#futurefishbabies

[futurefishbabies]

HEY LONG TIME NO SEE So I was missing all these babies and I felt it was time for a bit of a revamp.....also......some new additions

NEW KIDDIES:

Nitori Katsurou - Nitori and Momo’s kid. Earnest, hardworking much like Ai. Really he takes after Ai the most. Ai is thankful for that. They both try and keep Momo from causing too much trouble

Shiina Hinoko - Asahi and Kisumi’s feisty tomboy daughter. Kisumi 2.0 basically. She’s a volleyball player. Her tall frame and quick reflexes make her a talented middle blocker. Shows up at the Iwatobi girls’ swim practices to flirt. 

[materassassino]

Fathoms Deep

@bakapandy continuing to be a life-ruiner and an enabler, this time with this AMAZING piece of SouRin+Saku art. @futurefishbabies and merpeople? You know I’m down for that shit.

So here’s a smol oneshot. Very smol. Absolutely no plot and mostly fluff. I’d love to write more for this AU, though.

“You're worrying again.”

Rin manages to tear his eyes off his son for a second, just to glare at Sousuke.

“How could I not be?” he huffs. “It's his first time in the Deeps.”

In front of them, playing chase with smaller fish and annoying sea anemones, is Sakurai, enjoying the reef immensely. He's spent his entire life around the shallows around the islands, up until now, sharing the mangroves with lemon sharks and pelicans, and every merfolk has to head to deeper water eventually. The islands are never safe. Eventually, once he is old enough, they will head north to cooler waters, maybe join their family pod again, but for now, seeing the Deeps is enough.

Sakurai doesn't seem to care, though. He's a bundle of repressed energy, darting this way and that, making a loop around his parents, grinning widely.

“Are you excited?” Sousuke asks, smiling. He never expected to have a son, and he's always so indulgent. Sometimes too indulgent.

“Yes!” Sakurai says, gills working overtime. “I can't wait!” And then he's off again with a flick of his tail.

“Don't swim too far!” Rin warns, but Sakurai ignores him, follows a sea turtle, then a sea snake. Everything is a source of curiosity, everything new and colourful and fascinating.

The reef is wide, but it must stop eventually. Beyond it lies the open ocean, where there is little food and less shelter, and too many predators. Rin has made the journey four times, from his birthplace in the north to the warmer south. Sousuke has seen seas beyond those even Rin has: he's felt the sheer cold where the Darkest Blue meets the Chill, far to the south; he's swum far to the east, and he's even spoken to humans on islands where the big ships never go. Sakurai, however, is still far too young for that... but he can see what it is like.

Rin worries, though. Rin is always worrying. They never thought they'd have him, a child of their own, and yet they did. To lose him would be... Rin tries not to think about it.

As if he notices the sudden change, Sakurai stops. He pauses, gazing out into the blue where the light has nothing to touch and filters into nothing, devoured by the abyss. He gulps, and waits for his parents to reach him.

“Is that it?” he asks, clutching at Rin's arm. Sousuke places a hand on his head.

“That's it,” he says. “The Deeps.”

Ever protective, Sousuke swims powerfully forward, beyond the edge of the reef. Below them, life is still abundant, but beyond that, there is nothing. Sousuke patrols a moment, watchful, before returning to them.

“Nothing there,” he says. Sakurai pouts slightly, clings tighter to Rin.

“Are there sharks out there?” he asks, voice small. He may have the same tail, but they're food just like anything else in the ocean.

“Yes,” Sousuke says, blunt. There's no way to sweeten the truth of it: there are things in the depths that would willingly eat a young merman without a second thought. “But you're with us.” He smiles reassuringly, swims closer to the reef edge and opens his arms. “It's fine.”

Sakurai slowly lets go of Rin's arm, but he hovers close, nervous. There is nothing beyond Sousuke: no more reef, no more fish, just endless blue. He swallows.

“Go on,” Rin murmurs, giving him a gentle push.

Sakurai blanches when Rin passes him and goes beside Sousuke. He scrunches his eyes up tight and with the most powerful flick he can muster, he speeds forward, right into Sousuke's waiting arms.

“See? We've got you,” Rin says. Sakurai's arms are wrapped tight around his larger father's neck and his eyes are still shut, but he relaxes against Sousuke's broad chest. Gently, Sousuke drifts backwards, away from the reef, until he's in open water – but not too far, just enough. Both his fathers wait patiently for Sakurai's eyes to open.

As soon as they do, he peeks down into the depths. He squeaks, but his eyes stay open, maybe out of fear.

“Why is it so... deep?” he asks, in awe.

“It just is,” Sousuke says.

“Nagisa has stories about it,” Rin says. “When we go north, he'll tell you them.”

“Really?” Sakurai sounds intrigued. His grip on Sousuke loosens, he seems a bit braver.

“Nagisa has stories about everything,” Rin explains. Nagisa was the one who learnt the tales, the things their parents' parents' parents knew, passed down from when there were more merfolk in the sea, and fewer humans on the land.

“And he never shuts up,” Sousuke adds, making Sakurai giggle.

It takes a while before Sakurai is brave enough to actually let go of Sousuke and swim around on his own. He doesn't go far, much to Rin's relief, and his parents watch him, circling with him.

Sousuke keeps an eye on the sun, and when its light is directly above them, he suggests making their way home. Sakurai is young and tires easily, and even the reef is not safe at night. While Sousuke has no doubt he could protect his mate and son, he doesn't want it to ever have to come to that. He already has a bite scar on his tail, he's aware his next might be his last.

“Do we have to go?” Sakurai whines. “I like it here!”

“You won't like it when it's dark and crawling with bigger sharks than the ones at home,” Rin admonishes. He holds out his hands and waits for Sakurai to take them. The boy offers a token pout, but soon places his hands in Rin's and allows himself to be tugged back over the reef, the dark blue void disappearing behind him.

“We'll catch dinner on the way,” Sousuke promises, and that seems to make Sakurai a lot more obedient. Soon they are swimming back, Sakurai laughing like before, hunting for seahorses. Sousuke is ever-vigilant, but he takes Rin's hand nevertheless.

