already chanting “DAY6! DAY6! DAY6! DAY6!”. Shortly after the lights went dark and the screen behind the stage started to play a video introducing the members (And can I say I love how so many of their songs were mashed up perfectly in that video like wow Id love the audio of just that)! One by one then the members came on stage. First Dowoon, then Wonpil, followed by Young K, Jae and last but not least, leader Sungjin! While the video was finishing playing I could see Young K getting his bass tuned and ready to perform. I started tearing up here already because they were right in front of me? Unreal, but yet so real.

And then, the first song was: I WAIT! One of my favorite songs already ;; (what am I saying, all of their songs are my favorites) Such a high energy song for the first one. It was perfect to get the crowd hyped and pumped for what was to come! Then there was me crying of happiness and singing along though omg. DAY6 IS SO COOL PERFORMING. Sungjin and Jae rocking out on their guitars, Young K thumping on the Bass, Wonpil playing the Synth and Dowoon rocking the drums! I loved how connected the audience was with the band too like out of all the live performances from bands Ive seen, this one was definitely the one with the most chemistry with the audience and music! All of the “I WAIT!” chants were so nice to hear with the music aaaa. THE SONG ENDED SO FAST. All songs went by so quick really, but hey that just means youre having a great time.

The second song was: HUNT! I was NOT prepared for this song so early on in the show already. If I had to summarize this performance in two words: Younghyuns rap (I love it so much). I really love the guitar riffs in this song so I payed a lot of attention to Jae and Sungjin at first but man, as soon as it was rapping time my eyes were focused on Young K. His rapping timbre is soooOOO darn good. And hes such a good performer too when he does it. HE FEELS EVERY WORD HE SAYS. Hunt is such a good song. I loved it. So much.

After the first two songs, lights went back on for a moment and Jae hyped up the audience! Young K shook his head the first time everyone made noise at Jaes request, but the second time Jae asked us to make some noise BOY THAT WAS GOOD VOLUME MYDAYS HAVE GREAT LUNGS.

That was followed by: IM SERIOUS! This song is so fluffy and catchy Im pretty sure everyone was singing along in the “I cant stop loving you” part. I mean, how could anyone stop loving day6 theyre so wholesome and talented and KIND AND SWEET. Wow. Its SO FUN to watch Sungjin play his acoustic guitar he was smiling the whole time. Everyone was smiling during that performance EVEN DOWOON HE WAS SO CUTE. Its such a sweet song how can you not smile playing it or listening to it. During the acapella part Young K was shooting finger hearts and did an AMAZING adlib. I was m e l t i n g. Turning me into a puddle.

The next song was: MAN IN A MOVIE! I REALLY LOVE THIS SONG A LOT. Another really soft and fluffy song, but soOOO musically interesting. Day6 is one of the few groups that not only produces earcandy, but earcandy that is also thinking candy for people who enjoy music theory (a n d I d o) This is the only day6 song Ive actually written out a fingerstyle ukulele arrangement for (totally weird instrument choice, but Im working on rewriting it for guitar LOL). Im EXTREMELY fond of everyones vocals on this song. Especially Sungjins and Young Ks :)

After this song it was game and Q&A time! I cant remember if the preference game or Q&A was first so Im just going to talk about the preference game first.

Firstly though, all the members introduced themselves. They all looked so happy that it made me even happier LOL. For the preference game, all of the audience had to stand up and participate in a game with day6! It was so fun! First up the audience had to guess which one Jae like more, by either raising their left or right arm: The statue of liberty or Brooklyn bridge. The right answer was Brooklyn bridge and the majority of the audience (including me) had guessed it right! The MyDays who guessed wrong, had to take their seat again. Second was Bob (Sungjin). I guessed his wrong already! >3< The question was if he preferred playing Overwatch or Fifa. The correct answer was Fifa. Sadly, most people had guessed this one wrong. Next was Dowoon. We had to guess if he prefers skirts or jeans on girls LOL. His answer was jeans but it got too loud that I couldnt quite hear his reasoning. Then was Young K. Does he prefer sneakers or high heels? His answer was sneakers, because high heels are very uncomfortable (he said hes even tried them on before what a cutie). Wonpil had the most far fetched question in my opinion it was kinda funny! The audience had to guess if he likes Ariel or Snow White more. His answer was Snow White because he feels more sorry for her. Lastly was a question that would decide the faith of a lot of Jae stans hair LOL. Does he like long hair or short hair better on girls? His answer was short hair, because it makes them seem more confident. After all of those guesses only four lucky MyDays out of about 1500 were left standing! They got invited onto the stage and got a bag full of (signed!) tour merch gifted to them by Day6! It was so sweet and kind that the winners even received such a gift from Day6 themselves!

