#fr i did not mean to think about any of this in depth

[grinchwrapsupreme]

season 8 is kind of weird so far but the basic concepts it's coming up with are really interesting like "psychiatrist who targets trauma victims and turns them into serial killers" and "Serial Killer Social Sphere" and "Vince Masuka character development"

[pencildragons]

ty for tagging me tessa @clayvedevs !!!!!!!!!

1. Do you make your bed?

NO. making the bed is evil and also too hard

2. Favourite number?

uhhh UHHHH 12 ? 12 is a good number i liked being twelve. 67 is also a good number !!

3. What's your job?

divine prophet of The Bog (extremely unemployed)

4. If you could go back to school, would you?

yes !!!! i lovee school i lovee learning & my hs? extremely chill

5. Can you parallel park?

yes fire emoji fire emoji fire emoji

6. Do you think aliens are real?

I feel like the possibility that there AREN'T aliens is extraordinarily low, even if they haven't evolved yet or would be completely unrecognisable as a form of life to us. the universe is still comparatively so so young so i feel the chances that at some point in the next quadzillion years that the circumstances of earth won't be replicated at least in part is hugely unlikely

7. Can you drive a manual car?

technically? i learnt to drive in a manual ute that is ABSOLUTELY not roadworthy but i did not get a manual licence :( sort of regret that but im sure if i got back in a manual i could do it again. probably

8. Guilty pleasure?

thinking in depth and forever abt my girl in middle earth oc hobbit fic that i havent properly written since like 2021. she means the WORLD to me i could make it sooo good if i just got over the evil puritans in my head telling me it is cringe

9. Tattoos?

soon!!! one day!!!! trust and believe!!!!!!!

10. Favourite colour?

loveeeeee yellow i love yellow so much soo much. unfortunately i am ginger.

11. Favourite type of music?

idk if i have a favourite TYPE of music persay? but ive sort of been bouncing between a mix of folk rock and Silly Power Metal and i will hit up the odd soundtrack also. wait actually this is untrue i am, embarrassingly, really into hyperpop (UNDERSCORES I LOVE YOU)

12. Do you like puzzles?

yeah! they're kind of evil and i am not great at pattern recognition and they hurt my back. but also v satisfying to do

13. Any phobias?

ants i fucking hate ants i HATE them (i stood in a bullant nest when i was 2) + also maybe thalassophobia? idk though that may have also been cured by the time i played 130 hours of subnautica in a week in december

14. Favourite childhood sport?

touch footie!!! i was very good at it lowk and i miss playing it terribly

15. Do you talk to yourself?

LMAO YEAH. when im thinking about writing especially. or doing literally anything. i will talk to myself

16. Tea or coffee?

TEA I LOVE TEA I LOVE TEA SO MUCH. i cannot drink coffee because The Side Effects + caffeine does not seem to have the intended effect on me, so i don't really drink caffeinated tea that much either? i absolutely LOVE rooibos with honey in it though one million out of ten

17. First thing you wanted to be when growing up?

i wanted to be a scientist because i was under the impression that scientists blew things up and that it was exclusively their job to do that. i still want to be a scientist tbh but for different reasons

18. What movies do you adore?

im so normal and regular and fine about the hobbit extended edition trilogy. so normal. no but fr i love unexpected journey i have watched it more than twenty times total and. five times in the last week and a bit LOL

Tagging:

@sithfox @hastalavistabyebye @patchmates @rockcattomato and anyone else who would like to !!!!

[jumexju]

SUGGESTION

Pairing !! : Carl Grimes / Fem Reader

Fic Type !! : Headcanons, Fluff, Comfort

CW !! : canon typical mentions of violence/death, gn reader unless i specify otherwise, trauma/sa mentions

Summary !! : Just some fluff hcs about carl cuz i miss him

Notes !! : feeding carl fans after I finished the series like a year ago (bcs i rewatched it) (I love that white boy) enjoy lololol :3

✦ MASTERLIST

ᰔ if youre a melomaniac, carl would def be stuffing vinyls into his bag while out on runs just in case you happen to like the music (he gets happy when u get happy)

ᰔ carl n you def sit in his room just to listen to music (lowk parallel play)

ᰔ speaking of parellel play, hes a sucker for it !! you dont gotta be doing something together, even if the two of you are doing your own thing, he prefers having you near him while doing it

ex : he's reading comics while youre drawing/writing/etc

ᰔ carl likes hearing abt your hobbies and if you got the random knowledge flavor of the tism, he loves hearing the random knowledge you bestow upon him at the strangest times

ex : "carl" "yeah?" "did you know that playing instruments can make you smarter?" ".. how?" *proceeds to explain how the brain works*

ᰔ if you play an instrument, carl loves hearing you play songs you know or have even written yourself (hes your number one fan!!!!!

ᰔ if you wear glasses, you probably lost them/cant use them anymore since the prescription has to be updated. SO : carl would do his best to help you with that

ᰔ he'd read to you if your eyes get tired and describe sights to you if your eye sight's that bad (he finds you squinting adorable, but he wont tell you that)

ᰔ he rarely ever takes off his sheriffs hat but he finds it endearing when you take it off his head and put it on yourself (he thinks u look cute chat)

ᰔ if you love to read, carls bringing you books he found on runs and likes to have you read to him, esp if you have a good reading voice

ᰔ carl sometimes struggles with his self esteem which just got worse with the loss of his eye, because of this he feels real warm when you tell him he's pretty and cup his cheek like he's your treasure

ᰔ imo carl's a pretty shy guy so he doesn't really like any pda unless its like hand holding n stuff (love this guy fr)

ᰔ he does like cheek n mouth kisses but like not in public chat sorry but that boy has like a 6/10 rizz (teenage loser rizz fr)

ᰔ michonne teases him about his affections towards you and he gets all red n sheepish (i love you michonne), he also lowk rants about u to her

ᰔ he likes locking arms with u bcs it helps him walk straight n not bump into you (due to his eye screwing with his depth perception and coordination), but also cuz he likes feeling close to u

ᰔ he escapes to the forest with you to read or just explore outside sometimes

ᰔ basic but he lets you trim his hair if youre experienced in cutting hair (i.e : if you cut your own hair)

ᰔ carl sometimes doesnt like when people touch him bcs of what happened to him (s4 2nd to last episode) and he doesnt open up abt it, but if u ask him he'll tell u

ᰔ during those moments, he prefers to just lay his head on your shoulder and just be there with you thinking about nothing

ᰔ carl would listen to descendents so bad guys trust me

ᰔ stargazing with him is a dream

ᰔ if you have trauma from sa he makes an effort to understand you and tried to get you to be open and honest with him bcs it helps him better understand your situation

---- ok now for my alt readers ----

ᰔ if youre a metalhead, he finds it so cute when he sees you get all dark n immersed in the song youre listening to and if you sing it dramatically? he's filled with a tenderness for you

ᰔ if youre a music nerd he loves it when you tell him about the bands youre into and the lore !!

ex : "yeah Ozzy bit an actual bat once cuz he thought it was a prop, he had to go to the hospital after," "im sorry- he bit a bat??"