“See, you didn't need to worry,” he says, teasing. Rin huffs.

“I did! What if there was something? A great white? A...” He swallows, his hand tightens around Sousuke's. “...boat.”

Sousuke visibly stiffens. That's the golden rule, the one rule everyone in the entire ocean obeys: stay away from the boats. They cannot be trusted.

Sometimes there are divers on the reef, they are easy to avoid, but there is much worse. The fishermen, so many kinds... they come with nets and hooks and harpoons, and both Rin and Sousuke know what they do to sharks, the clouds of blood, the anxious twitching...

Rin shudders, and Sousuke stops, pulls him close.

“There weren't any,” Sousuke murmurs. “And if there are, we'll stay well away.” He presses his forehead to Rin's.

“Can you two stop?” Sakurai complains, making faces. “No kisses!”

Rin's eyes narrow, and he smirks, showing the sharp teeth Sakurai inherited. “Oh, really?” As fast as ever, he darts forward, grabbing Sakurai and plastering kisses all over his face. Sakurai squeals, tail thrashing as he struggles to get away. Sousuke watches them, laughing, but stops when he realised Sakurai is no longer squealing.

Both of them are looking at him, with matching mischievous expressions. Sousuke shakes his head slowly.

“Oh no. Oh no...”

They're faster than he is, and catch up easily, grabbing hold and planting kisses on both his cheeks.

“This is an unfair advantage!” he complains, but his arms are around them and holding them close anyway.

Sakurai is the first to pull away, when he sees a particularly interesting school of angelfish to follow. This leaves Rin and Sousuke to trail behind, tails beating the water lazily, still holding hands. And though neither knows it at that moment, each is thinking of how lucky they are, to have what they have.

[demfeeeels]

are you going to continue the series about poor takumi?

I’m already working on part 3 ;P 

[haru-haru-hime]

I was testing out new things... and it became @bakapandy‘s Tomoyo :’D

sorry i can’t draw glasses OTL And the hair is literally just scribbles ahahahah i’m lazy...

[lilmeowmeow-93]

Cute Tomoyo’s  VwV 

[ayma-nidiot]

A ReiGisa family portrait, as suggested by @rosenox98! This depicts Rei, Nagisa, and their daughter Tomoyo - who is a creation of @bakapandy / @futurefishbabies.

I managed to finish this just before my work shift. Hooray. :D

[gumag]

@bakapandy i wasn’t sure about Takumi’s hair color :/ ... 

i hope you like this :D ... 

[mikathemighty]

Hard at work. Got my music pumping, my reference docs open and I am determined to have the next installment of the 'Love Child' series up today or tomorrow. Bless @bakapandy and her beautiful Future Fish Babies!

[bms408]

Drabble: Too Loud

I wrote this for @bakapandy/@futurefishbabies‘s au. Sakurai belongs to her. Un-beta’d so there might be mistakes.

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After waking up in the night and tossing back and forth on his little bed, Sakurai gave up trying to sleep in his own bed. Even though he was a big boy that was almost four years old, he still needed to curl up in bed with his dads every once and a while. He quietly made his way out of his bedroom and down the hall to his parents’ door. Upon arriving, he noticed the door was closed, which is odd because his parents usually kept the door open. He tried reaching for the doorknob, but he was too short. He didn’t want to wake up his parents so he was just going to go back to his room, except he heard his daddy’s voice coming through the door. He could just knock on the door and his daddy would let him in. That was the plan until he heard his daddy scream.

“Ahhh~ Sousuke~!” The voice came through the door.

Sakurai took a step back. His eyes welled with tears. Why was papa hurting daddy? Sakurai sat outside his parents’ door and started to sob.

Rin and Sousuke were lying in bed in the heat of their love making session. After their breathing had regulated, Rin picked his up his head. “Do you hear that?” He said.

“Hear what?” Sousuke asked.

“It sounds like Sakurai crying.” Rin insisted.

“I doubt it. If Sakurai was crying, he’d come in the room.” Sousuke tried reassuring his husband.

“I’m serious Sousuke. I swear it’s him.”

Sousuke sighed and got up out of bed. He walked towards the door a started to pull it open. “I’m telling you, Sakurai is asleep in his be-” Sousuke was cut off by seeing his son sobbing in the hallway. “Sakurai, what’s wrong?”

Little Sakurai responded to his father with a fearful scream. He jumped to his feet and ran to his room. He entered his room and slammed the door behind him. He jumped into his bed and hid under his blankets.

Rin rushed up to Sousuke a watched his child run to his room. “What the hell did you do, Sousuke?!” He scolded.

“I didn’t do anything. He just ran away.” Sousuke said.

Rin rushed to his son’s bedroom. He slowly opened the door to reveal Sakurai crying under the blankets. He sat down on the bed and rubbed his hand on Sakurai’s back. “What happened, Sakurai?”

Sakurai jumped up and wrapped his arms tightly around Rin’s neck. “Papa was hurting you.” He sobbed. “I heard you screaming.”

Rin’s face flushed with embarrassment. “Papa wasn’t hurting me.” He chuckled uncomfortably. “Papa and I were just… playing.”

“But it sounded like you were hurting.” Sakurai sniffled.

“Papa would never do anything to hurt me or you. It’s just…sometimes papa can play a little too…rough.” Rin said with red cheeks. Noticing that Sakurai was calming down, Rin sighed in relief. “How about you sleep with me and papa tonight?”

“Okay.” Sakurai agreed.

Rin picked up his son and walked toward his bedroom. He was stopped by an eavesdropping Sousuke. Faintly, he heard his husband whisper in his ear. “I told you you were being too loud.”

[futurefishbabies]

The first time Takumi pulls off a Makoto Smile™ was when Sakurai visited and everyone went berserk while Makoto stood there like ??? why is everyone ¿¿¿

Sakurai also embarks on a journey of self-discovery that day.

