#fully got into poetry for a girl but then I actually liked it a lot :3

[cyb3r-mutt]

Hihiii, what’s your favorite piece of poetry?? I just have a feeling you have something in mind.

Hiiiiiiiiii!!!!!! And this is such a lovely ask?!!!!!! I do actually have an answer!!!!!!!!! I actually really got into poetry a couple years ago so there’s lots that I love but I’m gonna say one of H.D’s poems called Fragment Sixty-Eight. There’s yearning and desire and mortality and ugh please just read it.

I just think her writing is so beautiful and like soul wrenching a bit, initially I was drawn to her stuff because she used a lot of Greek mythology references which I’ve always been interested in yeah just fell in love with her writing (Eurydice was the first poem of hers I read I highly recommend it too). She was also just a really cool person and she was bi too and yeah just very interesting

[catinasink]

introduction teehee

most recent edit: 2/03/24

hi!

general questions

who am i?

i'm cat (dont capitalize, as in Cat) and tentatively eli or nico. i'm a minor, as well as in middle school (ages 11-14). i go by it/its (if you're calling me cat) or they/he (if you're calling me eli or nico) or no pronouns. i am transmasc agender, aroacespec (aroflux and aegosexual), and pan.

what do i post about/reblog about?

marauders

genshin impact

other random fandoms

dreamscape nexus (...)

life things! (vents, random events, etc)

things about my friends :D

classes outside school (ballroom dance, art, aikido, russian, math)

writing (i am a writer)

music (i post lyrics from music, is fun)

gay (i am gay)

my friends

family, pets, friends?

one older sister

two cats - kim and shego (or floorshitter)

irl friends:

pissboy (my husband. he/they) (pissboy origin story)

lee (my wife. not a permanent nickname. she/her)

preppy (my wife, not a permanent nickname, she/her)

miss eighth* grader (she/they, talks abt sui a lot)

ashes (she/her, my bbg)

may mention some other ppl as well lol

can you tag me, ask me questions, tag me in chain asks or tag games?

sure, i might not participate in tag games or chain asks tho :>

timezone?

PST, inside a sink

dni?

if over 25, bigots in general, the usual

what can you call me?

no: bro, guy, gal, sis, girl, man, boy, dude, etc. (gendered terms in general)

yes: pet names (sarcastically and/or platonically, ofc) such as sweetheart, honey, bbg (please dont fully type out babygirl); lil guy is fine

i might call myself a girl or a boy, dont take this as permission please x

--

*used to be miss seventh grader

other info

i would appreciate tone tags if you feel you are speaking too vaguely, but otherwise it's fine

am either a slytherin or ravenclaw. slytherin most-likely

am INTP-T

scorpio sun, sagittarius moon, scorpio rising (i think)

pandora sun, lily moon, regulus rising

i speak english and russian, am learning german and hebrew (long story)

one sideblog, @catinasink-writes, this is only for my fanfiction

i also have another sideblog. kudos to you if you find it

I might ask you to explain a sentence or a phrase for me, it's bc words tend to not be understandable for me sometimes

i. might be neurodivergent

please alert me if you're going to leave, it scares me sometimes

am matching banners with @shrimpysstuff!! go check her out, her blog is wonderful :3

tags!

ramblies, vents, anything thats not a reblog and doesnt fall into another category: #cat's rambles

posts mentioning my cat, or with my cat: #cat's cat

writing (in general): #cat's writing

writing (actually writing: #poetry maybe

my art: #cat's art

my asks: #cat's asks

posts made during school (tend to be queued): #cat's schoolposting

music-related posts: #cat's lyricposting

my own music: #cat's lyrics

my beloved friend @this-is-me-lolol: #basil my beloved <3

pissboy, my friend: #my lovely pissboy

my friend @o-kye: #tumblr user o-kye

cali cult: #calicos

sink lore: #happenings of the sink

blender anon: #cat's blender anon

dear anon (dreamscape nexus thing): #cat's dear anon

dreamscape nexus (...): #Dreamscape Nexus

ao3 details

my account (catinasink)

i've got a good feeling that we could be something

rated T

the Selection but rosestarkillerchaser

features the Blacks as the Schreaves

the Order as the rebellion

rosestarkillerchaser, emmarlily, wolfstar

unfinished, 8/30 (estimate)

watching pixar on a school night

rated T

a texting fic for the marauders 5th year and skittles 4th year

modern au w magic

rosestarkillerchaser, emmarpanlily/sunkeeperflowerseer, wolfstar

background benjy/peter + nobleflower + frank

slowburn

unfinished, 25/?

they're so pretty it hurts (i'm not talking about boys, i'm talking about girls)

rated T

oneshot about marlene

in the universe of wpoasn

features slavic marlene!! bc that is my love >>

also ace marlene!

2.7k words

finished, 1/1

dear angel lacy, eyes white as daisies

rated T

in the universe of wpoasn

noblesea (molly and alice) focused

has noblesea, nobleflower, and fralice (polyam alice)

slowburn

unfinished, 2/8 (estimate)

fic summaries (definitely accurate)

tumblr writing masterlist (chronological order, first most recent)

song-resembling thing (aka big mistake) (with voice ;-;)

maybe one day

to old friend once again

jolly ranchers

to v

my love

piano

fuck periods

more vent (green)

to my old friend (again)

to my old friend

more poetry/rambling/vent whatever :>

more poetry

poem thing that blender anon said i should share

have a nice day!

[7k9sinthee]

Random headcanons;

⌑ Nsfw/Sfw?: SFW

⌑ Reader?: No

⌑ Genre?: Fluff, headcanons

⌑ Editted?: in the process...

Characters: Romeo, Juliet, Tybalt, Benvolio

ㄨ Romeo

⁺ Although extremely stupid- as exhibited from his irrational behavior, I believe he actually learns quite quickly.

⁺ When he was dancing at the Capulet part (1968 film), he learned quickly how to dance, although a bit poorly.

⁺ Anyways, he'd be the type to mess up a bit, glance over to someone else doing the same thing and then copy off from them.

Has probably tripped once or twice and always snaps his head back to blame someone for tripping. (Tybalt has been there once or twice...)

Secret handshakes with Mercutio and Benvolio- sometimes making one that requires all three present at once.

Everytime he's scolded his brain just. Flatlines. He literally doesn't take anything in. (Although a lesson not to do whatever got him in trouble in the first place.)

Plucks flowers from gardens to gift to Mercutio/Benvolio as a joke- more seriously to Juliet (..or yourself, if you'd like).

Every time he writes letters to specifically his friends, he adds a small " ! " to his signature.

Has so many inside jokes..

If he were to fall/trip, he'd fall right on his face. I don't make the rules. (I do)

When Romeo is happy, he always has a little pep in his step- like he's all giddy and happy.

Scratches his head when he's confused.

Seems like the type to be writing something and then accidentally misspell the easiest word ever.

Has a habit of just dozing off, leaving a lot of his friends confused

Sneaks out a bit, not a lot like Mercutio may but a reasonable amount to either meet up with friends or just for himself.

Writes horrible poetry that Benvolio and Mercutio support.

Definitely is the type to have a bedtime and tell his friends, "I can not come, as the moon rests high in the sky and beckons for me to sleep!"

Sneezes like a little girl imo

He definitely has a goofy, silly little smile.

Juliet

I just know she smells like flowers every day- how she does it? Remains a mystery..

So many little jokes with Nurse that no one else would know about.

Doesn't openly call Nurse "mom" but she enjoys to refer to Nurse as she would a mother rather than her biological mother.

Also kind of clumsy, she couldn't carry a bucket full of only water to save her.. (💔)

Actually sometimes indulges in reading poems time to time.

Very, very much the type to pick a flower and smell it.

Loves to pick up flowers, pedals, feathers, etc.

Probably has a collection of dried up flowers gifted to her over time.

Juliet really enjoys incorporating little cute things in her outfits!

Views Tybalt as an older brother rather than her father's cousin.

Makes references to things only Nurse knows so it leaves everyone else much confused- and on rare occasions Tybalt might get it, too.

Picks up her dress when she runs, like a princess.

Definitely the type to be like, "Excuse me. Mind your manners..." whenever she hears someone curse.

Whenever she sees Romeo, she faces fully towards him and holds her hands out - and he comes to pick her up and spin her like a little ballerina !!

Has attempted to draw/paint multiple times before, and whenever done- Lord Capulet always hangs it up with much pride no matter if it looks "funky."

