#fun fact my Valentine’s Day post last year was also of them but it’s lowkey embarrassing (bad art)

[jingledbells]

happy valentines day to these losers

[issaxcharlie]

Owen hosts Couple tag

Pairing: Charlie Gillespie x Artist Fem Reader

Summary: We play pretend world guys✨ (I missed them, I’m SoRryyyy.) So, Charlie wants some reassurance after starting to prepare his proposal to Y/N and makes this “genius” plan with Owen to find her answers without being suspicious. (She totally knows tho) also a lot of friendship fighting between Owen and Y/N because I had to, I made myself laugh a lot so I’ll hope at least makes you smile🤧🤣Anyways, have fun!

This is also my weird and nonsense way of doing sweet @marvel-ousnesss request of the we play pretend couple to do a couple buzzfeed quiz 💖

The blonde takes a deep breath before picking up his phone and heading to the living room, where his couple of friends and roommates are on the couch. Charlie is lying down watching television and Y/N is lying on top of him with her face snuggled into his neck, he hugging her around the waist while gently running his fingers down her skin.

The plan was simple, to help Charlie plan the perfect proposal and give him an idea of what she expects from her wedding, they were doing a “Couple tag” video. That way the questions wouldn’t be as suspicious. Of course, there are easier ways but we are talking about Charlie. They convinced Kenny to call her and tell her that it was to promote the second season that is currently being filmed, and she agreed.

Charlie mentioned many times that someone else had to ask her the questions because she reads her boyfriend like an open book, so his improvisation had to be perfect to keep his best friend’s clever girlfriend out of the hook.

He decided to start the live from his room so as not to give the singer the opportunity to think much about it, so he sits in the living room and focuses the image on his friends who are not affected in the least by their positions. After all, everyone already knows that they are a couple and that they live together.

“Hello, I’m Y/N Y/L! And yes, that sexy, beautiful, adorable and talented man is my boyfriend, Charlie Gillespie.” He blushes as the memory of their first night back as a couple invades the mind of the Canadian, who had his girlfriend in exactly this position when she was, as she said, 'practicing' her introduction. Sadly, this time it will not end like that night because his best friend and about 500,000 people are watching.

“Welcome to my first edition of the Couple tag everyone! Here's my first guest couple, I know it’s not much, but I promise to find someone worthwhile next time, this is just for practice." Charlie laughs but looks nervous. Instead, his girlfriend sits down and rolls her eyes.

"I can't believe you chose him over a puppy or a hamster." The girl says to her boyfriend while laughing at her friend's offended reaction.

“I'm going to write that down in my long enemies list, but for now I have a live to lead. Okay guys, so basically I will ask them questions and I will also choose who answers them because I’m the only one hot enough to call the shots here."

She laughs and sticks out her tongue. Charlie sits down too and she takes his hand to fiddle with it. She keeps arguing for a few minutes with Owen but shows no signs of not wanting to play the game so he starts before she regrets it.

“Okay, first one is for Charlie. How did you guys met? This is actually a good one because a lot of the fans think you met on set and are like this really intense couple who started to date the very first week without even knowing each other’s last names.”

They both start laughing at the comment. The truth is that they have seen multiple posts and comments online from people judging their relationship and how fast they were going, especially when they did that last interview together and Y/N said that Charlie was taking his sweet time to ask for marriage, since for the fans they only have one year and months of knowing each other.

“We have known each other since forever. Our moms were best friends and we were born only a few weeks apart so we've always been together. We grew up as best friends and were dating before Y/N moved to New York to play Daniela on Stardust." Charlie tries to shake off the memory of the last tearful kiss before Y/N got on the plane. Hopefully he’ll never have to part from her for so long again. Sometimes he can't even understand how he managed to get through those 5 years.

"So no, we don't know each other for just one year, but 22." She adds, kissing his nose.

"Y/N, honey. I didn't ask you, don't be rude and wait for your turn." Owen says teasingly, the girl laughs and throws a pillow at him.

“Okay, rude again. Y/N, What is the first thing that he ever gave you?”

“Oh my, this beautiful valentines card! We were like eight I think. The paper is red, and it is filled with gold and silver glitter stars. Inside is a big star that has written in the middle, “My bright star, happy valentine’s day. I love you. And a lot of doodles of my favorite things, like my guitar, a microphone, chocolate, and a little Charlie. Just adorable, I still have it and to date it is one of my favorite gifts.”

The emotion with which she responds makes Charlie's heart melt. That was the first time he called her bright star, and he kept saying it to her during every audition, every performance, every practice. The exact reason not even she knows, but maybe one of these days he'll tell her.

“Rude and a liar. The 22-year-old Charlie's handwriting is horrible, the 8-year-old Charlie handwriting could only be close to a squiggle, nothing more. Oh, and probably only you had the ability to read it. I very much doubt that was beautiful."

She opens her mouth in surprise and wrinkles her nose, feigning annoyance. “I liked you more when you had a crush on me. You were nicer.”

Owen's eyes widen and he turns to see Charlie looking for help but he just starts laughing. “Wh- What are you talking about, mean girl?”

“Oh c’mon, you totally did, Ohio.” She smiles at the camara while showing a superiority face.

“Really? I already told you a thousand times, I'm from Oklahoma. But hey, how funny, forget about Stardust and audition for Funny Girl!”

“Jokes on you, I would nail Fanny Brice.”

“Man, defend my honor!”

“Bro, I can’t. You totally did, I even got worried for a second there.” It is incredible to think about how their friendship has grown and matured over time. They went from Owen fangirling every time he saw her to being really good friends. All these fights are more of a show than anything else, the truth is that when nobody is recording they tend to be very cool around each other and the three of them have quite a pleasant dynamic now that they are living together for the show.

“I won, Idaho. Now, please continue.”

“Well, my friends embarrassed me on my own live. I can already imagine the headlines tomorrow. Anyways, Charlie, Would you let yourself in danger to save her?”

Charlie starts laughing as he drops his head on the girl's shoulder. "I think she's not going to let me lie, I always have and will continue to do so. For me it's always her safety first."

"Which has given me more than a scare but he's so freakin stubborn." She adds while looking stressed and Owen can't help but imagine all the situations Charlie must have put himself in before.

“I prefer you scared than in danger, beautiful.” He grins and kiss her lips, her facial expresions relaxing at his touch.

“Gross. Y/N, do you prefer a small wedding or a big wedding?” She can feel Charlie tense at the question, so she leans her body back to support it against him and give him a lowkey reassurance.

“I hadn't really thought about it, but I know that my almost mother-in-law has been planning it all her life so you should check with her.”

His mom. Y/N is right, as always. His mom is their biggest shipper and the wedding is probably something she’ll want to be an importart part of, maybe way more than with his brothers since she adores the girl as much as her own kids, and the fact that his girlfriend is even more aware of that fact than him makes him smile.

“Do you love it when someone refers you as ‘her boyfriend’?”

“Always. Especially if it's her. She has that little knack of saying it whenever she can and it’s the most adorable thing in the world.”

“Oh I thought she was just showing it off to me because she was intimidated by our chemistry. I don't feel so special anymore.” Charlie chuckles and sends a secret air kiss to his friend, who just smirks and fakes to blush.

“How would you handle it if you thought another man was hitting on her?” Owen asks the guitarist raising an eyebrow.

“She usually takes care of that situations, her method is to take me by the shirt and kiss me hard on the lips. I’m never going to complain about that.” Charlie says smirking and blushing.

“We are a celebrity couple, for better or for worse. I’m not having him in a fight when I can just kiss that beautiful lips and solve the problem.” Charlie smiles as he wraps his girlfriend in his arms, so she can't see his face with the next question.

“What do you dream of your marriage? Mmm, let’s go with Y/N.”

“Anything will be perfect if I spend it with the man of my life. My Char is my everything and my biggest dream is to live my whole life laughing by his side.” Owen pretends to vomit as Charlie fills her with kisses under the ear, clearly moved by her answer.

