#first it hurts—: naoaki

[lightlycareless]

Need a moment we're Naoki Is just straight jealous of naoya, of his relationship with y/n, and how he feels that should've been him. How he tried to play it off as him hating naoya, but deep down he's just hurt because he thought that maybe, there could've been some part of y/n that wanted him too .

OOF this ask... I know most of my readers hate Naoaki rn but I gotta say I still have a special place for him in my heart hahahah I don't know what to call it, there's just... something about him that doesn't allow me to let go.

Anyways, this inspired the following :) I hope you enjoy it!

warnings: none. just a naoaki that realizes he gravely miscalculated everything. (he's my interpretation of naoya's brother from over here... proceed with caution)

Naoaki becoming jealous, or more like completely desolate would finally happen the moment he sees you happily receive Naoya back home.

Up to that point, he’d always seen you cower, doing your best to avoid the abuse of your husband, using him as cover even if Naoaki wasn’t all too enthusiastic about it. He had other plans involving you, after all.

Yet, as much as he disliked being used that way, he was glad to see that the rupture in your relationship was so deep, there seemed no possibility you’d ever find your way back to your estranged husband. Ever!

It was simply impossible. He’d done so much to hurt you—a miracle would be needed to mend his mistakes; for you to believe in his so-called redemption.

…

Nonetheless, that’s exactly what happened. As if by God’s decree, Naoya just… began to change. One morning he simply acknowledged all of his wrongful doings, subsequently growing regretful and wanting to mend them—starting apparently caring for you, ha! Now, isn’t that hilarious??

Even then, Naoaki still believed you couldn’t be so naïve to be tempted by Naoya’s blatant manipulation: it was obvious that his brother was trying to pull you back to him, fearing he might’ve been losing his grasp on you! Much to his personal delight.

That would only prove, however, how gravely he’s miscalculated your nature, the same one he took great advantage of for his own purposes, now directed onto his own brother.

You were just to… stupid for your own good, Naoaki regretfully mused, too gullible to believe that people could change; dangerous to be left alone.

But isn’t that what he expected from you, though? What he wanted for himself?

Certainly, for a part of him, buried deep beneath the anger he harbored against his brother and clan… hoped that you’d see good in him too?

Longing that the time you’ve spent together provided something more than just a haven for you to seek solace in, or reasons for him to exploit against his brother…?

Genuienly, perhaps innocently, Naoaki thought you’d grown affectionate of him through these moments— like he had become, unable to remember the last time he approached you out of benefit for his ulterior motives.

Yet, he seemed to be the only one to think so, for as time went on, days becoming nothing but a blur, his presence in your mind slowly disappeared, redirected instead to your dreadful husband—

Your warm welcomes, your joyful jests, the eagerness to know of his day accompanied by a tasty meal, enrichened by your bright, wide eyes filled with excitement at every word he said…

All those wonderful things… weren’t his anymore. No. All of them belonged to Naoya now.

Or perhaps they never did; just like everything regarding him and his brother, the heir always took priority.

And such, Naoaki eventually accepted the fact that out of the two, only he was foolish enough to want more than what he initially anticipated; to desire something intimate, for the sake of his own happiness, or perhaps just wanting to seek validation through the only person he believed would be kind enough to do so…

But you moved on. Using him as a steppingstone to make amends with your husband, the so-called love of your life as your blushing face and meek demeanor would declare soon enough.

…

Naoaki should be gravely hurt by these admittances, but another part of him reminded him this wasn’t the first time he’s ever been betrayed. Delegated to second place against the beloved heir, the prodigious sorcerer everyone seems to venerate, you included.

Leaving him to endure the rest of his dreadful life on his own.

Guess his father was right when saying he wasn’t meant for anything beyond failure, a lost cause that ought to give up before he brought long any more shame to the clan.

Just as he claimed you to be as well, though Naoaki would now have to disagree, because after all that happened between you, him, and Naoya…

He can finally assess the painful truth:

You were always like them—you just needed… the right motivation to accept so.