ᰔ yes its the zombie apocalypse but that doesnt mean you cant raid hot topic/thrift stores/abandoned shop for clothes slay !!! if you're goth, he wears your studded bracelets (they remind him of you)

ᰔ he also finds the music you listen to romantic and lowk endearing (joy division listeners wya???), probably makes you playlists in cassette form so you can both listen to them

ᰔ he'd let you paint his nails black sorry its the truth and he slays with it

ok im going to sleep

bye chat

[midnight-omega]

Anatomy hc

Okiii ur girl spent most of last night trying to figure some things out and draw some diagrams fr

This post focuses on the reproductive anatomy of my omegaverse. I'm gonna go through each of the 6 gender/dynamic combinations and give a little info about how I think it all works :> like everything else this varies from person to person so if this isn't ur thing no worries! If this is ur thing feel free to use it! But if you use my diagrams I'd appreciate it if you credited me be i spent a long time on them 😔

I also want to link this very in depth explanation because I did take a lot of inspiration from it for my male omegas! I adore this concept for them and I'll be using it going forward. The author talks about a lot more tho some of which imma steal some of which Im not :))

Okay lets get into it fr, be warned there are my messy diagrams of all kinds of private bits under the cut. Also if tumblr kills the quality im so sorry fr :((

Male Alpha

🌕 Let's start with our boys here.

🌕 Honestly they're pretty straightforward! There's not too many crazy anatomy changes here. They function pretty much the same as irl amab anatomy does.

🌕 They have a penis and external testes

🌕 They have a prostrate that can be stimulated via anal penetration

🌕 Male alphas tend to be on the bigger side concerning length/girth but this varies from person to person

🌕 Now, the defining characteristic of a male alpha is their knot. Only alphas have a knot!

🌕 The knot is soft tissue that expands during orgasm. This "locks" the penis into the vagina in order to facilitate conception. In simple terms, sperm stuck inside better change pregananant

🌕 The knot typically stays expanded for about 20min after orgasm, but this can vary. Any longer than an hour though, can be cause for concern

🌕 The male alpha usually has a larger knot than a female alpha and experiences higher chances of successfully "tying" (tying here meaning the knot actually gets stuck in the receiver)

🌕 An alpha can knot outside of rut, but these knots may be smaller or not fully expanded since they're lacking the overproduction of hormones that rut creates

🌕 A deflated knot is still visible as a ring of much softer tissue than the rest of the shaft

Female Alpha

🌕 oh boy, oh god, mother mary save us all

🌕 This one was so HARD to figure out fr... let me get into this

🌕 I've always liked the idea of a female alpha having a hidden penis best. One that's concealed where the clit ought to be but expands and pops out during rut or when aroused. I like this one best bc I'm not a super big fan of the anatomy set up of having a vulva and dick and balls all at once, and anatomically I never understood like... the concept of the clit swells a lil and thats the knot bc... penetrate how?? I also just don't like pregnant female alphas much! To me alphas impregnate only not carry

🌕 So hidden penis was my favorite option !

🌕 But once I started drawing out the diagram I immediately had problems placing the sheathed penis inside the body

🌕 My biggest issues were the bladder and pubic bone. The bladder I can move around easy enough, especially since female and male anatomy have it in slightly different positions anyway

🌕 But what was fucking me up was that damn bone

🌕 If we want to replace the clit with a penis the penis is going to need to run straight through that bone. The pubic bone in female anatomy sits right above the clit basically. In male anatomy its a tad higher up but even moving it up it would still be in the way of the penis

🌕 I could continue to move the bone or do away with it but then we compromise the human shape of the female alpha. The rest of the dynamics would look human in the hips and pelvis but female alpha she'd be.. little fucked up. Not to mention I'm sure there's some other wild medical consequence of removing or moving the pubic bone that I'm not aware of

🌕 So... we can't put the sheathed penis exactly where the clit is

🌕 I could put it where the vagina is, but then that eliminates the vagina entirely and makes female alphas unable to have penetrative sex and tbh I'm not into that give her a gspot yk?

🌕 I could move the urethra around, like push it forward towards the clit even more and push the vaginal opening backwards, or even combine the vagina and anus like the male omega but I wasn't a fan of that either. It makes her feel to male omega-y and less unique to me

🌕 Furthermore like... vaginas are low. Like lower than u think, clits are a little lower too. And penises are so high! So.. having a penis come out so low between your legs wouldn't that make penetrating kinda hard unless you had a crazy long horse cock or smth.

🌕 So I ended up keeping the penis sheathed like I wanted, but I moved it up

🌕 The penis head is a little above where a clit would sit but I still removed the clit from her anatomy

🌕 To avoid the bone I had to put the penis above it. This isn't super crazy since the vans deferens also comes down over the bone, but it is a little awkward because this isn't a little tube this is a PENIS. This is a whole long cord of tissue and blood vessels here and I'm not giving her a small flat cock to compensate she doesn't deserve that

🌕 So, her muscle, fat, skin, and what have you is gonna have to push out to make room for the penis sitting above the bone.

🌕 Insert female alpha sheath bulge >:))

🌕 tbh I think giving her a bit of a bump is pretty hot so I'm satisfied!

🌕 However bc its sitting right over a bone any pressure applied to it is going to be uncomfortable or even painful for her

🌕 So... ig if you wanna kick a female alpha in the nuts aim for her sheath fr

🌕 So then I was good for awhile, I had placed the penis in the body in a way that satisfied me and kept the vagina intact

🌕 But okay now the penis has to come out

🌕 The female alpha cock still sits lower than the male one, so we have to do a little more bending to get it to flip up in proper penis formation

🌕 No problem, I'll just give the female a longer base after the knot and said base will be way more bendy than a real penis np np

🌕 Okay but... if we have a noodle base how is the erection staying erect and not just becoming a top heavy string of stuck blood that flops tf over

🌕 Insert what I did with the labia

🌕 I want female alphas to enjoy vaginal sex if they want to mostly for kinky reasons yk but its my world so!

🌕 But this means that I don't really wanna touch the labia around the vagina, they should still get looser during arousal they should still be fun to play with yada yada yada

🌕 But the penis needs something to lock it upright. So I split the labia into even more parts.

🌕 On irl afab anatomy theres the inner and outer labia and that's that. On the female alpha tho I had to get creative. I gave her her inner and outer labia that would function normally

🌕 Then I gave her another set around the exit of her sheath. I called them! The penile labia for lack of creativity and anatomical knowledge! Unlike the outer and inner labia around the vagina, these ones stiffen and lock up during arousal after the penis has been unleashed. This keeps it out and helps it stand!

🌕 I also gave her a middle labia. This is an extremely tough piece of muscle that separates her upper and lower sets of lips. The middle labia supports our bendy base even more and tends to get engorged and may even expand a little to support the weight of the cock and knot

🌕 This isn't fool proof by ANY means and I'm sure ppl who know anatomy better than me have a million issues rn but yk what? This makes sense to me and took me awhile to figure it out fr so I'm content

🌕 Now... I gave her a uterus-like structure and still called it "uterus" for lack of better term. this is not a functioning uterus so female alphas cannot conceive

🌕 But in this model I have this uterus act more like a muscle that helps push the penis out of the sheath. Believable? Idk but its chill with me

🌕 The female knot is generally a littler smaller than the male knot because it's gotta fit in the body

🌕 The knot here doesn't even begin to expand until the penis is unsheathed, whereas in males it may puff up slightly on initial arousal

🌕 Since I did not give her balls, her testes are inside the body where the ovaries would typically be

🌕 insert the part where I tell you alpha sperm does not need to be cool. It can survive higher temperatures which also makes sense considering omegas practically have heat strokes during heat, the sperm would need to be a little tougher.

🌕 But then why do males have balls? I got u fam ! Bc while they can survive in warmer temperatures that does not mean they thrive there. The healthiest swimmers are still kept a little cooler. Female alphas may be less fertile even because of this which could be some fun plot points bc i love female alphas pls write them more

🌕 That was so LONG but I think that's it for her

Male Beta

🌙 The male beta doesn't really have anything super atypical from irl amab bodies.

🌙 The penis of a beta tends to be a lil smaller than an alpha's but bigger than an omegas, but again this isn't always the case!

