#from; whorefordazai <3

[kiyokoxd]

*hugs you real tight* would you please send this to the first 10 people in your dash? make sure someone gets a hug today and stay safe! 💕🌺✨🥰

Aww thank you so much <33

[sonder-paradise]

◊ My submission for the More Than Two Hearts Collab hosted by @paradise-creator <3 I wanted to do a Royal AU since it’s been eating at me for so long-

◊ Genre: Royal AU, Fluff, Poly Relationship

◊ Word Count: 527

◊ Pairing: Prince!Osamu Dazai x Royal!GN!Reader x Knight!Chuuya Nakahara

“This is a terrible idea.”

“Oh stop you’re grumbling, Chuuya, it’ll be fun!”

“Shush! If the two of you don’t stop talking, we’ll get caught.”

The two men looming behind you shut their mouths, shooting the other a bothersome look. You glanced back at them warningly before looking back at the task at hand.

“When did this lock get so annoying to pick??” You grumbled, toying with the rusty lock on the gate. The red-haired knight behind you let out a sigh before raising his leg. In a singular thrust, the metal gate swung up, leaving Dazai and you staring at it in mute surprise.

“Come on, hurry up. I thought we weren’t supposed to get caught?” Chuuya quipped, smirking back charmingly at the both of you.

The princely figure at your side exchanged a fervid glance with you. A heavily blush on both of your features. You were both aware that Chuuya seemed to have the muscles to break down a metal gate, but to see it happen in real time was almost heart-stopping. In a good way of course.

Reaching the clearing, your eyes travelled through the brilliantly laid out festival. Colorful lanterns decorated the awnings of brilliant stalls and live music danced in the sweet night air.

Children rushed past the three of you, laughing and giggling in harmony as they rushed towards the various activities and games available for the town. A cheery, light-hearted atmosphere settled gently in the center of the square as people danced arm in arm with sparkling smiles on their lips.

“Where to first?” Dazai perked up, eyes glittering at the sight of crab dishes being served a while away.

“Remember, we’re supposed to be getting back to the palace before midnight. So no—“

Chuuya stopped, glaring at no one in particular when he realized you and Dazai had floundered off to fulfill the desire to eat all the fascinating foods around you.

“Royals…” he grumbled, following begrudgingly.

Though he softened when he spotted the sincere smiles both of you carried.

The night faded on and on with the gallivanting music. A merry chime filled with wind instruments and charming acoustics that had the three of you dancing in the center of the square.

Hands roaming each others’ as you switched from Dazai to Chuuya, back to Dazai then Chuuya. Laughter and rounds of clapping in time with the rhythm of the music bounced off the square. You took a moment to rest, panting softly as you clapped along with the crowd, your prince bowed towards your knight.

Though Chuuya rolled his eyes at his other lover’s playful aura, he gladly took the man’s hand before getting pulled into a whirlwind of song and dance. And as the song beautifully crescendoed into it’s finale, they glanced back at you with loving in their eyes.

Offering a hand out to you, you beamed gratefully at your crown and sword. It was such a beauty to dance the festival night away in a whimsical dreamy realm.

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[alittlesimp]

Can I request a headcanon for Dazai, Ranpo, and Chuyaa with an s/o who sleep walks and talks when they're stressed?

a/n: PLS its been literal MONTHS since ive done headcanons tysm for the request <3 it was pretty funny to do :)

warnings: none

Dazai, Ranpo, and Chuuya with an s/o who sleep walks and talks when they’re stressed - headcanons

· Oh man

· This absolute menace

· He literally sleeps through his alarm almost every day but the moment you move even a bit in your sleep he’s up

· Slightly annoyed at first because it’s like 4 am, but then he sees you sitting up straight, mumbling the most random things

· Oh. You’re sleepwalking.

