#fuck you brain for tryna make me sad

[kabra-malvada]

Hey do you all think that if jump from this height (top of my dashboard) this weird parachute will be enough to lessen my fall or would I break my neck and die?

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Hi.

It's... ok... I don't bite...

Listen...

I am proud of you for

still trying, even if it's just

a little step, it's bigger than if

you didn't try at all.

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down and take it easy for now,

that's also ok... don't let your

mind try to convince you of

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See you around ♡

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[dystopyx-blog]

Bro I think so hard about being in TWST without meds but specifically with Floyd. The way he just, doesn't care. You're tired? Awww how sad, he wants to play with his favorite shrimpy. You think he doesn't care at all until you hurt yourself and suddenly he's shackled to your side.

I just got like brain blasted by the SH post due to my own spiraling and like tjis idea alone has given me so much comfort

bro Floyd comfort…. I mean he is literally a comfort character for me, if it isn’t obvious lol. I’m really really glad I could give you some comfort! Genuinely, that gives ME comfort. Especially since my yandere twst posts are also meant to give me comfort, so the fact they do the same for others warms my heart.

It’s so surprising the first time Floyd comforts you. He approaches you, going “hey hey hey, what’s the matter with shrimpy? :(“ and you try to tell him it’s nothing. “Ain’t nothin’ if it got shrimpy sad. Tell me what’s wrong.” And to your surprise he sits and listens. And he’s a good listener, at least for you in that specific moment. He doesn’t interrupt, he doesn’t make fun of you, he sits there and hums to let you know he’s listening. You find yourself spilling everything to him, it’s surprisingly easy to. Maybe you shouldn’t have, maybe he’ll just use it all against you in the future, who fucking cares, this is what you need right now. For a second you wonder if this is actually Jade using Shock the Heart on you somehow. But no, it’s Floyd. A seemingly very out of character Floyd? After pouring your heart out to him, he hits you with a sympathetic stare. “Damn, shrimpy,” he says, “that really sucks…”

Then he gets up and you assume, that’s it, he’s gonna leave me here now. But he offers you a hand and a grin. “C’mon Shrimpy, I’m gonna cheer you up.” ‘And he will try his damndest to do just that, taking you all over campus to find something to lift your spirits. But really, the very process of hanging out with him and watching him try to find something to do with you is enough to have you smiling. You end up in the Mostro Lounge, Floyd promising to get ya whatever you want. Unfortunately, Jade is the one to take your order, which means, of course, you’re subject to his needling. But then Floyd shoos him away. And later, when Azul himself appears at your table, hoping to get his suckers on useful information, Floyd glares at him and tells him to leave you alone. “Great Seven, why can’t anyone just leave us alone? Cant they see I’m tryna spend time with my shrimpy?” And maybe you don’t realize it at the time, still so caught off guard from what seemed to be a total flip in personality, but he meant it when he called you his shrimpy. If you were anyone else, he wouldn’t have given a fuck, it’s only because you were you that Floyd was at all invested in your feelings. Cuz everything about his shrimpy is interesting and entertaining. That’s why they’re his. You notice Floyd hangs out with you a lot more after that, stuck to your side like glue. He’s awful for ADD considering his sudden swings in mood. You get distracted, but it’s even worse with him because once he’s in the mood to do something he just does it. So you’ll be trying to focus on work, and he’ll be there because he’s basically always with you at this point, and he suddenly decides you two have to go do this random thing right now. It’s the same when you’re in depressions, too, he’ll drag you along. It’s surprisingly helpful, though. It’s hard to be bored with Floyd, which makes sense considering how much he hates being bored. So even without your antidepressants… well, at least you have Floyd Leech??

[lizzy019]

Hi could you make a dally x bimbo fem!reader smut and she's kinda ditsy (like the character in ur reader x Darry x two-bit and maybe she was helping clean dally after a fight and he starts getting touchy (it can be a blurb or short story whichever you want) thank you💗💗

UWAAHH THIS IDEA THOO 😩 i kinda made it like- suggestive? not full on smut but you know 🤭

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Poor Dally!

You were so set on cleaning up the cut on his cheekbone from some ring a Soc was wearing, as well as the busted lip of his from fighting a little recklessly. All you were focused on was dabbing the peroxide to his wounds and bandaging them so tenderly for him.

"What did you get yourself into, Dal? You're hurt!" You cried, gently tilting his head so you could apply the bandaid more precisely.

Dally gave an expression of guilt, but it didn't last all that long as he hissed in pain when you dabbed at his cheekbone a bit too hard.

"Damn, the fuck are you doin'? Tryna make it hurt more?" He scolded, but stopped when you gave him such a pathetic expression.

Sad, but disappointed as well. You were upset with yourself for making his wounds hurt more than they should. Maybe you were a bit dumb, sure, but you were trying your best! Who wouldn't help the ones they loved even if they were uneducated in the subject?

"N-no.. sorry! I'm trying." You muttered quickly, doing whatever was necessary to stop the bleeding from his face.

Poor Dally was probably losing more blood from your "help" than he was when he came to you with injuries. The man couldn't just let this go on, could he? No, a man like him has to have his mind on something else every five seconds.

So as sneakily as he could, his hands found their way to the small of your waist, cupping and squeezing until he got just up underneath your tits. Silly you, too focused to even pay it any mind.

"Sweetheart, I think it's good..." Dally tried his best to distract you, easing you out of your intense focus.

Finally, your little ditzy brain recollected itself until you were looking down at him with those big thoughtless eyes, a hand gently inching its way up his forearm as you just seemed to glow. For a literal dumbass, who wouldn't look at you and stop everything in their tracks to admire your beauty?

He certainly thought you were beautiful despite your... smaller sized brain.

"What're you doing, Dal?" You asked so innocently, so cluelessly as his hands seemed to have a mind of their own.

His fingers although not as nimble as they used to be were scooping up the soft flesh of your clothed breasts, squeezing mindlessly as he looked up at you with a knowing gaze. Surely you'd get the idea, you weren't that dumb. Right..?

But sure enough, you only giggled and swatted away his hands in a flurried gesture. You were still focused on trying to apply butterfly stitches to his cuts!

"Dal! Stop distracting me, I needa fix your injuries! My poor baby can't go walking around like ground beef!" You chided playfully as you finished dabbing off the remaining dribbles of crimson from his wounds.

Ah, you really were an idiot, weren't you?

[circlebuttons]

Ride Cowgirl - ghostxfemreader

Kinktober🙈

-nsfw: reverse cowgirl & slight age gap established relationship

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"Simon-"

No" He huffs out in disbelief, looking at you with crazy widened eyes and a raised eyebrow. Simon rarely said no to you about anything, but you could've guessed that as soon as you showed him your friend group's wild west halloween costume for this year that it'd be a hard no. Simon's older than you by enough to where halloweekend no longer excites him as much. He sits up on his spot in bed to get a closer look, "You're not single anymore baby, I don't feel comfortable with that at all" he says with finality, sitting with a leftover soured look on his face.

"It's not about being single" you grumble. This is your first halloween as a couple and you were terribly unprepared for the stipulations that come with being a taken woman for the holidays. Maybe it'd be easier if your boyfriend was frat aged and getting blacked out on halloween, but trust Simon Riley's days of getting white boy wasted are long gone, so you knew you'd have to compromise, but that doesn't make it any easier.

"Excuse me?" he calls out, giving you a look that dares you to repeat yourself louder.

"It has nothing to do with being single, it's just a costume." You repeat it with audible attitude and quickly turn back towards the closet to avoid his stern glare.

He watches as you bend over to take off the heels you matched with the costume and you unknowingly prove his point by unintentionally flashing him. He shifts in his seat as thoughts of taking you over his knee and for a good spanking to adjust that bratty attitude floods his brain. "That's not a costume, it's a lingerie set and for scummy guys your age it has everything to do with being in a relationship, maybe if I was gonna be there but i'm not, so no."

You roll your eyes while your back is turned to him, groaning, "Everyone wears stuff like this, hell I've been wearing stuff like this for years"

He watches your expressions in the reflection of one of your many mirrors. "Everyone's not my girlfriend, if you want to dress like that when we do the princess and frog thing I don't care, but find something else to wear with your friends" he says with daunting finality.

When you realize there's little to no room for arguing you turn around facing him to give

a defeated nod with angry eyebrows, your bottom lip slightly pouting. "C'mere" He gestures you towards him, so you snatch your cowgirl hat off and drift his way until youre sitting in his lap, your back against his chest.

He hangs his head into the crook of your neck, planting a few soft kisses trailing up starting from your collarbone as an apology, his lips lingering under your ear. "I'm sorry baby, but I just can't. You understand i'm not tryna be mean? Dont want anyone looking at you the wrong way, getting their own fucked up ideas"

"Mhm" you hum softly, still irritated.

He pinches at the bridge of his nose and takes a heavy breath prepared to give in to you, "Fuck.."

His retreating makes you huff out a soft laugh, "It's fine, I understand, you don't feel comfortable about it, so I won't wear it out" you take one of your hands and use your thumb to smooth out his frown lines, trying to reassure him that you were not too upset.

"I think you look beautiful in it still" he says sweetly leaning into your hand, although as his eyes travel down your face and your body in a significantly less sweet manner.

You follow his eyes and a smirk grows on your face, "Thank you baby" You purr at him as his hand crawls between your legs that you widen, making room for his thick fingers to nudge at the edge of your sad excuse for underwear, pulling the majority of it to the side.

"You're welcome" he mummers. Your eyes trail his face that's solid and focused on softly dragging his fingers up your slit, just barely touching you.

Your hand drops from his face as you turn against him taking in a shuddered breath. He takes the base of your neck in his hand to turn your face back towards him. You look up at him, your eyes widening a bit when you notice how dark his had become. He lightly slaps your cunt, his eyes never once moving from yours, "Should give you a spanking for all that attitude though" He watches your face carefully as you slowly shake your head no, opening your mouth to explain yourself, but cut off by the moan that escapes when he slowly pushes a single finger all the way in, curling it up slightly before fucking it back into you, working you open slightly. "Gonna be a good girl?" he asks and you eagerly nod before he can even get the last word out, you're so needy at this point you'd agree to anything.

"Think about it next time you roll those fucking eyes" He uses the feeling of your body sinking into his to his advantage, picking you up and maneuvering your body so that you fall forward onto the bed, chest pressed against his legs as you arch your ass up to him, wanting his fingers to return back inside of you. you hear him groan as you shamelessly present yourself to him, his hand coming down to softly feel over your curves until he harshly brings his hand down spanking you with a loud slap.

