#fuck u alison savage

[louisferrignojr]

i want her to know that seeing a picture of some random person who i thought looked like her made me feel like i was going to have a panic attack. i want to say to her "you turned into your worst fears" how do you sleep at night knowing you're someone's living nightmare? i didn't deserve to be hurt like that i don't care who hurt you. go to therapy

[i-dont-want-your-hysteria]

Listening to DSH from start to finish for the FIRST TIME EVER

It's midnight here so this is all going to be intelligible

Take What You Want- It's literally OTTN/HND + Euphoria + kinky dilfs and I'm just ARRRRHHGHGHHGHHHHHHH it's a very Joe + Sav song

Kick- I'm literally addicted to this song the lyrics are so sexy I can't take it it's so glam i just gffregerrerergffgr at this point it's my fav song from the album out of the 3 I've heard already and idk how they're gonna top it but I know they will somehow

Fire It Up- IT'S SLANG IT'S SLANG IT'S SLANG IT'S SLANG IT'S SLANG IT'S SLANG Joe can fuck me up with a low register any day ESPECIALLY when it's borderline rapping and I just feel like it's a Leppard song we've been waiting for for a long time and never knew it

This Guitar- I was 2 years old when this song was written it sounds like Unbelievable gone country it's a VERY un-Leppard song and you get whiplash from it after a very Leppard song like Fire it Up but Joe's voice was totally MADE FOR THIS SONG and Alison Krauss' voice was made to be with Joe's?? CAN WE HAVE JOE HARMONIZING WITH A FEMALE VOCALIST MORE OFTEN?????

SOS Emergency- A very self titled song if I do say so myself- reminds me of Dangerous more than anything also 'turn me on just turn me on' Joe be careful what you wish for

Liquid Dust- Right off the bat Slang/X vibes like Pearl of Euphoria meets Gravity and Torn to Shreds and it feels like this song needs to be played as a thunderstorm approaches or something also did I mention I'm a big fan of the drums on this album

U Rok Mi- THAT UKULELE TRANSITION OH FUCK YEAH. UNH. This one is definitely high on my list rn idk there's just something about it maybe it's the A CAPPELLA IDK mAYBE IT'S JOE'S SEXY GRAVELY VOICE IN THIS IDK MAYBE

Goodbye For Good This Time- Ah yes there's the piano we were promised. Also this is straight up Walking to Babylon by Down N Outz at least it is to me. This is another very un-Leppard song imo but that acoustic tho like hoooooooo I kinda hope we get a music video for this and I can't explain why maybe it's bc I want dramatic sad soap opera Joe maybe

All We Need- i got a sense of impending doom when this song started don't ask me why. it's 12:30am and I'm starving. This one also gives me X vibes? "this ain't no bedtime story" well it is for me Joe. I hope there's another good vibes song soon. is it bad i like the outro of this better than the whole song?

Open Your Eyes- LET'S HEAR IT FOR RICHARD ELIZABETH SAVAGE. This is Pearl of Euphoria 2022. This one is an orchestra itself and definitely near the top of my list, too. It's very un-leppard in a few VERY good ways.

Gimme a Kiss- oh FUCK YEA. As soon as this song began I went "uh oh- I have a bad feeling this is the one I'm gonna love more than Kick..." yeah I REALLY like this one totally not making me blush or anything 👁//👄//👁 hoohooheehooo this one is the competitor for my #1 spot with Kick WHEN THE KISS NOISE HAPPENED AT THE END I LITERALLY SAID "EXCUSE ME??????????" OUT LOUD IN MY DEAD QUIET HOUSE AT 12:43AM FUCK YOU JOE STOPPPPPPPP I literally did not pause this album since I started playing it EXCEPT WHEN JOE SMACKED HIS LIPS

Angels (Can't Help You Now)- another Down N Outz-esque song and I'm starting to fall asleep so my comments are running thin- it sounds familiar but I can't put my finger on it? also that ending IS Aladdin Sane well done boys you finally did it

