#for the context of the jealous thing just pretend someone got to close to johnny and sonya

[failyaoi]

big big BIG fan of jealous Kenshi

[trashcatsnark]

NGL I love how much you have embraced the silverv stuff here - its so nice to read. I submit for consideration, Rogue notices the tattoo while on the disaster date and both Johnny and V play it off as a joke and holy shit poor rogue stuck in a room with two morons.

Also - V getting dressed for that date and realizing they just MIGHT be a little jealous with a side of some thoughts of "Oh God Johnny Would NEVER Feel That Way About Me Gotta Bury This Deep So He Doesn't Know"

Johnny notices the anxiety but is very dense about the cause.

Oh hell yeah, I have fully embraced it and this ship; I was writing SilverV porn before the game came out, like I knew what my ship for this game was gonna be from the second I saw gifs of

“You’re a dick, Johnny” 

“And you’re a cunt, so maybe we’ll fit together after all.” 

That banter sealed my fate and I’m fairly sure I had named and created my V then wrote porn of her with Johnny literally a week later. The devil works hard, but my brainrot works harder and faster. 

Spoilers! 

Okay, so I’ve thought a lot about that date in both a silverv context (and largely how it fits with my V, Aidan and her fic) I’ll try to stay general though. 

Firstly, I whole heartedly believe Rogue sees through their bullshit. Not only is she just good at that, but Johnny even states she has MRE’s (?) and can see through people, like her eyes can pick up on signs of lying. And usually, thats not an issue for when V talks to her, but when she asks about Johnny and their relationship with him. Its a mess. And when Rogue asks Johnny about it, its a mess. 

And when Rogue notices the tattoo it’s like Oh... I get it . And Johnny is of course like, “hahaha, yeah I thought that’d be so funny, the kid hates it.” But Rogue isn’t stupid, she knows a lovey dovey heart with their names, something that looks like someone doodled it on their third grade notebook about their crush, is not really typical of Johnny’s “joking” She knows that if Johnny is not really the kind of guy to hahahaha its so funny to make it look like we love each other; he’d be more likely to get a dick tattooed on V’s arm if it was just to mess with them. For gods sake, look how many people didn’t pick “the other one” because they were convinced it was gonna be a dick. That’s a Johnny just trying to fuck with someone move. So, she doesn’t buy it, but doesn’t push it...with him. 

She asks V about and of course they play it off as “Yeah, Johnny thought it’d be funny, what a fucking asshole, its so fucking dumb, I totally fuckin hate it.” 

“So, why not get it removed?” 

“Uhhhhhhhhhhh, well you see what had happened was, um, I, just uhhhh, never been enough time, I guess yeahhhhhh.” 

Cause lets face it, in cyberpunk universe, getting a tattoo removed should be easy. If you can get blades in your arms and can have a completely newly reconstructed body in like an afternoon; you can get a tattoo removed in like twenty minutes. So, V still keeping it, says volumes about how they really feel.

Now, V’s jealousy and the date. 

I do absolutely agree that any anxiety or ill feeling V might have up until the date; Johnny is gonna feel, but not realize where it’s coming from. I think if anything, he’s gonna chalk it up to V being anxious about giving him control again and he’s gonna be like worried that maybe V doesn’t trust him as much as they let on. 

And I do think a V who has feelings for Johnny, would not be able to help feeling some jealousy regarding Rogue and Johnny. Just because jealousy is natural thing to feel and while you can debate if they were ever a good or healthy couple, you can’t debate they shared very real feelings for one another. And I think a lot of V’s jealousy would come from just how much Johnny seems to first think of/go to Rogue. When he needed to save Alt, first person he turned to, Rogue. When he wanted to bomb Arasaka tower (going by his memory of it and ignoring that the event was probably actually planned by Morgan Blackhand), who’d he go to? Rogue. When he becomes determined to get Smasher, who is he determined to get him with, Rogue. When he first decides to atone for his past mistakes, who’s the first person he wants to make up with, Rogue. When at the rooftop, who does he want to go grab to help him save V, Rogue. 

If you got feelings for someone, that’d hurt, I think it’s impossible for that not to spark some jealousy. And V if anything is also mad at themselves for having those feelings, because they like Rogue, she’s a badass, a legend, they respect the hell out of her. And of course they have feelings for Johnny and they wanna help him make shit right and they wanna give him a chance to enjoy himself. But this stupid reptilian part of their brain is screaming but i want to be the first person he goes to, the first person he thinks about, which they know is also stupid cause for fucks sake the man literally lives in their brain, they’re as close as two people can be and literally when Johnny has the power to go to someone for something, he can’t go to V because they’re reduced to sleeping essentially until Johnny hands back the reigns. Yet, feelings aren’t aren’t always, rational, sadly. 

