#flyingincandescent

[flyingincandescent]

I recently caught some pokemon that might have some applications back home.

First of all, I remember Aeons wondering something about how much a replicator would benefit from housing a rotom. I happened to find and catch a rotom on Mt. Coronet, so that might be something test-able, if the machine ends up being modified to be compatible. So maybe for another time.

Secondly, I evolved a haunter with a link cable to get a gengar. I know Shard misses the hell out of their gengar, and I know it won't be the same, but maybe they would be able to get along.

Thirdly, I recently caught cresselia and darkrai. I'm not sure if those two can override a curse of no dreams, but maybe I could convince them to give Pane back the ability to dream again. Of course, nightmares included. I've been wondering how to approach him, after I got permission to see him again, and maybe this might be a good excuse.

There's only two plates remaining, as far as I can remember, and I'm still not sure exactly why I'll need dusknoir at some point. Charles floated something that it might have something to do with those wisps, but they've been getting harder and harder to locate, dusknoir or not.

I've got a lot of pokedex progress lately, but some of the entries I'm worried about not getting, particularly the skittish base form pokemon. Still at 8th rank, but I'm getting closer to 9th. I wonder if there's anyone out there that would be willing to trade at the trading post, or if that would even help all that much.

Regardless, something's on the horizon. I can feel it.

[flyingincandescent]

With a name like Rise, take one fucking guess.

Gym leaders and such often have names that match their type which raises the question: which type would you specialise in based only on your name?

[flyingincandescent]

I have to write something about this.

Today in the Hisui region, I was sent to the cobalt coastlands, to investigate the reason why the area didn't have a resident noble pokemon. It turned out that the previous noble, likely an Arcanine, was taken by the sea, having tried to save it's child.

That child, a small Growlithe, has been named the heir, but the warden of the noble told me that the heir was traumatized by watching it's father die, and that she didn't want to subject the heir to that kind of responsibility after witnessing that.

After hearing that, it hit me-- I've had to deal with almost the same things in my own life. Not only am I considered some kind of heir, but I also watched the closest thing I ever had to a father die right in front of me, and not only that, but I passed up the hard won opportunity to take up his mantle as the ruler of Korous, instead stepping aside to let Thoren earn a more civil-minded title with a similar reach.

I'm not sure what to do with this. I was so upset that even The One Who Put Me On These Missions sent me home early today.

What am I supposed to do?

[charcherry-weekly]

Charcherry Weekly - Issue 122

Hello everyone, Mage of Light Nick Card here. The colder weather is bringing activity in spades, it seems. Let's get to the news.

In other news, shortly after the fabric of luck itself had changed, Thoren managed to befriend a shiny dunsparce named Lucky.

As of late, there has been a notable amount of misfortune at hand. Most recent incident involved Heir of Time Thoren Emit. They had encountered a duskull and found themself unable to flee or direct their swellow in battle, and had been locked in a sorry state until their pokemon finally listened to them.

The next day, the dungeon crashers set out to tackle dungeon500.

The party included Rogue of Heart Charles, Heir of Time Rise Emit, their sister Brae Emit, Bounty Hunter Samus Kitten, and Witch of Time Katyleen Kitten. They managed to clear a series of puzzles, also rescuing the dungeon master, aquaticDiskjockey.

At the end, the party encountered the source of their misfortune: the Dice Maiden. Reportedly, she had previously only been a concept, which grew to have a will of her own, after being attributed to being the source of Charles's common misfortunes through sheer hate. She had also mentioned that she was jealous of Rise for attracting a certain page of void, who she had been interested in. The party fought her. Charles dealt the finishing blow with a blast from the Animus Telum, dubbed the Annihilation Burst. This was enough to destroy the dungeon core and the dice maiden, leaving only her dress and some dust behind. A battlechip also appeared after Charles completed their attack. Reportedly, Charles had actually died, or reached a state close enough to death to be revived by dungeon500's multiple life system.

