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mountttmase Ā· 8 months ago
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ITS ME. HI. IM REALLY LATE ITS ME
You know I love this one already though so šŸ¤­
Fake dating is just šŸ§‘šŸ»ā€šŸ³ šŸ’‹ and you write it so so well like the way they just want everyone off their backs like you canā€™t be friends with a boy without it being something more and we knew it was something more šŸ¤­ they just canā€™t admit that yet
But I know that feeling when youā€™re friends are all in love and they just want you to feel the same so I get why they thought pre reading could work
But itā€™s that switch I love so much like all the things theyā€™re so used to doing feel so much more now? And when theyā€™re alone itā€™s like she wants to carry on with all that stuff and be close to him šŸ„ŗ
And when he holds her in the sofa cause he knows how overwhelmed she is about the wedding but not knowing itā€™s also because heā€™ll never be hers šŸ˜© oh I could cry for her like she must be so confused
"The woman who'll get to marry you one day will be so lucky." Made my heart hurt cause she wants it to be her šŸ„ŗ she wants to be the lucky one and I want her to just tell him but I know itā€™s not easy.
The way he looks after her though at the wedding, like heā€™s just perfect and when he wipes her eyes for her I was just a puddle šŸ„ŗ itā€™s clear to see how much he cares but I feel like it makes you feel worse cause in your head itā€™s like but itā€™s not the way I want him to care šŸ˜­
And her realising it was all over šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ STOP IT IT HURTS but I swear to god his little confession!?!?!?! It was such a shock cause itā€™s like we didnā€™t really know how he was feeling and then BAM itā€™s all out on the table.
He feels safe with her šŸ˜© and heā€™s always known šŸ˜© I was to jump off a bridge I swear like I love these little speeches but if anyone said this to me in real life in crumble. Iā€™m glad she managed to tell him sheā€™s falling for him too though like šŸ¤­ BABIES I LOVE THEM
sorry Iā€™m so late with this bestie you you know is I really loved this one šŸ¤­ itā€™s one of the softest things ever and Iā€™m so glad they got to a point that they could admit it to each other. In my mind he gives an amazing speech at their wedding and then she cries the whole way through cause sheā€™s so in love with him and they have lots of babies šŸ˜Œ
LOVE IT AND LOVE YOU XOXOXOXOX
Fake It Till You Make It
Mason Mount x Reader Fluff Autorā€™s note: So many of you wanted the fake dating trope, so here you go. I know this probably feels a little rushed and I apologise cause I know itā€™s not my best work, but Iā€™m struggling a lot atm, so I'm just really proud of even finishing it. I have so many ideas but so little motivation to actually sit down and writeā€¦so, Iā€™m sorry!
As always, feedback is very much appreciated. Enjoy! šŸ©·
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As you looked at Ava, your best friend since nursery and her soon-to-be husband Benny, you still couldnā€™t believe they were actually going to get married.
Sheā€™d met him a couple of years ago during a night out. It had been planned as a girls night, but Benny had entered the picture with one of the most awful pick-up-lines youā€™d ever heard, but Ava had just laughed and ended up giving him a chance to speak to her for a little while.
You hadnā€™t understood back then and you were till certain, you wouldā€™ve kicked his arse for that lame chat-up, but maybe that was why you were still single, whilst your best friend would say yes in a white dress soonā€¦
It hadnā€™t been a huge surprise Ava had picked you as her maid of honour, but youā€™d been in tears anyway and when sheā€™d told you that Mason, one of Bennyā€™s best friends would be your partner in crime as the best man, youā€™d been more than relieved.
Youā€™d met Mason around a year into Avaā€™s and Bennyā€™s relationship on the latterā€™s birthday party. After third wheeling them for a while, you and Benny had become close friends too so naturally, heā€™d invited you to his birthday as well.
Mason and you had hit it off well pretty quickly. He was an easy-going and open-minded person and although he could be a bit shy sometimes, he was a joy to spend time with. Which was also what made the whole planning for the wedding a lot easier than if he was someone you didnā€™t get along with at all.