Tybalt

"Grab me my rapier"

Definitely the type to take great pride in his swords

Actually, seems like the type to keep a GIANT sword collection.

He's definitely the type to overhear conversions in secret but then give the fattest side eyes/disgusting glares.

Tybalt 100% has his lips sealed with any secret. Never could get anything out of him.

Juliet actually hides behind Tybalt quite often (not usually physically), and Tybalt isn't afraid to defend his younger sister.

Also, 100% defends Nurse, or rather any woman in his life. He's most definitely a woman's boy.

Has the most sly grin you'll ever see in your life.

His deep voice actually very often scares people, so depending on who he's talking to; he'll either lower his volume and attempt to speak softer or keep speaking in much confidence.

He'll soften his voice for the nicer, quieter folk and speak loudly for the annoying and cocky guys.

Little bitty scars all over him from him attempting to perfect his sword fighting skills.

Very often flaunts off and attempts to look flashy and show-offish.

Even though he's old enough and pretty mature, he'll never ever consider drinking or smoking. He believes it's far too disgusting for himself.

Although Nurse isn't Tybalts true mother- Tybalt will have moments where "momma Nurse" slip out.

Actually kinda enjoys keeping things neat in order - in his room at least, outside, he doesn't mind getting a little messy.

On that topic... Tybalt very often helps out Nurse with chores and such, but no one really notices because he doesn't want to be seen like that (question mark)

The definition of wet soggy cat

Other than that- he just is overall very sweet and polite.

Benvolio

Definitely the type to write little poems or works of literature but always puts it to the side to "continue later"-

He never finishes them and usually Romeo would come by and read those works out to Benvolio as a way to just tease.

Has very, very specific humor- he only really laughs at inside jokes.

Of course, he'll have a nice laugh at a funny joke but, inside jokes are what really get him.

The type to accidentally snicker at the wrong moment and have to excuse himself. (😭)

Though this would only be around friends, he most definitely can control himself from laughing around Lord Montague and such.

Very polite fellow

Seems like the type to like cross his hands when sitting down and he sits down very politely and tightly-

He doesn't want to take up much space on benches anyways.

If he was a cat, he'd be that one cat with an apple that just sits there all polite getting pet by a giant wooden spoon.

Very gentle with everything and everyone. Either physically, emotionally, or verbally-

Despite being extremely polite, he is the one that has the best insults ("thee mother looks like a yellow belly, tavern hopping maniac, it's no surprise thou looks alike!", also said in the most polite way possible)

Has a nice, gentle voice. Slightly accented, though, unlike many.

The hat he usually wears - the one seen in act 1 (1968 film) - is one from long ago.

It was gifted to him, and he constantly wore it when he was a teen-ish, but it was a bit too big, so it'd cover quite a bit of his face.

Longer hair >>>

Somehow, has extremely beautiful, long lashes.

He strangely enough seems like the one to get hurt least often, but when he does, it's like the worst thing to ever happen. (Que Benvolio accidentally falling out a window)

Picks up little branches and sticks to collect randomly ?? He doesn't really do anything with them. The sticks either end up getting thrown out or forgotten about.

The type to be writing something and then accidentally slip up and create a massive mark in the middle of the paper without a way to hide it.

Has maybe fallen out a window before ?

Benvolio has so many unnecessary items laying around in his home

He has a collection of beads/rocks of sorts- all very polished and shiny.

Just a friendly reminder that these are all headcanons 🫶

[mylittleredgirl]

finally, m*a*s*h update!

season four disc two! ("quo vadis, captain chandler" to "dear ma")

there is a LOT going on in the frank and margaret department

i kind of tipped my hand here when i posted about my new obsession, but even if you are not circling the drain on this doomed ship... the Unresolved Breakup Tension is fuckin WILD in this disc

she literally punches him in the face!!! how was that not a breakup!

but then he buys her something or does something to charm or impress her, and it works! then he blows it again!! rinse and repeat!!!! i am 👀🍿

sam and diane from cheers are still theeee platonic ideal of slap-slap-kiss but these clowns definitely walked so they could run

i literally jumped off the couch when his wife found out, aaaaa it's so juicy

I'M SORRY i realize this doesn't speak well of me as a person, but those long close-ups on her face as she voluntarily eavesdrops on him dismissing their relationship (twice!!) and her heart gets fully crushed??? i could eat popcorn to this all day.

this is the kind of dysfunctional relationship that my artist friends would choose in our youth so that we could Suffer and Make Art, so i really hope margaret is writing terrible poetry about it

anyway, we're peroxide-roots deep into GIRL WHY??!??

and then bj very gently explains to radar that well, see, frank and margaret both kinda suck and we're in the middle of nowhere, so they're all they've got

and i had to spend three or four days staring at the ceiling about it, because YEAH. it's not just that they're each other's only rank-appropriate source of star-spangled orgasms

(and they both care far more about military hierarchy than they do about marital fidelity)

but they are so consistently unkind to everyone around them that they have no other choice for any human connection full stop.

i'm not even talking about their ongoing bullying war with hawkeye and trapper or bj, because that's dirty pool on both sides, but i could count on one hand the number of times either of them have interacted with a subordinate nurse or enlisted man without threatening them. like they literally would not have anyone else to talk to.

but the reveal that she still wants to MARRY HIM? oh god. ohhhh honey. noooo.

that fake proposal prank was so genuinely mean. mostly because they ruined her hot date! 👏 let 👏 margaret 👏 fuck 👏 random 👏 dudes 👏

"isn't general barker the one who wanted you to spank him?" lmaoooo

OKAY i swear i can talk about other things:

hawkeye continues to just NOT pull without trapper here. the nurses are fully dismissing or ignoring his efforts, and honestly is he even trying that hard?? have we seen him get even one date?

i've been trying to come up with an "intricate rituals" joke about hawkeye and trapper but where the rituals are... girls. you get me.

i re-watched the pilot and the desk ep (for frank/margaret reasons DON'T JUDGE ME), and hawkeye and trapper LITERALLY end the pilot handcuffed together, and in the next episode talk about sharing a nurse. how am i supposed to take this???

speaking of nurses, you know that little 🙄 you have to ignore in 2024 whenever the women on m*a*s*h get called honey and sweetheart and baby on the job (though tbh i worked on a construction site and an ad sales office in the 2010's and got the same treatment -- but in the modern day it's done ironically babe)

BUT when potter calls margaret "good girl" after he gets shot??? total opposite feeling. i literally had to pause and take a moment. he's her dad now.

also when he tucks radar in???? everyone's dad actually

in loving memory of radar's other dad though, two important points:

how proud would henry have been of drunk & disorderly radar??

and henry's "i've always wondered if i might be radar's dad" bit is genuinely 900% funnier now that we know radar's mom looks EXACTLY like him.

i don't think i have ever circled back to talk about klinger, who became so so so awesome

it's so funny that in klinger's very first appearance and 30 times since then, he has been told straight up that wearing women's clothes will never work to get him out of the army. there's no explanation for his commitment to this particular form of passive resistance except that he genuinely loves it

the swamp rats built a still and klinger got a sewing machine and learned a craft. he's so good at it!! his looks are 🔥

i feel uncomfortable when i see him in fatigues tbh. it happened a few times in this disc and i would like it to Stop actually

also precious baby father mulcahey... Protect Him.

i LOVE that everyone showed up for his church service when the grand poobah chaplain was in town. they love each other!!! (also the life magazine jeep shoot!!!)

"quo vadis, captain chandler" was really good. i'm still over colonel flagg's whole deal but i now understand why everyone loves sidney freedman, and the guest actor they had playing not-jesus was incredible

bj continues to be the best little brother hawkeye could have asked for

also he maybe invented cpr?

i didn't say much about him here but I LOVE HIM and also his off-screen wife

forward and onward!!!

[sayakxmi]

Me: I don't really care about GamTav

Also me: Gamzee and Tavros have exactly one (1) conversation divided in half, and truth be told we only know that Gamzee has a crush on Tavros, literally asking him out in said conversation, and making out with Tavros' corpse later. We don't really know what Tavros answer was, though given we don't see them interact ever again, and Tavros never mentions anything in general, it's probably safe to assume Gamzee got turned down. That being said, it's also quite possible the reason why we don't see them interact is Vriska's tendency to isolate Tavros from others.