“Let’s get to someting less cheesy because I really can’t with you both anymore. Has anyone ever tried to break your relationship?”

Charlie rolls his eyes and thinks for a moment. “Yes. We were like seventeen, and this guy from hockey had this big crush on her, so he tried to flirt with her many times even though everyone knew she was my girlfriend, until one day that he made her too uncomfortable and things escalated between him and me. Luckily my brothers intervened before something else happened because he was much bigger than me. I would have totally lost.” He chuckles while his girlfriend turns to see his face and gives him another sweet kiss on the corner of his lips.

“Yes guys, they are this annoying all the time. How do I survive? A lot of yoga. Next question, If three guys are standing, and you have been blindfolded, then how would you recognize him? Guys we actually did this like three days ago on set.”

“It was awesome! We put my bandana on her eyes and since it had my smell she couldn't be guided by that to choose.” Charlie explains excited.

“We got the three of us, first Jeremy then Charlie and then me in front of her, then she began to lightly touch Jer's hand. Then she went to Charlie's, it didn't take her a minute to recognize him and she took him from the hair and draw him to her lips, it was actually a pretty smooth and risky move, I’ll give you a point for that, prodigy brat.”

“Char's body inadvertently reacts to mine. It was pretty easy to tell the difference, especially after touching Jeremy's hand.” She turns her head to give Charlie a soft kiss on the lips and then Owen starts laughing like crazy and telling her to come see a specific comment.

She gets up and goes to sit next to him, Owen changes the camera so that now they are the ones in the image and she begins to read aloud. “Charlie I could give you my... Oh my god!” Owen continues laughing, resting his head on his friend who simply watches the screen in shock.

“Thank god Charlie doesn’t know how to read.” Owen, who was just recovering from his giggling fit, laughs again as Charlie giggles and sticks his tongue out at his girlfriend.

"Who needs to read when you look this hot with sleeveless shirts." He jokes while winking at his partner, which seems to melt in front of the camera that is still pointing directly at her.

“The man has a point. Okay, Y/N move your ass back there I’m still in charge of this show. Would you prefer a silver or gold ring?”

She makes sure to move off the screen and sticks her middlefinger at Owen before heading back to her place with her boyfriend. “Good and really random question.” She smirks, not making contact with her boyfriend. “I don't have a preference, but I would love Char to design it. Obviously with the correct guidance, but yeah he choosing every detail and then explaining to me why he choose it would be the dream.”

Charlie smiles. He was already imagining something like this after so many years of gifting and has already been visiting the jewelry store several times to make sure he designed the perfect ring for his girl, a slight feeling of pride filling him.

“Which series does she thinks resembles your relationship?”

“She loves Boy Meets World and see a lot of us in Cory and Topanga. I can totally see it too, after all they too have known each other their whole lives and have a bond as strong as ours.”

“Well that explains why she’s always telling me ‘Life is though, get a helmet’ instead of actually help me.” She grins at the memory of Charlie’s last prank on Owen a couple of days ago, it was really good since she secretly helped him plan it.

“Man, It wasn’t personal. I do the same with Char. I’m not going to be known for being the one ruining prank war. Take it to the end of the road, if you need me to take you idiots out of jail I totally will... eventually.”

“My girl, everyone. Isn’t she awesome?” He watches her adoringly and she blushes in response, buring her head on his neck.

“She always has this enormous energy and personality but all it takes is for you to see her for her to melt, that’s... kind of cute actually. Okay next question Stardust, What about If Charlie tells you to marry him tomorrow?”

For the thousandth time that night Y/N can feel Charlie stressing out. The fact that he planned together with Owen and Kenny all of this just to make sure he was on the same page with her is the most adorable thing in the world.

“I’m pretty sure he knows I would always say yes. He could have gotten on a plane when we were 18 and told me ‘I don't want to be without you, let's get married.’ And I would have said yes. He’s my person, I have nothing to think about, I have always known it’s him."

Now it's Charlie's turn to melt, and Owen himself can't help but smile.

Charlie's confidence in what he has planned is higher than ever, and the day when he can finally make it official is near. He has been dreaming of this day with his Y/N for years and he will finally get it.

“Well guys, that was it, give it up to my favorite couple of dumbasses and please stop asking obvious questions. Will I be Y/N’s maid of honor? Of course I will. Oh, and tune in next week to see me becoming Kenny’s new favorite after I challenge Y/N in a dance duel with I got the music. Golden star is GOING DOWN."

Thank you for reading✨

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[fmdminji]

* ⠀⠀ ♡ ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀ hello, sweet loves ! guess who ?? it’s 𝐑𝐘𝐀𝐍 and i’m back at it again with a second muse, and to some of you, she may seem familiar at first glance ! so, without further ado, i’d like to introduce you to my beautiful babe, 𝐉𝐔𝐍𝐆 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐉𝐈, wish’s leader, and main vocal. i’ve based her slightly on my first ever muse in this group, yeo yeoreum, but i’ve updated her, and revised her, so that she’s more well-rounded in my eyes ! below the cut, you’ll be able to find a tl;dr version of her biography, some fun facts that weren’t mentioned in her bio, as well as some plot ideas ! if you’re interested in writing with us, don’t forget to 𝐏𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐓𝐋𝐄 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐓 in the corner so i can message you. love you all v much !

* ⠀⠀ ♡ ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀ BIOGRAPHY HIGHLIGHTS !

born in seoul, south korea to a single mother in seoul, south korea, minji’s upbringing wasn’t like many others in her class. she, her grandmother, and her mother all lived in a two bedroom apartment, and while the two women in her life worked hard to provide a great life for her, she was often dragged along to both of their jobs; finding a deep love for books, films, and television dramas, from a young age ! after all, she had to find little ways to entertain herself, so when she wasn’t keeping her nose tucked between the pages of a novel, she was lost in a land of fantasy; one where she was often the princess, and she was being rescued by a prince — a man that would save her from this lonesome upbringing. her obsession with romance started at an alarmingly early age, and by the time she was eight, she found herself filling up pages of diaries with love letters to boys in her class; keeping all of them a deep-dark secret from everyone !

however, when she was about to go and give her most coveted crush a valentine she’d saved a lot of money ( you know, a lot of money for an elementary schooler ) to buy, she was interrupted by another girl who, essentially, swooped in and stole her man, hah. the amount of jealousy and rage that flooded through her in that moment was so immense that, even to this day, those feelings of jealousy and wrath ( two of the deadliest sins to exist ) still have never left her, and unfortunately, they’re two of her most fatal flaws. that, and well, being almost desperate for a chance to fall in love with someone.

her teenage years were fairly mild, too, but every time she became entangled in a loving romance, she’d ruin it time after time for being controlling, possessive, and jealous, and it was hard for her to not only keep love interests for long periods of time, but her friends often found her hard to be around, too. her emotions were intense, and to be honest, all of them would find her exhausting to be around after awhile. so, even though she was able to make friends, they often left her alone, too, and the reason she was so attached to keeping men in her life is because she’s never had a father, nor any positive male influence, in her whole life. so, she uses romance as something to fill this void inside her.

though, when she was fourteen, she went with her mother to see a concert of decipher’s — a new boy group who had just débuted. they became her latest obsession, and her mom used money she’d saved up to treat her daughter to a day of fun together. though, while there, she was decided by bc entertainment scouts. her beauty is what made her standout, but when she auditioned, they realized she had a big voice, but little to no idea how to use it. so, after a private audition, they offered her a trainee spot.

her trainee experience was... rough. during this process, she learned to better control her voice, and she even picked up on how to play the piano pretty well, but after awhile, she got a bit bored with everything, so she made the bold decision to ignore the dating ban put in place and start playing the field. this is when she met her first love ( wanted connection ! ) and they began a relationship together that lasted a good while. he was in line to début in knight, and she was set to join the group now known as lipstick, but while the girls’ lineup was being finalized, they caught onto the two of them, and her punishment was that she wouldn’t début as lipstick’s lead vocal, as she was once told. they also forced her to end the relationship she was in, and her heart was broken.

so, in bc she remained, and she learned a lot about herself in those moments. not only did she get into trouble for even being in a relationship, but her jealousy continued to rise up back then, too, and she’d bully her fellow trainees — really, anyone who even dared to talk to her now ex-boyfriend while they were dating. deciding that she needed to focus on herself and her career so she could help her mother and grandmother out in the future, she quit screwing around and got to work, and later went on to début as wish’s main vocalist, and leader.

things started out well, but a few years in, she was beginning to realize that, while many of the other girls in her group were gaining traction and immense popularity, she was somehow falling behind. with hana now starring in dramas, sooyeon releasing tons of solo material, and now june about to make a solo début, too, her jealous rage is kicking in again. she went from a loving leader to someone that’s overwhelmed with envy for her own members, lol. so, that’s where she’s at now... wanting to kill all the girls in her own group that are more popular while she slowly starts to compete with them.