[newstfionline]

Monday, January 11, 2021

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[poorlydrawnmoriocs]

“No... No, not anymore, um... I didn’t know what I was going to do at first. Mr. Naoaki had asked me for a favor right before Nozomi told me the truth, and I thought if I just did it, he’d leave me alone after... He wanted me to deliver a letter, so I went to pick it up, and... The guy who came said he knew I knew, and that I’d be killed if I told. Mr. Naoaki’s brother also found out I was helping him, and... If you hadn’t gathered, Mr. Naoaki turned out to be a really awful guy, so of course his brother was mad I was helping him, but I got scared of both him and the yakuza, so I ran away for a little bit... I... I ended up going back and talking to Mr. Akira- That’s the brother- with Nozomi, so I could let him know I wasn’t going to help hurt him anymore now that I knew what was going on... So he wasn’t going to attack me, and as long as I kept quiet about the yakuza, I would probably be fine... And then, um... Out of nowhere one day, Nozomi comes to me and tells me... Mr. Naoaki’s dead... He’s suddenly gone, and I’m safe now. Which is why I can tell you all this.”

Hikari takes a deep breath.

“And that’s been my life until recently... I... I messed up bad, and that caused people to suffer... it’s only by a miracle that I wasn’t actually harmed the whole time... But other people were. Mr. Diran says it’s not entirely my fault, but...”

Hikari looked at the address she had written down off the flyer she’d found on a wall, then to the house sharing that address. She was beginning to wonder if this whole thing was a trap, but she was already here... So she knocked on the door anyway. (Poorlydrawnmoriocs)

A few seconds pass, before Hikari hears what sounds like muffled screaming from somewhere in the house, followed by the sound of something soft hitting the wall. A few seconds later, the door opens a bit and a tired looking older woman pokes her head out.

“…..Ya need somethin’?”

She sounds nearly as tired as she looks. Who hurt this woman.

[ @poorlydrawnmoriocs ]

[lightlycareless]

Hola soy lectora de tu fanfic (uno muy bueno a decir verdad) lamentablemente no he podido terminarlo por cuestiones medicas (tengo tlp y por cosas absurdas para la mayoria tengo ataques de panico) me quede en el capitulo 27 sin embargo tu estilo de escritura es hermoso y cada oc lo senti como un personaje vivo (realmente puedes hacer magia con personajes originales algo que poco he visto) y las sensaciones que causas (me produjiste un ataque de ansiedad con la lectura asi que senti tu fanfic con emociones en 4k jajaja)

dejando eso del lado hizo un medio analisis de las relaciones en tu fanfic ( no soy muy buena haciendolo pero de todos modos queria decirlo)

Creo que Naoaki tiene ligeros matices iguales que Makima (y zuko) siento que en realidad no ama a la mc solo lo ve como una fuente de superioridad hacia Naoya, a diferencia de Naoya que ama a los fuertes, Naoaki parece amar a los debiles ademas que con todo los spoiler y capitulos que he leido siento que los dos hermanos aman una caracteristica de ella pero no el ser en concreto, Naoya esta conociendo el amor y Naoaki el sentirse el eje central de una persona (encontro al lector en un ambiente depresivo asi que ser la fuente de su alegria le debio haber dado una falsa sensacion de estar completo)

Creo que Naoaki y mc a pesar del romanticismo que tiene su relacion al comienzo no puede seguir (dado a que todos esos momentos son falsamente planeados y para un fin) y que Naoaki no muestra su verdadero ser muestra un ideal

Creo que el trata de llenar ese lugar vacio tras el nacimiento de Naoya ganandose el cariño de sus hermanos o de personas importantes para Naoya, por eso creo que ama entre varias comillas a la mc por que es alguien aparentemente debil que conoce a su yo ideal, que sobre todo lo tiene en mas alta estima que a Naoya

Mientras que Naoya el conocer a alguien totalmente diferente a su entorno cambio su punto de vista (la mc es totalmente diferente a un hechicero comun en ideales como en otras cosas)