🌙 We do have a prostate for fun anal times if desired

🌙 Beta sperm is not as heat resistant as alpha sperm. They can impregnate other betas just fine but may struggle with an omega in heat. It's suggested that b/o couples try conceiving outside of heat with the help of fertility experts :>

🌙 Male betas cannot conceive, they have no uterus or vagina

🌙 Betas do not knot!

Female Beta

🌙 Again, not a lot of differences to talk about here, typical afab anatomy

🌙 It is worth noting that in my verse I am not giving female betas periods bc thats mean

🌙 For this reason their endometrium is thinner than ours so the body can reabsorb it without a true heat easier

🌙 I'll also say that beta eggs are just built different for this thinner endometrium

🌙 usually you need a certain thickness for the egg to embed properly to the uterine wall, but imma say that for whatever reason beta eggs are totally chill with a thin lining. They have a better grip or smth ig!

🌙 This allows my girls to get pregnant without an extra added issue due to my silly anatomy choices

🌙 It also makes her different from the female omega which I'll talk about later :))

Male Omega

🌑 Okay ya'll get ready for shitshow number two

🌑 actually the male omega wasn't as bad to figure out mostly bc I stole the idea of the epivagina from the author I linked above the cut!!

🌑 I'll sum up if you don't want to read through the link (you should tho it's really interesting stuff you might wanna use in ur own verse!)

🌑 So like the female alpha there are depictions I don't like when it comes to the male omega. I don't like them not having a uterus and just being... a guy? Like having nothing about them that makes them different than a male beta. Also, like how I said I don't like pregnant alphas, I don't like omegas that can impregnate.

🌑 I'm also not a fan of not giving them a penis and having them only have a vagina and uterus. What makes the two omega genders different then? Breasts? Not a fan tbh considering I like my male omegas to breastfeed with their lil pregnancy boobies (cancer in venus I like boobies and lactation not sorry)

🌑 Basically I want my mpreg and I want my penis too

🌑 So, like the female alpha, we have to give them both parts.

🌑 Since there's not a ton of room between the balls and the anus (the taint is only so big yall) I'm not a fan of just giving them a vulva here

🌑 I'm also not a big fan of the birth canal that develops from the taint when pregnant just bc it doesn't make sense to me that the body just forms and unforms a hole that they have to push out a baby the size of a small melon through. Like in that case pregnancy must be excruciatingly painful on top of pregnancy already being painful and hard

🌑 So... butt babies. Except not quite

🌑 The popular option is the cloaca but... I have issues with that too

🌑 If you read the chapter on male omegas on the ao3 link you can see why. A short cloaca definitely results in poop in the vagina. I don't think I need to explain why poop in the vagina is like the worst thing. As the author points out it also makes it difficult for fun oral time just bc the amount of infections you can get from... constant ass licking/fucking especially bc I haven't seen any male omegas telling their alphas omg wait i need to shower, shit, and have an enema first

🌑 The long cloaca can work ig but then the penis never enters the vagina and thats just not fun. The male omega would never be able to have vaginal sex fr :((

🌑 So I'm going with what the author made up! The epivagina!

🌑 The epivagina is a strong valve-like muscle kinda like the middle labia in alpha females.

🌑 During non horny times the epivagina remains positioned in a way that closes off the vaginal opening. No penetration without literal tearing can take place with it closed. The anus is open and free for poop!

🌑 During heat and arousal the epivagina switches the other way opening the vagina and closing the anus so the opposite is true

🌑 You do not have to be in heat for the vagina to open btw! Just turned on

🌑 During birth we can just assume the sphincters and muscles around this anus and vagina were built for stretching, though it might be recommend for male omegas to anal train a bit to get all our muscles ready for it (there are literally butt plugs the size of a child's head so we can train out asses a lil)

🌑 Now the drawback to this would be that... you cannot have anal with a male omega if he's turned on. Tbh that's okay with me since i'm not really into anal anyway! If it's not okay with u then.. idk change it to fit ur kink babe im not stopping u

🌑 It also kinda acts as a rape defense too in a way.... like a duck if we're not turned on good luck entering the vagina. ofc... the exception to this is heat in heat it's p much always open unless we need to shit rn so ig vaginal rape protection in heat isn't a thing but it's neat outside of heat

🌑 Male omegas do produce very small amounts of sperm but they're such sad little boys it's basically impossible to get pregnant from them. Most of them have clear orgasms if they come from their cocks at all.

🌑 I did raise their balls a bit back into the body. We're still descended but not... exactly the whole way if that makes sense. Our sperm just isn't as cool this way and it's not heat resistant fr!

🌑 Bc omegas get so hot during their heats this can also decrease or fully kill off any remaining sperm production.

🌑 Technically this way you can still get pregnant by a male omega if you're a female beta/omega but.... bc its my verse and I don't really want that I'm gonna say it happens like once in a century it is not really a thing

🌑 The penis here is smaller than anyone else's, but not as small as you'd think. I'm not going the whole micropenis route with them you can still be satisfied through penetration with my male omegas!

🌑 Like the author, I also like the concept of giving them a prostate and an internal clit >:))

🌑 no real reason other than 3 ways for my boys to orgasm and I like it

Female Omega

🌑 Pretty similar to the female beta, not too much difference from irl afab anatomy

🌑 The biggest difference between a female beta and female omega are:

🌑 Slick production (beta's do not produce slick)

🌑 The endometrium

🌑 I gave my beta's a thinner one so their bodies can absorb it and we can avoid menstruation!

🌑 Well in female omegas the endometrium is thicker, about the same as the average one irl or maybe even a little thicker than that.

🌑 Her eggs just aren't as good as gripping just like irl fr, so we need a lot of cushion for them

🌑 especially since female omegas tend to release more than one egg a cycle (2-4 is normal) so if we're all embedding we need more room to do it

🌑 A female omega also can reabsorb her endometrium no worries I am not giving her a period either

🌑 Instead I'm going to say that heat has 3 phases. Pre heat where we get ready for ovulation that lasts about 3-4 days, heat heat which lasts about 1-2 days or less. This is when we are fertile we need to get pregnant NOW, and then post heat which lasts about 3 days where our body temperature is still extremely high and we're still horny and feverous but the egg has passed alas. Its during post heat that we reabsorb and break down the endometrium. Sometimes we might see a little blood a lil spotting yk, but for the most part our heat stroke helps us absorb it idc if that's unreasonable its what imma say

🌑 The term heat usually includes heat and post heat but not pre heat (I mean you get off work for heat and post heat and we use the term heat as a collective to include that 5 or so days but this doesn't include the pre heat) but i'll do a different post for heats later !

I think thats everything if you survived all that thank you for indulging me fr! Feel free to pop in my askbox if you wanna talk about smth and like I said in the beginning feel free to steal but pls credit my diagrams if u use them :))