The party took their leave after claiming an amount of treasure offered to them by aquaticDiscjockey. A golden timespace frog was one of the treasures, having been the 13th of a set of 12. The frog was claimed by Samus and is now called nugget.

After the defeat of the dicemaiden, the fabric of fortune itself was changed, no longer pulled by Her influence.

After her death, a ~ATH epitaph was sent to an otherwise mostly empty tumblr blog, which attempted to send a message straight to the CEO of voidco, via the old blog that he had previously curated. No known action has been taken as a result of that message... yet.

there is also @shinyjiggly, however that appears to be a shared blog, with a number of posts made by a vanilla timeline version of myself/Aeons.

At some point this week, a particular tumblr account was found, which appeared to have ties to voidco. The account is unknownworkaccount, and it seems to tag every interaction with a dungeon crasher with their "subject number". Naturally, with everyone wanting to know their funney number [ sic ], a handful of tumblr blogs were set up specifically to initially interact with this blog. Of course, many of them have decided to continue using the platform, as it works quite well and is far less toxic than twitter.

the following blogs have given their permission to be published in this publication:

@sour-fruit

@flyingincandescent

@feverishuproar

@rebelliousnoise

@empoweringkittens

@threecatgirls

@frozenlake2point5

@ifelsethenwhat

On the first of December, on a cool crisp night, a golden wave swept across Starter Planet, having been traced to a set of mysterious ruins which appear to have retconned itself into existence. The ruins highly resemble the sinjoh ruins from pokemon heartgold and soulsilver, known for being a place of importance to Pokemon God Arceus the Original One. It was after this that an embargo was lifted over the transit of pokemon from the very new Paldea region. Brae, having been to that region before the embargo, had a number of new pokemon to gift to various people after the golden wave had occurred. Reportedly, Page of Rage Jovin Castle got knocked out by the primeape he received, but seems to be in a stable condition. Thoren was given an Iron Bundle, a mysterious robotic delibird. Mai and Samus were given two different breeds of paldean tauros. Rise was given a finizen, and Thanatos was given a greavard.

There has been some interest in an expedition to the new sinjoh ruins, though a date has yet to be set for this journey.

The next day, a member of The Fallen had reportedly gone missing! According to Professional Reaper Thanatos Emit, the incident occurred shortly after they had received the greavard from Brae. It had been brought to their attention by a version of Rise's Gallade that had arrived down there at some point. It is assumed that Fallen Member Hyacinth was the one taken by voidco agents, but this has yet to be confirmed. Even the motive hs yet to be confirmed. Further details ongoing.

After Heir of Time Thoren Emit asked about the possibility of when and how to earn a gym badge, Rogue of Heart Charles began studying various sets of gym badges to see what sort of features and unique features they might have. For this, they invited pokemon breeder HAZEL to their sea base. While here, Charles also studied her pokedex to a degree. It turned out to have been used for so long, that a pinkan porygon had emerged from it. Charles reportedly gave HAZEL an upgraded ultradex for the porygon to migrate to. This move managed to be completed flawlessly. It is hoped that this porygon manages to improve the ultradex's readings and data collection.

Also on this day, my double, Mage of Light Nick Card from before the retcon, managed to regain contact with our group. They were very upset to learn that they were apparently manipulated by the page of void to cause that incredibly destructive retcon in the first place. While I want to be mad at my other self, the fact that the page of darkness showed up in the memo while writing this to confirm his intentions really put the nail in his coffin for me. Your dear newsletter writer may have blood on their hands if brought into attack range.

Meanwhile, a mysterious new person known as Flux also appeared in the memo. She apparently appeared on the isle of chronos, searching for the temporics, claiming to resemble one to a degree. It is unknown what her intentions are, but I am confident that she has a good head on her shoulders. There are theories regarding her identity, but those will remain unpublished for the time being, until better confirmation can be given.