En conclusion creo que los dos tienen razones para sentirse enamorados de ella, pero la mc cual razon tiene

podriamos decir a Naoaki pero seria quedarse con un ideal de romanticismo que el planeo en vez de una persona

asi que creo que la razon seria el lado protector y de caracter fuerte que tiene (Naoya lo vio cuando lo defendio pero que pensara Naoaki de ese lado) Todos ven a la mc como alguien debil o sin valor a pesar de que esta trata fervientemente de mostar que no es solo una chica dulce (sus hermanos, los mismo sirvientes al inicio) Naoaki vive de apariencias, Naoya es franco siendo a veces cruel, ambos esconden lados que oprimieron y que poco a poco van mostrando creo que cuando uno de ellos se enamore de verdad tendra que comprender que ella no es un ser que siempre les dara amor y que tampoco lo tendra como eje central de su vida, el que la deje ir sera el que mas a ama

Hola!!

Dios mio gracias por esperar mi respuesta. Trato de hacer mi mejor para responder lo mas rapido posible pero algunas veces la vida simplemente me gana jaja :') aun asi, muchas gracias por tu paciencia.

Aun sigo sin superar el hecho de que haya gente de hablahispana que lea mi historia jiji me hace sentir... no se, famosa supongo 🫣🤣 pero siempre es un deleite hablar con esos lectores 🥺❤️

Primero que nada, espero que tu situación este mejor ahora 🥺 y espero que mi trabajo no haya sido muy agravante para tu condición. Al final del día, si quiero que mis historias los hagan sentir de cierta manera, pero nunca al punto donde ya no sea disfrutable. Aun así, agradezco mucho que hayas seguido leyendo mi fic, gracias en serio ❤️❤️❤️

Ahora a lo demás 👀

Tienes toda la razón sobre Naoaki, de hecho lo desarrollaste mejor que yo jaja. Creo que no me he dado el tiempo de escribir mas sobre el en sí, simplemente puse que… pues si, al principio muy perfecto y todo, pero al final del día no es así… Todo fue planeado, y en pocas palabras, no le importa genuinamente Y/N.

Por más que diga lo contrario, simplemente no la ama. Lo que siente es nada mas y nada menos una combinación de querer sentirse especial, ganarle a Naoya, y su obsesión de tenerla que al final le hará daño nada más. Y eso se notará todavía más en los siguientes capítulos. Ahorita está planeando semejante estupidez con la nueva sirvienta de Y/N que honestamente no se como la vayan a librar ella y Naoya (solo puedo esperar lo mejor jaja) pero DIOS MIO.

Uno de mis mayores temores era haber hecho a Naoaki tan perfecto que no habría necesidad de tener a Naoya, o mas bien, que cuando quisiera por fin regresar a su relación pues a mis lectores no les gustara o no fueran convencidos por ella. Así que leer que si les ha gustado hasta ahora es muy gratificante 🥹

Al final del día… Y/N fue muy ingenua en confiar plenamente en Naoaki. Ella, desesperada por sentirse amada o confortada, también se obsesionó con la única persona que parecía darle eso que necesitaba. Ahorita parece ya haber superado esta etapa, dispuesta a tomarse su tiempo y espacio para conocer a Naoya y Naoaki mejor y dejar pasar lo que tenga que pasar. Pero aún así todavía vemos el efecto de la manipulación de Naoaki en ella, está cegada para aceptar que tal vez el no es tan bueno como se imagina… simplemente porque sufrió mucho. AGHHHhh

Pero bueno, eso es algo que se verá eventualmente en la historia 😊 o no. Jajajajajajaja como me encanta hacerla de emoción.

De ahí, Naoya y Naoaki claramente se están proyectando en YN de una manera u otra. Esto se verá mas de parte de Naoya cuando eventualmente ponga como fue la primera vez que se conocieron, pero en sí, todo va para lo mismo. YN parece haber llenado un vacío que ellos no reconocían, pero solo Naoya ha tomado la iniciativa de dejar de ser un idiota y mejorar para ella. Naoaki… pues, temo que nunca lo hará. Como ha perdido tanto, a el no le importa hacer lo que tenga que hacer mientras “se quede con la chica”.