The four of you had been sitting together for a few hours now already, discussing all the things that still needed to be tackled and whilst it obviously was some sort of a serious situation, you and Mason couldnā€™t hold back from making inside jokes and giggling at each otherā€™s comments.
When Ava pulled you into the kitchen, claiming she had some snacks to grab for you all, you were pretty sure sheā€™d give you a talking to for not taking everything serious enough.
To your biggest surprise though, she grinned when she turned around. ā€œSooooā€¦you and Mason, huh?ā€
ā€œWeā€™re friends Ava, you know that.ā€ You rolled your eyes at her. This wasnā€™t the first time sheā€™d made a comment like this, but after youā€™d slightly lost your shit last time, youā€™d thought that she would just let it goā€¦Clearly she wasnā€™t planning on doing so though. ā€œIā€™ve told you before and nothingā€™s changed ever since. Why canā€™t you just let it go?ā€
ā€œBecause youā€™d be great together.ā€, she stated. ā€œHeā€™s a good one, you know that. And you canā€™t deny that heā€™s your type, can you?ā€
ā€œAva, I donā€™t need a man. Iā€™m pretty focused on everything thatā€™s going on in my life anyway and now your wedding too, obviously. I donā€™t have time for a relationship.ā€
ā€œOh y/n honey, a relationship doesnā€™t require time. Youā€™re spending an awful amount of time with him anyway, thereā€™s not much that would change, you know that. So why are you so dead set on refusing to be happy with him?ā€
You sighed deeply and ran a hand down your face. This wasnā€™t a conversation you ever wanted to happen and especially not when Mason was sitting just one room away. You hated showing a vulnerable side like thisā€¦even in front of your best friend. Opening up wasnā€™t like youā€¦keeping your cards to yourself and sorting everything with yourself was what you preferred.
But you knew Ava wouldnā€™t let this one go anytime soon.
ā€œLookā€¦Iā€™m not saying heā€™s not my type and yes, we obviously get along well, but thereā€™s women falling to his feet left and right and most of them are gorgeous models in expensive clothes, with skinny legs and a flat tummy. Youā€™ve seen the articles and everything too, so stop pushing me.ā€
ā€œHun, theyā€™re just rumours nothing more. Heā€™s a famous footballer, of course the press is all over him and using his name for some clicks.ā€, Ava smiled sympathetically. ā€œDonā€™t you think he wouldā€™ve made a move already if he was interested in one of them? Look, heā€™s young, heā€™s handsome and obviously heā€™s having some fun, but that doesnā€™t mean he wouldnā€™t settle for the right woman. Maybe itā€™s you, you know? But you wonā€™t find out until you give it a shot.ā€
Having some funā€¦the thought alone of him shagging any of those women made you feel like you wanted to throw up. They were probably super sexy in their lingerie, stretching on the bed like those underwear models did, whilst you wouldnā€™t look half as good even if you triedā€¦
You shook yourself out of your thoughts. ā€œCan we not discuss this anymore please, Ava?ā€ Ā Ā 
Your best friend sighed in defeat, but still nodded; understanding you felt a bit uncomfortable and with the snacks sheā€™d wanted to grab in hand, she ushered you back into the living room.
You knew the topic was far from over and that she wouldnā€™t just let it go like you asked. You just hoped sheā€™d tone it down a touch.
However, your hopes should be crushed not less than a couple of days later when you and Mason were sitting together to sort some wedding stuff.
Heā€™d freshly cut his hair into this quiff and you had a hard time taking your eyes off him. He looked handsomeā€¦more so than he normally did anyway and on top of that he was chewing on a gum youā€™d stupidly offered him a while ago. He looked hot as hell, and he wasnā€™t even trying.
In an attempt to gather your senses, you vanished into the kitchen to place the order for yours and Masonā€™s dinner. You already regretted having invited him to stay, but then again you hadnā€™t expected him to show up without this mohawk that had made him look slightly less attractive to you.
Even from the kitchen you noticed your phone alerting you of several new messages and when it didnā€™t stop, you called for Mason to check it.
