#fuck dis shit i'm out
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okay but like space jesus baby anakin declaring 'you can't kill a jedi' and the force is like 'oh shit fr? guess that's how it is now'
so jedi just. stop dying. they're confused but maybe okay with it? like some of the older ones still die of old age but when they're out fighting somehow they always make it through
palpatine is furious. he knows what's going on and tries to convince anakin that jedi CAN die, look at all these past instances, but anakin just looks at him like he's crazy 'okay but none of the jedi I'VE met ever die'
and palps is desperately trying to prove that jedi can die by actually killing jedi but like. no. they can't die. all his attempts to kill them fail.
and anakin is a nine year old child going 'well if i've never seen it happen then obviously it's not true'
10-year plan to wipe out the jedi foiled by one (1) overpowered boy confidently deciding that jedi can't die, seeing that jedi never die growing up, and thus continuing to believe that jedi cannot die even when there's a war on and jedi should DEFINITELY be dying
palpatine has time scheduled every night just so he can scream into the void in frustration
#star wars#star wars meta#anakin skywalker#fic ideas#someone else should write that#and he probably doesn't even have dooku#(i know the timing doesn't work but i always liked the idea that he left the order after Qui-Gon died)#PLUS dooku sees what's happening and is like 'oh shit so if I'M a jedi that means I can't die either'#'fuck this sith i'm out'
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hot garbage 👇
#making Lori the main character was a mistake there are 0 fun clips of her. she just vanishes after the intro don't worry about it#''journey doesn't quite go as planned'' yeah ya girl fucking died lmao#the context for where the hell all these other people came from is nonexistent#but there's 11 seasons of this shit and I can't find the clips I'm thinking of so#fuck it#I have more important deadlines rn lmao#there's a few clips I had that I'm sad about leaving out but this shit is already too long#I rly wanted the one of Rick putting in that CD and Daryl being like ''please don't-''#also Daryl being horrendous at driving stick with Rosita and Denise#wanted to have everybody bopping to that song drawing the walkers away from the movie theatre...#Carl crashing the car in front of Enid...#the rollerskates...#but alas#twd
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Y'know I kind of feel like when Megatron killed Tarn and said 'I want you to spend your final moments thinking of this: that everything you've done has been for nothing' he was kind of self-projecting onto Tarn? Mainly because at Megatron's statue, M and T had a conversation where Tarn explicitly asked if all the Decepticons in service to Megatron died for nothing, if HE did everything he did for nothing. (And I think M even gave an answer along the lines of 'idk I think we basically did'). And then after Megatron killed the DJD and Rodimus teleported in to rescue him, there was that silent moment where Megatron just stared at Rodimus not moving at all before he finally took his hand at the last moment.
It honestly feels to me like for a while, Megatron fully intended to murder-suicide himself. Murder the DJD, his monsters and his creation, and then take himself out alongside them, because he is also a monster. Because he also feels that everything he's ever done has been for nothing.
Goddamn it's no wonder I liked that scene so much LMAO, as someone who thinks villain Megatron > Autobot Megatron, literally one of his key traits is that Megatron basically took his pain/trauma/worldview and used it to lash out at the universe and try to subjugate it to his vision. So the fact that he took his own pain and brutally murdered the DJD while telling them the very same thing that puts him through so much agony is so very deliciously ironic. And a return, however brief, to the Megatron characterization that I know and love.