· He thinks it’s super funny at first

· He’d ask you stupid questions and film your answers

· Definitely has taken silly pictures when you were sleepwalking

· But as funny as is to him, he also makes sure you don’t bump into things or do anything dangerous

· Your safety comes first

· He also 100% shows you the videos and pictures he took loll

· He knows

· Just tells you when you’re watching tv or something and then never mentions it again LOL

· I don’t think he’d actually wake up from you talking or walking around

· Like, you’d have to let something explode before this man wakes up

· He knows why you sleepwalk so he just tries to keep you as stress-free as he can

· Suggests ordering dinner when you’re tired (he can’t cook let’s be real), takes a bath with you, or gives you a massage

· He’s surprisingly aware of your mental state

· And even though he usually would prefer being praised for his work, he wouldn’t hesitate to help you when you’re stressed, asking nothing in return

· Very no-bullshit when something is up

· Sleeps through literally anything

· He used to sleep pretty light as a result of his rough childhood but cuddling with you helped him feel safer at night

· He doesn’t notice you sleepwalk and talk until he comes home at night after a mission

· Is surprised to find you up and walks over to give you a kiss

· Super confused when you don’t reply, he’s pretty sure he didn’t do anything to make you mad, right…?

· He’s exhausted, give him a moment :’)

· Finally realizes you are, in fact, sleepwalking

· He feels so relieved but then it’s right back to being worried

· How long have you been doing this? What if you hurt yourself? What if there were other health risks?

· Gently guides you back to bed and keeps an eye on you while looking up every single bit of information on sleepwalking online

· The next morning at breakfast he just floods you with info and tips while you’re just barely awake

· He’s kinda cute when he’s worried about you

please comment/reblog if you enjoyed! i’d love to hear what y'all think <3

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[kittydripuwu]

smoking weed with dazai and fyodor

special tags for this one @sadcannibal @whorefordazai

words - 541

warnings - drugs!, mentions of sex, more drugs! minors dni

genre - crack

dazai osamu

- we know this man has a bit of experience with drugs

- ahem throwback to when he took shrooms

- anyways i feel like dazai has some experience with substances aka alcohol and shrooms (maybe other stuff who knows)

- when you first bring up the idea to him tho, he'll be pretty intruiged

- i feel like dazai is the type of person to like trying new things

- so

- he will definetly agree to this

- you'll suggest smoking at night, somewhere nice

- he will take you to some rooftop because he can watch the stars (again with me abt dazai watching the starts oml)

- i feel like dazai's preferred smoking method would be a j

- you and him would share one <3

- *remember people, when u smoke always have water!!*

- anyways

- i feel like dazai's drugs tolerence would be so low

- this man would get so high from like 3 hits

- he would laugh at litterally everything

- like you'll litterally be sitting there and he will laugh

- will start describing everything with great detail

- "the stars are like little people pointing flashlights down on us" (again me with the fucking stars someone stop me i swear)

- "do you think aliens exist?"

- "do you believe in ghosts"

- he will ask you random questions and talk about random theories he's read online

- will CREATE crazy fucking theories like where does this shit come from?

- odd man

- eventually when he gets tired of talking he'll lay down

- watch the stars (>.<) with you

- will take your hand in his and play with it

- trace patterns onto it with his fingers for example

- you on the other hand

- you'll fiddle with his bandages and watch the stars with him <3

- you'll probably listen to trippy music with him

- prepare to have a whole dance party/rave in ur apartment

- SNACKS

- late night grocery store run

- while high asf

- with dazai? amazing.

- just the 2 of u <3

- would fuck you high (might i add)

- you'll fall asleep on the couch with him probably when u get back after eating

- entangled in eachothers arms <3

- so fucking cute

fyodor doestevsky

- you'll bring up the idea to him

- and say it's a way to "relax"

- cause he works so much ugh drag him out of that room plz

- he may be smart but when it comes to substances this man is just ???

- once u explain to him what weed is and what it does

- he'll be like "why would i want to feel like that"

- tell him its fun and that its a way to relax once in a while

- he wont get it

- ugh

- anyways, after FINALLY convincing this man

- he will insist on doing it outside because "safety hazard"

- probably right outside his rat cave ;p (house)

- you'll smoke a j with him

- easiest way imo :D

- he is NOT a lightweight

- smokes half the thing before he feels anything at all

- eventually will get really fucking baked

- he will start telling you about all his plans and reciting them

- please he just needs to share it so let him talk

- will also start questioning the effects

- "why do i feel like this" "why is my hand tingling?" "is this normal"

- yes fyodor, it is

- for a man who doesnt show mUCH physical affection

- get ready to get it ALL in one night

- "do you think sex feels different like this milaya?"