SUBMITTED BY @itsmeaninglesswithoutyou

[materassassino]

Pretty to See, Hard to Catch

More tales from my vision of the wonderful thing that is @bakapandy‘s @futurefishbabies universe! This time with Umiko and Tomoyo! This wasn’t supposed to be this long. Whoopsie! I got carried away by these lesbians and their absurdity, I love it. I am adopting Umiko, she is now my child, fuck Haru and Makoto. 

There’s... probably a lot of Sun Jing and Qiu Tong in my characterisations of these two, but I think it works for them, tbh. Also incorporating the headcanon that Takumi has anxiety, idk, it was a spontaneous development.

Please enjoy my ridiculous daughter Umiko and her sudden development of ANGST.

Umiko takes a swig from her water bottle, and doesn't bother to be surreptitious about staring. No point, for two reasons: the first is that she thrives on attention, and the second is... the second is that she most definitely wants her staring to be noticed. She wants it to be almost tangible, something that makes the object of her gaze turn and shiver pleasantly.

“You are terribly unsubtle, you know,” Sakurai says matter-of-factly, rubbing his hair vigorously. It's a weekend and Gorou-san's pool has been their favourite hangout since before they could walk, so of course they've been swimming. Umiko's mouth draws in a sour line as she watches delicate fingers tuck rich purple hair behind a perfect ear.

“God, I'm such a filthy lesbian,” she says, biting the mouth of her bottle while trying to keep down this wave of sheer need that shudders through her when the girl of her dreams shifts her stance, moving her weight from one slender foot to the other, drawing attention to the lithe curves of long, pale legs.

It should be illegal for someone to be as beautiful as Hazuki Tomoyo.

Nanase Umiko is not like the other girls. She uses boku even when her teachers beg her to be more ladylike. She wears long leggings under her uniform, annoyed by skirts in general. She diets for her training regimen rather than to fit into cute clothes. Her hair is always a mess, bleached by chlorine and the sun, and her clothes are always comfortable. The closest thing she owns to make up is lip balm, and she uses male deodorant because it works better. She laughs too loud, talks too much, swears by accident in front of old ladies and she actually called someone temee to their face (in her defence, you don't bully her little brother and get away with it).

She is the antithesis of the object of her affections, and sometimes this frightens her. If they hadn't been friends since they were practically born, she's sure Tomoyo would want nothing to do with her.

Unlike Umiko, Tomoyo is quiet and soft-spoken. She's serious and diligent in everything. She wears a skirt like she belongs in it, and Umiko is grateful because Tomoyo's legs are a gift from the gods. Her hair is always perfect, velvet dark, so soft and thick Umiko wants to spend hours running her fingers through it. Her lips are glossy and sweet-looking, and Umiko's never wanted to kiss anyone as much. She's slender, fawn-like, and skittish like one too: no one blushes quite as wonderfully or trips over her own feet quite as adorably as Tomoyo. When not in uniform, her style is cute and refined and everything about her is ladylike, pretty, dainty... all adjectives that could never apply to Umiko, and Umiko loves her for it. Tomoyo's hands are always cold, so Umiko wants to warm them in her own.

Sometimes, when they were little, Tomoyo seemed like a princess, and Umiko felt like an ugly oni who didn't deserve her. Umiko's come to be more comfortable in her own skin thanks to swimming, but sometimes, when boys confess to Tomoyo, she still feels that old pain, like a fresh papercut.

She envies her brother, sometimes. He and Sakurai have it so easy, it seems, just falling into being together like it was preordained. And while everything else is a delicious challenge, something to be taken head-on with a slightly manic grin, these feelings for Tomoyo are overwhelmingly terrifying. Umiko tries to drop hints, subtle at first, but then heavier and heavier, but Tomoyo...

Umiko loves her, but damn, the girl is dense.

“You should just tell her,” Takumi suggests. Umiko glares at him. It's easy to preach when you've currently got your boyfriend's arms around you. She mimics him, her mockery harsh in her annoyance.

“Play nice, kiddies, or I'm telling Uncle Makoto,” Sakurai says, grabbing another handful of popcorn and shoving it in his mouth. Umiko props her socked foot on his head – his own fault for sitting on the floor.

“It's not easy, you know,” she grumbles. She's not even paying attention to the movie.

“Like hell it's easy,” Sakurai admits, tilting his head back so her foot slips off. Takumi twists slightly to look at him.

“Are you saying you found confessing to me difficult?” he asks, incredulous. Sakurai looks sheepish. “So much for the smooth operator.”

That makes Umiko laugh. “Oh my God, Taku, don't you know? That took Uncle Sousuke two weeks of hard tutoring to get right! You've known this idiot your entire life, do you really think he's anything other than a huge fucking dork?”

Takumi turns fully, scowling. Sakurai looks like he wants the ground to swallow him up.

“This entire relationship is founded upon lies,” Takumi hisses. He tries to wriggle away, but Sakurai just holds him tighter, makes him giggle with lips pressed to his neck. Umiko's gaze wanders back to the movie, having no interest in watching her best friend and her brother make out, but there's a sharp pang in her chest. She wants to be able to do that with Tomoyo, cuddle with Tomoyo, press laughter and kisses to soft skin and joke about their first date.

She presses a cushion to her face and groans into it.

Something pokes her leg. She tugs down the cushion, eyes narrowed.

“Maybe you could do like Dad did,” Takumi says, grinning. “Go to Uncle Rei and Uncle Nagisa and ask for permission to court her!”

Umiko has to laugh at that, at the whole ridiculousness of it. She stares at the screen, at the random explosions and the woman with the steely glare walking away from them in slow motion. She has no idea how Uncle Rei and Uncle Nagisa would even begin to react. She shakes her head, disgusted with herself. Is she really contemplating this crap?

It seems she is. She's at the Hazuki household, somewhere she's been countless times before, but all she can see right now is some sort of foreboding castle, its guardians a pair of dragons, the princess up in her tower. And Umiko thinks she's one of the many, nameless knights that's doomed to fail. She rings the bell, swallowing to try and keep her heart from crawling up her throat. It's not Uncle Rei or Uncle Nagisa that opens the door, however.

It's Tomoyo.