Lifeless- SHE'S BAAAAAAACK! holy shit i just wanna give Joe a hug after hearing this and that ending ;-; also gives me early 00's sad pop vibes

Unbreakable- DEADASS THOUGHT THIS WAS 10538 OVERTURE. The room started spinning. This is an odd combo of X + self titled that WORKS. the line "it's unmistakably love" made me :#{} I never want it to end but I'm starving and about to pass out so I also want it to end ALSO ALL THESE A CAPPELLA ENDINGS ARE THE DEATH OF ME

From Here to Eternity- unmistakably Sav. Kings of the World. Creepy waltz. I could've listened to just the instrumentals for 20 hours straight

and so ends the first of thousands of listens for the rest of my life

[dustedmagazine]

Dusted Mid-Year Exchange, Part 3: Writers’ Lists

Joe McPhee 

We wrap up our mid-year feature with writers’ favorites from the first half of the year.  If you missed them, check out Parts One and Two from earlier this week.

Tobias Carroll

SAULT — UNTITLED (Black Is) (Forever Living Originals)

Irreversible Entanglements — Who Sent You? (International Anthem)

Cold Beat — Mother (DFA Records)

African Head Charge — Drumming is a Language 1990 - 2011 (On-U Sound)

En Attendant Ana — Juliet (Trouble in Mind)

Positive No — Kyanite (self-released)

Helen Money — Atomic (Thrill Jockey)

Matt LaJoie — Everlasting Spring (Flower Room)

Xetas — The Cypher (12XU)

Alison Cotton — Zener_08 (Sensory Leakage)

Coriky — Coriky (Dischord)

Błoto — Erozje (Astigmatic Records)

Gerycz / Powers / Rolin — Beacon (Garden Portal)

75 Dollar Bill Little Big Band — Live at Tubby’s (self-released)

Slum of Legs — Slum of Legs (Splurge Recordings)

The Soft Pink Truth — Am I Free to Go? (self-released)

 Tim Clarke

Activity — Unmask Whoever (Western Vinyl)

Alabaster DePlume — To Cy and Lee: Instrumentals Vol. 1 (International Anthem)

Drab City — Good Songs For Bad People (Bella Union)

Fake Laugh — Dining Alone (State 51 Conspiracy)

King Krule — Man Alive! (XL)

Owen Pallett — Island (Domino)

 Andrew Forell

Irreversible Entanglements — Who Sent You? (International Anthem)

Wire — Mind Hive (Pinkflag)

Peel Machine Dream — Agitprop Alterna (Tough Love/Slumberland)

Rowland S Howard — Teenage Snuff Film (Fat Possum)

The Wants — Container (Council Records)

Shabaka And The Ancestors — We Are Sent Here By History (Impulse!)

Davey Harms — World War (Hausu Mountain)

Bohren & Der Club Of Gore — Patchouli Blue (Ipecac)

 Ray Garraty

Rio Da Yung Og — City on My Back (#Boyz Entertainment)

Cash Kidd — No Socks (4746 Global)

The Jacka — Murder Weapon (The Artist Records)

Z-Ro — Quarantine: Social Distancing (1 Deep Entertainment)

Ka — Descendants of Cain (self-released)

Bandgang Lonnie Bands — The Scamily (TF Entertainment)

 Jennifer Kelly

Six Organs of Admittance—Companion Rises (Drag City)

Gil Scott Heron and Makaya McCraven—We’re New Again (XL Recordings)

Obnox—Savage Raygun (Ever/Never)

Cable Ties—Far Enough (Merge)

Lewsberg—In this House (12XU)

James Elkington—Ever Roving Eye (Paradise of Bachelors)

Jehnny Beth —To Love Is To Live (Arts & Crafts)

Destroyer—Have We Met (Merge)

Decoy w/ Joe McPhee — AC/DC (otoROKU)

Chouk Bwa & The Ångströmers— Vodou Alé (Bongo Joe)

FACS—Void Moments (Trouble in Mind)

Elkhorn—The Storm Sessions (Beyond Beyond Is Beyond)   