* ⠀⠀ ♡ ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀ FUN LITTLE FACTOIDS !

as mentioned before, minji knows how to play the piano, and towards the end of her trainee years, she began writing her own little songs for fun; she has a few done and complete. she doesn’t really think she’s much of a composer / producer, no, but she aspires to write her own solo music when the time comes for her to make a début.

ever since wish was able to make their own individual social media accounts, she’s taken that allowance in stride, and has become quite popular on instagram ! she not only posts beautifully edited photos of herself, and her surroundings, but she’s also known to post acoustic, piano-led covers of songs she loves.

she currently feels as though she’s not getting as many lines on wish’s tracks as she was in the beginning, and hates that she’s really only there to hit all the high notes and call it a day, lol. she wants to be trusted with more than what she’s given, tbh.

not very surprisingly, she’s been involved in a few dating scandals in her past career, but shockingly, they weren’t true, and since her début, she hasn’t really had a serious bf.

* ⠀⠀ ♡ ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀ LITTLE LIST OF PLOT IDEAS !

as denoted above, i’d looove to see her first love plot taken up ! i’ve envisioned the spot being taken by a member of knight, especially if they trained in bc from 2009-2012. they débuted first, so bc wasn’t able to truly punish them as badly as they were able to punish her. however, if you’re interested in this plot, and your muse isn’t a member of knight, but instead a member of charm, we can try to make that work somehow, too !

also mentioned above, she was a bit of an asshole to other girls while she trained from 2009-2012, and she softened slightly from 2012-2015. i’d love to see a plot where your muse was one of those girls she was really harsh to, and she’s had to try to make amends to her for it. in my eyes, this plot would make most sense if your muse is a member of lipstick, but we can see if we can make it work if your muse is in wish, too !

additionally, i’d love for her to have a best friend — male, female, or whatever else. this is someone who isn’t afraid to call her out when she’s acting like a brat, and though she gets so frustrated by that, she also appreciates it a whole helluva lot. their relationship will be really sweet, and they’ll be almost brutally honest with each other, but everything said is only out of love and respect, as they’d never want to truly wound one another.

i’d geek out really hard if like, your muse ( a member of decipher ) just so happened to be minji’s bias in the group, as she’s an avid fan, and she has a mad crush on them, and they either exploit how she feels about them and toy around with her, or they just avoid her at all costs because she’s... a bit much for them. that, or really, we can discuss other options if those two things wouldn’t fit your muse. i just think it’d be fun !

it’s no secret that my bbg loves love, and at one point in time, she became curious to know if she was interested in women, too. she tried to date your muse ( female-locked ) for awhile, but it didn’t work out, so she ended up breaking up with them. it could’ve ended really horribly and your muse hates her now, or they could be good friends. it’s up to your and how your muse would react to being led on by a confused straight girl.

being that minji dabbles in writing her own lyrics and playing the piano, i’d looove for her to have a producer friend, or partner of sorts, that’d start a soundcloud account with her. they’d release their own lo-fi, soft songs there, whether they be solos or duets, and it’d just be a really creative, fun-loving relationship. this could lead to a romance, or they could just remain close friends and creative partners; either option is fine with me !

speaking of romance: i’d love some people who really love playing with her heart, or who just use her for sex, and run the fuck away from her when she gets too attached.

the flip-side of that: i’d love for a guy, or girl really, to be really interested in her, but she’s too blind to see it, and instead, using them as like, a personal diary and spills all of her feelings to them about other people all the time. she doesn’t realize they have feelings for her, and it kills them when she talks about other people all the time, but they’re too afraid to really say anything to her rip.

i’d also like for her to have some lowkey fwb relationships, too. i just can’t promise that she won’t daydream about getting married to your muses, but you know... lol.

additionally, if you’re interested in discussing a more personalized, end-game romance plot that’s a slower burn, or something that burns up a little fast and they’re now stuck in a mess together, or whatever else, i’m open for discussions too ! don’t be afraid to let me know and we can talk about it a lot more !

[larrydiary]

I’m a Larry shipper, right? Why am i disappointed at the fandom, after coming back to it... +What even is Larry? + How can we save the ship

I was going through tumblr and came across some posts by anti’s 

First of all I want to clarify that I DONT hate Eleanor, I actually used to stan her a bit. I had these blogs about her and made a page saying We ship happiness or something with Elounor as avatar. I follow her on all my social media. Even if people say she’s untalented. She graduated Uni plus has a good sense of fashion so eh let’s forget that “beard” stuff. Let me live!

So why do we ship Larry. You have multiple types:

The O.G’s: They have been here since the first 2 years, anywhere between x factor days and 2012. They saw how close H+L were and started shipping them, probably from videos like this:

Be it platonically or romantically, they just thought they were cute together and loved seeing them interact and mess around. Right now they have either moved on from it all or are still here, using past moments as ‘proof’ or just still love their relationship, be it platonically or romantically. A lot use old blog posts and videos as a way to convince the newer generation that Larry was and is something, they promote their friendship mainly . Again, not all of them make up theories and see every moment as proof. 

It is also quite obvious that since a lot of em are a bit older, that they ship Larry without being too annoying. That doesn’t count for everyone however...

New Gen. 2013-2015: These shippers either found out about 1D a bit later or just found out about Larry. They have watched countless proof videos and are convinced that H+L are together. By doing so much research they’ve learned a lot about Larry. They probably use the dug up moments and posts from the OG’s as a way to convince others that Larry is real or at least tell them about the ship.

1) So you have the shippers who DEFINITELY ship it and are 99.9% convinced it’s real and even when they start to doubt it they watch a lot of videos to re-convince themselves it’s real. They are often found analysing everything H+L do. 

1.5) Some even go so far as to hate on the GF’s, and sometimes they don’t even realise they are doing it. Traits: Call the GF’s names, try ‘their best’ to not disclose who they are talking about but do a terrible job at it (E.G “E is such a bitch, I don’t like her, neither do I like Br, ew!”), hate on the GF’s without reason (E.G. They see a picture of said GF and rant about how terrible they are, without good motives.), automatically dislike any woman who get’s associated with H or L, especially when the media reports they are rumoured to be dating. Even if it’s just an interviewer, a family member/friend, or a celebrity that H/L admire/look up to/respect/befriended. Ahem.

Apparently that is what people call, ‘a Larrie’.

2) You also have the shippers who mainly love their friendship. They’re okay with whatever as long as the two are happy and have a healthy friendship. They want them to interact more but don’t want to force the shipping thing. They don’t really research and dig a lot. They just admire and support from a distance.

They’re usually new to it, and chose not to fall into the rabbit-hole of Larry, maybe a friend introduced them to it, or just have other OTP’s and don’t really want to pay too much attention to Larry.