ā€œy/n?ā€, you heard him ask before a few seconds late he showed up in the kitchen, looking utterly confused. ā€œWhyā€™s Ava sending you photos of me, asking if you think I look hot?ā€
Your heart dropped to your tummy in embarrassment. You could feel how your cheeks turned into flaming red patches of skin within seconds as you snatched your phone out of his hands, but damage was obviously done.
ā€œIā€™ll kill her.ā€
Mason saw just how serious you were, but he couldnā€™t help and find the situation slightly hilarious. If this was what he thought it was, you seemed to be in a slightly similar situation as he found himself in.
ā€œYou can admit that you think Iā€™m hot, you know?ā€, he laughed. Stepping closer, he poked your sides and made you squirm, but when you tried to shuffle away from him, he was quick in pulling you into a hug. ā€œSo, do you think so?ā€
ā€œSheā€™s trying to play matchmaker.ā€, you sighed, still incredibly embarrassed heā€™d seen the messages. ā€œSheā€™s been sending me photos for days now. I think sheā€™s tired of my single ass and it seems like youā€™re her latest victim in this game.ā€
ā€œI think sheā€™s doing a good job.ā€ His chest rumbled right beneath your skin as he chuckled. ā€œSheā€™s pointing out all my best features from what Iā€™ve seen. My eyes, my bum, my no-ā€
ā€œMase.ā€, you groaned. You knew he was trying to get you to laugh at it too, but you were too humiliated to do so. ā€œCan we not talk about this please?ā€
ā€œOkay, okay.ā€, he agreed. Pulling away from him, you could still detect that cheeky grin on his lips though, telling you everything about how he wasnā€™t done with the topic yet and you were already dreading his next comment. ā€œBut you know what they say about noses and the refere-ā€
ā€œMason!ā€
Laughing to himself he made sure to leave the kitchen as quickly as possible, trying to avoid you hitting him in jest, but he couldnā€™t help himself. You were too adorable when you were embarrassed. Ā 
Giving you a bit of a break, Mason made sure to direct both of your attention back to what you were supposed to be doing: Finding a wedding gift for Ava and Benny. Of all the things the pair of you had to do, this one seemed to be the hardest and even after a while, youā€™d still not decided on what you wanted.
At some point, you simply gave up and sunk back into the cushions, chatting away whilst waiting for the food to arrive and thankfully it didnā€™t take too long.
ā€œFancy watching a bit of baby reindeer?ā€
ā€œIā€™m not sure why youā€™re asking, when youā€™ve already put it on.ā€, you laughed when heā€™d selected the series before youā€™d even had the chance to say yes or no. Ā 
ā€œOh, cā€™mon, you.ā€, he laughed. ā€œAs if youā€™d ever say no to watching it with me, you muppet.ā€
Laughing along, you moved over a little and pulled your blanket over your tucked knees. Usually, neither of you were shy of a little cuddle, but for some reason the whole thing with Avaā€™s messages was still playing in the back of your mind. You had no idea what he actually thought of them, if theyā€™d made him uncomfortable cause heā€™d simply laughed it off, but it bothered you more than you were willing to admit.
ā€œWhyā€™re you so far away?ā€, he pouted not soon after though. Obviously unhappy with your choice of staying on your side of the sofa. ā€œMove that cute little bum over here, you meanie.ā€
You wanted to refuse, you really wanted to, but the way he held his arm out for you with that adorable pout on his lips had you scrambling over in mere seconds, and you relaxed into his side.
For a while, both of you were engrossed in the episode, slightly creeped out by it all, but neither of you could deny how catching it actually was. You didnā€™t think youā€™d watch it by yourself, but with Mason holding you like this provided you with enough safety, to still feel comfortable.
ā€œWhy donā€™t we just pretend then?ā€, he suddenly asked, causing you to look at him confused. ā€œDating I mean.ā€, he explained, sitting up a little. ā€œWe could pretend weā€™re seeing each other.ā€
ā€œWhat? Mase, why the hell would we do that?ā€
ā€œTo have out peace and quiet, obviously you wally.ā€, he laughed, but you still looked at him as if heā€™d grown a second head.
