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SS: Why would they want me as a trophy and for dinner? You can't eat me and mount me on a wall!
SS: ...unless you were really dedicated, I guess.
SS: Ew.
SS: Is that what the kids do these nights? The newest trend?
SS: I don't want to know about this trend.
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Youâll Never Know (I Loved You So)
Nyzere Olorik || 6.4 sweeps
When Mmienu sparks, itâs a smooth silver glow wrapping around her, and she always taps her fingers three times against her thigh. Her pupils go bright, and her hair crackles slightly, tiny pinpoints of light flickering through her heavy braids.
You spark and itâs a dull, washed out purple, sluggish tendrils exuding from your horns like the bad effects in the creche movies. You can barely do light at all, and itâs not fair. You puff your cheeks out and she doesnât even notice.Â
âNyeih!â You flop backwards in the dirt with a huff, getting your curls dirty - Yengei will have your carapace for it later - but nothing elseâs working.
Her ears are dumb and short, but she looks down, with her silly tusks poking out of her frowning lips. You can see every pore, the tiny beads of sweat there, individual hairs on her head.
âNĂĄ yo, Olo, you know better than that.â
âSouris.âÂ
She bites her lip to keep from laughing even as you slide backwards to get out of the way of her slap. Nobody else gets that face out of her, but they also donât get her fronds quite so much.
âWhatâs it matter? E nyeih, Mimu. Youâre all maroon, except Banshu. Banshuâs crazy anyway.â
âNo nyieh, no souris. You want to sound Imperial? Or like an iceblood?â
âSourisâs not so bad.â You protest, shooting back up and waving your fronds. âSqueakbeasts are cute! Only dumb words, Mimu.â
âWhose facts are those, Olo?â
You hate that question every time. Mmienuâs barely half a sweep older, she hasnât got the right, acting like sheâs a jade or something.
âIcebloodsâ.â You mutter, digging your claws into the ground, watching the dry earth creep under them. Yengeiâs going to scrub you like fury.
She boops your nose. âRight! Good troll!â You snap at it and push her -
- then youâre sitting and blinking, and Mmienu looks just as surprised as you do; the most surprising thing.
âWhat were we doing?â You ask, ears back. You can see her hesitate, the smallest twitch of her body, then she slumps.
âMy...psi, it acted by itself...â
âWhat, no way.âÂ
Itâs possible; Banshu can never stop making plants grow, and thatâs why theyâre insane. It canât be Mmienu. Sheâs different. She's not allowed to go crazy.
 âBefore it was just...â She shudders. âOlo, my psi isnât really psiionics. Itâs psychics.â
You flick dirt at her. âYouâre not iceblooded! That canât be.â
âShut up.â She snaps, and you shuffle a few feet back. âI just made you forget what happened. Thatâs my power, and Iâm nyeih, like you said, want to bleed me and check?!â
She breaks off and her eyes widen, the silver finally dying as you shakily get to your walkstubs.
âOh, no, Olo, no, please...â
You run.
Nyzere Olorik || 7.3 sweeps
Yengei took it much better than you thought she would, the night you ran into the village half sobbing, half babbling about what Mmienu had told you. She had her lusus hold you, since yours was out hunting, and Yengeiâs monkey father was long resigned to pupas crawling all over him. Or burying their faces in his fur.
Mmienu hated you at first, cold as an icebloodâs flesh, and you pretended it didnât hurt when she pointedly sat on the other side of village gatherings, or when she left bugs in your recuperacoon.
Eventually she warmed to you again, and the pair of you went hunting and climbing like youâd done forever.
âYengei says the Empire recruiters are coming in two perigees.âÂ
Mmienuâs on a much higher branch, and you have your smelling on, not your hearing. Your psi-glow fades and you ask her to repeat it - she does, singsong and mocking, asking you what your auriculars are even for. You just shrug.
âSo? They came when we were six, too. Bet itâll be the same. Maybe theyâll take Banshu this time, or Fuuloe. Nobodyâll miss them, except the beer trader.â
You want to like the beer trader - heâs nice, and his mongoose lusus is so pretty - but every time after he stops at your village, Banshu and Fuuloe fight, and itâs usually with each other, or with anyone who doesnât get out of the way fast enough to avoid being clubbed with a bottle. Yengei says itâs just pitchflirting, but how can she be sure? She doesnât seem to care much, as long as they clean up after.Â
âBe serious, Olo. Iâm eight now; they might try to take me.âÂ
You look up, bracing a hand on the trunk for support, frowning, shifting a little on the smooth bark beneath your walkstubs.Â
âNot without testing you first, it wouldnât be legal.âÂ
You know much better about psychics now; ever since Mimuâs confession, youâd watched every schoolfeed about them. You couldnât always follow the words if they were in Standard or even French, but you understood the footage and the diagrams.