3) You have the people who are right in between. They would LOVE it if the two were together but aren’t mad at the fact they might just simply be friends. They like the concept of them dating, they might love Larry videos, make or love fanart, read or write fanfics. That in my opinion is the true definition of shipping, just loving the concept and idea of two people being together, having the opinion that they fit together. Nothing else! They want to think it’s real, but don’t force it. They always rethink what is proof and what is not. Always try to find a logical answer and are not afraid to deny said ‘proof’ but also on the other hand, try their best to convince others that there was something going on between them and possibly still is. E.G. they tell people stories about the past, show them footage, but do not want to force the people to believe it’s real. They don’t try to indoctrinate them. They just want to share the ship...

Aka the said friend of version 2.

It’s probably quite obvious i am that one^ 

So let’s see. People started shipping it cause they were always so close. And the others knew, they saw. They lowkey shipped it. The looks they gave the two, the “You two are so cute!” ~Niall, when Harry said his valentine was Louis. the ‘You two are together, aren’t you?” by Liam, the “When was the last time you kissed a girl?” ~int “When was the last time you liked it?” ~ Liam. Niall’s looks and smirks at the two. The boys teased them about it a lot and it was all fun!

There were even people who asked them if they were dating, and when Louis was going to propose to Harry. And did they mind? No! Because even if half of the people who shipped them were kind of convinced they were going out, the two still played along, made jokes about it and fed the shippers. They loved to see the shippers reaction, they chose to queer 1D, despite the rumours and jealous guys trying to hate on 1D, calling them stupid names.

Just a side note. watch this

Korean boybands can do this... why can’t Larry? And you know that Kpop management companies are a lot like Modest... Even worse sometimes, you know that South Korea isn’t nearly as open to the LGBT as the west. YET THEY GET AWAY WITH IT!!!

People wrote fanfics, made fanart, made compilation videos(Larry moments), it was okay!

But then stuff started changing. Even when Louis said he had a GF, the two were seen acting in a way that made it seem he did not have a GF at all, similar to how they were right when Louis’ relationship with Hannah ended. Sometimes even worse. People loved it! JOKING that GF was hired! But there were people who took it TOO FAR! They hated on the girl, sent her hate, tried to sabotage their relationship. Louis didn’t like it. 

Now to back paddle a bit. Yes it was quite obvious Harry did like Louis to an extent. And Louis didn’t mind. He was there for the boy. Cared for him like his little brother, as a best friend. People thought Louis was gay cause he was quite flamboyant, well what do you get after growing up with so many sisters? Plus, have you seen him when he was a teen? I used to follow him on Bebo. He had girlfriends, and they were real. Now, not saying they’re 100% straight either, chill down, people. 

I guess through the years, Louis actually started to like Harry too. Maybe? No? Okay! but there was definitely some man love going on, as H+L friend would say. More fuel for the shippers.

To that point it was okay. But to resume what I started to say about the GF. People turned into pricks! Even IF the GF was hired, which i don’t want to comment on, sending hate to her went too far. We don’t need that kind of negativity in our fandom. It broke us apart! It made us all less close... 

Fast forward a bit and we are in the “She’s my girlfriend, People genuinely think me and Harry are together!” era! The two started getting less close. Presumably because they caught on. Louis found out about the hate, obviously. He thought that minimising the touchiness with Harry would make things less complicated. But it made it worse cause people found out. By now you have two sides. The side which realised what they were doing and is even more convinced that GF is fake, cause ahaha why would he do that to his poor Hazza if Modest! didn’t tell him to? And the side who started to believe in Louis+GF more. By now you know I’m talking about Eleanor but yeah.

So you can either believe Modest was there from the start and hired Eleanor, (who had a friend who worked at Modest) Because Modest didn’t like the idea of two guys being in a relationship going public, having her be the muse, the lover, the topic of the songs, or that Modest started interfering when they found out about the rumours getting worse.

The latter can mean that Larry was nothing more than a Bromance (or a one sided love cause Harry liked Louis, it was mutual but they stayed friends for the benefit of... being friends. You almost can’t deny that and if you do then i guess it was just a theory) and when the rumours went overboard, Modest took action and told them to stop being so touchy feely.

Harry for example, only get’s rumoured to be dating someone,he get’s papped hanging around a girl and the second it gets out, new articles start to sprout out of nowhere, and whenever things do get “confirmed” they never end well or last as long as Elounor did.They are mostly high profile people. He’s been getting labeled as a womaniser since pretty much the start of their career. That somewhat correlated with Larry since the womaniser image got people to not believe in the HxL rumours too seriously.  

I made a rant about that in 2012 but it was super messy so i’m not going to go into that.

Either way, them being less close made people even more suspicious and to this day, even after them awkwardly denying rumours, even after Zayn saying it is not real. People believe they are together. Why? cause proof videos. I believe that if you are a true anti, you should at least dare to watch the 30 most iconic Larry moments, and if after all that you still stand by your opinion, then respect to you. 

There were far too many suspicious moments. Even if half of what they were trying to do was  a joke. You can not deny that they really loved each other. And something ruined it. 

The thing about their management company glaring at them or giving signs of approval whenever they do something wrong, or the thing about them giving signals not to answer a question is not made up. There is actual footage of them looking behind the camera and the interviewer saying they have to either stop an interview or saying they are not allowed to ask that. 

So why would the management company do such a thing when it is so obvious that the fans really like shipping the two boys?

The reason is because, even if the fans have no problem with it, others do. Outsiders do. A lot of celebrities don’t get permitted to come out. They have to act a certain way and get introduced to girls they have to date for a month or two, sometimes even years. With every generation you have a group of people who completely despise the concept of gay relationships. 

Now there are some groups and artists who’ve come out and are doing perfectly fine. But if you have as big as an audience as One Direction, things become more problematic. It is not only the fact that hundreds of girls who feel they have a chance with the boys or are raised not to approve of anything that has to do with the LGBTQ+ (so they grew up with homophobic parents) pretty much get a slap to the face. It’s that they will get so much attention that all the homophobic people in the world, potentially people who can influence a big group of people, will possibly start to hate on them, all these kids who are unfortunate enough to have closed minded parents will not be allowed to listen to the boys anymore. Their entire image will have a massive switch.

Now that they are solo, they have far more time to focus on themselves. Time to reshape and tweak their public image, time and space to show the world who they really are. They are breaking free from the bubble gum pop bubble. They are free to do whatever they want

When they first got put together, people started to say stuff like “One Direction is gay” Using ‘gay’ as an insult just to seem cool cause people thought that liking One Direction was shameful. Especially because of the often obnoxious fans. People simply did not want to be associated with them. But One Direction grew!

I don’t see them coming out any time soon. At this point i am not even sure if they are still together. Especially with the recent events regarding Louis.

I want to say that when Louis and Eleanor first started dating, it was quite awkward, but their relationship started looking realer as time passed by.  This time, it just does not at all. Not judging her, i love her. It’s just strange. She got back with someone who “cheated” on her and has a kid with someone else, you’d expect her to ask her boyfriend to do a paternity test. But that is their thing. They can do whatever they want.

Also regarding recent events. Harry seems to be so much more free. He’s swinging and waving around LGBT flags and is being more flamboyant than ever. 

Flashback to a couple of years ago when the boy said he liked girls, didn’t like nail polish or make up, and talked about girls. The boys kept mentioning he’s changed. They of all people would understand what exactly changed. 

Now about Louis.

That is just weird. Moving on.

I believe that we should all just chill and stop the negativity, I didn’t want to believe the misogyny until someone pointed it out to me, don’t get me wrong, i did see it before, but when I came back to this fandom I didn’t think it would be so much worse. 

Theories get annoying unless there is proof, in my opinion you can do whatever you like with them, as long as you are aware that your theory might be false/debunkable! 

You can ship it as much as you want but DON’T send hate to the GF’s, like, if you ship Larry, why waste time on them in the first place?

Maybe if we all stop commenting Larry on everything we see, maybe then they will come back as close as they were before. Cause it was quite prominent that Harry was saddened by it. They have good and bad memories from the ship. 

Just please guys, Larry is fun and i love it, but what I don’t like is all these “shippers” who point at Larry and management, everytime something happens between the two.