ā€œI donā€™t think thatā€™s a good idea.ā€, you eventually managed to get out. It was a bad idea, you knew that already. Well, the overall idea wasnā€™t too bad, but the fact that you knew already, that it would be you ending with a broken heart made it the absolute worst idea anyone had ever had.
When Ava had asked if he was your type, you hadnā€™t given her an answer, but truth be told, he absolutely was and you liked him more than you should. Mason had everything a man needed to have for you to be falling for him.
And that combined with fake dating made a terrible, terrible combination.
ā€œWhy not?ā€, he pouted, his big brown eyes gazing into yours as if you didn't already have problems keeping your cool when he was around. Ā ā€œJust think about it for a second. It would get Ava out of your hair and benny would stop trying to set me up with girls I donā€™t like. Itā€™s a win win.ā€ Ā 
ā€œDoesnā€™t look like you donā€™t like them.ā€ Youā€™d not meant to say it out loud, but when you caught his questioning look you realised you accidentally had. ā€œThe photosā€¦Iā€™ve seen them andā€¦it didnā€™t look like you didnā€™t like her.ā€
ā€œWhat pho-ā€¦oh.ā€ It took Mason a second to understand where you were coming from, but when he did, the slight embarrassment of being caught overcame him. ā€œYou mean Tara.ā€
You watched him scratching the back of his head as he blushed and the way he got so flustered was all you needed to see to have your doubts confirmed. Fake dating was a really shit idea ā€“ especially when he was emotionally involved with someone else.
ā€œIā€™ve seen her a couple of times, yes, but itā€™s not thanks to Benny.ā€
ā€œThat would make fake dating even weirder, donā€™t you think?ā€
ā€œWell, first of all, Tara and I arenā€™t exclusive of anything official. She knows it wasnā€™t more than a casual thing for a couple of times to see if anything could potentially come out of it.ā€, he explained awkwardly and from the way you kept fiddling with your fingers in your lap and avoided his gaze he could tell that you felt the same. ā€œAnd secondly, nothing would change for us. Likeā€¦we hang out all the time anyway, just like you come to my games already. It basically wonā€™t look different to anyone other than Ava and Benny. Weā€™ll just tell them that weā€™re dating to see where it could go, you know? I wonā€™t post on Instagram or whatever, youā€™ll still be my best friend.ā€
You couldnā€™t lie and say it didnā€™t sound tempting. Would you have to go through the whole I-told-you-so-conversation with Ava? Yes. But would she stop pestering you afterwards? Also yes.
ā€œI donā€™t know, Mase.ā€, you whispered, feeling his gaze on you as you chew on your bottom lip, trying to find a reason to tell him no without revealing your feelings. ā€œWouldnā€™t it feel weird?ā€
Mason held your gaze when he grabbed your hand and pushed his fingers in between yours. ā€œDoes it feel weird?ā€ You didnā€™t answer his question, but he felt you tightening your grip on his hand a little. ā€œIt wonā€™t be for long, y/n. Just until after their big day so they can enjoy the time up to their wedding and the day itself too. Imagine Ava spending half her wedding day wondering if you have someone to dance with.ā€
A breathy laugh flew past your lips cause you knew he was right. Ava would most definitely check in on you more often that she should instead of enjoying her time with all the guests and whilst you still werenā€™t convinced at all of his crazy idea, you couldnā€™t help but feel something at the thought of having him by your side for the whole wedding.
ā€œYou know Iā€™m right, y/n.ā€, Mason said gently, trying not to push you too far. ā€œI wonā€™t force you, itā€™s up to you. Just think about it, okay?ā€
ā€œPromise it wonā€™t change anything between us?ā€
His heart squeezed at the way you looked and sounded so worried. He knew you appreciated him and valued his friendship more than youā€™d ever said, just like he did the other way around and he hated to see you like this.
ā€œI promise, y/n.ā€, he smiled. ā€œWeā€™ll go back to being friends and itā€™s going to be like nothing ever happened. Not that anything will happen, but you know what I mean.ā€
You sighed deeply, before nodding slowly. It was a stupid idea. A very stupid one.
ā€œPinky promise?ā€
Mason laughed softly, but held his pinky out nonetheless. ā€œPinky promise.ā€
-
But Mason was only partially right.