MOVING ON TO THE Q&A! Before they picked their questions to answer, Sungjin said “This! Is! Paradise!” and Dowoon sang the “Oh you are My Daaay” part of their song MY DAY to the NYC MyDays. Wonpil went first to pick his question. While each member would choose their question, the audience would sing the jeopardy theme song. It was hilarious. He chose the question: “Where did your interest in music come from?” Right when he was about to answer the question someone in the audience screamed “I LOVE YOU YOUNG K” but Young K shut her down so fast saying “Its Wonpil time!” Wonpil was flustered for a sec but then resumed to answer his question and said that he listened to a lot of hip hop when he was young and that got him interested. Next up was Young K! He chose the question: “What was the funniest moment in your life?”. He began to say that since Chuseok hes been eating more. And his most funny moment was before he came onto the stage. Apparently his pants didnt fit him anymore and he had to expand them a bit! The way he told this story was utterly hilarious and cute I can highly recommend finding a fancam of this moment omg. After him was Dowoon. His question was: “If you could have a superpower what would it be?” He said he wishes he could talk to animals. When he was in college he had a pet cat which he neglected and now he feels bad for that. He said if he could only communicate with one kind of animal though it would be bear LOL. Sungjin started imitating a bear after that and it was so hilarious omg he puffed himself up and was clawing at him. Next was Sungjin! He was lowkey dancing along to the jeopardy theme omg. His question was: “What is the hardest thing you have ever done?”. He said working towards Day6s debut was the hardest time in his life ;; He shouted out collapsedone who helped them a lot towards their debut and he was actually at the concert right there ;; Jae was the last one to get a question. He chose: “What inspired you to pursue music?”. He said he was getting into a bunch of Youtube musicians and thought he should try it out too. He met Wong Fu Productions Phil who also further inspired him to pursue music. And so Yellowpostitman was born. That concluded the Q&A! Day6 left the stage for a quick moment while the NYC Vlog-like video they made for the tour started playing. This time it was Wonpils cut! It showed the boys having fun at times square (someone in the audience screamed I SEE MYSELF and everyone laughed it was so funny) and Wonpil loosing his phone while dancing on the street LOL. I really love this vlog concept they had to play during intermission its so sweet of them.

Once the vlog was over they came back on stage and started to perform You Were Beautiful. THIS SONG IS SO BEAUTIFUL. Its one of the first songs of theirs I heard that got me into them ;; I was tearing up during this whole performance its such a heartfelt song and you could truly feel the emotions of the song being conveyed in their performance. They all sing it so softly yet powerfully. I really love Young Ks vocal parts in this song and his voice was so stable too (everyones was really) aaa ;;

The next song they performed was their debut song CONGRATULATIONS! Everyone in the audience had received a red sticker to cover their phone flashlight with during this song to create a red ocean. I wasnt in a good seat so see if it was a success or not but the lighting definitely seemed more red :) Everyone was singing along to EVERY BIT of this song it was fantastic. I love this song so much aaa. Young Ks rap makes me feel so many FEELINGS. This song was over way too quick I wish itd last forever.