And to Johnny’s credit, he probably doesn’t even give it that much thought. Rogue is a badass, someone he cares for, someone he can depend on and someone he hurt really badly. The two people he can and always has been able to depend on the most (other than Alt prior to her death) have been Kerry and Rogue. And, bless his heart, the fuck is Kerry gonna do? Kerry ain’t a merc, Kerry isn’t gonna bust into Arasaka Tower or plant a bomb. Kerry doesn’t have the connection to Smasher. So, of course, Rogue is gonna be his go to. And in terms of making things up to people...he literally cannot really do much to make things up to V, not the way he can for Rogue or Kerry. Cause, when him and V are both conscious, he can’t do much beyond touch and talk to them. Hell, even with Rogue and Kerry, he relies mostly on V to help him do anything. Even with people he can interact with and do something for; V is doing all the nitty gritty work for him. V drives Rogue to the theater, V breaks into the theater, V gets the projector going. V breaks into Kerry’s house, V disables the security. V gets in contact with Nancy. V gets Nancy out of Totentanz in one piece. 

Which probably if V actually thought about it critically, does mean he’s going to them and relying on them more than Rogue, but they’d probably dismiss it out of it being for necessity and not because he cares about them and feels he an depend on them. 

Anyhow, Johnny would probably love to do some nice gesture to make up for his bender to V, hell they probably were the first person he wanted to make things up since they are his catalyst for changing. But what feasibly can he do for them? Anything he’d want to do with/for them, would just be asking V go do this thing and i’ll also be here. Anything that would put them in public interacting is out, unless they want MaxTac called on V for looking cyberpsychotic. He can’t even do an at home date, because he can’t cook (engram or not) and he can’t buy them anything nice he has no money and also doesn’t technically exist. He could try to do so sneakily while he’s in control...but he’d be using V’s money so they might as well just buy it for themselves. he can play music for them,,. but that doesn’t seem too special and more than a little egotistical to think it’ll make V feel better about what he did... So... all he can really do, is prove he’s worth trusting by being on his best behavior and more importantly do what he can to save V’s life. 

Then there’s the date. And as usual, I have some opinions and feelings about a thing.  Like, okay, I’ve seen some people (aka Gamer Bros on Twitter) being like, Rogue is Johnny’s girl. Wanting to date either of them is wrong because they like each other. (then you also get the BUT ALT crowd, but rants for another day.) And I can’t help but ask, did we play the same date? Their entire date is about how they’re both desperately clinging to the past. Rogue is trying to reclaim 2013-2023 Rogue and Johnny just wanting for a night to feel like the world and his place in it haven’t been completely rearranged. And it ends with Rogue telling him, she is not that girl anymore, she can’t pretend to be, and frankly she doesn’t want to anymore. She wishes she could be, wishes she was still that tall haired street punk who’d never dream of working with corps or being a fixer, but she’s not. Her and Johnny are no longer the same people who met back in to 2010’s. Doesn’t mean they don’t care about one another and doesn’t mean what feelings they had weren’t real or important; but they’re just not those people anymore. Rogue more so than Johnny since he’s freshly on the course of change.   

Something else in regards to the date, that I think is important to talk about and how it relates to silverv and its something I personally have very conflicting feelings about. The fact that Johnny can initiate some physical intimacy with Rogue. See, I have never chosen the option to kiss Rogue during the date and actually did not learn until relatively recently, that if that choice is made it goes a biiit further than a kiss. I have watched the scene now.

And god I have mixed feelingssss. Like, I get it, but I’m not sure I like it. And I know full well, my silverv bias impacts my feelings on the matter, it’s be disingenuous to say otherwise. But I don’t think the ship is purely my reason for having these feelings. But at the end of the day, its all opinions. So, I get from a character perspective that Johnny and Rogue are trying so hard to reclaim their past and what they use to have that they get caught up in trying do what they would do if this was the 2010’s. And Johnny’s relationships as we’ve seen are very physical, sexual chemistry and attraction are major factors in his relationships because he kept things very superficial most of the time. He even says part of the issue with his relationship with Rogue is at the time he didn’t realize he could let her see the true him and still hid behind walls, kept things at a distance. So, the idea that’d they fall back into the old habit of trying to just be physical and ignore their feelings, isn’t out of character. 