Alarm bells go off in Umiko's brain. She's got these cute clips holding her bangs back and her eyes are wide and surprised and her lips slightly parted... Umiko can feel her face start to burn.

“Oh, Umi-chan! I wasn't expecting you.” She sounds happy to see her, even if she is surprised. Small blessings.

“No, I, uh.. I decided to come round, you know... Are Uncle Rei and Uncle Nagisa here?”

Tomoyo frowns slightly. God, even her frown is cute. “No, they're still at the university. Did you need to speak to them?”

Umiko laughs, waving a hand. “Nah, just wondered! So, uh...”

“Come in, then,” Tomoyo offers, standing away from the door and ushering her in. Umiko can feel the internal panic rising.

Normally, Nanase Umiko is a girl who runs from nothing. Right now, she wants to run very, very far away, and possibly sever all connections with the outside world once she becomes a hermit in Outer Mongolia.

She can't do anything but accept the invitation, gulping as she steps inside and toes off her trainers. She's so self-conscious she actually arranges them tidily, and that's when she realises there are two other pairs of shoes beyond hers and Tomoyo's.

She hears giggling from up the stairs, probably Tomoyo's bedroom. Umiko winces.

“Um, so, who've you got visiting?” Umiko asks. Tomoyo's gone to the kitchen, so Umiko follows, unwilling to go upstairs. Normally, she would. Normally, she'd just take the stairs two at a time, like she always does, introduce herself to whoever is there and be the centre of attention, as usual, but... given the state she's in, she doesn't want to at all.

“Oh, just two classmates,” Tomoyo says absently, setting four glasses on a tray and pulling out a biscuit tin, which Umiko already knows contains some of Uncle Rei's creations.

Umiko has never been... overly popular with some girls. Girls like Tomoyo, girls who like girly things and boys and make-up. And that's fine, all girls are fine, but that's not the kind of girl Umiko is and sometimes those kinds of girls don't like that. It's hard to be different. These are Tomoyo's friends though, they must be nice. Tomoyo wouldn't like nasty people.

She follows Tomoyo up the stairs, holding the biscuit tin. She's been in Tomoyo's room before, multiple times, but now it's... it's different. It means something different. That's Tomoyo's bed, the bed she sleeps in, the pillow she hugs and the sheets she cocoons herself in. It probably smells like her, fresh and flowery and delicious.

She shakes her head, offers a smile to the two staring girls.

“This is my childhood friend, Umiko,” Tomoyo says. “She's in the swim club with me.”

One girl waves nervously, says her name is Miki. The other girl looks Umiko up and down, smirks. Her name is Hoshiko.

Tomoyo settles down, and Umiko sits opposite her, cross-legged because kneeling is only for formalities.

“So... you're on the swim team?” Hoshiko asks.

“I'm the captain,” Umiko says, and she feels she can smirk comfortably at that. It's an achievement she's proud of. “I came second at nationals last year.” The thought of that chick from Tokyo beating her still pisses her off.

Hoshiko raises her eyebrows. “Wow, that's an achievement!” she says.

“Not a good enough achievement,” Umiko replies, honestly. Tomoyo's frown is back.

“You shouldn't put yourself down like that, Umi-chan,” she says.

The conversation veers off after that, the girls get some work done, Umiko munches on some biscuits and plays on her phone.

“So... is there anyone you like, Miki?” Hoshiko asks once they're taking another break. Umiko can't help but roll her eyes. Boys are... fine as friends, but there's nothing attractive about them. Why look at boys when there are girls?

Unfortunately, Hoshiko seems to have the eyes of an eagle. She turns sharply to Umiko. “What about you?”

Umiko raises an eyebrow. “What about me?”

“Are there any boys that you like?”

“I'm not interested in boys,” Umiko replies honestly. She's not going to lie.

“Umiko has to concentrate on her swimming if she wants to make the Olympics,” Tomoyo reasons with a bright, proud smile.

Self-destruction is already out of Umiko's mouth before she can stop it. “I'm also a lesbian,” she says, matter-of-factly, like she hasn't just outed herself to two perfect strangers. There's a clunk. Tomoyo's knocked over her glass. She's starting at Umiko like it's the first time she's ever seen her in her life, wondering what this person is doing in her house.

“Are you ok, Tomoyo?” Miki asks.

“Yes, fine!” Tomoyo says cheerfully. “Oh no, the carpet!” She rushes to get a cloth, Miki presses tissues to the spreading orange stain, demanding Hoshiko provide some as well; Umiko's impromptu coming out is forgotten, for now.

But Umiko knows Tomoyo, knows her almost too well. The bubbles and cheer is the facade of when she's panicked, worried, doesn't know quite what to do with herself. Umiko stands, follows her, finds her in the kitchen, cloth in hand, just... standing at the sink.

“Hey.”

Tomoyo jumps, whirls around, fumbling with the cloth and pushing her glasses up her nose. “Oh. Yes?”

Umiko drums her fingers on the doorframe, bites her lip. “I think... I think I'll head home. Sorry for disturbing your studying.”

Tomoyo blinks. Laughs, airy, breezy, fake as hell. “It's fine! Sorry for not being a proper host!”

In movies, Umiko thinks, this is where she'd stride across the room and kiss her. This would be a romantic scene, and the tension would be the taut strings of unrequited love and unresolved sexual urges. But it's not, this is real life, and the tension between them feels thick and oily, and altogether highly unpleasant. Someone must break it.

“See you Monday,” Umiko says, turning, breaking the tension.

She runs all the way home, nails digging welts in her palms as she cries for the first time in years.

Tomoyo's reaction is possibly the worst case scenario. Of course it had to happen. Umiko's always been lucky in everything, Takumi the one born under the wrong star, it only makes sense that the universe flip it for their love lives. Takumi and Sakurai are perfect, and Umiko is destined to the sad life of a lesbian spinster with eighteen cats, abandoned by her nieces and nephews to die alone and be found three weeks later, half-eaten.

She voices this concern to Takumi. Takumi is unimpressed.

