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[janetbrown711]

Oh, how the Mind Wanders...

Agustín tries to find Luisa and get his mind to stop spiraling at the same time.

Unfortunately, he's pretty bad at both.

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Agustín was worried out of his mind.

Firstly, he was worried about his amor, his corazón, his vida, his wife, his Julieta. The way she strayed from his touch all morning made sense when he felt her practically steaming skin once she was passed out. He thought the bed was unusually hot that night, but he figured it had more to do with the heatwave passing through. Of course, Julieta had been sick before so when she announced feeling ill he wasn’t exactly surprised. He was more so surprised when her stash was gone– Julieta was always prepared, it didn’t make any sense. She wasn’t careless– he was the careless one.

The previous day had been a rough one though. Mosquitoes seemed vengeful this year, so Julieta had to work extra hard to cover those that were made ill and those that were simply bitten, which depending on that day's weather could leave her out for about ten hours. Not to mention Agustín still maintained his clumsiness, even though he had been trying his damndest this week.

Secondly… he was worried that it might be his fault she ran out. That she was asleep and scorching hot to the touch because of his inept-ness causing him to require five yesterday alone. That she might actually be dying because he couldn’t be aware of his surroundings for five seconds. Because he couldn’t stop stumbling into beehives– because he couldn’t just be normal and function like an actual human being and not some utter buffoon or a puppet with half its strings cut. He despised the thought– he was well aware that blame did very little to change the present situation and that he had to remain strong for his girls, but it persisted like the world’s most stubborn bee.

Thirdly, he was worried about his girls– Luisa especially, because he couldn’t find her. Luisa had always been one to keep things that bothered her deep down ever since she had turned five, which was a habit she shared with her mother (though Julieta’s face was always far more telling). It was natural she’d try to run off and do work in a moment of distress, but that didn’t make it any better.

He was also worried for Isabela. She was more than likely snooping on Pepa and Alma with Dolores, trying to figure out what was wrong even though they’re too young to know how little everyone knows what was going on. If nobody stopped those two before it was too late they’d probably hear something they’d both regret. Not that Dolores wouldn't be used to it…

Agustín thought that the gift of hearing was more of a curse than anything.

Lastly, he was worried about his little Miraboo. The poor dear was 4 and without her mamá or papá. Heck- he probably should’ve stayed with Mirabel instead, but Luisa- ugh, why was making these kinds of decisions so hard? Why did Julieta have to get sick so he had to deal with the three of them alone?

“ Not alone ,” He reminded himself. There was Félix and Bruno. Agustín didn’t know what he’d do without his cuñados. They were probably watching Mirabel and Camilo, as well as Dolores and Isa right now. He was fine, everything was probably… fine. At least- as far as they can be, given the circumstances.

Not that the circumstances were necessarily dire… except that Julieta was burning hot and unconscious which, yeah is bad. But Julieta was Julieta, she’d be okay, right? She has healing in her veins, she always makes everyone else feel better, so surely she can make herself feel better, right..? She most certainly deserved to…

God, Agustín hadn’t been this nervous about Julieta since before Isabela was born. Everything had ended up fine, it all had, just…

Agustín was the one who was supposed to be hurt– it would’ve been a lot less frightening if it was just him. Julieta didn’t deserve this, the girls didn’t deserve this, he didn’t deserve this. At least- he hoped he didn’t.

Luisa.

He needed to find Luisa.

Agustín looked around the crowded square as people buzzed and moved around: it was market hours so naturally everyone was out and about. Including a line of injured people, standing by where Julieta’s cart should’ve been.

“Ay, Agustín! Where’s that wife of yours? It’s getting hot out here,” One man shouted across the way, which earned him a glare from Agustín.

“Julieta won’t be cooking today, she needs to rest!” A familiar, much kinder voice than his would’ve been, spoke for him.

“Félix, glad to see you. Have you seen Luisa?” Agustín asked as the line muttered amongst themselves.

“No, I just picked up the books Alma wanted,” Félix said. “Have you not seen her?”

