#fuck you niall for making the whole thing straight /j

[the-irrelevant-trumpeter]

not to talk about how gay now museum now you don't is again, but. when tom says how he thought dan and danielle were sweet on each other, their reaction was 100% "we're both gay but the only people we've told is each other so we have to come up with some dumb excuse for why we were so close"

[swiftgronmasterpost]

GRYLES!!!

Rebuilding the Gryles Timeline expertly crafted here because I’m always afraid of broken links and people going private and losing data.

Not only is there a ton of great evidence that these guys were dating such as Harry leaving Nick’s place in the morning wearing the same clothes as he’d worn the night before, I’ve also got a friend who works in the UK music industry and she did tell me these guys did date.  Nick is 100% out as gay so it really does all add up.

Gryles very obviously takes place during Haylor, debunking Harry as the 1989 muse, and if it’s not Harry you do have to wonder... who with green eyes and an obsession with Alice and Wonderland was heavily featured in Taylor’s life and then disappeared before 1989 - a breakup album about someone with green eyes who seems to relate to Alice in Wonderland drops?

You get it.

Anyway here’s Gryles:

This is a little game I like to call "let's talk about Nick/Harry dates and how they line up with Harry leaving and entering the country".

06. February 5th 2012 - Harry and Nick go to a Super Bowl party together.

One Direction in Sweden February 12th - 14th. (Came home by train on the 14th.)

07. February 14, 2012 - VALENTINE'S DAY!

08. February 18, 2012 - Stella McCartney Fashion show with Nick's mom.

09. February 21, 2012 - Brit Awards!

10. February 22, 2012 - They attend a party together. (Nick might have been DJing?)

11. February 23, 2012 - Harry spotted leaving Nick Grimshaw's flat in the same outfit he was wearing the night before.

The morning of February 23rd One Direction flies to the US for their tour and doesn't return to the UK until April 24th, 2012.

This trip is supposedly where Haylor 1.0 happens.  Harry supposedly meets Taylor at the KCA’s on March 31 and they fall for one another.  Taylor supposedly goes to NYC to be with Harry (even though she spends the whole time with Dianna) during the first week of April.  Then they supposedly enter into a long distance relationship that is broken up because Harry was seen out with another girl.

All the while the last thing Harry does before he leaves the UK is spend the night with Nick and then the first thing he does is goes back to him.

Yeah, I’m not buying Haylor 1.0 it seems pretty clear to me that Taylor wanted to pin I Knew You Were Trouble on Harry as a big pop anthem to support her transition to pop.  I think it’s even possible they faked Harry being spotted out with that girl or perhaps he and Nick had some kind of agreement.  I’m not saying Gryles was always exclusive (they may have been), but regardless I don’t see Red era Taylor being cool enough to share her boyfriend with a man.

12. April 25, 2012 - Nick and Harry out together the morning after he returned.

Harry also calls into Nick's radio show on the 25th and confirms that the first thing he did upon returning on the 24th was meet up with Nick and Matt Fincham for drinks so one can theorize he probably crashed w/ Nick that night.

Harry goes to LA by himself on May 1st and returns to the UK on the 5th.

May 5th, 2012 - Harry out with Annie Mac and Nick. (Thanks to my anon for clueing me into this little gem of information.)

13. May 7th, 2012 - Harry and Nick out with friends

One Direction goes to Sweden from May 10th to May 16th.

14. May 17, 2012 - The Sun reports Harry driving Nick to work.

Also out shopping together

15. May 19, 2012 - Nick posts a picture to his instragram from the Kanye West/Jay Z show at the O2.

Who cares right? So he went to see a show. But then.

Hey guess what happened the very next day? One Direction flew to Boston on May 20th, 2012 to start their summer tour in the U.S. They're gone from the 20th to July 3rd.

16. July 5, 2012 - Nick and Harry attend the launch of Tinie Tempah's shoes line.

There's some downtime and vacation time here where Harry disappears for a week while Louis is France w/ Eleanor, Niall goes to Spain, Liam and Danielle are on vacation, etc and then One Direction goes back to work July 11th recording and doing photo shoots.

17. July 19, 2012 - Harry goes out with Nick and Aimee and tweets this.

18. August 10, 2012 - Harry attends Nick's 28th birthday party at La Bodega Negra.

Pregaming before the party!

Outside La Bodega Negra

19. August 11, 2012 - Primrose Hill picnic

20. August 20, 2012 - One Direction visit Nick at BBCR1 to announce their headlining of the BBC Radio 1 Teen Choice Awards.

21. August 25, 2012 -

Nick and Harry go to lunch. (Would also like to point out that they are switching places and that Harry is going to the driver's side of Nick's car :333)

and then to Reading Festival

then Nick accompanies Harry to Liam's party at Funky Buddha

and then they leave together and go see Rita Ora at G.A.Y.

22. August 26, 2012 - The morning after, Nick tweets a shot of his hangover breakfast from Harry's Range Rover (Nick owns a Mercedes).

then a lunch date with several people

They spend this entire day together and this is the day the pics of them in the grocery store  are taken where Nick buys Harry a banana, etc

and then Harry drops Nick off for his nighttime show and picks him up again to take him to/stay with him while Nick DJs at Wonderland nightclub.

(Although, lbr. Given what we learn from Nick's final nighttime show about how often Harry hung around the studio, he probably never left.)

Wonderland! (the only time that fucking song has any bearing on Harry and he’s off being a MLM king)

23. August 28, 2012 - Leaving Nick's flat

spotted in the studio w/ Nick at BBCR1

24. August 30, 2012 - Harry films the Breakfast Show advert for Nick's #Team Grimmy commercial and then they go to Mahiki Club that night.

25. August 31, 2012 - Harry goes with Nick to his DJ gig at Paradise

and then to karaoke afterward

The lo and behold One Direction flies to Florida the very next day to film their Pepsi commercial. They're gone until September 11th.

on September 6, 2012 Taylor has Sushi with Ed and Harry in LA supposedly signaling the start of Haylor 2.0 as if Harry is not fully boyfriends with Nick.

26. September 12, 2012 - Nick's final nighttime show. (this was a gif of them being cute and playing around but I was too lazy to bring it over, you get it they’re touchy, flirty, and playful):

Nick and Aimee go on vacation together from the 14th to the 18th.

27. September 18, 2012 - This dude says he spotted Harry Styles waiting in arrivals at the airport while waiting for his sister's flight to arrive insinuating perhaps Harry was traveling with Nick and Aimee:

28. September 20, 2012 - iTunes Festival where One Direction was interviewed by Nick and Annie Mac

29. Harry calls into Nick's first Breakfast Show on September 25, 2012. Then they meet up after to see Perks of Being a Wallflower together. I can't find the tweets from the ladies who saw them there, but Nick and Emma Watson confirm later that Harry was indeed there.

30. September 29, 2012 - Spotted at Waitrose together and then the following morning Nick regales his listeners with the tale of a Spinach pie he made for a ~friend~.

31. October 5th (or 6th?), 2012 - Preparation for Ladz FM

But also on October 5th, Taylor is on Nick’s show:

32. October 6, 2012 - Ladz FM

Supposedly on this show Nick gives Harry hell for Taylor, the Haylor timeline I like puts it this way:

“One Direction and Harry make an appearance on Nick’s show the following day, and they talk about Taylor on-air for 4 minutes straight. Nick teases Harry by saying “Ol’ Swiftyyyy” over and over again when she is brought up in the conversation.” Yup that’s right, Nick was giving his own boyfriend shit about his fake girlfriend 😭😭😭 this is why I fuck w Nick’s energy.

then they went for lunch in notting hill (no Taylor? why not Harry aren’t you so happy to be back with her and in love w her?)

33. October 7, 2012 - BBC Teen Choice Awards

One Direction doing promotion for the new album.

Paris - October 11, 2012

Ireland - October 12, 2012

Manchester - October 16, 2012

Leeds - October 17, 2012

34. October 19, 2012 - Lunch in London

October 31 - One Direction in Spain

Early November One Direction goes to the US for Ellen, X Factor USA, and The Today Show. After The Today Show Harry flies to LA while the rest of One Direction goes back to London. Harry writes a song with the lead singer of Snow Patrol and rumors start flying about him hooking up with Taylor Swift.

Harry arrives back in London on November 16, 2012.

35. November 16, 2012 - Children in Need benefit concert

November 30th One Direction goes back to the U.S. for one off shows and MSG show. Haylor happens.