You whimper, pulling away from him slightly, making him hold you firmly by the bunched up material of your lingerie that rests above your hip.

He begins to undo his jeans with his other hand, slipping his already hardened dick out, bringing your hips back to rub your wetness from his tip down his length. He keeps you like that for a bit, slowly dragging your wet pussy against himself until he notices your hole opening and closing over nothing, he can't help himself but to bring your hips up one more time before slipping into you. Your body jerks as you whine for him, "Simon please fuck me"

"Un uh fuck yourself, wanna be a cowgirl so damn bad, ride" he grumbles out his command, grip on you hips loosening as you have to readjust your position, trying hard not to let him slip out. You finally sink yourself all the way down, "Keep going, just like that" he leans back watching as you fuck yourself. his grip relentless on the lace of your lingerie, using it to lazily guide your hips every time your rhythm falters. Your hips stutter as you feel your high approaching, "Si 'm about to cum" you whine dropping your hips to grind against him instead.

"Gettin jealous" he scoffs "Y’know I love to get you there" he hums, tightening his grip on your hips to lift you up and pull you down as he throws his hips up into yours. Simon holds you like that for a while, fucking up into you relentlessly, making you squeal and pull away from him. "Stay right there for me" he coos sweetly to you, encouraging you to stay up until you just can't anymore. He notices that you're getting progressively more fucked out so he lets you shift your position again, bringing your back to his chest, holding you in his lap as you cum harshly around him. It doesn't take him long to follow suit and as soon as he does he lessens his support of you, letting your body fall limply into his, completely exhausted and trying to catch your breath with your eyes closed. “Still wanna go out?” he asks quietly, placing soft kisses behind your ear.

[weixuldo]

Linecook Anakin HCs

pleaseeee i cannot get this idea out of my mind (maybe i’m just tryna romanticize my job lol) also lemme just say this list is hella unorganized ( just like my brain lol)

warnings: cursing, ani is a typical horny young adult, smoking; weed

Muscular arms, veins!!

Beautiful blue eyes look up at the screen to see the next meal prep (you imagine those same eyes looking up at you like that if you ever get him on his knees)

He always finds something to compliment you on (even though there’s not much room for expression due to the standard comply uniform)

He’s almost always working cause he wants money and honestly doesn’t mind the atmosphere of the kitchen. 

Plus weed isn't cheap and he likes to smoke :)

On breaks you’ll often see him out back smoking a cig or a vape (depending on his mood).

“You know that stuff is bad for you right?” 

“Yea, i dont really give a shit tho”

You roll your eyes, “well don’t tell me I didn’t warn you when you’re carrying around an oxygen tank in thirty years”

He sent a play sad face your way and exclaimed “That’s so sweet, you’re looking out for my health”

“You’re so full of shit Skywalker” you say as you go back inside.

Though, after that encounter you notice he started to chew a lot more gum and smoke a lot less

He flirts with other waitresses too, but you are definitely his favorite

Reaches stuff on the top shelf when you can't. 

“Need some help princess?”

Winks at you from behind the window

Before you got to know him, you were a little afraid of him

He’s honestly so good at his job that it’s scary- he rarely messes up an order and if it's messed up it’s usually ‘cause someone rang it in wrong.

He’d be messing around one minute then barking orders at people when it got busy- he was always so focused on whatever he was doing whether it be cooking the meat, tossing salads, making desserts, etc

You used to see him roll his eyes or talk shit to other waitresses when they didnt do something right. 

“There’s a button for that ya know-”

“You didn’t tell me no onions”

“Ring it in if he wants it that way- I got too many orders to keep up with the shit you’re tellin’ me”

But he seems to be nicer to you…

“Hey Ani- could I get no tomatoes on this please”

“Sure thing, sweetheart”

“There’s my favorite girl” he says when you walk into the back. 

Some servers get jealous of his blatant favoritism (he takes longer on their orders when they’re nasty to you)

The other cooks get along with him fine

You can often find them goofing around in the back

But they think he’s waaaaay too handsome for his own good.

“Why you workin’ here when you could be on the cover of a magazine?”

“He’s here cause Skywalker’s got terrible manners and no game” another cook laughed.

“the fuck I dont” Anakin responded as the rest of the cooks all laughed along. 

His coworkers like to tease him when they see how flirty he gets when you come around. 

Nicknames include: “Pretty boy”, “player”, “heartthrob”

The heat of the appliances mixed with the rush of the night end up giving him a sheen of sweat and a warm blush to his pretty face. 

Ngl, this man would get greasy by the end of the night…

Dried food, condiments,and oils staining his black shirt

By the end of the shift he would have a lingering smell of char from the grill as well as a combined smell of all the food in the kitchen and his own musk from his sweat.

But the blend of labored scents mixed with his cheap cologne and deodorant made for an oddly enticing aroma.

You would joke with him during closing about how bad he smelled, though deep down you knew you liked it. 

“Yea, well we can’t all be in the front smelling like daisies and sunshine” he joked. 

He thought you smelled nice? You had worked a full day too- there was no way.

You insisted you didn’t smell much better than him but he shook his head, “nah princess, I could breathe you in all day”

That may have been a little creepy coming from anyone else, but it was anakin… the hottest guy in the restaurant, the talented cook, the guy you had a huge crush on. 

He’ll saunter into the back while you’re rolling your silverware and chat with you

“Ugh, I’m so ready to ge the fuck outta here” he sighs.

“Tell me about it, today has been so long” 

“Have you atleast made decent money?” 

“Yeah”

He laughs

“What’s so funny?”

“I don’t know why I even asked if you made good money- I should know the answer to that when talking to a girl with such a pretty face,” he says, before slipping back into the kitchen, leaving you with a heavy blush. 

He loves when you’re on ice for side work because the ice machine is right by him in the kitchen 

He likes to watch your ass as you bend down to shovel the ice- if he’s lucky he catches a glimpse of your lacy panties as they ride up your hips. 

When it’s not busy he carries the bucket for you and revels in all of your adorable “thank you’s”

His least favorite side work for you is when you are assigned to the front house because that means you’ll be spending most of the night in the dining area rather than in the back with him. 

Asks what you’re doing on your day off. 

“Probably gonna get high with some friends”

His eyes widened, “you smoke?!”

“Occasionally”

“Weren’t you the one who told me i’d be toting around an oxygen tank?” he quipped and you rolled your eyes. 

“Chill out pretty boy, I mainly just do eddies”

“And you never told me this?!” he grabbed at his heart with a dramatic expression. 

With the new info he spends the next few days working up the nerve to ask you to smoke with him sometime. 

Lucky for him, you’re closing on Saturday and so is he. 

After you check out all of the other servers and do your side work, you head to your car but Anakin calls your name before you leave the kitchen. 

He invites you to hot box in his car before you go and to his surprise you agree (you had a rough night, so why not? plus he is your crush after all)

You get into his car and unbutton your top a bit, it was hot in the restaurant today. 

He turns on the AC and steals a glance at the lacy bra you have on. 

After passing around a blunt the two of you are getting up there; maybe it’s the delirium or maybe it’s the weed, but he is looking finer than ever

you can’t help but hold the blunt between your fingers as you lean across the center console and press your lips against his

he sucks in a breath in surprise before he returns the action.

soon you’re on his lap, grinding on his growing bulge as he runs his strong hands through your hair and all along your body

tbh, you don’t even care that you have open shift tomorrow- this is worth being sleepy

[jaeyunniesimp]

I'M A FOOL TO WANT YOU (s.jy) part one part two

pairing: badboy!jake x fab!reader

tw: angst, mentions of alcohol, mentions of drugs, family issues, kissing (?), mentions of food (lmk if there’s more!)

wc: 2.5k

a/n: hi loves! i was at a total creative block, but then i was listening to frank sinatra’s song that inspired this title, and a lamp lit up in my brain nshdjsjd hope you enjoy it 🥺 luv y’all / this is not proofread so ignore any typos or grammar mistakes :p

synopsis: you weren’t exactly the most famous person in school, but you weren’t a total loser either. You’d say your presence was unremarkable, which somehow feels worse than being hated. He, on the other side, was the most adored person amongst other students. The popular, don’t-give-a-fuck type of bad boy anyone would fall for, and as much as you’d like to say you’re different, you couldn’t feel otherwise.

“i’m a fool to want you, to want a love that can’t be true, a love that’s there for others too”

You’d fallen for Jake Sim a long time ago, probably in middle school, when he was still a no one, a nerdy kid. That was until high school, where his looks matured and his attitude changed. Now, that both of you are in the same college, he never failed to grab other people’s attention, including yours.

Making new friends was certainly difficult, specially when everyone around you is so different from you. Sunoo was at this point your only true friend, the only person you could count on and rant about your problems without the fear of being judged, not just a fun-to-go-out-with friend.

Today wasn’t exactly the best of days. Your parents were fighting again, so you’d be better off staying at the dorms once more this weekend, your brother was drowning himself in drugs and partying a lot, just to numb the sadness he felt from witnessing your family crumbling apart, which made you worried. Although it pales in comparison, the day was also gloomy, which defeated all your hopes to be optimistic about what was yet to come.

Friday mornings used to be your favorite, now you can’t wait for them to end, knowing everyone probably has nice plans besides you. You’re already dressed in your grey sweatpants and your Metallica shirt (ride the lightning bc it’s the best and you got ✨ taste ✨), turning on the kettle to boil some water for your morning tea, when you feel your phone buzzing.

— Hello? — You answer lazily.

— Y/N! Please tell me you haven’t had breakfast yet! — Your best friend pleaded from the other line.

— I was just boiling some water, but I can turn it off. Why? — You replied, pressing the “off” button.

— I found this really cute café and they have bear shaped donuts, we have to go! It’s right beside campus. I’ll send you the address and we meet there, okay? — He asked, excitedly.

You agreed and hung up the phone, feeling kind of sad that you didn’t comply with his excitement.

Hugging yourself, you try to hide from the wind, mentally swearing at yourself for not bringing a coat. You see a little excited figure hopping with their arms up, signaling for you to come closer faster. You can’t deny, that even with all the gloominess you were feeling, seeing Sunoo made you just a little warmer.

Smile spread wide along your face, you hug your friend and quickly get in the store, protecting yourselves from the cold. You ordered a cup of milk tea and some cookies, while he got the infamous bear shaped donuts he was fawning over.