 Arthur Krumins

Gil Scott-Heron, Makaya McCraven — We’re New Again (XL)

The Giving Shapes — Earth Leaps Up (Elsewhere)

Wut — Now (Self-released)

Ranil — Ranil y su Conjunto Tropical (Analog Africa)

Ash Brooks — Temple of Roses (Flower Room)

Chip Langer — Songs for Melissa (Xylem)

Keenan Ahrends Trio — Live at House on the Hills Session (Self-released)

Jeff Parker — Suite for Max Brown (International Anthem)

Julius Eastman — Feminine (Frozen Reeds)

White Poppy — Paradise Gardens (Not Not Fun)

Pharoah Sanders — Live in Paris 1975 (Transversales Disques)

Waterless Hills — The Great Mountain (Cardinal Fuzz)

Jim White and Marisa Anderson — The Quickening (Thrill Jockey)

Aoife Nessa Frances — Land of No Junction (Ba Da Bing)

Andrea Cortez — The Secret Song of Plants (Aural Canyon)

 Patrick Masterson

Yves Tumor — Heaven to a Tortured Mind (Warp)

Squirrel Flower — I Was Born Swimming (Polyvinyl)

Black Taffy — Opal Wand (Leaving)

Mint Mile — Ambertron (Comedy Minus One)

Moodymann — Taken Away (KDJ)

Sarah Mary Chadwick — Please Daddy (Sinderlyn)

Andrea — Ritorno (Illian Tape)

Cable Ties — Far Enough (Merge)

Torres — Silver Tongue (Merge)

Russell Ellington Langston Butler —  Emotional Bangers Only EP (self— released)

Tan Cologne — Cave Vaults on the Moon in New Mexico (Labrador)

Future — High Off Life (Epic)

 Ian Mathers

Aidan Baker & Gareth Davis — Invisible Cities II (Karlrecords)

Anastasia Minster — Father (self released)

Helen Money — Atomic (Thrill Jockey)

Holy Fuck — Deleter (Last Gang)

Hum — Inlet (Polyvinyl)

Solar Woodroach — 7 Perversions on Pachabel's Canon (Nilamox)

Spanish Love Songs — Brave Faces Everyone (Pure Noise)

Stars Like Fleas — DWARS Session: Live on Radio VPRO (self released)

Well Yells — We Mirror the Dead (self released)

Yves Tumor — Heaven to a Tortured Mind (Warp)

 Special mention to the incredible Charles Curtis Performances & Recordings 1998-2018 box we talked about here.

 Bill Meyer 

(The last entry is not a record, but a festival of recordings)

Owl — Mille Feuille (SOFA)

Paul Lytton / Nate Wooley — Known / Unknown (Fundacja Sluchaj)

Six Organs of Admittance — Companion Rises (Drag City)

Elkhorn — The Storm Sessions (Beyond Beyond is Beyond)

*Waterless Hills — The Great Mountain (Cardinal Fuzz / Feeding Tube)

Powers / Rolin Duo — s/t (Feeding Tube)

Tashi Dorji / Tyler Damon — To Catch A Bird (Trost)

James Elkington — Ever Roving Eye (Paradise of Bachelors)

Chicago Underground Quartet — Good Days (Astral Spirits)

Steve Beresford and John Butcher — Old Paradise Airs (Iluso)

Irreversible Entanglements (International Anthem)

Sandy Ewen — You Win (Gilgongo)

Various artists — AMPLIFY 2020:quarantine

 Jonathan Shaw

Raspberry Bulbs — Before the Age of Mirrors (Relapse)

Mamaleek — Come and See (The Flenser)

Thou — Blessings of the Highest Order (Robotic Empire)

Sun City Girls — Live at Sky Church (2182 Recording Company)

Gil Scott Heron and Makaya McCraven — We’re New Again (XL Recordings)

Neutrals — Rent/Your House (Domestic Departure)

 Derek Taylor

Twenty from 2020: Jazz and Improv (order entirely arbitrary)

Decoy w/ Joe McPhee — AC/DC (otoROKU)