“Haven’t seen her since breakfast. I hope she’s okay,” He sighed.

Félix patted his back. “I’m sure Luisa will be home in no time. Why don’t you come back with me and we can wait for her there?”

“No, no, I'll keep looking for her here,” Agustín insisted. The shorter of the two nodded.

“Take care of yourself, Agustín,” He patted his back once more before heading back to the casita.

“I’ll try,” He half-joked.

Quickly, he resumed his search for his middle daughter, calling her name and asking villagers where they had seen her last. Unfortunately, she always managed to leave just before he arrived and he’d have to ask more and more. It must’ve been a slow day due to the overall lack of churches moving, which would’ve made it much easier to find her. It also would’ve explained why she was moving so quickly: nothing to do with an anxious mind.

Agustín was feeling the same way.

Repeating said process a total of thirty-two times, he eventually found himself by the old wooden bridge by the river not too far from Casita. The thing was old and half broken– it was rumored and highly suggested that it should be replaced in a few years, but time would tell if anything would happen. Still, Agustín didn’t see Luisa, and so he started to go, when he heard the sounds of a child crying from underneath.

“Luisa?” He called out. The crying ceased at that.

“I-I’m just taking a s-small break, it’s okay Papá,” the voice replied, proving itself to be his little Luisa. He quickly got off the bridge, finding her right underneath the steps up to the bridge hugging her knees and covered in mud. Agustín sat right next to her without hesitation.

“Luisa, querida, what’s wrong?” He asked, wrapping an arm around her.

“I-i know i shouldn’t b-be taking a break, but th-they asked me to r-reroute the river and I want to b-but I fell a-and now my ankle hurts and I-i wanted to go home for Mamá’s arepas but then i remembered she’s sick,” she looked down in shame.

“Are you okay? Let me look at it,” Agustín said. The nine-year-old stuck out her leg and he got a good look at it. Thankfully, it didn’t look broken though a bit swollen.

“I’ll carry you back home, it’ll be okay mi hija,” He kissed her forehead, going to pick her up but Luisa shook her head.

“I-i have to finish, I said I’d reroute it for them,” Luisa said.

Agustín loved the people of the Encanto, he really did… but asking a nine year old to reroute a river? What the hell was that about?

He kissed her forehead again. “I’m sure they’ll be okay for one day. Besides, it’s way too hot and it’ll be better in the long run if you rest now, hm? I’m sure they’ll understand,” Agustín assured, wiping her face of any tears.

Luisa bit her lip before slowly nodding. Carefully, he scooped up his not-so-little daughter and did his best not to slip as he got her out from under the bridge and he headed back towards Casita.

“I’m sorry for making you fall…” Luisa said, referring to earlier.

“I fall all the time, it’s alright,” He smiled.

“I’m also sorry for running off…”

“It’s alright querida, I found you eventually.”

“Yeah…” Luisa went silent for a bit after that.

“...do you think Abuela will be mad at me?”

Agustín had to think of how best to respond.

“Your health and safety matter more than any work getting done,” he decided to say. Luisa nodded slowly, her brown eyes looking down at her hands. Knowing it was likely best to leave it at that, he marched onward, doing his best to not stumble or fall as he weaved back through the town, ignoring any and all questions about Julieta and why Luisa wasn’t working (which he was just sure Luisa was loving… he hugged her a little tighter).

After a while, the pair reached Casita and Agustín brought her to the kitchen where he sat her down in a chair while he looked for bandages (they had to still have bandages, right?)

“Luisa! Are you okay? What happened?” Pepa had been sitting on the stairs, and quickly came over to check on her sobrina.

“I’m okay, just fell by the river,” Luisa could barely look at her aunt, her ears red with embarrassment.

“Oh you poor thing,” Pepa said, patting her head softly as soft rain fell from a cloud above her head.

“Pepa, I thought you were watching Julieta. And where’s Félix?” Agustín asked, finding the bandages and beginning to wrap Luisa’s ankle.