However, and Johnny even seems to acknowledge this issue when Rogue interrupts it, they’re doing this with V’s body. V...who did not consent to sexual contact. They consented to a date and while one could logic that this would mean everything a date could entail up to and including physical intimacy; I would argue that that is something that would need further conversation to have clear consent. And like again, this might come down to boundaries and personal feelings. Because I go back to the bender and what’s been interesting to me is too see different opinions on it; some people weren’t actually bothered at all by Johnny’s bender in V’s body, some people were bothered by the drugs and alcohol specifically cause their V is straight edge. Me, personally, it was the sexual content and the endangering of V’s life. Like, it was mostly funny and oh yeah, I expected that it’s bad but eh I’ll move on, to me, until he started getting sexual with people in V’s body. Like that to me is not just crossing the line, it’s catapulting over it. 

And like I said, Johnny even responds to Rogue’s “this isn’t fair” with “what, you mean it’s not fair to V?” which she says she meant it isn’t fair to Johnny. (Which viscerally upset because you nearly used V’s body for sexual gratification without their consent and you’re worried about Johnny, which tbf Rogue has no way of knowing what V has and hasn’t consented to, so its not on her but that was my knee jerk thought). So, he has some awareness that maybe that was a bad move. 

And yeah, it definitely to me and my V would be a very bad move (unless he explicitly talked to them beforehand and got consent). And in general, it made me feel like, dude, you just promised you’d be better and not break V’s trust but again not a day later you’re nearly using them to have sex. It felt like a backslide, which isn’t necessarily unrealistic, cause change and growth is not always linear, people can commit to changing themselves and still fuck up and not get it right; in fact it’s rare for them not to have any sort of backsliding or repeating of mistakes. 

Again, I will also give credit that he could have been assuming that given V consented to the date, they assumed or were cool with their being physical intimacy between him and Rogue. He also generally, might not have really planned for it to happen, because I don’t think Johnny plans a lot of anything. It very well might have just sort of happened. Also, V doesn’t clearly communicate if the sexual component was an issue in the bender. All V really seems to have an issue with in game is the very general thing of; he misled them and used them. So, he might have assumed that wasn’t ever an issue. And hell, if you wanna go full meta, the player is technically the one who makes that choice and V is largely an avatar for the player, so that alone could be seen as whether or not V would/does consent. 

But, from a story perspective, removing the player choice element. I think how that’s handled would have a huge impact on silverv and where it goes from there. 

Because if V and Johnny did talk about consent prior and V did consent while having feelings for Johnny, god I’d have to imagine they’d still feel pretty hurt, but feel it’s irrational to feel that way and have put their own feelings aside because clearly Johnny cares about and wants Rogue and they should ruin what could be his one chance to make things right. 

If there like in game was no talk of consent and Johnny ends up kissing and touching on Rogue and V finds out or has memories of it surface,that could be devastating for them. Not only from their own feelings for Johnny, but this since of betrayal and hurt. Was the oil field conversation just a lie? A manipulation? V might feel like they were used; that Johnny never gave a shit about them or how they feel. And Johnny would have to deal with the realization that intentionally or not; he earned back V’s trust just to destroy it again. He fucked up again, he ruined everything again, he got his second chance and destroyed it…. And he doesn’t know how, if he can, or if he should bother trying to ask for a third. In general, I do think, V would come out of the date assuming (naturally so) that Johnny really only has romantic feelings towards Rogue, that they’re just a friend at best, a host to be used at worse. I even in my own universe with my V have them after everything is better, everyones got a body, expects Johnny to start pursing Rogue and trying to swallow their own feelings and be a supportive friend, try to encourage and push him to do it and Johnny’s just like please stop, Rogue is this close to murdering us both.

I was gonna add more funny stuff to this and include a shitposty interaction he has with my V over them dressing up for the date and shit, BUT HOLY FUCK THIS GOT LONG AND SAD????? I’M SO SORRY.

[onisiondrama]

(Note: I’m not repeating stories he’s told before and just putting them in parenthesis. I have a lot more videos to go until I’m caught up so that would save me a lot of time. If he gives details I never heard from him before, I will type those.)

[Sorry if this one isn’t coherent. I could not focus on this video for the life of me. It took me three days to get through lol.]

“Don't Trust Anyone” September 23, 2020 - Speaks

Says he wants to make a quick video on why no one should ever trust anyone. [The video is over 40 minutes long 😭]

He wanted to play hero and white knight by giving people he wanted to help things to make their lives better. He’s given thousands of dollars worth of stuff: flat screen TVs, thousand dollar airfares. Males, females, people in their 20′s, 30′s 40′s, etc. People who have met him in person say he’s a generous guy.

Says he gave his mother a quarter of a million dollar house and it destroyed their relationship. He says it showed him the house is more important to her long term. He told her she got the house for free and she said it cost her her relationship with him. He asks why she was letting a house that was given to her for free cost their relationship. He says he offered to buy the house back and she didn’t want to sell it even though it was free. He says he needs a place to film. He says Onision videos aren’t coming back because of his mom.

