#freakyfatfailure

[3freakyf4tfailure3]

... Help me decide ? ...

So ... I've been extra stressed the last few days ... the antidepressant is not doing very good job, I can't sleep well, I'm eating waaay over my limit (In the last 5 days BINGED 2 days and ate between 900-1450 for 3 days), I've been so irritated and snappy with everyone ... I couldn't sleep so I spent my alone time cleaning for over 2 hours then did a 30 minute workout and went to shower only to have a huge panic attack ... everyone was asleep and I really though I was gonna d1e alone on the bathroom floor ... Unfortunately I didn't ... then I managed to fall asleep somehow till Dad woke me up to eat ... I had what I planned to eat and my net cal intake stayed below the limit (600 cals) ... BUT OF COURSE I HAD TO BE AN IDIOT AND STRESS EAT CAUSE I HAD TO TEXT SOMEONE ... I was craving something spicy so much I was actually crying ... I ate lots of bread with pepper paste (I know it sounds gross ... I was tired, lazy and I just wanted to feel a tiny bit less stressed) ... Total cal intake = 1903 cals ... total burned cals = 814 cals ... Net = 1089 cals ...

[3freakyf4tfailure3]

... Poor fellow strugglers ...

[3freakyf4tfailure3]

>>>>> Being forced to shift your whole mindset for monthes because there's another living creature inside you that can't breathe or move if you don't eat ...