Harry returns to London on December 8th via Taylor's private jet and plays the Jingle Ball with the rest of One Direction. Harry and Taylor tour the UK together until December 15th when Taylor leaves for France.  Meanwhile Dianna heads out on a mystery 14 hour long flight on December 14th.

36. December 16, 2012 - Roast Dinner!

One Direction returns to the U.S. for the X Factor USA finale. Harry stays in the U.S. and goes on a ski vacation with Taylor Swift, Justin Bieber, and Selena Gomez.

He returns to the UK on December 24th.

37. December 25, 2012 - Late night Christmas leftovers. (Yes they���re spending Christmas together, that’s boyfriend behavior!)

Harry and Nick both leave London on the 29th (Nick for Puerto Rico and Harry for NYC) Harry spends New Years with Taylor and Nick spends New Years with Pixie, Aimee, and the rest of the hipster crew. Harry and Taylor then fly to Gorda British Virgin Islands where they are supposed to vacation until the 7th. Taylor leaves on the 4th and Harry goes to Necker Island alone. Tabloids say Harry and Taylor have broken up.

And that’s it for Haylor!

Harry arrives back in the UK on January 8th

38. January 8, 2013 - Sushi lunch date! (tweet confirming nick was also there.)

and harry with the girl who tweeted it.

39. January 10, 2013 - Tinie Tempah's GQ dinner.

The party was for people on the British GQ best dressed list (Nick was on it. Harry was not.)

Jessie J puts a picture of the table cards from her table on instagram. Harry doesn't have one which, you know. I'll just be here imagining him as Nick's + 1.

One Direction fly to Ghana on the 12th or 13th and return on the 15th. On the 16th Harry calls into Grimmy’s show to talk about how Fincham DOES NOT LOOK LIKE A MEMBER OF ONE DIRECTION. Finchy asks Harry when he’s back and Harry says “in a couple of days”. (Small side note here that I don’t think Finchy and Harry are at the level of friends where they keep track of one another’s schedules so the only way Finchy could have known that Harry was heading back out of town to Japan that very day is if Nick told him.)

One Direction in Japan from January 16th to the 20th.

I'm not going to count this as a time they were together because I have no hard evidence, but the night of January 20th Harry was spotted in a grocery store buying wine and Annie Mac mentions on her show that Nick ditched coming over for dinner that evening to have a friend round to his house instead. We assume it was Harry, but w/o actual proof I don't want to say it concretely.

40. January 21, 2013 - Baking for Radio 1! (Tweet confirming the friend was Harry.)

Nick tells this story the morning of the 22nd about how he forgot he had to bake, so he got up from bed, went to the store for supplies, and forgot eggs. So, he texted his friend who was coming over to bring eggs and then Nick baked while his friend yelled at him to add more butter.

41. January 22, 2013 - Watching Great British Bake Off

Do what you will with this one. Obviously there is not definite way to tell if this is Harry or not, but given the evidence of the amount of time they spend together that has been laid forth thus far, I feel comfortable saying those are indeed Harry's legs.

42. January 31, 2013 - Out for Harry's birthday at La Bodega Negra (the same place they celebrated Nick's birthday.)

Nick also went to Groucho Club afterward with Harry and mentioned on his show this morning that he hadn't slept at all. (He was still wearing the same outfit.)

43. February 1, 2013 - Aimee tweets about being in the car with Nick en route to play Laser Quest. (Can't imagine who they might be playing with.)

Nick tweeted this :)

Never

Getting

Over

This

February 19, 2013 - PreBrit Awards Dinner Hosted by Nick!

THEIR SMILEY LITTLE FACES. :3

Legit SHARING A TAXI ON THE WAY HOME

2/20/13 - At the Brit Awards together!

Leaving an after party!

taking a cab to Nick's house so Nick can change for work

hands hands hands

At Nick's flat

 2/21/13 - On The Breakfast show the morning after the Brits!

Harry on The Breakfast Show!

2/23/2013 - Nick attends One Direction's first show at the O2 in London

THE DROUGHT IS OVER!!!

8/21/2013 - Nick interviews Harry, Zayn, and Liam for TBS

Then Nick and Harry hook up later for dinner.

September 12, 2013

Harry gets off the plane from LAX, gets on the tube and meets Nick at an Elton John concert

Harry and Nick's dad at the concert, posted to Nick's instagram.

September 13, 2013

This person says they saw nick and Harry at Apartment 58 (members only club) together

https://twitter.com/LightbownL/status/378610145271771136

But, Sadie Frost also posted a picture of her and Nick getting ready to go out for LFW with no mention of Harry, so the tweet could be false facts.

But then! September 14, 2013

Sadie posts this picture of Nick sleeping on her sofa

Followed by this picture of Harry posing with her daughter

And then Nick and Harry went to Henry Hollands show at LFW together

Then to a pub with Gemma, Kelly Osborn and others

Then to dinner with James Corden and his wife

September 15, 2013

September 17, 2013 - Fashion Show East in London

November 9, 2013 - Breakfast with Anne and Robin at the Wolseley.

So Anne tweeted this in the morning. You can see the Wolseley logo at the top of the plate.

Then this girl got a pic with Harry at the Wolseley during his breakfast with Anne and Robin.

and she confirmed that Nick was eating with them https://twitter.com/alexandra_imper/status/400204985222193152

Then off to Selfridges to shop!

At Alexa Chung's birthday party!

November 10, 2013 - Ladz instagram and Aimee Phillips birthday party!

LADZ VIDEO!

November 30, 2013

Harry playing with Puppy at Nick's house.

Poppy Delevingne's hen party!

Leaving Groucho club.

December 1, 2013

Primrose Hill lighting ceremony!

Nick with Daisy Lowe and his dad!

Then this girl met Nick

https://twitter.com/rpcheald/status/407224559687852032/photo/1

and saw Harry

https://twitter.com/rpcheald/status/407209332858552320

Class of '92 movie premiere

Nick and his dad on the red carpet

Harry meeting Beckham!

December 4, 2013 - London Fashion Awards

February 17, 2014 - Taking a random taxi ride?????

and leaving Nick's flat

March 29, 2014

Sleepover at Harry's house!

Nick posted this on instagram

http://instagram.com/p/mHpTBdPJyt/

At the time we weren't sure it was Harry's drive but...

https://twitter.com/cuppanarryx/status/481310537817399296/photo/1

Hiya, doggie.

Also Nick's tweet from the morning after just because.

https://twitter.com/grimmers/status/449814322399940609

May 24, 2014 - Radio 1's Big Weekend

May 28, 2014 - Barry's BC London

And link to post about the other tweets x

June 8, 2014

Nick attends One Directions show at Wembley Stadium.

June 12, 2014

Harry at Nick driving around London in a Ferrari.

and another tweet about the Ferarri sighting.

https://twitter.com/ItsJustMikey/status/477133631602065408

Then later that evening Harry went to Nick's for his World Cup barbecue and fans took pics with Harry outside Nick's house.

[atlafan]

Take it Slow - Part Twenty-Nine

a/n: okay this is my first shot at a harry:y/n fic, and it will be multiple parts. y/n had a bad experience with an ex over a year ago, and finally accepts her coworker and good friend Niall’s invitation to go on a blind date with his friend Harry.

Warnings: Smut, and a whole mess of fluff.

Masterpost (all previous parts can be found in the masterpost)

“C’mere.” You say to him. You sit up slightly. “I want you to like hover over me while I suck on you.”

“Are you sure you want my balls in your face like that?” He chuckles.

“Won’t bother me.”

Harry comes closer to you, and grips the top of your headboard. You grip him in your hand at first, and then put your mouth right on him. He sucks in a breath when he feels your hot, wet mouth around him. Sometimes you think back to when you were younger. You absolutely hated sucking dick. Some guys just had bad hygiene. But you loved doing it for Harry. He really made you see how hot it was to pleasure someone else orally. He also kept things trim and clean, which you very much appreciated.

He rocks against your face, going deeper down your throat. You groan against him, and he grips your headboard tighter. His eyes are screwed shut, trying to picture his dick inside of you where he really wants it. It’s not that he didn’t love it when you blew him, he just wanted to feel how tight you were.

It doesn’t take him long to come down your throat. You swallow up every bit of it, and he climbs off of you. You get up to rinse your mouth out.

