TW: Eating Disorder, Drugs
I have to see my mom on Friday. So I haven't been eating cause she'll say something if I gained weight. Well I am nauseous all the time again, to the point that I've thrown up my meds the last three days; and I just want to get stoned and be relieved of my nausea.
Or have a different mom. I love her, and I know she loves me, but I can't keep having an ana spiral every time I have to see her.
Starting my new job today, 10am - 6pm, and I'm terrified I'm going to either pass out or throw up. I know the obvious answer but like "just eat something" doesn't help. I've tried that. More times than I can count.
Sometimes I wish I was still bangin dope so I wouldn't have to think about shit or have feelings (or be alive,) but I know it's not the answer.
I also haven't had therapy in like a month, so that's probably helping. However, I doubt I'll even mention to my therapist that I am having issues with food when I see her in August.
I don't wanna go back to treatment, dawg, I hate that psychobabble bullshit.
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Egwene rebraiding her hair like in the Two Rivers feel it and be reminded you’re never alone ahhhhhhhh
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Burdock Available Now!
Stick closely to the path, my dear, don’t wander and don’t stray!
The mists are full of secrets, the woods are full of fae;
And many careless mortals they’ve spirited away—
So do not go a-wandering, but on the path please stay!
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When you've lost your way and nearly lost your life, will your name be enough to buy it all back?
Burdock is a dark and atmospheric fairytale with fae creatures, riddles, and danger abounding. Will you be able to navigate the perils you face and reclaim your life? Or will the mists swallow you up for good...?
Features:
Nameable Protagonist (gender left undefined)
24,000 words (roughly 2-3 hours playtime)
Four Full Endings—and multiple Bad Ones
Original Soundtrack
It's free!
Content Warnings: violence, blood, and potentially disturbing imagery and sound effects. There are no intended jump scares, and no animals are harmed—though the same cannot be promised of the protagonist!
Created for the 2023 Spooktober Visual Novel Jam by:
Character Art and Design: Remnantation
Original Soundtrack: John Åhlin
Coding: Windchimes
Logo and UI Design: ingthing
Direction, Sound Design, Backgrounds, and Writing: B.L. McDarragh
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Hello, I disappeared cos I decided to obsessively learn Blender and buy a resin 3D printer so I could make better, easier busts.
So here’s John, I’ll be painting him this week 💃
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i have intelligent talented and creative friends who can't imagine any world outside of capitalism because "they don't read", so I can't even get them to read Ursula K. Le Guin or other speculative sci-fi that imagines a better world, much less any kind of theory. guys in IT making 6 figures who will listen to audiobooks in the background IF THEY MUST but wont crack a book open if they can possibly avoid it. often it's adhd and/or dyslexia related, trauma related, etc, and I know that's a bitch to deal with, but frankly, I have undiagnosed+untreated adhd w/ dyslexia too; i was traumatized by home life and school too. the only reason im able to read like I am is that I was so poor growing up that, tho i didnt get the help i needed for being ND, even when my classmates had ipads and smartphones in elementary, my main entertainment was always fiction books. ive had years of practice honing this skill, learning to find relevant information in dry texts and learn how a text could be manipulating me. so. this isn't about Classism and Elitism, and it isn't ableist to say reading is a fundamental skill that you need to work on if at all possible even if it's difficult, and it doesn't dismiss all oral tradition of any kind, either. I'm sorry but unless you want to become intellectually dependent on BreadTube youtubers and leftie streamers and Twitter blue check marks who DO actually read theory, history, philosophy, and fiction -usually because they had the benefit of a white middle-class upbringing and socioeconomic privilege!- you really, really do need to read, and read often, and eventually read nonfiction at least sometimes. it strengthens your discernment and your ability to think for yourself.
tl;dr: how are you gonna reblog that "no one is immune to propaganda" meme, but accuse anyone encouraging you to develop your "recognizing propaganda and manipulation" skills of being elitist? how is this anything but regular anti-intellectualism?
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