“Mamá kicked me out, so Bruno is watching Julieta for now, and Félix is with Mirabel and Camilo in the nursery,” She said, fighting the urge to correct his bandaging. Agustín noticed this of course, and handed it to Pepa so she could do it instead.

“Guess I'm used to it being the other way around,” He laughed a little. Pepa gave him a pitiful smile before taking his place and wrapping her ankle properly. “How are they doing”

“Bruno hasn’t said anything about Julieta and Mamá went back to her room. Camilo and Mirabel were drawing last I saw, and I haven’t checked on Dolores or Isabela yet. It took awhile for the winds to die down, and even then…” Pepa didn’t need to explain, as a breeze went through the kitchen.

“And what about Bruno?” He asked.

Pepa shrugged. “He hasn’t come out in a while; I wouldn’t be surprised if he was asleep.”

“Papá, can I hang out with Dolores and Isa?” Luisa asked her father.

“Of course, I’ll just–” Agustín started to say but Casita seemed determined to handle this one itself, as it quickly moved the chair to the stairs and then made the stairs move in a way that brought it up and then moved it all the way to Isabella’s room, which it brought inside.

“Well that solves that,” He laughed a little. “Gracias, Casita.” The house creaked softly in gratitude.

“Injuring herself? Luisa never hurts herself,” Pepa crossed her arms.

“She’s nervous, like we all are,” He said, putting the bandages away.

“I thought her powers made her invulnerable,” She said, not meaning any harm. Agustín just shrugged.

“I don’t know about this power stuff, but if she got hurt, she got hurt. I’m sure she’s just used to her mamá being able to fix everything anyway so it’s… a lot,” he huffed.

“Right- sorry,” Pepa apologized. Agustín sighed.

“It’s alright. I just- I’m tired I suppose. The heat woke me up early– I suppose I’m grateful for a little wind,” He again tried to joke, but he really wasn’t kidding.

“It’s the specialty right now,” Pepa half-joked too.

“But you should probably rest. You look like a mess,” Pepa said, well aware she probably did too.

“I.. should, but…”

“Oh dios mio– I forgot for a moment there, sorry,” Pepa facepalmed.

“Looks like we both could use a nap,” He chuckled. Pepa nodded.

“I can make some tea and bring it up for you if you’d like,” Pepa suggested. That did sound good… if Pepa didn’t over boil the water or accidentally mix up the salt and sugar. Tea making was more of Félix’s thing.

“Sure, I’ll just… swap with Bruno then,” he said, not knowing where else he could really nap. Maybe if he set up a hammock, but he was too tired for that, and would rather lay with Julieta– even if she was burning hot and possibly maybe dying.

“It’ll be ten minutes tops,” Pepa smiled before gathering pots once more.

Agustín took his leave, going up the stairs slowly as he truly started to feel the exhaustion settle in. He was ready to just collapse into his bed and to cuddle his sick wife until everything was okay again, that sounded nice.

Carefully, he opened the door and found Bruno kneeling in front of Julieta, but he quickly stood at the sound of the door.

“A-Agustín- I was going to- uh-”

“ Agustín …” A weak voice whispered behind Bruno. Bruno stepped aside quickly to reveal Julieta was in fact, not dead and was looking at her husband softly with a little weary smile.

“ Julieta, mi amor,” Agustín practically sprinted to the bed as he quickly kissed her burning forehead and lips and held her clammy hand that she weakly tried to place on his cheek.

“Amor, are you alright? Do you know what’s the matter?  Is there anything I can do?” He asked.

“You have a bump,” Julieta gestured to the giant bump on his forehead with a weak laugh.

“What can I say? I’m the clumsiest man alive,” He kissed her hand too.

“Alright– I’m just gonna leave you two lovebirds to it… Agustín can tell the others you're okay,” Bruno nodded at the two awkwardly, his face a deep shade of red, before exiting the room quickly. Julieta laughed a little.

“I missed you so much, are you okay?” Agustín asked, noticing that while she was awake, she didn’t appear any better.