Naoya todavía tiene mucho que perder, profesional y personalmente. Así que se esmera mas en hacer las cosas bien (AHORA, porque antes OOF)

Me encantó este análisis. En serio, leer todo esto sobre uno de mis personajes es… wow. Otros de mis miedos han sido erradicados jaja. No sabes lo feliz que me pone leer que te gustan mis OC, siento que tienden a ser bastantes odiados normalmente. Como que no encajan en la historia (me declaro culpable, me ha pasado) así que leer que no ha sido así… muchas gracias 🥺❤️

Espero hayas podido leer el resto de la historia :3 y que te haya gustado también!! Y claro, si alguna vez deseas compartir otro análisis ya sabes donde encontrarme ❤️❤️ sería un honor leerlo.

Ahora, cuídate muchísimo y espero verte pronto ❤️ Muchas gracias!!

P.D. La ultima frase……….. el que la deje ir será el que mas la ama ME QUEMA VIVA DIOS MIO. No dire nada  más pero GIAHGkjahgkagjkajkAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[lightlycareless]

Hihi I came from your ao3 and I had some questions i wanted to ask if that’s okay with you?

- what does naoya think of having a baby girl with y/n (given how his family is and all)

- does naoaki actually have feelings for y/n

- how would he react to her being pregnant with naoyas kid💀

- i have only read” first it hurts” and i plan on reading the side stories etcc but from what i read on him naoya gives the impression that he’ll rank his wife (y/n) first then kids and that’ll even if they do have kids she’ll be the one he loves the most? Is that true? Or is it kids> y/n or kids=y/n

Thank you in advance!

Hello!!

Of course! Ask away :>!! I'm so happy that you are... hehe. (Also, this is the fic anon is referring to, for all newcomers) also, I'm sorry I took a while to get back at you 😭 but I'm here now...

Well, let's move onto the questions!

- what does naoya think of having a baby girl with y/n (given how his family is and all)

Naoya would love to have a child with Y/N, regardless of gender. A part of him would love to have a son, someone to teach and pass on his technique/knowledge... but at the same time a girl who looks just like you would melt his heart.

Though naturally, he'd have to worry about his family. He's seen the treatment Mai and Maki get, thus... he could only hope his daughter is strong. (A part of me would like to imagine that he'd wait to become leader of the clan before going real crazy on settling down—but he's eager so let's scratch that out lol)

- does naoaki actually have feelings for y/n

Now he does. But I wouldn't call it healthy necessarily, nor do I think he'd be able to reach some kind of redemption as Naoya to make it work. I always envisioned him as the yandere type lol. Not good.

- how would he react to her being pregnant with naoyas kid💀

Naoaki would NOT take it well. I fear that if properly motivated, he might attempt to use that pregnancy against Naoya and her :s take that as you must.

- i have only read” first it hurts” and i plan on reading the side stories etcc but from what i read on him naoya gives the impression that he’ll rank his wife (y/n) first then kids and that’ll even if they do have kids she’ll be the one he loves the most? Is that true? Or is it kids> y/n or kids=y/n

🔔🔔🔔 You got that right! Coincidentally, I just answered an ask regarding this topic lol. I work in mysterious ways, don't I? I hope you've gotten time to read the side stories! I believe I have one pending AT LEAST... or not, I actually have two!! Gee 🫣 I shall see when I'll get to write them haha.

I hope my answers were satisfying! If not, you can just send me another ask and I'll do my best to answer... without spoilers of course hehe.

Thank you so much for your support and patience! I hope you enjoy the rest of my story 🥺❤️❤️❤️ take care and see you soon!!

[lightlycareless]

Does naoaki have feelings for y/n or are they all fake

I'll have to say... He has feelings for her now. Naoaki didn't care much for y/n at the beginning, was nothing but an act for his goals but... You know, he doesn't come from a particularly affectionate house, so it didn't take long before he genuinely started enjoying y/n's company.

I think he no longer wants to just hurt Naoya. He wants to do that, and keep y/n. His methods for it are simply plain evil :s. But we shall see, maybe our favorite couple will manage to outsmart him :)

[poorlydrawnmoriocs]

“Um... Well... If that’s the case, then...”

