#forever14

[okaurhsk]

𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒 ✿␈ - jayklickin (on Wattpad) https://www.wattpad.com/1276811010-%F0%9D%90%88%F0%9D%90%8C%F0%9D%90%80%F0%9D%90%86%F0%9D%90%88%F0%9D%90%8D%F0%9D%90%84%F0%9D%90%92-%E2%9C%BF%E2%90%88-jayklickin?utm_source=web&utm_medium=tumblr&utm_content=share_reading_amp imagines of drill rappers .

[onethousandseventysevenreasons]

Hi, ▇▇. My love. My beautiful angel.

Today marks 3 years you’ve been gone. Every day still hurts. I have no idea how or why I chose to stay here. You’ve missed so much … I’m a completely different person now. This time of year always brings back such terrible memories.

I know you’re content with the choice you made, but I wish I could have prevented it somehow. I wish I had been there—in real life, and not over the phone—so I could have given you a hug to let you know everything was going to be okay. 

For a while, I was so mad at you.

How could you do that?

How could you show me that?

Why would you do that to our families and to me?

Unfortunately the older I get, the more and more I understand why you did that. The world is so cruel and the escape from reality seems necessary.  They say life is short but I feel like it’s too long.

1095 days without you.

It’s funny because it’s not funny.

It’s funny because I have erased any evidence of your existence.

It’s funny because it still hurts.

I don’t want to be poetic, I want to empathize with you. But the question still passes through my mind every once in a while.

Who hurt you?

We had been friends since I was 9 and you were 8. And then one day you just … Changed.

Shortly after you passed I got raped. It changed me a lot. Not as much as what you did. But it changed me.

I spend every day laughing and trying to hide the fact that my emotional pain is unbearable. People think I’m a guy with no filter and no shame. 

I think the reality of it is, ▇▇, I will never feel the way I felt when it was just us. When we would walk home from school together, and then the sadness I would feel when we had to go down different streets to go home. But then the happiness I felt when you texted me less than 30 minutes later asking if I wanted to FaceTime. 

It’s a fleeting feeling. 

And it fled too fast. 

How can I only be 17? I feel like my life is coming to a closing chapter but people keep telling me I’ve just begun.

I’ve been getting really into my studies and trying to move out. I have 3 ½ credits left, and then I’m done. The issue of the matter, of course, is that my mom is so obsessed with me.

You probably remember that though. I’ve had Life360 since I was 8.

Actually, I think I’ve lost the incentive to keep telling you these things.

I thought about that night. It actually passes through my mind a lot. I tried going spiritual for a while, just trying to see if maybe it could help. I would look at the stars and say that you were up there looking down on me, making sure I stayed safe.

Now the stars hurt.

Now the sunsets hurt.

Being in the dark hurts.

And that’s what you did to me. You left me in the dark.

Now even the thought of you hurts.

I never thought it would get this bad.

You never think the one person in your life you can always depend on will just leave forever.

But maybe it’s not forever, maybe we meet up again somewhere after we’ve died. I have low expectations for that, but I can hope.

I think if there is a good and a bad place, I’m going to the bad place. I’m not a good person, even with all of the nice things people say about me, I’m not a good person. 

After you died, I stopped eating. I dropped like 90lbs, I want to say thank you but all it did was fuck me up. I had to go into a residential program. It was absolutely horrible. They gaslit me and my parents into stuff that wasn’t true. Then they got me on medication just to numb me out, so I couldn’t truly feel the emotions I had. Who needs emotions anyway. I got off the medications they had me on. I have high days and low days, but most are pretty vanilla.

That’s part of the reason I’m writing to you. I found someone just like you.

Just like you…

But, since you left I don’t trust the same.

I don't feel the same.

I don't think the same.

I will deny it until I die to anybody else.

But,

You ruined me.

And I can’t forgive you.

But I miss you. I miss myself.