“I…” he could see her wanting to lie.

“It… it hurts, Agustín… it hurts a lot.”

“Oh amor…” he kissed her forehead again, completely understanding.

“Is Mirabel okay? I- I had promised- I told her I would play, is she okay?” Julieta tried to sit up upon remembering.

“Hey, it’s okay Julieta, I’m sure she’s okay. I heard she’s coloring in the nursery with Camilo and Félix.”

“What about Isa and Luisa? How are they?” She asked, squeezing his hand.

“They’re okay, amor, they aren’t going anywhere,” he said, growing more and more nervous. “Luisa is with Dolores and Isabela after trying to work a bit and hurting herself.”

“Hurting herself? Is she okay?” Julieta once again tried to sit up, but he grabbed her shoulders to keep her put.

“Amor, she’s alright, we bandaged her up, she’ll be okay.”

“Mi niña pequeña…” She whispered as a painful chill shook her body. “I-i should check on her- make her an arepa o-or something.”

“Julieta, no. You’re on strict bed rest until you get better.”

“I just need to make myself something, I’ll be okay,” she fought back.

“No you won’t. Juli- you pushed yourself this morning and it caused you to pass out. We don’t need you to push yourself even more just for us. Rest… please,” he pleaded.

“The village needs me, you need me, the girls need me, Agustín. I-i need to work, please,” she tried to get up, cringing at the pain.

“Do you hear yourself? You’re sick, Julieta, and we need you to get better, the natural way,” he said, fighting a lump in his throat.

“Agustín,” Julieta’s dark brown eyes started to form tears. “This isn’t a flu– this is Yellow Fever. I-if I don’t do something- I-i could… and I don’t want to… I have to-”

“How do you know it’s Yellow Fever?” Agustín felt his heart sink.

“I have books on diseases and medicines in the back,” she gestured vaguely towards her private kitchen. Agustín didn’t know how he and everyone else forgot about those.

“But Agustín, please, I-i… I’m so scared…” she pleaded with him, squeezing his hand even more, the tears now starting to fall. “Everything hurts… I’m so tired… and I just want to help…”

“Amor…” He wiped her tears away. “The best way to help is to rest. You and I both know you’re in no condition to cook, and trying to work would just make things worse, so please… just relax,” he cupped her face with his hand. She leaned into it.

“B-but… what if I don’t get better? I don’t have back ups, I-i could eventually…”

“Juli, please… let’s just rest for now, okay?” He pleaded, his own tears starting to fall. “All we can do for now is rest.”

Julieta clearly wanted to say so much more, her sickly yellow-tinted face was wrinkled with worries and anxiety, but she weakly nodded.

“You’re right, Agustín,” she forced a smile. “Te quiero.”

“Yo también te amo, cariño.”

A pause.

“Can you lay with me..? I’m… I’m not ready for the girls yet…” she said with a slight shame.

“Of course, cariño,” He kissed her forehead once more before changing out of his usual suit into something far more comfortable and slipping into bed with his Julieta, whom he quickly embraced and snuggled up with despite the sweltering temperature of her skin.

“...I’m sorry for scaring you, cariño. I’m just... this has never happened..."

“I know,” He said, closing his eyes and resting his head atop hers. “But we’ll figure it out together, as we always have.”

“As we always have,” She repeated, a small, genuine smile appearing on her face.

They would get through this together…

They had to.

[falseapostle]

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“... What... What is that...?”

[sillyfudgemonkeys]

I think Chile's general character and VA work can be blamed for that tbh. Ie, a character who's already a little aggressive has, after the og game, a va that makes her come off as very aggressive, whome the anime (both) ramps up certain traits of that. And unlike for P5, which occured after what i feel like is a shift towards scrutinizing anime if games, P4's anime was a lot of people's intro to it. Which creates an image of her that, while I dint think is unfair, isn't in lined with the game.