“Holy shit!” You scream, and he rushes into in the bathroom to make sure you’re alright. He finds you inspecting the back of your body in the mirror. Your front wasn’t nearly as fucked up. “Jesus, Harry.” You say rubbing a spot on your shoulder. “I look like a leopard.” You start laughing.

“You said I could…”

“I’m not complaining.” You assure him.

“Looks good on you anyways.” He gives you kiss on the cheek and pats your bum. He leaves you to do your thing in the bathroom.

You wash your face and brush your teeth. When you come out of the bathroom you pick up his t-shirt and throw it on over you. He’s sitting up in bed reading.

“Harry, you look so cute in your glasses, have I ever told you that?” He looks at you and smiles.

“Maybe once or twice.” He teases. He finishes the last page of his book and sighs.

“What?” You ask getting into the bed.

“Nothin’, just sad. This was the last book in this series.”

“Did it have a happy ending?”

“As happy as it could be, yeah. It’s my second time readin’ it, still gets to me.” He takes his glasses of and wipes a tear away.

“I wish I liked reading as much as you do. I much prefer television.”

“I just like getting’ lost in the pages. I mean, I read garbage novels, but they’re just so addicting. Has a television show ever moved you to tears?”

“Oh, tons of times. I think TV has made me cry more than film.”

“Really? What shows have made you cry?” He pulls you into his chest and turns the light off. God, you loved pillow talk before bed.

“Okay, don’t laugh, but when I was in high school, and college too, I was really into Glee.”

“That show about the nerds in the acapella club?”

“Yeah.”

“That show made you cry?”

“I think just about every episode in the third season made me cry, and I sobbed during the season finale. To be fair, I was like sixteen.” You giggle. “There were a couple of scripted series on MTV too that made me super emotional.”

“Like what?”

“There was a show called Awkward that just really fired me up. And there was Teen Wolf.”

“Teen Wolf? Isn’t that a movie with Michael J. Fox?”

“Yeah! But then MTV made a show based off the movie, much darker though. It was really good. Well, it got worse as the seasons went on, but I watched through to the end. Same with Awkward.”

“Do you watch anythin’ now that tugs at your heart strings?”

“Um…I really like that show Roswell: New Mexico. I didn’t think I would like it so much, but it got to me. The first season is on Netflix, maybe we could watch it sometime.”

“Sure, I’d like that.”

“I used to like live blog and write reviews for the shows I’d watch. I still do sometimes.”

“Where do you blog?”

“On Tumblr mostly.”

“That’s cool that you do that.”

“It’s funny because I hate reading reviews of things. I like to try things out for myself. Oh! Do you watch Stranger Things? That’s a good one. Niall and I always binge watch it together when a new season comes out.”

“That’s right!” He starts laughing. “I remember he like blew me off during the day on the 4th this summer to go meet up with you.”

“That was an incredible binge, if I do say so. Speaking of him, he wants to have a movie night Friday so we can all celebrate our good news. I was thinking of having everyone over here. What do you think?”

“Works for me.” He smiles at you.

//

Your period was a killer this week. There were several times during the week you found yourself on the floor in your office. You had run out of your stash of ibuprofen, and hadn’t had time to get more. You were forced to just suffer in silence. The pain would pass eventually, and then you could get on with it.

Harry was good about not getting on your nerves too much. He was slowly learning what you needed while your hormones were at their peak. Every morning you’d examine your body, almost becoming sad at seeing the marks slowly fade away as they healed. You were incredibly horny, but there wasn’t anything you could do. You’d had sex on your period before, but you certainly weren’t going to let him use his fingers or mouth on you right now. You had contemplated maybe in the shower, but you were afraid of residue. You didn’t tell him this, but you got yourself off a couple times in the shower on your own. You had to, the ache between your legs was just too unbearable.

Your body was trying to tell you something for sure, but your mind tried its best to keep you at bay.

//

You were delighted when your period ended Friday morning, but your stomach felt like shit. The first week of a birth control pack was your least favorite thing, even more so than your period. Your dosage wasn’t even that high, but it still would make you feel like you were going to vomit.

“Anythin’ ya need me t’pick up for tonight? I can do a run to the market before ya get home from work.” Harry says to you sitting up in bed, watching you pick your outfit for the day.

“Think I have everything we need. I have chips and dip, we’ll probably order pizza or something.” You decide on a pair of dark jeans and blouse/blazer combination. You throw your hair up in a high pony, and take a few strands out to frame your face.

“Know what we’re watchin’ yet?”

“Nope.”

“Who’s comin?” You sigh and look at him.

“Harry, I love you, but you’ve reached my capacity for questions this morning, okay?” He blinks at you.

“Sorry.”

“It’s not your fault, I just feel gross and I’m hormonal. Not a great excuse.”

“One more question.” You nod. “Is Aunt Flow still in town?”

“No she left early this morning, thank god. This was a rougher month.” You sit on the edge of the bed. He places a hand on your thigh.

“Sometimes I wish I could just take all your aches away.” You smile at him.

“You do, in more ways than you know.” You stand up and give him a light kiss. “See you tonight.”

“Love you.”

“Love you too, babe.”

//

You felt better as the work day went on. You were excited to have a little double date with Niall and Sarah. Harry got out of work around 4PM, so he went straight to your apartment. He knew you’d want to have the place ready to go so you could relax when you got home. He fluffed up the pillows on your couch, and folded up the couple of blankets you kept on the back of it. He made sure all of the beer for him and Niall was in the fridge, and he picked up your favorite wine.

You keyed into your apartment around 5:30, and kicked off your shoes. Your nose was pink from the cold air outside. Harry had his legs slung over one of the large chairs you had near the couch. He had his laptop, and was working away. He looked up at you and gave you a smile.

“Hi, love.” He says.

“Hi honey.” You yawn.

“I tidied a bit for ya.” You kiss the top of his head.

“Thank you. M’just gonna go change quick.”

You change into a pair of leggings and a t-shirt, and come back out to Harry. He puts his laptop on the coffee table, and gestures for you to come sit with him. You sit in his lap, and rest your head on his shoulder. He rocks you back and forth slowly, and you let out a calming sigh.

“How’s my baby girl today, hm?”

“Tired.” He rubs your back. “But I’m happy to have friends over tonight.” You nuzzle into his neck.

“I bought that wine you really like.”

“Mm.” Is all you muster out as you start to doze off in his arms. He chuckles, but lets you drift.

Your eyes snap open when you hear Niall and Sarah walk into your place. You practically jump off of Harry.

“Sorry, did we disturb you two?” Sarah giggles. “We brought a veggie platter.” She hands it to Harry.

“No, I fell asleep. I was exhausted.” You stretch, and hug your friend.

“Alright, what are we watchin? TV, movie?” Niall says.

“Oh! You know what was on the other night that I’d love to watch all the way through?” You say.

“What?”

“The Forty-Year-Old Virgin. I refrained from watching it because it was halfway through. It’s on Netflix, do we feel like a comedy?”

“Works for me.” Niall says.

“I love that movie!” Sarah says.

Harry and Niall grab their beer, and you and Sarah fill your glasses with wine. You and Sarah sit in the middle of the couch, and your boyfriends sit on either side of you. Your apartment was filled with giggles right off the bat.

“God, we love a young Paul Rudd.” Sarah says.

“We love a Paul Rudd at any age.” You clink your glass with hers. Harry pinches your arm, and you giggle. “What?”

“I’m sittin’ right here. You’re attracted to him?”

“You’re not?! He’s beautiful!” You and Sarah start laughing.

“Isn’t he like fifty?” Niall chimes in.

“So?” You and Sarah say at the same time.

“He’s a hall pass for sure.” Sarah says, kissing her boyfriend on the cheek.

“Agreed. What I would give for a night with Paul Rudd.” You look up at Harry and burst out laughing.

“Jesus, mate, here I was thinkin’ she liked the tall, tan guys, but clearly I was wrong.”

“Now you’ve learned your place.” Niall says laughing. You kiss Harry on the cheek.

You and Sarah laugh so hard you both cry when Jonah Hill makes his small cameo. The guys end up laughing pretty hard at several moments too. You get up to grab the veggie platter out of the fridge and set it up on the coffee table for everyone.

“Thanks for bringing this by the way.”

“Oh no problem, figured it would be better than pizza. Are you excited for Hanukkah to start tomorrow?”

“Yes! I look forward to the gift card my uncle gives me every year.” You giggle.