Still, ignoring all of that, their singular conversation is actually quite good at showing what their relationship is like, and why they had developed (Gamzee) or could eventually develop (Tavros) feelings for each other. Gamzee especially. It's very notable that pretty much everybody Gamzee knows treats him poorly (understatement), even those that very genuinely care about him a lot, like Karkat. Tavros appears to be the only person that we see Gamzee interact with, who doesn't do that. He doesn't make fun of Gamzee or his religion, and in general he seems to take him seriously, though he's also a bit confused. Their interaction is a bit cringey, to be honest, but in a way it's also quite endearing. Tavros is the only person who's nice to Gamzee, something that he's likely to value a lot, given the way everybody else speaks to him and the fact that he's a victim of neglect. It's actually no wonder Gamzee developed red feelings for the first person to treat him like a normal troll rather than a pest. Tavros doesn't expect anything from Gamzee save for his company.

On the other hand, while Tavros' feelings in that regard remain unknown, he does seem to be somewhat comfortable with Gamzee, actually sharing how he feels about his disability, albeit through slam poetry, and while Gamzee doesn't seem to fully register the pretty depressive tone it takes, the fact remains that Tavros is actually willing to open up about it. Gamzee also doesn't give him any pity treatment nor does he try to make Tavros feel like he's in any part guilty of what's happened, be it for playing games for girls or in general for being disabled. Granted, it still connects to the fact that Gamzee doesn't seem to fully register what Tavros' saying as as concerning as it is, but in that case it must be actually a nice and refreshing thing for Tavros, being allowed to simply vent with zero judgment, hell, being encouraged to keep doing that. Gamzee ends up giving him a healthy outlet for all these pent up emotions. All of this leads me to believe that given enough time and care, he could eventually develop feelings for Gamzee as well, and that could result in a somewhat unexpectedly wholesome and mutually fulfilling relationship between two kids that desperately deserved some love and kindness in their lives.

[chappell-roans]

The bait and switch thing is very interesting and it something you do become accustomed to with her releases, I just think this specific promotional cycle and “dark academia” is something that’s hard to pivot than bubblegum hyperfemininity or ‘punk rock moment of female rage’ (sry lmao).

I’m going out now so maybe I’ll refine my thoughts more later but DA is an aesthetic that’s very specifically rooted in its subject matter and intellectualism and she did promote based on the apparent “torturous poetry” which created specific expectations for the subject matter and quality of the album. It’s easier to make a bubblegum album and have it actually be about how you’re falling apart or depressed because that’s more of a subversion of expectations that still works in the framework of the original idea? It’s oxymoronic from what people expect but the subject matter isn’t as important as the look and sound of the album for Lover.

Dark academia is also just difficult because when you pick something and promote it based on an aesthetic that’s rooted in intellectualism or the perception of high quality art and then underdeliver people will judge more harshly. Similarly with midnights the promotion was based on sleepless nights and toil and a lot of the negative thoughts were based on the not only the lower quality of the album but also the quality in contrast to the promotion.

lmao no i think the same thing about that particular description of rep because it's inaccurate lol. there's more moments of that on ttpd than rep lol. i mean, yes, and she was leaning into that aesthetic but not necessarily marketing it with those words idk. it definitely wasn't folklore or evermore in terms of quality and also to be clear -- i enjoy the album and have been a fan of taylor since love story in 2008 -- but not all poetry is good? i think hers is but idk. it's also named around a song and again the bait and switch thing. i can see why you're disappointed that it didn't fully deliver to you on the dark academia vibes but i didn't expect that really, so i don't have the exct same feelings around it. i think the aesthetic lets people read into it what they want to see, whether it's sad girl on the moors or da or whatever. but i agree about lover.

and i mean, i don't think she was lying about what inspired midnights. i definitely had hoped for a 70s sound akin to promotion (unlike ttpd where i really didn't think dark academic was part of it at all, especially once we got the tracklist, i figured it'd be more of a coping mechanism album and heartbreak and manic episode, which she literally described it as) but like it definitely did seem like being haunted by exes and her own decisions and depression and fame, as well as deciding whether or not to end her long-term relationship. midnights isn't specifically a breakup album, but it's an anticipatory breakup album and recognizing patterns really. which is fun to analyze as a fan who loveeees patterns. but it also isn't my fav album to listen to, i def skip around while listening to that one too. (my favs off midnights include hits different, maroon, bejeweled, yoyok, labyrinth, dear reader, would've could've should've, anti-hero)

[goodoldfashionlovercorpse]

The Setting Sun

fandom: omori ship: suntan (kel x sunny) note: angsty (?), and sunny might be ooc

       The smell of joy was in the air. Aubrey and Basil were eating cookies and pasta on the ground, sitting on the large blanket – identical to the one they used with Mari. Hero sat closely next to the basket, you could tell he misses Mari – a lot, might I add –, but he’s moved on and got with a girl from his college. Kel, however, breathed in the air less today. Sunny came to visit. Kel would usually celebrate, have a good laugh, and totally not act off his big-ass crush on Sunny. But this morning when Sunny arrived was less than the usual; this morning he and Sunny had a little disagreement. It wasn’t big, they’re currently next to each other as they eat, and Kel talks about the game for next week. But it feels off. He feels as if someone now knows exactly how many cracks are actually in his act.

Sunny, of course, fell quiet. But it hadn’t felt neutral to him, it felt judgy – judgy to Kel. But the young boy had to let it go, his best friend/crush was home, and he couldn’t let it go to waste. 

So he did. He let it rest in the back of his mind – a concealed tattoo.

As for later that night? He couldn’t. He wanted to talk to his older brother Hero, but unfortunately for Kel, Hero was fast asleep on the couch with his girlfriend. What was her name again? Samantha? Sam? Maybe Mag? Alex– this was a distraction. He should leave the lovers to rest. After all, he hadn’t heard anyone say they weren’t tired after studying it. 

Walking towards the door he played with the doorknob. 

I should probably change clothes, Kel thought, Or I could pick up hockey. 

He knew he had to step out of that door, and check up on his dear ol’ friend. But how deep of a sleeper can one teenage boy be? So he opened the door, greeted by the same air that filled his lungs. Joy to the world, melancholy for Kel. He walked to Sunny's house, knocking on the door rhythmically. Lucky for him, Sunny was tiredly awake, as if he had just been living in his own little dreamland and got a sudden nightmare.

“Hey, Sunny!” Kel smiled.

“Hi.”

“So umm… wanna take a walk with me?”

Sunny looked from left to right outside his door before fully walking outside and giving Kel a nod. 

“Where are we going?” Sunny asked. Kel knew he was a man of few words, not straightforward, but not entirely aloof either. Mostly right in the middle, not a talker, but instead a listener. 

Kel thought of being poetic, it’s just what the 12:00 am fever gives you. “To the stars.” While it was admittedly corny, he could still see the other smile. A smile he hasn’t seen in quite a while. 

As they walked Kel kept quiet. He thought of confessing, though it would only be too rash, too soon, he didn't want to burden Sunny with anything he’d be forced to accept. So he kept walking till they reached the park, “Nice view isn’t it?” Sunny only responded with a glance, stars reflecting in his eyes. Kel brightened; his face felt flush and brand new. “It’s beautiful for stargazing.” This was lame. Generic. A raccoon would have come up with a better excuse. “I say we lay on those tables, perfect view!” Kel kept a loud whisper to his voice, it was beautiful to Sunny, but then again, Sunny barely spoke about it, only writing sad poetry and then seldom love poems; it would be a wonder if Kel ever knew.

The tables weren’t comfortable, only a masochistic liar would even think of playing devil's advocate for the damned things, but they made the close. Physically, that is. It felt intimate to spend a relaxing moment like this with your crush. The stars grazed the sky like silver paint dots on an inky night sky. Sunny looked so deep in thought, yet so focused you would think he was about to sleep. 

Words weren't spoken, but you could feel the lullabies in the sky. Similar to Mari’s hums. Kel remembered them. He remembered them clear as day. He remembered slowly going to hold Sunny’s hand. Identical to what he is doing now. His hand slowly slides into the others, fireworks exploding so much so that the New Year's sky would be jealous.

Sunny can feel the touch, but he isn’t going to try to move. It reminds him of the times when Kel used to say their hands are kissing. He doesn’t anymore, he seems too shy. Yet if both talked then they would know how the other still saw how their hands would peck when brushing and how they are kissing under the stars when holding. 

“The stars look just like how I remembered them.” Sunny was a poet, not a published one, but he was a damn good one, enough so that he would outsell everyone in the field. “You’ve always seen the same stars, Sun.” They both knew the nickname was false. Sunny was – and has always been – the moon, yet he shined so brightly under the stars. “I know.” The smile had faded into a light one, yet still viewable. Still beautiful. 