— Are you going home this weekend? — He asked, sipping his coffee.

— Nope. Tryna’ avoid conflict, don’t really wanna see my parents right now. Nor my brother. — You answered looking down to the cup you were holding.

— Hm, I see… You never talk about your brother, though, I don’t even know his name! — He argued.

— Yeah… We’re very different people, and he pretends he’s an only child to his friends, so I might as well just don’t give him that type of attention to mine. — You replied, annoyed.

— Why does he do that?! — His mouth was almost theatrically open, in utter shock.

— I don’t know — You shrugged — He puts on this facade, pretending to be someone he’s not, I guess that includes pretending our family isn’t completely fucked up.

After eating, you both gathered your things and went to your designated classes. Today was Friday, though, which meant Jake had the same classes you did in the morning. God, how do you pay attention to anything math related when Jake fucking Sim is sitting across from you?

You were entering the classroom when you felt a strong bump on your shoulder, almost knocking you down on the floor. You turn around and see no one other than Lee Heeseung, your brother. Not alone, though, he was with Jake. Since when did they become friends? You had no idea, but he was even crashing his classes.

He bumped into you on purpose and you knew it, which meant he was mad at you for whatever reason. You looked at him from across the room with burning eyes, which made him roll his and switch his gaze back to his friend.

You sat on the desk next to Jake’s, watching your brother’s eyes fall upon your figure as you did so, burning into your soul with anger. He wondered what were you trying to do, what moves would you pull, sacred you’d expose him. You couldn’t care less, though, you just knew that if you sat close to them he’d be worried and paranoid the entire time and that was enough revenge for you.

The day went by very slowly, turning every now and then to glance at Jake, pretending you were trying to look at Heeseung instead. He looked extra good today, with his black leather jacket draping over his shoulders, his blonde highlighted locks falling ever so gently on his forehead, your brother had to be really angry to not realize how your eyes were filled with adoration when you looked to your side.

But it kind of made you sad, though. That wasn’t any boy you were admiring, it was Jake. He never hooked up with a girl more than once, and he still managed to get many, and they were all WAY out of your league. They didn’t wear sweatpants to class, nor showed up everyday bare faced. They were just as admirably good looking as him. You really were longing for someone who couldn’t dare to even look at you, less be yours only.

The bell rang after what felt like an eternity, and to your luck, your best friend was already waiting for you outside. You went his direction and started chatting, but your eyes were wandering somewhere else. He was quick to pick up on it, though.

— No fucking way. — He said, mouth open.

— What? — Your gaze suddenly moved back to him.

— You? Fawning over Jake Sim? — He was just speechless.

— WHAT?! — You jumped off your spot, closer to him, almost palming his mouth for him to shut up. — I’m not!

— You we’re staring at him like he was a piece of food! Y/N, don’t get me wrong, he’s handsome as hell, but he’s a fuckboy and you know it. — He explained.

— I’m not simping for him, Sunoo, get over it.

— Okay, sorry — He held his arms up in sign of defeat. — But if you’re in for a one night stand, we could give you, like, a glow up montage so he would look at you…

— Oh thank you, I feel flattered. — You said ironically.

— That’s not what I meant and you know it! You’re gorgeous, but right now you’re kind of following the depressed core style, and it’s not doing anything for you.

He was right. You barely dressed up properly to go out anymore, and you can’t even remember the last time you wore makeup. It was tempting, but should you do this just because of a guy? It felt wrong.

— Sunoo, I’m not gonna do that just because of some guy. — You said, despite your inner urge to actually do it.

— Okay, sorry, just pitching ideas.

“i’m a fool to seek a kiss not mine alone, to share a kiss the devil has known”

The weekend finally came, and you were unexpectedly excited. Sunoo had a birthday party to attend, and he asked you to go with him. You would usually deny or feel uncomfortable going, but it had been so long since you’d had some fun or even dressed up nicely, you were excited to do so.

There was no point going back home anyway, your parents decided last minute they were going on a business trip, leaving the house empty. Partying it is!

Your makeup looked gorgeous, and your short black silky dress hugged your body perfectly. Sunoo was shocked at the sight of you, feeling happy for his best friend who was finally going to have some fun.

The party was packed, a lot of students from your school were there, getting wasted and making out with each other. You and your best friend had a couple of drinks and were just having a good time. You played board games, despite your brains not being at full capacity at the moment, which only made it funnier, did karaoke, and just gossiped all night long. You certainly hadn’t been this happy in a while.

You didn’t even pay attention to the people who were at the party, only sticking around Sunoo and his other friends. About 4am, you decided it was time to leave.

— But campus is so far away from here, we’d have to walk! — Sunoo argued.

— We can go to my parents house, it’s only a mile away and they’re not home anyway. Please, I need to sleep! — You suggested.

He gave in and you two were quickly on your way. It took you a little longer than usual to get there, with your dragging feet and drunk steps, but once you’d made it, it made you feel victorious. You opened the door quietly, out of muscle memory, forgetting that there was nobody home.

You both quickly got in, still taking feather light steps, Sunoo going straight to the bathroom to wash his face, while you went to the kitchen to grab some water. You grabbed a cup, and as soon as you turned on your heel to go around the counter, two bodies appeared out of nowhere, one of them holding a broom, and the other a lamp (?), ready to throw hands.

You screamed, surprised, dropping your glass on the floor, and they screamed at the same time, only to realize it was your brother, who was also at that party and had the same idea as you. But he wasn’t alone. Of course he had to bring Jake Sim to your parents house. Perfect.

A terrified Sunoo ran over your direction and turned on the lights, to meet the weirdest scene he could’ve pictured. Two of the school’s jocks in front of you, holding “weapons”, and glass shattered on the floor.

— What the fuck is wrong with you?! — You screamed, pushing your brother’s chest.

— Me?! You should’ve said you were coming home! — He argued.

— Oh, so now you care about me or what I do? Do you still tell other people you’re an only child? That’s why you needed the heads up? — You mocked.

He let out an annoyed scoff, rolling his eyes.

— That’s your brother? — Sunoo finally spoke up from across the room.

— You have a sister? — Jake asked, with a smug grin on his face.

His eyes landed on your thighs immediately, causing you to adjust your dress, trying to cover yourself up a little more. You were angry. Fuming. You couldn’t care less about Jake Sim right now.

— Oh great, you’re ready to clean this up! — You went up to Jake and stated sarcastically, pointing at the glass on the floor and the broom he was holding.

You left the kitchen without saying a word, despite your brother’s protests, and quickly grabbed Sunoo’s arm and led him to your bedroom.

— So you never bothered to tell me your brother was Heeseung? Lee Heeseung? THE Lee Heeseung? — He asked, plopping down on your bed.

— Okay, I get it! Whatever, he’s popular, but he’s an idiot. — You answered, removing your heels. — You can sleep here, I’ll take the couch.

— No it’s okay, you should sleep on your own bed. — He got up reluctantly.

— No, really, I hate it here, you can have it. — You argued.

— If you say so… — He mumbled, before drifting off almost instantly.

You let out a small chuckle at your friends action, then poorly removed your make up, put on an old oversized t-shirt, and made your way downstairs, desperate to get some shut eye. You were almost throwing yourself down on the couch, only to squeal lightly when you realized someone else was already lying on it.

— Fuck! You scared the shit out of me! — You whisper-yelled. — Great, I’ll sleep on the bathtub.

— What? You don’t like to cuddle? — The guy answered you, drowsy.

That’s when you realized it wasn’t your brother, it was his really handsome friend lying there.

— Oh shit, sorry, I thought you were Heeseung. — You suddenly became shy, and quickly turned on your heel to go wherever, as long as it wasn’t the living room.

But before you could make a move, a hand grabbed your wrist, making you go back and accidentally sit down on the couch.

— You can sleep here, I don’t bite. Don’t tell me you’re actually sleeping in the bathtub because you’re nervous around me? — He asked, his eyes still closed.

— I-I’m not! I don’t even know you — You answered, trying to let go of his grip.

— I see you looking at me in class, I know you know me. Just lay down and sleep, for god’s sake. — He argued.

You sighed in defeat, after a few seconds of silence, not knowing what to say. His arms draped around your waist, hugging you, as you laid with your back against him. You could feel his warm breath hitting the back of your neck and it made your heart race.

— Relax — He chuckled, resting his face further down your neck, which only made you feel more nervous.

You decided that you should fake it until you made it. You started telling yourself that it was alright, relaxing into his embrace, letting your hands fall on top of his. Your heart was still beating out of your chest, but you were acting like you were used to him.

That was until he started softly kissing your neck, trailing down near your shoulder, holding you tighter. A part of you wanted to let him continue, but another part of you felt so used. You knew you’d be only another girl he slept with, and you couldn’t allow yourself to go through that.

— What are you doing? — You asked firmly.

— Hm… Kissing you — He said in between kisses.

— Really, I just wanna sleep. — You said, taking your hand off his.

— Alright. — He answered, a cold tone in his voice.

He took his arms off you and laid on his back, facing the ceiling. You felt cold and somewhat empty, you wanted more of him, but you know you shouldn’t. You fell asleep right after, hoping that when you woke up, things wouldn’t fall apart like you felt they would.

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oh my god i love isabeau

the correct reaction to an incredibly mediocre pun:

when i talked to odile i said i was gonna make isabeau sleep on the floor but that is NOT true

i was about to say i love all the sparkly stars aesthetic but... the game is literally named after them.... i shoulda known

omg isabeau what were you about to confess 😳👉👈

rock paper scissors is being explained to me in such painstaking depth... but the dialogue is cute, so it's ok

wtf i looped back to the town specifically in order to ask the cook about the openphrase for the one door but there's no option to ask!!

it was the shopkeeper 🤦🏼

so curious about siffrin's touch thing... it makes sense other people might be more conscious of a subconscious reaction to touch than he is, but he's so avoidant of the train of thought, i feel like it must be something a bit less.. subtle...?

damn... tryna give mirabelle the fan mail for the second time.... yikes :( so sorry mira........ is that what happened to the island to the north...? something about it got so retconned that it makes people sick to focus on the exact change?

oh.. siffrin's major memory problems.....

this game is sooo good

siffrin seems upset in the observatory.. at first i thought they were just getting tired/grouchy, but the game sure is named after stars... maybe stars had to do with their past trauma..??

i'm starting to wonder if this isn't their first set of loops and the bone-deep burden of all that (along with the practicalities of your memories constantly not matching reality) is why they forget words and shit....

went and looked at the castle again this loop bc i felt bad that sif never gets to sit down...

king asked if sif remembers REMEMBERS WHAT??? i just knowww after i terribly lose this fight im gonna have to go back through the whole game unlocking new rooms that like unlock my memories or smth

"not when i still can't say it" ofc the king is from the northern island... sif is obviously from there too, and that's why he can't remember most of his past... so that's the thing they both don't remember?

defeated him but like. there's still so many locked doors. i bet like sif is gonna go to sleep and they wake up from the nap like WHAT DO YOU MEAN I'M STILL IN THE LOOP?? WE WON?? but they didn't win correctly yet, they didn't actually solve everything that needs solved...

head handmaiden ma'am 😳

is odile's research genealogy??

i thought the reference to "colors" being an esoteric/irrelevant topic was a one-off gag about the art style, but it's plot relevant?? fuck yeah

what if odile is trying to figure out the northern island..??