He doesn’t value his life and he doesn’t have a lot of will to live, that’s why he doesn’t have a filter and tells you how he really is. People play a game to get more respect and money, but he just doesn’t want to exist.

He says there’s at least 10 people he’s given $10,000 of stuff to.

He lived in a laundry room and was on food stamps because his mom was a single mom. He says when people says “it’s only money”, he thinks your a privileged pampered jerk. He says it means a lot to him when someone donates $5 on twitch. He says twitch takes half so he only gets $2.50. [This is really funny when you compare it to the shit he used to say to his fans when he was making over a million a year and the shit he said to them when they wouldn’t pay for the Onision channel when he made it pay to view only.]

He says he gave Cyr food and camera equipment. (Cyr and his gf story.)

Says it’s hard to trust Youtubers because the platform rewards drama. He asks if someone is going to take a DM out of context or lie about wanting to be in a sketch or not. Are you going to pretend to be against something because your afraid of being canceled? He doesn’t want to exist in a world like that.

You invest a lot of time and love in something and it turns around and bites your hand off. People do that because you hurt their feelings.

If you’re not an adult and you’re not blood related to him, he’s a jerk to you so everyone knows he wants nothing to do with you. Besides that he’s nice to pretty much everyone except his mom and an independent voter cousin he has. She stormed off with a red face when he laughed in her face at how stupid she is.

Says his director friend who is very professional and worked with a lot of youtubers said to him, “if only people know you for who you are.” He says he presents himself differently online, using a comedic or acting flair. He did this because he wanted to get the message he’s trying to convey and make an impact. He wants people to feel things when they watch him. The idea of Onision is so big and powerful, it’s impossible to get past the illusion.

He doesn’t feel poly right now. He doesn’t want a relationship outside his husband. It’s too socially complicated to keep two people happy and not jealous. (Chris Rock women try to steal your man quote.) People try to rip apart his 8 year long, successful marriage. He implies Kai stays with him and loves him even when they are at odds, that’s a genuine human being and relationship. Other people pretend to like him. (Moderator said she hated him for a year.)

Says he made a video about cuddlegate and another break up they had with Billie. Says she always visited them, flew out for a week or two weeks. He says it was expensive. He says he asked her if those videos were accurate. She said yes. He says those videos weighed in her favor.

When you sever ties with someone because the person was dangerous to your family, the online community doesn’t care. Certain crimes are acceptable to people online like drug abuse, dealing, lie, fraud.

Describes himself as a goody-two-shoes because he’s a former air force cop. Says people don’t like him because he represents authority, the people who dumped you, your dad, the less hip crowd.

Says Billie admitted she lied on video.

He tries to live in the real world, but he deals with people don’t care about justice or objectivity. They only care about feelings. When all you care about is feelings, then anyone that doesn’t want to be your friend is a monster and a criminal.

When someone blocks him on twitter, he thinks they have the wrong idea about him. He doesn’t hate them and think they’re a terrible person. He’s sure if a person has a coherent, civilized conversation with him, they wouldn’t conclude a lot that’s negative.

Says there’s a lot of cancel culture and #metoo hysteria where people focus on people that hurt their feelings. Says there are a lot of valid #metoo too.

He says talking about women’s rights is compensating and being manipulative. He says someone told him he should do that and he saw it on Amazon’s The Boys. There’s no real consequence. Just social consequence like Johnny Depp’s ex.

People lie and are malicious because he rejected him.

People only care about news about accusations about famous people when people are murdered ever day. You say you’re caring and you just want justice, he can’t help but question your priorities.

Says he was recommended an old update video about himself from Mike who worked with Chris Hansen. He didn’t watch it, he pressed uninterested. Says Mike went to actual court for allegedly groping people.

If Batman was truly against bad people, he would lock up the whole city because bad people are everywhere. They vote, lie, and do things to others constantly based on personal gift. Says he was given an amazing gift to tell the truth. Says it might be the suicidal feelings. He wouldn’t do it, but he would press a button to not exist anymore. He says he doesn’t want to hurt people who care about him. Says it’s contagious sometimes.

Says he’s the giving tree, like the book. Says the tree kept giving and it wasn’t appreciated by the person using it.

Says it’s rare for people to kick him out of their life. (Hannah Minx rejected him story) He says he didn’t blame her and that’s how you handle rejection. You say ok and move on. [lol yeah ok buddy] People don’t give him the same decency.