[somebluemelodies]

i love that there’s an ongoing theme with a lot of the qsmp ships (especially the canon/close to canon ones) that is just this typically serious, nonchalant character - likely with a heavy/angsty backstory - and a character who’s oftentimes silly/chaotic, dramatic, or simply exudes wet cat energy, with or without the angsty backstory

i’m mainly looking at spiderbit, fitpac, and pissa/phissa- read my nonsensical ramble under the cut-

spiderbit!! you have q!Cellbit: a former child solider and an ex-convict from Alcatraz bc he was a cannibal and essentially a crazed serial killer. and his husband is q!Roier, who spent his earlier days on the island flirting with anyone and everyone, has Drama Queen™️ tendencies, and has an alter-ego who lives a double life as a stripper and psychologist. i don’t think Chafaland is canon so we don’t have much of a pre-island backstory for him, if one at all. granted, q!Cellbit we all know that sometimes has the wet cat or chaotic moments, so different dynamics can be interchanged between these two

fitpac!! q!Fit comes directly from the anarchy hellscape known as 2b2t, and as far as i’m aware, has spent most of if not all of his life there. led wars, killed a shit ton of people… yknow, all that jazz. literal war veteran. and yet!! who softens him and literally makes him fucking blush but none other than q!Pac. yes, q!Pac literally got his leg eaten and was also put into Alcatraz but up until he got kidnapped a couple weeks ago, the sheer chaos of this man?? regardless of the angst?? and now he’s slowly healing and getting back to normal too?? a silly lil inventor guy fr

pissa (why was this the chosen ship name again?)!! idk what the hell is going on with q!Phil’s backstory other than that he’s an/the Angel of Death, so there’s whatever angst and/or drama that comes with that. but this man just wants to chill and take care of his kids. and then… you have q!Missa… the MOST pathetic wet cat (/affectionate) on the entire island. and yknow what? i love him for that! the way this man has acted with q!Phil since he returned? i don’t even think i need to elaborate

but on a more serious note tho, i love that the relationships can (and do) run so much deeper too

i’ve talked about spiderbit plenty, but i’ll keep talking about them bc they just mean sm to me. the way they balance each other out and complement each other, the way they’re always there for each other. the way their relationship is so heavily built on trust. these two have so much love and commitment for each other it’s almost sickening. meus pais </3

fucking fitpac man they grew on me so fast :’D there’s a certain depth and potential with them that makes me crazy. they way they could (and do) help each other and always look out for each other. the way that they, regardless of inadvertently or intentionally, help each other heal from all the baggage they each carry is just… ough. i need them to become canon at this point idc. they’re both clearly into each other i don’t make the rules. THE POTENTIAL

i really hope we get more pissa bc it’s literally so crystal clear they care about each other, regardless of how much distance or how much time has passed. and that’s big. just like fitpac, there’s so much potential with them too, even if their marriage is platonic. i just wanna see their dynamic explored more please and thank you. it’s been so long </3

ANYWAY that’s… whatever this was. did this make any sense? idk. these gay cubitos man, i’m telling you. gotta love the lgbtqsmp. if you read all that, thanks :D

[kori-xo]

MY MIGUEL REDEMPTION CARD PT. 1 😀

(OK LET ME JUST SAY FIRST THAT I AM SO SO SO SO SORRY FOR NOT WRITING THIS SOONER- I swear I didn’t forget, I’m just kinda sick rn and going through a writer’s crisis, but ANYWAYS-) 

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Onto the topic of giving Miguel O’Hara a more in-depth reading and explanation for his actions, let me make one thing briefly clear. I am NOT excusing his actions, especially the ones of aggression towards Miles, as many think. I’m just simply stating some of the reasons as to why he did what he did, and to try and get others to see him as the “good guy who makes the wrong choices” kinda trope his character portrays.  

So, to begin, let’s start with his behavior towards Miles. 

Miguel has stated that Miles Morales is, in fact, the “original anomaly,” which is in a way true. Not the statement that he was a mistake, as it’s never okay to tell a child that, but I’m talking about the fact that Miles really wasn’t supposed to be Spider-Man, bc Miles from Earth-42 was supposed to have that role. 

I don’t think he necessarily meant it in a mean manner, bc let’s face it, the man has SEVERE anger issues

ALSO in regards to the fact that Miguel was not initially too aggressive with Miles. Imo, he could’ve just locked Miles up first, handed out info later, and let his dad die without saying or telling him anything about it until after it happened. But he did try to explain everything beforehand, the multiverse, the canon, the consequences of breaking canon, etc. 

I like to think that Miguel is rather caring towards children/younger people, because after all, he did sort of have a child, that’s why he took Gwen in and let her into the Spider Society. 

The only thing is, he’s also plagued with this burden of the multiverse and feeling like he’s the only person strong enough to carry the task of protecting it, and that the guilt of what happened to his daughter’s and dead variant’s dimension eats away at him so much that he feel like he has to do whatever it takes to ensure that safety. 

“I don’t always like what I have to do. But I know I have to be the one to do it.”

This quote also has such a heavy weight to it bc of everything this man has experienced, he’s traumatized fr 

HE STILL HAS A CONSCIENCE 

But again, that continuous mentality to do everything and anything needed for the multiverse kinda clouds that good judgement and led him to acting rashly, not to mention that the Spot can literally dimension hop at will and potentially destroy everything he so hopes to preserve? It’s giving STRESS-

He also projects a lot of his own stuff onto others ngl

“Being Spider-Man is a sacrifice. That’s the job. That’s what you signed up for.”

So like, pay attention to that very first sentence, okay? That being a spider-person is a sacrifice. 

In this statement, Miguel is projecting his own mentality. Remember, Miguel was lonely and unhappy at first. Then he found the dimension where he had Gabriella, and felt like he would sacrifice anything to get that life. And to finally get that life, only for it to fall to pieces, gave him the idea that as Spider-Man, he had to sacrifice his own life and happiness, things he wanted, people he wanted and loved, all of that had to be sacrificed, else worlds crumble, the multiverse collapses, and everyone’s wiped out of existence. 

Therefore, he projects that onto everyone else, that those type of sacrifices have to be made, that they have to live to lose people and be unhappy, because that’s who they’re meant to be, that’s how their life is supposed to go. 

IN CONCLUSION- 

Miguel isn’t a bad guy. He’s been through things, he’s suffered, he needs a hug for crying out loud, it’s just the way he went abt doing things that I think makes a lot of people hate his character 

It’s a lot to unpack, but I just hope they give him a good redemption arc in BTSV 🫶🏽🫶🏽

THAT CONCLUDES MY 12am DEBATE THOOO 

(If any part of this you didn’t understand or need me to elaborate more on, pls lmk, and I’ll do my best 🥰)

@dramatic-delirium

[typekiku]

TSUKIHIME FASHION REVIEW 3!!!

under the dark crimson moon, i write this newest entry of the much awaited much beloved tsukihime fashion review.

it's a duty i must carry out for the sake of the generations of lost sheep both before and after my time that have yet to truly appreciate the true depth of style that is contained within the single greatest visual novel known to mankind (according to me)

yet, i feel as if i am not doing my duty to its fullest... how can i possibly adequately sum the glory of todays fashionista? how can i dare attempt to sum that up?? no! i cannot waver in my faith in my incredibly lacking writing skills nor fear people figuring out this barely has anything to do with fashion... I WILL PERSEVERE!!

on with the show as the youth say!

(SPOILER ALERT: i should mention ill probably end up spoiling a shit ton of oghime and whatnot here so watch out)

so without further ado todays subject is:

drum roll

MORE DRUM ROLL

thanks uhh whatever you are from

MICHAEL ROA VALDAMJONG

yes the one and only roa

BROA

the legend himself, the Serpent of Akasha, Uroboros, the founder of the burial agency, the infinite reincarnatior, and professional Arcueid simp.

we have gathered here today to judge his design and uh fashion ig and whatever else i feel like ranting today about.

lets get right to it.

look at this dude all shirtless and shit like cmon so shameless... cover em up damn. seriously tho this man has a thing for showing off his (or should i say others) bodies like you will see soon.

i guess this comes down to him enjoying the freedom of being fully in control of whatever body he is currently occupying actually?

maybe this is some super deep look into the merits of semi nudism or whatever idk im not smart.

probably takeuchi just wanted an excuse to draw some seriously ripped abs actually i mean this might seriously be the most abby abs we ever see in any TM work. its fucking shredded and roa probably knew that. weirdo

on the flipside that majestic hair is simply incredible. DAMN thats some 10/10 hair. only other hair in this series that compares is my wife arcueid's long hair before her mean little (Older actually but idc) Altrouge got all mean and shit.