- will want to try litterally everything

- he'll find it so interesting and want to do so many things

- will cuddle with you while watching something really trippy

- he will make jokes. FYODOR will actually make jokes and laugh

- weed does some crazy things to u doesnt it ;p

- eating will be fun

- he will craft an intricate meal

- it'll actually taste good cause hes a cooking god

- god in general tbh

- you'll both get tired after you eat

- will be shocked by how much easier sleep is when high

- falling asleep together <3333

- will want to do it again :D

[kyuus4ku]

𝗣𝗥𝗢𝗩𝗘 𝗜𝗧

yosano akiko

genre: drabble ; fluff

warnings: none

word count: 1K

a/n: take this as my first drabble🧐 not that proud of it -_-

"I have to tell you something."

"Usually, you don't have to make an announcement before you speak," she said before munching on what remained of her sandwich, "makes it sound formal that way."

A smile tugged at her lips as she chewed, her magenta-tinged eyes locked on yours, making your heart stutter for the right rhythm as your thoughts tried to catch up to the moment's speed.

You couldn't believe you were even contemplating on actually going through with this.

Was telling her about the dream you had last night really a smart idea?

"I'm serious."

"Y/n, by saying that, you're making me incapable of taking you seriously," she sniggered in amusement, a faint tint of mischief glowing from her face as she finished what was left of her sandwich.

You thought back to when you decided to tell her about the damned dream during lunchtime, and suddenly felt the urge to crash your forehead against the wall... repeatedly... until consciousness was nothing but a stranger to you.

If this went wrong, you'd have to stick around for the rest of the day to deal with how awkward it'd potentially become.

If this went wrong— if she misunderstood, or if she'd be able to explicate your feelings without having you confess them to her yourself.

If she didn't like you the way you liked her.

"You know what? Forget it," you raised your hands in surrender and put them on the table to get yourself up from your seat, but she stopped you by gripping your forearm firmly.

As dumb as it sounded, it felt like your infatuation for her was rejuvenated back to fresh vitality at her touch.

Even her grip was gentle, and the smile she still had latched onto her lips wasn't going to make falling out of love for her any easier.

"Wuss," she remarked in a domineering tone, raising an eyebrow and narrowing her eyes in evident attempts to intimidate you. You groaned and slumped back in your seat, crossing your arms in a mulish attitude.

"I'm not a wuss," you grumbled stubbornly.

"You sure sound like one," she sipped on her iced tea with dignity, that stupidly charming smile still bolted to her lips, "Come on, prove me wrong."

You sighed deeply, shaking off the inapt nerves which dented every inch of your ego. You then mustered up the courage to say what you didn't really want to say.

"I had a dream about you."

"Uh huh," she nodded, eyes glimmering with intrigue and anticipation.

"We kissed," you admitted, completely disappointing the side of you that wanted to piece together a whole dramatic build-up before you reached that part of the dream.

You knew that your feelings were going to swallow you whole if you didn't get them off your chest, but you didn't expect yourself to be that desperate.

Regret started to root its cause into the walls of your bones the minute you saw her expression fade into the finest type of indiscernibility.

Then, the most irresistible smile pulled at the corner of her pretty lips.

"That's it?" she laced her fingers together, her elbows planting themselves on the table as she leaned forward to fix her eyes on yours, "The person I know would've added flair to their story before getting to the climax."

"I panicked!" you whined in frustration as you buried your face in your hands, rubbing your eyes as a flustered grin shone through your lips. She couldn't help but laugh at how unbelievably nervous you were getting.

She got out of her seat and traced her steps toward where you were sitting. She sat on the edge of the table, her purple irises brighter than ever as her gaze fixed itself on you with what anyone but you could perceive as affection.

"What made us kiss?" she crossed her arms coolly, "It can't be only because I'm incredibly alluring, right?"