Stephen Riley — Friday the 13th (Steeplechase)

Damon Smith — Whatever is Not Stone is Light (Balance Point Acoustics)

James Brandon Lewis & Chad Taylor — Live at Willisau (Intakt)

Jeremy Pelt — The Art of Intimacy, Vol. 1 (HighNote)

Peter Brötzmann/ Maâlem Moukhtar Gania/ Hamid Drake — The Catch of a Ghost (I Dischi Di Angelica)

Patty Waters — An Evening in Houston (Clean Feed)

Whit Dickey — Expanding Light (AUM Fidelity)

Brandon Seabrook — Exultations (Astral Spirits)

John Scofield — Swallow Tales (ECM)  

Paul Desmond — The Complete 1975 Toronto Recordings (Mosaic)

Cecil Taylor & Tony Oxley — Birdland, Neuberg 2011 (Fundacja Sluchaj)

Kidd Jordan /Joel Futterman /Alvin Fielder — Spirits (Silkheart)

Sam Rivers — Ricochet (No Business)

Frank Lowe & Rashied Ali — Duo Exchange: Complete Sessions (Survival)

Dudu Pukwana — and the Spears (Matsuli Music)

Sun Ra — Heliocentric Worlds, Vols. 1 & 2 (Ezz-thetics)

Shirley Scott — One for Me (Arc/Strata-East)

Buddy Collette — The Complete 1961 Milano Sessions (Fresh Sound)

Lennie Tristano — The Duo Sessions (Dot Time)

[reminaissance]

hi! i’d like to get back into reading again and just thought i’d ask you if you have some favorite books or any recs? :)

just.... remember you asked, okay? here are some of my recs separated by topic:

philosophy

Existentialism is a Humanism by Sartre (short, sweet, the basics of existentialism are here)

Beyond Good and Evil by Nietzsche (Nietzsche was a savage)

Fear and Trembling by Kierkegaard (another savage)

At the Existentialist Café by Sarah Bakewell (the existentialist peeps meet and converse about life and shit)

history/world shenanigans

The Swerve: How the World Became Modern by Stephen Greenblatt 

The Life of Elizabeth I by Alison Weir (Elizabeth I was a boss ass bitch)

Voices from Chernobyl by Svetlana Alexievich (makes you angry, very angry)

Nuremberg Diary by Gustave Mark Gilbert (the shame of these nazi fuckers should be documented and it was. These are their trials post WWII)

Mirrors by Eduardo Galeano (history through poetic prose)

psychology/neuroscience/shit that makes you question other shit

Phantoms in the Brain by V.S. Ramachandran (just... fuck, i love this book)

The Man Who Mistook his Wife for a Hat by Oliver Sacks (anything by him honestly. Neuroscience done hella easy and entertaining)

Cosmos by Carl Sagan (fucking mind blowing shit)

Astrophysics for People in a Hurry by Neil deGrasse Tyson (more mind blowing shit)

Obedience to Authority by Stanley Milgram (a bit of human behaviour here)

Confessions of a Sociopath by M.E. Thomas (this book is sobering as much as it is eye-opening. Ever wondered how a sociopath lives in regular society?)

fiction

A Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseini (this book broke me tbh)

IT and Carrie by Stephen King (anything by him too, he’s a master of the craft)

Manuscript Found in Accra by Paulo Coelho (personally think this is the only book you need to read by him)

Memoirs of a Geisha by Arthur Golden 

The Unbearable Lightness of Being by Milan Kundera 

Animal Farm by George Orwell (shorter than 1984 and better in my opinion)

Love in the Time of Cholera by Gabriel García Márquez (just... read it)

The Screwtape Letters by C.S. Lewis

The House of Spirits by Isabel Allende (isabel is a tour de force amongst latin american writers)

To Live by Yu Hua (if i had to describe this book in one word: humbling)

All the Missing Girls by Megan Miranda (the way the timeline is constructed is very peculiar and it just works)