After Congratulations Jae was saying that the last two songs are coming now and everyone was getting a LIL SAD that the night was coming to an end soon. (Jae didnt count the encore though ;D) Jae also took a moment to tell everyone that they should follow their dreams and not let anyone tell them that they cant make it. Even when it seems impossible to make it to your dreams he believes that we can make the jump and achieve them ;; Hearing those words from him made me a sobbing mess. For a few reasons I think. Even just seeing them perform live was a dream come true. Being in NYC (if even just for two days) was a dream come true. Its a city Id been dreaming of seeing someday since I was a little kid. Probably because music as a career has almost always been my dream. And NYC is one of the worlds music capitals. I used to want to become a concert pianist. Then I wanted to become a music teacher. Right now Im leaning more towards songwriting, production and playing guitar LOL. But as someone whos in the position where I need to decide what I want to do with my future relatively soon, Jaes words helped me so much.

Their next song was LETTING GO! And oh my goodness. I was not prepared for those buttery sweet harmonies in the beginning. I was thinking so much about what Jae had said before during this performance so Im a little blank on what special happened during this performance but I totally remember it being mesmerizing;;

Their last song before encore was I SMILE! The fanchants on this one were so strong! Everyone held their banner up which read “My Day6 which I thought I only met in my dreams is right in front of me”. I could see Young K tear up when he read it. It was so sweet :) I do wish that Wonpils synth had been a tiny bit louder because he has that cool solo part in it, but I could hardly hear it. But the whole performance was so overwhelmingly beautiful that I was crying.

After performing I SMILE they left the stage and everyone started chanting “DAY6! DAY6!” again. Shortly after they came back on stage and THEY PERFORMED DANCE DANCE. This song is so upbeat and happy and makes you forget all the stress so much I love it to bits. I absolutely love Jaes guitar part in this song too so I tried to focus on him until Brians rap distracted me AGAIN (rapper K is my weakness okay). The entire performance was so high energy it was perfect buildup to the next song they performed which was also their last performance for the night. FREE하게! This is my go-to song for escaping from the stress of life and simply basking in how powerful music truly is. So, hearing it live, as the encore really touched me (and I cried more). I felt so many emotions go through me during this performance. It felt like a reminder of why I love music so much, which sometimes is well needed. Its so energetic and uplifting. My highlight of this performance: …Young Ks rap (wow surprise surprise). Also Sungjins high note! And Jae jumping into the crowd and hyping us up even more! (If Jae tells you to jump, you have to jump.) This performance was a perfect end for the concert. I really didnt want it to end though.

After this performance Day6 bowed and thanked the audience. I dont know where to begin describing how I felt after that. I still had the high touch left but the main event was over. I felt (still feel and always will) so extremely blessed to have been able to experience that. Theyre such a wholesome, hardworking and admirable band. I felt such extreme happiness.

The night was nearly over, but the hi-touch was still left for those who had purchased a P2 ticket! Id never done a hi-touch before, so I didnt know what to expect. I only knew itd go by super quick. What I did NOT expect however, is to walk around a corner and BAM there standing is Young K, Mr. Brian Kang, THE KANG YOUNGHYUN, BASSIST RAPPER GODLY VOCALS FULL TIME COLLEGE STUDENT BUT ALSO FULL TIME BANDMEMBER HE WORKS SO HARD OK. It is a lot to take in when you see your ultimate bias being the first in line for the hi-touch. My first thought was how pretty his NOSE is. Like dang, boys got the finest nose Ive ever seen. My second thought was how intimidating he seemed though omg. But as soon as it was my turn for a brief second with him it seemed like he was glowing and flowers were blooming around him? Hes got the sweetest smile and eyes. Instead of high fiving him I held onto his hand for a second and all I could say was “I love you so much” I WAS IN SUCH AWE. He gave my hand a bit of a squeeze and said he loves me back. SUCH A NICE MAN IM CRYING.   Then it was already time to move on though and next was Dowoon! My mind was completely blank from Young K being first (I was hoping hed be last for this reason LOL) I also grabbed onto Dowoons hand for a moment and I mustve not said anything at first, because he was like “Thank you!” first (his Korean accent is adorable) so I said thank you back to him and he then gave a teeny bow like how polite omg. Thats all I had with Dowoon though (Wish I could have said more I wanted to tell him how cool he is!) But next was Jae. First impression: Hes so TALL. Second impression: Hes so NICE. I think Jae made it a thing to keep eye contact with his fans for as much as he could. I told him “Thank you so much Jae” because man especially his speech about following dreams hit me hard as I had mentioned before. Hes honestly the member I was most thankful for that night (Im thankful for them all though please dont misunderstand!) I would have hugged him if I could. His face is so pretty up close too, how can someone manage to look handsome but like a personification of Chicken Little at the same time? Jae can. Next was Wonpil! And I must say I was taken a back a little like “Who is this man?” HE LOOKS SO DIFFERENT IN REAL LIFE. In a good way of course! I held onto his hand for a moment and said “Thanks Wonpil” he nodded and had such a smug look on his face like omg. SUNGJIN WAS NEXT AND BOY THIS WAS MY FAVORITE ENCOUNTER. He was already like pulling his arm back to give a really hard high five so I was BRACING myself, because it looked like it might be painful omg. Hes the only member I actually high fived whoops. BUT his high five was so happy and so energetic! Yet it was aggressively soft? It was definitely a hard high five but it didnt hurt at all LOL. He was like “Ah yeah!” after that and I thanked him for the great show. Then the hi-touch was over for me. Even though I wish I could have had a little more time with them, I was so thankful to have had the experience in the first place.