Of course bias be known, it might just be my circles being very vague but I do feel like P5, while for different reasons, gets the fandom punching bag bullshit to a worse degree. But that's also more or less because the internet's general culture in feel his shifted for the worse, so now you have stuff like twitter blogs dedicated to mocking fans who show passion in odd ways that ultimately don't hurt anyone. Or stuff like the struggle twitter.

No not Chile. DX jdklafsj; jk jk

Yeah, as much as I like Erin as a VA, I don't like her for Chie. Tracey!Chie just hits different and is A LOT more mellow. She still had energy but not like......a sugar hyped squirrel.

Ironically her aggression is always aimed at aggressors/oppressors (or just someone wronging someone else). Take the bullies in her SL. And even then it's mostly just her getting in your face. And she only gets in your face if......I guess you could say obvious injustice happening....like bullying (or you know.....forcibly signing her up for something she is forced to do). But yeah the anime took that....fairly human level character trait and RAMPED IT UP TO THE HEAVENS ....then brought it a back down to a more manageable level for the spinoffs (a better fate than her love for meat or Aki's protein shake now-trait u_u F in the chat for Fsteak orz).

I'd argue that the feelings towards games made into anime's weren't exactly positive during P4's anime time either. I remember a lot of people being worried because it already had a stigma. THAT BEING SAID, as an adaptation representing/reflecting/trying to be accurate to the game, P4's isn't great. As an adaptation that's making changes to attempt to tell a semblance of P4's story? Esp to someone who's never played P4? It does a decent job as an entry point for people who have never played. Like it's coherent enough. Does it change vital things? Yeah. Will newcomers notice? No. Will they at least get something that resembles competent media? To them yeah. To me? I still deal with the sins every day, it's my cross to bear. u_u

P5 got lucky that Persona became mainstream and it helped make it EVEN MORE mainstream, so when it's anime rolled around everyone was calling BS on it. Shame we couldn't have......something good come out of it. (If only Daybreakers was longer u_u)

I prefer to separate the characterizations. Like I don't mind multiple, but I wanna be fair to the char I wanna judge them base off of the original characterization. Like I've read the OG .hack books from Blackrose's perspective, so I sympathize with her. But I really should play the games so I can see her original characterization (without looking through her lens). I'm afraid I might not her as much (from what other's have said) but I can still maintain a separation of "I like the novel, but the OG source I don't like her from the outside perspective). So with Chie I'd rather people be like "I hated her in the anime, tho I know she's diff in the game and I'm glad for that, but at the same time I still have the negative association with the anime counterpart so I know it's that coloring my perspective....still not gonna like her tho." And that's fine. Just stop the smear campaign, I can't take it anymore! DX She didn't do anything wrong she just kicked shadows and saved my ass let her live! *sobs*

I do agree with the punching bag thing. I do see P5 becoming more and more of a punching bag..... I.... don't have any idea why (except "cringe" *eyeroll*). I know the reasons for P4 (and I do think that was....VERY unfair for P4). It feels more like people just want to mock P5 because it's popular. I don't like that the more I see it. Obviously I'm not a fan of P5, I'll tear it to shreds every chance I feel like (like on my own terms not like....cause someone's enjoying it, that's just rude). But what I won't do is shame someone for liking it (maybe IRL I'll say it as a joke with obvious joking inflection, and I'll clarify it's a joke, but that's it). You have every right to like P5, as I have every right to like P4. We also have every right to peel back and look into both games positively and negatively.

But yeah I feel like a lot of the punching stuff is....just being jerk to fans. P4 was misinfo being spread (same can be said about the FeMC, I swear I see one more brain dead take about her music on "fitting" I'm shoving a CD player up someone's ass and using their mouth as a gramophone). It feels more like people rag on P5 cause "fans like it" and "cringe." And????? Like????? There's a lot you can say that's wrong with P5......but why.....THAT? The fans did nothing wrong. And "cringe?" Fuck that. Embrace the cringe. What are we in middle school? Oh no can't like that, Timmy the "cool kid" with all his friends dictated that's not a cool thing to like. Well *gets in close to microphone* screw Timmy and his friends, like what you want. As long as you aren't hurting anyone it's fine. And last time I checked, liking P5 won't hurt anyone.