#squiggposting#i also feel like it turns his asshole behavior towards tarn into something more understandable#like... he is not just condemning tarn and co for being evil useless bastards#as if he has the moral high ground. no. megatron also thinks his whole life was wasted#for a moment he fully intended to kill all of the DJD and then himself. a circle of monsters#who all exist for no good reason and did horrible things for no good reason#only rodimus coming in is what saved megatron both literally and in a spiritual sense#from believing he deserved to just die in the same hellish pit he killed his creations in#THIS IS LIKE SOME FUCKING METAL ASS BIBLICAL SHIT I'M TELLING YOU#tbh if megatron had actually died in there with tarn and the djd i wouldve considered that#a more satisfying end to his story than what we got#particularly bc i think the functionist universe is stupid and LL 25 felt like. contrived#in how it dealt with Megatron's fate#anyways the TLDR is that megatron was an asshole to tarn as if he didnt make him how he was#but like during that one moment i think he was in a pit of self loathing#and he wanted to drag the djd. tarn in particular. along with him for ruining his happiness#i'm sorry but that's who megatron is#if your megatron isn't an intensely angry/damaged person who drags ppl down with him#bc of his own projection and self loathing then like. who is he#enough soft grandpa mtmte megatron i love violent unresolvable self hatred and lashing out megs
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Asagiri and Harukawa could not have delivered a scarier Halloween chapter if they tried because what the fuck was this—
#bungou stray dogs#bsd 120#bsd spoilers#bro i was already chuckling nervously with Fyodor so casually breaking the fourth wall and HOLDING THE PANEL IN HIS HAND#while essentially referencing BOOK CHARACTERS AND THE READERS (LOOKING RIGHT AT US!!!!!)#AND THEN SEEING THE TITLE OF THE CHAPTER BE /AN ACTUAL PANEL/ AND THE LAST PANEL NO LESS#MAKING ME FUCKING SCROLL BACK TO THE START ONLY TO REALIZE THE TITLE NEVER ACTUALLY SHOWED UP AT THE START LIKE NORMAL#when i tell you that put the fear of god in me. oh my god. ohm y god-#legit shivers down my spine. looking out my window...... fyodor if you're there..........#thanks asagiri i didn't need an existential crisis tonight it's fine!!! hahaha i'm good!!!! *SCREAMS*#bros we are literally on the cusp of this shit going full bore meta i'm not even joking anymore. asagiri is COOKING and i am SCARED!!!!!!#in a good way but still!!!!! aaaaAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH#what else. oh yeah akutagawa died again ig lol that happened.
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it is so extremely underutilized that Nico is heavily implied to have powers of just. anything ghosts are reportedly able to do.
we know canonically that he can drop temperatures to freezing/to the point where it creates frost, and does so involuntarily or unknowingly at times. We know he can project emotions and memories out onto others, just in general and with physical force - both his own memories/emotions and general emotions as well, such as radiating an aura onto his enemies so that they would fear him more. We know it's heavily implied he can straight up create illusions and inflict madness upon others. We know he's eerily silent when he moves and seems to just appear in places. We know he can control/walk through/mess with dreams. We know he can become intangible and pass through solid objects and terrain without even realizing it.
like, that alone is so much! but the fact that it's implied that's not it? there's MORE?
Where's Nico fucking with EVPs and speaking through radios or static or TV. Throwing his voice. Nico remotely setting things on and off, or draining batteries, or making cell service fuzz out. Nico totally turning invisible (also a Hades' Helm of Darkness thing, so double reason for Nico to be able to do that). Where's Nico inflicting sleep paralysis. Where's Nico straight up making the walls bleed. Let him do more ghost stuff!
#pjo#riordanverse#nico di angelo#headcanon#headcanons#he's a dramatic lil shit and you know he loves fucking with people#i demand more content of Nico doing movie-level haunting/demon-possession stuff Just Because He Can#just him going ''oh haha yeah i can float ominously but like. only stationary and in whatever would scare/frighten you the most''#''not very practical but hilarious when you wake up at 3am and i'm on your ceiling''#nico scratching his friends from an entirely different room but like. the way cats do when they want attention#the argo II crew looking like they live in a horror movie because Nico got lonely#the gang walks into the common room of the Argo II to find the blood scrawled on the walls#but it just says ''WE'RE OUT OF PAPER TOWELS''#they ask what he wants for dinner and turn on the TV between channels and he just tells them his fast food order through the static#nico knocking cups off of counters just to fuck with people#nico remotely controlling a ouijia board but he's just spelling out swears
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It's no wonder he killed himself after that.
#the darkling#rule of wolves#LMAO#i would too#the Darkling: “Fuck this shit I'm out🎶”#he literally left them for five minutes alone and everything went to Hell#antis: “THANK GOD THE DARKLING'S DEAD”#the world after the Darkling died:#grishaverse#shadow and bone#king of scars#nikolai duology#pro darkling#aleksander morozova#pro aleksander morozova#meme#grishaverse meme#shadow and bone meme#rule of wolves meme
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As many "toxic yaoi Jimmy x Curly" jokes I've made I could write a whole ass essay about their relationship and their codependency. They have such a shifting power dynamic throughout the entire game and none of it is romantic and I'm not entirely sure if any of it could be counted as love at all. It's more primal. It's obsessive. It's a failing survival instinct neither realized they had until it was too late and everyone else had to suffer the consequences
I just can't describe it without going into a full essay cause they both have this obsessive need to fix everything in their lives by fixing others and making things worse. They both want control so bad they're willing to steal it from everyone else in different ways. Curly is complicit in Jimmy's actions but he is not at the same level of maliciousness that Jimmy is
You can tell how desperately Curly had to cling onto the idea that Jimmy is a good guy. He could just talk to him and fix him and Anya would be okay again. He could fix this cause he knows Jimmy is good. Curly needs things to be okay or else he failed his one job of making sure everything is okay and having a terrible copilot is not okay so that means he needs his copilot to just not be terrible problem solved!