[kawaiikenna]

OK, just wanted to throw this out there. I have seen lots of Jason/Jazz where Jazz is tall as fuck (is it because of Jack's genes or being liminal? I'm just curious on which it is or if its both?) but usualy Danny is also a giant in these stories. Can I just get someone else to see the possibilities of Tank Jazz but with imortal/forever14 Danny?? like pissing off jazz is scary enough, the bats fear her only second to alfred, and the way she talks about her brother, the high king who gained it through right of combat, who will go absolutely feral if you threaten his family, who yes can do the eldrich entity size of a building thing but its honestly as draining if not more as the wail, then one day he just pops up outa nowhere at family dinner night with the waynes dead tired cause he spent last who knows how long at royal court arguing with stupid eyeballs. Sam and Tuck have finals so he dosent want to bug them but he just wants a hug and someone to take care of him for awhile cause he's working himself sick again so Clockwork punted him over with a staybag (including lots of ecto cookies, his favorite star jammies and Bearbert) and a stickynote to Jazz stuck in his hair and everyone else is like "this is him???? this tiny child????" Jason is just happy to finally meet his brother in law who had also set up a house call with Frostbite a while back to fix his pit tainted ecto.

Part 2

My dude. My dude, I love this so much!! >w<

I honestly have always headcanoned Danny as forever 14. At least in his ghost/Phantom form. His human/Fenton form still grows and changes and such. This then causes such a severe disconnect between the two that people just assume that Fenton and Phantom are completely separate entities/people.

Now with tall Jazz I’m going to have to say that it’s a combination of both. Like she had always carried Jack’s height in her genes. It just needed to be unlocked somehow. That’s where being ecto-contaminated and liminal come into play. It just kinda fucks around and finds out honestly. Like the exact science is there she just doesn’t really care about it being there.

I do love the idea of where a very sleep deprived and weary Danny is basically forced into taking a sabbatical by Clockwork and the King’s Council. Jazz being the Queen Mother, is the one most qualified to be able to take care of the little King. And so Jazz does exactly that.

Thank you so much for sending me your ideas and headcanons! I love to hear about other people’s thoughts and opinions on things like this. ^w^

[buedas]

#cutsie #coquette #blog #y2k #girl #pink #bows #leopard #ruffles #maryjanes #forever14 #justagirl #sosa

[candidamorris]

Crying is so important; it helps us to cope with all the feelings we have no way of processing otherwise. Just because you cry alone does not mean you are alone. We must each of us address our feelings, good, bad, crushing, etc. Even happy events can overwhelm us; crying is healthy. I will face this life with eyes that sparkle from the tears they shed. I love endlessly; I hurt endlessly, yet I know whom I trust, He is with us always. Ka'tiauna's mom #forever14 6-22-21 #katiauna #sayiloveyou #lifeisfragile #suicidesurviver https://www.instagram.com/p/CZ-TjLNvhAD/?utm_medium=tumblr

[snakelady]

Made you laugh!!! #NoShame #Forever14 #NeverEatTheWholeCanOfMixedNuts! #oohThatSmell #CantYouSmellThatSmell #earworm #BarkingSpiders #NeverGrowUp #FreeGas (at Durham, North Carolina) https://www.instagram.com/p/B92DPJHBfA3/?igshid=kpi6teh0bo50

[dutch-nt]

One year ago today, football lost a true legend. 

[dfordead]

/Lighting strikes. I'm terrified. Can't run and hide. From this storm inside./ _________________________ What a amazing weekend it was and what a shitty week it's gonna be! Got tattooed for a good cause, saw one of THE best live bands I know off and met up with a bunch of people I haven't seen in forever over the weekend! <3 And now it's valentines day, the second worst day in the year and I'm lonelier than ever AND have the day off haha. Oh well. #forever14 #sorrtnotsorry #flashtattoo

[remism]

Pokemon trainer Ritsu’s 12th anniversary! #Forever14

[unnormallysometimes]