umm who is this? what happened to my incredible haired roa?? TAKEUCHI WHERE ARE YOU??? someone please give me back long haired roa... this isnt funny...

do you see what we lost? long gorgeous haired roa should've stayed and im genuinely upset we lost him to this admittingly much better dressed roa. im ashamed of you serpent of fraudkasha

fr tho where tf did he even get this rockstar ass drip anyways? we know SHIKI has been locked up in the outside house for awhile before released thanks to a certain maid... did he just drop by the local hot topic or whatever? did he manifest it through sheer willpower and arcueid simpery?

understandable tbh i too acheive things through arcueid simpery such as dirty stares and social exclusion!!

for reference, here is SHIKI

yea

i guess he just uhh changes him which in hindsight is really fucking sad to think about so lets not

uhh ANYWAYS

ok so ignoring ciel on the right elesia or should i say roa decides the very first thing hes gonna do in poor elesias body is to strip it naked

huh?

yea roa is definitely a weird one. no wonder the other ancestors hate him (besides nero because he is #HIM)

sick cape tho

why is he so hot here actually? what the hell? i underestimated his looks like damn

no really why is he so hot anyways he should look like an absolute freak like he actually is. i see you roa. i see you got that long braid wrapped around your neck like damn son... you may have fallen in love with a literal killing machine and never even got to speak to her till the very very end but i see you.

rizzless bastard.

well thats enough from me so ill drop this classic mahoyo line because i found it very funny without context.

ciao!

[avatarkv]

Hiiiiiii! I'm here again after reading the New chapter of Every Corner Of This House Is Haunted and I LOVE IT!!!! It was really worth it waiting a little while. When I saw the notification on my phone I was EUPHORIC!!! Thank you for coming back to us, dear author 😔😔🤙

Omg I was so broken reading Neteyam's part 😭 It seems like he's trying his best not to worry about his sister, but he's failing!! Like, after all the distance on their relationship, he feels like he shouldn't be worried, but he is 😟

THEIR FLASHBACK!!!!! It made me so happy reading a little about their sibling relationship :))

HE USED TO CALL HER TSMUKE 😭😭😭 WHY DID HE HAVE TO STOP?? Neteyam, pls, call reader "sis" back again 🙏

And it broke me so much the fact that the reader literally taught neteyam the concept of lie 😢 I mean, the navi language doesn't even have a word for lie, so it's normal to a navi not know the concept of it. But instead of him learning the word "lie" as something bad that hurts people, she taught him the good part of the lie, because she lied just to protect him 😭😭😭😭🙏

I kinda feel a little bad for Jake tho (not because of the situation with reader of course, he was wrong), but his whole life he's known as someone that brings chaos and destruction, and he feels he needs to be perfect to deserve to be happy, but he's so focused in it he doesn't even notice when he's being cruel and losing touch with his family. He somehow admits that he's responsible of the chaos the brought to the family and didn't even notice until it happened 😭😭😭

NEYTIRI IS SUCH A GOOD MOM!!! PLS SOMEONE HUG HER :(((((

and I was so surprised by the end of the chapter when reader encountered the palulukan 😟 I can't wait to read the next chapter!!

I love your writing, the way that you work to describe both parts of the situation and not making it like "reader is right and jake is the villian". (Of course im a little biased on reader's side, but who cares 🤭)

It's literally the last thing I'm holding onto to stay on the fandom. Pls, pardon my English! I was so excited to comment on the fanfic that I didn't even have time to see if it makes sense.

Love you, bye!! 🩷💖🩷💖

AIKO MY WIFE HELLO thank you for mentioning the flashback! i actually thought of removing it from the chapter because i thought it wouldn't hold any significance whatsoever, but i'm glad i didn't! how you put it, with reader teaching neteyam the word lie is so heart-wrenching ;( yall are wise fr. to think that he knows that word as something soft and gentle because of reader is BEYOND me, i love you for that

i feel so bad for jake too bby: (( i genuinely think that he blames himself for every bad thing that has ever happened because he thinks he brought it to them himself. my man just wants to be happy

thank you for this! i really love exploring different perspectives and dynamics, it makes the story more in depth that way?? i'm really glad that i'm able to portray it well! (bby believe me, your english is good! ilysb, thank you for reading!)

[alybur635]

*Pulls up a chair* So, you wish for me to go on eh? I've had thoughts myself regarding the options

I want to start off with the fact that I don’t think Hizashi’s death was entirely necessary considering the situation at hand. The only reason that came about was to supposedly avoid a war from possibly igniting over the death of the land of lightning’s ambassador and violation of a newly signed treaty. But realistically, I find the idea that Hizashi Hyuga even had to choose doing this ridiculous. I mean you’re gonna sit here and tell me that the Hokage was really okay with putting all the pressure of avoiding a war with another village upon a single clan because a failed kidnapping of a child resulted in someone dying? You’re gonna tell me the Hokage seriously couldn’t find any other ways? I find that ridiculous! I seriously have a hard time seeing how such a situation escalated the way that it did unless the Hokage purposely didn’t push for further compromise or just didn’t get himself too involved with the whole ordeal. The whole ordeal was a political mess that I feel that the hokage didn’t engage in enough, ultimately adding to the cost of Hizashi’s life that day. IDK I find that whole situation infuriating because surely if more involvement and further investigation was done, they would’ve been able to prove the Land of Lightning was at fault and had violated the treaty first while also proving what Hiashi did was justifiable.

I think his death also played tremendously on his twin and Neji. With Neji it’s a little more obvious to us the viewers/readers: he becomes a traumatized, angry, bitter child who clings to this idea of fate and destiny to cope with his father’s death and the position he has in his life. He openly despises the main household for who they are and what the clan represents: masters who chain down the “servants” like birds to cages. I remember seeing this really cool in-depth look into Neji’s character by the @everyneji blog and I *seriously* recommend checking it out, I think it better explains how he’s been shaped due to his father’s demise.

Now in Hiashi’s case I feel it’s a bit different to see, but I think Hizashi’s death has played a huge part into the man we see him as, especially in OG Naruto. We see the guilt he has for the indirect part he played that led to his brother’s death, but I don’t think it’s just the guilt that came. I think he became as jaded and harsh as he is because of his demise. We get to see that around episode 480ish (pls don’t quote me because I don’t remember the exact episode) but we see that Hiashi here isn’t as…shitty as what he is now. Yeah he’s the head of the clan and YES he still does use the curse mark against his brother, personality wise he isn’t as stoic or demeaning as he is. So in my own opinion I feel he was at least a lot more tolerable when his brother was alive, and him dying resulted in Hiashi being this jaded hardass we the viewers first see in OG Naruto. Now don’t get me wrong this is *not* to defend him and his shitty attitude + actions, this bitch needs to fr be pushed down a flight of stairs. And no I don’t think he was correct to wait as long as he did before telling Hizashi’s LITERAL SON the truth about his dad, that was so stupid. He needs a boot to the head.

Now back to Hizashi and him not being dead:

I don’t necessarily believe him still being alive in the story would’ve changed too many aspects of what we’ve seen in the show. I mean Neji and Hiashi certainly would’ve had adjustments to how they are. But, I still think Neji would still have been angry and resentful for different reasons. Hizashi was easily a good father; he could see Neji for the potential he had and had ultimately blamed his own birth for Neji’s position in life. I mean mans literally wanted what he felt Neji was deserving of. But he also seems like the man that would’ve taken on his kid’s punishment if it meant Neji never had to feel the pain that comes with the curse mark. And even if he couldn’t do that, I think Neji would’ve still resented the main family as much as he did for the abuse he and/or his father would have to endure as branch members. I mean kid Neji adored his father, I have no doubt seeing his father punished by his uncle and the main household would be enough reason to spite them AND still somewhat cling to the idea of fate, just maybe not as tightly.