You clicked your tongue and rolled your eyes at her burst of self-approval— the type of reaction she always adored.

"So... we were running away from something..." you poked at your chin as you tried to recall every detail, "Some kind of monster..."

"Monster?"

"Yeah, my subconscious is hella creative," you winked at her with pride, "Anyways, I got really riled up because I hate being chased."

"Being chased? Really?"

"Yes. I get really... defensive," you ignored her snort of ridicule and went on, "So when we managed to get a place to hide, I started babbling a lot of words and pacing around frantically. You tried to calm me down but I refused to stay still. So... one thing led to another... you gave up and pulled me into a kiss."

Time hung on your words as the moment froze in silence. You expected her to brush it off and leave the room, and honestly, that would've been a hundred times better than being told "Sorry, I don't really think of you that way."

But what she said and did next didn't really match up to your predictions.

"Was I a good kisser?" you could've sworn her face was a little farther from yours just a few seconds ago. You got out of your seat and backed away slightly, wondering if you were reading her body language wrong or not.

"Yeah, well... I was better," you shrugged smugly, smirking as you did so. She stretched her arms to place her palms flat on the table, supporting her figure as she leaned back with her head tilted in what you interpreted as enticement.

"Really?" a tut of skepticism reached your ears. She looked around the room and then back at you.

"Prove it."

All the gears in your brain clicked. You stepped forward, held the sides of her face softly, and kissed her.

You felt her lips stretch into a blissful smile as your lips connected. The two of you were sent to seventh heaven as electrifying sparks of restless elation galvanized you both into an unwillingness to pull away.

"Hm," you heard her hum as she pulled away, piercing your gaze with the purple stars in her eyes as her finger caressed the side of your face gently. You smiled at her, not realising how unsteady your breathing was.

"Point taken," she sang out quietly, pulling you by the collar to meet you in a kiss once again.

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a/n: ehh i'm not rlly gonna be active on most of my socials for a little while, and most of my posts/reblogs will be queued. i won't be gone for long hehe and i won't stop writing— just gonna be a little ia in terms of interactions 😴 mwah ty for reading!

fun fact: i rlly did dream about kissing a girl <3

[pompompurin1028]

top 5 fav dazai writings :)

The hardest part of this is only choosing 5 ahhh😭 It feels so painful :') In no particular order, because they're all amazing and I'm very indecisive so I have a horrible time choosing favorites😖

Aftercare with Dazai - @sonder-paradise

I still think about it😭 Like Ariel your fics are all so beautiful but like this one, it just has my heart😞 I've been brainrotting so much about cuddling with Dazai during the time I read it and it was just perfect

Town of Existence - @whorefordazai

I still remember this being one of my favorites when Rai posted it, and it still stuck to me as it being one of my favorites probably. I really enjoyed how Dazai was potrayed in it too

Spring - @kyuus4ku

My comfort fic🤧 Ryley wrote this for me when I was feeling quite poorly, and as with all their writing, I love it very much. It still brings me comfort and also a bit of tears to my eyes

A Reason Worth Living - @nameless-shrimp

This fic literally made me cry, of sadness of comfort, of being moved? I can't really recall the exact emotion I felt, but I do remember sobbing in my room haha. And I am very in love with it and of course with how Shrimp writes🥰

Sunrise - well it's yours🤭

I really really really enjoyed the plot of it and the development and Dazai's feelings in this fic, I literally couldn't find the words to write after I read it so I didn't make such a long comment, still feeling a bit guilty😞

Also I linked 3 other Dazai fics I really liked on this post before and they were from a while ago but I still really love them and they are very beautiful fics😌

Anon/Honesty Hour

[sstar-ggirl]

If you get this, answer with 3 random facts about yourself and send it to the last 7 blogs in your notifications, anonymously or not! Let’s get to know the person behind the blog <333

HIIII Sorry I didnt answer this fast enough but 3 random facts about me - I draw gore a lot It's one of my favorite thing to draw - I live in New York City - Me and Felix from Stray Kids are good friends on JYP Bubble tags<3 @clobbopus @busydoingnothings-blog @xx-moony-xx @heartlesskitty247 @makimaa @ceyrann @dazaiinthemoonlight @afuccingbomb @whorefordazai @homolegs

[hanazou]

Another ask game anon here! I thought you might need this after da amount of legs you've been getting.