28.03.2018

To miał być mój Ala pamiętnik xd miałam tu pisać. Ale tak mi mega brakowało czasu , więc wyszło jak wyszło xddd Jutro idziemy na 15 urodziny mojego przyjaciela . Nie żyje , ale wciąż możemy obchodzić rocznicę jego urodzin prawda ? W pewnym sensie będą to urodziny-niespodzianka , prawda? No nic mu nie mówiliśmy. Ehh pamiętam jak było tam rok temu… W sensie jak do niego przyszliśmy na urodziny. Teraz no nie wiem jadę na cmentarz z dwoma osobami i żapaimy swiecy i damy kwiatki.jak obchodzić urodziny osoby której nie ma tu ? Brakuje mi go. Umiem żyć bez niego funkcjonować. Ale życie gdy go nie ma jest bardzo takie ... nie ubarwione. Brakuje mi jego pomysłów tej takiej no ufności , on wszystkim ufał i to o wiele za bardzo i tego jego braku racjonalności które nieraz mnie wkurwiala. Ehhh. I uwielbiał Melanie Martinez. A dzień po jego śmierci słuchaliśmy cry baby.

[wj-travis-blog]

同事赛间抓拍。＃FT #gametime #forever14

[kemptoca]

Happy birthday to most annoying person I know @candycanekemp could have killed you a few times by now but hell what are sisters for. #forever14 love you boo!

[throughtheeyesofthedelusional]

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He's here! Finally! #forever14 #thierryhenry #legend #arsenal #mumbai (at NSCI Mumbai)

[wydawnictwoliterackie]

To będzie jedna z najważniejszych książek sportowych tego roku. 30 marca w księgarniach. #johancruyff #cruyff #football #goal #barca #ajax #forever14 #guardiola #pepguardiola #jordicruyff (w: Wydawnictwo Literackie)

[menudo1020]

Thank you for sharing. Bryan was a sweet, and happy boy. Never would have imagined his depression. Rip honey. We all miss you and love you forever. #forever14

On a very serious note, Tuesday of this week I unfortunately received some terrible news.  

I rarely check the DMs on my @JohnnyChristOfficial Instagram, but for some reason on that morning I decided to give them a look. I started to read a message that said “thank you for meeting and taking a picture with my son at Monster Jam.”

I remembered a man and his son had come to the seats where my family and I sat in Angeles Stadium and asked for a photo. They both had smiles on their faces, we shook hands, took a picture, said our hellos and they were on their way.

Super respectful and nice, I was glad to have met them.  The DM went on to say that this man’s son of only 14 years of age two nights later took his own life. I was stunned. He seemed like any other teenager enjoying a monster truck rally with his dad.

All smiles greeting me and saying that Avenged Sevenfold was his favorite band. His name was Bryan Keehmer. He loved to shred on his guitar and was someone you’d never guess struggled with depression.

I want to share my deepest condolences to his family and loved ones as they grieve and try to make sense of their loss.  When I met Bryan that night I was with my three year old son, and as a father I can’t even imagine what his parents are going through.  

Mental illness charities and services have helped raise awareness to the public on the severity of this issue, but there is still work to be done.  Bryan’s family has told me they plan to set up some sort of foundation in his honor, but in this sudden loss they are still just trying to make sense of it all.  I asked that Bryan’s father keep me informed and when the foundation is set, I’ll let you all know.  

In the meantime here are just a few of the many mental awareness charities I found if you feel so inclined to donate in his name or would like to help raise awareness to the cause.  These sites also offer help lines and services, so if you are someone struggling with mental health issues or depression I urge you to please ask for help from these or one of the many others you can find in a simple google search.

NAMI: National Alliance on Mental Illness

AFSP: American Foundation for Suicide Prevention

Young Minds

RIP Bryan Keehmer

[candidamorris]

Ka'tiauna, you have always been part of me; you will always be part of me. In the silence of my cries, in the hidden screams of my heart, you are with me. As your mother, I will carry you into all the tomorrow of this life. Till we meet again. #katiauna #sayiloveyou #forever14 #suicidesurviver #lifeisfragile #bendnotbreak #bendnotbreaktour https://www.instagram.com/p/CYLwf-prJDH/?utm_medium=tumblr