IN CONCLUSION: This was the best night of my life so far. This definitely is not going to be the last time I see them live. If they come back to NA while Im still here you can count on me doing my best to get that P1 or P2 ticket. They better come to Europe someday too! For their next tour if it works out I might even try to go to more than one of their concerts. I was trying to go to the Toronto concert for this tour too, but my exam schedule wouldnt allow that. But I am so blessed that NYC happened. I will also definitely plan any trip to Asia around their concert schedule!

Tl;dr: I love day6 so much. See them live someday plz. Tell Brian I love him plz.

[sadrien]

wanna chat? pt.19

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so this is like...twice as long as a normal chapter. anyway i was in les mis the other week and i sent something and someone thought it was a les mis chapter of wanna chat. and @reyxa​ encouraged it so Here We Are

this chapter continues right off of the last one because i found a note with sick quotes on it. i kept the les mis as light and understandable as possible but just like..let me know if it makes 0 sense. i had to get this out of my system because ive been in a writing funk

(mari = cough cough, nino = space bro, alya = alys, adrien = glen coco)

enjoy? 

3:12 in boo you whore

cough cough: gmoring i cant brethe out of mynose rn Im not goin g ot be in school today :( Bu ti cant sleep anymore because I cnat breath e iim gonna go watch youtube videos

 6:37

space bro: my dude i hope youre feeling better when you wake up

6:43

glen coco: If you’re not turn on the shower really hot and sit in the bathroom with the steam

alys: or drown urself in cold medicine

glen coco: Don’t do that

space bro: never listen to alya

alys: dont listen to these traitors

PM between glen coco and cough cough

glen coco: I bet the akuma attack last night really didn’t help Don’t worry about anything today I can handle it unless it’s another akuma Just get some rest <3

10:03 in boo you whore

cough cough: Self care is chugging five cups of tea and astral projecting behind a mcdonalds to punch hawkmoth in the face

11:46

glen coco: Mari no

alys: mari yes

space bro: mari wtf

cough cough: Im dyin g

alys: tag urself im punching hm in the face

space bro: im astral projection

glen coco: Five c ups of tea

cough cough: Does that make me the mcdonalds

space bro: congrats mari

glen coco: I can’t believe Mari is the golden arches

alys has changed their name to punching hawkmoth in the face

punching hawkmoth in the face: im finally my True Self gang follwo suit

cough cough: Why shoul d I LISten to you

punching hawkmoth in the face: bc u love me and want me 2 b happy and also bc i still have ur jacket in my bedroom

cough cough: Fuck

cough cough has changed their name to mcdonalds

space bros: al youre ridic

punching hawkmoth in the face: just do it babe

space bros has changed their name to astral projection

astral projection: there ya go

glen coco: Rip Glen Coco

punching hawkmoth in the face: truly a her o of his generation :’(

mcdonalds: RIp

glen coco has changed their name to five cups of tea

five cups of tea: Rebirth

mcdonalds: I hate you all img oing ot bed

punching hawkmoth in the face: goodnight my darlign <3

astral projection: nap well bro hopefully you feel better when you wake up

 15:37

punching hawkmoth in the face: remind me to throw my bag in the seine i dont wanna do hw :(