And the entire game is watching Jimmy fall apart as he realizes he can't just fix the fucked up shit he did. Curly announced the message and Jimmy suddenly decided he can't survive anymore and crashed the ship. He can't untraumatize Anya and now he can't uncrash the ship and Curly laying on his medical cot is a constant reminder of that. If he can just save Curly then he's okay he's fine again. He's undone his harm
They hate each other so much to the point where they need the other to give them purpose. I don't know if they're necessarily good friends, but we know they had a long relationship before the game's time and the announcement set Jimmy off since he felt like Curly was leaving them. Leaving him. Jimmy needed Curly to help give him a purpose and Curly needed Jimmy to give him a purpose and this one message fucked that up and they both got swept up in this codependent fight for survival. That one announcement triggered Jimmy's fear that Curly had been enabling and encouraging and now Curly's stuck in a cryopod listening to his "friend" tell him how much of a hero they both are. They did it! They fixed everything! They fixed each other!
#I said it before and I'll say it again#Curly hopes Jimmy dies#Jimmy hopes they both die#hand in unlovable hand#I'm using the actual therapy definition of codependent where Curly is enabling Jimmy's abusive behaviors#against both himself and others under his power#It's not Curly's fault Jimmy did all that shit but he sure as hell didn't tell him off for any of it#and I mean BEFORE the crash#after the crash Curly couldn't stop the monster he let grow for so long#I need other friends to get into mouthwashing I have to talk about Jimmy and Curly mouthwashing more#cause holy shit their dynamic is just so fucked up and awful#two people stuck in a relationship they both want out of but can't live without#I think about Curly the same way I think about the narrator in Front Street by Will Wood#it's such a tragedy and I love talking about fictional tragedies#I love picking apart what went wrong and why#I also could go on and on about how I feel about Anya but that would be an Intense and Personal post#sorry to my friends who have to read all of my mouthwashing posts on main I'm just insane rn#mouthwashing
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FUCK IT WE BALL
#FUCK DOOMERISM WE BALL#I'm aware that the collective we did not survive trump#people died en masse from covid and lowered regulations#Live in spite for those people#cause problems on purpose#I'm not gonna quote the firebombing a walmart quote cause I live in FL#I'm already on the ground doing shit and have been for a while#this is making things worse but I'm already warmed up at least#also#found out my aunt that's literally older than the voting rights act voted for trump because Religion™️#this black woman literally remembers MLKjr getting assassinated and said yea Trump is a good choice cause he's christian-focused#Like she was a teenager she was Alive and Aware#But just you wait I will not be letting another fundie christian mfer rule my life again#I'm making it thru this election if it fucking kills me#I will outlive this 'president' and piss on his fuckin grave#Fuck it we ball chat. Fuck it we ball#ex christian#religious trauma
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*tw* mentions of sa throughout the btvs series:
Expanding on the thoughts in this post about fandom culture and etiquette for how to make this a safer and more enjoyable space for everyone no matter who you ship
If you are a fan of btvs or ats no matter who your favorite characters are or who you ship - you have suffered at the hands of joss whedon's narcissistic personality and the subsequent emotional abuse he not only put the actors and his characters through but the audience as well
He gave us characters and relationships we fell in love with and then always, without fail, something horrible happens to one of them or they do something horrific and we're forced to cope with the emotional whiplash that happens every time he does it and decide if we love the character or relationship enough to cope with what joss did to them or if that's it for us enjoying that character or relationship
Like Bangel? Surprise! He's gonna lose his soul and completely psychologically destroy Buffy! AND THEN he's gonna come back and turns out he's been lying to this whole time to Buffy and he actually loved Darla so much he tried to be evil even with the soul first and actually stalked Buffy for a year before he introduced himself and fell in love with the sight of her crying at 15 and we made her look SUPER childlike and innocent to really up the ick factor!