This week’s known market stands in Desertia Town:

Purse stand (this week)

Bar Soap stand (this week)

Katie’s potion stand (*CaFAI filling in for Katie when unavailable)

Brae’s canned goods stand (currently being restocked)

shinyjiggly pokesnacks stand (ran by Rufus)

I think that does i for tonight. Make sure to stay safe out there.

https://letssosl.boards.net/thread/348/charcherry-weekly-issue-122

[flyingincandescent]

Dungeon500: take two.

Today me and Brae finally stepped out of the house for a while to go dungeon crashing. It was a place that I've been to before. Brae hadn't visited dungeon 500 before, but she got the hang of it pretty quickly.

Honestly, it wasn't that bad of a run, considering how some others had gone before. I think there was just 2 or 3 puzzles, and we were able to solve them peacefully for the most part. Like sure, there was a talking shark that tried to tackle me at first, but I was able to get out of the way of that.

Eventually though, we entered this minecraft-ass looking room with a catapult in it. Everyone was kinda waffling on who would sit in the launcher, so I decided to step up first. I feel like I need to prove my courage lately. I'm not sure why. I think it might have to do with a nightmare I had a few nights ago.

Anyways, I was launched straight into a white cube which sent me to a white void or some shit. It felt like it was beyond everything, yet still connected to everything. Who knows really. The main point is, we met this figure with a die for a head and a dice dress with tentacles everywhere. Her name was the dice maiden, and holy shit she was a piece of work. Not only did she say that she came to exist by charles's hate for her (still not sure how that even works), but that she was also jealous that her shitty slasher boss likes me more than her??? I don't even want to be liked by him anymore! I can still admit he looks attractive, but good looks and bad habits a boyfriend does not make.

So then, we fought. She pulls out the fucking dungeon core, and Samus wound up trying to pistol whip it like, 290 times before passing out from exertion. I managed to grab her and get her out of the way while Charles was charging a hateful fuck-you laser. Those vibes were absolutely rancid, and its no wonder that charles lost one of their stock lives afterwards. Thank fucking goodness that dungeon500 has that feature.

But anyways, they managed to absolutely evaporate the dungeon core, and killed the dice maiden, only leaving her dice dress behind. Charles wound up claiming the dress, and I gotta say, it looks really stylish on him. I bet they could get away with all sorts of shit with that dress on, for some reason.

After that, we exited back to the lobby with that liquid "dimension master" person, who gave us a pretty kickass stash of loot. I pocketed some assorted treasures to give to Goldie, Charles grabbed the single collector's friendcoin to give to Aeons (who absolutely fucking HATED their time in dungeon500 due to weird bullshit that kept happening to them), and Samus got the golden frog, which I can't help but think might be important later down the line. I think Katie also grabbed something, though I forget what is was. I know she put the chest in the lab lobby just in case anyone still wanted to claim something from it. Have I mentioned its a fucking minecraft treasure chest?

Unfortunately, Brae is still terrified of frogs. Its one thing just witnessing her being afraid, but feeling her fear across the network really underscores just how deep cutting that fear really is. Out of concern, I scheduled a therapy appointment for the two of us, since she accepted on the condition that I'd go too. Honestly, I need therapy for so many reasons that I'm not even sure what to bring up on the first session. Do I bring up the bullshit with Dylan? Do I bring up my history back in the session as a teenage assassin? My experiences with trying to find my identity and where I belong? What about all those times that I've had to witness a dead version of myself every time a doomed timeline ever happened? There's just so much baggage I've been holding onto for so long, I'm not sure which bag to unpack first.

Hopefully I find enough answers by wednesday.

[flyingincandescent]

@frozenlake2point5

[flyingincandescent]

I've got... a lot to write about tonight.

First of all, how do I word this in a way that won't get me booted off this social media platform...

I recently completed my transition. I feel... complete. like I've got everything I've ever wanted, with no compromises.

For the longest time I've been scared, I guess. taking the leap, it seemed like it would be such a fundamental change. and not only that, but I was worried I'd have to leave something behind in the process.