At first glance, the only thing that really changed was when you were with Benny and Ava. You held hands, cuddled when it felt like it was the right thing to do and Mason kissed your temple or cheek ever so often. He was touchy with you; always had his hands on you in one way or another and made sure to call you all sorts of cute pet names.
For you, however, everything changed.
In the beginning, it was mostly only the two of you meeting to discuss things, but the closer you got to the wedding, the more often the four of you came together. The moments when Mason pretended to be your boyfriend increased - as did the palpitations he triggered in you. Youā€™d liked him before, but the longer the two of you carried on, the more certain you were that you didnā€™t just like him.
It scared the shit out of you. Just like the inevitable heartbreak that was closing in on you. And the more time you spent together, the worse it got and at a certain point you felt like it was suffocating you.
Luckily for you, you were usually able to hide your feelings well. Or so you thought.
ā€œEarth to y/n?ā€ When Mason gently placed his hand on your thigh, you were startled out of your thoughts. ā€œThis is like the third time you zoned out, is everything okay?ā€
ā€œOh ermā€¦yes, Iā€™m good, sorry. Itā€™s just a lot.ā€ Your cheeks were burning, embarrassment creeping up your veins.
You and him were sat up on your sofa, trying to finalise your speeches for the wedding reception, but your thoughts kept wandering. The last three meetings had been with Ava and Benny and not having Mason holding your hand or pulling you into his side now felt weird and as if something big was missing.
He could only assume how much pressure the added stress of the upcoming wedding had put on your shoulders. Ava was your best friend and you, as a perfectionist, had a hard time organising everything in a way that would ensure their day would be as perfect as possible. Mason had realised this early on and had tried to take some of the pressure off you by praising you for your good ideas, but he could only do so much.
ā€œy/n.ā€, he sighed, pulling the blanket away a little so he could hold his arm out. ā€œCā€™mere.ā€
You dropped your sheets of paper and pen on the small coffee table, before shuffling over and cuddling into his side. The warmth and comfort surrounding you the moment Mason wrapped his arms around your frame relieved the tension in your shoulders almost immediately and you couldnā€™t help but bury your face in the crook of his neck to suppress the urge to cry.
You were aware that it was a combination of several factors and not just your growing feelings for the handsome man who would never be yours, but the latter was what hurt you the most.
ā€œItā€™s going to be okay, you know?ā€, Mason hummed softly. He cupped the back of your head with one hand, fingers applying gentle pressure on your scull and down your neck, whilst his other arm stayed wrapped tightly around your waist; effectively caging you against his body. ā€œYouā€™re doing a great job, the wedding is going to be amazing, and Ava and Benny will have the best day, thanks to all youā€™ve done.ā€
Mason pressed his lips to the top of your head, softly inhaling your familiar scent. He was beyond nervous too, but the way you clung to him like a koala just told him everything he needed to know about your state.
He kept you in his hold for a little longer, gently humming and trying to calm you down as he could feel your hot tears on his neck, but after a while, you peeled away from him and wiped your eyes with the sleeves of your hoodie.
ā€œBetter?ā€ Mason carefully reached out and caught a final last tear rolling down your cheek, before cupping your jaw and kissing your forehead. ā€œWould you like to hear my speech now? Iā€™m sure it will make you laugh again.ā€
You had no doubt that it would. He was one of the funniest people youā€™d ever met; a quick wit who always had a funny comment up his sleeve. If you needed someone to cheer you up, it would always be Mason youā€™d choose.
ā€œGo on then, Mr. Mount.ā€, you nodded, the smile back on your lips, and you sat back and relaxed into the cushions, watching him take a deep breath.
ā€œSo, for those of you who donā€™t know me, Iā€™m Mason, one of Bennyā€™s best friends and the lucky guy he asked to be his best man. Iā€™ve known Benny for basically my whole life now and can honestly say that heā€™s not only handsome, funny and brilliant, but also very caring and cha-ā€¦Benny, I canā€™t read your writing, whatā€™s this word supposed to say?ā€
You shot him an incredulous look before laughing out loud; not believing heā€™d actually decided to stick with the idea heā€™d shown you on TikTok a couple of weeks ago.