“Is Harry going with you?” Sarah asks.

“Yup.” You two share a look and start laughing.

“Alright, why does this keep happening? Has everyone been to this party but me?”

“Pretty much, lad.”

“What’s the big deal? Is there somethin’ I should know?”

“Y/N’s great uncle is just a really funny guy. I would just watch out when he greets you.”

“Sarah!”

“You’re not even going to warn him?”

“Warn me of what?”

“If she didn’t warn me, she doesn’t get to warn him.” Niall says.

“Harry…just…” Sarah giggles. “He’s just an older Jewish guy with different ways of saying hello. That’s all.”

“What’s he gonna do? Hug me? M’fine with that.”

“Sure, he’s going to hug you.” Sarah shrugs. “It’s a really great way to know you’re part of the family.”

Sarah and Niall leave around 11PM. You and Harry clean up the living room, and head to the bedroom.

“What time should we leave tomorrow?”

“Party starts at six, so we should probably leave here at like quarter of five, might be traffic.”

“Oh great, so we can sleep in a little?”

“Yup.” You kiss him and turn over. He wraps himself around you, being the bigger spoon.

“That was fun tonight.”

“Yeah, I’m glad we were able to do it. Gotta make more time for them.”

“Definitely….so, Paul Rudd could have you huh?” You turn over to face your stupid boyfriend.

“You’re not serious?”

“Nice to know how you really feel.” He fake pouts.

“I’m sure you have your own celebrity crushes.”

“I suppose. None I would leave you for to go fuck though. Wouldn’t be worth it.” You bite your bottom lip to keep from smiling. “You would really ask me for a hall pass for Paul Rudd? Of all people?”

“Hypothetically speaking, if he wasn’t married with kids, I would consider it. More than anything I think I’d like to just have dinner with him, pick his brain.”

“So you want to go out on a date with him?”

“Sure!” You giggle.

“Who else do you swoon over?” He gives you a crooked smile.

“That’s a very personal question.” You tease.

“Why?”

“Because you’re essentially asking me about who I’ve fantasized about.”

“Jesus, if you tell me you’ve touched yourself thinking about Paul R-“

“I haven’t! Not with him.”

“Who then?” Your cheeks flush. “C’mon, I wanna know who my competition is.”

“Harry, it’s embarrassing.” You shove your face into his chest.

“Please, I’m so curious.” He begs.

“You’re going to laugh at me.”

“Promise I won’t.” You lift your head and look at him.

“I would bone Andy Samberg if I had the chance, again, if he wasn’t married with a child. I will not be a homewrecker.”

“What is with you and older Jewish dudes?”

“Don’t know. It’s not because they’re Jewish. I just find him really attractive, plus he’s funny. You’re funny.”

“Right, the key to a girl’s heart is humor.” He rolls his eyes.

“Harry, if you didn’t make me laugh on our first date, I wouldn’t have seen you again, attraction or not.”

“Seriously?”

“Seriously. Sense of humor is very important to me. You’re so quick when you joke around, you could be a comedian yourself.” He lifts your chin up to kiss you.

“So, you were pretty hot f’me when we first met, huh?”

“So hot.” You roll your eyes. “I had never seen a man quite so handsome. What about me? What did you think of me when we first met?”

“I wanted to hit Niall for not doing you justice. I mean the lad told me you were beautiful, but shit, when I saw you, I nearly got the wind knocked out of me.”

“Oh stop.” You swat your arm at his chest.

“M’serious. And you were so cute at the end of the night, when you simply kissed me on the cheek. It was so innocent and sweet. Not somethin’ I had really experienced before.”

“How do your first dates typically go?” You giggle. Harry scrunches his face.

“Do ya really wanna know the answer t’that?”

“Are you seriously going to tell me that you usually bone on the first date?”

“That’s usually the only date I want, so yeah.” He says a little too honestly.

“What about the girl you dated for like seven months, or whatever?”

“Uhh, we got frisky…didn’t do it til the second date I think. I don’t know, I was such an asshole, I basically just thought of her as the girl I was consistently hookin’ up with.”

“Were you sleeping with other people?”

“Nah, just her.”

“And she thought you were dating, but you didn’t think you were?”

“I just thought of her as the girl I was seein’.” You often wondered what made you so goddamn special. You and Harry had talked about it before, but it still baffled you. “I know what you’re thinkin’. You know what I really liked about you, like, right off the bat?”

“What?”

“You were just so open and lovely. You were genuinely interested in what I had to say. I thought it was sweet that you complimented m’nails, like not in a judgey way. I couldn’t wait to see you again, honestly. I’d never felt that way before.”

“So you didn’t want to just fuck me then?”

“I wouldn’t have turned the opportunity down. I mean, you looked so fuckin’ sexy in that little black dress you wore.”

“I’ve never seen a man wear a pair of pants the way that you do.”

“What?” He laughs.

“You have a bubble butt babe, and it’s incredible. Love sinking my nails into those cheeks.”

“Are you still drunk?”

“Maybe just a bit buzzed, but I mean what I say.” You prop yourself up to really look at him. “You have a chonk, my dude.” Harry burst out laughing.

“Who talks like that?” He says with a big smile.

“Me and my friends. You’re not the only with a dirty mouth.” You wink. “You know what, I think that’s why I like Paul Rudd and Andy Samberg so much. They both have pretty big butts.”

You both giggle about a bunch of different things until you fall asleep.

//

The next morning you both happily slept in. You got up before Harry. You decided to do a light workout in your living room since you didn’t go to the gym much last week. You put on a pair of spandex shorts and sports bra, and tip toed out. You were just finishing your cool down when Harry walked into the living room, blanket wrapped around him. You guzzled down some water. Your body was drenched in sweat.

“Morning baby. Thought I’d get a quick workout in, we’re going to be eating a lot of food tonight.” He squints at you.

“You…you weren’t in the bed when I woke up.” He rubs his eyes, his voice was still thick with sleep.

“I was just out here, did you think I went somewhere?” You turn the TV off, and walk towards him.

“I don’t know what I thought. I just reached for you and you weren’t there.” He pouts. “I like when we snuggle in the mornin’. You’ve deprived me.” You giggle at him.

“Is baby a little cranky this morning?” You pinch of his cheeks and walk by him.

“Where you goin’ now?” He whines.

“Harry, I’m caked with sweat, I need to shower. You can join me if you want.”

“Not awake enough to shower.”

“That makes no sense. Showers wake people up all the time.”

“Too much work.” He curls up on the couch, and closes his eyes.

You take your shower, alone. You take full advantage of having the privacy to shave every last inch of yourself. You blow dry your hair, and throw your robe on, not really feeling like putting clothes on yet. Harry was still wrapped in your blanket, but he was sitting up and had a mug in his hands. He was watching something mindless on television. You sit down next to him and smile. You throw your legs over his lap.

“Feel how smooth my legs are, I just shaved them.” He gives you a funny look and giggles, rubbing his hand up and down one of your legs.

“Mm, so soft.”

“You’re a sleep boy today.”

“Yeah, I am. Not really sure why, I’ll perk up once the coffee’s in me.”

“Want me make something for breakfast? I have oatmeal and grapes.”

“If you don’t mind, that’d be great.”

You turn on the electric kettle Harry had sneakily bought you. He said it was for him so he could have tea quick, but you know he wanted you to have one of your own. Once the water was boiling, you poured it into the two bowls of quick oats you made up. You but a dash of cinnamon in each, and topped it with some grapes. You come back over and hand him his bowl.

“Thank you baby.”

“My pleasure.”

You both scarf down your breakfast, and sit on the couch a while longer. Harry gets up to clean the bowls, and puts them in the dishwasher. He stretches out, and lets out a moan.

“Alright, guess I’ll shower now.”

You bring the blanket back to the bed and make it up. Harry’s in and out of the shower quick. He has his towel wrapped around his waist. You’re sitting on the edge of your bed, filing your nails, he sits down next you.

“How long we been together now? Little over four months?”

“Yeah, it’ll be five in January.” You smile. “Why?” He twiddles his thumbs.

“Well, it might be too soon to be bringin’ this up, but s’not like that’s ever stopped us before. I’m here a lot, and I love your place. I still like my place, but I love your place because this is where you and all your things are. I didn’t know if maybe when we got back from holiday, maybe we could entertain the idea of finding a place of our own?” He looks up at you. You’re speechless. “I mean, I’d say let’s just live here, but I need a space for my desk and monitor. I think a two bedroom where we could split the other room as a conjoined office or somethin’, would make the most sense.” He chews on his bottom lip. “I’ve totally freaked you out haven’t I?”