Some time had passed before any more words were spoken. 

“Did you know how Hero and his new girlfriend met?”

Sunny shook his head. 

“Well, mom says it’s romantic, but I say it’s funny. Turns out that they met in the college cafeteria. That day they were serving milkshakes, right? Guess what happened.” Kel possessed the normal Kel Smile™. “They bumped into each other while she was talking with her friends and he was holding his drink! It got all over her clothes apparently and she told him that she wouldn’t accept any verbal apology. So she had him walk her to her dorm! A few days after that he offered to cook her a meal as an ‘actual apology’ and that's when they first became friends.” 

Sunny looked unbothered, yet he still remembered when Hero and Mari started to date, she reminds him a little of her. Kel could sense it a little, so his laughter died down to a small chuckle. 

Sunny would be leaving tomorrow afternoon. And he didn't wanna make the first and last night of his visit unbearable, anyone with eyes could see the mosquito bites. 

“Hey, do you wanna head to my place for a snack and ac?” 

“Sure, I could go for some popcorn.” 

And so they left, minimal conversation made on the way back. Once they reached Kel’s house he warned Sunny that they probably shouldn’t turn off the TV as Hero and his girlfriend are asleep and that they probably shouldn’t wake them, if they know what was good for them.

Slowly entering, the door thankfully not creaking, they walked like mice to the kitchen. There were a few things left in the fridge and a lot of dry, warm snacks in the pantry. Going for the chips, their hands kissed. “Oh, sorry.” 

“You say sorry, a lot, y’know?”

Sunny quietly replied, “Yeah, habit, sorry.”

“There you go again, Sun. We really need to teach you how to tone down the apologies. No matter how cute they make you seem.” 

Time had stopped. Kel's words weren’t ancient, everyone called Sunny cute at some point, especially after how much he’s grown since moving to the city. “Sure.” He smiled, while mildly forced, it was a view to see. 

The night soon went away with them playing around with the snack and drinks, and sneaking behind the couch to watch whatever generic Halloween movie was playing on Freeform. “Ugh, Hocus Pocus again?!” 

“Shh,” Sunny pointed at the people who were sleeping right below their heads. 

“Oh, yeah, right.” 

After a few laughs and jokes, tiny heart attacks from Hero almost waking up, and going up to Kel and Hero’s room to read a few new issues from a comic book they liked, it was almost 5:30 am and they had to get Sunny home soon before his mother woke up. 

Dashing through the doors of both houses and, quietly, slamming them, they got Sunny up into his room. Quickly getting Sunny’s bed ready and looking as “I totally slept throughout the entire night” as possible before he actually got in the bed. Sunny told Kel that he heard his mom’s footsteps and that he should get running. Though, it would be nearly impossible for him to go through Sunny’s door without getting caught. So, Kel did the absolute smartest thing to do and jumped out his friend’s window. It felt like hiding a secret from a forbidden romance novel. The type of scene that Aubrey would gush to him about before swearing him to secrecy. 

By the next day, neither of them got in trouble and they got away with it like total spies. Except for the fact that both didn't wake up till around 4:55 pm – around 35 minutes before Sunny had to leave. And while Hero was quick to wake up his brother, Sunny didn’t have that and slept an extra 10 minutes. During which, Kel had gotten decently prepared to say goodbye till he came back. 

“Hey.” a half-awake Sunny stated.

“Hey, Sunny.” Kel could feel himself sweat, he was the last to say goodbye and he had five minutes – too short.

“Why don’t you just call me Sun?” 

“Oh, umm, it was an accident and I thought you didn’t like it and-”

“I liked it,” Sunny stared at Kel, “it felt, ironic to us.” To us. That one stuck. He forgot how ironic the nickname his half-awake mind made up while breathing the poisonous air polluting his thoughts. 

“Well then, I’ll use it more often. Goodbye, Sun.”

And, in a low whisper, Sunny muttered words only Kel’s ears were exposed to, hands kissing. “Goodbye, Sweet Moon.”

That damned poet. The city had changed Sunny, the whole group noticed, but damned be Kel as that newfound confidence had only worsened his already big crush on this man.

Sunny left after those words. That sweet retort of a nickname. His hands ached for a kiss, the words ‘My Sun’ lingering in his mouth, though, ironically, his sun was already setting.

He just didn’t know when he would rise again.

[fleetinggabi]

Hi wife <3 was wondering if you could give us the story of how you got into poetry

Omg hi wife 🤯🤯🤯🥰 I actually do have quite a bit of a story for how I got into poetry proper!!!

I was always the the type of kid who was into reading and writing, so I don't really remember my first contacts with poetry or what I had read (probably something at school to do with Shakespeare or Catalan writers), but I do know very well when it was that I actually started writing myself.

Back way then (I must have been around 14-15 but maybe slightly more) I joined a summer long film course at my country's most I guess prestigious film school, as I had given up hope of getting into it proper due to the ridiculous high costs and the bad fame it had amongst people in the industry. During that course I was basically humbled to hell and back by everyone in there, as it was mostly adults or people my age who boasted some serious skills and dedication.

From the beginning I had an eye on this girl in my class, since we were the only teenagers in it, but I think I hadn't talked much due to being too focused on catching up for the class proper, until one day we coincided on the same train back to my city since the school was an hour or so away from it. I am not ashamed but a little embarrassed to say that younger gabs had a Big Girl first gay crush on this girl, and I mean BIG TIME. She started talking to me about what music I liked or what books I read and dear reader let me tell you I was Panicking and losing my shit the first day, legitimately couldn't and wouldn't get any answer out of me (which I think she found endearing as she kept on talking to me).

So what does this have to do with poetry you may ask? Well as any Honest person would do, I did manage to claim that I liked reading but most crucially, poetry. So when I got back home I found a small empty notebook and wrote anything and everything I could come up with. The genius plan was to PRETEND I ALREADY HAD A FULLY WRITTEN POETRY NOTEBOOK. I WAS DOWN BAD HORRENDOUS.

Additionally I also tried to decorate the book with drawings since the girl had said she liked birds or something to that effect, and I was quite proud of some of those little drawings. One thing lead to the other and I actually just was writing in my time between classes all week because I started liking it, and no I didn't ever get the girl or confess or so anything but be an awkward sad lesbian loser all summer.

Funnily enough I also started getting into Lovecraft a lot at that time so most of my poems were either tragically romantic or horribly nihilistic, so I'm proud to say my writing has evolved ever since.

[watching-pictures-move]

Put On Your Raincoats | Wild Goose Chase (Stagliano, 1991)

This is a wrestling-themed porno noir, but as the title suggests, narrative tightness is not one of its concerns. Like John Stagliano’s seminal earlier work The Adventures of Buttman, there is an implicit derision here of the idea of plot-based pornography, but also like that movie, the results are not so much smug and condescending as half-assed and goofy. Calling this a noir parody would probably be a stretch, as it doesn’t try too hard to ape the real thing stylistically, and there aren’t too many actual jokes here aside from a running gag about inflatable geese. This is definitely in the vibes over gags vein of comedies from the era, and it helps that Stagliano casts as the protagonist not himself nor his frequent leading man Rocco Siffredi, but Joey Silvera, someone who can actually act and gets intentional laughs from the material. I won’t pretend any of this is particularly sophisticated, but I got a good chuckle when Silvera, dressed in retina-searing tights, gets his ass kicked in the wrestling ring by a bunch of bikini babes. "Jesus Christ, lady, this is fake, isn't it?"

Stagliano himself does appear in a supporting role as a photographer, who tries to convert Silvera into a butt man like himself and expounds on his passion with unexpected poetry:

"This is the most magnificent sight in the world, isn't it? Oh, I love the... ass, tush, rear end, derriere, posterior, bottom. It's incredible the number of words we have for this, most beautiful thing in the world."

I fear he is not one of our great actor-directors, and is perhaps a better thesaurus than a thespian. But I got a good chuckle out of that line. And the movie carries on in the spirit of his words, featuring, like his other films, plenty of shots of nice looking butts.

This is shot on film, which I don’t think is fully conducive to Stagliano’s usual style, as the shot lengths are shorter than what would be possible on video and the camerawork is less fluid. He does get an amusing stylistic running joke with POV slasher-style sequences where the “victims” are poked with something less lethal than you get in actual slasher movies. And there’s some decent stylization with the black background and harsh lighting in the wrestling sequences. Also, I know fuck all about wrestling, but I appreciated that the fights are done with more effort and physical exertion that I expected.