Mason and you had been trying to write your respective speeches for weeks now, but especially he had struggled a lot with it. He just hadnā€™t felt quite confident about the whole thing, so heā€™d had a little snoop on TikTok and Instagram and in one of those videos the best man had attempted the same joke Mason had put into his speech now too.
ā€œThink itā€™s too much?ā€
ā€œNo, itā€™s hilarious, Mase.ā€, you laughed. ā€œThey will love it, no doubt. Please go on.ā€
And go on he did. He delivered one of the best speeches youā€™d ever witnessed and whilst the beginning was more on the funny side, the rest was filled with honest and raw emotions that had you on the brink of tears again as you sat there in awe, watching him meaning every single word of it.
ā€œBenny, Iā€™m still confused how you managed to win Ava over with that god-awful pick-up line in that club back then, but Iā€™m really glad you did. In Ava you found the love you deserve and Ava, I can assure you that in Benny you have someone who will always have your back. I know that you will both make each other very happy. What the two of you have is so rare and perfect, itā€™s something I can only wish for myself to find at some point in my life. You are endgame and I couldnā€™t be happier for you. So, everyone, please raise your glasses to the bride and groom, congratulations!ā€
Nervously, Mason lowered the sheet of paper into his lap. Heā€™d been so focused on not messing up that he hadn't had the chance to observe your reactions at all and although he was rather proud of what heā€™d managed to put together, your opinion was very important to him and would probably have a big impact on the outcome too. But when he looked at you staring at him with your lips slightly parted and tears rolling down your cheeks, his heart skipped a beat.
ā€œThe woman whoā€™ll get to marry you one day will be so lucky.ā€, you whispered, unable to form proper sentences as you were too overcome with emotions. His speech was so touching and loving and the way heā€™d included your best friend and what heā€™d said about herā€¦he was just the perfect man, and you hated the position youā€™d got yourself into.
Mason just chuckled at your words and dropped his head as he could feel his cheeks heating up, but eventually he shuffled over and pulled you into a hug; his face finding a home in the crook of your neck.
ā€œSeriously Mase, thatā€™s such a beautiful speech.ā€ You gently wrapped your arms around his broad frame, one hand coming up to the back of his head to scratch his skull and when it caused him to hum in content, you squeezed him a little tighter. ā€œThereā€™s nothing you should change about it.ā€
ā€œThank you, love.ā€
-
The time leading up to the wedding day flew by like nothing ever had. Mason and you had spent another countless of hours finalising everything and making sure everything was up to perfection and whilst you were truly proud of everything the two of you had managed to contribute to this special day, you couldnā€™t hold back the slight relief that overcame you the moment you and Mason sat down at your designated places in the venue.
ā€œStop being so nervous.ā€, he laughed quietly. ā€œYouā€™re a snotty mess already. Do I even want to know what kind of a nervous wreck youā€™ll be on your own wedding day?ā€
You had no idea how he could be so composed and calm on a day like today, but you were glad he was as he managed to calm your nerves a little too.
Mason leaned forward and cupped your chin as he carefully dabbed at the tears spilling over. ā€œCā€™mon, stop those tears now, love. Thereā€™s no need for them.ā€
The way he was suddenly so close had your heart in your throat. His big brown eyes stared into your own and you were sure the whole world had stopped for a moment, making it just you two an no one else, but the start of the music quickly brough you back into the here and now.
The two of you joined all the other guests in getting up from your seats for the brideā€™s entrance and just when you thought youā€™d collected yourself, you felt Masonā€™s hand wrapping around yours and giving it a tight squeeze.
ā€œNo more tears, love.ā€, he whispered before he pressed a soft kiss to your temple.
You were absolutely fucked.
A few hours later, you and Mason could finally relax properly. Just like youā€™d expected, heā€™d killed his speech and made everyone laugh and cry and even though you didnā€™t think of yourself as the greatest speaker, you were still happy of how youā€™d delivered yours.