“How long have you, um, felt this way? When did you realize you wanted to live with me?”

“Can’t pin point it. Just somethin’ I’ve been thinkin’ about. I know it seems fast, but we’re practically livin’ together as it is. We can talk about it later if you’re not ready now. Just wanted to put the bug in your ear.”

You were amazed. You hadn’t even fully slept with the man yet, and he already wanted to live with you. You put your hands on his shoulders and push him back on the bed. You crawl on top of him, and kiss his face all over.

“Harry, I would love to live with you.”

“Really?”

“Yeah! Maybe like towards the end of January we could start looking for a bigger place. You know, once all of the holidays are over. Can you break your lease at any time?”

“Pretty much, yeah. Why?”

“Well…you could move in here before we find another place. Doesn’t make sense for you to keep paying rent. It could take us months to find a place, I’d rather have you here during the in between. We can rearrange the furniture to fit all of your things. And I have that storage unit, we could keep your bed and bulkier furniture there for a little while.”

“I love you so much.”

“I love you too.” You kiss him. “Um…not that I don’t wanna tell the world, but I’d like to keep this quiet from my family for a bit. I still have to tell my dad about England. I’d rather ease them into something like this.”

“Of course. Better keep it quiet from my mum too. Keep everything nice and light.”

“I’m so excited!”

“Me too!”

Harry always seemed to be able to read your mind. It was a conversation you were hoping to have with him after you got back from England. You just couldn’t believe that he beat you to it. You were practically living together, and it didn’t make sense for you both to be paying rent separately. You’d miss his little place, but you’d eventually find a bigger place you both liked. You still loved the idea of potentially living in Niall’s building. Once you start making more money, you’d be able to afford it no problem.

[loudsuitlover]

Bad Kisser

The sun was setting right behind the big commercial ship among the trees they were yet flling with products for the new mall. Alice was walking towards Harry’s car, which seemed almost lonely being the only car parked on the ridiculously big parking lot for the new mall. You wondered if there would be a time where so many people would come to the mall all at once so that all the parking spaces would be used up or if half of them were just a waste. Alice had been half scolding you for the past twenty minutes but then she started giving little, gracious hops because she had seen Niall’s back as he chatted to Harry and then you smiled. You hadn’t looked at Harry yet, but he was smiling too, and even though part of it was after seeing Alice’s little demostration of bliss just with the sight of his friend, he was a little scared- for some reason he had been silently waiting for you to arrive- and he was a little scared too because he hadn’t known that, he hadn’t really thought about it until he saw you walking towards the car and he felt somewhat relieved so he knew he had indeed unmindfully been waiting for you. 

Alice took a few steps back so that she could join underneath the power lines which cut the cloudy lilac sky. She looked up just to enjoy the colour. It was her favourite- spring sunset lilac- and then she gave you a little smile. 

“Do you think Harry have told him?” She stressed. 

“No.” You smiled. “If there’s something Harry isn’t that’s a secret teller. You can trust him.” 

She nodded before sighing because maybe, even though the idea had seemed horrible just ten seconds prior, some part of her had wanted him to tell him all along because then things would be a lot easier. She would at least know whether her crush- now sweeping adoration- was reciprocated or if instead he was disgusted by the idea and then she would know what to do or what to say or she would at least know if losing- for they weren’t being wasted- those hours of study for her Calculus II test was at all worth it.

“Hey girls!” Harry smiled, opening his arms for the both of you as you walked towards his embrace. “How was your day?” 

“It was good.” Alice replied. “Y/N’s was better than mine though, right Y/N? Although she kind of messed it up again.” 

You narrowed your eyes at her but your lips had curled into a knowing smirk as Harry stared at you with an amused smile, his brows frowned in curiosity. You hugged Niall hello and then turned back to your friend, returning his smile as you shook your head trying to discredit your girl friend’s comment. 

“Can I have a sip?” You asked Harry as you borrowed his bottle of beer from his hand even before he could answer and he simply nooded, secretly loving to watch your lips pressing againts that tiny whole made out of glass, especially when you did that in front of other dudes and he could see the disappointment on their eyes- so she’s taken- even though you weren’t. 

You had met Harry just seven months prior while he was having breakfast at your kitchen after spending the night with your roommate. You had spotted Elsa at the balcony hanging some white washing and had smiled at him before you smirked when your back was to him, taking some orange juice from the fridge and pouring it in a glass. 

“Hi” he started “you must be Y/N.” 

You remembered it surprised you, both his British accent and how much you have liked the way he pronounced your name. He had a beautiful voice too, somewhat velvety, and he was unquestionably hot; so you took a mental note to congratulate Elsa on this one later. 

“Yeah.” You smiled. “Would you like some juice?” 

“I’m fine, thank you.” 

“You were loud last night.” 

You smirked, trying to supress your laughter. If Elsa was to hear you, she would scold you for days, but she was still at the balcony and this was something you did quite a lot with Elsa’s conquests. You figured, since you had to put up with having breakfast with a different guy every saturday, at least you could have some fun; but Harry’s reaction was beyond funny. Some guys had been sassy about it, teasing you back; and some others had been smug; the average were between embarrassed and creeped; but the way Harry’s whole face turned into a poppy really gave you a hard time when it came about not laughing straight in his face. 

“God, I’m sorry. I- I...” 

“I’m kidding.” You almost laughed when you saw his green eyes, wide opened, staring at you somewhat between amused and slightly annoyed of being made fun of this early in the morning. “Relax man, I’m a heavy sleeper.” You grinned. “Like you could be Elsa’s roommate otherwise...” 

He chuckled then, looking down at the table before he looked up at you and you remembered how your heart suddenly got up even before you had had a coffee and then you smiled when you remembered the stupid crush you had on him at the very beginning. 

But now, seven months later, he was staring at you with a foolish smile on his lips and if you were to ask him he would also remember that morning and he would say he had also noticed how extremely beautiful you were and that for weeks after that, he would smile when he remembered that moment. But before that you hadn’t had anything in common and after that it had just been his friendly attitude towards Elsa that brough him if only discreetly closer to you; yet all that had been before that one time he had dared to sit next to you on the cafeteria where you were having lunch alone- for he was going to have lunch alone too anyway- and it had all come down from there. 

“So what did you do, young lady?” He joked as you gave him his beer back. 

“Nothing.” You smiled, shaking your head and both of you chuckled when you heard Alice puffing exasperatedly. 

“She still hasn’t kissed Noah.” 

You rolled your eyes at your best friend’s blatant comment, God bless her and her big mouth, and then you rested your back on Harry’s car boot right next to him accepting the beer Niall was handing you with a smile. 

As if trying to save you, even though you were sure he didn’t know he was doing that, Niall engaged blatant Alice in a conversation about some club he had recently been which she would definitely like and you smiled at the subtle way of asking her out he was seeming to be about to display.

Naturally, and even though neither of you quite knew it, Harry and you went to your own little world as the two of them made conversation. He started telling you about his sister’s last article and how stressed she had been on their family dinner just two days ago and somehow in the expanse of an hour you had talked about everything a person could possibly tell the other. Alice didn’t pay as much attention as she used to anymore because after all those months she figured your relationship with Harry was beyond her understanding. She would swear you liked each other- lately she would swear Harry was in love with you- because she hadn’t failed to notice the way he smiled at you, almost drooling whenever he could blatantly stare without the fear of being caugt; and she had also caught up on the fact that you two, now and usually, were way closer than necessary. Sure he was showing you something on his phone, but your head was practically on his chest and that kiss on your temple was just gratuitous. How could you not realize? 

Harry had been trying so hard not to let the conversation fall upon Noah. He didn’t really want to know, even though there was a teeny tiny part of him that was just very faintly curious but just the thought of you thinking about someone else that way kind of broke his heart a little. It also made him wonder how stupid could he be, for he had let too much time pass without making a move, enough so that now it would be way too weird to make it but despite how many times he had tried to fool himself with the mantra that you were just friends, just friends, just very, very good friends; he couldn’t get you out of his mind and those fucking full lips... 