Like Spuffy? Here take the most traumatic depiction of attempted sexual assault we've ever seen in the series that comes out of absolutely nowhere and is specifically designed to punish women after Spike was the only person who could be there for Buffy besides Tara as she battles her severe depression!
Like Tillow? Well Willow goes from empowering Tara and standing up for her to yelling at her to shut the hell up and then magically drugging and sexually assaulting her! and then when Tara calls her out on in she uses the "I didn't mean to" line and then is gonna use magic on her in the exact same way! and then we're gonna rush tara forgiving her just to kill her off!
Like Fuffy? Well Faith is gonna steal Buffy's body and then sexually assault both buffy and riley simultaneously while trying to goad riley into violating buffy's body as much as possible!
The list is truly ENDLESS you either survive on btvs long enough to do something horrific or you're killed off in a brutal, shocking and senseless way (I'm not going to list every single relationship and horrific event as it seems unnecessary and I know I can expand on the above example even further but again it feels unnecessary so please don't freak out if you feel I missed something this is by no means an exhaustive list)
Joss hates people, he hates women, he hates people of color, he hates his audience. Doing horrible things to people you claim to love is incredibly normal for him and any abusive narcissist because they don't love people or even see them as fellow humans - they're just things they play with for entertainment or to make them feel good about themselves which is why this is so prevalent in the buffyverse in the first place
Liking a ship where something horrible happens, you're not condoning it - it happened TO YOU. You were going along loving a character or relationship and then the creator got bored or angry and decides to throw a narrative punch just because he can and he likes the control it gives him to make a bunch of people react in certain ways emotionally and he loves to ruin things people love that's a huge thing for narcissists - if they see someone else feeling good about themselves or experience joy they want it destroyed
We have all suffered at the hands of this man, everyone has their favorite characters for very specific and deeply personal reasons. Just because you can't move past or accept certain behaviors from a character doesn't mean you get to dictate that for everyone else. Truly loving or connecting to a character means you have more capacity for forgiveness than someone who just liked them - and loving a character also usually comes with a deeper understanding of that character in the first place that can give you perspective and understanding that helps you contextualize the bad things.
Loving even the worst fictional characters literally harms no one, but attacking, shaming, judging, feeling superior to real people for their fictional tastes does so don't come on here and "well actually" me with "well MY fav didn't do [x]" or "MY fav never did anything.." because that's not the point. The whole point of this post is other btvs or ats fans who like different characters or ship difference ships are not you enemy - JOSS WHEDON is the only enemy here - be mad at him and only him, hate on other characters all you want but being cruel to other fans who don't agree with you is exactly what joss wants and we all hate that fucker so stop playing his game and don't be a dick.
#btvs#btvs meta#fuck joss whedon#meta#don't be a dick#fandom etiquette#buffy the vampire slayer#narcissistic abuse#everything xander does feels less like whiplash and more like OF COURSE of course he did that and riley wasn't shocking for me either but#I'm sure it was for some#jenny was lying to everyone the whole time and then dies#giles abandons buffy when she needs him the most as well as the cruciatum#the cursed cordy conner storyline#oz cheating willow cheating dawn joining in kicking buffy out anya calling buffy lucky#and don't even get me STARTED on joyce ugh absolute shit mother#narcissists genuinely don't let people have nice things ever so you take what you can from buffy and leave what you can't
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im out here doing ap level analysis on this series of events trying to figure out how and why a thing happened in a decade old minecraft series
#apollo's tag#hi everyone i'm watching tucker's pov of the day dianite joined#and trying to figure out exactly why he got so mad at tom that he was willing to make a deal with god to get revenge against him#and i'm pretty sure i can pinpoint the exact moment that he just went 'ok thats it fuck this shit' and went all in#you see tom moved his whole house like fifty blocks off of the mountain he lived on so that it was suspended in midair#and because of that the cactus pit tucker had built under it was exposed#and his horse (who he had just spent like twenty minutes getting out of a ravine) wandered into it and died#and he thought that tom led it in on purpose when he /hadnt/#the prank was actually genuinely completely harmless and they get that figured out later but by that point tucker had already made a deal#with mianite to get a sword to get his revenge against tom with and the payment was that he'd be in his service#and dianite ended up giving tom a sword as well so that he would be even#and made his payment being that he had to be in his service as well#so thats how all of this started.#because of a horse. and a misunderstanding. and two gods with a longstanding feud who eventually used these two to further their agendas#down on the mortal plane.#/Man./