Narrator: She says, while in reality, every time someone states they like P5, her soul gets punched.

Jk jk. I do actually still recommend P5 to people (tho nowadays I really push to play P3/4 first if that's within reason for the person...... not cause I think they are better than P5, but 1) you appreciate the Igor twist more, 2) it's easier to so the combat going forward than backward so I'm thinking that's probs more helpful but that's just me thinking of the most optimal experience in enjoying all 3 games)

"But Silly, I still like the thing but I don't want people bothering me because it's deemed cringe!" Then be like me, make a separate account and vibe. I recently got back into a thing I liked back in middle school and it's 100% deemed as cringe....like wherever you go (I don't care it's a dumpster fire, it keeps me warm and happy....it's my dumpster fire uwu). And I just wanted to vibe and enjoy the content the renaissance was getting without 1) getting bs thrown at me for liking it, 2) not flooding my main blog which is def Persona (and Megaten) themed cause y'all wouldn't want to see that.)

You just gotta curate your experience on the internet. Do what best protects your sanity.

(was gonna end it there but omg it really is annoying, I keep seeing people just being jerks to fans cause they like the game and it's like sir....your on the negative side but do you even know the actual faults of the damn game? Or are you just being a jerk because you weren't hugged enough growing up? Cause that's not a P5/P5 fan problem, that something you should get checked out instead problem >_> Have a discussion not be a fucking dick god)

I....don't know if the internet culture has shifted to a worse degree. Maybe. I do think it's different but equally worse to Tumblr's mega hivemind at it's peak. But now it's less hivemind and more EXTREMELY divided. Both bad, just different. Can't say that each experience is the same on each platform. It feels different depending if you are on Tumblr, Twitter, Reddit, Gamefaqs, 4chan, yadda yadda

[hergoddessofdeath]

ooc: I ONLY JUST NOTICED THAT YOUR TAG FOR TOMMY IS "LOVE IS A TOWER". YOU'RE EVIL FOR THAT BTW /POS + LH

HAHAH ITS A SONG LYRIC FROM CHRISTMAS KIDS BY ROAR!! roar is one of my fav artists ngl fjkalf;ja but um now's when i should point out most of my tags are song lyrics!!! i pull tags from my character playlists, most of which are public. here's my c!tommy one hehe

[rkxblue]

happy #rkfifth !

i told myself i wasn’t going 2 do this b/c ... i’m lazy bean, but here we are anyway! let’s get it!

but anyways starting off rookies was kind of like a vacation to me, rp wise. before rk i had my own rp that lasted a while but during 2013, there was just some drama between members that i constantly had 2 deal with and honestly it was like ... dragging me down, making admining seem like a chore and i loathed logging on to the main b/c i knew there would be some shit w/ these certain people that i had to deal with. so seeing rk in the tags being a different kind of idol roleplay ( and shout out rk for being a trendsetter ) /and/ the fact that reserves were filling up so quickly for a new rp, i quickly sent in a muse.

and it was a little ... idk at first. i did feel out of place considering most came from a different rp in the beginning and i wasn’t, and on top of me being v awkward w/ talking 2 people on instant messengers, there was a bit of time where i felt like i didn’t fit in and almost dropped like 2 weeks after i joined, LOL. luckily at the time a lot of things were going on which helped w/ plotting and meeting new muses, and everyone was super friendly and nice and that’s what kept me here!!!

so then rk turned from a vacation you didn’t want to leave from -- i ended up slagging off p majorly on my responsibilities as an admin at my own rp for a while because i was having such a good time at rk -- it rly brought back my love for rp and muse and tbh if you look back at rksunyoung’s archive back in 2013 - early 2014, i don’t think i’ve ever written as much on tumblr as i did back then, LOL. rk has definitely had it’s ups and downs and i’ve dropped both of my muses before -- but it wasn’t too long before i was bringing them back because there really isn’t a place like rk within krp. that, along with the dedication between both members and admins, is why it’s lasted so long and is still thriving with a super active dash after five fucking years. that’s crazy!! i think i remember mei saying something similar on twitter -- but when i see old rp friends and they ask “omg ur /still/ at rk???”