Tell us who you ship your mutuals with and why! It can be based on their self ship or your own opinions. Don't forget to tag other people and have fun!

THIS IS SO CUTE AND WHOLESOME AAH ☺ I decide to combine my observation with their self ship cause why not? 😁💕 Very thoughtful of you to do this out of the Feet Madness concern 😖💞💫

1. I ship Mich Mich (@dazaicafe) with Chuuya. I almost picked Dazai because I know he's your self ship but hear me out—Chuuya would complement your energy. You're both chaotic; him in a physical way and you in a humorous way, but you're not too untamed for his taste. You hype him up with just the right amount of energy and he returns your love by ruffling your hair. Mich, you're a good person to confide in, and Chuuya will definitely open up to you because of your softness. Your INFJ-ness will help you know when he needs your support and although u say you're not good at comforting people, Chuuya will love how you do it tbh. He appreciates how you subtly address his concern without exaggerating anything.

2. I ship Rai (@whorefordazai) with Pushkin. Just kidding it's Atsushi. I was about to pick Dazai but dear lord that will be the end of Yokohama if you two are put together. Describing your relationship with him is basically just describing Dazai and Atsushi when they're together; you can endlessly mess with him either out of mischief or your love language and the most he will do is just sigh. Atsushi would do everything in his power to support you. He keeps up with all of your antics, humour them, yet at the same time somehow figure out if you're hiding your pain from him. He sees through people like that. Atsushi will always ground you down if your mischief gets too wild

3. I ship Lev (@f4ncyhat) with Poe! Lev, you are a very nice and wholesome person, and I wish you can see that but alas, your irl circumstances may have diminished the chances of you seeing that. Poe will know each and every strength you have and be the boyfriend you need; a wholesome, encouraging one, who will tirelessly and softly list every single thing he loves from you until you feel better. Poe might even write a short wholesome novel for you both to travel inside tbh, for a date idea. He may tirelessly be there for you but his energy won't be too overwhelming to confuse you.

4. I ship Tobi (@fashionablyfailing12) with Sigma. I know you're down so bad for Fyodor but listen, listen. You're a very nice person and a good hype-person and Sigma would dig that. With his timidness and your strong loving energy, there's no better combination. You're the best person to hype Sigma whenever he gets self conscious and Sigma will be the soft, loving boyfriend who accompanies and supports you wherever you go, whatever you do. Your wholesome energies match and balance each other.

5. I ship Dino (@dinosaurtsukki) with Fyodor. Fyodor is totally into the fact that you're a lit major and likes it when you talk about your assigned readings, no matter how many they are. He likes the intelligent atmosphere you give off (I may be biased here but Dino your academic atmosphere just goes well with his okay). This goes without imagine Fyodor serenading you to relieve your stress while you read the books you're not too fond of.

This.. felt like doing a match up 😭 Did I do okay? Don't come at me if these don't suit your preferences 😭🥺 Sorry i only did 5 of these, it took every brain cell of mine to come up with an adequate an answer for each of u 💔

((Y'all better tag me back 😤💕))

[kiyokoxd]

HEYY

1. First impression: Nice smut and fluff fanfic writer ngl, I never thought we would interact

2. Truth is: I never thought I would even make friends here bUT YOU'RE REALLY COOL AND GOOD AT WRITING I REALLY LIKE HOW NICE AND FUNNY YOU ARE

3. How old do you look: 17?

4. Have you ever made me laugh: Yep!

5. Have you ever made me mad: Nope

6. Best feature: Writing and the way you interact with others :D

7. Have I ever had a crush on you: I mean..

8. You’re my: One of my first friends here who I wanna get to know more!

[xo-cuteplosion-xo]

I wanna ask about number 18! I love your writing so much!

Thank you 🙏🏻

18) were there any works you read that affected you so much that it influenced your writing style? what were they?