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#star wars#the bad batch spoilers#the bad batch#he's alive he's out there I know he is#I am 100% they were going to reveal cx-2 is tech but chickened out. because nowadays it's bad if you pay attention and predict the twists#why spend so much time on a random antagonist? the shoot out? showing him survive? the scene with phee? I know what you are.#crosshair's like “clone force 99 died with tech” and he's immediately proven wrong! unfuckwithable evidence. to me.#in this house tech is alive#don't get me started on omega sneaking out without saying farewell to wrecker and crosshair. she would not fucking do that#it's unforgivable that I was robbed of old man crosshair btw. bet he was standing next to tech and that's why the scene got removed.#anyway. could have been better but good shit overall. echo was 10/10 and as a fives enjoyer I'm glad nala se exploded
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sorry chat, was suffering from an eating disorder👎
#simon.talks#eating disorder? nah I'm eating dis order#anyways#yeah maybe in August not confirmed#idk#depending on how my life goes and you guys know how much that shit just fucks around w me#also I began seeing and hearing shit so idek#good fucking night bro#tired this is the longest I've stayed up since June and I'm bout to pass out LMAOOOO
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Odypen definitely and equivalently adore each other BUT I weirdly can't see them as the type to actually say "I Love you".
They still definitely vocalize their love for each other but it's more so in "My Joy", and "Extraordinary Woman", "Strange Woman/Man", etc. And very cheesy lines (both say some cheesy shit in the Odyssey, and he definitely does in the Iliad as well. "Joy like a drowning sailor seeing land" bit???)
I could see "I adore you" but even then, that's probably during very specific moments but the actual "I love you"??? I just typed it just now for fic shit and... It weirdly just didn't feel right and I don't know why. 😅
Idk maybe it's kind of because I see them as over the top in ways, they love wordplay and riddles and I think they'd almost think "...That's not good enough >:( " about it??? I don't know???😂
#I wrote this last night. I'll do the asks I got later. don't worry! :D#I am the cheese god remember?😅#I think these two would try to “out-cheese” each other and whoever is left speechless first loses#“I would forget my own name before I would ever forget you” bullshit. CHEESY#And yes. “I sleep in our nest with you or outside on the dirt” stupidity >:D#I plan for Odysseus as a beggar to ask why she waits so long. As he's been gone a longer amount of time than the time they had together#(Simply asking as reassurance. He knows his answer. Calypso asked him. but what about Penelope?) but she gets mad at the#“Beggar” and pities him as he must be telling the truth about having a miserable life if he never got the chance to know such devotion#How what they have could never be sullied by#something as trivial as distance and years. How the years with him were the best in her life. Only made better by their son.#'My dear Joy made songs and poems about love a reality as that was simply the life we shared. Even separated our 'song' will always echo#no matter how long it's been. I'LL make sure it always does. And I know he's doing the same... That strange man used to say that#even if he died his corpse would drag itself back to us before he'd ever give up.'#...I'm not one for 'odyssey zombie au' but when I first heard it yeah. :'D Came up with this back then#“His eyes as hard as flint or horn-” Bullshit! The sad lil fuck is hiding sobs with coughs and telling her to keep away for fear of her#catching whatever “illness” he has. The nice thing about being disguised as old means sickly old man works.#...#I'm noticing that Odysseus has a lot of silly oneliners while I write Penelope with a shit ton of set up :'D#They are so silly and I love them so much#...I wrote a lot :'D#Mad rambles#shot by odysseus#my headcanons#odypen#yahoo!!!#sometimes I wonder if I should tag this with more things but I don't want to taint the regular tags with my bullshit :'D I KNOW I'm insane
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No, actually, I’ll not just be generally vaguely upset about the framework that pisses me off, I will also be specifically pissed off about the way he’s trying to pat himself on the back and rewrite history.
So having a gay character be brave by coming out and that bravery be an inspiration to other queer characters so they can be brave and come out too is something that comes off poor on its own already - because of the shallow framework that our existence alone is already oh-so brave of us and that others wouldn’t have dared come out if not for Major Queer Character who did it first.