OHHHHHH

BWAHHH the bonnie quest 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

first time redoing the mira quest.... siffrin!!! be brave!!!!! not only is your new idea good, even if it was bad you could just say oops oh well and switch the script back next loop!!!!!

is siffrin gonna have to learn how to be brave and normal in order to break the loop jdhshdjf (normal here meaning "not a loop-brained convomaxxer")

i hope siffrin can just ask the baker's daughter directly for the book this time hdhdjfj i don't really think the whole goose chase is necessary for the emotional convo.....

oh thank god

ugh i can't wait till sif tells his friends about the loop. is that gonna be sif's quest

HANG OUT QUEST!! YES!!!

hm.. is loop the deity of the northern island..? if stars and astronomy are like their whole thing....

INTERRUPTED AGAIN!!!!!!! AGHHGH!!!!! i know isa can't actually confess till the very end bc it would suck having to go through more loops knowing he likes you but he hasn't actually told you / if you go through a loop post-confession surely that would change quite a bit of dialogue

but AHHHHHH!!!!

oh my god siffrin is going beast mode on the tutorial sadness?? i had to choose "attack" bc it seemed the most different and thus interesting but also omg... there goes the warm friendship glow 😭😭

but ofc that glow would die a horrible sudden death anyway the moment siffrin is confronted with the fact that he is back on that damn loop grind :(

poor thing 😭😭😭😭😭😭

INSTANT REPLAY??????????

the loop power is getting stronger.. u~u;;

I KNEW IT WOULD EVENTUALLY GET WEIRD THAT SIF'S SUCH A HIGH LEVEL... just a couple loops ago i was like damn when is everyone else gonna notice that sif has like multiple crafts that they didn't yesterday

also i noticed a loop or so ago that their battle portrait is frowning and.. i don't think it always was.....?

oh my god the memory of sadness is kinda fucked up but. so useful jdhshfj im tired of avoiding them in the hallway,,

ok but also how do my teammates not notice that they have new equipment, and sometimes a new craft..... in the case of like a hair bow that's easy to gloss over but how does isabeau not go "wtf i'm dealing paper damage?" ??

the problem w telling your friends you're in a time loop is it must be such a fucking relief. and then you loop again

aw, sif.. tell them about the universe...

lol how funny would it be if i died to the rock this time

oops... i'm doing a big check-everything run, but i absolutely didn't do all the village stuff bc i was too excited to help isa... oh well,

i did idly connect that the "weird sadnesses" smell like sugar same as the king's time magic which makes, but i finally just actually thought about it and realized they're also star shaped....

siffrin having this time loop power... is it anything at all like mirabelle's time-resistance power, blessed upon her by the high priestess? did siffrin escape from their fucked up time island, sent out with the power to eventually save it?

odile is sooo close to figuring it out... she just said "verRrRy interesting"

BWAHH new post-level-2 convos!! so cute!!!!! love bonnie's new siffrin-patting routine..... and odile has it SO figured out, when is she gonna say something!!!

siffrin was afraid that he smells like timecraft? bc of looping or bc of repressed reasons.... probably bc of looping,

time for siffy's daily bathroom stall breakdown!!

they even went in happy this time and still managed to psych themself all the way out hdgshsjf

GHOST SIF??? GHOST SIF ON THE WAY TO THE KEYKNIFE??????

BWAHHH ODILE RUFFLING SIF'S HAIR!!! I WAS WAITING AND WAITING FOR MORE PEOPLE TO PICK UP ON IT BEING OK TO TOUCH THEM!!!

"in this moment, you are loved" god it is going to be so hard waking up next loop 😭

HAIR BRUSHING!!! THIS IS SO PEAK

i'm worried that the king's "isn't this the best moment of your lives" rhetoric is going to slowly gain appeal as sif goes through more and more loops... like. they crafted the perfect loop with their found family. they *can't* change it any more, make it any better. ...

EHAT DO U MEAN "NVM" ISA!!!!!! oh my god i can't believe you won't confess until siffrin is like more emotionally centered and open and ready to handle that kind of thing... why r u sooo considerate -_- ur killin them isa

oh my god why is it even worse why is the end of the loop even worse this time oh my GOD sif is gonna be inconsolable I'M inconsolable not isabeau reaching out im sobbing on da couch

ngl i kinda hope this time siffrin is just defeated and doesn't banter about shit and everyone is worried as fuck. sorry sif i just think it would be interesting. that flash of him slaughtering the tutorial sadness was so sick. esp the unique auto-rewind. more of that shit

they did the first convo w mira fine.. nvm i guess.... if that never happens that's gonna be my first fanfiction

another ghost siffrin... after i looped to unlocked floor one to look for articles....... :o

not beau saying "normally i'd be worried about this, but sif doesn't seem worried at all!" when i'm about to touch the tear specifically in order to die...

did the king used to hang out in the observatory... did he write that word (the country's name?) on the papers, and wear out the spot on the globe....... he did find a new home here in vougarde such that he's decided that he can't lose this one too, at all, ever...

i got to loop 30 and i was surprised bc i figured i was at like 25 tops. and now im at 37? i don't think it's been 7 loops since then...???

i've started dreaming about the tick of a clock.. i'm kinda worried i've started wracking up too many loops... i did just zip back and forth across the house a half dozen times checking various items and dead ends....

AHH AUTO REWIND FROM KING ASKING WHERE SIF IS FROM???? followed by "you do not answer" which. implies that wasn't the case before the rewind.?? maybe more like "you do not think about it" l o l oh sif 😭😭😭

i was about to complain that it won't let me zone out of the dying-and-bonnie-running scene but um. different this time. thank you for not letting me zone out,

YEAH IT'S LOOP 40 NOW!! this is right after loop 37 (with a small auto-rewind between)

😭😭😭😭😭😭 isabeau pleeeeease:

hanging out with loop and - we saw the kings first attack?? but how would the rest of the party even get that far without sif?? they'd die to the first rock trap????

oh good sif noticed too. "who was the king attacking".... did a siffrin remnant help the party, has he looped so many times that he can be in multiple places at once???

was the king kmsing??? who tf would he be attackinggg

does the loop end when siffrin loses hope?? but no, then the very first time they defeat the boss they wouldn't have looped... but no, if the handmaiden is just talking shit unrelated to the looping then that coulda still made sif think the loop was fucked, which fucked the loop?

it's kinda heavy how many times you have to k your s in this game... esp when you don't actually have to but it's, like, more convenient than 5-30 extra minutes of running around

siffrin tripping so they don't seem so creepily overpowered is SO sad 😭

fsr it's sadder than going through the motions of a conversation, or tripping bc you tripped last time... it's a whole new lie to offset a whole new problem...

oh yeah my other loop theory was that it ends when siffrin gets too reminded of the northern island..? the memory of the future or whatever the fuck from the big attack idk

siffrin rewinded after his friends saw the ghost.... kinda matches my "when he loses hope" theory. when he feels alone? when he's utterly lost with no clue what to do next..? (lol sif restarting every loop just bc he doesn't have plans for what to do after winning)

NOOO I WAS SO EXCITED TO NOT HAVE TO GO GET THE KNIFEKEY EVERY TIME BUT I DO HAVE TO... BOOOOO...... where's the consistency, loop!!!

i can use a memory to equip it for the boss fight but idc as much about that.... i just wanted to be able to check out the dead end rooms more often instead of having to use the crest to get the knifekey every time....

memory of ghosts, no effect??

oh, the vision of the future happens on the first attack always.. not when the king kills you always...

having the knifekey for the fight kinda isn't worth it.. siffrin only has one measly paper attack anyway, so i usually have them on potions and items duty.... gotta keep mira brothed up so she can cast the super duper shield every single turn

"it's fine. she isn't real to you right now either" god siffrin is gonna be so fucked up when they get out. siffrin is gonna have "everyone else is an NPC" brain

finished doing all four quests together for the second time, and sif's commentary at the end is reeally hitting my "eventually sif will understand the king's pov of wanting to freeze one perfect moment forever instead of going forward to inevitably worse shit" theory :(

"you've noticed you're starting to forget whole loops" AHA...... i'm so curious tho what was sif doing in those skipped loops. ig presumably it'd be whatever they did in the next loop that they actually remember? sticking to the plan several times in a row till it sticks,

does loop remember the skipped loops??

hm. whenever the loop ends early Not due to death (the little auto-reverses) maybe sif just.. forgot everything after that moment? till the normal king attack moment ....? or whatever death they find?

i wonder if the headache of not being able to say/read/think about the northern island is caused by many tiny loops, sending you back to the moment before you said/read/thought it, happening however many times it takes for the rapid time travel to make you so sick you just don't

i teach kid's music classes, and sometimes i'll practice one or two dozen verse variations, then i get to actual class and when i actually do that song i can't remember which variations i've already done? and it gets worse with each class i teach from that lesson plan. so dw siffrin i get it,

ok but wtf is up with the head handmaiden. what's she got to do with this. she's obviously more involved than she seems, she knows Something about the end. and imo it's sus that she was able to bless mirabelle to be impervious to the curse, how's she able to do that.

assuming that the king used to live in the house (spending lots of time in the observatory), euphrasie would've gotten to know him... perhaps seen the beginnings of him getting fucked up powerful...? thought she could handle it on her own but she couldn't?

are the mini auto-loops a meta "reload from last save"? i think it's the same quick rewind sound as actually reloading... i don't do it super often bc why not just loop back and keep my silly little mistake in, but i've done it 2 or maybe 3 times....

this game does such a good job starting in medias res. level 45!! i'm past 70 now. i feel like there's a definite chance i'll hit 90 which means siffrin will have done as much fighting in these loops as they did with their friends through months of travel and adventure.

choosing all the emo answers to the loop convo about how using your dagger would be faster than finding a tear to kill you. sorry frin not my fault you are depressed as fuck

LOOP GOT POSSESSED IN ORDER TO ALLOW ME TO K MY S MANUALLY??????? ??????? damn i had something actually important to talk about this loop too

I HATE PICKING CONVERSATION CHOICES WITH LOOOOOP I WANT TO SEE THE OUTCOME OF BOTH OPTIONS IM SO SPOILED!!!!