The Price of Salt by Patricia Highsmith (because it’s Carol, bitch)

i have more books and more topics so feel free to hmu. thank u and have a lovely day

[dvrkhclme-blog]

✕ — wasn’t that raven darkholme wandering the streets of new york, 1973? civilians know them as mystique and see them as a villain. as far as i know, the one hundred and fifty+ year old stands with the x-men (sometimes), and are rumoured to be pretty deceptive & misanthropic. ( julianne moore / gender-fluid / typically she/her ) 

{ trigger warnings : mental illness, suicide, sexual abuse, drugs, terrorism, murder  }

hey everyone, i’m sophia!! i’m trash and neglected the intros for all my babies soooo i’m finally getting to them now!! anyways, i’m super excited to be here at 1973hq & i hope we can all be good friends!! <3 sooo. more about my first baby aka my murder!baby under the cut  

LEVEL 1: INTRODUCTORY INFORMATION ABOUT MY MYSTIQUE //

im not even gonna touch the mceu version of mystique ok thx therefore shes gonna be combination of comics mystique and a bunch of my own headcanons — soooo

LEVEL 2: SURFACE LEVEL MYSTIQUE — THE GOOD, THE BAD, THE UGLY // 

( skip this part if youre familiar with the mcu its basically a shortened version of her bio )

the binch is oLD ok??/ old af. probably several centuries old. i’d say 200 years old at minimum but its never really been disclosed

don’t even get me started on wtf i think happened to her to fight just to survive at age 12 when her mutation kicked in bcus,,, yike

her entire life has been characterized by betrayals. whether it be mystique betraying someone else (most likely) or her being betrayed by someone else (in the case of destiny)

her n destiny met in the early 20th century. destiny asked her to help decode her prophecies and to stop the terrifying ones from being fulfilled. they fell in Luv. they are partners. gay ass partners. (the original idea for mystique n destiny was for nightcrawler to be their canon kid. via mystique in a males body. but this was retconned bcus of homophobia thx but i’d personally love this hc if we get a kurt & it’s ok w/ them anyway )

anyway after ww2 she met sabertooth n had her first (canonically recorded) kid, graydon. who. lo n behold, she abandoned.

that’ll be a trend, fyi, better watch out for that

but graydon turned out to be a mutant hating human so thats fun

then mystique from our time went back in time in attempt to assassinate graydon (which doesnt, in the end, work),,,, also fun

then she gets married to a wealthy german count,,, uses her power to start seducing other people, when she meets azael who  manipulates and seduces her. has nightcrawler via azael ,, its cool

raven murdered her husband and was then regarded by her townsfolk n as a demon. she escaped but abandoned kurt,,, also cool

she adopts raven then. and actually genuinely loves her. (more on this in the next section)

she founds the 3rd version of the brotherhood n they do more terrorist shit good job mystique #magnetowasright

sike mystique betrayed  magneto and turned him into the government, turned the brotherhood into the freedom force, n started working for the gov. working for freedom force is when destiny died and that triggered one of mystiques many breakdowns (also more on this below)

she was v depressed at this time and taken advantage of by the shadow king. raven let herself be brainwashed by the government into thinking she was her own government handler to take down the shadow king. didnt work. he torments her the rest of her life. yike.  

she had nanotech put into her head so the government could force her to work for x-factor, while with them she finds out destiny during their partnership had other partners and kids she didnt know about and one was a mutant

graydon has this mutant savagely beaten. before mystique can kill graydon for this, hs followers kill him n turn him into a martyr. super fun. cue operation zero tolerance.