But I also don’t like people who attack the shippers, without listening to them first, stand in each others shoes, try to understand each other and why the other person thinks a certain way, step out of your own shoes for once ahaha. We’ll get to understand each other more that way. WE ALL HAVE TO HAVE AN OPEN MIND!!!

Louis said this:

“My main hope for the future is that we all remain best friends throughout everything. I would hate it if anything ‘affected?’ our friendships.”

Sadly something did happen, we have two years to fix things. Maybe i’m just crazy cause i miss the good old days. But let’s at least consider it.

Can we make a plan? Start shipping Larry the way we did in 2011. Just secretly. Let’s not go overboard and theorise everything. Even if it is just for a couple of months. Let’s focus on the friendship! Make them believe we have moved on and know it’s just friendship. I really want to focus on that the next couple of years. 

I call it the Larry Reset! Hopefully now there won’t be an article to come out which says “Larry shippers have moved on and have accepted that Larry was a Bromance. Want it back the way it was.” Actually tbh let that happen!

[halalhyungwon]

1-100 odds

Jaz you’re a real one

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?

It depends on the cereal, tbh. Some cereals I prefer a lot of milk and others I put less

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?

I’ve used my phone, random sheets of paper, pens/pencils, white out tape…

5: are you self-conscious of your smile?

A lil bit

7: do you name your plants?

I don’t have any plants :( If i did, I probably would

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself?

Yes, I do it constantly

11: what’s an inner joke you have with your friends?

Inner joke? Like, inside joke?… I have a lot. And yet, I can’t think of one to share lmao

13: what’s something that made you smile today?

I was on the phone with my bestie for like 5hrs and I hadn’t called them in a while so that made me happy (: 

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!

“A total of 32 monkeys have flown in space.”

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair?

This shade of purple that Minseok had because it is sooo pretty. I’ve wanted to dye my hair that color for the longest time

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it?

I do have a journal and I used to write in it regularly but kinda stopped once I got into sophomore year of college. It was kinda my brain dump and also where I just spilled all my emotions that I never talked to anyone about

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that’s been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.

Favorite?? Hmmm there’s the bag my cousin bought me for my high school prom. It’s cute and small and white and going over your shoulder. I don’t use it much but I’m still happy to have it.

23: what’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?

watch exo and seventeen make fools of themselves lmao

25: what’s the weirdest place you’ve ever broken into?

I don’t recall breaking into anywhere…but I remember one summer my brother and I went for a walk to a school in my cousin’s neighborhood and an alarm went off and scared tf out of us

27: what’s your favorite bubblegum flavor?

wintermint (?) i think it’s called

29: what’s something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing? 

One of my friends has this pack of cards that says “I LOVE YOU BECAUSE” and then it has a bunch of bullet points for different reasons you could love someone. She gave me one sophomore year and another one just recently and honestly it’s so sweet

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks.

Socks and I…we acknowledge each other’s existence and hang out when we need to. I only where socks with my sneakers and boots, and when it’s really cold. I cannot where socks all day. Like it’s impossible. When I wear socks I just feel hyper aware of the fact that there is cloth on my feet and it makes me uncomfortable. I can’t go to sleep with socks on, unless I’m extremely tired and just fell asleep. Even then, I’ll wake up with my socks kicked off in the morning.

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.

Most recently! My friend and I were trying to observe the meteor shower last weekend. And like the thing is for the first hour or so we didn’t see any and kept trying to find the best place to observe them. Then, I finally saw one, but it was right when my friend was looking down so she didn’t get to see it! And then, another hour or so passes and it just seems like we’re never gonna see another one, so we decide to head back to our dorms. BUt, on the way back we find a spot that would be just perfect to see them, so we just loitered there for almost another hour, jammin to music and just waiting to see some shooting stars! And then the next one comes but it happens right as I’m looking at my friend to talk to her, but she’s looking up so she gets to see it. After that some time passes and it’s already 3:30 a.m. and I’m tired and lowkey gotta pee, so we start making our way back to the dorms again. And then we find another spot that would be good viewing, so we chill there for a while because, though we’ve both seen a shooting star, we haven’t see one together. So we’re standing there, chillin, being goofs and listening to trap remixes of the Wii theme, when we both look up and go “OH!!!” and freak out bc we finally saw another shooting star and it was just great. 

(I realized I answered this even tho it’s not odd but i’m just gonna keep it bc i love it too much)

33: what’s your fave pastry?

do cinnamon rolls count as pastries?…i could really go for one…

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often?

Yes I do!! But I don’t have many :(( Part of me wants to buy a big set but like I already have a bunch of pens and notebooks (but they arent all aesthetic and pretty and stuff) and I also think i’d stop using them after a week or so

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean?

I like having a neat room (I cleaned my room today I’m so happy, it looks so spacious) 

39: what color do you wear the most?

Black, probably

41: what’s the last book you remember really, really loving?

I don’t read often but I think the last book I really enjoyed … Howl’s Moving Castle

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?

@batmanlemonade hey ;) [see #32]

45: do you trust your instincts a lot?

No? maybe? idk

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe?

pickles…

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?

I wishhh I could just buy all the cd’s i’ve ever wanted. If I had more money I probably would have a nice collection. The last CD i’ve bought was back in high school and I think it was OneRepublic’s Native album

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them?

My little brother… whenever i hear transformer, touch it, monster or kkb I think about him bc those are his favorite exo songs loll

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them?

I don’t think I’ve watched any of these but beetlejuice, and I love beetlejuice

55: what’s the most dramatic thing you’ve ever done to prove a point?

I scrolled through my kyungsoo tag for a good hour or so to prove to my friend how much i love him sfdjkl; that’s not very dramatic but it’s the first thing I thought of. She really didn’t question that I loved him, I just love any excuse to look through my tags

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics?

bohemian rhapsody is a classic sfkl; um it always reminds me of my childhood bc my brothers and i used to watch these animated videos and one of them was of bohemian rhapsody but with megaman characters lmao

59: what’s your favorite myth?

UHmmm I really don’t know lol sorry

61: what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? the stupidest one you’ve ever received?

In sophomore year I wanted to buy my roommate her favorite flavor of ice cream but I didn’t have money so I drew ice cream on a post-it note for her I can’t think of a stupid gift I’ve received…

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be?

lol no, i just let ‘em be. they’re chillin

65: is there anyone you haven’t seen in a long time who you’d love to hang out with?

my cousin who’s in med school, I haven’t seen her in too long :c

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel?

I kinda like those days. If I’m in a good mood, gray skies, cool breezes and light rain make me feel better. Otherwise, it’s just meh.

69: what are your favorite board games?

There’s this Korean board game that I can’t remember the name of for the life of me, and tbh since I haven’t played it in a while I don’t remember the exact rules, but it’s kinda of like Sorry! I’ve only played it twice but it was really fun both times

71: what’s your favorite kind of tea?

Chai

73: what are some of your worst habits?

putting myself down and procrastinating

75: tell us about your pets!

I don’t have any :-( I’ve been really wanting a cat lately

77: pink or yellow lemonade?

Pink~

79: what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?

Hmmm when I was in high school I reeeally loved Michael Buble (I still do, have you heard that man’s voice?) so for Valentine’s day, my friend got me this box and taped his face on the top lmaoo with a reference to one of his song lyrics. The box was filled with flowers and chocolate and gum (but at the time I had braces so i couldn’t even chew the gum lolll)

81: describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.

I really wish I could but I’m not creative and this headache I have isn’t helping safhjlk sorry

83: what’s some of your favorite album art?

I really like the cover for 1R’s Native album, and also p!atd’s too weird to live too rare to die

85: do you read comics? what are your faves?

Not really, but I’d like to

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?

Howl’s Moving Castle, Room No 7 starring Do Kyungsoo, coming out November 15 and..I can’t really think of another one

89: are you close to your parents?

Kinda sorta

91: where do you plan on traveling this year?

i have no plans to travel :( 

93: what’s the hairstyle you wear the most?

My hair in it’s natural state lol covered by my hijab

95: what are your plans for this weekend?