She huffs, flicks back a curl sheâs letting out loose tonight, unlike her old heavy braids. Sheâs started filing her tusks, too, and you even sneaked her a better emery board for it.
âYouâre such a grub sometimes. The icebloods donât care whatâs legal! They make the laws. None of us can do anything about it.â
The bitterness in her voice is jarring. Why does she hate high trolls so much? As far as you know, sheâs never even met one.
You climb up to her level while sits with her arms crossed, and plunk down beside her.
âWhatâs up, Mimu? Donât tell me nothing; youâll stink like a barkbeast carcass.â
âYouâre the most annoying troll ever.â She mutters, tapping her fingers against her thigh. You wait for a minute, and she sighs and relents.
âTwo weeks back, a cerulean came to the village.â
âWhat! I donât remember...â You trail off and she looks at you pointedly. You shuffle and flush in embarrassment.
âShe was beautiful, sharp-horned with glossy headfluff and lacquered claws...I wanted to hate her, Olo, but how was I supposed to hate someone so pretty? She was only a sweep older than me, too, and she knew so many things. Yengei was pleased at how well we got along, and then...â
Her face sours like sheâs just bitten into a papaya and found it full of flies.
â...Yengei tells me Iâm supposed to go be her moirail, and that my powers belong to her now. She gave me away like a slab of hog meat, and I was supposed to step in line like a good little nyeih.â She spits. âAll for more supplies for the village! Yengei can choke.â
Your whole body is rigid, and you hardly manage to shakily ask her what happened next.
âI didnât cull her, stop looking like you turned to stone.â says Mmienu, waving a hand like the idea of culling a blueblood is nothing. âI made her forget, and everyone else. Itâs fine.â
âWhy did you have to make me forget?â You ask, hugging yourself, voice small. âI thought you trusted me, Mimu.â
She rolls her eyes, just starting to be flecked with maroon, and shakes her head, curls bouncing.
âOlo, I love you, but youâve already proved how you handle things. Donât take it personally.â
Thereâs nothing you can say to that, even if your pumper hadnât crawled its way into your throat and killed your ability to speak.
Nyzere Olorik || 7.4 sweeps
Fuuloeâs blow nearly breaks your jaw; wouldâve if Mmienu hadnât shoved you out of the way in time, yelling at him fit to crack the heavens. You drop to the ground and scoot out of the way, as far as you can.
âPisse-froid! Your lusus shouldâve eaten you in the egg!â
Fuuloeâs lusus is cowering under a bench; heâs just a bay duiker, and he knows better than to get between troll fights after Fuuloeâs scrapped with Banshu so many times.
Mmienu tries to spark silver, but Fuuloe keeps swinging at her, and he has a head and fifty pounds on her, so she canât afford to get hit. No time to focus on psychics.
Banshuâs already facedown in their psiâs albertisa flowers, groaning while their civet lusus licks their wounds. The rest of the village is out, or hiding in their hives; Fuuloe has no psi, but he hardly needs it when he towers like an indigo, and everyone would rather swallow live cichelids than get in Mmienuâs way.
You donât know what happened, but turning on smell confirms your suspicion; Fuuloe reeks of alcohol, even more than Banshu does, and his eyes are a wild orange.
If only your sparks werenât worthless in every other way. Not like Mmienuâs.
Unless.
You switch to sight, and you scan over Fuuloe until you find what you need.
âHey, Fufu! Get over here, you nyeih, souris-pumpered basta -Â â
He barrels toward you, but the weakness you spotted in his ankle - imprinted with vine marks -Â results in his heavy body thudding into the dirt as you yank on it and topple him, and Mmienu flares silver so bright you shut your bulbs.
When you open them again, blinking, Fuuloeâs bulbs are vacant. and his mouthâs open. A little blood trickles from it, dark red, but also drool. You shut your sight off, but every detail is still too vivid, too much. Heâs breathing, ragged gasps like a downed animal, but...
âGet up, Olo. I need you to help me tell Yengei.â
Mmienuâs grim tones help you get back to the wider world, and you stumble to your feet. A sick, dreadful feeling creeps through you.
âWhat did you do, Mmienu...?â
She flushes maroon and looks away.
âI had to, Olo. He was going to cull us. Look at Banshu; theyâre half dead themself. I saved us.â
You donât understand, but you feel even sicker somehow, and you look back at the prone troll...
âFuuloe?â
Itâs the gentlest youâve ever spoken to him. Fuuloeâs a drunk, obnoxious waste of slurry, but he never failed to bring in plenty of food, or to help patch a hive roof when it was needed. Heâs still a villager, and youâve known him your whole life.
His ragged breathing is your only reply.
Your ears flatten all the way to your neck, and your own breathing becomes shallow with fear.
âNo. Mmienu, no. You didnât.â
Sheâs crying, and thereâs no more silver glow, only the burgundy of her tears.