mystique went undercover as the senators wife for a while n used her connections to the fbi to do shadier shit

she then ran away and took some random chicks form and became a model and made a ton of cash — u go girl

except this kinda sucked for her because she moved into a penthouse suite which in the neighbouring building had skulls plotting to take down mankind. they framed her for a murder, her powers stopped working, n she was arrested

the government eased all her alternate identities and froze all her assets and access to the money she and destiny saved up for decades. cue another mental breakdown

then she finds out destiny was responsible for founding the anti-mutant conspiracy mystique spent her whole life trying to stop, and that destiny also didnt give medical attention to mutant kids who were deformed from their mutations

long story short she has an even worse breakdown n goes completely nihilistic, realizing she cant change the world for the better, she remakes the brotherhood and impersonates moira mctaggert to get her research on the legacy virus  

a bunch more shit happens with raven ending up in the care of homeland security. xavier makes a deal with her and breaks her out. everyont thought she tried to kill xavier,,, when she didnt actually,,, because xaviers a shady fuck,,, but oh well. rogue disowns her for it. leads to another mental breakdown.

because of this she decides fuq u xavier and creates a mutant kid identity for herself known as foxx and joins the xmen to stop rogue and remy’s relationship

she helped the x-men during this time n also helped save rogue’s life via the messiah baby. but once again her intentions are misconstrued

she snaps again and impersonates bobby drake’s girlfriend & gets the poor boy hospitalized

norman osborn then recruited her to the dark x-men, injected her with nanites, then helped logans soul to hell, but then changed her mind and helped get him back. when he got back tho he uh. well. killed her. her and sabretooth were both resurrected by the hand (more on this later)

mystique then rejoined the brotherhood, impersonated alison, and took her place as mutant liaison for shield, harvesting her DNA to make MGH (mutant growth hormone)

LEVEL 2.5: MYSTIQUE’S PLACE IN THIS VERSE

i imagine she went back in time to 1973 under the guise of helping people & being “reformed” but in reality she was also doing shady mystique shit on the side and probably trying to tie up some loose ends, whether it be with graydon, the shadow king, destiny, or someone else. or probably a combination

anyways now shes staying w/ the x-men part time and playing Good Girl for now. she wants to show everyone that shes reformed n better n just wants to do things for the betterment of mutant kind. wants 2 get their trust too

shes pretty. level headed right now i’d say. betsy braddock helped her during one of her mental breakdowns by telepathically realigning her fragmented psyche — she’s still mystique n still awful but not as chaotic anymore. and less prone to attack rogue or other people aimlessly. it’s much more goal oriented now.

LEVEL 3: MYSTIQUES PSYCHE //

ok so she identifies as gender fluid bcus she shape shifts forms but also because i imagine shes so sick of having sexualized herself all these decades to get what she wants that shes just fed up with gender norms and thinks theyre bullshit. she’s fine to go by she/her pronouns but she doesnt really identify as a specific gender in my head

she drinks but mostly absinthe and only w/ people she trusts. along those lines it’s similar for drugs but she loves a good high and a good hallucination

she has bouts of psychosis that her wiki defines as schizophrenia. it manifests in much more anger and aggression. hallucinations. delusions — especially presecutory and grandiose delusions — lack of pleasure (hence the nihilism), social withdrawal, and poverty of speech. her sense of identity becomes so fractured that she cant keep herself consistently in one body without it taking all of her concentration — and sometimes that isn’t even enough. she gets lots of mood and cognitive changes during these episodes — and completely loses her sense of self

despite her grandiose ego she’s actually very self conscious and refuses to look in a mirror. actually she’s scared of her appearance. she cant look at herself normally in fear of seeing a monster look back

this is also the reason she was so easily deceived by azael. he looked like a monster, too, and embraced her for how she is. he didnt make her change to fit another appearance that couldve been “more beautiful”

lastly, her motives for doing things??? are always for the betterment of mutantkind. over time this got very skewed and her belief became that the only way for mutants to actually live is for all humans to die. shes a terrorist through and through, but she loves mutants. she just has a personal vendetta against the x-men that’s grown over the years — her constantly being betrayed by people during her episodes of psychosis and the x-men never actually believing the real story (but also like. why would they??? shes often so awful too)

shes attempted suicide canonically in the past. she loses control of herself. it’s also heavily implied she’s been assaulted in the past. anyways shes a sad baby too

— so thats about it for my murder baby! yike this got a lot longer than i expected it to but anyways i cant wait to write her with all of you!! <3

[teddywancurlobi]

pretty little liars [01.16]

previously on pretty little liars:

aroo: i think that bad feeling is called jealousy.

me:

he’s getting it in with a snacc

she needed to borrow hitch a ride with on you. curious.... curious.

chemistry? was that supposed to be foreshadowing? or was it just fucking ironic?

spemily... still leagues better than ezoria and ezero himself.

how the hell did emily miss that big ass book sticking out? maybe she should have tripped on it.

spencer: i owe you an apology.

me:

emily: you should apologize to him, not me.