“I think our parents have given you unrealistic relationship goals,” he says evenly. “Not everyone meets at birth and then ends up marrying, that's exceptionally rare. Just because Tomoyo's not 'The One' doesn't mean there is no 'One'.”

“That... is not helping,” she mumbles, rubbing furiously at her eyes. She hates crying, she stopped crying at six and now that's all she can do and it pisses her off. Anger does not mix well with sadness, especially because being angry at Tomoyo also makes her feel sick, her stomach weighted and heavy, dark with bad feelings. Umiko has never really been one for negativity, so she's not sure how to process it.

It's made even worse when she steps into school on Monday, because there's swimming practice. But... she can also hear whispers, rumours, stares chasing after her.

“I knew it,” she hears someone say, and she whips around before she can stop herself. The speaker doesn't emerge from the crowd, no one is looking.

Is this how Takumi feels? she wonders, fiddling with her split ends. That all-devouring anxiety and paranoia, the self-consciousness, the twitching at every laugh... is that the lens through which he sees the world? It's horrible. People's gazes cling to her skin, greasy and tangible, their voices follow her, taunting her. Not being able to walk tall with a spring in her step is a sensation she's never felt before, and she hates it. Confidence has been her armour and her weapon, one of the foundations of what is Umiko, and now it's been stripped away.

She's not sure she can handle it.

“Don't listen to them,” Takumi says when he comforts her at lunch, arm around her shoulders. She needs this closeness, this familiarity, feeding off his energy greedily in a way she hasn't done since she found she could make enough for the both of them.

“How do you do it? Every day?” she asks. It's exhausting. Takumi sighs.

“Some days I crawl, some I hobble, some I walk. The important thing is getting through them.”

She rests her forehead against his neck, their breathing in sync, like it has been since the first one they took. She can feel guilt mingling with the other sensations, another tick on the list of horrible feelings, guilty about not paying enough attention to him, so caught up in her swimming. If she lost this bond they have, the strange connection that's a twin thing, well...

They're on their way to the pool for practice when a girl comes up to them. Umiko's never seen her before, she's a first year, and completely unremarkable.

“Can we help?” Takumi asks. The girl blushes.

“I-I'm Koda Izumi! I'm in class 1-4!” she blurts. “M-may I talk to you in private, Umiko-senpai?”

“I'll go on ahead, then,” Takumi says, patting Umiko on the shoulder. Umiko watches him leave, confused, and then turns back to Koda.

“Uh... did you need something?”

Koda isn't looking at her, rather at her scuffed trainers. “I... I l-like you, Umiko-senpai! P-please go out with me!” Then, of all things, she bows.

Umiko stares. She stares and stares and stares some more, but not at Koda.

Tomoyo is behind her, a few metres away, also heading to practice. She's stopped dead, watching the scene, her expression unreadable. The silence stretches on, awkward, the kind of silence that's crying for someone to say something.

“Senpai?” Koda asks, straightening. She follows Umiko's gaze, to Tomoyo, brow furrowed in confusion.

Tomoyo turns and leaves. Her pace is normal at first, but then it picks up, and soon she's flat out running. Something clicks in Umiko's mind, something that starts screaming at her to chase, and before she realises it, she's running too. She doesn't even register leaving Koda behind, the girl's declaration unanswered.

Tomoyo's more important.

Sprinting across the yard, Umiko catches a shock of purple hair disappearing around the corner of the main school building. She follows, feet pounding the compact earth, the concrete slabs, bag slapping against her side. She'd forgotten just how fast Tomoyo was, how easily running comes to her, but somehow, some deep instinct is telling Umiko that she needs to catch up to her.

She puts on a spurt, beginning to feel the burn in her calves. She snatches for Tomoyo's arm, misses, catches the strap of her bag. Tomoyo makes a strangled sound, a bit like 'GLARK!' and skids, her feet flying from underneath her. Umiko squawks, can't stop in time, crashes into Tomoyo's back, and Tomoyo's momentum sends them flying back.

Pain shoots up Umiko's back from where it collides with concrete, but that doesn't even matter: Tomoyo's on top of her. Umiko doesn't know what to do with herself, so she stays perfectly still, arms locked upright, heart pounding because Tomoyo's back is pressed against her boobs. This would be awkward if she could even begin to understand what is happening.

Tomoyo groans. That doesn't help. She seems to realise what exactly is going on and quickly scrambles to her feet with a yelp. Umiko still doesn't move. Her face is burning and all she can see is the sky and a little bit of a nearby tree. Her boobs kind of hurt from Tomoyo's weight, and her stomach too, but that doesn't even matter because until five seconds ago, Tomoyo's butt was way too close to her crotch. Oh God.

“Are... are you ok, Umi-chan?” Tomoyo asks, entering her field of vision. She looks concerned as she tucks her hair back from where it's falling in her face, and Umiko just wants to kiss her so badly. That really hasn't changed.

“No,” she whimpers. “No, I'm not ok.”

“Do you need help?”

Umiko makes a gurgling sound because the thought of touching Tomoyo's hand is too much right now. She really should get up.

She finally rolls onto her feet, her back throbbing, her shirt dusty, and Tomoyo laughs. She actually laughs.

“Hey!”

“I’m sorry!” Tomoyo says, shaking her head. “You just looked so pathetic, like a sad puppy!”

“Some friend you are,” Umiko mutters, and attempts to dust herself off, though moving is... kind of painful and stiff. She winces, hobbles forward, groans. “Everything is pain!”

Tomoyo sobers at that. “Is it your back?” she asks, going into no-nonsense manager mode. “You slammed into the ground pretty hard.”

Umiko yelps when Tomoyo's hands suddenly end up on her, easily felt through thin, dusty cotton. “Can you please not?” she croaks.

Tomoyo doesn't remove her hands. “Or else?”

Tomoyo takes after Uncle Rei. She even looks a lot like him, oddly enough. She is very smart and sometimes takes everything a bit too seriously, and also has a fixation with things that are aesthetically pleasing. But every so often she'll just come out with something that's completely and utterly Uncle Nagisa. This is one of those moments, and Umiko could swear that sounded flirtatious.