astral projection: i feel you

punching hawkmoth in the face: wanna get togheter and do hw

astral projection: do homework or “do homework”

punching hawkmoth in the face: have u ever met me “””””””do homework”””””””

astral projection: i need to figure out physics my dude

punching hawkmoth in the face: D’:

five cups of tea: I can help you when I get home tonight

punching hawkmoth in the face: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

astral projection: the real mvp i love you

five cups of tea: I love you too Have fun Use protection

astral projection: alya please kick him out of the chat

punching hawkmoth in the face: no i like him

astral projection: fuck

 18:57 mcdonalds: Screens hurt my head irhgt now Im gonna watch reruns and keep sleepng

punching hawkmoth in the face: feel better babe <3

 22:15

five cups of tea: Ok so the other day instead of doing homework I started reading les mis ANd now instead of doing homework I’m reading les mis again I can’t believe this is how I’m procrastinating

astral projection: what

punching hawkmoth in the face: the musical????

five cups of tea: No the book Which the musical is based off of

astral projection: what a nerd

punching hawkmoth in the face: lmao how is it

five cups of tea: Old Long

punching hawkmoth in the face: how long?

five cups of tea: Uhhh 655,000 words

mcdonalds: jesus

astral projection: what the actual fuck

punching hawkmoth in the face: holllllly fuck

astral projection: you my dude are unreal

punching hawkmoth in the face: for fun???? r u sure this is for fun???????

five cups of tea: I think so? It’s kind of boring sometimes and hard to get through but other parts are really good Also if I’m reading I don’t have to practice chinese

punching hawkmoth in the face: touche

astral projection: have fun reading bro you are unbelievable

PM between five cups of tea and mcdonalds

five cups of tea: Hey why are you up? I thought you were heading off to bed a while ago?

mcdonalds: I didnt take nyquil tonight because I felt a little better and didnt want to pass the fuck out again but now Im awake and cant sleep because my head feels like its gonna explode And I regret So much

five cups of tea: Aw no poor bug

mcdonalds: Ugh

five cups of tea: Do you want anything?

mcdonalds: You dont have to

five cups of tea: Do you want anything? If you want soup I can get you some

mcdonalds: Its like???? Really late?????

five cups of tea: Mar its only 20:30

mcdonalds: Oh It feels like 1 But its still late

five cups of tea: Ok well Late night food is not a new thing Trust me

mcdonalds: … If you brought me soup Id love you forever

five cups of tea: I thought you already did

mcdonalds: Id love you even more

five cups of tea: I’ll be on my way soon

mcdonalds: I love you so much <3

23:35 in boo you whore

punching hawkmoth in the face: what if you took tea in shots like shot glasses

five cups of tea: Like with hot tea?

astral projection: i feel like thats a good way to burn your entire mouth

five cups of tea: *entire life

astral projection: ^^^

punching hawkmoth in the face: hmmm

five cups of tea: Alya no

astral projection: yeah bad idea

punching hawkmoth in the face: f i n e

 1:02

mcdonalds: sos Im dying I constantly feel like Im about to sneeze If I dont feel that way its cause Im sneezing

astral projection: rip my dude guessing you cnat sleep while sneezing

mcdonalds: Nope :’( End my suffering please

astral projection: no can do i can offer virtual hugs

mcdonalds: I guess thatll work for now

astral projection: <3

2:03

PM between five cups of tea and mcdonalds

five cups of tea: Hey Hey Marinette Hey I have something to show you

mcdonalds: Adrien its 2 in the morning

five cups of tea: So? You’re up too

mcdonalds: I slept all day

mcdonalds: Yeah but you’re awake right now

mcdonalds: … Fine Hit me

five cups of tea: “When they had finished, when they had told each other everything, she laid her head on his shoulder and asked him: ‘What is your name?’” Us

mcdonalds: Oh my go d This is les mis right??? What youw ere talking about before??

five cups of tea: Yup

mcdonalds: Omg Why are you like this

five cups of tea: Ok but am I wrong????