I have my amazing girlfriend/matesprit Hazell to thank for giving me the courage and inspiration to take the next step with myself. Seeing how happy she's become since completing her own metamorphosis, it made me want to pursue what I'd been avoiding for so long.

So a couple days ago, I finally bought the potions I'd need to make the changes I wanted to my body.

It's feels like home more than ever now.

The next day, I decided to do a field test, joining the 'crashers on a mission with Skye. We traveled across time, space, and void, with a familiar but expanded roster, Hazell included. We ended up in an oldass facility in the middle of nowhere, powered by a Dyson sphere feeding off a fucking black hole. It turns out it's supposed to be the control center for a fuckton of different simulated versions of earth?

Anyways, we noticed one of them was in danger of being ripped apart by a singularity, so Skye got us to teleport there, using the jankiest teleporter I've ever seen. Apparently she had the formula that would be needed to tame the singularity or some shit like that.

Anyways, we ended up at a train station, as expected when on an adventure with Skye. Thing is, we were moments away from being wiped the fuck out by a derailed train! and it already took out the native Skye from that world! So I did my duty as a time player and sent the crew back in time, hell or high water. I really fucking thought I was gonna be on the sharp end of paradox space's fork, but it turned out this earth doesn't run on paradox space's rules.

So we went back a handful of hours to try and prevent the derailment. I didn't do all that much beyond a little bit of time bullshit, but we had a solid team.

Skye knew the rails like the back of her hand, which was really fucking helpful to getting us where we needed to go.

Hazell flexed her hacking skills, even stealing cryptocurrency from her native self to get us funds to get onto a train trying to break a speed record.

Coleman managed to find a 5 pound note that we ended up using as a time anchor to get out of a tight spot with some security guards.

Charles had his bag of tricks on hand, cutting through a chain link fence with their pink sword, slapping a portable hole into a locked door, and even praying for everyone's safety.

Jovin lent his strength when needed, punching us past obstacles most of the time.

I mostly handled the comms through the network, working with Thoren to relay messages to the memo for outside assistance. I also spent a lot of time sitting down and listening to a whistleblower that was on the danger train. That guy was a nervous wreck, but for a good fucking reason. He had so much dirt that he could probably bury every damn executive and government official under it all. Clearly somebody though he knew too much and wanted him silenced, because whoever was trying to crash this train went all out on making sure it kept going as fast as fucking possible, even when Hazell was hacking the fuck out of the system!

Eventually, after a lot of bullshit, we managed to slow it down enough so that when it did crash, it was just a regular-ass crash instead of a fatal bullshit incident.

However, when I met back up with the others, Hazell was on the ground bleeding. Since she had become a troll recently, there was no way in fuck we would be able to find what we needed for her medical needs on that version of earth. So I took a chance and called upon the one man that could probably save anyone's life.

Pane.

Granted, I wasn't even sure that he'd be able to make it, since he's been having issues with his voidwalk ability lately, but somehow he at least made it to the control center and was able to rescue us with an emergency extraction button. At that point he got straight to work on healing her. I hadn't realized just how fucked up she was until shit started going back into place. I'm so fucking glad he was there for her.

Also, apparently they're moirails? like, apparently they have some kinda history and have been having feelings jams together recently. that's probably why he arrived on the scene so fast. After he healed her enough, he took most of us to Gene's garden, since the usual exit was down 15 flights of stairs.

I feel like I should have been there for her more, maybe at least got a chance to carry her (Jovin wound up doing that instead). At the same time though, I get the feeling she's in good hands with Pane. Plus, it seemed like it would be awkward to follow Pane and Hazell back to her hive, especially since me and Pane have... some complicated shit between us. like, it would be nice to spend some time with him, but like, I'm worried what others might think about me hanging out with any version of him. I want to believe he's a changed man, but not everyone is willing to accept that.