YAAAAAAS.

he was twitching because he was hiding the fact that he was deep sea diving in ella's depths.

NO ONE CARES ABOUT EZERO OR EZORIA. DAAAAAAMN IT.

i think i just heard a dam break. hanna, was that you?

but it's really annoying.

hanna's quips are really me.

a: caleb's quiet, but how r u gonna shut ME up?

i'm pretty sure A is me. A coming out with this savage lite. honestly, i would not even toy with her since i would tell aroo right after sending hanna that text.

pll theme plays

SHUT UP, PARGE. this is why no one likes your ass.

ella, i wanna walk with you, hold your hand.... i’ll stop there. (see tags for more information)

pre time jump hanna is definitely me.

i don’t trust anyone either. toby’s got the right idea

i wouldn’t come in.

i can certainly try staying away from you.

who would want to be alone with ian?

i may not be toby’s biggest fan, but his is better than ian.

more conclusion, but this time by the adults.

rosewood: where stupid is contagious.

it’s better to have a well managed schedule and my dear spencer knows how to do that very well. hell, i would even let her tutor me.

byron.... gross.

aroo: was that..... mom?

yes.

mood: toby calling spencer out.

spencer is auto piloting through emily’s homework

you learn nothing doing that.

what are they doing? the are doing the nasty in the stacks. please don’t finish in that book.

aroo is surprised? why?

they are cheating on each other with each other. that’s a real affair there.

you are not that slick, hanna

parge should’ve wrecked more than her bike.

i do hate you, parge. thanks for reminding me.

spencer looks so adorabale. that navy blue looks so good.

he stiffened up so fast... in more ways than one.

do all of the liars get moist this fast? romancing too damn quick. i get they are playing teenagers, but get fucking real.

guess emily didn’t have standards.

so maya is the furthest though from her mind.... parge ain’t the special, bitch.

A: almost got you busted. wanna know how? ask hanna.

A, i would have told aroo right away and then told aroo’s parents with proof of the illegal relationship. EZERO FOR PRISON.

aroo: but there is nothing A would threaten me with that would make me do that to you.

season seven aroo: bitch, hold my black hoodie.

if parge wasn’t so overly aggressive and obsessed with emily, i think i would be fine with her; like bitchy alison and emison, but looking back at it ali was too damn rough for comfort when it came to emily.

awww. poor, poor aroo. she mad. idc.

cleb is still annoying as fuck, but he wins points for staying with hanna.

no one wants ian so....

demon spawn.

we’re pregnant? is ian knocked up too?

[danger-archive]

YOUR FAV IS PROBLEMATIC: @battleincarnate aka Maddie. 

so. fucking. savage. 

a true homie that will never let you down and will always be indignant on your behalf. aka the best person to be pissed off with. 

she seems tough but shes actually such a history nerd lmao what a DORK

sometimes says australian slang and has me going ??? wtf does that even mean m8 

will butcher you with feels even though she claims not to be a romantic ??? #Fake

gets drunk and cries about alison dilaurentis ( but honestly? who doesn’t ) 

ok 2 be frank with u i love her and am so lucky to have her as a friend

the holly varjak to my vivian darkbloom

lmao?

lmao. 