Youā€™d just watched Ava and Benny perfectly showing off their skills with their wedding dance, when Mason turned to face you.
ā€œWould you do me the honour and dance with me, Ms y/l/n?ā€ Just like the gentleman he was, he held his hand out for you to accept with a soft smile dancing on his lips.
ā€œIt would be my pleasure, Mr Mount.ā€
You placed your hand in his warm one and let him lead you onto the dance floor. He pulled you closer to his body, before placing his hands on your waist and naturally, yours moved around his neck.
He was closer than heā€™d ever been to you today, his perfume clouding your senses a little and when his eyes met yours, your knees went weak.
Mason had always been handsome ā€“ maybe the most handsome man youā€™d ever laid your eyes on ā€“ but today was something entirely else. The suit was perfectly fitted and made him look ten times more attractive than he already was and the quiff heā€™d touched up just before the wedding made his face seem even softer.
His big brown eyes and the freckles scattering all over his skin stood out the most to you, but the way he curled his lips into that sweet smile was what had you blushing like mad.
Your heart was thundering in your chest from the proximity, but also because all of sudden it hit you, that this was probably the last time youā€™d be this close. Youā€™d agreed on ending the fake dating right after the wedding as Ava and Benny would leave for their three weeks honeymoon anyway and the realisation suddenly weighed heavy on your chest.
The moment you could feel the tears burning behind your eyes, you dropped your head to his chest and as if he knew, Mason pulled you even closer. You could feel him running his hand up and down your spine; your open-back-dress making you feel his hot touch right on your skin and just like that, a first tear fell.
This was it. This was the moment youā€™d been dreading. The moment the inevitable heartbreak grabbed you with its cold claws, pulling you away from the best man anyone could ever ask for.
ā€œI think Iā€™m falling in love with you.ā€, Mason whispered.
It was as if the world had suddenly stopped turning. Maybe not the whole world, but yours certainly had. You pulled away slowly, wanting to take a step back as there was no way heā€™d meant it, but Masonā€™s hands kept their firm grip on your waist.
ā€œWhat?ā€
ā€œI do.ā€, Mason breathed, making it sound as if heā€™d realised it just now. ā€œIā€™m falling in love with you.ā€
He brought one hand up and cupped your jaw, gently wiping at the few tears spilling over your waterline. His big brown eyes were focused on yours, practically staring into your soul and pouring ever ounce of honesty right into you, making sure there wasnā€™t a single cell in your body thinking he was lying.
ā€œIā€¦I donā€™tā€¦why?ā€
The small chuckle falling from his lips was adorable and had your heart skipping a beat, but you still couldnā€™t wrap your head around what was happening.
Here you were, still slowly swaying to the music that had faded into some sort of background noise. Masonā€™s fingers pushing into the small of your back, whilst the other hand was still holding your jaw, keeping your face tilted upright and your gaze on his.
ā€œBecauseā€¦ā€, he smiled. ā€œBecause youā€™re you. I justā€¦I feel safe with you, like nothing bad can happen. Youā€™re this ray of sunshine, that Iā€™ve always needed in my life. You make me smile when all I want to do is break down and even when I donā€™t want anyone around, youā€™re the exception. You are this ridiculously beautiful person with a heart of gold, and you let me be myself around you without ever judging me for it. You make me feel as if being with me is easy when it is everything but.ā€
Mason carefully pushed a stray strand of hair behind your ear. His fingers just about touching your skin making you shiver.
ā€œI know we started this as some sort of ploy to get Ava and Benny out of our hair, but to be honestā€¦Iā€™ve always known it was you. Right from the moment I met you. I canā€™t get you out of my head, y/n and I know it sounds whipped and pathetic, but-ā€
ā€œIt doesnā€™t.ā€, you whispered as you brought your hand up to his neck, fingers gently brushing through the soft strands of his hair. ā€œI- I donā€™t even know what to say. Itā€™sā€¦you-ā€
Your voice cracked when Mason nudged his nose against yours, a small smile pulling at the corner of his lips.
ā€œIā€™m falling in love with you, too.ā€
And with that, you leaned in and closed the final distance to meet his lips in a hesitant, careful first kiss.