Nyzere Olorik || 7.5 sweeps
The Imperial recruiters are dressed in crisp red and black in the morningâs faded gray sky, no gray or maroon to be seen, but you can only watch from a peephole that Yengeiâs letting you use. Itâs stuffy in her hive, since she shut the windows and drew the curtains. Your knees are starting to fall asleep from kneeling on the hard plastic floor.
She says the imps will cull you if you get too close, and you really want to see what happens, so you only nodded.
Mmienuâs practically unrecognizable, standing so stiff you could hang meat on her, as the other trolls chatter. Even with hearing on, you canât make it out too well; itâs a mess of Standard, with some rapid French and occasional Nafaanra, mostly from Yengei.Â
Mmienu is eerily silent. Has been for nearly a perigee, ever since she wiped away everything in Fuuloeâs pan. Banshu left him for the hogs and the leopards, and everyone pretended that there were no streaks of bronze on their face when they came back from the forest.
They never smell of beer anymore.
The worst part is that Mmienu doesnât blame you. You asked, and you know when sheâs lying. She wasnât tapping her fingers on her thigh, either; Yengeiâd skin her if she did, and you trust her anyway, even if you know she could just make you forget it.
She didnât. Thatâs what matters.
You wish sheâd blame you. You wish sheâd blame you, Fuuloe, Banshu, Yengei, anyone else - just not her. It wasnât her fault.
If it wasnât her fault, she wouldnât have to go.
â...excellent! Youâll be taken to the testing facility tomorrow night. Here are your papers, and your luggage bags..â
You have to try very hard to not make any noise.Â
They finally drift away, and Yengei puts a hand on Mmienuâs shoulder, steering her back in the hive. Itâs a punch in the thorax, seeing her this way.
Yengei runs a hand down her face as they walk inbefore looking at you. âPahuwa wè sÉĚ, Nyzere. Donât try to fight this, for the love of the ancestors, if youâve any sense. Say your goodbyes now, because you canât do it next evening.â
Itâs been so long since anyone called you by your hatchnames you barely think about yours. Youâd practically forgotten Mmienuâs.Â
You sniff, even though you know sheâll hate it. You hardly notice Yengei leaving; your bulbs are only for the maroon in front of you.
âYou better be really good.â You say, trying not to cry. âThe best. Better than all the icebloods.â
She still doesnât say anything.
âMimu...please donât make me forget you.â
âYou want to be sad, Nyzere? You want to keep being weak your whole life? Is that what you want?â She snarls, but you donât care. Olive-lime tears are running down your face, out your sniffsponge.
âI want you. But I know...â You suck in a breath and continue.  âThat canât happen. So please...let me keep this.â
For a moment you think sheâs going to strike you, but her hand falls and she looks so, so tired.
âFine. Iâm erasing my own when I get there. Donât try to find me.â
Your pumper leaps.
âYou mean - you mean you know itâs my fault? Mimu, I knew youâd realize, I -Â â
âShut up!â Her clenched fists and bared fangs make you wish you were shorter than her, make you wish you could sink into the floor.
âItâs not your fault, so stop acting like it. This wouldâve happened anyway. I was a rot-pan for trying to shake it off. Itâs the only way you can be safe. Donât you get it?â
Now sheâs shaking, her voice wobbling like a rock about to fall off a very, very high cliff.
You hug her so hard you hear her wheeze, and then she pushes you off.Â
âOlo..donât make this harder than it has to be.â She mutters.
âYou might forget me, but Iâll never forget you, even until I die and the leopards eat me, Iâll still remember the way youâre a mean little souris.â
She half-laughs, half-groans.
âOnly you could make that less obnoxious.â
You can still barely do light, but you do it for her.
The shape of a mouse.
Nyzere Olorik || 8.5 sweeps
In the half sweep since she left, your eyes have filled in lime-olive, and the other villagers told Yengei you needed to leave for everyoneâs safety. Banshu eyed you with a predatorâs appraisal, and you didnât fight as it became official.Â
Youâve traveled since, relying on your psi and wits to survive, meeting all kinds of trolls.Â
Now youâre at a fleet training center for pre-ascension recruits. Youâre confident in your disguise; you look perfectly nyeih, except for your height, but you know how to be non-threatening.
A few hoursâ wait, feeding pigeons bread while carefully scanning the campus, and your patience is rewarded.
You hardly recognize her; her ridged horns are filed smooth, her tusks clipped back, and her hair has been cut short. You almost donât believe itâs her, her eyes fully maroon now, but she laughs the exact same way.
She taps her thigh.
You wander near enough to her that her head darts toward you automatically, but then moves to the next face. No recognition. You can tell sheâs not hiding it; sheâd be angry you were here, fists clenched. She laughs at someoneâs joke, booping their nose.
You turn away, whistling softly.
Pahuwa will be fine.
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