Alice and Niall announced they were going to the convenience store on the far corner to get some snacks and you asked for crisps and gummy bears for Harry, even though he knew you wanted them for yourself too. You were getting tipsy, and this was probably Harry’s favourite version of you, when your eyes were a little glossy and you would lick your lips more often and if you were wearing make up- which wasn’t the case now- you wouldn’t notice your eyes were a little smudged and he wouldn’t wipe it off because he liked it better that way, when only he knew you weren’t perfect but you sure felt like it. You bit your bottom lip still smiling at him as your friends walked towards the convenience store together and Alice playfully swatted Niall’s arm for something he had said. Oh, you were so happy they were getting it right. Harry chuckled. 

“What?” You chuckled. 

“Nothing.” He shook his head. 

You looked ahead towards the convenience store, Alice and Niall had divided the tasks so they were both choosing junk food and that reminded you of that one time Harry picked you up at 11 pm on a school night and he drove the two of you to that hill where you could see the city lights and had McDonald’s on his car. You remembered Elsa asked you when you had started dating that night and you started laughing so hard you almost scared the neighbours. As if Harry would ever see you like that. He elbowed you taking you away from your own memories. You were thinking about him like that again...

“You wanna go?” 

“Where?” 

“Don’t know.” He smiled. “I was thinking we could get a pizza and drive to the fairground?” 

“Are you okay to drive?” 

“Excuse me?” He laughed. “I haven’t been drinking in like an hour, you’re the one who’s drunk off her ass.” He laughed. 

You grinned. He knew you loved it there, which was why he had suggested it, so you collected the few empty bottles surrounded you and dumped them on the nearest trash. You said your goodbies to both Alice and Niall and then he drove away while you took control over the radio and sang along to every single song even if you didn’t quite know the lyrics. He damned that Noah guy all the way to the fair, lucky bastard... 

He had parked the car right behind the carousel and you were both sitting down on the grass on the small hill next to the fairground staring into the city lights. The pizza had been long gone and now the empty box rested next to your feet and soft music was coming out of your phone on shuffle. His back was resting on the trunk of the tree you were under and wanting to rest yours and also searching for some close proximity, you moved closer to him and rested your head on his shoulder. You could feel his breathing and you could also feel how he had tensed up for just a second before he relaxed under your head. This was the best he had felt in a week. He closed his eyes. 

First by Cold War Kids was blossoming from your phone and you stared at it as if you were annoyed the shuffle mode had chosen this song for it made you think about your lunch date with Noah and how fun he had been and how much you had laughed and how you had turned your head when he was surely going to kiss you after he had taken you home. You knew Alice was spying on the two of you through the peephole even though she would never admit it but it wasn’t that what had made you turned your head if only the slightest bit. You liked Noah. As a matter of fact, he was the only guy who had attracted your attention since you had developed your stupid crush on Harry but you just couldn’t take your ex’s words from your head. You knew it was impossible that Noah knew about that, after all that had happened a year and a half before and at your hometown at that so yes, it was impossible that Noah knew, but you just couldn’t bring yourself to do that again. You hadn’t kissed anyone in a year and a half. 

“Harry” You started. 

“Yeah?” 

“Mmhm... Do you... Do you think I’m atractive?” 

You felt his shoulders tensing up and then he straightened his back and he wanted to talk because he was afraid you would also hear his alarmingly fast heartbeat. 

“Eh.. Well, I have eyes, Y/N, so yes.” 

You were glad of your position so he couldn’t see your smile. Considering you were asking this because of someone else, his words should probably not make you this excited, but maybe it was because you were still a little drunk or because he smelled so good or because that song by Two Feet always made you feel a little more confident in your body or because maybe, you too, were feeling like you were drowning. 

“But like” you confronted him, getting up from your position and straigtening your back so you could look into his eyes “I want you to be fully honest, yeah?” 

He nodded. Man why is she so pretty? You licked your lips and he sighed. At that point he didn’t even care if you were to realize he was into you. He couldn’t take it anymore. 

“If we weren’t friends” he’d swear you had never sounded sexier “and you... If we hadn’t met on my kitchen six months ago-”

“Seven” He corrected. 

“Seven” You smiled “if we hadn’t met in my kitchen seven months ago after you had slept with my roommate” you raised your eyebrows “and instead you saw me on a club sometime... Would you... would you hit on me?” 

His eyes fell to your lips and all of a sudden you realized it was as if a new atmosphere had been made around you. You didn’t remember a time where this feeling had felt over your shoulders with Harry but right in that moment it felt like those minutes before you had sex with someone, that intimacy being made out of nowhere, sometimes literally out of nowhere, sometimes growing from a different feeling- out of friendship, out of love- and right then you weren’t sure which one was it that you were feeling. 

“Why are you asking me this?” 

“I want to know.” 

He took yet a few seconds to think about it. He didn’t know what the right answer was so because he didn’t know what was it that he should say- he decided to speak the truth. He had heard once that one can’t be wrong when one is talking the truth. So he imagined that, him walking into a club where this same song was playing and spotting you on the bar- for he knew he would just see you straight from the door- and he thought it would be impossible for him not to try.

“Of course I would hit on you.” He almost chuckled. “I can’t think of someone who wouldn’t.” 

To save himself, making his own opinion universal to save himself, for it wasn’t something that he thought but rather something that anyone would think and that didn’t make him so vulnerable for he belong to the group and we all belong to one. 

And then you looked down for you had noticed his defense mechanism and you didn’t like that he would separate his own appreciation from the circumstance because even though it had all started as an innocent question, kind of wanting to know what he as a man thought- so you could related to Noah- now it was personal and you wanted to know what he, as Harry, as his own person, would have done had things been different. 

“But where is this coming from, love?” Your eyes shifted back to his eyes at the pet name. “Is this about that Jonah?” For he would never say his name right. 

“You know it’s Noah” you smiled knowingly and he rolled his eyes, not caring anymore that you’d know he was jealous. 

“You can’t ask me these things and then tell me about him.” He whispered. 

“I couldn’t wait forever.” You whispered too and that drunken confession took you both off guard. 

He looked up at you and his green eyes took some time to study your face. What were you saying? His heart caught up with it before his brain did and it started trying to wake him up as your eyes dropped to his pink lips. 

He hadn’t thought of that possibility, but maybe the reason you hadn’t kiss Noah still was because Noah wasn’t the one you wanted to kiss on the first place. He licked his lips and noticed a breath coming in to your mouth through your parted lips. 

“Has he tried to kiss you?” He whispered. 

Of course he has you idiot. Who wouldn’t? But you just nodded, fidgeting with your thumbs over your belly. 

“Why didn’t you let him?” 

You stared into his green eyes and he thank God you couldn’t tell how nervous he was but he swore he hadn’t been this nervous in years for then he felt as if he was fifteen years old and he was going to kiss the pretty girl on the seven minutes on heaven thing. Could you tell him? You blushed. 

“I... I’m not a good kisser.” You blurted out. 

You embraced yourself waiting for his reaction- please Lord don’t let him laugh- and you watched how he frowned until his eyebrows were just one and his lips parted as his whole face just wrinkled and you were if there was a facial expression for a question mark that would be it. 

“What? Why would you say that?” 

“I’ve been told.” You confessed. 

You didn’t want to see his next expression so you just moved your face until all you could see were the city lights and you could pretend he was not there and you had not just say that. But he lifted his back from the tree and rested his hand on your knee. He wouldn’t turn your face, he wouldn’t want to push you, judging by the way your eyes were shining bright with the city lights he knew if he were to push you some you would start crying. 

“Who the fuck was the asshole who said that?” 

“You don’t know him.” You whispered. 

“And he should thank God for that.” He said and only then you allowed yourself to look at him. You were surprised he had taken it seriously. “So... This happened before we met.” 

“A year and a half.” You whispered. “I haven’t kissed anyone in a year and a half because every time I’m going to I keep hearing it on the back of my mind. He told everyone too so everyone at home was talking about it.” 

“Fuck, Y/N” he frowned “come here” 

And then he opened his arms and maybe you didn’t understand it right or maybe you pretended you got it wrong but instead of just letting him wrap his arms around your body, you straddled him and rested your head on his chest. He took a deep breath but you were going to need this closeness for what you were going to ask of him. 

“You know that’s not true, right?” 

“How do you know that?” Your eyes bore holes into his and once again he got nervous. 

Because it’s not possible that a bad kisser have those lips and because he had seen you licking ice cream and... Yeah, there’s no way. 

“I just know.” 