I don't have too many I can think of. Though I read a lot from @whorefordazai , @jadegreenimmortality , @pompompurin1028 and my other earlier mutuals, which certainly helped me glance back at things I could improve in my own writing. I think I developed my style gradually from being an obsessive reader, re-reading books 3-4 times over and analyzing every sentence. I also read many books written in more formal but graceful ways. I remember Cassandra Clair's mortal instruments series being a crucial part of reference for words and ways to describe scenarios.

Ask game

[sonder-paradise]

𝐇𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐲 𝐍𝐞𝐰 𝐘𝐞𝐚𝐫!!

it’s been such an amazing year with everyone and i’m so glad to have been part of this community. everyone’s been so kind and supportive and i can’t wait to continue the next year with you all!!

to my mutuals, i’m so happy to have met you all. you’re all so amazingly creative and talented. i’m so honored to have met you all and been able to laugh and interact with you. i treasure you all beyond words. there was a time before tumblr where i suffered from unbearable loneliness. you have all been here and supported me and i can’t thank you enough.

even if we haven’t interacted much or at all, i’m glad to have followed you and hopefully we can get to know each other more in the new year :)

for my followers, i’m so grateful for all of you. you’ve been so supportive and caring towards me and i’m glad you’ve put up with my shenanigans for this long. i love each and everyone of you and i’m so excited whenever someone new joins my cult <3

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! I wish you all the best in 2022 🥳❤️

@shinscig @whorefordazai @requiem626k @rirk-ke @trashykawahq @tomanprincess @tetsustation @internetkilledtheroxstar @os8mu @pompompurin1028 @paradise-creator @akutacowa @alittlesimp @allisonlol @snowbits @shakespearesdrugdealer @dazaiscum @dazaiaiko @fyudorx @for-chuuya (idk if we’re mutuals lmao but ily too) @ficharsimp @greenshirtimagines @gotxanyxramen @honeydazai @jessbeinme15 @jadegreenimmortality @k0ko-noi @kittydripuwu @kiyokoxd @lovesickspirits @literallyjustbsdxreaderreblogs @listless-flame @xn-ls9h @xo-cuteplosion-xo @xxxsoukokuxxx

[dinosaurtsukki]

solitude | fyodor dostoevsky x gn!reader

part 3 of broken, continuation of savior

summary: for the first time in a long time, you're free of fyodor with him in prison. however, you find yourself wondering if this is what you truly want

word count: 1.1k words

contains: stockholm syndrome-ish (depending how you look at it), slight manipulation

anon: Hi ! First, I hope that you’re okay, I wanted to tell you that your work is soooo great, I really support you. Then I wanted to ask you if you could write a part 3 of « broken ». I really loved « broken » and « savior », you are very talented.

a/n: ahh i'm so flattered but thank you !! broken was actually my first fyodor fic so i'm surprised people like it and asked for a sequel. i was kind of on the fence with how to end this series because y/n and fyodor's dynamic is a bit complicated but i hope it came across here!

you're loathe to admit it, but every time you heard a doorbell ring or a knocking on the door, you hope that it's fyodor finally returning home.

it had been more than two weeks since fyodor had enacted his master plan using cannibalism to get the port mafia and armed detective agency to turn against each other. you weren't completely privy to all the details of fyodor's plan or the bigger organization he was working for, but he did let you know that being sent to jail was a part of it.

"you're free to use this space, especially since the special division and armed detective agency are cracking down on the rats of the house of the dead," fyodor told you one night.

"is that so?" you raised an eyebrow at him. "i see you're playing favorites then."

"you've only noticed my favoritism now?" fyodor chuckled. you found it almost funny in hindsight how your relationship had evolved from him manipulating you to playful banter between the two of you.

"you won't be seeing me for a long time," he hummed, absentmindedly twirling a piece of your hair with his index finger. it had become a habit of his that you didn't find entirely unwelcome. "should i leave you a little souvenir so you don't miss me?"

"you're already leaving me your place," you scoffed, waving a hand at him. "that's enough. i have to lay low for the next couple of weeks too."