Chillin! I was supposed to lock myself up in my room and finally watch the exo and seventeen concerts I have downloaded but i haven’t gotten around to watching them yet. But I have been chillin in my room so it’s been alright

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house?

infp, scorpio, and i have no idea

99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.

UHhhmmm Call Me Baby and Heaven by EXO; Healing and Don’t Listen in Secret by Seventeen; Hug Me by Jung Joon Il

[itsyoungjaeee-blog]

Romantic life during college

Two months ago, I graduated from the University of Hawaii at Manoa. During the course of the five years that I spent in that school, I encountered numerous romantic interests - some successful... and some not so successful... With that said, this will be a long post. So please bear with me.

Girlfriend | Well this relationship carried from when I was in high school. This person would end up being my first, last, and (probably the) only girlfriend in my life. During high school, I was confused. I knew I was attracted to guys, but I wasn't sure about girls. Furthermore, I didn't know what love was and what it meant to be in a romantic relationship. I was always good friends with this girl; we had the same hobbies and our interests lined up. We also saw each other outside our club, which made us closer. This closeness led me to believe that she and I should start dating. Thinking back, I think she asked me out two days after Valentine's day through text. LOL. I said yes and I started my first official relationship of my life. The next two years would bring numerous good memories and a handful of frustrating ones. I ended up moving away to a different island for college and she stayed back, and so we decided to do long distance. To be honest, long distance wasn't that bad. I had a lot of fun during my first year of college. Maybe that’s why as time went on, I started to lose feelings for her. Throughout the two years we dated, we never kissed - not even on the cheek. Did I truly love her? Yes... in a platonic type of way, but romantically? No.... I would not learn this very important fact until much much much later, and maybe that’s why we ended up dating longer than most people expected.  I felt guilty that I continued this relationship, and so during the summer after my first year of college, I broke up with her. After we broke up we promised that we would keep in contact and stay as friends. We told each other that if we truly were meant to be with each other, we’d end up together in the future again. I am confident that will never happen. I try my best to avoid her to this day. Seeing her again only reminds me of the days that I felt confused in my life and guilty for dating her. Looking back, I did learn something very important from this relationship - I’m not interested in girls. My mom would be sad to hear about this, but it’s not something I had a choice in. I was born this way, and that’s simply it. 

Lesson: I’m not interested in girls. 

Baritone | Baritone guy was a guy that played baritone in my section when I was a sophomore in college. He was white.. and cute.. and obviously gay. HAHAHA To be honest, we weren’t really that close.. until this one night. Our section had a drinking party at a hotel room after a football game. Everyone got really drunk and everyone mostly passed out sometime around 3 or 4 am. I was also intoxicated, but I was still awake at this time. Baritone guy was also awake at this time and we continued to drink together in the living room in our suite with some other people. He was also drunk (I think). His face was red and he was smiling. We were having a nice conversation and all of a sudden he leans over and he kissed me! In the middle of the room of passed out drunk people, he fucking kisses me!!! I was shocked, but at that moment, his lips felt so nice and warm and then I felt the tongue. I was like WHOAAAAA is this really happening?? I was drunk.. but I was conscious enough to realize what was happening. Well at that time, I was young, single, and drunk... and so why would I refuse to make out with someone. And so we continued to make out for the next couple minutes. After we stopped kissing, I remembered he had a boyfriend. HE HAD A FUCKING BOYFRIEND. WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY. I was pissed. I never wanted to be home-wrecker. And so I got up and walked away from the guy. Later, I would return to the living room to sleep on the floor. The room got really cold and I started to uncontrollably shiver for the next couple minutes. Then all of a sudden, I felt a hand start to rub my back to warm me up. Guess who it was was... it was baritone guy T_T It was really nice of him to do that, but still though... he really took care of me that night and that was my downfall. We ended up going back to the other room to sleep because the room was too cold to sleep without a blanket. In the other room, we got a pillow and shared it. We more or less cuddled to sleep that night. In the morning, one of the older people caught us sleeping together and decided to take a picture. I got worried. At this point in time, my section didn't know my sexual orientation. Baritone guy, however, calmed me down and promised to talk to the guy that took the picture and convince him to not show it to anyone. Later that week, he eventually accomplished this goal, which made me relieved. The coming week after this event became... hmm awkward. We would continuously text each other for the next week or so. He’d also flirt here and there.. and yeah. His kind gestures, actions, and flirtations got to me. I genuinely started to like him, even though I knew I shouldn't. In the coming weeks, I confront him again about his behavior and his boyfriend situation. It was then that I heard the very thing I knew from the beginning - he still loves his boyfriend. After this whole thing, I told myself to never talk to him. It was quite difficult to do that because I saw the guy 3-4 times a week... Getting over him was tougher than I expected. Here I am, still young and just got out of a relationship, and I finally found someone that was interested in me that I really liked... and yeah I was heartbroken. There were many times that I secretly wanted him to break up with his boyfriend so he could come back to me, but it never happened. I eventually moved on. He texted me one day the summer after this to see how I was doing. I didn't reply.. because by then I’d would have a different guy that I was dealing with. #swerve 

Lesson: Guys can be douchebags.

Aiden | Have you ever watched those cute, dramatic Korean dramas where the main couple would fall in love under weird circumstances, have many cute-to-die-for moments and have obstacles in their relationships that they faced? Well, this was that type of relationship. In the summer between my sophomore and junior year, I studied abroad in South Korea at Yonsei University. I went to that country to sightsee and improve my Korean - basically live and enjoy life. It was an amazing time in my life, but not every day was a good one. On one day, I was having a rough day because the group of friends that I thought were my friends. Because I was bummed, I stayed home that night. I downloaded this gay app called Jack-d just to see what happens. Well, I ultimately ended up talking to this Korean guy named Aiden. At that time, my Korean wasn't that good, but he was able to understand my messages and he replied to them. He asked me why I wasn't out playing because it was a Saturday night. I told him that I wasn’t having a good day because of the friend thing. I didn't really expect him to do anything, but he was like, do you want to go out for some fresh air? It was sketch.. but I was like YOLO and I agreed to meet him. He ended up driving his dad’s van and he picked me up from the Yonsei dorms. It was an interesting encounter. My Korean wasn't good then and his English wasn't good at all. How did we become friends? I don't know. HAHAHA but he took me to the top of a mountain where it overlooked the beautiful city of Seoul (Lowkey, kind of romantic). We talked a lot that night and I had fun. We also agreed to meet each other more in the future, and we did. Our second “date” was at the movies. We were supposed to watch this English movie, but it wasn’t playing that night, and so we ended up watching this Korean comedic movie about an entertainment troupe that fought bad guys during the Joseon dynasty. We had dinner after the movie, but then we realized that we missed the last subway to Sinchon. So he took me to his house, got his car and drove me home. It was pretty sweet of him to do that... hahaha Our third date was just dinner. Like myself, he was a college student and he worked at a gas station part-time. He worked til midnight and so we decided to go for late dinner and drinks. Well, we got a bit drunk and as a result, we got really close to each other that night hahaha I remember that night was raining. I didn't bring my umbrella, but he did, and so we shared one. We were so close to one another that I probably could’ve kissed him easily (but I didn't).  The last time I met him that summer was my very last night in Korea. He really wanted to see me before I leave, and so he took his car and showed up in front of my hostel at midnight. We were just talking in that car about how it was so nice that we met each other. He was sad. Somewhere along that way he kissed me. I was very surprised. After he did that I backed off and I started laughing, and so did he.  The entire time, I was under the impression that we were just friends (because if he was interested, he would’ve made a move much sooner). Well, he WAS interested in me... but it was my last night. The rest of the night, we talked... kissed some more and did some other stuff ㅋㅋㅋ and it was fun. If I only knew much sooner... 진짜 이쉽다. But we had to part ways because I had to catch an early flight in the morning the next day. And so we said our goodbye’s. After I left the country, we stayed in contact here and there. Looking back, have I stayed there longer, I would’ve ended up dating him, but it’s okay. I saw him again during the times I went back to Korea. By then, times have changed and I didn't feel the same way I used to. So now, it’s just one nice happy memory. #summerfling 

Lesson: If you are interested in someone, make it known early. If not, you might regret it later on. 