Pornographically speaking, the girls here all have big hair and shapely derrieres, so if that’s your type, you’ll probably enjoy this. There’s lots of long ass in this, is what I’m getting at. I always enjoy seeing Jeanna Fine, who earned a permanent place in my heart thanks to Party Doll A Go-Go!, and her interrogation-turned-threesome with Sean Michaels and TT Boy is easily the highlight of the movie, thanks to her energetic performance and husky voiced dirty talk. Sadly she’s only in this for a few minutes, so it isn’t a perfect movie.

[fraudulent-cheese]

OK SO I'VE WATCHED EPISODES 2 TO 4 OF SEASON 2 OF TOTAL DRAMA 2023

MAJOR SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT!!!!

I think these episodes were... fine. I think the third might've been the best one overall, i liked the challenge and it was pretty fun; especially seeing MK fucking cheating and the team's reactions. i think Ripper not interacting with his team is good actually, because he's funnier on his own or when he's crushing on Axel.

SPEAKING OF WHICH: i didn't expect for Ripaxel to win me over... at all? But i think it's pretty cute actually! I think it's funny seeing Ripper crushing on the girl that spent the entire previous episode trying to commit violence on him. He's ridiculous when trying to impress her in episode 2, their interactions in episode 3 were also fun (they managed to make a fart joke plot relevant! how??) and i really enjoy how in episode 4 the dude went out of his way to make something she'd like (the little poem he made her!). I REALLY don't think Ripper's interested at all in poetry so i think it's cute :D ALSO THEY'RE STILL IN THE GAME SO WE MIGHT SEE MORE FROM THEM. MAYBE IT'LL FULLY CONVINCE ME!! Honestly i think it could've been worse! Could've been a whole lot worse! She could've been kissing Chase. That's all im saying.

What i do know is that Priya x Caleb is NOT gonna convince me. I genuinly do not care it's insane. they are just here to be straight and i don't think they'll convince me. (especially since im pretty sure Caleb just wants an alliance)

Fellas... we might be getting Rajbow divorce. Or at least an actual conflict in their relationship that they'll need to work throughout the season; i really hope they don't split up but also they might just split up over this and i am NOT READY.

I'll go over the eliminations + challenges before i go over my favorite aspect of these episodes: Chase getting booted second is amazing. Glad he's not here anymore and im glad Emma got to take her revenge on his dumbass. Im more mixted on Millie being kicked off this early? sure she wasn't gonna last until the end but the conflict between her team just felt! so! forced! Guys, Damien's alive, and he's FINE NEXT EPISODE CAN YOU GUYS CALM THE FUCK DOWN??? I know it was a breach of trust but she did it to win the challenge and it WORKED! And she got booted for it! Emma getting eliminated this early also kinda stings, especially the remarks about her gut feelings being wrong (but then they were right so like,,, what is your point). I do think her not being as good at reading people as she thought is a good conflict but i don't like how it's excecuted.

As for challenges: I think a straight up basketball one would've been cool (take notes, season rewritters!), but the basketball slides was pretty fun too. The sticky sap one is really fun too, it's got plenty of potential. the one in episode 4 is real eh, i would've preferred a straight up would you rather with a lie detector maybe? but oh well!

what i did like tho? MKULIA!!! I LOVE THEM BEING FRIENDS!!! THEY ARE FLERTING SM

THEY'RE JUST BE GAY DO CRIME OMGGGG THEY BETTER FUCKING KISS I SWEAR TO GOD

I WILL SIMPLY COMMIT CRIMES IF THEY DONT END UP BEING CANON

im exaggerating obviously but FR!!! They are canon to me!!! I fucking hope MK doesn't immediatly get eliminated in episode 5 because if she does i will cry

OK! LETS HOPE I DIDNT JINX ANYTHING BY SAYING THESE WORDS!

[petorahs]

☀️ its fascinating that you say P3 has shaped your worldview because... Well not to trauma dump here but back then when I discovered the game (it was back then when p4 was already out) i was... In a REALLY bad place and wondering about unaliving myself. I wont go into much detail but kids are trash man and teens are even worse. and then this game came around. With an aesthetic I really liked. i am not a native english speaker so it was hard for me at first but somehow this game just... /spoke to me/. A game about life and death and what it means to be alive and what it means to have a REASON to live, somehow... Convinced me to go a bit longer. I mean it when I say this: Persona 3 saved my life. And no other game can ever come close to such an experience. (Even tho from a quality standpoint P5 certainly is up there)

oh dude that is so valid thank you for sharing this. seriously though, im happy that youre here! and im sure many others are too! the ☀️ brightening lives and all that :]

yea i can see why p3 just clicked with so many people since it first came out. i was always curious on why it's so beloved by fans, when p5 and even p4 are literally right there with their overall better gameplay experiences. p5 literally got the franchise mainstream to insane heights lol. im... so glad i got into persona the way i did. of course, everyone's experiences w these games are different and special to them in their own way.

i got into persona 3 as an adult and as a result the lens in which i viewed the story's themes were heightened, in a way. as a teen i just know i would have reacted more volatilely i struggle to think about it LOL but both experiences would still be pretty intense. it's just that, as an adult there's more room to digest it when im not troubled by algebra hw. i was just more equipped for it (also i played omori two summers ago LMAOO). ofc i only turned 20 a few weeks ago LOL but i get why p3 means so much to people.

because it's like... 2000s nostalgia coupled with a game that figuratively holds your hand through the uncertainty of death yknow? p3 is a friend, basically. its entire thesis is based upon companionship (exactly what i highlight in an analysis i have drafted somewhere but HHH i dont want this to get too long lmao)

in the shaping my worldviews thing... its really more like it cemented my 'philosophies' :] like i said, equipped with the stuff i learned before, p3 having the message that it did just... hit super close to home! like yeah! that's what i've been saying dude!! kindness really is enough!!

"You don't have to save the world to find meaning in life... Sometimes all you need is something simple, like someone to take care of."

LIKE YEA GIRL THATS EXACTLY IT!! its so cool! i actually admire people who grew up with p3 because man if i heard this line ages ago... well, again, idk if i would be able to grasp it fully at the time... but still! this is so good, poetry in motion. and like u said its aesthetics are gorgeous and aim to capture the essence of its themes - and it did.

im a p5 baby like bro i love p5. soft spot for it. thats the closest persona game i "grew up" with and it came at such an opportune time for me, being a teen stuck between a rock and a hard place. typical. and p5 validated my teenage angst bs so much. its so refreshing to see a game's theme being rebellion. that was me i thought. those characters are going through something that similarly happened to me. teenage rebellion is such a fun thing to explore!

so p5 validated my struggles while p3 did something deeper than that, somehow. i think it just made me .. stronger? like it made me move on from struggles. "by remembering death you learn how to live" so... i guess p3 taught me how to live as crazy as that sounds. but you get me

persona 5 overall is great -- everyone agrees, like its objectively just a better game. but persona 3 ends up more beloved because of its subjective value as a piece of art. there's a lot of heart and soul to put into it.

it's more simple when compared to p5 at first glance, but simple doesn't mean less. which is why more people experiencing it will be nice to see

[creampill]

Arcade Agent Interactions - P1: Platonic (+ bonus doodles!)

so I wanted to write out how arcade interacts with the other agents so here is a huge post on that :)

Astra

- at first they were kind of strangers, but when they found out their mutual love for the stars (and various other things) they became close very fast

- Astra acts as her kind of chill big sister. if she needs advice or just to calm down, Astra is there for her

- Astra is also one of the people on Arcade's overstim/breakdown assistance list!

- they get along very well, swapping stories of their lives. Arcade thinks Astra's projection is super cool and asks questions all the time

- i HC that Astra is into palm reading and other spiritual fortune stuff, Arcade gets herself read by her on a regular basis :)

- since they are both controllers, Astra was kind of Arcade's mentor along with Sage :)

Breach

- CHAOS UNCLE CHAOS UNCLE CHAOS UNCLE

- if Astra chills out Arcade's chaos then Breach FEEDS INTO IT

- they are known for the shenanigans they can create together. a mission with Arcade, Breach and Raze is an absolute headache.

- they are very close. Breach affectionatley bullies her, Arcade does it back, if you hurt either of them the other will be coming for you.

- they have arm wrestling competitions. Arcade is yet to win.

- Breach usually has kind of shitty advice and feeds into Arcade's causing problems urge, but sometimes he can be genuinley helpful.

- he sees her as his daughter. he calls him 'old man' sometimes.

Brimstone

- the Dad energy to Breach's Uncle energy.