Did she hit her head as well? She didn't think so, but maybe she did.

“Uh, Tomoyo-chan...”

The hands are gone. Tomoyo steps away, stiff, as if the moment never happened. She busies herself with her skirt and jacket. Umiko narrows her eyes, studying her. Could she be...?

Umiko scoots around, peers at her face. “Are you blushing?” she asks, intrigued. Tomoyo looks away, hiding behind her bangs.

“No!”

“You totally are!” Umiko teases. Before she can think, she reaches forward and tucks Tomoyo's hair away. Tomoyo's cheeks are pink, bright pink, she's so cute.

She could kiss her. Umiko could actually kiss her, the urge is so strong it's painful, a bone-deep, agonising longing in her chest. She inhales, holds the breath.

She pulls away.

“Tomoyo, I-”

It's brief, the barest touch, fleeting and there-and-gone, but it happened. Tomoyo is close, so close, lashes low and expression halfway between coy and worried. Umiko can't deal with this, everything is happening so much right now.

“Please do that again,” she says, hopeful. Tomoyo's blush deepens, but she acquiesces, and it's longer this time, altogether more fulfilling. Tomoyo's lips are soft, delicate, but there's a strange urgency in this chaste kiss. Umiko finds her hands drifting to Tomoyo's shoulders, holding her there, and Tomoyo's fall to her waist, cold as ever.

“Wow,” Umiko breathes when they part again. She's feeling a little dizzy, a little giddy, a little like the world is upside down, but also that it's working perfectly again. Bubbles of sunshine float up in her chest, popping into laughter. “Wow!”

Tomoyo giggles, nervously tucking her hair back. “I... I'm sorry. For Saturday.”

“Sorry for what? What even was Saturday?” Umiko waves a careless hand, her grin wide and bright and is the world suddenly so much more colourful or is that just her?

“Seriously,” Tomoyo says, bringing her back down from where she's a metre off the ground, “I was... I was just surprised. I never hoped... I thought Sakurai...”

Umiko makes a face, and she knows it's a bad one, but she's never exactly been one to half-ass facial expressions. “Saku? Ewwwwww.” It would be like dating her brother. Ew.

“I just assumed,” Tomoyo says, fidgeting. “I was surprised when you said you were, you know...”

“A lesbian?” Umiko replies, deadpan. Tomoyo huffs.

“I... I kind of didn't dare hope.”

This is so surreal. Someone thinking she could be straight is such a bizarre concept already, but having it be her crush? Surreal.

“Well, I am. So no worries.” She doesn't say she was afraid Tomoyo might be straight, because that would ruin the moment and she wants to savour it. She wants to enjoy this elation, this feeling of floating, of rainbow electricity. She holds her hand out by her side, fingers spread, hopeful. Tomoyo smiles, flushing slightly, and takes it.

Tomoyo's hands are always cold, but Umiko is going to warm them.

“Oh, impressive!” Sakurai remarks. He's come round to take Takumi out, but he couldn't resist stopping by to see the sideshow.

A rather nasty bruise has begun to blossom across Umiko's back. It impedes her swimming, which is fucking irritating, and she doesn't like falling behind. But she does also have a brand new girlfriend to show for it. A girlfriend who is currently blushing and very flustered.

“Y-you can't just take your shirt off and show him!” she splutters. Umiko gives her a confused look.

“Pretty sure he's seen me naked,” she says. Tomoyo makes a few disjointed noises of indignation.

“Granted, we were, what? Two?” Sakurai adds. “And you only stripped because the neighbour's kid couldn't keep her clothes on either.”

“Australia's hot, it seemed like she had the right idea.” The best way to deal with Uncle Sousuke's teasing is to embrace it. The stripping naked story lost any sort of power it might have had years ago. “Also he's always seeing me in my swimsuit.”

“Even so,” Tomoyo says, folding her arms and pursing her lips, “it's completely inappropriate!”

Umiko rolls her eyes. “Fine,” she says, pulling her t-shirt back on. “I've shown literally everyone already.”

Tomoyo's scowl deepens. Sakurai grins.

“Pretty sure she's jealous, Umiko,” he says. Tomoyo's gasp is nothing short of melodramatic.

“I am not jealous!”

Umiko feels an odd rush of pleasure at that. “Aw, sweetie, that's adorable!”

“Fine, continue with your erroneous hypothesis, see if I care.”

“That pout is so cute,” Umiko stage-whispers to Sakurai. He snorts behind his hand before straightening.

“Anyway, I have to go. That's an amazing bruise, good onya,” he says, poking at it for good measure just to hear her screech.

“Bastard,” she mutters as the pain recedes, but he's done the wise thing and made himself scarce before she can exact any revenge. Tomoyo is still pouting, though, so that has to be dealt with. Umiko props her chin up with her hand, a broad, lovestruck grin spreading across her face. Tomoyo is definitely cute with that expression. And the blush that comes with it when she realises Umiko is staring is even cuter.

“You're staring,” she mumbles, pushing her glasses up nervously and doing that thing where she uses her hair as a shield. Umiko shrugs, almost carelessly. She could never get tired of staring at Tomoyo like a creeper, not in a thousand years, just like she'll never get tired of that little frisson of mingled pleasure and disbelief when she remembers Tomoyo is actually her girlfriend. If she could swim right now, she's pretty sure she'd be breaking all her personal records.

“You're pretty, I have to stare,” she says, mentally high-fiving herself for how smooth that was. Tomoyo makes a noise like an embarrassed mouse.

Umiko takes that as a cue to crawl around the table and steal a kiss. Or two. Or three. Tomoyo melts into her arms with a soft sigh.

The floor isn't all that uncomfortable when you have the most amazing person in the world in your arms, and you can kiss them whenever you want, Umiko thinks.

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I love @bakapandy’s love children and Takumi is so adorable I had to draw him ^^

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Why Does It Even Matter?

All I wanted to do was write Takumi working at the Nanase household bakery, but…it’s 5 AM and here I am with 3K words of Takumi angst, as it happens :’D I need to give this poor kid a break.

(Sequel to So Why…?) 