AHHHH FRIN FIGURED OUT THAT IT's THEIR COJNTRY! THEY TALKED ABt JT! THEY TRIED TO SAY IT!! BWAHHHHHHHH that was so fucking sadddd oh my godddddddd sif's poor clueless friends trying to stop whatever the fuck was happenin 😭😭

is the king's 9999 attack just saying the country's name, lol

wish craft . . .

oh my god oh my god he's gonna torture my friends to death in front of me oh my god holy shit oh my god oh no oh no oh no oh no

say the name siffrin!!! think the name!!!!!!! it'll fuck you up bad enough that you loop!

oh... sif is repeating their wish over and over..... like when they carve

well. finally a loop where sif wakes up freaking out so bad that their script with mirabelle gets way way off track. lol. just like i wanted. haha. shit

I CAN READ THE ISLAND BOOKS NOW???????? damn worth it fr sorry bonbon

i forget if i mentioned that i was thinking about how siffrin doesn't rly have much to look forward to, like his friends are about to disband...?

i was chatting w ari about it lol when she helped me defeat the king earlier, she was very concerned about how sif didn't have a home to return to, all his friends were talking about going back to their homes but where would sif go, isn't that sad

speaking of ari. very four year old raised by lesbians quote: "i like isabeau's name but i don't like his gender..."

siffrin dont get emo about how they don't hug you that first evening you literally already know why, they think you don't like it

damn. forgot about the rock

i had been thinking that the way the island was erased must be similar to the way the loops work, but couldn't fathom how time manip could erase a whole island. the magic being more general makes more sense. did someone wish away color as well....

i love magic systems where belief in a thing makes it more real but jeez this is scary

i was pretty on track with guessing that non-death loops happen when siffrin loses hope. it's whenever he goes oh fuck oh god i wish that hadn't happened

gotta say. i'm getting soo sick of running around unlocking doors so that i can go down a tear dead end for the nth time. plssss let me loop to "some doors unlocked; tear crest not used" 😭

i'm also starting to get low on loop-forward sparkles...

oh wow. siffrin had a really bad dream this tear-touch loop-back. i really can't ever use the dagger he would get plagued by the horrors. not that he isn't already, but,

i love to draw characters with horrifiedly blank expressions and very very tired eyes i can't wait to draw siffrin. lol

this game was made in a lab for me

every time i accidentally get into a fight with a sadness i'm like "siffrin is so fucked up at this point he should be able to just glare at them and scare them the fuck off" and then i remember that i literally currently have that mode equipped, me and the sadness just dodged in the same direction

can i at least get a memory that lets me one-hit KO the sadness crests- wait holy shit i just opened my craft menu and i literally have a new scissor craft called (just attack) when tf did i get that

.... was siffron's island erased specifically because they got gud at wish craft, and that's a power that the world shouldn't be able to harness...?

OH FUCK THE "remembering the name" STAR WAS SO SYMBOLICALLY STRIKING THAT I DIDN'T RVEN REALIZE THAT IT WAS ACTUAL COLOR...

nooo.. no one even reacted to being poked in the gardening room squeeze? right when sif needs it the most? let's make this set of the loops the worst set ever 🤗

what the Fuck is up with croissants though

i can't believe loop got siffrin to admit to themself that beau was planning to confess and siffrin is just using it to beat themself up. "poor isabeau, he probably can't help having a crush on shitty ol me".

i wish i could give siff a good loop but doing the missions makes them sad now 😭

wow. earlier i was like "what if the king is actually siffrin, weird-magic-shenanigans style". bc sif does have some similar thought patterns. but i was like no that's silly. but now this sad diary is talking abt making another self to talk to????

i also wondered if loop is some kinda shade of siffy??

i am writing this tweet while i let siffrin look through the big window in the observatory for a while. as a treat :(

OH THANK GOD.. ISABEAU IS TELLING SIF A NEW JOKE...: that's a much better treat 😭😭😭😭

oh no nvm their second thought was "i'll need to remember to laugh next time"

why don't siff's friends react anymore when he pokes them in the gardening room. it doesn't make sense.....

finally.. my "sif is quiet and moody and everyone notices" loop.......

sif has been super hungry in the commentary lately... more than normal i think... all those wish loops taking a lot of fuel?

have ppl not been reacting to sif's pokes bc they don't want to bother him when he's already obviously having a rough day...

i liked when they sat on the floor after bumping into the table. so real

finally got that death talk with bonnie.... i wonder when i'll get talk #2 with the other characters... odile has been quite sus of me for ages when's she gonna come out with ittt

ISABEAU PUSHING SIFFRIN AWAY.... probably bc siffrin was being very... sudden and depressed and desperate about it...?

did the daydreaming one's sister move to the northern island or something...

THE LIST IN EUPHRASIE's OFFICE!! it's who wished to save vougarde, and who wished for something else!!

bwuh. thinking about the strength behind the wish "i wish i hadn't fucking done that" when you reach out to someone and they push you away

loop confirmed/unified my theories about why siffrin loops back without death sometimes heheh... the specific wording of "something that feels like the world is ending" or whatever also seems in line with my theory that siffrin is scared of leaving their friends tomorrow

they've got croissant trauma. they've got banana trauma. a cheap continental breakfast is siffrin's worst nightmare

poetic that euphrasie finally heard and replied to me on loop 99. waking up on the big double O more hopeless than ever! ☺️

gotta say it so funny that siffrin is forcing themself to try to get everyone's skills in order to beat the king faster when i beat him easily in probably less than half a dozen rounds last time. forgot to even equip the keyknife! these half-assed quests are taking longer than that...

fucked up house??????

i keep accidentally walking right back out of the door i walked into, lol. this is fun though!

also. ghost ✨???

oh.. the ghost ✨ figure i saw was siffrin, with a black hat..?

maybe.. this is the universe's way of granting both wishes...... vougarde is saved, but stuck in time forever. looping the same day of salvation.

i had wondered what would happen if (once?) siffrin totally lost hope, sure that there was no chance of ever, ever getting out. bc when they lose hope they restart. so they'd just. restart immediately. constant loop. with no chance to do anything to regain that hope.

ghost sif time :3c

mal du pays means homesickness...

SIFFRIN TRIPPED AND IZA CAUGHT HIM.. they're touching !

i've been playing at work but i have to stop and actually do some work now.... ty for taking good naps today baby :')

i can't believe mirabelle and siffrin are canonically moirails now

BUT... BUT WHY DOES SIFFRIN HATE CROISSANTS???

also i saw something on a map i was using about a starry hat?? i never got a new hat...

i also never managed to find the book with the tree on the cover again, now that i could read it...

i'm gonna have to find a full 100%ed playthrough to watch on youtube 🫡

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reading through ISAT socmed... the first time i saw one of the in-world swears in the game i was like "lol stormlight archive vibes" so it's very funny that one of the first posts i see is "my world building advice is to learn from brandon sanderson" i was sooo right. so true

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makes no sense to me that mirabelle asked siffrin to not spoil her on their convo topics... not spoil on where the convos *went* sure, but how does she not want to know the basic facts that siffrin now knows about her 😭 so wild

if one of my friends was in a time loop i would be like. please sit down and summarize everything we ever talked about so i can be caught up. but thats just me

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found some youtube video compilations of missable dialogue/events we are so back

AGHH why does this person not show the full cutscenes 😭😭😭 pls i don't want to have to do a whole ass entire top to bottom loop w like 20 object interactions...... maybe i'll just do it at work tomorrow while the baby naps 😩

at least it was pretty easy getting the initial croissant scene ☺️ but i am NOT redoing the entire last two acts to get the related final loop scene or whatever it is -_-

yayy that one's big enough that i found a video of it ☺️ i do wish i'd been able to do it in game myself instead, but. not redoing half the blinding game rn

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i Am doing a full loop to get the odile thing though... and in doing so i realized apparently i didn't go through the friend quests manually enough times, sif just had a bit of a mental breakdown abt odile's. which does lead up to the last-loop breakdown better!

NOOO I WAS 3/4 OF THE WAY THRU THIS LOOP TO GET A CERTAIN SCENE AND i was on autopilot and meant to use a crest on the tears but i didn't have the crest yet so selecting "yes" meant touching them and dying fuck meee

i hadn't saved at each floor bc i didn't want to touch my save files w this new offshoot canon...

i'm not actually quite sure what info gets carried over from the previous loop when you loop back to the same floor instead of the beginning or forwards? i'm just gonna try and do floor 3 again and see if it works....

either relooping level 3 messed it up or i wasn't able to get enough suspicion points bc the plantain chips didn't make me sick. gonna go slip on the banana five times and try again

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... i just used the dagger for the second time and now i'm stuck on a plain black screen and i legitimately can't tell if the game is broken or if the game is making me sit and wait for sif to bleed out

ok it's definitely a bug. wow this is so poignant it really does feel like i fucked around and found out

this is so funny i can open my pockets but i can't use the dagger or call loop.

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I DID IT I GOT THE SCENE!! it was good i'm glad i saw it. wish i hadn't fucked up and had to do it all twice but i DID IT

[x-heesy]

𝚆𝚘𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚏𝚞𝚕 𝙸 𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚌𝚛𝚢

(I used to bump this shit and slit my wrist)

I used to bump this shit and slit my wrist

Yeah, I used to do it too

Cocaine dripping out my nose

Codeine stains upon my clothes

I don't give no fucks no more

You can check the score, I'm broke

Broken down until I choke

Bitch, we hanging from the rope

Gallowdancing 'til I'm ancient

Waiting for the mansions patient

Mention me, you'll get no pensions

That's 'cause I'm a razor tensioned

I just want move on, but I can't, bitch

Camping 'cause the diamonds they glistening

Sitting in my fucking killing shameless

Look at my face, can't you tell I'm so graceful?