- he is a comforting kind of presence for Arcade. he is also on the overstim/breakdown assistance list.

- he is often one of the first people she goes too with her cool ideas/inventions/art. he is supportive, even if he does not fully understand.

- she got him to play minecraft with her once.

- she does not hide things from Brim. She sees her like her dad, she tells him how she feels and listens to his advice.

- ...she is a bit of a Bastard, though. but loveably.

Chamber

- a mixture of "whos this french bitch" and "oh no he's hot" for mister chamberino

- he thinks her aesthetic is "a bold choice, but perhaps a bit too bold" and "in need of a classier touch." she thinks that he is "a hoity toity bald-ass bitch."

- he often critiques her weapon design as well. this started as a bantery kind of insult, but as they warm to one another, he actually teaches her stuff about engineering.

- at the start they have the classic gay people passive-aggresive relationship, but over time they actually start to communicate like that in a friendly way

- she made macarons for him once. he tired to be subtle about how much he loved them, but she could tell

- he does her makeup when it is needed lmco

Cypher

- he is her Dad #2 whether he admits it or not

- she is transparent with her past, so Cypher's digging didn't really reveal anything she didn't want to tell, more showed him the shit this poor girl had been through

- when he realized she was still bubbly and optimistic despite it? BOOM. adopted.

- they often just Exist together, working on things and wordlessly communicating tools and such they need.

- Arcade is one of the ONLY people who gets to read Cypher's poetry, as she is 1) also a writer and 2) won't make fun of him for it.

- they work together to prank the other agents sometimes hehehe

Fade

- surprisingly, they get along well. It was actually their cats that became friends before they did, and it lead them to become close

- they have the goth girl and pastel girl friendship going on.

- Fade is on the overstim/breakdown assistance list. She and Arcade talk about their feelings a lot, and Fade can feel the anxious waves off of Arcade before she herself can.

- they go on late-night fast food runs together. they actually do a lot of things late night with one another due to their mutual 'sleep is for the weak' attitude

- Fade (who i hc as autistic but just eternally tired) and Arcade sometimes go back and fourth infodumping to one another.

- oh and they watch shit horror movies with one another :)

Harbor

- THATS HER BIG BROTHER BAYBEY!!!

- like Breach, he encourages her chaos somewhat, but he knows when to tone it down

- super interested in her art/writing/creations!! often comes to check on her and ask about what she's doing

- they are among the only agents who know how cricket works. Arcade does not usually watch sports, but she will with Harbor.

- water, especialy en masse, is something arcade had been distant from for a while. she finds harbor's powers super cool and asks about the ocean all the time (even if he cannot answer)

- they nerd out about design and architecture together hehe

Jett

- it started with just a work companionship, they didn't really know a lot about one another and just existed in the same space really.

- but then. they learnt they were in the same fandoms.

- INSTANT BEST FRIENDSHIP!!

- they talk to each other all the time now, fangirling and running into one anothers' rooms when something new is leaked/released, they are an unstoppable force.

- they have that kind of friendship where they can cuddle one another platonically (cats usually included in the cuddle pile)

- Jett is also teaching her how to cook her favourite Korean meals because Arcade had never had proper Korean food before and when she did she was HOOKED

Kay/O

- Arcade... is kind of wary of him.

- He reminds her of the KINGDOM Enforcer bots back home, the same bots that massacered her family (twice).

- so the vibes do not start happy, and Kay/O and the rest of the team notices.

- he starts trying to win her over with the advice of the rest of the Protocol. little treats, complements, kind of rough and a bit silly but she realizes what he's doing.

- their relationship builds slow, but the indication that she's warming up to him is when she starts leaving stickers on him while he's recharging.

- and his indication of acceptance is that he doesn't take them off.

Killjoy

- CHAOS GIRLFRIENDS PART ONE

- she has the energy and the vibes and the mutual love for making things and they go CRAZY

- also, they play video games together. like, a lot. sometimes for a whole day. they have a scoreboard.

- often, if she isn't with Fade, Arcade will spend her late nights with KJ, though these are a lot less chill and a lot more destructive

- she ADORES KJ's bots, and often gives them pats and little stickers and has been seen on many occassions asleep with one in her arms.

- together with Raze they are attempting to run Doom on her Radar (against brim's advice).

Neon

- now listen. Neon. is a bit of a tsundere. she's a bit brash, a bit antisocial, but Arcade? this golden retriever lookin mf? completely different energy.

- and yet. they are friends.

- Like Jett, they geek out about fandoms they are in, though Neon is a lot more subtle about it than Jett. Arcade sneaks her merch sometimes

- Neon LOVES Arcade's aesthetic and vibes, and they swap clothes sometimes (though Neon is shorter, which Arcade lovingly teases her about)

- once, Neon tried to charge Arcade's battery with her elecrticity. bad idea.

- Arcade actually helps Neon a lot with her anxious/breakdown moments. She can be calm for Neon, and will always be nearby if she needs someone to lean on.

Omen

- yet another "let's chill and exist near one another" friend!

- they can both knit, so they often go to one another like "you got any red yarn left i ran out" and have little knitting sessions together

- i HC that Omen loves nature documentaries and basically anything informative yet calming, so Arcade watches them with him (and gives reccomendations!)

- she introduced him to minecraft. he loves it.

- Omen is not officially on the overstim/breakdown assistance list but he is able to ground her surprisingly well

- if Arcade can't find Chai (her cat) the first place she looks is wherever Omen is and she usually finds her lol

Phoenix

- THEATRE KIDS UNITE!!!!!

- one of them will start singing and from ACROSS THE BASE the other will chime in

- they are. so close. like they are absolute bestie besties. they tell each other secrets, they gossip, they are BFFs

- Arcade cuddles with him a lot (platonically, though maybe romantically too haha wink wink) because she runs cold and he runs especially warm, and they're both very physical people.

- she also plays video games with him!! and though Phoenix isn't the best, they have fun

- they share their creative ideas. Arcade listens to his music and gives lyric ideas, Phoenix helps her with the flow of her writing, they work well together.

Raze

- CHAOS GIRLFRIENDS PART TWO!!!

- a raze x arcade x kj polycule would be the bane of Brim's existence lmco

- together they are like a nuclear reactor of energy and chaos.

- when they're more chill though, they create art with one another (and lament their art block/creative issues lmco)

- autistic girl swag for both of them. they have the nonverbal communication DOWN and they pick up stims from one another.

- also, they gossip. and you know when they are because they get LOUD

Reyna

- Reyna first saw Arcade as naive and not ready for the protocol. All she saw was a bubbly personality and rainbows and thought "yeah she will be eaten alive."

- but Arcade proved her wrong. Not only did she learn her history, but when she's on the field she adopts a serious and analytical personality that Reyna didn't anticipate.

- now they're like somewhat estranged sisters!

- Reyna gives her affection a bit differently to Arcade. she still complements her and uses pet names ('conejita' specifically) but sometimes gets more sincere. it means a lot to Arcade.

- both of them can be stubborn, and they but heads every so often, but they do respect one another deep down

- oh, and Reyna gives her romance advice while they do one another's nails/hair/make-up.

Sage

- mother figure of COURSE

- sage is (obviously) on the overstim/breakdown assistance list. she knows how to calm Arcade

- often, she reminds her to take care of herself (drink water, eat, sleep etc) through the form of sticky notes with little doodles :) (she does this for all the agents imo)

- Sage also set up a plot in the garden for Arcade! and they bond over plant stuff!! Arcade handles the food crops

- often Sage ans Astra have chill yoga mindfulness sessions, and Arcade joins in every so often

- Arcade loves Sage's cooking, and they cook together too :)

Skye

- fellow australian pog!!! they have the sisters dynamic.

- though Arcade left AUS when she was young, she still has memories that she holds very dear. She adores Skye's animals and they talk about their pasts

- Skye is Arcade's workout buddy/motivator. even if Arcade does not want too (it's important she keeps routine!!)

- Skye imo is vegan, and Arcade makes her special pastries that she can eat!!

- sometimes they can slip into using slang that nobody else understands and then they have to translate lmco

- once, Skye took Arcade back to Australia on a special trip and took her around all the landmarks she never got to see. Arcade may have cried.

Sova

- SOVA MY BELOVED!!!!!!!!!!

- Sova is at the TOP of the overstim/breakdown assistance list. he is just so grounding for Arcade, and he knows how to read what she needs.

- Arcade was instantly drawn to Sova, as he was the one who saved her when she first fell through her rift.