Says he had a Patreon who donated thousands to him. She had a mental breakdown in front of himself and a few other Patreons during a gathering near Boston. [this is about Dev] She didn't feel like they appreciated her for driving them around, but she was the one that invited them. She’s the reason he doesn’t have meet ups anymore. She was a 30-something woman who lost her mind in front of a bunch of 20-somethings and himself. She burned out the clutch of her car out of rage. She told him she just wanted a clean break after, but he says he didn’t care. He thinks she said that because she didn’t want him to talk about what happened. He says that’s a situation where he’s not negative and appreciates the good things she did, donated thousands to him. He was petrified of her. His two Patreon friends witnessed it and they just wanted water bottles.

He doesn’t think he could have a meaningful relationship now after what he’s been through. Most people he kicked out lost their mind after. Says the ex Patreon didn’t lose their mind after. He says she accused him of sleeping with a 24 / 25-year-old while they were there. They were 40 minutes away from having to leave at the airport. It was 4 am and they were up all night. He was exhausted so he went to lay down in the dark. The two patreons were in the other room. But that women still blindly said they slept together. He doesn’t know who would want to have sex with someone you’re not in a relationship with at 4 am before you leave for the airport.

Someone asked him on Only Fans when he’ll sleep with other people for his pictures. He says he doesn’t know because he has to love someone and be in a relationship with them. He doesn’t want to have a relationship with anyone outside Kai because he’s terrified. Any time he gets close to you people you’re a danger to his family or dishonest.

The cops took Shiloh away when he called them on her and people think she’s some kind of hero. Siren on the rocks. They cry victim and they’re really trying to drown you.

(Skye prenup story)

It’s great he has no friends now. He can deal with loneliness and he has a family. He was giving stuff away and getting little back. He’s finally protecting himself.

Says to make people prove themselves before you let them hurt you. Like getting a tattoo, a spray tan, or dying their hair green. Says don’t actually do that to prove yourself to him. He says that will make you look crazy, he wasn’t being literal.

[headoverhiddles]

Attention [Bill Skarsgård x Reader Smut]

This is based on that Charlie Puth song, Attention. Reader and Bill have been separated for a few months, and the reader knows exactly what to do to get him right back in her arms. Also, Luke Evans cameo!

Warnings: Cheating, sorry if your name is Nicolette, rough/angry sex, semi-public sex/fingering, jealous/possessive!Bill, and steamy public teasing. Also the reader is pretty savage lmao.

The straps on your dress glide up your shoulders, slotting over your collarbone. This outfit you've got on is sure to attract the stares every man at the party you're headed to... but you're only looking to target one. He'll be there, you're sure of it. Whichever woman he's decided to bring this time to insist to the press, "see, I have a girlfriend, now will you leave my private life alone?!" won't stand a chance against you.

Stepping into your heels, you text your friend that you're ready to go, and head out to your car, parked underneath the palm trees of smoggy LA. It's evening by the time you swing by your friend's place, the lights of the city glowing and making it almost what it's made out to be by hopefuls: the land where dreams true. You much prefer New York City, but work is where work is, so Hollywood is a necessary evil. You remember when you and Bill used to joke about it in bed.

"Why can't we just move to New York?"

"Stockholm is nicer."

"Not nicer than New York!"

"Everything is nicer than New York," Bill smirked.

"What would we do in Stockholm?" you had asked playfully, rolling over onto his naked chest so that your breasts were pushed up against his pectorals. He bit his lip with a mischievous grin, bouncing you on his lap slightly.

"Fuck."

"Every day," you growled in his ear, nipping at his ear lobe.

"Every night." He squeezed your ass, causing you to squeal.

"Mmm, but other than that?" you rolled back over to lay beside him on the pillow.

"I don't know," he shrugged, "See my parents every once and a while. Invite your parents out. Find a nice hot spring- we have a lot of those there, you know- and uh... get naked?"

"Everything leads back to getting naked, doesn't it?" you stuck your tongue out.

"When you drive me this crazy?" he groaned, tilting your chin up to meet his gaze, "Yeah."

You cluck your tongue as your gaze shifts to the exit off the freeway. You knew how crazy he was for you... and tonight, you were going to exploit the hell out of that.

"What're you thinking about?" your friend asks you, turning down the music a little.

"How accessible my panties are in this dress," you reply, turning onto a street.

Your friend laughs. "Are you sure Bill's worth the money you spent on those? He's a huge jerk, remember?"

"The look on his face'll sure be worth it," you explain, pulling over the car. You give the keys to the parking employee, who works for whichever studio is throwing this party, and you walk in together.

"(y/n)!" someone shouts, and you turn to see someone you've grown close to. It's Barbara Muschietti, sister of Bill's director on It. You two had met a while ago during the filming of that, when Bill had taken you one day to set.

"Hey," you grin, "You look nice tonight."

"Thanks, love. Look at you! Who are you trying to rope in tonight with this outfit?"

"Oh, you know," you smile, "Someone who'll probably make it extremely challenging for me."