John | In my junior year, my friends and I decided to room together in the Hale Wainani towers. Often, my roommates played video games in our living room during Friday nights. I wasn’t really interested. So one night, I decided to go on Jack-d and see if any cute guys were on. I ended up talking to this local Korean guy. He wasn’t bad looking and we started talking in Korean (which really struck my interest). I wasn’t doing much that night and neither did he, and so we ended up deciding to meet each other that night. He lived close to the university and so we met in front of fed-ex. Again it was sketch... but I was bored and YOLO. We saw each other and we just started walking and talking. We ended up at the Ala Wai Park and we sat on a bench and we just talked. Until the sun came up. It was amazing. I was really surprised. We didn't really have much in common, but we ended up continuously talking for 6+ hours... After the sun came up, we decided to part ways and go back to sleep. At this point, I didn't really think we would see each other again, but to my surprise, we did. We ended up meeting at night the following week to talk for the entire night again. It wasn’t our intention to... but it just ended up that way. At that point, i was really interested in him and I thought he was interested in me too. We even went on a date. We had Korean food and froyo. It was really cute HAAHAH We ended up not getting together at the end though... He was unsure because of the return of his ex-boyfriend to his life and I told him I’d wait.. well he never got back to me about that... and I found someone else HAHAHA #whoops?

Lesson: Don’t get your hopes up. Just because the relationship starts well, doesn’t mean it will end well. 

ZH | Where do I even begin with this one? Haha everytime I think about him, it only brings back really good memories. Good good good memories :) You see, he was my first love (so as Mary says). It was an unrequited love, but it’s still love, you know? I started to like him when I noticed his change in attitude towards me when I came back from Korea in the summer. I’ve known this guy for two years and he was really cute... and he had the nicest smile (nice smiles =  key to my heart), and he was squishy to the point where I always wanted to hug him. LOL. He was also exceptionally smart, had a good sense of humor, and was nice and kind - basically the perfect guy! In my third season of marching band, we got close; we started to talk more in and outside of practice, he always offered to give me rides to things, we joked around, and all that good stuff. Our section always hung out after games, and I remember only going to those outings if he went. And when I did go, I’d always make sure to ask him for a ride because it meant that I could talk to him and spend more time with him. We certainly got close over that. This cute puppy dog love/ crush grew into something much more bigger than I expected. Thinking back, he was basically my dream guy. Thinking of him only gave me good thoughts, and as a result, I fell for him hard. Really really really fucking hard. If I knew this, shouldn’t have I did something to let him know that I was interested? Well no... There was just one problem- he was straight. Well.... everyone thought he was. I, being infatuated with this guy, was in denial. Because of this, I always kept my hopes up and I messaged this guy frequently. I even asked him out on a date (well I thought of it as a date, but he probably didn't think it was) and I even gave him a Christmas gift that year because I knew what kind of things he liked. I was in love with the guy and this continued for two years. It was tough; he was straight, and so that meant that he was basically unreachable... Eventually, I slapped myself the cold hard truth and forced myself to stop talking to him so I could move on. It was hard... I saw him soooo often that every time he did someone cute, the feelings would come back. After he graduated from the university, he ended up getting a good job on the mainland. I got a chance to see him recently and I’m genuinely happy to know he’s doing quite well for himself. He even treated me to dinner! Thinking about him and my past love for him always makes me smile. Do I regret not confessing my love for him? Nah, it’s better this way. I don't want anything awkward between us. Will I ever confess in the future? Maybe when I’m drunk. If he ever admits that he liked me back, I’d be so heartbroken.

Lesson: Don’t fall in love with straight guys; you’ll only get disappointed in the end. 

Maggot | My sister made this name for him, not me. HAHA Basically during my winter break in 2015, I took my sister to Korea for the first time and we were able to travel in Busan for the new years holiday. NOTE: I never come to Korea with the intention to find a guy, but for some strange reason, I just end up finding these guys (and never in Hawaii ㅠㅠ)  hahahah I met maggot on Jack-d and we had a good conversation about food (because that’s what his pictures on this profile mostly consisted of). We ended up talking for all the days that I was in Busan. Turns out, he is not from Busan and he actually works in Seoul. It worked out for us because I had to return to Seoul anyway and we both agreed to find a time to meet up for a meal before I left. So we continued to talk until then and sometimes even on the phone. He’d always compliment me on how nice my voice sounded (which was low-key kind of weird). So we met up near his workplace because we were supposed to get lunch together. When I saw him for the first time, he was short. Like more than half a foot shorter than me. Normally, I’m not conscious about my height, but he was short. LOL Well basically during that first hour, he gave me a tour of his workplace and even introduced me to his coworkers and boss (which was weird... again). But finally, he managed to escape work for lunch and we left his workplace. Both of us weren’t really hungry and so instead he suggested for us to go to a 노래방 to sing. That guy was sly because he obviously wanted to hear me sing (I can’t sing to save my life) so he could hear my “sexy” voice ㅠㅠ Well I tried (and failed) and he sang quite well :) That’s probably one of the reasons why I was interested in him. But we continued to talk and we met up a couple more times afterward. My sister even met him, and he slept over at our Airbnb one night. I still remember when we were shopping in Myeongdong and he couldn't keep his hands off of me. And that I bought shoes with shorter soles to wear so I don't feel like I am much taller than him. HAHAHA Towards the end, he was supposed to go back to his hometown in Daegu, and my dumb butt tagged along. There, he showed me his favorite restaurants and I even met his family. I fucking YOLO’ed so hard then. On the way there, I hid in the bathroom on the train and then lied to the train guard about missing my destination on my ticket so I could pay less for the fare. It was an adventure x 100. I eventually went back to Hawaii and as soon as I left, he stopped all forms of communication. I was sad... :( but life moved on, and another guy would later enter my life that following week. #sorrynotsorry

Lesson: Be adventurous and spontaneous. You never know where life takes you sometimes. You might even end up in Daegu. LOL

Cute guy | During this time, I was really sad. Maggot stopped talking to me and so I had to find a way to forget about him. I ended up on that app again (I don’t even know why ㅠㅠ)  and I started talking to this cute Korean guy. We talked entirely in Korean for the next several days, and it turns out that he was staying at my university and he wanted to take me out to dinner. I didn't think much about it because I was still kinda sad about the maggot thing. Originally, I didn't want to meet him because I had enough of guys (especially Koreans). I told my friend Mary about this and she convinced me to go. She told me to go for the free meal (HAHAHAHA). So I did. I met him to redeem my free meal. HAHAHA and he was surprisingly really cute in person and not all douche-baggy like most Korean guys. Even though we only talked in Korean in the text message, he was fluent in English and so we talked in English. He was really cool and chill. We were able to have intellectual conversations and such. I had a really great time. We ended up at a gay bar later that night. Actually, I had a previous commitment for a karaoke thing with my friends, and he walked with me to Waikiki from the university and he waited two hours for me to be finished with my friends. After karaoke, I went to the gay bar with him. We drank a lot and we got drunk and he made the moves HAHAH We were really intoxicated and so we took a taxi back to the university where we continued to hang out in front of Kennedy Theater. I woke up the next day with a bad hangover and I was fairly sure that he wouldn't talk to me after what happened the night before. To my surprise, he messaged me first the next day and we continued to talk. We ended up going on a hike a couple days later.  He even visited my dorms and met my roommates and friends. When he had to leave Hawaii to go back to Korea, he booked a hotel room near the airport because his flight was early the next day. He told me to come spend his last night in Hawaii with him and I did just that. We had dinner, watched a movie, and I slept that night in his hotel. I woke up early the next morning to say goodbye to him at the airport. We said goodbyes and I was very sure that he would stop talking to me after he left Hawaii like Maggot. Once again, he shocked me. He sent me a message as soon as he arrived in Hong Kong and Seoul. We would continue talking to each other for the next three months because I was under the impression that we were in a “썸” relationship. Turns out I was wrong. We had a conversation about our relationship and he told me he has no intentions of being in a relationship. I was really angry because I felt like I’ve been led on. So I stopped talking to him. By then, he changed the course of my life. I told him I planned on returning to Korea to study abroad later that year for the fall semester. I wanted to be outside of Seoul in Gwangju.... but he convinced me to stay in Seoul because “it would be too far for him to see me.” I, thinking we were in this 썸relationship, listened to him and I applied to Sogang University instead of a school in Gwangju. Well.. despite the outcome of our relationship, this was a blessing in disguise, because I had the time of my life in Sogang. Eventually, I would end up meeting my first boyfriend in Seoul... so it was a good decision at the end. After not talking to the cute guy for the next several months, he contacted me while I was in Seoul. I was suuuuper hesitant to meet him, but I did because he was very persistent in seeing me. We met up and we had a good conversation. We met a few more times while I was there and we continued keeping in contact with each other. To this day we still continue to talk and through my up and downs in my relationship and last semester of college, he was there to support me. He was also my proofreader for my Korean essays :P I am very thankful to have an amazing friend like him in my life, and I can’t wait to catch up when I move to Korea later this month. 