Takumi and Umiko are @bakapandy‘s characters, and you should definitely check out her blog, @futurefishbabies! ^^

“Takumi-chaaan!”

Startled, Takumi turned around, only to see Sakurai barreling towards him, arms outstretched.

 "Saku- uff.“ Takumi let out a laugh as Sakurai gave him a quick hug, then wrapped an arm around his shoulders and proceeded to walk with him. “What’s up with you, Sakurai?”

Sakurai laughed, a sound that filled Takumi’s chest with warmth. “I just haven’t seen you for a while! And here I happen to run into you, so…”

Takumi’s chest felt even warmer now, the feeling creeping to his stomach too. He wasn’t sure why, though. He was probably just happy that Sakurai had noticed that they hadn’t talked in a while. That was rare, after all. 

“So -” Sakurai started, before:

“Oi! Sakurai!" 

Sakurai grinned, an instantaneous reaction to hearing that voice. He spun around, letting go of Takumi. 

"Umiko!" 

"Looks like you got a head-start today, Suckerai.” She broke into a run, passing them. “You’re still gonna lose, though!”

Still grinning, Sakurai started running after her. 

“You wish, Umiko!" 

He turned around, giving Takumi a quick wave. "Later, Takumi!”

“Y-Yeah…”

Takumi groaned, turning over and pulling the covers higher over himself. His head hurt, his eyes felt heavy, and there was this… weight in his chest that he couldn’t quite describe. What time was it, anyway…?

He somehow managed to open his eyes and glance at his alarm clock. 4:50 AM. Why was he awake? And what was this… gnawing feeling in his chest? And in his stomach? 

… Oh. 

Takumi sighed, sitting up and running a hand through his hair. Not this feeling again. He’d been so distracted by studying and schoolwork for the past few weeks that he’d thought he’d finally gotten rid of that feeling, that spite and sadness he felt when he saw Umiko and Sakurai together, or even when he just thought about them together. 

But of course not. Now that it was New Year’s break and school was out, here it was again, as strong and fresh as ever. 

Takumi pulled himself out of bed, suddenly no longer tired. If anything, he felt restless, almost irritated. He needed to find something to do. 

He looked at the clock again. 4:54 AM.  There was still more than an hour left before his dad opened the bakery, but why not do him a favor?

It was cold, even more so than it usually was in late December. Takumi increased his pace, tightening his coat around himself. His nose was so cold that he couldn’t feel it anymore, and his breath was quite clearly visible in white puffs every time he exhaled. It was quiet, and the streets were completely deserted. The birds weren’t even awake yet. 

Takumi walked even faster, trying to keep his mind as vacant as possible. The bakery wasn’t that far, just a few streets away from their house. It always took exactly ten minutes to get there, but it seemed like much longer today. 

He was practically jogging at this point, but Takumi still couldn’t shake off that irritation he was feeling. Why was he feeling like this now, when he’d been able to block all of it out for weeks? 

Well, the fact that Umiko had invited Sakurai over yesterday when their dads were out, and Takumi had walked in on them cuddling in front of the fireplace, giggling and holding hands, could have contributed to it, but he was trying not to think about that.

When he finally reached the bakery, he unlocked the backdoor and went to the kitchen. He almost expected to be welcomed by the warmth of the ovens and the smell of freshly-baked goods, like he always was, but of course that wasn’t the case. The kitchen was freezing, all the lights off and everything put in its place, making it look almost uninviting. Takumi almost turned around and went home. 

Instead, he sighed and walked over to the ovens, switching them on one by one. There, now it’ll warm up in no time, Takumi thought, rolling his sleeves up.

 He got the plastic-covered mixing bowls full of various kinds of cookie dough from the fridge and set them on the counter, then got the baking trays and set them there too. It was already getting pretty warm, so Takumi pulled off his coat and scarf and hung them on the coat hanger. He got his apron (the blue one with the three orange fish on it) and threw it on, tying it around his waist. 

He lowered the ovens’ temperatures and went over to the sink to wash his hands, then proceeded to knead out the cookie dough to soften it up. 

After placing parchment paper on all of the trays, he started to roll the cookie dough into neat little balls, placing each one onto the tray when he was done. It was nice rolling out cookie dough, a peaceful, rhythmic feeling after you got used to it. Takumi didn’t even need to look at his hands after a while. 

He looked up, glancing around the walls of the bakery. There was the bakery’s certification certificate and a few awards, but mostly a lot of framed photographs. There were some of when his dads had still been in high school, and some of them had Takumi and Umiko in them too. One particular one caught Takumi’s eye, of them when they were five years old. They’d spent the day at the beach with Sakurai and his dads, and in the picture, Sakurai and Umiko were standing in front of the sea, grinning and holding hands.

 Takumi looked down at his hands, realizing that he’d accidentally squeezed the cookie dough ball he was holding too hard.

There’s no need to get angry about it, they were five, he told himself, reshaping the cookie dough and trying to roll it out again. But no matter how many times he tried, the ball didn’t look right, too out of shape compared to the other ones on the tray. Frustrated, he gave up, tossing the deformed ball back into the bowl and squashing it with the heel of his hand. 

He pulled the plastic-wrap off of another bowl (oatmeal chocolate chip cookie dough this time) and tried to clear his head. There was nothing to be upset about. So what if Umiko and Sakurai were dating? They’d been together for three months now, so why did it even matter? It was nothing new.

 With way more force than necessary, Takumi grabbed some cookie dough from the bowl and started rolling it into a ball, then squashing it and trying again when it didn’t come out right. Then again, and again. After a few minutes, he gave up, throwing the cookie dough back into the bowl with an irritated growl.

You know what? Forget the cookies. He wrapped the plastic back over the bowl and pushed it aside. He’d bake the cinnamon rolls instead. Since he and his dad pre-made them the night before, all he had to do was stick them into the oven. There was no way he could mess that up. 

He walked over to the fridge and opened it, pulling out the trays of cinnamon rolls and roughly pulling the plastic-wrap off of them. He decreased the temperature of the oven and put the cinnamon rolls inside, practically slamming the oven door shut afterwards. 