She gulped. Ever since their first encounter, Hikari had felt bad for lying, even if Marcus had been scaring her in between making her feel guilty. If he truly didn’t want to hurt her but to help her, she felt it was time to come clean with just enough details to put him at ease. She mentally apologized to Naoaki.

“If you actually, truly don’t want to hurt me... Then, I, uh... Maybe didn’t tell you the truth before. I did tell someone about you. But it’s only because they want to see someone and that someone has been to jail before and was released. They want to avoid you because they’re worried about about that. But that’s all. That’s really it.”

Hikari clasped her hands together, looking at Marcus with a pleading expression.

Please don’t bother them... And please, please don’t ask me any more about it... I just wanted you to know your family isn’t in danger, and neither is anybody else... So please don’t worry... And leave them alone...”

"you probably still hate me for scaring the Jesus outta you but I'm with nozomi on the whole "let's fuck up this threatening anon" pain train so hopefully having me as an "ally" might help your opinion of me" (( @marcus-and-paint-it-black))

Hikari: Wait, do you… Actually want to help me…? Like, for real? Why…?

@marcus-and-paint-it-black

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Heyy I'm kinda curious. I want to know what Naoya's brothers thought of him. Especially Naoki, like I want to know what does Naoki thought of Naoya

Heya!!

I think I answered something like this in the past, but I think it was what Naoaki thought of his brothers and such. (Found it)

As for what the bro's think of Naoya...

They all tend to avoid him, however, the reason as to why they do so varies from each one.

Naofumi, for example, is terrified of Naoya. He doesn't even want to hear of him. The further away he is from him, the better! This has to be for the fact that he was awfully bullied due to his weak disposition by the rest of the estate—and you can imagine who was the ring leader of it all.

From there, Naohiko. This man doesn't like Naoya because he considers him troublesome, irritating, awful—whatever you want, that's what he is. However, I think he's somewhat intimidated by him very deep inside. Many of the awful things that happened in the estate had to do with Naoya one way or the other...

Naosuke and Naohito are essentially non-existing in my fic as of now, but it's safe to assume that they are like that because they really, really don't want to get involved with Naoya. They don't hate him, but they just don't care either. I think they're glad of this distance between the two.

Naoaki is filled with lots of what if's. What if I was made heir instead? Would it matter much? Or would he still make fun of me? Because of what his mom taught him from a very early age, he wished to get along with all of his siblings—unfortunately the Zen'in had other plans, and we all know how that went down. I think that out of all the siblings, these two are the ones that have most interactions, whether good or bad, I think it'll depend on the day 😅

And there you have it :> how most of the siblings get along with Naoya (they don't) kind of awful that it happened, but Naoya does refer to them on the manga rather crudely.

Hope it was enough of an answer, but if there's anything else you'd like to know just tell me and I'll do my best to explain hehe.

Take care, and hope to see you soon!! ❤️❤️

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I'M DYINGGG is there a character in another anime that looks like Naoaki? I imagine him to kind of look like Yoshida from CSM lol

Hello!

Was waiting to release the character profiles.... but say no more!! hehe.

I actually thought Yoshida would fit fairly nice with Naofumi! But who knows, he's the only one I think might change in the future, might not... I'll worry about that when it happens 🤭

Disclaimer: I have yet to read any of the works mentioned, outside of CSM. So I vaguely know the context behind them, if any 💀 😅

So now, onto the faceclaims :>

Naoaki would be Haruka from Haru Kakete, Uguisu:

Naofumi is Yoshida from Chainsaw Man:

And Naohiko is Shiki Ichinose from Tougen Anki:

So there you have it, how I think the characters would look like 🤭 If I had the talent to draw them I would, but for now, this is all I can offer 🥺

I want to know y'all's opinion 🤭 Do they match? Or did you see envision them differently? Let me know!!

Thank you so much for sending in this ask! I do plan on revealing the rest of the cast... just gotta finish some things... polish them... soon...

Anyways, I had fun :> Thank you! I hope you have a wonderful week, take care, and hope to see you soon!

