loop makes me want to die i need to study them like a bug under a microscope i’m going to kill someone THEYTRGDFJHUDSFKGDUSHSGIHOJPG;LKHJABDVHJKBIUNOFLDYJOBSKNUIFSADNBJGHKFNVMFKYLKSJDHGKNODIALKHJGVABKLNIFHJGBDUINAO9
goddd william just feels so guilty, hes going to be drowning in this guilt for the rest of his life and he doesn't know if its ever going to get better. hell, he doesn't know if he even wants it to get better, because that means forgiving himself for what he did.
he believes himself to be unlovable, he can't even say he became a monster back there because every terrible action was truly and wholly his own. So if he was a monster roaming the halls of Belltech that means he has always been a monster all along. the fact that Vyncent and Dakota have stayed by his side is both a miracle and idiocy on their part. he would turn himself in if he could, he would shout his greatest regret from the rooftops but he knows that no good would come from it. ashe needs him, and he can't help ashe in a jail cell.