#fuck i forgot to post it here almost a year ago 💀

[saturnnpie]

tenderness

[joelsdagger]

@swiftiscruff friendship exchange 🌙

this is just a general appreciation post for all of you that i’ve crossed paths with in the last few months on here. i’m new to actively posting & writing on tumblr, (literally like fresh out the womb, i just started learning the ropes about 5-6 months ago after dipping at around 16, tho i’ve lurked on and off over the last two years lmao) but i’ve been in the pedro fandom for almost three years now and the tlou fandom on and off for a bit longer. some of you i met over on twitter and then we kinda bumped into one another over here and some of you i’ve only just met on this app but the amount of time doesn’t really matter to me. you’ve all been so lovely, warm, kind and supportive and i’m forever grateful for that.

i’m not good at reaching out or being the first one to dm, usually i just mind my business, (but a good friend of mine once described me as “always thinking about her mutuals but never reaches out” 😭) tbh i get really anxious and i overthink a lot and i won’t lie sometimes even just commenting on a post gives me bad anxiety 💀 so this is me just saying hi and telling y’all how much i appreciate you since this feels like the perfect opportunity 🫶🏻

thanks for reading this far if you did, and letting me be soft on main (it doesn’t happen often cuz i give myself the ick) and to those of you who share your work on here; thanks for sharing your masterpieces with us, you put out your work FOR FREE for us to read, enjoy, escape and live in these little worlds that y’all create and it’s damn good. thanks for being so fucking cool & inspiring.

i’m glad these two old hot guys brought us all together (and here’s to hoping i stick around) 🫶🏻

@papurgaatika @sunspearesque @mrsmando @skrunkly-scrimblo @honeyedmiller @joeloverture @joelsgreys @5oh5 @mermaidgirl30 @morning-star-joy @pedgito @mountain-maiden @janaispunk @joelsgreenflannel @penvisions @its-dee-lovely @sugarcoated-lame @polaroidpascal @cavillscurls @justagalwhowrites @joelscruff @swiftispunk @covetyou @loliwrites @merci-killing @morgaussy @bardroyisms @beefrobeefcal @beardedjoel (and anyone else I’ve interacted with/read your work. my dory brain is working overtime at 7am i’m so sorry if i forgot you)

[fuchsea]

A story for you as you’re bored - my boyfriend is fully aware of my 1D passion (I subject him to their music a bit too often) and how I read fanfic etc but he never actively *engaged* with the topic apart from the occasional chat, he doesn’t really know anything about them and even if I rant about Louis or Harry he never actually asks. Well, today somehow he ended up asking me “but so 1D broke up cause they had a fight or why?” ….and I was like…man….where do I even start hahah. I looked at him and said “you sure you want to know?” and I thought about that tumblr post “for your own sake, don’t ask me about one direction” and damn, so true. I spoke passionately for the following 20 minutes and I even made an effort to spare him all the details I could have gone into… fun part is that the poor thing actually listened. Guess it’s only fair after all the things I had to learn about football in the past years to keep up with him. Anyways, being in this fandom sometimes suck but taking the trip down the 2014/2015/2016 memory lane made me nostalgic and very fucking aware of how I would willingly give up on way too much (like my dignity? A kidney? My savings? All of the above?) just to see them together again. I know it would never be the same but damn, I’m almost 30 and still here, a hostage of this fucking band. Stockholm Syndrome my ass.

oh my god!!! literally a few days ago i was having a bad day and so my friends and i ended up watching old 1d videos, like i'm talking about xfactor auditions and i just. the baby who sang "isn't she lovely" is topping charts now??? and also, baby larry were something else like you could see they were sooooo in love!!! i feel like you can not explain the 1d fandom experience to anyone without looking like a crazed person because there's so much to unpack hgaayakfahk also in your list of given up things, you forgot sanity because that's also gone 💀💀💀