"But who doesn't love a good challenge when it comes to men?" she grins, and clinked her glass against yours. Her brother approaches.

"Ah, (y/n)! How are things going?" he asks, and you nod.

"Good, Andy."

"You, uh... you know Bill's here, right?" He knows about your bad breakup, as it had happened during the press tour for It, which is why Bill was absent for most of it.

"Oh?" you feign, looking around, "Is he?"  

"Yes, I just saw him over by the washrooms. We were chatting about his new project, Castle Rock..."

The rest is drowned out as you think about that project, and how you two had discussed it in a much different context.

"I've got a big surprise," he grinned, pulling away from your lips for a second.

"Yeah?" you grinned back, holding his hands above his head as he ground up against you.

"Yeah. A new project I'm tied to."

"Aaand what is it?" you breathed against his lips, and he was momentarily distracted, dragging you in for another kiss until you pulled away again. "Well?"

He groaned, sitting himself up on his elbows. "It's called Castle Rock. Stephen wanted me for it, cause everyone's big on Pennywise right now."

"Shit," you grinned, "Another Stephen King? You're becoming the Johnny Depp to his Tim Burton."

He laughed. "You know, everyone's making that joke. Anyway, I guess so. I don't mind though. His stuff is pretty fun to do."

"Well, who are you gonna play this time?" you ask playfully, mouthing kisses along his neck. He swallowed, Adam's Apple bobbing.

"Can't tell. C-confidential."

You bit lightly in the junction of his neck, feeling his hips roll up against you wantonly.

"Mmmph, Shawshank prisoner," he breathed, mouth opening in a gasp. "Fuck."

You giggled. "You're hot when you're powerless." He glared up at you, then used his leg to kick you beneath him, rolling on top.

"Not for long, sweet thing."

You phase back into the conversation with Andy, and nod along with whatever he's just finished saying about Castle Rock.

"Oh yeah?" you pretend to seem enlightened, "I had no idea Bill was attached to another Stephen King project!"

"Yeah. He's becoming the Johnny Depp to Stephen's Tim Burton!"

You seal your lips in a tight smile, and excuse yourself to get a drink, saying goodbye to them. Your friend is waiting at one of the tables, hyperventilating.

"What is it?" you ask.

"I just flirted with Ellen Page," she cries, fanning herself, and you laugh.

"Looks like both of us are in for some fun tonight."

Just then, you spot him. It's impossible to mistake his tall, lanky frame in that bespoke suit-- and fuck... he's wearing the pink tie you got for him for your first premiere together. Asshole. Shaking your head, you quirk an eyebrow at your friend, taking a sip of champagne and cocking your head. She frowns and follows your gaze, then her eyes widen.

"Now?" she murmurs.

"Gradually," you smile, and brush past her to approach your prey. "Bill?" you say, smiling, "God wow! Fancy seeing you here."

He turns, and you can tell you've caught him off guard. He recovers well.

"Oh, (y/n). Huh, didn't expect to see you at a party like this," he chuckles, not meeting your gaze, and you clench your jaw.

"Likewise," you grit out, and he clears his throat, looking over at his date.

"Uh, Nicolette... this is (y/n)."

"Nicolette," you say the name slowly, and give her a sweet smile. "Pleasure."

Bill frowns, and coughs again.

"Right, um..." his eyes fight to tear off of your chest, and you know you're already well on your way to stealing his attention for good, "W-we should be going." The dress is karma, and you know your perfume is affecting him too. He’s intoxicated by it, thinking back to when you were his, only his.

"Home already?" you ask innocently.

"No," Bill growls, and you smirk to yourself as your tall ex-boyfriend whisks "Nicolette" away through the crowd.

Fine. You can work from far away.

You go over to the dancing area and find the first body in your way, who happens to be Luke Evans, an old friend of yours. You knew each other from an MTV awards back when you were first starting out as an actress- you had forgotten your presenting notes, and he had stepped in. You tap his shoulder.

"(y/n)!" he grins, "My god, it's been too long!"

"It has," you say, hugging him, "I've missed you."

"Same here. Jon and I saw your latest film, it was quite something."

"Where is Jon?" you smile, and Luke jerks his head back, motioning for his boyfriend.

"Somewhere around. I think he's going around telling everybody he's just met Madonna a week ago. He got to be in her music video- never gonna hear the end of that one, let me tell you."

You giggle, then see Bill looking over at you from the opposite side of the room, trying to pretend he's scanning the room instead of watching you.

"Big favour," you murmur, looking up at the Welshman, "I need you to look absolutely enthralled with me."