- as they became friends, she became like his personal cheerleader/emotional support friend. she's the bright and happy reminder that things will be okay and she's here for him.

- her more analytical, focused side when in the battle is what drew him to her as well. she needed to think on her feet and spend her power wisely. he respects that.

- they get along over many things; their love of nature, their techincal skill, their memories of their family, their creative endeavours etc. Often they spend hours with one another without being bored

Viper

- started similar to Reyna, the "this little pink bitch will not survive" mentality

- where Reyna was a bit more patronising and obvious with this feeling, Viper was more subtle. But Arcade could tell.

- This started to fall apart, however, when Viper became Arcade's surrogate mentor.

- Being a fellow Controller, she needed someone to show her the ropes, and Viper kind of fell into that role but found herself warming to Arcade rather fast.

- Sure, she was loud and hyperactive, but she learned fast and took on advice well, and had some genuinley good ideas and experience.

- Viper would deny it until her grave, but she genuinley likes Arcade. Her optimism is... a breath of fresh air for her.

Yoru

- for Yoru, he and Arcade are similar to her and Chamber's Gay People Banter communication except a lot more blunt.

- like "your hair looks stupid" "you need to tone down the rainbow shit" "nice kill, dumbass" "look who finally did her job" kinda stuff.

- an outsider would think they hate one another. but actually, this is just how Yoru communicates with his friends.

- in actuality, they do enjoy one anothers' company. Yoru just shows his love very oddly.

- they watch anime together of course, and Yoru shares his Japanese snacks with her (which she LOVES)

- oh, and Arcade is yet to beat Yoru in any fighter game she's played with him. he is, for some ungodly reason, way too good at them. he sucks at mario kart though

Bonus doodles!!

[mobolanz]

For the soft OC asks: 12, 19 and 14.

Knew I could count on you!:D

12. What's a childhood memory they cherish most?:

Evelyn: a very sentimental individual, who actually believes she took them all for granted and wasted them back then- so the least she can do is cherish the memory fondly.

But one I think about a lot would be a time her father showed her his own ship, just by the time she began elementary school; he told her that in a few years when she's old and responsible enough he'd take her on a trip with it and maybe even inherit it to her when she's fully grown. It was big and impressive for her eyes, of a girl in sheltered upbringing not allowed to leave the safe home (and quite literally, even go outside to the gardens without strict watch. So growing on the unnatural light and limited space of the mansion, as big as it was.)- the idea that in a matter of few years she can finally go wherever she wants. All she needs to do is earn it and do her best and hardest

By the time she reached said age the man decided that for as far as he's concerned he doesn't have a daughter.

( @ ME WHAT PART OF "SOFT ASKS" DID YOU NOT UNDERSTAND-)

Mia: first time she showed someone a thing she drew and they went "well this girl should do so much! Like grow to be an actual artist or something". She's been since forever believed to be meant for great achievements on her own uniqueness... so what's stopping her now...?

Cecille: Honestly,, just about anytime she was reading by herself in the personal libary/ the tree. Rather likely whatever she pulled each time was dark poetry/folktales/myths. On the later's case any weather was a good excuse for her too (outside rains & snows obvy), otherwise sitting by the window.

14.What's the most touching gift they've ever received?:

Evelyn: gold pendant with a stone almost shaped like a heart the color of fire she got as a surprise from someoneee after a certain festival in secret (🤭). Even a certain patient of hers (his name is incoming fic spoiler) noticed and bluntly pointed out a very unusual smile as she kept observing it carefully while wearing it to the last of details. She wears it often as possible and takes extra care of it even in dangerous times, not leaving home without it.

Funny thing you asked... The ending got me to doodle as I type this the reinelyn hug before he gets on the ship to paradis in the epilogue,,, and as I mentioned in one of you previous asks.... a ring might be involved this time 🤭🤭✨

Mia: she's got a lot that'd be for sure, but the two things that allowed her to create her most precious creation were individually given to her by the two most important people in her life, so technically it's like a gift from them both. One is a diamond ring, the other is her crystallizing ability, and the she gifted herself with a protected version of the flower that made someone see the spark in her eye and love it.

Cecille: Nothing exactly. And she tries not to care too much. If anything the ribbon is more of a momentoum just innocently handed to her by her tounger sister the only time they saw each other.

That said, she never threw it.

19.What's a guilty pleasure of theirs?:

Evelyn: working late. Also idk if that counts but adressing people in an overly polite manner even if she's been told casualty is just fine. (Although if they specifically state to hate formalities she'd correct herself)

Mia: ah that'd be romantic films, dressing fancily for casual daily routine (which drags the ask "you're invited somewhere...?" ) And giving Sapphy analogies on self development x"3

Cecille: bringing up a random quote to prove her point in a conversation/argument. Also long hot showers.

SOFT OC ASKS

[graylinesspam]

Well well if it isn’t the foreshadowing of the clone rebellion on kamino we’re witnessing (is it? IS IT??? Please be it).

No but really, are you actually planning on writing this kind of ending or you’re sticking to the canon?

Anyway im having a lot of thoughts, most of them are AGAFAGGAZGAVAVAVVAAGHAVSVSSVS I LOVE IT. IT WAS SO CUTE AND THEN GOT SO FREAKING SAD AND THEN GOT CUTE AGAIN AND THEN THE PLOT TWIST????? ALPHA PLANNING A COUP RIGHT UNDER THE LONG NECK’S NOSES HELLO????? BRILLIANT

Also

DID REX OFFICIALLY ADOPT AHSOKA MANDO STYLE ???? Did the rest of the torrent do the same omfg they’re literally family 🥹🥹🥹

Rex trying to keep teenage cadets away from Ashoka is both cute and hilarious. He is such a dad.. ahem… brother material 👀

And I absolutely love the way you characterized Shaak Ti. Everyone always portray her as this wise Jedi that cares about the clones just like Plo Koon. And that’s true to some extent but she is so wrong for sitting in her own bubble and refusing to see the way kaminoans and trainers abuse them. She's a kind soul and means well but she totally lacks critical thinking. (but also yeah I would love to see her finally being able to adopt a few baby clones and raise them as her own sons. Such a touching moment it was, right until the aiwha baits ruined it that is)

And Kamino being compared to the eye of the storm is such a poetry honestly yk it rhymes

In conclusion, wonderful chapter as usual.

Okay. So much happened this chapter. Let me bullet point my response.

I likely won't get around to writing a clone rebellion in SH, though one is definitely planned for ASOI. I just can't see the war ended (without the empire's rise) and there nit being a clone uprising. But yeah ask me about that for ASOI and I might tell you my plans.

Yes, Rex officially adopted Ahsoka previously in SH. Off-screen. He knows her name as his sister and all that. I chose Rex partially because he's more traditional and sentimental than a lot of her other brothers. Kix has also said the vows but the rest of Torrent didn't feel the need to. They heard that Rex adopted her and basically went,"Sister? Ah ok, sister." *vigorous nodding*

I don't like to focus too much on Ahsoka's relationships with boys, but also y'know everyone (within age or developmental range) had a crush on her during the war. Cal, Kannan, Lux, Korkie, some clone cadets. She's just a pretty girl. But yeah no Rex overheard like one remark about her and moved an entire class and had them running laps for hours. He does not play.

He is absolutely her Dad-ish in the beginning. They develop a more on par relationship as she grows up and then eventually he fully relinquishes social rank to her. IE not being her elder anymore. But the whole Brothers raising brothers, line was the most important from that section.

Shaak Ti is traumatized and depressed. That's what this is. The Jedi never should have been in a war. That's it. And trying to run a war when you're completely unqualified hurts everyone. Which isn't to say they have a lot of choice. Realistically if she stood up one day and decided that the Kaminoans needed to surrender all of the clones to the jedi and stop producing them she'd be removed from her station and ignored. There's really nothing she can do. And she knows it. Which is why she lives with her hands over her "ears". Because if she just holds on and does a little good every day maybe she can actually change something one day. (the pessimistic view being it's futile in the face of the rising empire of which she's an active participant in building.) (and the more optimistic AU view being that Ahsoka succeeds in ASOI and the clones go free but they have to unpack their abuse in a plee for citizenship forcing the galaxy to realize what Kamino did and what Shaak participated in. Likely resulting in her retirement.) either way not pleasant for her.

Maybe she does end up with some sons, depending in which older clones decide they want to ally with her. It's all gonna be communal raising of the children.