Wish I could understand

Why nothing makes me sad

Nothing makes me feel shit

I'll keep on taking them hits in the nights

Yeah, the lamps so bright, it'll be all right

All the voices so high, I can feel the light

And I swear these lies taking all my time and spaces

It's making me crazy

I used to wanna die, now I want the world to fucking fry

Tear da club up thug, I know you have it deep inside

No, Ketamine fiends all in my ex team

I got potions for the night being

Suicide this what they mean

Man, fuck all the bullshit, I just wanna Rest In Peace

They wanna take my life away

Fill my head take my bread, no, I could stay

In the woods light a fire, ain't no microwave

Fuck the rest, they tryna play me everyday

Every night, nothing to fight

Nowhere to live, closed inside a casket

Man, it can't be this

Gotta make shit change

'Cause this motherfucking place

Making my brain go insane

Yung Corpse, my mane

Revenge, I just wanna kill shit

Call me fucking Kill Bill, I just wanna end shit, ok, ok!

Blood all on my body and the floor board soaked with gore

Yeah, bitch, I'm Corpse, I signed your casket kit

I'm writing in my death wish

List of names that done double-crossed me

That would just be me, yeah

Dead man walking, zombie tripping, codeine sipping

Hell in my head, hell might as well catch hell, and my eyes red as hell

I won't ever give in hoe

You just another Michelle

Wish I could understand

Why nothing makes me sad

Nothing makes me feel shit

I'll keep on taking them hits in the nights

Gallowdancing 'til I'm ancient

Waiting for the mansions patient

Mention me, you'll get no pensions

That's 'cause I'm a razor tensioned

I just want move on, but I can't, bitch

Camping 'cause the diamonds they glistening

Sitting in my fucking killing shameless

Look at my face, can't you tell I'm so graceful?

Gallowdance (Remix) by Corpse Kid, Wntr SKY

[dailyautophagy]

I have off tomorrowwwwwwwsa

we all do probably but

it doesn’t feel like Saturday to me

I’m a big fan of that lol

I don’t have a ramble in me but imma force one out because

This Tom papa special is pretty good but i don’t wanna give my undivided attention to it

He is making jokes about food influencing your behavior and mood and I know he makes his own bread cause I listen to him on podcasts lol and he is just good at his job and doesn’t preach to people he just does good jokes that might make people think twice before eating a bag of cool ranch Doritos because a while after you want to kill yourself a lil

I think I typed that 5 hours ago and then i came back to this to ramble more and then tumblr did a crash and it didn’t save the rambles after this ramble (sad, because decent lol)

there are four married men at my work that go out of their way to be nice to me and like not other people and just

why

i mean know why (and no I ain’t gonna touch it) but like why do they think that’s okay lol are they just being nice out of pity

I know it is not ideal to be aware of motivation existing for every and all things but like it does and therefore no these people are not just being nice to be nice there is a reason

There’s always a reason for everything even if it’s not a good one or

Like I don’t know the reason we evolved brains that are painfully aware of our imminent death but I know there IS ONE lol

I know a lot of the reasons for things now, health issue things, sadnesses and such

Don’t pretend being depressed is just part of life and it won’t be / I think therefore I am / if you say you can you will & if you say you can’t you’re right /

You get it

I am tired

I want to cum

I need to drink water

We’re all the same really lol

The thing about ants not tryna leave the boundaries when someone draws circles around them and then showing all the BORDERS OF COUNTRIES like I get it lol but we need them at this point because without them the places that suck will trickle into the places that are nice - if we had started with no borders everyone would be the same maybe lol or dead

I know nothing John snow don’t fucking listen to me

You can actually :/ i do know a lot of things and it’s not like hidden secret knowledge it’s just not ever addressed lol because guess what’s easier? Popping pills

I don’t like that about the world

It card to find someone without a prescription lol even I smoke weed ffs that kinda counts plant or not

The only person raw dawging life is ….no one.

Find me someone not drinking caffeine and not prescribed anything. I thought did but he sneaks cans of Coca Cola and has prescriptions now (cause he didn’t take care of his damn body)

AND NOW IT IS 3AM

It’s three am I must be lonelyyyy

No it’s actually 411 according the the fucking alarm clock this asshole downstairs is sleeping through lol it’s set for 405 so even I didn’t hear it for a whole 6 minutes .. but I’m not IN THAT ROOM LIKE HE IS. Idk how people sleep through loud noises like that lol DRUGS?!?

I mean dude makes almost 1000 a week and I take 300 because life is expensive and this isn’t a goddamn homeless shelter but he’s somehow always poor lol which like how - I’m buying the groceries

Which I forgot I said if I had to pay for them I wasn’t going to be also preparing all his meals like you want a slave you gotta stock my shit lol

But last night he was napping (last night aka like 5pm yesterday) so I went in the kitchen WHERE I BELONG to make dinner and put dishes away and I made rice (which just requires patience like you gotta wash the rice and then let it boil - I do a cup of rice almost 2 TBSP of oil and 1/2 tsp salt and 1.75 C water and I hate American measurements lol I think that was one way they tried to fuck up our ability to use food as medicine. Cause back in the Florence nightingale time (and location) they had recipes we prolly never even heard of. Remedies and recipes

I get so mad now when people don’t understand that our own body is responsible for our own healing and you just gotta it the right conditions lol like definitely SET broken bones and definitely antibiotics have saved lives but MOST things most illnesses and even most diseases are within our realm of fixing. You don’t need doctors. We didn’t evolve from cavemen because doctors existed. I’d venture to argue that doctors now do more harm than good. Granted we are not taught the things or given the tools to know how to fix ourselves lol but like the truth is out there man lol

Seriously though I wish I found Barbara O’Neill when I was in school. I graduated highschool in 2008 and dropped out of college after people started dying from pills and getting their drugs laced with fentanyl lol but alas my career didn’t require it.. despite everyone else I work with having a college degree.. So LOL at them.

I’d be in legitimate debt instead of just bad at money

Also I swear to fucking god these assholes are going to make me take my days off around Christmas so I don’t get all the OT again lol

Trust me, your omnipotent creator doesn’t get offended by words, and since I’m not a believer like that I’m not actually using the lords name in vain or whatever the fuck …. Wait yes I am because I am using it in an empty or meaningless way … I always thought it meant thinking like “this is gods fault” and being so disappointed by god you then curse him

I don’t know

Spiritual, yes. Religious, no. Religion is responsible for all the wars. And those imaginary lines we decided were worth killing people over. I mean now it’s too late the lines are necessary because some countries are shit holes and some are not but maybe if we had never segregated ourselves we wouldn’t be so different from eachother but TOO LATE what’s done is done and now I don’t want people imported from other hemispheres and TBH neither do their gut biomes you’re supposed to eat the food indigenous to your area lol that’s why I can fuck with everything apples forever like I wasn’t raised on milk I was raised on apple cider lol AND IVE NEVER BROKEN A BONE I’ve really fucked up my elbows and tailbone but nothing to my knowledge ever broke perhaps teeny tiny fractures and for sure bruises but never casts never snaps 🤞 I hope I hope I hope the universe never makes me / I never do anything to warrant that karma lol my brain is the mob btw if I disrespect the order of the world instant karma and thus far it (my karma) has been eerily accurate

If I’m mean or do a rude thing, something bad happens to me lol usually nothing too serious but low key (so low key I would never actually say this to humans esp my sister) but I think my XL abortion is why I don’t have parents - which I know is like not how cancer works lol I know they grew that shit over so many years and it was a direct result of their lifestyle / dietary choices - but yet I still feel that(low key) if I had had that baby they would not be dead.

And that’s a weird way to feel.

But I don’t think there’s anything after this lol because I think energy gets recycled but not SOULS or whatever makes us have a spark of electricity in every cell. Salt water I guess lol shits crazy

There’s so many layers to health and once you realize the building blocks matter

Like do people not liken it to gas grades and cars

Put premium in your body it is worth it and ultimately over time regular will fuck up the engine

Our body our cells our mf dna is made up of what we eat lol well it’s actually nucleotides but NUTRITION AFFECTS HOW WE MAKE NUCLEOTIDES and therefore our dna BUT we cannot change our chromosomes and we cannot fully detox from an mRNA vaccine lol

I should go back to sleep lol

I want to brag about famous people living near me and being on my ro…can’t even say that lol as I don’t wanna dox myself or career

If you know my job don’t fucking tell people please lol they don’t need to know

Suffice it to say that I only own a home because my parents are dead and not because my career is a real money maker lol but

See can’t even brag about the benefits without basically doxing

Doxing is a such a faggot word lol

And concept tbh like mind your business troll

I hope every human responsible for the squirrel euthanized in NEW YORK okay caps gets mugged Or assaulted Or like some not death but like a physically painful thing happen to them because what the fuck is wrong with you lol you did this because you were “concerned”? Well now it’s dead, are you happy? Nothing to be “concerned” about. Fucking disgusting. And obviously voting for Kamala so like

The type of people who are voting blue blindly are the type of people who can’t mind their own business and need the tv to tell them what to believe

Also imagine setting a ballot box on fire and genuinely believing you’re on the right side of history

You don’t have to like trump personally but you do have to respect the fact that millions of us do and we literally elected him to be a presidential candidate despite the television programming everyone to hate him - we don’t watch news lol maybe someone watch fox but like I do think most of us don’t even have cable anymore like

Now tis 6am and I am still not back asleep lol but it’s not dark anymore so I might have to stay awake

I love my nails and I’m so grateful for the glass files the pretty blonde one told me about (I mean I think I knew they existed but I didn’t use them lol) and my nails like so useful so strong so GOOD FOR PICKING MY FACE which is BAD lol I can’t not pick my face I hate this for me

Like I’m probably better off touching my phone cause then I’m not picking my face lol but being perpetually on tumblr feels like not a good thing but also it is the best way to not spend money lol not shopping online OR FIND US IN THE APP or whatever something about capital letters in advertising always made me feel like a robot was yelling at me

Rumble is the best way to watch Barbara I always just listened on SoundCloud whilst at work but the viewing of her and the white board is a much different experience lol not hugely better but a little better

Seinfeld and laying with bobo

Bison steaks!!! I forgot they are amazing and ground bison burgers are kind of not lol so just be aware

I think they’re less fucked with than cows but it’s possible that’s just wishful thinking

End ramble heavy eye shallow breaths maybe i will see you inn the dream world WHO WHO WHO WHO what are you an owl lol sometimes i want to say things just

To be able to make a joke after

And sometimes

I can’t stop wanting

To fix my teeth they are not okay on the bottom like I’m gorgeous my smile is gorgeous but if I talk you can see the bottom teeth are not good and i want it fixed i want it fixed i bought the things to fix them one time and then i did not do it i just used the ugh no doxing me it was like I didn’t truly feel I paid for the jawns?? I assume that’s why i had the gall to waste almost 2k like that

They are useless at this point like my teeth didn’t just go back to how they were before that would be too convenient they’re a new type of screwy now

Whatever I don’t know why I’d use the same people imma prolly try… not byte lol cause I already did byte

But I don’t want one I gotta go to dentist for ever like if I was willing to sit in those chairs and breath those gross airs every month 🤷‍♀️

Okay lay down sleepy lol

[elegy-if]

Soooo mannnny notes!