mcdonalds: I cant say you are tbh

five cups of tea: Man I feel like Marius am I like Marius??

mcdonalds: Whats he like?

five cups of tea: Kind of oblivious, pretty romantic but sort of in a weird way, awkward, usually confused but can be scary if he needs to, handsome as hell and love of my life that I would honestly leave all three of you for

mcdonalds: Wow Are you sure you havent already

five cups of tea: :P Actually….

mcdonalds: Are you suddenly realizing youve left us for a fictional character

five cups of tea: No I was oging to say I might be more like Bossuet

mcdonalds: Youre just saying words I dont know who that is

five cups of tea: He always has bad luck Like always Ummmm hold on

mcdonalds: K Who would I be???

five cups of tea: “He was the constant victim of mischance, hence his merriment. He said, ‘I spend my life walking under ladders.’”

mcdonalds: Ok you mgiht be this Bossuet you bad luck magnet

five cups of tea: For you Hmmmm Enjolras?

mcdonalds: Not cosette??  Shes the love interest right

five cups of tea: As much as I love you Enjolras is the leader in red And I just can’t help myself

mcdonalds: Nerd Are you goind to do alya and nino too?

five cups of tea: D u h

 2:34

mcdonalds: Adrien?? You ok? Youve been quiet for a while Or did you fall asleep on your computer again

five cups of tea: No I’m here I’m just Stuck This is haarrrrrdddddddddd Alya and Nino are just so deep and complex and awesome and I dont’ know how to place them???

mcdonalds: True But wow Slightly offended

five cups of tea: Hey yours is based on a pun I can pun easy

mcdonalds: G o to sleep kitten You can sort them in the mornign Later this morning

five cups of tea: Fine I hope you’re feeling better

mcdonalds: A little bit!! The soup definitely helped Night <3

five cups of tea: Night <3

10:25 in boo you whore

astral projection: saturdays are chill but my mom wants us to clean the entire apartment today and im not about that life

 12:12

mcdonalds has changed their name to enjolras

enjolras: I have no idea who thi s is but I hope it makes Adrien happy

punching hawkmoth in the face: ???? wahts ahppenign

enjolras: Adrien said I was this charactera t like 2

astral projection: why the fuck do none of you people value sleep

punching hawkmoth in the face: how theh ell did that even come up in conversation

enjolras: He was saying he thinks hes like Marius

astral projection: huh

five cups of tea: I’m not sure yet

astral projection: bro!!!

five cups of tea: I'm thinking either Marius or bossuet for myself

punching hawkmoth in the face: r we supposed 2 know the second one

enjolras: Hes got bad luck Thats what I got from our convo when no one else was awake

punching hawkmoth in the face: change ur name i want u2b the hopeless romantic

astral projection: isnt he already??

punching hawkmoth in the face: lmao

five cups of tea has changed their name to marius

punching hawkmoth in the face: awesome were u gonna do nino and i??

marius: Yeah I’m just having some trouble

astral projection: yeah were just too unique to be put into little boxes

marius: Exactly

astral projection: that was sarcasm but i love you so much

marius: <3

punching hawkmoth in the face: hey question not that im doubting maris badassary but why enjolras

marius: Enjolras is incredibly passionate and would do anything for his friends and the people of Paris Reminds me of how Marinette is as class president

PM between marius and enjolras

enjolras: Nice save

marius: Thanks

in boo you whore

astral projection: I see it

marius: Alya could be eponine?

punching hawkmoth in the face: shes the one who cries about marius right

marius: Well I was actually thinking her cause Ponine she knows her way around And all that stuff But yes she cries about Marius she does have a song about that