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THE WAY NAOAKI IS JEALOUS BECAUSE Y/N IS SPENDING TIME WITH HER HUSBAND IS REALLY REALLYYY ANNOYING , find this man a woman who isn't married ✋✋

Heya anon!!!

HAHAHAH NGL he was a bit irritating right there, but I guess rightfully so? That man is just worried (and boy was he right)

But now that you mention it... I wonder what Naoaki's dating life was like?

Idk, I really don't see anyone else but Y/N with him hahah but if I try... I don't think he was much into dating. Didn't see any benefits to it, you know? Like he didn't think he could get anything he didn't already have without a partner.

Until he met Y/N of course, that's when he realized the ✨ m a g i c ✨ of sharing your life with someone else. Unfortunately for him, that person is already married. It's not his fault that he literally fell for the only ray of sunshine in that wretched place lol.

Either way, thank you so much for your support ❤️❤️❤️ It means the world to me! I hope you continue liking the rest of the story :>

Take care, and hope to see you soon!

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Naoaki would give really good head i just know it & make you feel like a princess during sex *big dreamy sigh*

OMG ANON HAHAHAHAH

I—wow, reading this ask certainly made me feel a kind of way 😳

I just imagine him holding your hands while going down on you, to like keep you in place while you're squirming but also wanting to have (more) intimacy with you 🥺 and he'd give you all kinds of praises just to rile you up, omg sir....

he'd be prone to slightly teasing you of course, but if you beg him nicely he'll let you cum, and as many times as you want. he's your humble servant for the night.

The after care with him must be INSANE tho he is going to PAMPER you and there's no stopping him. Whatever you want, is never outside his limits. He will not stop until he sees you well rested, hydrated, want to take a shower? He's on it. Want to snack on something? Got it. Just want to lay down and talk? He's prepared a thousands topics to go through, or if you just want him to listen, he's all ears.

Aw, but can you imagine how attentive he'll be when you're pregnant?! god dammit anon 😭

Jokes aside, thank you for sending in this ask!!! Naoaki really is the dream man...

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WTF NAOAKI😟😟😟😟😟😟

He’s fucking evil omg just leave naoya and y/n alone you freak

I just want naoya and y/n to be happy ☹️

we're not there yet, in fact, we're barely starting.

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what if naoya finds out about the letters , like the “i hate naoya” letter lol

btw I don't think that rat sent them to her sister

That is an interesting question!!

:)

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but what reaction would the zenins have , especially naoaki 😳🤯 with the babies

Hi!!! I'm going with the twin girls au :> although these can be in general 🤔

Off we go to the reactions from the rest of the estate.

Being real, I think most of the clan would not like the fact that the heir had two girls to begin with. However, since Naoya and Y/N are known for being strong sorcerers by themselves, it was only natural that their kids would inherit those talents.

However, they'd still find a way to make them feel less, either by giving backhanded compliments, or voicing how a "son" would've been much better.

Naoya would immediately shut down those comments. We're talking about a man that has now learned how wrong his family is (in more ways than one) and having suffered from similar comments in the past, understands all too well how hurtful they could be, so he tries to shield his children the best he can.

As for reactions, let me put it like this:

Mai and Maki would love your kids, cause they love you very much :> there's no denying that. Would play with them as often as possible, they're like (are) the cool aunts. SPECIALLY if they're girl twins like them, it's probably the first time they ever felt happy with being twins I reckon.

Junko, Mai and Maki's mom, would keep her distance. It's not like she dislikes the kids, she just feels uncomfortable—however, she would like to watch the babies from time to time, silently gush at how adorable they are and remind her of when her daughters were babies too.

Ogi couldn't care less—in fact, I think he'd hate them just because they're a reminder of what he could've had, but didn't. No one allows him to get close to the kids, not even his wife.

Jinichi is in complete awe that Naoya would want to have kids in the first place, but not surprised that he went through with it. He's very precise when it comes those things, and from there he'll just stare at him and you whenever interacting with the kids—idk, he still doesn't believe it's happening. I guess in my mind he never considered that his family would want to have kids (Toji is like the prime example of that)

Naobito is... idk. He never really cared about having kids, so anything about lineage and whatnot is irrelevant to him, but I guess that in the deep confines of his mind he likes the fact of having grandchildren. Specially if they're strong, he'd be very proud of them, show off that they're related to him and whatnot. Do not expect him to be involved, and honestly? You and Naoya are kind of happy he isn't.