so it’s obvious to see why this rp went from feeling like a vacation to a home, right?? it’ll always have a special place in my heart  ♡

anyways moving on to my characters too -- when i first brought rksunyoung, now miss rkxblue, i never thought that she would last more than a couple of months, much less be involved with so many things within rk’s history!! it’s ... p wild to think about, especially since i’m someone that has a hard time committing to hobbies and such. it’s been a fun ride watching her go from someone who was wild and reckless and had a problem with love and a little bit of anger issues to someone whos a lot more well rounded, a soft idiot LOL. she even finally got herself the sweetest boyfriend after four years of being shipless on the rp, which i still can’t wrap my head around because denying herself love and believing that it doesn’t exist was one of her /things/ for the longest time. the list of stuff she’s done is so long and now that it’s lead to her finally debuting it’s ... scary yet exciting for her, to be honest, she thought she’d be a trainee forever!! i’ve had a lot of ups and downs with her muse as well, to the point where there was like years ( i think ) of inactivity on my end and she should have 4238972389 more points than she does atm because of that. i do feel sorry for her b/c that was just me being lazy ofc, but in the end i’ve gotten my shit together on her and have been pumping out replies p consistently this year and plotting w/ trainees which has done wonders for her muse. and although hyomin was literally /the/ perfect fc for her considering her personality, the fc change 2 yura has also helped majorly with my muse and it’s been so much easier to plot and reply and even with her characterization too.

as for miss rknvna!! she hasn’t had as much development as sun, aside from her tumultuous rls with a former song minho and being a royal trainee during her first run, and that’s mainly been due to my laziness again jfkafl;a. the good thing tho is that i’ve finally been able to experience life as a rookie with her, considering the times my girls have become trainees were v quick ( sun’s first time was like a week or two after the rp opened, then 3 months after i rejoined w/ her, and nana became a trainee only a month after she joined the first time ) so it was nice to experience the freedom that came with being a rookie!! since 2018 has been sun’s year, i’m going to focus on nana for 2019 so that she can branch out more!!

i guess before i move on i should give shoutouts to all my other rkmuses throughout the years whose lives were so short that i can’t even remember their urls LOL -- my song jieun, park kyungri, goo hara, and choi jinri muses!! i’m sure there’s at least one more that i’m forgetting, but they all lasted around 2 weeks so...

but i also want 2 thank rk for allowing me to be more social as well!! i’ve said this in the last anniversary post i wrote 25238957 years ago but i used 2 have a phobia of sorts when it came 2 instant messengers, so i didn’t rly have one when msn was popping and therefore, didn’t talk 2 many people ooc wise in rps. i made an aim when i came to rk and just ... diving in and talking to people helped out a lot with that, even if i do still get anxious from time to time w/ just simply messaging people. :(

i’m a shy individual ( and for some reason its only exacerbated online??? idk fam ) and unconsciously rather private as well, so that definitely hinders me from making friends as much as i would like to, but it’s a day by day process!! it’s something i’ve come 2 terms w/ as of late and will seriously work on within the next year! but even w/ me being the way that i am, i’ve been able 2 meet a couple of people that have made my experience in rk just a little bit brighter so a ( very brief ) shout out 2 them ~

to maria ( @rkjinkis ) : my sweet angel!!! i’m so glad that rk brought us together because you’ve honestly become one of my closest friends from this rp and in general tbh!! ur so super sweet and caring and a blessing 2 my life, just as much as jinki is to ahyoung’s!! i’m sorry that sun is too independent for her own good but she’s working on it okay!! baby steps!! i love how genuine u are and how we can rely on each other through thick and then, and honestly i want the world for u and more. i love love love LOVE u so much, and i’ll make sure u never forget it!! thank u for being my friend and my source of happiness!!!  ♡ ♡ ♡ 