PM between punching hawkmoth in the face and astral projection

punching hawkmoth in the face: lmao did he just give me the character hopelessly in love with marius

astral projection: rip

punching hawkmoth in the face: end my life

in boo you whore

punching hawkmoth in the face: i cna work with that

punching hawkmoth in the face has changed their nickname to eponine

astral projection: and then tehre was one

marius: I’m struggling

enjolras: Arent we all

eponine: Id help but I know literally nothing other than some of the lyrics RED THE BLOOD OF BLOOD BLOOD BLOOD

astral projection: theres no way that isnt right im 100% sure those are the actual words

eponine: BLACK THE BLOOD OF BLOOD BLOOD BLOOD

enjolras: Period mood

eponine: general mood

enjolras: Ok same

eponine: mood: red and black but the only words are blood

enjolras renamed this conversation to “red the blood of blood blood blood”

eponine: yes exactly

astral projection: sometimes i wonder why im friends with you

eponine: because u love us and would be sad without us

astral projection: ok yes but also why

marius: I mean maybe Grantaire? He’s a jack of all trades? Nino you are…really hard to place But R might be the best bet

enjolras: Wait a minute R?

marius: Yes

enjolras: Get out of this chat

marius: </3

astral projection: that is amazing

astral projection has changed their nickname to grantaire

grantaire: in it for the puns

marius: So is Hugo

enjolras: Who

marius: The writer of les mis

eponine: tag yourself im les miserables all of them

grantaire: you cant be all the miserables

eponine: watch me try

marius: Sorry you must have no idea what’s going on

grantaire: not really we have nothing to contribute but keep going dude!!! i love to hear you ramble

eponine: oh oh i have something to contribute

enjolras: You do?

eponine: 24601? more like 246 so done with your shit

enjolras: Im leaving the country

grantaire: whos shit?

eponine: uh oh fuck whos the antagonist again

marius: Society

grantaire: deep

enjolras: Stop being fake deep

eponine: feep anyway no u butt the police dude

marius: The only evil in les mis IS society And the Thenardiers OH JAVERT

eponine: YES THANK YOU

marius: Javert: do not forget my name Alya: forgets his name

eponine: fuck you also 246 so done with your shit javert

grantaire: thank you for clarifying

eponine: no prob

enjolras: Ok so Im googling stuff to try and figure out whats happening And wow This is depressing ¾ of us die

marius has changed their nickname to bossuet

bossuet: Now all of us die

eponine: nope change back 2 lover boy ur not dying too

grantaire: um no one is dying my dudes

bossuet: We’re always dying But fine

bossuet has changed their nickname to marius

enjolras: Im pretty sure Im dying righ tnow I almost coughed up a lung

eponine: GO TAKE MEDICIN E

enjolras: You arent my mom!!!!!!!!!

eponine: THAT DOESNT MEAN I DONT CCARE ABOUT YOU AND YOUR HEALTH!!!!!!!!!

enjolras: AHHHHH

eponine: AHHHHHH

grantaire: Ahhhhh?

marius: Ahhhhh

[bringmemyqueen]

what's your ideal hc for iwadai's first meeting? like a special location or how things would evolve after the first meeting? do write a whole paragraph or a book if necessary, I'm veeeeeeeery curious about it!

G O D I WISH I COULD WRITE AN IWADAI FIC AS LONG AS A BOOK

you’ll have to make do with my terrible rambling orz if we’re talking first meetings I’m guessing this is out of canon? hmmmmm that’s hard. there’s so many aus i’d love to see them in hnnnnnn

I can’t think of a specific place but all I can imagine is Iwaizumi falling for Daichi’s smile (asdkfjl; i know in a previous ask I said I preferred Daichi falling for Iwaizumi first by just a little bit, but that was mostly in the context of college au ((which is my ideal au for them falling for each other within canon)). all the other aus I think of I end up leaning more towards Iwaizumi falling for Daichi first). It’s not love at first sight, but they get to know each other a bit first and then find themselves thinking a little too often about how they’d like to see the other’s smiling face and be surrounded by the sound their laugh.

humhummmmmm I think my ideal meeting for them would be something natural and coincidental like meeting in a convenience store or seeing each other on a morning/evening jog.