“That doesn’t count.” You crossed your arms over your chest and pouted like a little girl and he smiled. 

“So... That’s why you haven’t kissed Noah.” He reasoned and you nodded. “But you want to.” You didn’t nod that time, instead just staring at him and he kept talking so that you wouldn’t answer because that he didn’t want to hear. “Well if you want to what that stupid guy said shouldn’t stop you. He probably wanted more out of you and when you didn’t give him he just got his ego hurt so he wanted to hurt yours. That’s what jerks do.” 

You took a deep breath and then you rested your elbows on his shoulders. He had never had you this close, on top of him, and he was afraid if you were going to move your hips you might notice your touch alone could get him hard. 

“You and I are good friends, right?” 

“Yeah.” He whispered. 

“And... You would do anything for me, right? Just like I would do anything for you.”

You would? So you would stop seeing Noah then? But he just nodded. 

“Okay, then... Will you kiss me?” 

He didn’t want to, because then you would surely know, but he couldn’t control his eyes as they drop to your mouth. 

“What?” 

He didn’t even know why he had asked that. He had heard perfectly fine your request but it was as if he didn’t have control over anything he was doing or saying then. 

“I want you to kiss me.” 

He had daydreamt about you saying that as many times as he had dreamt about you moaning his name so despite his better judgement, his hands moved to your hips and he squeezed your flesh softly before he slipped his thumbs underneath your t-shirt and caressed your skin. 

“I’m sorry, Y/N, but I can’t.” 

His words felt like a punch straight to your nose. You were not seeing that coming so even though he had every right to say no, you got really mad and you didn’t know whether it was because you had never been more embarrassed or because you felt as if he was going to- what with the way he was looking at you, and the heat he was radiating, and his hands on your hips- and instead he just led you on and then rejected you. You frowned, you would not cry in front of him, and then you lifted your leg from his lap and changed your position, sitting down farther from him leaving space enough for two people between you two. 

“I’m ready to leave when you are.” You stated. 

You weren’t looking at him, but from the corner of your eye you could tell he was shifting. 

“Can you please not get mad?” No answer. “You’re ignoring me now? Love, how is this fair?” 

“I just want to go home. I’m not mad, I’m embarrassed and I don’t want to talk about it.” 

With that you got up from the grass and started cleaning the back of your shorts as he just frowned and sighed. 

“Well I’m not taking you home like this.” 

“Really? So you mean I have to call someone?”

“Well you can call Noah, can’t you?” He snapped and even if he hadn’t meant for it to slipped his mouth, it got you turning your head to give him a questioning look as he stood up too. “I’m sorry, that was uncalled for.” 

You sighed and all of a sudden was as if you had realized how drunk you really were and what you had just asked of him and if that wasn’t enough you had gotten mad at him for gently saying he was sorry but he couldn’t? And still there he was apologizing. 

“No, I’m sorry.” You shook your head. “I don’t know what I was thinking. I shouldn’t have asked that from you, especially after telling you I’m a bad kisser” you smiled to try to lighten the mood and his lips curled into a smile despite himself “it’s not like I made it very tempting.” 

“Okay, it’s crazy how you can be so academically smart and at the same time sooooo dumb sometimes.” 

“What?” You frowned, surprised at this unexpected turn of events and he sighed. 

“Yeah, Y/N you asked me if I found you attractive and what did I say?” 

“You said yes.” You answered. 

“Exactly and then you asked me if I would hit on you on a club and what did I say then?” 

“You also said yes.” 

“I’m pretty sure I said of course which is more enthusiastic than yes.” 

“Enthusiastic?” You smiled. “What is this? Are you improvising one of your sociology essays right now in front of me?” 

“I said I couldn’t kiss you, I never even said I didn’t want to and you got mad? And didn’t even ask why?” 

“Well quite frankly I don’t want to know why.” You shrugged. “I don’t want to hear that I have a weird mouth or that my breath stinks or that you think I would just use my tongue the wrong way or-”

“For the love of God!” He exasperated. “Are you seriously telling me you have never thought I am attracted to you?” 

“What?” You frowned. “You? Attracted to me?” 

“Yes!” 

He was looking at you as if you had grown a third eye because he truly couldn’t bring himself to believe you were the only person in the world who hadn’t noticed he liked you. He knew he was so obvious. Everyone had told him that but he didn’t even care, he was sure you knew, you just weren’t interested but now he was starting to doubt that judging by the way you really seemed to have been just hit with realization. 

“You really didn’t know?” 

“How was I supposed to know? You never said anything.” 

“Well I didn’t think I had to, thought I was being pretty obvious.” 

“What? But then... Why the hell didn’t you just kiss me? I... I was... It was so easy.” 

Only then he blushed and it seemed stupid really, that he had been able to say all that to you, to confessed his adoration without getting even slightly hotter, and now that you brought that up he could feel his temperature raising and he was sure the blush was going to reach his collarbones. 

“I didn’t want to kiss you like that.” He confessed, his voice sounding a few notches lower and suddenly everything became calmer. “I don’t want to be your training so you can kiss another guy.” 

You were afraid you were going to puke with all the movement that was happening in your belly, it had flipped at least three times in the expanse of a minute and you could hear your heart beating. He... Harry wanted to kiss you? You approached him, if he didn’t step back you might have a heart attack but instead he moved closer too, his green eyes staring into your own and waiting until you made another move. 

“Do you...” your mouth was dry so you swallowed before trying to speak up again “do you still want to kiss me?” 

He laughed, shutting his eyes and everything, but that time it didn’t make you feel embarrassed; instead you just grinned as you stared at him waiting for his laughter to die down. He was grinning when he opened his hand in the air and placed it at your waist height. 

“Well, come here.” 

But you barely had to give one step towards him for his hand to pull you closer to him from your waist until your chest was against his. He was still smiling wide as his other hand rested on your left cheek so he could lift your face but he just smiled at you, still waiting for you to be the one to initiate it. 

“Hey” You whispered, raising your eyebrows and giving him an almost childish smile, making him chuckle. 

“Just kiss me, Y/N.” 

“But what if I do it wro-”

He cut your words pressing his lips to yours and you felt your heart going crazy in your chest. He pressed some innocent pecks against your lips before he turned his head to the sight, both your mouths still closed and then your hands, that had been limb against your sides, grabbed the fabric around his waist and pulled him even closer to you as his tongue timidly brushed your bottom lip. Your hands caressed his chest against his shirt as you parted your lips for him and he hummed in appreciation, carefully slipping his tongue inside your mouth and you had never thought just a kiss could feel like that. Your hands moved to the back of his neck without your consent and his lowered to the small of your back and without even thinkin you let your tongue explore him, wanting to get a taste. It was timid at first, just giving small brushes with the wet tongue and driving him crazy in the process. He moaned, almost demanding more, and your fingers tangled on his hair as you let your tongue move freely. You don’t know for how long you stayed like that, just exploring each other and tasting one another for the first time but when you pulled away you both were out of breath and his lips looked red and swollen. You touched his lips with your finger and he stared at you. He didn’t even know what to say. 

“Not bad for a bad kisser.” He joked and you clicked your tongue, playfully swatting his chest. “Kidding.” He chuckled, pecking your lips again. 

Those words from Cortazar were hovering his mind “words never reach when what you have to say overflows the soul” so instead he grabbed your hand and placed it on his chest over his heart so you could feel how fast it was beating and you grinned at him when you understood. 

“I hope Noah likes it as much as you did.” 

Your attempt at supressing your laughter failed as soon as you saw his expression and even though he knew you were joking, he could play too, so he removed your hands from his neck and started walking away. 

“No, no!” You begged after him trying to get him to turn around. “I was kidding! I was just kidding!” 

“Well that’s not funny!” But he was smiling even though he was giving you his back. 

“Hey” you called and he eventually stopped so you circled him and stopped right in front of him, wrapping your arms around his waist and staring into his eyes while he smirked.