"Ahhh, you need the treatment to make someone jealous, eh?" he grins, "Okay, won't ask. This'll be fun." He rubs his hands together, then grabs your shoulders, pulling you in and rocking his body against yours. He then kisses you hard, hands settled comfortably on your hips. You make sure to turn so that Bill gets a full view of the feel copping.

"Fuck," you breathe, pulling away, "Jon's a lucky man." It's not Bill, but it's good, nonetheless.

"So he's told me," Luke smirks. Suddenly, you turn to come face to face with your ex. He looks down at you, almost incredulously.

"Luke Evans?"

Luke makes his exit with a pointed stare, and you turn fully to Bill.

"What about him?"

"Thought he was gay."

You shrug. "Doesn't matter that he's gay."

"Really? Your best friend is gay, would you make out with her?"

"Oh, don't you wish." You hate how entitled he sounds, even though this was your goal anyway.  

"Wait Bill, how do you know all that about her friend?" Nicolette asks apprehensively, and Bill grinds his teeth, patience sufficiently tested.

"(y/n) and I used to know each other."

"Oh yeah," you add, placing a hand on Bill's shoulder and letting your breasts pop a little more, "Right before he decided to go and ruin everything."

Bill lets out that frustrated, almost petulant sigh he always did, and let go of Nicolette's arm.

"I'm gonna go out for a smoke, I'll be right back babe," he says to her, kissing her cheek, and walks toward the door. He turns back, shooting you a look that says, "follow me or else." You do, snapping your straps once more.

As soon as you've left the pad, the door is slammed. Bill's fist is pounding against the wall, but you get the first word in.

"The tie I bought you for the Atomic Blonde premiere? Seriously Bill?"

He whips around, opening his arms. "What, should I have just burned everything you gave me?"

"No, but you don't have to wear it with another girl. Real classy."

"I'm not the one with her breasts in my face," he snaps back, eyes venomous.

"Still. You could've picked one that didn't bring back our memories." You think back to when you had given him the tie.

"For you," you smiled. His eyes lit up, and he took the pink tie, wrapping it around his neck.

"It'll look amazing with my suit," he said, kissing your cheek.

"That's what I thought when I picked it out," you replied, tying it and patting his chest gently. "It's gonna make your green eyes pop."

"Just like your necklace is," he said, feeling the small gems in your chain. You nuzzled your head against his chest, and he sighed, stroking your hair. "How long do we have before we go for hair and makeup?"

"An hour or so. That's when the car is coming," you said, then giggled. "Why? Wanna get up to something?"

"For once, fuck no. I just wanna take a nap," he chuckled, and pulled you down on the bed with him. You hummed.

"I hear that. We've been working on this damn movie for so long I've forgotten what sleep is."

"And we weren't even top billed cast."

"I think we got even less sleep than the guy doing the latte runs for Charlize," you laughed. Bill snorted.

"That's really fucking saying something."

"Poor guy looked like a zombie," you laughed. "To be fair though, she was very nice about it."

"I should hope so, dude nearly got hit by a bus coming back over from Starbucks."

You two looked at each other, and you really shouldn't laugh at that, but you did, until you were in stitches, limbs criss-crossed over each other's on the bed.

"We're gonna look like that guy at the premiere if we take a nap, you know," you sighed, "You always look like a firecracker went off in your face when you wake up."

"What?!" he laughed.

"Trust me, it's not good."

"Mmm," Bill mumbled, and grabbed blindly for the remote. "Netflix it is, then." You turned to the screen and peeked over his arm, frowning.

"What the hell? It's not gonna be Christmas for like another eight months, Bill," you said as Home Alone starts playing.

"Fuck it," he muttered, tossing the remote away, and you smile, settling down on him. He planted a kiss on your forehead, and you looked up, prompting him to kiss your lips. You deepened the kiss, scooting up closer so that you're slotted together, holding each other, as you clutched the new pink tie your bought him in your fist.

Your memory fades out on Bill's angry expression, nose all crinkled.

"Is it the thought of me with someone else so god damn terrible that you have to ruin that too?!" he shouts at you.

"I wasn't ruining anything, I was just telling her the truth," you reply, closing your eyes bitterly. 

"Right, yeah. Like the truth you told the press, that I cheated on you with a casting director so I could get Hemlock Grove?! You thought I’d just call you up once I heard that, right? Were you trying to provoke me?"

You pause, inhaling sharply. "I was pissed, you were an asshole," you shoot back.

"So you wreck my public image?!"

"That's..." you sigh, feeling a stab of regret. That was one thing you wished you hadn't done. "...Not what I was trying to do. I talked before thinking. Besides, your image was doing just fine, Bill."

"No thanks to you."

"You're the one who left me!" you finally shout, getting close to his face.