So while I think several aspects of the story could’ve remained if Hizashi could’ve lived, I still think it would be better to bring him back because it would mean Neji would have him in his life. I mean, Neji was a 4 year old child who had to lay his eyes upon his father’s corpse, that shit’s messed up! I’m sure before team guy entered his life he was a lonely kid; he didn’t have anyone in the clan that was nearly as close to him as he was with his father. I mean at least if Hizashi was alive Neji wouldn’t have been suffering with his pain completely alone for several years. He would’ve been at least a happier character with his dad, he deserves that man in his life. And Hinata + Hanabi deserved someone they could go to if their father was being too much for them, he would’ve been a cool ass uncle who isn’t as bitchy as his twin lmao.

IDK Hizashi was a good man and a good father, Neji deserved to have him in his life entirely. Neji would’ve had someone beside Hinata in the clan who he could turn to for anything. I feel his death was one of those that could’ve been real avoided but wasn’t because of outside forces (also Kishimoto didn’t want a good dad existing in Naruto). Also, if I chose to kill Hiashi that would mean Hizashi would have to see him in the afterlife and imo Hizashi does NOT need to deal with that man in his death, he needs his peace LMAO

[frenchfrywrites]

would you ever write weed headcanons for the twst 3rd years like you did for the obey me cast?

Getting high/high hcs for the twst 3rd years

Cater

He loves to smoke a blunt

He has a huge collection of cute and pink and pretty roach clips

He can do a couple of smoke tricks (he thinks he looks so cool 🙄)

He gets high often. 

Well as often as one can when your housewarden is riddle lol

Speaking of housewardens, he sneaks off and smokes with others outside (due to riddle and rules)

(finds himself hanging with Che’nya, Lilia, Kalim, and surprisingly malleus most often me thinks)

He’s a total social smoker, and is so fun to be around

If he's alone he'll sometimes he’ll bring out a clone to help him with something that he wants

And then he forgets why he did that and just ends up hanging out with himself lol

Trey

I’m tempted to say he doesn’t get high, and is the sober bestie

BUT! I can also see him being into edibles

He could make his own :)

And they taste soooo good

He’s very smart about his edibles too

You could never catch him taking more because it hasn’t hit

Always stacks up on munchies too

Because oooh man eats his weight in snacks and drinks while high

He’s not terribly giggly, but he gets all dopey and lost in thought

You’ll look over and he’s just smiling looking at you- completely lovestruck hehe

Leona

All he needs is catnip hehe

Kidding!! 

Unless…

No fr I’m kidding, he has big bong energy to me

I mean I can see him dabbling a bit in everything

But to me he has intricate very fun and swagful bongs

And he doesn’t get high too often

So that every time that he does get high, he feels it 10x more

I think he could get SO giggly

He’s so playful and joyful :) you can tell when he is(n’t) high due to how bitchy he is

Rook

He likes shrooms <3

Either that or he’s the sober friend

Idk he seems like he would love hanging around with people who are high

He’ll mess with them a little bit

But mostly he’s a good sober friend!

He’ll take care of you and listen to insane ramblings and enable said insane rambling

He just wants to have a silly fun time :) 

But yeah when/if he does shrooms he usually microdoses just to have a bit of euphoria and delight

If he does a big trip he does it alone and is well prepared

Vil

I don’t think he gets high too often

But he certainly indulges from time to time

I see him doing edibles to preserve the quality of his lungs

Okay.. yall know the drinks with thc? I can see him fucking those uppp

He pops open a can and pours it into a fancy glass teehee

He’ll watch a movie and think that he understands literally everything about it… the nuance.. The depth 

Meanwhile he is just so far gone that he’s usually pulling something from nothing

He does NOT get high socially

If anyone asks, he’s never gotten high in his life!!!

Idia

He’s only ever taken a hit or two off of Cater’s blunt 

(partly to get out of the social situation, partly to try it out)

He didn’t think that he got high, but he was gone

That being said, he wants to try getting high more often, but he’s too shy to figure out who to ask for it

When he gets high with you it hits him quick and hard

He still insists that he's not feeling anything

Very silly guy and finally relaxed and at peace

maybe if he does enough he'll finally admit it's effecting him, but as long as you're there he's not freaked out at all

Malleus

Has also taken a hit off of Cater’s blunt

It did not get him high 💔

Idk his dragon fae ass has some weird shit going on and he needs powerful wizard weed to get any meaningful high

That being said, he’s gotten high a couple of times in his life

He likes it a lot and wishes he could do it more often

It relaxes him soo deeply

He gets all sluggish and cuddly and cute

It’s a damn shame he doesn’t get high more often 

Lilia

He’ll take anything and everything!!

He loves getting high and has done just about anything and loves it all

I can see him being someone who gets high with others, but he also has fun by himself :) 

He gets sooo giggly

You might not see him but you’ll hear fufufu coming from somewhere lol

When he does decide to show himself, he rambles on and on about anything that comes to mind

And boy does a lot come to mind

You might not be able to follow his trail of thought lol! It’s all over the place

[bonefall]

hi!! long ask incoming bc uh.

i was bored, so tried to translate an entire prophecy i wrote like three years ago into clanmew!

very sure that i made mistakes (i mean it starts with me constructing complicated sentences when there’s only been a guide on simple ones-) but i still wanted to share what i came up with and am hoping for some corrections if that isn’t too much work.

original english prophecy: ‘‘Six cats and their followers will come, with blood of every clan rank. When the reed with its leaves will echo over the moor through the wings of fog, a gathering will come true. The newly reformed clans will be destroyed and quiet will be brought when the shadows leave.’’

my attempt at the literal clanmew to english translation: ‘‘StarClan-says in-service-of entire ranks five-and-one cats and many clanmateness-contains cats they-rogue-walked. What-if stalk it-powerful-object-owns leaf under small cloud it-powerful-object-owns feathered-wing over territory they-powerful-object-fly? StarClan-says bad-battle entire cats they-rogue-fight. What-if shadow they-powerful/dangerous-object-leaves? StarClan-says no bad-battles and no good-battles.’’

clanmew: ‘‘Ssoen pos ul gorrl rarra om owar rriu om pabparra urriuwang-gryyr rriu mwrrspappap. Hassayyr kaskir ssaswrah russ wowareh eeb hai ssaswrah beof wowa upanna pyrrsfbafbab? Ssoen nyyryakorrl ul gorrl mwrrsarrlkatchyam. Hassayyr washa ssasyorru? Ssoen nyar nyyryakorrl om nyar shemyakorrl.’’

gonna give you part of my thought process behind this,, well i don’t know how to construct complicated sentences in clanmew (a shame fr) so i just. guessed on the placing of stuff? e.g. the ‘in-service-of entire rank’ bit. generally i mostly struggled with that first damn sentence bc it’s very hard to make it simple. i hope it’s clear that ‘clanmateness-contains cat’ is described like that in relation to the six other cats, those many cats are followers of the six cats, not the pre-existing clancats. also, i chose the pronouns for rogues and the like because in my story the medic who receives the prophecy frames the prophecy cats as bad/evil on purpose, so it’d only make sense to insult them. then i struggled with fog... because there’s no word for that now. decided to substitude with small cloud. thought about big cloud = storm cloud, (average) cloud = normal cloud, small cloud = fog or something. anyways i purposefully chose the pronouns for powerful objects because those words are describing the cats the prophecies are about, and the prophecy cats are obviously very important. I had to change so much about the last sentence to capture what it means but i believe i did a good job at that. ‘There will be a bad battle between all cats. What if the shadows are defeated? There won’t be any bad battles nor will there be any good ones.’ since there were no words for peace/quiet/anything of the like. again, shadow has the powerful/dangerous pronoun because it’s a metaphor for something bad. i think that’s everything worth noting down? i hope?

well. i spent two hours on translating this prophecy, but it was very fun. i just hope there aren’t too many mistakes, tho to be fair i went for something that’s pretty hard to translate asghjfhf

This is incredibly in-depth and I'm absolutely blown away, @troutfur wrote up a line-by-line commentary on the whole thing, and I made a bunch more conjunctions because of your work.