You just kissed him again. And again and again and again and again 

[harryfeatgaga]

I'm dying laughing at the CEO of the Recording Academy trying to cover his ass cause he knew he made a mistake all while questioning if Harry's reached a "level of excellence to merit a nomination." But gave the Chainsmokers and Meghan fucking Trainor a Grammy. Where was the excellence from them? The Chainsmokers song was played at Frat parties and dirty basement, is that's excellence then I don't want Harry to reach that point.

i literally cannot believe

Anonymous said: My dad just texted me from work to see if I was okay because he got a call from the neighbours saying there’s been the same song on loop on full blast (that song is the Grammy robbed Sign of the Times by the Grammy deserving Harry Edward Styles)

DJNFBGUHFBJNHFIJNBFHJKF MEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anonymous said: I bet that one anon you got a few days ago is cackling and trying to talk shit about how they knew Harry isn't talented enough to get a Grammy or something stupid like that

they can ch*ke

Anonymous said: Niall did great things with his album and it got great hype by both the public and music producers so if his album made the deadline I would easily say his album deserved a nomination. But the other boys haven’t even released albums yet and their singles were just good for radio play.

i haven't listened to his album still lol but noah fence from what i saw it did not get nearly as great reviews and hype as harrys lol and idk why the others even bothered fhbgfjkvl

Anonymous said: Boycott the Grammys 2k18!

tru!!!

Anonymous said: I’m just going to air out my grievances if that’s ok- first of all,Harry’s management or record company stuffed up bad cos y’all know damn well the members don’t vote artists with a progressive sound into the rock category so you fucked up there. second - Bruno mars is clearly this ceremony’s Taylor swift cos idk how tf his flimsy song about material things got nominated over a relevant refreshing ballad like SOTT . Harry deserved better , but also, harry needs to fire some incompetent people ✌️

well harry made music he wanted lol not stuff thats gonna get played on the radio which i enjoy lol but yea bruno is the tswift this year....or j*y z

Anonymous said: The thing that sucks is he most likely was planning on going to the Grammys cause he's performing for Fleetwood Mac the day before, but now he's going to be in New York and not going.....

PLEASE :(

Anonymous said: I was really disappointed but more for him than me like my first thought was “I hope he’s alright and not too sad about it” And I really hope he understands that it doesn’t make him any less good because an award is just an award and it never defines who you are as an artist and as a person.

i know I'm so sad for him i hope he's okay :(

Anonymous said: Harry is the best artist in the world right now he doesn’t need awards!!

tru! but it would've been nice to even get a nom/recognition

Anonymous said: You can tell the Grammy' will just nominated any old shite. I mean Ed Sheeran has the biggest album of the year yet he isn't nominated. And i didn't even know JayZ had an album out and he's nominated. Like no offense but American music industry is just shit.

ed is nominated and some other categories which I'm sure he will win and literally same i had no idea jay z had music out lmao

Anonymous said: Scrap what i said, Zayn didn't get nominated. It was for songwriting and he didn't write that song.

good

Anonymous said: He got all that hype, he did that private show for them, they went his his first show in LA. They for sure used him for hype and media attention. Robbing bastards.

seriously

Anonymous said: A LOUIS FAN CLAIMING LOUIS DESERVED A NOM YALL I WAS SAD BUT NOT NOW. NOW A BITCH CANT STOP LAUGHING. HE AIN'T EVER GETTING SHIT

LMAOOOOO BYEEEEE AS IF

Anonymous said: I just hope he knows Grammys ain’t shit

honestly

Anonymous said: I know it’s not the end of the world, but I hope he’s not super disappointed and sad, because everyone hyped him up so much smh. Also, I bet this will change how he does promo and radio shit for his next album, they should get him a radio deal just for the fact that clearly that’s all these loser Grammy voters care about.

well if thats what he has to do to get a grammy i don't think that would be worth it and i don't think he would think that either

Anonymous said: Jay Z can fucking choke like his album? The shit he did to beyonce? I’m not fucking rewarding a man for being like that anymore, he can take his ancient ass somewhere else.

nasty

Anonymous said: Good, now I don’t have to watch the Grammys this year, I’m glad tbh since I’m not really a fan of any of the other nominees and I’m sick to death of hearing the same five songs all fucking year lol, that issues song? Fucking hate it, have since day one, can’t believe it got nominated for shit lol. However Jeff needs to get Harry a radio deal since clearly that’s all that matters to voters, considering Harry did all the courting of the voters he could and still got fucked.

i literally haven't even heard most of whats nominated its such a joke

Anonymous said: Most nominees in the important categories are poc so I’m not completely mad and besides Despacito or however you write it (which is a horrible song) they nominated well deserved ones. I still think SOTT should’ve got at least one nomination but I think that maybe because harry is fresh out of the oven they’re not gonna straight up give him a nomination even if he deserves it.

yea i mean its awesome theres actually diversity this year but SOTT literally deserved a ROTY nom

Anonymous said: Nah Harry will get Brit nominations because he’s respected in his own country, the Brits also nominated 1D they don’t hold being in a boy band against him which clearly the Grammy voters do, which is a real shame tbh. But the Grammys are continuing to dig their own grave and become more and more unimportant every year.

i cant wait till the grammys just make such a food of themselves no one goes

Anonymous said: Pls the whole Grammys is a conspiracy theory lol I told you

a mess

Anonymous said: The Grammys lost all credibility after giving Adele Album of the Year last year and not Beyonce. They stick to the basics and just anyone who doesn't "break the rules of music" Harry's first solo song was a 6 minute long rock ballad, which doesn't go with what was expected to be put out. They don't care for originality or you know talent, that's why Ed Sheeran's wack ass has won 🤷🏼‍♀️

SERIOUSLY

Anonymous said: He'll probably get nominated for Song of the year and Video of the year at the Brits. Pretty sure both are fan voted. Maybe best male as well. Also maybe best album but then again probably not because it depends. Also maybe global success. I can't think who else would get that right now. Maybe Ed Sheeran again.

i hope so

Anonymous said: Grammys? I don’t know her. Anyway I hope Harry knows how proud everyone is of him and I hope he’s proud of himself I love my baby 🤧💕

ME!!!!!!!!!!

Anonymous said: i feel so much for harry i mean he did everything he could he put out a phenomenal single and a stellar album and worked with amazing producers and writers and did the grammy performance thing and all that stuff with cbs and like i know im biased but he deserves SOME recognition for all of that like he really did put out amazing music this year that was so much more worthy than despacito like come on he was robbed i just hope he feels okay and valid bc he IS :(

i know :( like i hope he knows he still has done such incredible things this year and his album is so good and he doesn't need a stupid grammy anyway

Anonymous said: Taylor is nominated for two (one for the country song she wrote). Like no offense the the American music industry but you need to get your head out of Taylor arse and stop being snobs. SOTT deserved a nomination.

when will they stop kissing her ass

Anonymous said: Harry broke records held by legends, had a BBC special, performed at the record academy, and sold out an arena tour in minutes. So Julia Michaels and Ed Sheehan can take their boring ass music along with their nominations and shove it up their asses.

TBH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anonymous said: I’m sorry but I have to point out the irony. The lyrics of the song are literally stop your crying it’s a sign of the times. and I know there’s a deeper meaning, but this year fucking sucks

i know :(

Anonymous said: All that hype for nothing. Boy was robbed. Sign of the times deserves a Grammy.

ROBBED!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anonymous said: Everyone knows no one, NO ONE deserved a nomination more then Harry. White old men disappointing me again. Like every fucking person said Harry deserved one. ISSUES AS SONG OF THE YEAR? YALL I NEED THEIR CRACK DEALER CAUSE CLEARLY ITS SOME GOOD SHIT TO GET YOU TO THINK FUCKING ISSUES IS SONG OF THE YEAR. Nah fuck them.

FUCK THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anonymous said: I’m so?? Noah fence but the songs that got nominated? What the fuck???? Harry deserved to be up there whether it was roty or aoty idc he just deserves to be nominated.

seriously

Anonymous said: LISTEN in 10 years time people will look back and say why the fuck wasn’t SOTT a Grammy winner... he is timeless and he’ll win in the end!! The Grammys are fucked

THEY WILL REGRET IT

Anonymous said: The Grammys just proved again how much they don’t matter lol, Harry’s song and album was on every single list as one of the best of the entire year, and the you know who wasn’t? Most of those other songs lmao so whatever man I know the Grammys matters to harry, but it doesn’t matter to me anymore they continue to be irrelevant and continue to nominate mediocrity.

its such a joke lmao

Anonymous said: Yeah honestly the Grammys really do only care about awarding the same people over and over again, and it’s like, no offense but who cares lol. I’m sure Jay Zs album is good but he’s nearly 50 and been nominated a ton like idc anymore lol. And I like Bruno mars but seriously? The songs he was nominated for really aren’t that great lmao.

seriously tho like j*y z has enough awards