Okay. So wow. Gross.. also wow.. that was so entertaining and enjoyable and honestly I had my feet kicking up behind me while I was reading.

Also.. Gross..

I had a whole grimace on my face reading that scene. Very descriptive.. very detailed.. did I say gross?

Notes!!

1. Aw I had the feels for MC shame omg. Poor thing. So many emotions. I felt the pain. Especially when explaining the hand scar. Sorry if I'm being spoilery I'm tryna be chill here.

2. I love that you can choose to just go with this is my nature so fuck u mentality or actually try to go against it.

3. Very detailed.. very gross scene. It was great. I don't generally read much horror IFs. I hate horror movies but I really enjoyed this. A testiment to how really good this was.

4. The beast scene was both kinda cute and bittersweet left me with some sadness once again.

Looking forward to getting to know Felix and Eden. Well all the ROs actually. Im very intrigued how the relationship dynamics will work with MCs lil issue.

This was very good. I feel like I'm finding so many gems lately. So thank you for being another writer to bless my eyes!

PS. I can't remember if I said it was gross. It was very subtle you knw..

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! ;__; it means a lot to me that you enjoyed it! i'm glad i got across the grossness of Consuming human flesh and organs in my writing !! that was definitely the intent :^)

gonna respond in order of your notes!! ty for taking the time to write something to me about it!!

MC's shame is going to be a common theme/occurrence throughout. I wanted to write a somewhat cathartic story about healing from trauma + how trauma can make you act in ways that aren't the best! MC is far from perfect, and I plan to delve into that more in future chapters.

YES!!! I love the trope of giving in to your nature no matter how grotesque it may be vs. fighting that and trying to become a different person....

I'm honored you checked Nemisi out! I love horror, but I haven't written much of it personally (especially not things I've shown anyone besides my best friend) so this IF is definitely going to be an exercise for my brain writing that genre.

The cat scene was one I wasn't expecting to have such an impact to be honest! But I needed to give the MC some more human aspects, since no matter what they think are now, they did start out in life as one and they still experience human emotions, like it or not.

Writing character interactions is one of my favorite things to do! So I'm excited to show off the dynamics. I also love writing romance so I cannot WAIT to get to that. I love characters who either help each other heal or make each other worse.

Once again, thanks for the kind words!!

[feral-writer-do-not-feed]

Alright guys. I know I never post and I know no one’s gonna see this but I’m tryna get some writing done and to do that, I need to yap and brain storm and have people to bounce ideas off of and this hellscape echo chamber seems like a cesspit I’m unlikely to damage or traumatize by shouting into so without further ado, introducing a book that I sorta kinda have to write for my senior thesis and which I am not making any progress on currently:

Where the Fire Never Goes Out

A murder mystery following four dysfunctional siblings whose parents were recently murdered in their childhood home and the numerous people, dead and alive, who haunt these siblings as they try to hold onto any scrap of normalcy they’ve ever managed to grip at any means necessary.

The book will include

Explorations of childhood trauma, how it impacts teens and young adults, and what the true meaning of “guilty” really is

Abusive family dynamics including children

A serial killer or two

A shit ton of religious symbolism

The American coastal south (yes this means the religion is Christianity; I know I know, we’re all very sad it isn’t Greek mythology)

Gay people

Graphic violence

Stupid twists

Terrible people

Drugs

Tortured Poets Lesbians

Ghosts (the sad psychological kind; not the fun kind)

Characters I am still in the process of developing

Romcom elements (yes I’m serious)

Implied sexual violence and emotional incest (no one is ever raped or assaulted sexually; this is a hard rule)

Dogs (they do not die)

Fish (some of them might die idk)

Other animals (there’s a character named Noah if you can’t tell)

A lot of pathetic men

Possible gender fuckery, as of yet undecided

Mental illness

Present tense

Except in flashbacks of which I’m sure there’ll be many

Dark comedy

Discussion of abortion, infanticide, and medical abuse

Other stuff I’m as of yet unaware of because I DON’T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK I’M DOING

If anyone is at all interested in knowing more, helping, or brainstorming with me, feel free and relentlessly encouraged to comment, or use my asks. I am struggling.

[bisexual-yuri]

The rebirth reaper

I try not to drive like imma fall off a cliff

Set off big alarms when my path starts to drift

Wanna take a sadness walk down at tift, baby you know I’m ok if I’m not smokin’ spliffs

All I want is to trust that I am okay

For you to see it too, that your fears are allayed

Hi I’m Ali, like fyre my friends call me

Might be bipolar maybe just ADHD

We tryin’ some shit out, wanna see what the fuck fits me

Not sick me

Don’t beat me with the measuring stick please

Gotta stay calm cool and collected, don’t freeze

Just wanna do a good job that pays what I’m worth

Want a world so fluid that it can satiate my thirst for knowledge straight from the tree

I know I’m not Adam or Eve

Just sick of being stuck on medical leave

Missin’ the shit out of a some kids that I can’t see

Miss fun and trust and a world without intrigue

Where I can express myself in metaphors, who cares if I’m all poetry?

Miss being around people who get me and just let me be me

Want to go home to NYC but bring my whole family

Blood binds me

Here I am Buffalo, you’re part of my blue sea

Born in the rust on the shores of Lake Erie in the keystone state

Long hallways in PA my earliest memories

It’s dreary, reconstructing ephemera

Tryna make sense of what haunts ya

Gone fishin’ in my brain leaving them awestruck by the destruction I wrought

I ruined myself, who woulda thought?

Ready to be reborn, ready for naught

Wish all this shit didn’t pass on the clock

Miss my boys and my babies and the world I shot to hell with cold turkeying meds, what the fuck?

Big thing to do for a girl scared of trucks

[brothersonahotelbed]

tryna hide the feeling that im never leaving home.everybody wants me dead but i just wanna be left alone ..have you ever felt the pressure building in your brain? growing up is suicide and it's making me insane ‼️‼️now iiiiiii i hate my mom and dad and youuuuuuuu you told me you were sad so weeeeeee we left our homes at last now iiiiiiiiiii i miss my mom and daaaad!!!!!!!!!!!! *guitar* ,,,..... i can make it on my own but i. never needed this ... now i pay for insurance and im always. getting. siick,,,, if you wanna get back together we can. break up again. ,,,,,,,OH MY GOD WHATEEVERRRRRRRR IM FUCKING DEEEEAAAAAAAD ‼️💥💥💥💥NOW IIIIII I HATE MY MOM AND DAD AND YOOOOUUUUU YOU TOLD ME YOU WERE SAD SO WEEEEEEE WE LEFT OUR HOMES AT LAST NOW IIIIIIIII I MISS MY MOM AND DAAAAAAAD ‼️‼️💥🫶👍

[phantom-does-a-thing]

thank you for being my guilty pleasure (mockingjay) hookup, i salute your service o7

also, i gotta say for a while I was convinced the love potion fic was gonna go another angle where its like. gillion explains to chip that jay got hit w the love potion towards chip and chips brain just plays a montage of. potioned jay looking at him and sobbing all day (preferably set to the curb your enthusiasm theme).

like we know from jay’s perspective WHY but it’s so fucking funny (slash horrifyingly sad) from chips. like that’s just the Loving Chip Jrwi Experience. local woman mourning over loving chip jrwi.

GODDDDD FINALLY SOME SENSIBLE PEOPLE ON THIS SITE (mockingjay enjoyers). It’s such an underrated ship and it’s so unpopular but it’s actually means everything to me. I’m so normal about mockingjay (it’s honestly prob my default ship tbh)

I don’t think gill honestly would’ve like thought to do that, he was more concerned about the fact that JAY was upset and was gonna 100% try and wingman her bc he didn’t really understand the whole love potion thing. I also straight up had no idea what to do with that scene after I started the convo w jay and gill (I was gonna cut it out tbh). Gillion was tryna work this out logically like “do you really love him?” And try and talk it through which obviously wouldn’t work when Jay’s emotions and rational thoughts r all on the fritz from the potion.

But yeah Jay really would’ve been sobbing the whole day over this not bc she’s in love with Chip but because she’s SO in love with him it’s overwhelming. Chip ofc would’ve taken it the other way and DID take it the other way tbh in he’s certain she doesn’t actually love him and it’s just the potion (even tho she does actually love him).

I was gonna have a scene in the fic that didn’t end up fitting in cuz I didn’t know how to put it there where jay would admit to getting hit by the love potion to Chip after he finds her to try and comforts her. And he asks jay who she got affected by, like who the potion manifested on. And she just stares at him and she’s clinging in his lap and hugging him so tight and just starts sobbing harder and he realizes like “oh”. Didn’t make it in but I think of it often.

[anime-and-i]

Thoughts on AOT and its’ finale.

These are MY own opinions. You’re free to agree or disagree. Also AOT spoiler warning obviously!

1. Marley arc was stupid as hell

After establishing the main cast and basically who we’re supposed to be rooting for in the first half of the series, it was so dumb to now add these irrelevant annoying new characters. Literally audiences wait years to see familiar faces and then you throw in some irrelevant fucks into the mix. Suddenly we’re supposed to be cool with seeing the lives of these Xenophobic bigots. I understand the whole “showing that there’s two sides of war” thing and also revealing more of why everything played out how it did so far. However, the Marley citizens were always shown as racist to the Eldians. Not a single instance of anyone feeling bad for Eldians or having some common sense like “why tf are we even doing this?”. It was just them victimizing themselves for something that happened like 100 years ago. And the rest of them were always on some “oh man I just want this to end; I don’t like war; I wanna go see my family UwU” after they come back from depriving Eldians (who’ve had their memory erased) of their own families. Maybe if we acc saw them showing some remorse for their actions I’d be more inclined to hear their side out. Reiner was having some split personality thing going on. He should’ve been inside a therapist’s office for the remainder of the series. But literally none of the other characters are ever like “shit I’m doing something bad to someone”. Even if they were shown thinking it in the back of their heads it would make me more inclined to like them. The only Marley folks I acc liked were Falco, Zophia and that kid with glasses they hung out with. They seemed normal despite the brainwashing so idk wtf Gabi’s problem was.