So here's what he has to say:

"I’m just blown away! Holly cow, it’s such a huge compliment that anyone took the time to translate a passage like that into our conlang! You’re very resourceful with what little information you had to work with. I’m definitely going to be taking notes from here because I think your translation was a nice stress test of the system and it reveals plenty of areas for expansion.

SO! Let’s go line by line!

"Ssoen pos ul gorrl rarra om owar rriu om pabparra urriuwang-gryyr rriu mwrrspappap."

Instead of “pos ul gorrl” I would’ve gone with “ul-gorrl urrwrah nyams” (entire-rank they-clanmate-own kin). “Pos ul gorrl” to me would mean that it’s an action directed towards every rank.

I also am curious as to why you chose to use the past form of “pappap” instead of the future form which is “papp”. I’m assuming it’s because it’s the form in the lexicon.

Bonefall: "We also haven't covered tense yet, which will be coming up in Clanmew 102. Basically though there's a past, present, and future stem for verbs! Generally, a verb is longest in past-tense."

Taking into account the fact you pointed out the meddie giving this prophecy uses mwrrs to express their disdain of these cats I’m curious as to whether StarClan themselves used this pronoun or another. By using “ssoen” they are implying they are quoting directly from StarClan so if they’re tampering with their pronouns this could be a big deal like religiously.

"Hassayyr kaskir ssaswrah russ wowareh eeb hai ssaswrah beof wowa upanna pyrrsfbafbab?"

Grammatically the main thing I’d do here is transpose “wowa upanna” to right after “hassayyr” in order to get the subject and verb closer together. Very creative on adapting the phrase with the limited vocabulary on hand particularly!

While I would go for an if x then y statement to really get the meaning of the English phrase, using hassayyr like you did is a damn good approximation based on what we gave you.

"Ssoen nyyryakorrl ul gorrl mwrrsarrlkatchyam."

Pretty good! Only note would be the tense again but I will explain that in Clanmew 102.

"Hassayyr washa ssasyorru?"

Good good! No notes.

"Ssoen nyar nyyryakorrl om nyar shemyakorrl."

I would tack on a “sarr” at the end to clarify that StarClan isn’t talking about themselves. Or otherwise maybe use the same verb as teh previous answer. “Ssoen nyar nyyryakorrl om nyar shemyakorrl urrsarrlkatch”: No good nor bad battles will be fought.

-----AND BACK TO BONEFALL

Here are some more conjunctions to play with;

So = Irr

Now = Mwah

If = Nyyeb

Then = Pon

Because = Curr

Ergo = Ewa

When = Niferr

Before = Yeferr

As Soon As = Ssirru

After = Yyirru

Until = Nokeyy

As = Koko

Your work was amazing and inspiring and we love it!

[2offayyo-kzt]

tagged by @spookymultimedia :) thks

1. How many works do you have on Ao3 ?

9

2. What's your total word count ?

24 300 words for the moment

3. What Fandoms do you write for ?

What We Do in the Shadows, I did two fics for Bungou Stray Dogs in the past but I'm no longer in this fandom

4. Top 5 fics by Kudos

I Envy Those Eyes of Yours (36 kudos-BSD)

Clair de Lune (31 kudos-WWDITS)

Checkers(30 kudos-WWDITS)

The Cabin(24 kudos-WWDITS)

Unclouded by my Ideals(22 kudos-BSD)

5. Do I respond to Comments

Yes

6. Whats the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending ?

The angst is often in the fic itself or implied, but I would say "Clair de Lune" or in my compilation of 4 short stories about Sean (no sex in it) "Rotten Soldier"

7. Whats the fic you wrote with the happiest ending ?

every time Laszlo gets to fuck Sean I call it a happy ending, and since all my fics are Seanzlo smut, I leave it to y'all to decide

8. Do you get hate on any first ?

No, what first means lmao ? first fic ? If so no.

9. Do you write smut ?

Practically, only that

10. Do you write crossovers ?

No

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen ?

No

12. Have you ever had a fic translated ?

Nope, but I know what a fucking nightmare it is to translate a fic, Deepl is my best friend (+ my knowledge)

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before ?

For several months now, @godfuckingnamehelp and I have been writing an incredible fic about the life of the Rinaldis ! (with huge breaks to write lmao let's be honest) but it's one of the most beautiful projects I'm working on

Because I think we're doing a great job of giving these characters depth while staying true to the show... AND A BACKSTORY FOR THEM 🎉 !

14. What's Your All Time favorite Ship ?

I don't have an all-time favorite, but here's what I liked best :

Hilson, Voxman, Tenya Iida x Any characters tbh, Sakaguchi Ango x Sigma, Seanzlo, Sean x Charmaine.

I've probably forgotten a few

15. Whats a WIP you want to finish but doubt you will ?

I have a Sean x The Baron fic I will probably never finish, a threesome between Mikey Franky and Seanie that was very good and funny and I should finish this shit fr

16. What are your writing strengths ?

I think I'm always "in character" by my standards

17. What are your writing weaknesses ?

I find it hard to write pure smut without any plot

18. Thoughts on dialogues in another language ?

I like it, if I can drop a few words of French I'm doing it already

19. First fandom I wrote for ?

Bungou Stray Dogs

20. Your favorite fic you've written ?

Among those I've posted, I'm very proud of Checkers because

1) I wrote it in one go

2) it's probably one of the funniest I've ever wrote

3) it's a fic with a kink that I rarely write (feeding kink) and that is rarely present in wwdits fics

But in reality my project with @godfuckingnamehelp is really what's close to my heart, we're working hard on it, it will probably be a fic with 50k words

It will be called "What We Do in the Daytime", and we've posted a draft of the first chapter on Tumblr already months ago

tagging whoever sees this :)

for the curious, here's my account, and GO READ CIGARS SECRETS & SEX, it was a nightmare to write/translate and I have finally done it ! (my longest Seanzlo fic for the moment)

[smellrain]

About "Jack Hughe's Guide To Falling In Love" Chapter 1.

Hello there :) Please proceed with caution, this will contain spoilers for the new chapter. If you want to turn back, click here for the prologue, or here for the chapter. Happy reading!

Okay so first of all: I hope you enjoyed.

Now that that is out of the way: I need to talk about 1. you and 2. the flashback.

Reader: I feel like some of you might be thinking "is she stupid? there is no way she doesn't realise she is half in love with that dude" which. yes. that is half the point. I, personally feel like if you liked someone, especially a friend for a time (bonus points if it's when you first met) then when you do get over them & fall for them again it takes you a lot longer to figure that out because you have felt like this before. This oblivious state will not be forever, dw, but that's just the way it is for now.