The whole theme of this arc was really that there is no peace in war. So long as the storm rages you'll always have to step back into it. Only by pushing through to the other side can you escape it. But yeah I put SO much effort into the environmental symbolism. I was planning this for months before I started writing it.

So thank you so much for the ask and for reading the latest chapters. I had a blast writing them. Fingers crossed no one is too mad about my characterization of Shaak, I guess we'll find out.

[the-commonplace-book]

ok ok a real one: Seamus/Sinead obvs obvssss

Send me a ship for the ship bingo chart: Seamus O'Neill / Sinead Hanigan ( Original Characters )

Before anything else I'd like to say I fully intended for this art to be just a little sketch like I've been doing for these, but then I got carried away and whOOps! Art! (still forced myself not to do detail work)

Seamus and Sinead! They make me feel INSANE! I am in no way normal about them. 

For those who don’t know, Seamus and Sinead are two of the main characters of the scifi-fantasy series Beth and I are writing. They also have a modern AU continuity that we’re writing for funsies and will post on Ao3 eventually. And OH DO I HAVE A LOT TO SAY ABOUT THEM.

On paper, Seamus and Sinead are a recipe for disaster. A rich boy involved in politics with buckets of trauma, a screwed up family, commitment issues, and a laundry list of addictions. A driven, optimistic small town girl with a lot of prove, naive eagerness to trust, and a bit of a savior complex now and then. It’s a textbook dysfunctional romance novel situation at a cursory glance. 

But Sinead isn’t really so naive, she just likes to try and see the best in people. And Seamus, while a mess, is proactive in seeking out help in getting clean and processing his trauma. Sinead, while keen for authoritative approval, will never seek it out to the detriment of her morals. Seamus commitment issues? Turns out he’s the most loyal person on earth when he’s actually in a relationship; he just hasn’t been in one in a long time.  And the love that grows between them is born first out of friendship. They support each other and inspire each other to learn and grow and change for the better. They bring out the honest in each other, and through that bring out the best.

They bond over a love of poetry, music, art, and literature. Over empathy and curiosity. Over the macabre, the absurd, and the hopeful. Over the ways in which they seek to make the world a better place. Seamus is Sinead’s tether when she shoots for the stars, keeping her from flying off into space in her optimistic idealism. Sinead helps pull Seamus to his feet when his grounded, practical nature spirals into pessimistic nihilism. They have an insane amount of respect for each other and balance each other out beautifully. They are partners in the truest sense of the word. They aren’t each other’s sole reasons for growing and changing, but they are positive catalysts of change in each other’s lives, and they support each other through that ever evolving process.

Not to mention the themes of trauma recovery that are involved in their story for both of them. Learning what it is to trust and to feel safe and loved and secure in a relationship which is like candy to me. I love putting a little of that in my stories and so does Beth so it’s little surprise trauma recovery plays such a large role in this one.

And there’s the whole families aspect of things of inserting Sinead into the O’Neill mess which is just a delight because she’s a huge wrench in Seamus’ father’s plans. Sinead’s parents are wonderful (honestly another favorite ship) and adopt Seamus so fast. Sinead’s dad and Seamus have one of my favorite relationships in the story actually. 

I had to also grab the “I could make it SO fucked up” and “I could make it SO stupid” for them because we’ve written an insane number of AUs about these two and there’s one where we tried to see if we could screw up their relationshi, but somehow they worked their way back around to being healthy about it again and that continuity now inspired some of the narrative choices in the main canon.

Look I could talk about these two for ages. I mean, we’ve got entire books about them. They’re just so *chef’s kiss* 

Thanks for sending these two in! ugh I love them so much

[isfjmel-phleg]

November 2022 Books

Dark Waters and Empty Smiles by Katherine Arden

I enjoyed this series on the whole, but the last book was disappointingly short. It was building toward something intriguing and then...just sort of ends? The climax/resolution left a lot of questions unresolved and didn't have the emotional impact that it could have had if it had been paced at a rate proportional to the rest of the book.

Gregor the Overlander by Suzanne Collins

I've been meaning to get to this series for quite a while, but it didn't grab my attention as much as I hoped it would, so I probably won't continue. It wasn't bad; I just felt it was less original and with less interesting characters than Collins's other works.

The Seventh Raven by David Elliott

An unusual fairy tale retelling in that it's told through poetry--and it works quite well! It's evocative and visceral and fits well into the oral tradition of fairy tales. (Although the youngest brother's arc goes absolutely nowhere in the end.)

Between Jobs by W. R. Gingell

I have a lot of unanswered questions, but the characters and their dynamics are fascinating, and I'd like to continue this series.

The List of Unspeakable Fears by J. Kasper Kramer

This was absolute Rebekah Bait, and I loved it. Turn-of-the-century setting, eerie atmosphere, troubled young heroine whose assumptions about people lead to her need to better understand the humanity of others--a very enjoyable read.

The Case of the Baker Street Irregular by Robert Newman

I don't remember much about this one.

The Magic Thief by Sarah Prineas

I enjoyed the light tone of this one and will probably continue the series at some point.

The Desolations of Devil's Acre by Ransom Riggs

I've had this book for a long time and finally got around to it. Never have been crazy about the romantic plotline, but that (thank goodness) wasn't so much the emphasis. The worldbuilding continues to be this series' strength.

A Drowned Maiden's Hair by Laura Amy Schlitz

I liked this one more than I expected to. It's set around the turn of the century and deals with an orphan girl who is taken in by sisters who are fraudulent spiritualists and want to use her to assist in their scams. Schlitz writes extraordinarily believable historical fiction, and the themes of attachment to an emotional abuser and having to realize the truth of having been used...hits hard.

Behind the Bookcase by Mark Steensland

Some fantastic creative ideas that were not developed to their greatest potential.

Fugitive Telemetry by Martha Wells

Still don't understand what's going on. I just enjoy Murderbot.

Comics (in order of reading)

Young Justice (2019) Vol. 1-3 by Brian Michael Bendis

From a narrative perspective, this series is a mess. The story meanders aimlessly, and Bendis keep throwing in new characters instead of fully developing his already large main cast. Weird creative decisions are made (this is not one of Tim's better storylines, and I refuse to believe that he would seriously use his actual surname as his new codename? even his friends think it's ridiculous!). However, this is fantastic writing for Bart (and only Bart), whom Bendis seems to understand well.

The Flash: Fastest Man Alive Vol. 1-2 by Danny Bilson, Paul DeMeo, and Marc Guggenheim

I went into this series knowing it was awful, and it lived up to that promise.

If you absolutely must tell a story in which a long-established hero gets killed off, you're going to want to build that emotional punch by immersing the audience in why they love the character in the first place. Show him at his most characteristic and endearing. Call back to earlier stories. Focus on his relationships with other well-characters to show what a hole would be left behind if he weren't there. Have him be so close to achieving a big goal, some kind of especial happiness--and then kill him.

This series...did none of that. Bart is practically unrecognizable, he's disconnected from his family and friends, and it all feels very generic. Throw in a contrived and (quite frankly) creepy romantic relationship and an unexplained return of an antagonist whose previously established so-close-to-redemption arc get brushed aside in favor of being generically Evil...and it doesn't work.

The epilogue dealing with Inertia's fate had better writing in terms of emotional impact, but I do not care for the direction of making Thad "an irredeemable sociopath" who must suffer "something worse [than being killed]."

Final Crisis: Rogues' Revenge by Geoff Johns

Continues dealing with Inertia's fate, and the characterization gets even worse. I would prefer to ignore the existence of this one.

Teen Titans/Young Justice: Graduation Day by Judd Winick

The transitional story between Young Justice 1998 and Teen Titans 2003. Probably a mistake considering how the latter would turn out.

Teen Titans (2003) Vol. 1 by Geoff Johns

You've probably seen me rant elsewhere about what this series did to Bart for no apparent reason. The characterization in what little I've read of this series is not great in general, and I don't have the time or patience to continue with this trainwreck.

Assorted other Teen Titans (2003) issues

Read for Thad's appearances. And apparently Bart after returning from the dead and being restored to his previous age starts spending a scary amount of time in VR vengefully killing Inertia over and over. Yikes.

Batman: The Long Halloween and Dark Victory by Jeph Loeb

I'm not an expert, but I'd call these quintessential Batman comics in their style and tone.

First ~30 issues of Robin (1993) by Chuck Dixon

These are very, very 90s so far, and my biggest takeaway is concern for this poor kid. He's doing way too much. He does not have the time or emotional maturity to handle a romantic relationship. He's trying to keep his double life secret and is operating on next to no sleep most of the time. Someone please rescue him.