[louisferrignojr]

someone explain "maybe you're not an abuser but you have definitely been abusive towards me" i think maybe that'll clear things up. you know the statistics for women who try to leave their abusive husbands and are murdered for it? that's pretty much how i think about it idc about your intentions idc about your issues our friendship had ended and you chose to stab me and leave me for dead idk how do you go on living knowing you're the abuser in someone's life? you're gonna carry that guilt to your grave? i hope so, can't wait lmao

[louisferrignojr]

i am so tired of thinking over everything and all this hate and anger and hurt in my heart it's like poison. she ruined me. she broke me. and im still trying to recover im trying to connect with people who i really like and i am scared. i don't want to go through that and i don't think anyone can understand it was fucking traumatising. i forgave and forgave again and again and finally when i had enough instead of letting me go in peace she did what she knew would hurt me more than anything. ive been through a lot of shit in the last year but nothing broke me as bad as my most trusted friend. twice.

[louisferrignojr]

am just gonna start collecting bits that describe the reality of the hell my so called bestie put me through bc i have had it

i think the next time i find out someone's followed me on social media on and off for 5 fucking years and then befriended me im gonna block & go. in retrospect massive red flag!!!!!!

[louisferrignojr]

i still wonder how do people so easily cut someone out of their lives really. like ur dead to them. imagine following someone on and off for 8 years and being mutuals/friends with them for 3 of those and then you tell them "i don't feel comfortable meeting you for the first time in my town, we should meet in the neutral city where i meet my internet friends"

and then im wrong for feeling hurt huh. like i said it very fucking plainly. you gotta do what you're comfortable with. but im not gonna pretend im fine. no im upset. im sad. im not sure how to not take it personally. IT KIND OF FEELS PERSONAL. like you want me to respect your boundaries sure.

but consider the fact that i told her repeatedly what my one (1) hard boundary was (and REALLY it only existed bc of the shit she pulled all the time) and she turns around and says that my Boundary was "be honest with me" like excuse me. i thought that was a given in a close relationship. that's not something I'd have to specify. fucking ridiculous.

i gave her way too many chances and she broke my trust so deeply that im constantly thinking who's the next person who's gonna insert herself into my life so thoroughly and then cut me off in the span of half an hour when i finally stand up for myself and say enough im done being treated like a doormat. story of my fucking life.

[louisferrignojr]

i haven't felt Scared since we last spoke not like i used to all summer - because.. aftershocks? probably? i couldn't figure out the reason.

fuck she messed me up. i don't know what it cost me to have someone i trusted so completely push me to the point of a goddamn fucking flashback episode.

i don't know with this one. i hope she feels guilty about it, i hope it eats her up, i have no kindness left in me. not for her. cruellest thing anyone ever did to me from who i thought was the kindest person.

[louisferrignojr]

my heart hurts and i hate her so much. i don't want to carry all this pain and hatred but how do i get over this level of betrayal. if i say i was going to go i had enough of the way she stressed me out and made me feel so fucking sad. just withholding withholding withholding. it sounds very melodramatic but imagine you're walking out with apologies and promises and for once not letting myself be such a fucking doormat but like. the way she reacted? i say it's like stabbing me in the heart through my back. is that dramatic or is it a metaphor. i said i couldn't trust her anymore because she crossed my one hard boundary so many times and she didn't even know what it was she was apologising for. pointless cheap apologies anyway back to the same shit a week later. i literally let myself be vulnerable even as i said i'll leave her alone (since she had already decided we should “call it�� like that's not a heartless way of ending a significant friendship? if she ever meant a word she said.) but im not gonna abandon her and there it is. proof i was never anyone important. easily blockable. not even spare me a half assed excuse or explanation. that's why it feels like a betrayal. dot over the i my ass. she acts exactly like the girl she was cussing out not that long ago. hypocrite. i want nothing more than to get over it and live in peace but i don't know how. it feels like i've been lulled into a false sense of safety, i gave and i gave all of my heart for three fucking years and i never expected to be friends forever but it's not too much to ask to not completely annihilate my heart and my trust when you've already broken both so many times. i think that's a fair request. i don't know why i never saw her for the self obsessed coward that she turned out to be. i genuinely believed she was a good person but there's no way to stay good when you act like this. you're nothing more than a coward and a traitor. i wish your guilt eats you alive. i wish my hatred infects you just like your cruelty infected me.