omg ok maybe like Iwaizumi going for an early morning jog only to spot Daichi had accidentally locked himself out of his apartment and he’s wearing only a t-shirt and boxers so he’s freezing. They make eye contact and Daichi is flustered and laughing awkwardly as he tries to explain he’s not a weirdo. It comes off like a rambling mess. Iwaizumi just nods awkwardly back. He doesn’t know if he should keep jogging or if he should try to help the poor guy out. Iwaizumi ends up asking the obvious, if Daichi had thought to ask the landlord to unlock his door for him. Daichi doesn’t hold back on his sarcasm when he answers Iwaizumi (its morning and Daichi’s too sleepy to remember to put on his polite facade to a stranger). It should’ve drove Iwaizumi away, but it doesn’t. Iwaizumi is kind of just staring at him amusingly, before admitting to the other that the question was pretty dumb of him to ask. They start chatting a bit and then when they don’t know what else to talk about other than the weather Iwaizumi resumes his jog, wishing Daichi good luck with getting back inside his apartment. As Iwaizumi is jogging, he sort of regrets leaving Daichi like that all cold and shivering. It takes him 15 minutes of contemplating before finally deciding to jog back and check on Daichi. When he gets there, Daichi is no longer outside. Iwaizumi figures he’s made it safely into his apartment.

And thennnnnnn, the same situation ends up happening again (god Daichi get it together). But this time, Iwaizumi offers his jacket to Daichi (which then totally gives them an excuse to see each other again because Daichi has to return the jacket. Daichi treats Iwaizumi out for lunch for helping him out and thus starts their friendship and lowkey unrealized crushing on each other (´꒳`)

I just want something absolutely normal and later becomes a meaningful first meeting for them ;v; then they become really close friends, the type that always hangs out at the other’s place like its their own home and ends up even staying the night. pretty much acting like a married couple before they’re even dating. their friends end up assuming they’ve already been dating for a long time before it actually became official.

SO BASICALLY I want domestic, friends to lovers, mutual pining, fluffy, slow burn.

hmfmfmfmf i’m just sosososo weak for domesticity. I want their whole domestic life from when they meet to when they’re old and wrinkly with their five dogs and still being dorks with their sappiness and teasing and sarcasm towards the other ;;v;;

[dystopiansushi]

Tagged by @y-uuriis who is honestly the most precious being on this earth ❤ Thank youu!! 

rules: copy/paste and replace my answers with yours and tag people 

a - age: teens 

b - biggest fear: Being lost for words. You know, when you’re with your friend but you have no idea what to say, and the silence seems to stretch like plastic wrap and you’re terrified that it will tear. I dont know, maybe that’s just me. I’m nervous like that. 

c - current time: 18:39 (6:39 pm) 

d - drink you last had: Peach Bai 

e - every day starts with: Exhaustedly cleaning my face and trying to put on makeup 

f - favorite song: anything Green Day! 

g - ghosts, are they real: They are both real and unreal, since we can’t see them. Schrödinger’s ghost. 

h - hometown: Uncalled-for-dick-joke-ville 

i - in love with: Food and Yuuri Katsuki probably 

j - jealous of: people who have friends over to their house all the time and are Very Popular (but honestly most of the time i dont mind since I’m very used to being alone and enjoy it) 

k - killed someone: Depends 

l - last time you cried: Two days ago, over the Hidden Figures movie 

m - middle name: dats a secret

n - number of siblings: one! 

o - one wish: that i could just draw fan art my whole life and somehow sustain myself without paying rent/taxes etc

p - person you last called/texted: my mother 

q - questions you’re always asked: “why do you like being alone so much?” Or alternatively: “why are you so happy so early in the morning?” (Btw its to hide the fact that i havent slept and am DEAD INSIDE) 

r - reasons to smile: the yuri on ice fandom 

s - song last sang: Closing Time by Semisonic 

t - time you woke up: 6:45 

u - underwear color: peach 

v - vacation destination: Japan / somewhere in Southeast Asia

w - worst habit: not thinking before I open my mouth and being silent a lot of the time 

x - x-rays you’ve had: Well, many dental ones 

y - your favorite food: Pomegranates and sushi and spicy chinese and korean barbeque all things spicy and honestly i love all foods 

z - zodiac sign: aries 

I tag….. @angryrussiankitten , @sarabelez , @jinlian, @bad-at-adding, @jenprocrastinatorextraordinaire

Do this if you want to!! If you want to do it and weren’t tagged, feel free! You can say you were tagged by yours truly