2. Ymir (not the og one)

Suddenly having a conscience after not giving a fuck the entire time, when the main cast needed her the most (esp Historia) was pure garbage. I get the author tryna keep the mystery of the titans and warriors going until later on but her going back with Reiner and Bert-whatever tf his name was- is pure and utter horseshit. She wasn’t a warrior kid so she didn’t have to answer to anyone! She could’ve gone back with the corps members and explained everything about the outside world right then and there and lived out the rest of her days with Historia idk. It would’ve been better if she died tryna save Historia or one of the corps members or something. Then the jaw Titan goes to a random Eldian and Marley can’t use it. Absolute garbage plot line. Her also not explaining to Eren wtf is going was bs too.

3. Warriors did not deserve a happy ending

ESP the RBA trio. Idc if they lived or died tbh but the one thing they shouldn’t have gotten was what they wanted the most: to see their families again. Their parents didn’t deserve it either. This is what they get for sending their kids off to war bunch of shit for brains. The best ending would’ve been when their parents got turned into titans, Annie and Reiner either get eaten by them or have to kill them. No happy reunion for any of these “honorary Marley” shits.

4. Pieck (however u spell it)

She should’ve faced some consequences and then died. Literally one of the most bland characters in the series. The only thing she had going for herself was that weird one-sided rivalry thing with Yelena and even that dissipated. Very irrelevant and not the strongest Titan idk how her boring ass survived. Also she has no remorse for any of her crimes either. She gassed Connie’s village and turned those folks into titans. Her backstory is boring. We already got a sad dad story from Annie. Ugly ass Titan and also tried to lecture Yelena about her crimes. Glad Yelena put her in her place tho. Along with the rest of the ppl at the campfire. Best ending for pieck would’ve been if she accidentally killed gabi. One of the kids she cared about so much died to her hands and not the enemy’s. Maybe it would’ve given her character some needed development.

5. Zeke

should’ve put up more of a fight and then gotten beheaded by Levi. Idc about his tragic backstory. He stole a troop member’s gear and let him get eaten by titans alive. Him looking down on the troops, risking their lives going against his Goliath baboon ass, sealed the deal for why he deserved a gruesome death; not one where he practically offers his head on a silver platter to get sliced.

6. Gabi should’ve died after shooting eren.

Pain in the ass character. Tell me how she shot Sasha and then continued to go around Paradise calling eldians devils and her ass doesn’t die. Her character is supposed to be like “oh look some bigot learns that the thing they hate the most is bc they don’t know about it well enough and then they stop hating it once they learn”. Okay well Marley isn’t about to stop conflict bc an Eldian kid had a change of heart and told them about it. Plot wise, prick should’ve killed her inside her ugly ass cart Titan mouth.

7. Original Ymir

should’ve had more of a dialogue. Her being in love with that creep ass stupid head Fritz was such a weird way to define her character as the founder. She should’ve had a Historia moment where she’s finally free and done with everyone’s bs and actually vocalizes that to the Eldians inside the Paths.

8. The Rumbling should’ve ended all of humanity and the only survivor (that we know of) should’ve been a random kid. Make Erwin’s words true: “The only time humans will stop fighting is when there’s one human left”. The 80% cop-out AND the warrior parents surviving? Absolutely not.

9. King Fritz’s soul should’ve been put into his own nightmare realm at the end; designed by Ymir.

Things I acc liked about the series:

1. When Eren first becomes a Titan and the audience feels like there’s hope for the cast.

2. When they overthrow the false king and establish a new government.

3. Hange.

4. Erwin (esp his long shot plans).

5. Levi (esp when he beats the shit out of zeke).

6. Falco.

7. Yelena- only fault was being a Zeke stan.

8. Armin- excluding all the weird Annie shit.

9. Historia after breaking the Titan syringe. That entire scene was so good.

10. The owl guy. He seemed okay.

11. That one pure Titan that acc looked kinda hot.

12. Dina’s last line to Grisha. It was so sweet :(

13. Eren unlocking his coordinate ability. Loved that whole scene.

14. Kaya almost murdering Gabi. It was done so well.

15. Niccolo giving that rage speech and saying “…yeah well I acc loved that girl who was one of these hellspawn devils”. The raw emotion was so well conveyed.

16. Yelena shooting that one dude when he started insulting Sasha.

17. Pixis shooting off into space after tasting some boar steak. It’s not part of the official plot line but that ova was so funny.

18. The aot chibi series

19. How strong the writing and plot was for aot during the first 4 seasons.

20. Hange and Levi trying to make the MP dudes rat out info and they make the second guy read the funniest shit on paper.

21. Hange making pigeon sounds after Eren in Titan form nods to her command.

22. Sasha becoming an actual demon after she senses food.

23. Etc.

This was very therapeutic for me. Ever since I finished this series, it left me feeling disappointed, dissatisfied, and anxious. I’m glad I wrote all this out; I can make peace with this show finally.

[taiiunknown]

CANT STAY AWAY FROM YOU !!!

Part2 (last part)

Warning: heartbreak, slight cussing

Summary: shuri ends up having to pick between RiRi and y/n

Fem reader X Shuri

SHURI’S POV :/

MY WIFE♾🌹: Can we talk ?

Me: About ?

MY WIFE♾🌹: what happened…

Me: ya after I’m done giving RiRi head

MY WIFE♾🌹: huh ? 🤨

*read*

Y/n’s POV:/

9:00pm

My heart dropped to my ass when shuri responded to me with that message, was she talking about our friend RiRi? Did she meet someone with the same name ? My head wondered for a minute when suddenly I decided to text RiRi tryna be casual so I don’t accuse her of nothing

Me: Hey Riri… wyd girl ?

*read*

My mind felt like it was dying from all the confusion when I finally put two and two together 🤨

When me and RiRi was talking about me having sex with my friend while me and shuri was on a break RiRi hit me with the “ it’s okay I’m pretty sure shuri fucked someone bc she a sex maniac honestly” and the fact that RiRi made me so comfortable so I can be able to let her in my personal life was so sickening. My whole body felt hot and my head went straight to killer mode within a second , I’ve never felt so sick to my stomach before and I felt so numb to the point that I wasn’t sad nor depressed I was angry, I was angry at myself . I hurt someone who truly loved me and I took advantage of that bc I’ve never felt real love before , I honestly don’t blame shuri bc i know I hurt her but RiRi ? I’ve been nothing but good to her and this hoe want to back door me with no remorse.

A hour went past and I just had the urge to go to RiRi dorm since some how she couldn’t afford to live off campus like me 🙂 . When I arrived I had no type of brain cell in me I immediately started to bang on RiRi door like a maniac , she opened it half naked with a confused look on her face , out of no where I ended up punching her in the face RiRi collapsed to the ground I stepped over her , as I’m walking in I look on her work desk and see shuri necklace that I gave her . As I’m picking up the necklace I hear shuri coming out of the bathroom with a sports bra and shorts on saying “Ri what’s going on out here ?!” Shuri froze when she seen me looking at the necklace with tears rising in my eyes “I’m so sorry shuri…” I said with a shaky voice “Y/n..” Shuri said grabbing my shoulder . I see RiRi getting back up holding her face , “Shuri make her leave before I call the police” RiRi said tryna get up , “How long ?” I asked “1 Month” RiRi said with a grin,I tried to run up on RiRi again but shuri grabbed me by my waist pulling me to the other side of the room “Why shuri?” I said with tears now shedding “I’m So Sorry usana” Shuri said “No she not , she loves it here” RiRi says with a big smile on her face “ Bitch open your mouth again or your nose will not be the only thing bleeding” I said “Usana you know I love you and only you RiRi just caught me while I was going through a really tough time!” Shuri said now teary eyed “I’m out !” I screamed bc I literally felt my heart rip out my chest . Shuri stared at the same spot I was in with a frozen look on her face wishing that my shadow was still there .

It’s been two day since that incident and everything still plays in my head due to the fact that I’m madly in love with shuri even though she literally been having an affair before our break .

My heart❤️🥰: open the door .

Me: What ?

My heart❤️🥰: open your room door.

I slowly walked up to my room door with a confused face , “Shuri how the hell you keep getting in here ?” I said , shuri pulled a spare key out her joggers my eyebrows began to furrow bc I don’t remember giving her a key ! “When did I give you a key ?” “You didn’t” Shuri said with a smirk “bitch what ?” “Watch your mouth” Shuri said with a stern face “ WHY ARE YOU HERE !?” I shouted “bc I CANT STAY AWAY FROM YOU Y/n!” Shuri said coming closer to me , “you had me thinking i hurted you when you was really hurting me this whole time and it’s the fact you didn’t cheat with just anyone , you cheated with RIRI FUCKING WILLIAMS !” I said with a quivering lip bc I couldn’t stop the replay that happened two days ago . “Ik im sorry usana and I mean truly sorry , I never meant to hurt you nor have a affair with RiR-“ “BUT YOU DID!” I yelled interrupting her “usana but I love you ! I’ve never had no type of real feelings towards riri it was only the sex..” “So I’m not good in bed is what you saying ?”I said feeling flabbergasted “ No Y/n trust me you are amazing in every way including the sex , you a perfect picture in my eyes and I love you so much and I know I fucked up really bad and I mean really bad but I want to make it up to you and trust me if you let me I will never do anyway thing to hurt you ever again..” Shuri said now holding both of my hands, “ you are right , it will never happen again bc I am done and when I say DONE I MEAN COMPLETELY DONE NOW GET TF OUT OF MY HOUSE BEFORE I KILL YOUR ASS..” Shuri looked at me in shock slowly backing away bc she know what I was capable of since I am a hit man 🤷🏽‍♀️. Shuri left and when that door left it felt like weights was off my shoulders which made me slowly break down and fall to my knees, I’ve never felt so hurt in a day of my life bc I was truly in love but some times you have to stand up .

The lesson I learned it to not be weak in the knees for anyone , not even the queen of Wakanda …💔

THE END !🙃