The Flashback: after a lot (and I do mean a lot) of back and forth I've decided to include it but I'm not 100% satisfied with it. First of all I just wanna remind you that they were younger back then and teenagers are a little more dramatic, especially in their heads. (You rlly gotta love hormones huh) Both have grown as people, as will be seen. Okay, continuing on: I just needed to give a little more insight to what you felt like back then and what he didn't. It's vital to the story that they never got together, that they never would have worked out back then. (ex: you thinking you could change him, be the exception bestie be fr) You are aware of it now, even if you weren't when you were younger. You liked him a lot more than he did which is just not what I was going for here. Hence the flashback that I still hate lol

Yeah. I think that's about it, but we will see (I might do these a few times but feel free to ignore them! They are in no way necessary to understanding the story, but I do feel that they add some depth.) Hope you enjoyed my insights & come talk to me about it if you have any questions/comments. I'm always happy to hear from you <3

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T R H for ask prompt :))) happy holiday <3

HELLO LIVV and HAPPY HOLIDAY!! wishing you continuing safe travels...!!!! Also this is so fucking long I'm so sorry. It was the writers question. It got me................

T: Any fandom tropes you can't stand?

Heh. I have a distaste for anything that -- this isn't a wildly common trope, notably, just one I see on occasion -- anything that portrays Hawk as helpless / passive. I think he gets fandom-ified sometimes into somebody who Needs Saving (and given some canon events, like, I Get It), but part of why I love him as a character so terribly much is his ridiculous scrappiness. He really doesn't take mistreatment / his situation / even his own negative emotions lying down. Guy's a fighter, even when he wishes he wasn't, and I don't really gel with fanon takes that leave him without some degree of agency in action (with the notable exception of him being literally drafted).

R: Are there any writers (fanfic or otherwise) you consider an influence?

[sickos voice] YES!!!! HAHAHA!!! YES!!!! I'm sure I've said some of these before, so sorry for repeats, but addition of fanwriters makes this particularly exciting yaaaay okay.

Non-fanfic: Well. God. Sorry for the particularly cancellable white-male-loquaciousness double-whammy of Thomas Wolfe and David Foster Wallace. Always chasing Wolfe's sort of deeply poetic, emotional, very sensitive way of writing--how reflective he is, his insane force / presence on the page, and some other intangible quality that just makes me go "jesus fucking christ I have felt exactly this, how did he put it into words" every other page. Makes me insane. As for DFW, well, sorry again -- get a lot out of that sort of grounded intellectualism-feel in his writing (we can argue about its value / veracity forever, but push to shove it really works for me as a reader).

Uhhh Vonnegut obviously, so much so that I almost feel like I don't need to say it 'cause I'm always transparently in writing trying to be even 1/100 as funny, sensitive, and useful in my cynicism as him.

Virginia Woolf!!! Man to render somebody's internal state of being so so vividly. I think I clearly ripped her off in S2G2 ch4, but my god how can you Not she's brilliant. Following from that Alison Bechdel because, talk about your intellectual prose. Man. Can I say fucking Voltaire without anybody getting mad at me. Sorry. Candide novella ever and probably the only thing that will get me through learning French.

Now. Fanfic authors --

First and foremost, cleanwhiteroom, wherever they are. I got into Pacific Rim late, but Designations Congruent with Things is genuinely one of the most meaningful texts I have in my life, fanfic or no. Insane. Brilliant, intellectual, warm, approachable, funny, wildly original. Also, Parker lore, 80% of the reason I was a physicist until I wasn't.

Uhh I can't possibly list everyone in MASH right now, but a quick skim -- Granspn (brilliantly written and beautifully imagined), yukiawison for skillful inventiveness and tackling exactly the themes I always want to see, yaroantheo for the just. MAN!!! the so-well-rendered warmth and depth of feeling and kindness in Homecoming, Remyfire's grasp of physicality and vivid tangibility, gayfranzkafka for really effective formatting play, raven/singlecrow for a Hawk I'll never forget. I am CERTAIN there are others, these are just top of the head.

And, maybe a surprise contender given that I don't talk a ton about BCS -- jimmymcgools does things with landscape and light that make me fucking nuts. I've gone back and just stared at their descriptions of place, light shape and quality, land, etc. -- master at work fr.

H: How would you describe your style?

I do not think there is a single question I could possibly be less objective or accurate on LMAO. My first thoughts in order were: Bad (nonspecific and too mean to Parkers Past), Sprawling (this seems accurate), Concerned With Realism (not actively ATTEMPTING it, notably, but -- concerned. I am Concerned with Realism. Feels true). Melodramatic but maybe not with as much pejorative sentiment as the word usually carries. Verbose. I try to gesture in the direction of comedy? In general summary: Freakin' weird, dude.

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wizardess heart

perhaps unsurprisingly i was disappointed by this otome's story as well lmao same gripes about the MC, i don't like her personality so throw the whole MC away bc rn all she is a clumsy, kinda dumb, naive, happy-go-lucky, bubbly, spineless FOOL lmao these traits aren't SO BAD but they definitely aren't written well in this story

so a little more backstory with the MC's relationship to the school woulda been nice, i think she mentions offhandedly that she always wanted to go and she was finally accepted?? But like also she sucks at most magic so how did she get in?? Was it an application? or do they just watch out for young hopefuls idk

I THINK it would make more sense if she was orphaned young (bc canonically she lost her parents 2 years b4 the events of the game and like?? that seems like not a lot of time to be completely trauma free about both parents dying?? but i've never lost any parents so maybe its completely normal and i'm the asshole) and had an elderly woman figure help her out with her magic, but only taught her how to work with animals b4 she fell ill and later died :^(

ALSO MY MC WON'T BE A FUCKING PUSHOVER bc frankly i'm sick of it being such a common otome MC trait ok?? jeez

she has this wizard role model guy that she really admires but he's only been offhandedly mentioned like twice?? if he's supposed to be an important plot point then?? act like one maybe???

elias' route

tbh i only played this route so i can't speak on the stories for the other routes but this one really left something to be desired for me... so i wanna see if i can do better lmao

SO ELIAS i thiiiink he’s like the tsundere one? so he suffers from typical otome tsundere love-interest syndrome where he is JUST PLAIN MEAN to the MC but it's ok bc he's hot right? then he like likes you and then he's not mean anymore... AND MY BIGGEST GRIEVANCE with the game was they wouldn't let me stand up for myself when elias treated me poorly like!! IM JUST SO!! PISSED!!! EVERY option where i defended myself from what he said!!! WAS THE WRONG ANSWER!!! he would say smthg mean and i'd be like “that's mean” and the game would be like “he likes u, u bitch, show some respect” LIKE!!!! RLLY NOW !!!

so anyway my first change would be going more in-depth into elias' personality and why he is they way that he is and my solution? give that bitch anxiety! like fr fr i think they mention it in game but like i wanna go all in; i referenced a tweet i happened upon (ik very proper medical diagnosis lol) that sounded exactly like elias so i was like "oh work"

the second change would be to give the story a coherent plot? lmao bc i wrote almost everything down and i still didn't remember wtf happened or what the point of anything was and that a problem lol

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Just wanted to say I adore all of your posts. They're all so detailed and in-depth and the amount of thought you've put into Amane is enough for a PhD thesis it's awesome! Whenever I think you've gotten everything you just come up with some new insane observation and it's always jaw-dropping.

I saw your post about worrying if you were talking about her with the sensitivity necessary, and while I can't speak much on it myself, since I don't have experience with the topics related to her, I certainly never noticed any issues with the way you talk about her. So I hope you keep blessing us with your brainrot, you're probably my favorite Milgram Tumblr person!

Oh thank you! That means a lot to me! I get really anxious about it sometimes, yesterday was just a bit worse than the usual.

My thing with Amane is that, while I have Issues that are related to it and what not (non-specific because I like keeping my personal life To Me) I didn't go through what she did so I try my best to do my research and be careful and what not.

Amane reminds me of me a lot of when I was a kid and dealing with Some Shit though, and I like her a lot for that! I like how, not Convenient her story is, if that makes sense.

She also brings animal parallels with her and the idea that she'd be happier if she was more monstrous which makes My Autism go insane- She's just like me fr.