Lesson: You really don't know where life would take you sometimes. So get rid of your expectations and just go with the flow. 

Yonsei | So when I got to Korea in the summer before my semester in Sogang, I ended up matching with two guys on Tinder. One would end up being the guy that could’ve been and the other one ended up being my very first boyfriend. Yonsei guy was the one that could’ve been. He was Korean-American and he was studying abroad in Yonsei for the summer. He was pretty nerdy and dorky, to be honest. I thought I wouldn’t like him, but he was really funny and it was so easy to talk to him in person. He was one of the very first guys that I matched with on Tinder when I got to Korea, but we actually never met in person until a month later. We met up for dinner and 노래방, and we had a good time. He also told me that he was in an on-and-off long-distance relationship and he wasnt really sure if he and his boyfriend were still together. So I was under the assumption that we were just friends in the beginning. Well, that changed when I took him clubbing; I took him to one in Hongdae and a gay one in Itaewon. He’s quite stiff and so I nagged him to go with me at least once before he left (he’s from Georgia). So we went clubbing in Hongdae first and that was quite fun. Nothing much happened. I danced, and he tried too. HAHAHA it was entertaining to see him have fun and at the end of the night, we ended up walking back to Sinchon together from Hongdae. From Sinchon, I had to take a bus to my hostel and so he waited with me at the bus stop. There was some tension that I felt then. It felt like he wanted to hold my hand or put his arms around me, but he didn't. Low key, I wanted him to, but since he didn't, I brushed it off. I went home that night and so did he. The next day, I jokingly suggested going to a gay club in Itaewon. To my surprise, he agreed and we met up that night again to go to a gay club. Going to a gay club in Korea alone was a life-changing event for me (I’m serious). I’ve never been in a room full of guys like myself and that no one will judge me. Thank goodness Yonsei guy was with me because I didn't think I would’ve had the balls to go up to any guy there and start dancing with him. So I ended up just dancing with Yonsei guy and both of us made sure we had enough soju to drink before going in. Well, we grinded the whole night. HAHAHAHA I was attracted to him (even when I was sober) and myself on alcohol let loose and I kissed the guy. That basically set the mood for the entire night. We had a really good time that night.  After this weekend of dancing, I made sure to see him again for dinner before he left. We said our goodbyes and I thought that would be it. Well jokes on me. He ended up taking a long subway ride to my hostel the night before he left Korea (doesn't this seem a bit familiar *cough* Aiden *cough*). We drank that night in front of the convenience store near my place and we talked about how much fun we had together. My drunk butt wanted him to stay with me the entire night and so we sleep together in my room that night. The next day, we said our final goodbyes and that was it. I didn't want to pursue anything because he still had to take care of his on-and-off long-distance relationship back home and he was going back to Georgia and I was going to be in Korea for the next six months, and then in Hawaii after. Logistically, our relationship wouldn’t have worked out. When he went back to Georgia, we continued to snapchat each other. We still continue to talk to this day and I hope to see him again in the future as friends. 

Lesson: Timing. Timing. Timing. Timing. Timing. It’s all about having good timing when you want to be in a good relationship.

Boyfriend | This guy changed my life. His impact in my life is so big that I can’t even begin to describe our relationship. From the very first moment when we matched on Tinder, to our awkward first movie date, to crying to one another on a bench in Yonsei, to the many subway rides to city hall to meet him after his classes, to when he made it official on top of namsan tower, to our 100th day date, to all the delicious food we ate together, to the many bus rides to Ilsan to see him, to all the arguments we had, to the time when I had to take to him the hospital, to the day he told me he passed his military exams, to our pocky day date, to all the cafe shops we visited, to all the time he sang me a song with his amaaaazing voice, to that time when we made couple rings, so the time when he kissed me unexpectedly in the streets of Hongdae, to the many times when he led me to the stairwell just so he can hold my hand, to the many times he sneaked a kiss in the elevator, to the subway ride where I cried because of him, to that time when he gave a surprise visit to my dorm to give me medicine that one week I was really sick, to that last week before I left Korea when we woke up early in the morning to have breakfast and lunch with each other, to the last hug and kiss I got from him before boarding my plane back to Hawaii, to all my 3 am and 4 am phone calls to him, to all those good morning kakao messages, to all those times he was there for me when I didn't have a good day, and to that one night when he broke up with me... and to that day when I got his very first message after he left for the military, to these days when we are just friends... I don't regret anything. I sincerely don’t. It was an amazing time in my life. It wasn't the smoothest relationship, but that is what made it a rewarding experience. We had so many obstacles in our relationship and we (almost) overcame all of them. We were each others first boyfriends; it was special. I will never forget this guy. He will always be my first boyfriend and no one can ever take that away from him. I will probably compare all the guys I meet in the future to him (which is unfair to all the guys because he’s quite difficult to match up to ㅎㅎㅎ). We’ve broken up, but I know it was for the best. No harsh feelings and I’ll certainly make it a point in my life to continue my contacting him as friends. Being in this relationship made aware of all the faults I have and how difficult it is to be in a relationship. The way I handle my relationships and friendships now are much more different now than before I met this guy. I’m grateful for out experience, and I can only hope that I can meet a guy half as great as this him.  

Lesson: Relationships are hard... but they can be one of the most rewarding experiences in our lifetime. When else can you have someone see your true self, and learn the true meaning of love, sacrifice, and negotiation.

Never-meant-to-be guy | After my exboyfriend broke up with me, it took a long time for me to recover. Actually, I’m still kinda recovering now ( the very last portion of it). Well towards the end of my final year of college, I started talking to never-meant-to-be guy again. I’ve known him for three years or so and we’ve hung out together before. In the past, I did have feelings for him and I’ve made moves to show him that, but he always talked about how these other cute guys (that he wasn't talking to) in front of me. And so I thought he was never interested in me. Well, I was wrong. Apparently, he was.. and he didn't bother telling me this until the week before I graduated from college. At this point, I knew I was going back to Hilo for the summer before I moved to Korea later this year. We talked throughout the semester and he chose to tell me that he was interested in me only then??? I was baffled. But even if I did like him again, it was simply too late. He lost his chance, and I know that this relationship would not be worth pursuing. 

Lesson: Don’t wait until the last minute to confess to a guy. It will be too late then.

Through these ten people I encountered in my college, I learned a lot about myself, love, and about life. Hopefully, the lessons I learned since then will help me in the future as I meet more people to search for the one guy that will be with me for a very long time. I’m excited to see what life has in store for me... and I hope I won't grow old and lonely with cats ㅠㅠ 

-itsyoungjaeee