But there is something particularly twisted and nasty about Riordan using this for Nico di Angelo, actually.
Because Nico di Angelo didn’t come out.
Nico di Angelo didn’t get to be brave or inspirational.
Nico di Angelo was forced out of the closet.
Nico di Angelo was outed against his will, in front of others.
Eros forced Nico to come out in front of Jason.
And, quite frankly, the way it was handled further was just as poor. To make this repressed teen from the 1930s, who up until mere days ago was dealing with severe internalized homophobia and couldn’t even admit his own feelings to himself, confess his crush in public, in the middle of camp...
Both of these events really just showed that Riordan is a straight man who doesn’t know this, and didn’t do his research beforehand.
And people just love giving Riordan the benefit of the doubt. Love giving him a pass and clapping him on the shoulder for the inclusion and for trying. And you know what! Yeah, I do love that he includes the gays. I do not think he should get excused for handling representation like shit though.
And this? This is in his newest book? You should think authors grow. Best selling authors should do more research. Get consultants. Stuff like that.
Instead, we’re going back and rewriting history. That forced coming out? Now a moment of bravery and inspiration for others!! Look how great and amazing that is!
Nico di Angelo didn’t get to choose that he was ready to come out, it wasn’t a moment of bravery. Not the kind of bravery that it takes when you are ready to face your personal truth and willingly take the step to own it. It was a moment of fear and desperation. And it was the bravery to face that fear and desperation.
And it really makes me sick to now learn that we’re looking back at it and pretending otherwise, in-universe.
#Coming Out#Queer Stuff#Nico di Angelo#Riordan Critical#and all of that ain't even mentioning#the utter ridiculousness#that is pretending that there weren't#OTHER QUEER DEMIGODS BEFORE NICO AT CAMP#or the fact that DEMIGODS. children of the GREEK GODS#needed NICO'S BRAVERY to own their own sexuality#y'all's parents are the GREEK FUCKING GODS#Will's dad didn't fuck twinks since the dawn of time#for his son to now go around saying nonsense like this#PIPER needed Nico to be brave??? HER HALF BROTHERS ARE PATRONS OF GAYS#LITERALLY HER HALF BROTHERS ARE THE EROTES#is Riordan now pretending that the Greek gods are all allo CIShets???#or is he pretending that all DEMIGODS think the Greek gods are allo CIShets??#I am not having a good time and I'M NOT EVEN TOUCHING THE FUCKING BOOK#fuck this I need to go lay down#and also STOP LEARNING ABOUT SHIT HE WRITES#The Sun and the Star#The Sun and the Star Spoilers#PJOverse
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#I'm sorry I'm behind on asks I feel like it never fucking ends#can't talk to family about it. they worry too much. cant talk to friends about it. they just start giving unwarranted (well meaning) advice#and plus they basically live with me atp with how often they're over helping me fuck do I do?? bother them more??#dude it's embaressing even if it's not chronic shit it's just unlucky shit like how u gonna have an allergic reaction & then seizure same d#idk about therapy therapists scare me. it's not a therapy issue though I'm just tired and in pain all the fucking time#one more person says “same omg” or “well have you tried-” i will start cutting peoples throat and eating their livers#you do NOT know what it's like having to write your own will before 30 like this shit aint right shit aint fair#makes me petty and shit too people who are healthy like can you just fucking suffer why do you get that freedom but not me#it just never ends#like I really fucking hate it when people say “oh you have so much to live for” because no I don't#Not so sound like a right winger gosh dang god fearer but like deadass people focus so heavily on “mental health!!” they don't#realize even if you feel better and get therapy or shit that's not gonna be realistically helpful for anything physical going on in sm#it's a cycle even if you manage 1 thing - the medications cause a 2nd thing#and that's alongside all the OTHER things you take medications for which cause all those other things#it's like multiplying and makes your body slowly deplete but like never quite die. like I know realistically I can just die anyday#and yeah it is getting worse but it's no different because it's not about that#when you're sick it's not just “OMG DYING!!!” it's like. everything else in your life dies.#you can't cook for yourself. you can't clean. you can't move. you can't hang out with people anymore. you can barely work LMFAO.#I'm REALLY close to quitting it's not even funny lmao. cant put clothes on without struggling.#do people not know it's. physically impossible. to even eat sometimes. just vomit it all up or seize.#yeah it does make me petty#rant
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