But like, thinking back to that return to earth. with all the changes that growing up has brought to me, I was worried I'd be hunted down like ET or some shit. It was a good thing it was December because I really had to bundle up to hide my temporic features. at the same time though, there's something about visiting a world left behind, in a time beyond the end. Granted this is the only time I've been in the UK, having never gone out of state until entry, but there was something about that moment of calm, when we were all just decompressing at the coffee shop together. Like maybe, just maybe, this is how it was meant to be. How things could have been in a literal coffee shop au.

But life is never that simple for long, and earth can't handle someone like me entirely. it's the other side of the coin compared to Korous, a place that judges me for my human features. instead having to worry about being pursued for my temporic features.

At least back home I can be myself. my full self, without compromise. without having to hide or discard anything.

[flyingincandescent]

Today was one hell of a day. I got stabbed twice. It hurt like hell, but knowing that Pane was there for me, healing me across The Network, it gave me the strength to continue fighting. I'm not sure if I'm reading too much into this, but it feels like he really loves me. Like sure, I was already confident that even if I did die, Thanatos would handle me well, but that feeling of being supported even at the brink… to know that you're wanted in this world… there's nothing like it. Despite the pain, its worth it for my friends and family who love me dearly.

That being said, I think I might transfer over to the light league if the coliseum on Dawnsring even stays open after this. I don't like killing, I like fighting. While I was taught to kill, it doesn't give me joy to eliminate my opponent. I only do it out of absolute necessity. It was unnecessary today, so instead of dealing a fatal blow, I booted Vamp out of the arena area, sparing them in front of a live audience. Mercy is important to me. I may live to fight, but I fight to feel alive, not to end anyone's life.

One thing's for sure, I'm glad I went under a psuedonym. Like sure, my friends still totally recognized my with my plague doctor mask on, but considering the whole name/image/likeness bit of the contract… They may own Time Trancer, but they don't own me.

[flyingincandescent]

I did it. I managed to stop the rift. I quelled and captured both Dialga and Palkia. I fought strong trainers with skill and might. However, it still feels like the reason that my future self prescribed a dusknoir hasn't truly happened yet. So now, I'm on a quest to find the last of the origin plates, and maybe even complete the pokedex. Not sure if I'll get that cleared, but it seems seeking the plates will give me solid oppertunities to meet the legendary pokemon of this region, which will be essential either way. I've already fought Kamado on the beach for the fist plate, so I've got four plates remaining.

Regardless, I still don't get what's up with Volo. Why is he so driven to find these plates? Is it a special interest or some shit? He didn't pull anything when we were on the peak of Coronet (mostly just his usual opportunistic salesman bullshit), but I'm still not sure what to think of him.

Either way, I think I can safely go home, and deliver these birthday presents back a day or two ago for Kain. It was their 14th birthday? maybe their 15th? I'd have to check the records. Either way, I got them a kickass festival yukata, and a handful of other things I've picked up in my travels. I understand their studies don't exactly leave much time and energy to go pokemon training, but its always good to be prepared.

One extra thing of note though, when we finished our battle on the beach, Kamado wondered if I was a divine being. I guess I count as one, though really only in my own territory. Its nice to be recognized though.

[flyingincandescent]

@frozenlake2point5 this is a call-out post for you

so i actually found that meme with shadow telling me to fold my laundry helpful… so here are some others i made to get me to do stuff when i forget.

[flyingincandescent]

Yesterday was pretty busy. I finally got a reply letter back from Ingo, confirming that he would go to lake acuity with me. I took a few detours, finally finding that lost survey corps guy by the waterfall and doing some mushrooming with a swinub (WHERE THE FUCK DID THAT LEVEL 50 SNOVER WITH A WOOD HAMMER EVEN COME FROM?!), but I eventually got around to scaling the cliff with Sneasler.

I met up with Ingo at the lake, and of course that sleazeball Volo was also there. Why is that fuck so interested in this shit? I know he has a thing about ancient ruins and legends, but come on.