"that would be advisable," fyodor nodded, letting go of your hair and sitting a little farther from you on the sofa. you hated that you almost wanted to move a little closer. "i've made sure to take care of my tracks. they shouldn't inspect this place."

"alright," you said, paused, before adding "thank you."

the next morning, he was gone before you even woke up. aside from the emptiness of the apartment, you were left with an ambiguously melancholic feeling.

now, he was gone and you had more than enough room to breathe. if you wanted to, you could even finally run away after making sure the coast was clear. but you had already established a while ago that there was more benefit to you staying with fyodor.

maybe the decision you were grappling with was whether or not you actually missed fyodor.

'impossible,' you thought, physically shaking your head as if trying to correct yourself. and despite what you told yourself, there could only be one explanation as to why you frequented fyodor's study so much and took care to wipe his cello case clean every night.

in fact, you began staying in the study more often each day. the desk was as neat as fyodor had left it with his laptop and several files and books stacked neatly on the table. one book in particular, caught your eye.

"the complete collection of t.s. eliot poems," you read aloud. suddenly, you remembered one of the first time you and fyodor had talked in the library, back when you were just a college student and he was just a handsome stranger.

of course, you could tell that the placement of this book could only be deliberate. "of course you'd leave something for me," you spoke out loud, as if he could hear. carefully, you opened the book and found a space neatly cut into the middle of the pages and a flash drive embedded inside.

...

"well, if this isn't quite ironic."

fyodor doesn't look surprised at all to see you standing in front of his jail cell. in fact, it looks as if he had been patiently waiting for you all this time. and that's because he has.

"you couldn't have left your escape plans in a more obvious place?" you sighed at him.

"but that was obvious," fyodor blinked innocently at you. "i knew you would find it at the right time."

did he know you'd be spending most of your time in his study? it was embarrassing to be known that well but you read intently through the plans he had encoded in the flash drive. you couldn't believe what fyodor was asking of you this time because surely he overestimated your abilities.

"couldn't you have asked someone else, someone more capable, to do this for you?" you asked him.

"what for? i have complete confidence in you," fyodor smiled. he was dressed in the white clothes all the other prisoners wore. you could tell that he had lost quite a bit of weight due to his stay and both of his hands were cuffed. and yet, he looked absolutely delighted at seeing you.

and that gave you a deep sense of satisfaction.

you pressed a hand to the bulletproof glass of his jail cell. "remember that night? when you broke me out of jail?"

"of course i do," fyodor hummed, leaning back and closing his eyes as he savored the memory. "that was sloppy work on your part. anyone could tell that you had an ulterior motive to get yourself caught."

"yeah, yeah. i'm aware," you rolled your eyes.

"ah, but look at you now," fyodor cocked his head. 'you've changed,' was on the tip of his tongue and you could only agree. even if fyodor wrote up the plans for his escape, you were still the one who snuck into the facility and incapacitated more than a few security guards to break him out.

who would have thought this is where you'd end up?

you keyed in the passcode on the door before stepping inside the jail cell. fyodor held his cuffed wrists out to you and you sighed and crouched down in front of him.

"you couldn't have at least picked the lock on your cuffs?"

"i'd rather you do it for me," fyodor smiled at you.

you didn't even need to be told twice. he was the one who had taught you this skill after all and your fingers worked quickly at the lock. of course, you were aware of fyodor intently staring at you and the way his fingers brushed at the inside of your wrist. finally, the lock clicked open and his metal cuffs fell away.

"finally. they tightened those a bit too much," fyodor sighed, rubbing the red marks on his wrists.

"you must have said something to offend them, like always," you emphasized.

"how was i to know they were going to be offended?" he scoffed as the two of you practically strolled out of the jail cell and into the hallway. "i assume you've been enjoying your time alone at the apartment."

"the silence was definitely a plus. although admittedly..." you trailed off and caught fyodor's glance. "i do miss the sound of your playing."

"is that so?" he chuckled amusedly and flexed his wrists. "i'm out of practice but, i think i can arrange something for you when we get home."

you nodded with a bemused smile on your face. "when we get home."

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