As for Naoaki, Naoya's oldest brother... he'd be shocked that the two eventually made amends, enough to have a family together. He just never thought the two were each other's type, or that it was in Naoya's plans to become a father. But it happened, and he just keeps his distance as well. Maybe he hoped he'd be that man, the one to have your kids or something, who knows. Either way, in the short moments he'll be able to see the kid, he'll note that they look like you, as maybe even hope that they act like you too. This whole situation is 100% the reason he stops talking to you all together. It's the official closure of that chapter.

And I don't think I'm missing any other relevant character :> I'd say that most of Naoya's brother would be somewhat confused that Naoya is possible of having adorable children or something hahaha although everyone thinks it's thanks to your genes 😂

Thank you so much for indulging me with this ask!! I want more baby stuff :') I'll see what I can write.

Have a wonderful week, take care, and hope to see you soon!!

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if my fic wasn't trying to stick to canon, toji would've been the one in naoaki's shoes. WOULD HE HAD DONE ALL OF THOSE THINGS? nope, here is what I think would've gone down tho: (mentions of abuse, sa. proceed with caution)

he would've approached you, as it happened originally. toji has been keeping an eye on you for a while now, who hasn't? you're like a celebrity at the estate.

however, he's not as... nice as naoaki. there isn't any compassionate approaches or whatever, toji kind of pities you and not in the good sense. you don't really approach him either, he's scary, and you think he's actually meaner by all the things he tells you so you try to avoid him whenever possible.

yet, the two still hang with one another. i mean, he gets to eat some of the nice stuff your staff brings you. he's not going to let that pass!! and he's also part of the few people that are around you and treat you like a human being.

something will happen between the two that will evoke some sense of empathy from him; idk what, maybe he sees you being berated, maybe he sees naoya abuse you. (if you want to get real angsty, he hears naoya r word you.)

but it's safe to say that it's something that has you completely desolated and that pushes him to attempt to comfort you; you're unwittingly moved by his gesture and you begin to open up to him.

the two get along more and more, to the point where you get to see the human side of him, as well as all the horrors that plagued the zen'in—how they branched out to those of their own blood, regardless of what status they considered them.

the sweetest moment between the two would have to be you touching the scar on his lip, and him leaning into your touch. (yeah, we still have the dubious romance haha HOWEVER...)

the turning point in this story would have to be another heavy setting that pushes you in a very delicate, desperate moment. it would've taken lots of development I guess, or maybe not, for this to happen but essentially Naoya is much more around the estate, he's just as cruel as you expected and one day he decides to hurt you even more, fueled by his jealousy.

this moment leads you straight into toji for comfort, and him, a bit... too invested in you and tired of the zen'in clan, decides to thrown caution to the wind and do the one thing he's been planning to do for a while now:

leave the estate.

he manages to convince you quite easily, and so that night, before things get heated even more, you leave with toji.

I like to play with the idea that he actually convinces you to leave the jujutsu community all together, but I don't think that would be possible, considering how close you are with your family.

Though that might happen if you continue to feel betrayed by them in some sense, abandoned.

I'd like to think this is Naoya's turning point :) the moment he realizes he messed up BIG TIME, ensuing his redemption.

Years would pass tho, more likely, and perhaps... something more happens between you and toji.

Ngl this is a story that would mainly be toji and y/n ending together, I don't think I can fit Naoya in that equation... but who knows?

and there you have it, an au for first it hurts!! Quite tragic, ngl. I feel like a lot would need to happen for Naoya and Y/N to end up together, but it's more likely that it doesn't so :) let's just enjoy the main storyline where they be the endgame.

maybe I can write something tho... or maybe not. I have other toji ideas, however. I look forward to those :) and a naoaki au. hehehe.

omg this made me remember a comment where someone asked me to write a side story where naoaki and yn end up together. i wonder if they still want it?