#from the shadows: adamar kelra

[shadowthiefkelra]

Adamar: What if I’m subconsciously sabotaging all my relationships as punishment to myself, because I believe I deserve to be alone and suffer? What then?!?

"just put yourself out there" what if I scared. what then.

[shadowthiefkelra]

Weird Idea, that I'm gonna make y'all deal with now, about Alternate Universes

I've been thinking about my OC Adamar and the universe that he exists in. He started life as a DnD character and that's where he's generally lived ever since, but recently I've been thinking what if he was somewhere else?

Now I doubt I’m the first to want to shove a character into a different verse, but for a while now I’m gonna be sharing some of the verses Adamar will be in and the lives he’ll lead. Feel free to suggest verses and ask in character questions.

[shadowthiefkelra]

[shadowthiefkelra]

“I have been told I smirk like I’m up to something, but kind…no I’m not kind.”

https://en.shindanmaker.com/1188167

[shadowthiefkelra]

Seriously is there a line? When does Grave Robbing become Archeology? Asking for character development reasons.

i miss skypiea.

By huanghying on Twitter.

[shadowthiefkelra]

𝙷𝙾𝚆 𝙳𝙾𝙴𝚂 𝚈𝙾𝚄𝚁 𝙼𝚄𝚂𝙴 𝙲𝙰𝚁𝚁𝚈 𝙴𝙼𝙾𝚃𝙸𝙾𝙽𝚂?

ANGER.   jaw clenching, hands balling into fists,    teeth grinding,   yelling,    going non-verbal,    stuttering speech,    rushed speech,    slow concise speech,    rambling,    quiet,    arms crossing,    shaking head,    tearing up,    animated,    expressionless,    projects,    internalizes,    vents,    withdraws,    passive aggressive,   direct,   physical outbursts,    verbal outbursts.

JOY.     easy smiles,    fighting back grins,    suppressed laughter,    loud laughter,    giggles,    chuckling,    smirks,    whole body laughs,    covers mouth when laughing / giggling,    throws head back when laughing,    slaps leg,    touches people around them when laughing,    looks down when laughing,    looks for eye contact when laughing,    sparkling eyes,    bubbly happiness,    quiet subtle happiness,    obnoxious happiness,    wants to spread joy,    quietly savors joy.

SADNESS.     crying,   bottling it up,   seeks distractions,    wallows,    meditates,    trains and processes,    avoidance,    seeks out comfort,    withdraws,    talks it out, internalizes it,    sad smiles,    depression naps,    uses alcohol,    uses drugs,    seeks out sources of joy,    fidgets with sentimental item,    sits in silence,    broods,    gets moody,    wants someone to share the misery,    tries to hide negative emotions,    nurtures others to make themselves feel better.

EMBARRASSMENT  /  SHAME.     blushing,    looking away,   rubbing at back of head,    covering face,    laughing nervously,    laughs it off,    overthinks,    lets it go,    self-deprecating humor,    deflects,   gets irritated,    smiles,    withdraws,    crossing arms over stomach,   crossing arms over chest,    hands in pockets,    shoulders sinking,    shrugs,    falling into silence until comfortable again,    talking a lot to compensate.

GUILT.     avoiding eye contact,    shoulders sinking low,    head hanging down,    crying,    chest aches,    lashes out, internalizes,    apologizes,    deflects,    communicates,   withdraws,    grand gestures for forgiveness,    accepts fault easily,   punishes themselves,    martyrdom,    victim complex,    guilt complex,    healthy conscience,    internalizes even after forgiveness,    seeking redemption,  moves on easily,    denial,    lack of guilt / conscience,    sorry they got caught more than caused harm,    can’t handle knowing they hurt others.

FEAR  /  ANXIETY.     trembling,    crying,   sarcasm / sass to cope,    rambles,   goes silent,    gets angry,    fidgeting,  clenching jaw ,picking at nails,    chewing at lip,    pulling at clothes,    adjusting jewellery / clothing,    swallowing thickly,    eyes widening,    over-reacts,   under-reacts,    calm,    logical,    panic,    irrational,    overthinks,    carefully analyses,    talks to themselves,    breathing exercises,    flight,   fight,    withdraw,    fawn.

Stolen and Proud.

[shadowthiefkelra]

Staring off into Space (Bored or Tired)

He’d been having this same staring contest with the wood knot on the opposite bookshelf for ten minutes. If this was the first time tonight he’d caught himself staring it’d be fine, but this is at least the fifth. “Focus, Kelra.” He whispers to himself as he gives his head a quick shake and indeed focuses back on the dusty tome before him. You’d think that a dictionary of curses cast my non-mages would be interesting, but the author had found a way to turn the topic as dry as ash. It's not long until he's staring again and wondering if he can get away with just skimming the topic.