"(y/n), I was ready to marry you!" he shouts, and you blink at him. "Shit." He takes a step back, puts a cigarette in his mouth, then puts it away again after realizing his lighter is out of fluid. "Yeah, okay? I had a fucking ring and everything. It was pretty, too... fuck..."

"You were gonna propose?" Your thoughts are swirling, thrown off the night's meticulously laid out plan, "Then... why did you leave, you dipshit?!"

"Because I thought I was in over my head!!" he shouts, "I hate rejection, you know that, and I was so scared you were gonna say no."

"Why in hell would you think I'd say no, Bill?" you murmur, "I lo-" You stop yourself, and shake your head.  

"Because the thought of hearing you say no kept sticking in my mind. I couldn't go through with it." He runs a hand though his hair, swears again, then turns back. "Anyway, we're over now. You think you can just run around to every party in LA until you find me, prance around in that little dress and watch me go nuts over you all over again?"

You shrug at him, watching his gaze for a few seconds. His chest is heaving. His blood is up, and he looks predatory, like he wants to grab you and take you as roughly as he possibly can without breaking you. Now that the two of you were right here, standing face to face, you already knew that you had won. 

"That's exactly what I think." 

He stares at you, licks his lips, and exhales sharply. "You're right," he mutters, and grabs your hair, pushing you back against the wall and shoving his lips into yours. You moan a little, and he slides a hand up your leg, lifting your dress.

"I'm all for freaky shit," you whisper, "But if we're gonna avoid a pretty racy headline here, we'd better do this in the bathroom."

He pulls away, looking absolutely feral, and picks you up, carrying you down the hall until you find a washroom. Grabbing the end stall, he locks it, then loses it again, mouthing up your neck.

"I fucking knew I'd have you desperate for it," you whisper, "Ahh..."

"Yeah, well I've been wanting to fuck you again since the day I left," he tells you, lifting you up again, "Your lips... your hands... god, your pussy is fucking magic." You wrap your legs behind him, and watch as he unbuckles his belt with one hand, the other one supporting you with ease. "God, I wanna get my fingers in there..."

You breathe in, biting your lip as he shoves your panties aside, burying three fingers deep inside of you because he knows you can take it like that. He continues to finger you until he lifts you up further, moving your dress up to just under your breasts and reaches into his pocket. He digs around and pulls out a condom, rolling it on. In a swift push, he buries himself inside of you, and you moan his name, hooking your legs behind him as he begins to fuck you against the wall.  

The thrusts are just as rough as you had expected, Bill taking out all of his anger from the past few months. "Don't stop," you breathe, and he shakes his head, grabbing a fistful of your hair to tug. So... he still remembers you love that. Well, you remember what he likes too.

Leaning down and out of the sloppy kiss, you sink your teeth into his shoulder, and he groans, thrusts increasing in pace and force as you pull away to admire the bruised skin.

"You're hot," you smile playfully.

"Yeah... ditto," he mutters, belt jangling every time he thrusts into you. You clench around his cock, and grab his ass, sending you both into a better position.

"Fuck me harder, Bill," you whine, "You're gonna make me cum..." He slams his palm against the wall for leverage, pounding into you.

"Shhhh, we're at a party full of really important people. Someone could leak this shit."

"Let them," you grin, and he gives you a look, before you bite his bottom lip, sucking it into your mouth. You rock your hips down onto him, meeting his thrusts, and he gasps, throwing his head back. "Fuck, love fucking your pussy... yeah, that's damn good..."

You cry out his name, and grind down hard as you cum. "OhhhgodBill-"

"Ahh, (y/n)," he cries, and pounds you both through your climaxes against the wall, the loud jangle of his belt getting quieter as he slows to a stop.  

"Fuck," he mutters, letting you slide back down. You fix your panties and your dress, and Bill cleans himself up, depositing the condom.

"See you inside," you say, and smirk at him. He swallows, and runs a hand through his hair.

"I've got a girlfriend."

"Yeah, I know," you say, "I met her." You saunter past him.

Back inside, you see Bill rejoin Nicolette, rubbing his swollen bottom lip and looking around. He tries to smile at her, and kisses her cheek. His eyes meet yours, and you look at him-- if he looks that guilty all night, she's gonna find out. You shake your head. He always was a shit liar. You turn to glance around-- your friend is on the other side of the room, making out with... geez, she wasn't lying about Ellen Page?

Suddenly, your phone goes off, and you put it to your ear.

"Hello?"

"(y/n)!" It's your manager, Joe.

"Joe, hi," you smile, going to the corner to finish catching your breath.

"I just got a call. They want you for a new TV show."

"Uh huh?" you murmur absently, "Which one?"

"Castle Rock."

You begin to smile, and you turn to look at Bill one more time from across the floor. "Well," you say into the phone, "Won't that be a good time?"