Regardless, me and Ingo entered the newly formed cave, Volo staying outside.

Standing in wait was a zoroark, more fearsome than what Ingo expected. No big deal for me though. Managed to half its health, whiddle it down to a shred with paralysis, and caught it with a leaden ball. That pokemon was no match for my team.

Soon enough, the being of knowledge appeared before us, and offered my my third and final trial. A post from charles that recently got uncovered had expressed worry about the question being changed, but even not knowing what it would be, it was easier than expected. Just had to recite how many eyes a few different pokemon had in given order. I nailed it first try. I usually don't consider myself the smart one in the family, but I guess I know my shit when it comes to pokemon. Regardless, Uxie said I passed the trial, and offered up a claw.

I then asked about restoring Ingo's memories. Uxie told me that it wouldn't be necessary, as the spark of memory he got a few months ago from that time we had a night on the town during that festival should be enough to jog it further (I told him my last name and apparently it was close enough to his brother's name that he remembered something).

With that, we respectfully left the cavern, back into the eerie-ass light of the timeless outside. I'm not sure why my (currently invisible) horns aren't reacting heavily (just enough to get bothered slightly). I can only guess its because I'm not where the epicenter ought to be.

After that, we met up with Volo again, who pretty much dragged us all the way to those ruins in the mirelands.

Lady Cogita showed up there as we looked at one of those legendary pokemon murals. She wasn't sure how the chain would be fashioned, but soon enough the lake guardians showed up to make it work out. They used this weirdass technique that turned the components into what looked like an oversized red necklace. The chain said to bind the world… I need to make sure this doesn't get anywhere near Volo. I'm almost certain he wants to get his hands on it.

Regardless, staying out of reach, I snuck back into Jubilife with Ingo and ran into that kid and the professor. Turns out, Kamado is already out of town and those that hung back are glad to see I'm safe and sound. I told Cyllene about my quest to get the red chain and she approved, reinstating my rank and everything. She played her usual cool and collected but actually cares bit.

So then I got to preparing, took a nap on my old futon pad wiped the floor of some loser's lucario with one strong aura sphere from Alpha Gardevoir, and then went to help someone with finding a good spot for some chimecho that stuck to the eaves of their house. I got dragged off to the mountain when the team spotted me running around though.

When we got to the upper campsite, of course, Volo was there. He said some line about me being his favorite customer and it just did not sit right with me at all. Honestly it almost reminded me of a certain someone… I just want to kick his ass down this mountain.

and yeah, my horns are starting to react more now that I'm up here. Not as much as when I faced Dialga in the present, but at least more than elsewhere

[flyingincandescent]

I've managed to pass Azelf's trial of willpoower. Honestly it seemed pretty easy. I just had to keep trying to hit them. Volo of course gave me shit for missing so damn much, chalking it up to not taking him up on the offer on buying that practice ball from him, but I showed him how good my aim is with a mud ball. I think he stood there in shock for like, a minute after he got hit, just fucking bluescreened over being hit with a dirt clod. Makes me wonder if he's ever gotten his hands dirty in the fields like, ever.

Something he mentioned while we were back at the retreat really gets me thinking this fuck isn't even in the ginkgo guild. Plus the way he just sorta watches everyone else get shit done while he just stands around and spouts lore... I don't trust Volo any further than I can throw him, especially with how many redacted things my friends back home have said with his name mysteriously the only thing not redacted in the whole sentence.

Regardless, I got Azelf's fang and I plan on sending a letter to Ingo about going with me to see Uxie. But for now, I'm getting some sleep.

[flyingincandescent]

Volo has been trying to get me to buy a new product lately. He calls it the "practice ball". I told him to fuck off but he didn't pay it much mind. At least it seems he stops trying to bother me whenever I have the arc phone out though.