See? That was easy enough, he told himself, wiping his hands on his apron and walking to the sink. So easy even Umiko could do it.  Umiko had never really been much of the baker, always kneading or stirring too aggressive or burning herself or something or the other. 

Takumi smiled, but he felt more spiteful than anything. That didn’t matter, of course. Umiko had always been the better swimmer, and that was always what had pulled Sakurai in. Sakurai didn’t care about the fact that Takumi could bake, or probably about Takumi in general.

Takumi groaned, putting his face in his hands. What was he doing? It wasn’t even six in the morning yet, but here he was, being bitter and jealous and a generally crappy person. He really needed to do something about this.

“Takumi?”

Takumi spun around, lifting his head so abruptly that he thought his neck almost snapped.

“U-Umiko? What…what are you doing here?”

Umiko scowled, crossing her arms over her chest. Her hair was a mess, all flat on one side, and it was clear from her eyes that she’d just woken up.

“I was just gonna ask you the same thing.” She glanced at the clock, then back at Takumi. “It’s 5:31 AM. Why are you even awake?

"Um…” Takumi fiddled with the hem of his apron, trying to think of something to say. What could he say, though? That he’d woken up feeling bitter and decided to come here to distract himself, though it clearly wasn’t working?

“Papa was worried, you know?” Umiko continued, narrowing her eyes. “Said he heard the front door close and couldn’t find you. But he didn’t want to wake Dad up, so he woke me up instead.” She gestured dramatically at herself.

“Sorry…”

Umiko sighed, walking over to Takumi and leaning against the counter. “Apologize to Papa, not me. He was really worried, you know.” Her expression softened. “It’s not like you, you know. To just…leave like that, without telling anyone.” She turned her head to face him, looking him directly in the eye.

“Is something wrong, Takumi?”

Wrong? Takumi almost wanted to laugh, if he didn’t feel so bad for worrying his dad. Was something wrong? Where did he even start with that question?

When he realized Umiko was still looking at him, he replied with a “why would you think that”, which sounded a lot more spiteful than he had intended. If Umiko caught on, though, she didn’t show it.

“Well…” She drawled, tapping her foot against the floor. “For starters, if you woke up this early and couldn’t go back to sleep, you’d probably take a really long bath or stare out the window at Sakurai’s house or something.”

Takumi felt his face heat up with embarrassment, and he felt a twinge of annoyance in his chest. “How do you even know that?”

Umiko looked at him, expression completely deadpan. “Please Takumi, we’re twins.”

“But-”

Umiko held up a hand, silencing him. “You haven’t been coming to any of our joint practices, and you’re always saying you need to study whenever we’re hanging out.” She threw him a suspicious look. “What’s up, Takumi?”

To his surprise, Takumi felt even more irritated. He turned around, walking over to the counter and picking up the one tray of cookies that had turned out okay.

“Oi! Don’t ignore me, Takumi!”

“Nothing’s wrong, Umiko.” He walked over to another oven and pulled open the door, sticking the tray inside.

“Don’t give me that crap,” she snapped, walking over to Takumi. He turned around again, making his way to the counter and picking up the dirty mixing bowl, gripping it so tightly that his knuckles were visibly white.

“Everyone’s worried about you, you know?” Umiko continued, following closely behind Takumi. “We barely ever see you anymore, and even when we do, you don’t talk at all! You look all tired and sad and we can’t figure out why. Especially Sakurai!”

In any other situation, Takumi would’ve felt simultaneously pleased and like crap to hear this, that Sakurai was worrying about him, but right now he just felt mad. He felt his jaw unconsciously clench, and he was starting to hear the roar of blood-rush in his ears. 

“He’s really concerned, Takumi! He keeps asking me if you’re okay, or if you’re sick. He said that you’re not acting like yourself, and for once, he’s totally right-”

“What does he know?” Takumi yelled, slamming the bowl into the sink and turning around to face Umiko. She looked startled, taking a step back. “And what do you know? Don’t act like we’re around each other twenty-four-seven! The two of you barely see me because you’re always together, and it’s always been like that, so don’t pretend to act all concerned about me now!”

After a few seconds, Takumi’s vision cleared a little bit and he saw Umiko standing in front of him, arms limply at her sides and her expression stunned, maybe even scared.

Realization slowly crept over Takumi. He’d just…yelled. At Umiko.

His breath started quickening, and in some form of desperation and panic, he reached an arm out towards Umiko.

“Umiko, I-”

But Umiko was already collecting herself, wrapping her scarf tightly around her neck and making her way towards the door. Takumi could clearly see the hurt in her eyes.

“Wait, Umiko-”

“No, it’s fine” she said, and Takumi was taken aback by how…distant her voice sounded. “I’m sorry.” And then she turned around, opened the door, and left.

Takumi felt his face crumble. What had he just done? Had he really, really, just yelled at his sister for being concerned about him? Because he was jealous and spiteful that she was dating, and completely happy, with his unrequited crush? What was wrong with him?

He felt tears prickling at the back of his eyes, and he rested his head on the cabinet above the sink. No, don’t start crying now, he told himself, closing his eyes and taking deep breaths, struggling to keep his breathing rate normal. He’d been doing enough of that for the past few months. He’d just…have to apologize to Umiko later, make something up.

Unless she’s already figured it out by now.

Takumi sighed, wiping his eyes with the back of his hand. If that was the case, he’d probably just have to own up to it. Sure, it would make things awkward, but then at least he’d have a proper excuse to stay away from Umiko and Sakurai when they were together.

Just as he got up, massaging his temples, he heard the ding! of the oven timer. He walked over to the oven and pulled out the cinnamon rolls, which looked and smelled as perfect as they ever did. The sweet, fresh smell somehow managed to dampen Takumi’s mood even more.

Oh well, he thought, the voice inside his head bitter. At least you can do something right.



[haru-haru-hime]

I need to be stopped

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Squeeeeeeee! @bakapandy's Free! love children au is amazing. Here are Tomoyo and Umiko because they are so beautiful.

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-Tries to make punny shirt-