to hamin ( @rksoohyun ) : despite the fact that we knew each other from snu it was rk that actually got us 2 start talking and i’m so grateful for that!! u literally are the cutest girl in the entire world and ur just as outgoing irl as u are online; seeing morning musume ( a group i thought i would never see live ) w/ u was truly a highlight in my life!!! and ofc soohyun will forever be nana’s fuckin child and she’ll always be rooting for her happiness!! i love u u sweet buttercup and i can’t wait until ur back so i can talk 2 u again!!!  ♡ ♡ ♡ 

to mei ( @rkariel ) : man i admired u for the longest b/c i’ve always loved the way u write and ur characterization of tiffany / ariel, so when years ago nick told me that u were actually paying attention to the minana plot and threads i was so shook i nearly tripped over myself LMFAO. i’m happy that we actually started talking b/c of that tho!!! it’s so easy 2 write w/ u and i honestly have so much fun regardless if we’re just talking about our characters, getting carried away on dash or twitter, or hurting each other w/ headcanons!! ariel has become nana’s rock p much and w/o her i’m not sure how she would of fared her time w/ mino w/o her and their discussions!!! i hope that we can become closer in the future!!

to razel ( @rkcheri ) : hiya boo!!! ik we don’t rly talk anymore but i still wanted 2 mention u b/c u were one of my first friends in rk when i felt kinda lonely, and that was definitely one of the reasons i was able to stick around!! i loved writing w/ u b/c ur writing style was always so unique that i could actually point u out whenever we were in past rps together and it’s an honor 2 even write w/ u fjkalf;a. i’m sorry that sun is such a shitty friend and i’m looking forward 2 the day jihyun kicks her ass about not telling her about jinki b/c she deserves it LOL. but just, thank u!!!!

to amy ( @yienrk ) : are u surprised ur on here?? HAHA we don’t talk too much either but i do appreciate u checking up on me whenever i’m down and just generally being supportive and nice!!! also i’m in awe about how knowledgeable u are about idols in general ( i remember one of our first convos being about how sixteen came 2 be and the collapse of all of jype’s trainees and such ) and i love yien and nana’s supportive relationship too!! i can’t wait 2 see how they develop, and i hope 2 get closer 2 u in the future!! ; u ;

to eclipse girls ( @rkariel , @rkaudrey , @rkhaseul , @rkjennie , @rkyeri ) sun couldn’t of asked 2 debut w/ a better group of girls and i’m so glad that they harmonize w/ each other so well!! i’m excited 2 see what debuting brings for them!!  ♡ ♡ ♡

and a shoutout 2 snu crew too ( piper / hoonji, nanu, @rksang, @rktomu, @rksoohyun , @rkjinhwan94, @rkpcy ) : even tho ik majority of u probably won’t see this i’m still tagging and talking about y’all anyway!!! i have so much fun reminiscing w/ u guys whenever we can, and i’m happy that i’ve grown closer too u all as well!! i’m sorry i was such a shit admin back in the day, and what brought y’all together was bad circumstances, but i’m glad it’s something that we can all look back on and laugh at now. i miss being together w/ all of u at once but i hope y’all are doing okay!!!!  ♡ ♡ ♡

and naturally, the admods too!!! thank u guys for putting up w/ all my shit whenever i was in a slump or i sent in points late or fucked up the points ( honestly kyle u are such an angel for real LOL ), and for just keeping the rp in tip top shape!!! ur the back bone of rk and we couldn’t of made it this far w/ each and every one of u and ur contributions and dedication 2 the rp!!! i’m super proud of u guys and am proud 2 call u my admins!!!!  ♡

and ofc shoutout 2 everyone that i’ve ever plotted and threaded w/ in the past and present -- i’m super shit at replying 2 those in general so thank u for being patient w/ me even though i don’t deserve it. i don’t know how else 2 end this b/c i’m also super shit at ending things so uh.... happy fifth year anniversary rk!!! here’s to many more!!!