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[shadowthiefkelra]

Adamar Kelra is 10000% adorable. Can i squeeze your cheeks?

#howadorableareyou #shindanmaker

https://en.shindanmaker.com/619296

[shadowthiefkelra]

Adamar: An unwilling protagonist!

"I am running on 5 hours of sleep, pure adrenaline, and the untapped will of an anime protagonist."

- Rogue, after being asked why they sound so tired

[shadowthiefkelra]

Adamar Kelra has appeared! What to do?

Confess

Feed

Ask to leave

Kick

#shindanmaker

https://en.shindanmaker.com/583485

[shadowthiefkelra]

​BOLD ANY GUARANTEED TURN-ONS WHICH APPLY TO YOUR MUSE. ITALICIZE WHAT INTRIGUES THEM. CROSS OUT THE NEVERS.

kissing. biting. tickling. cuddling. neck kissing. formal wear. underwear. comfy pyjamas. domination. submission. restraints. blindfolds. food in the bedroom. spanking. pain. blood. roleplaying. voyeurism. exhibitionism. vocal partners. luxury and decadence. wings. threesomes. fantasy fulfillment. hate-sex. scars. love. romance. intimacy. age difference. daddy/mommy kink. pegging. virginity. experience. bad boys/girls. the boy/girl next door.

TAGGED BY: No one, stole it from @waspandr

TAGGING: Anyone that wants it, steal it like I did and run with it.

[shadowthiefkelra]

POST 3 - 5  SONGS  THAT  REMIND  YOU  OF  YOUR  MUSE.

Number 1: I’ll be good - Jaymes Young

Number 2: A Good Man - Semlar

Number 3: Human - Rag’n’bone

RULES:   REPOST,   DON’T  REBLOG.

[shadowthiefkelra]

Blueberries…he’d seriously consider payment in them.

What can't your OC resist?

[shadowthiefkelra]

❤ — 𝐈𝐍 𝐁𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐋𝐄  [ … ]   𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄,

BOLD what applies - italicize sometimes. repost, don’t reblog.

fights honourably / fights dirty

prefers close - quarters / prefers range

chats during / goes silent

low pain tolerance / high pain tolerance

attacks in bursts / attacks steadily

goes for the kill /aims to disarm / fights defensively / strikes first

is provoked easily/ provokes their opponent/ teases

gets visibly frustrated / shouts while attacking

uses strategy /focuses on the battle / experiences conflicting thoughts during battle

rushes in recklessly /tries to read their opponent before engaging

fights wildly/ fights calmly / fights apathetically/ fights with anger /fights with excitement

fights because they have to/ fights because they want to

fights without regard to wounds / runs away when wounded / hides wounds / takes a blow to protect another

prefers a blade /  prefers a gun / prefers hand to hand combat / prefers a bow / prefers a shield / prefers a personalised weapon / prefers magic, alchemy, spells or abilities

their greatest weakness is physical / their greatest weakness is mental / their greatest weakness is emotional

transforms for battle /fights as they appear

relies on strength / doubts their strength /relies on speed

uses everything they have / proceeds with caution / hides their full potential

exhausts quickly / has high stamina

behaves arrogantly / brags after landing a hit /belittles their abilities

uses psychological tactics /uses brute strength

avoids civilians/ strikes down civilians

damages surroundings /avoids damaging surroundings

signature fighting style / makes it up as they go

mastered skill - set/ learning their skill - set

fancy footwork / sloppy footwork

messy fighter / elegant fighter

accepts defeat /refuses defeat / begs for mercy

compliments their opponent / insults their opponent

uses unnecessary movements / moves efficiently / barely moves

prefers to dodge / prefers to block

defends their blindside / has no blindside / leaves blindsides vulnerable

uses all available advantages/ strictly uses one main method

plays around / holds back / fights ruthlessly /shows mercy

waits for an opponent to be ready / strikes when opponent isn’t ready

fears death / fears pain / fears killing

has ptsd / avoids fighting

has lost a fight / has won a fight

has killed / refuses to kill

wants to die standing / would succumb slowly

[shadowthiefkelra]

"I'm getting the distinct impression that this quiz thinks I'm creative. Call it a hunch."

[shadowthiefkelra]

you're not sure if they know you're there or not. you're not sure if it matters. you watch them sway to the music, watch as they twirl around and smile for no one but themselves. they're free and laughing. they're alive and vibrant. they're everything you might never be except when you're with them. so full of life it makes something in your chest tighten. there are frown lines at the corners of your mouth but your lips are smiling right now. rare. and often, only for them. they have light in their hearts and some days you fear the darkness in you might swallow it whole. but they'd never let you walk away. so make sure the darkness inside you keeps all the other monsters away from their tender heart.