[flyingincandescent]

This fucking sucks. I do all this shit for this fuck, and what does he do? He fucking kicks me out! Is he really that pants-shitting scared of what I might do, even after I literally came to the aid of damn near everyone in that village? I've seen Jubilife grow before my very eyes as a result of my actions, and yet this shithead can't get his head out of his ass and blames me for the weirdass timespace bullshit in the sky! I can't even fucking use my time powers in this realm! So for now, I'm staying over at some place that Volo lead me to, after the two clans both said they were too chickenshit to take me in. There's something weird going on, and its more than the sky turning red.

Volo took me to see this woman called Cogita, and I get this feeling like she's wise beyond her years or something. Meanwhile with Volo… I don't get what's with him. He's been looking at me differently since I ran into him on the way up to quell Noble Avelugg. I asked my pokemon what they thought of him and a few of them got defensive against him. Alpha Gardevoir has been glaring at him, Slayer the Zoroark hissed threateningly, and Manaphy started crying. I feel like there's something going on, but I can't quite put my finger on it. So now, I'm on a quest to ask the three lake guardians for assistance on the Red Chain. Apparently Cogita thinks its the right thing to seek out, though my past experience with red chain bullshit tells me otherwise. I don't have any other leads however, and seeing as my phone is going with it, opening secret passages out of nowhere and all, apparently I'm supposed to do this. So far I've visited one out of the three.

Mesprit, the being of emotion, gazed deep into my heart, enough to alert Gracidea. Apparently they were satisfied with what they saw, or maybe they were just surprised that I was already Connected to a network of close friends and family. Either way, I passed the trial and was given a plume. I assume this is the Actually Intended method to create the Red Chain, and not the absolutely unethical way that team galactic tried in the present. I wonder if this is the point where they went wrong, when the shitty group that they used to be kicked out the fuck who actually tried to do things the right way. But then again, Cyline, Cyrus's ancestor (who would probably be ashamed of the shit that her descendant did), actually has a backbone and has been supporting me through this whole-ass situation, even sending her abra over to let me access the pokemon I caught. And the last order she gave me… "Don't die alone out there". She may not show it easily, but I can tell she actually fucking cares about me. I don't know how much she sees what I do for everyone, but she actually wants me to survive. Granted, I'm not sure if I can even die properly while I'm here, seeing as I'm able to get back up after I black out against nobles, but the thought behind the order… it makes me want to cry.

Regardless, if I'm expected to set things right here, then I will, even if there's a part of me that wants to spite Kamado for wanting no less than that just to let me back in the door, but I can't let my bitterness get in the way here. Countless lives are at stake here. The people and pokemon here still deserve to not be threatened by disturbances to time and space. Regardless, I still have two more trials to face. At least they're bound to be more fair than any shitty attempt of justice that would be used against me out of fear.

[flyingincandescent]

I just got back from facing off against Arcanine.

This Arcanine used to be the smaller Growlithe. The one expected to become the successor after it's father died trying to save it. The one that was kept from heavy training out of worry for its emotional state.

I'm... conflicted.

On one hand, Arcanine inspired me to be courageous, but in the other, I had to endure so much that everyone that cares about me is worried about me.

I could have lost my life, but I didn't.

While I admit there are times when I blacked out in the intense heat of the volcanic stage, the fact that I held onto my network connection proves that I didn't die.

I feel like I've been stagnating, lacking direction beyond my divine given duties. These tasks are getting harder to handle, and my family is worried about me, but do I even have a choice when the alternative is pastoral complacency?

I don't know what to do.

[flyingincandescent]

getting some things off my chest

I just got back from my first therapy appointment, and holy fuck we sorted through a lot. It was... hard to let down my defenses, but I think me and Dr. Winters found some things to talk about.

I had no fucking idea that I needed love so much. Am I just looking for it in the wrong places?

And in addition to that, my tastes in dates. Apparently power is a factor involved? Like, it would explain some things, but who the hell can I find that would be powerful enough to distract me from the page of darkness? Let alone someone who's interested in me and isn't taken?

Where should I even look?