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lqveharrington Ā· 18 days ago
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steve harrington - you are in love <3
congrats on 2k!
You Are In Love | S.H.
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summary: you and steve have been best friends forever, but overtime, you both realize that there's something more to your friendship than you both thought there was.
pairing: steve harrington x hopper!reader
includes: fluff, minimal usage of Y/N, oblivious idiots, kissing, el and reader are siblings, robin and max play match maker
a/n: cutie patootie stevie! (rules for celebration here!)
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Steve Harrington was the type of man girls would go crazy over. From the way he behaved to the way he dressed, they would do anything to get his attention. Luckily for you, he deemed you to be his best friend since childhood. When Tommy and Carol whined about you always hanging around them in high school, Steve would swiftly change the subject. He really only liked hanging out with you anyway.
When you both graduated, something shifted between the two of you. Without the hindrance of Tommy and Carol, you and Steve were free to do whatever you wanted. Whenever you would hang around him, it felt like time would stop. He kept you on your toes despite knowing him for so long.
Weekly dinners around Hawkins during the year would soon become a tradition between the two of you. In your eyes they were friendly dates, but to the kids, you were practically dating. From the whispers as you hung back with him when taking the kids around the mall to the silver necklace he bought you during the summer ā€” they saw something you and Steve couldn't.
They had to do something about it. Fortunately for them, you both made it quite easy.
"Harrington, are you taking me to dinner today or should we reschedule?" You hop onto the counter of Family Video, crossing your legs and smiling brightly at him. "Henderson told me you might have to drive him home after his DND thing or whatever."
"First of all," He started and pulled your legs to the side, sending you a bored look. "I'm at work and you can't bother me." You jokingly pout and follow his movements, watching him restock the bowl of candies at the front. "Secondly, we're still on for dinner. Dustin can get a ride from Munson."
You throw your head back and laugh, "Ah yes, the shared custody of your child."
He rolled his eyes and looked past your head, narrowing his eyes at Max and Eleven. "Why did the girls want to come here again?"
"Uhm, they said they were checking out a new movie that came out." You shrug and slide off the counter. You look in their direction to find them giggling and whispering about something you almost wanted to know about. Almost. "Anyway, don't miss me too much. I'll see you in a few hours, Harrington."
Steve pressed a kiss to the side of your head and pushed a stray piece of hair away from your face. "I'll see you in a bit, Hopper."
You grinned at him and sent him one last wave before rounding up the girls, dragging them back to your car. Before you could even ask them to buckle up, they began hounding you with questions you never expected them to ask. One of the more odd questions sticking out the most.
"Have you ever slept with Steve?" Eleven asked, making you whip around with wide eyes and mouth agape. Her own eyes widened in fear and looked at you with concern. "What?"
Your face flushed a dark red and you began to stutter over your words, unsure of where the question even originated from. "Well, Iā€” No, I haven't but I'mā€” I'm sorry? What's happening? Do you even know what that means?"
"That you sleep in the same bed as him." She tilted her head and giggled at your red face. "Is that not what that means?"
Max shook her head but found it all amusing, crossing her arms and raising her eyebrows at you. "You seem a little flustered, Hopper. What's up with that?"
"Nothing." You glare at her from your rear view as you pull out of the parking and begin the drive to her house. When Eleven still stared in confusion, you sighed and ran your fingers through your hair. "Yes, I have slept in the same bed as Steve before. And not like that, Mayfield."
"What?"
You shake your head and follow the road down, eyes occasionally flickering up to look at the girls who were still giggling. You didn't understand what they were trying to get at. You've always been able to sleep in the same bed as Steve since an incident years ago, but that was the extent of it all. Sure, you would occasionally sleep in one of his shirts and he would make you breakfast in the mornings, but that was it.
"Have you ever been on a date, Y/N?" Eleven asked again and fiddled with the ends of her sweater, eyes meeting yours in the mirror. "Like the ones me and Mike go on?"
"Uh," You signal and stop at a red light, fingers tapping the steering wheel in an effort to keep your cool. "I have, but it's been a while since I've been on a date."
As you turn, Eleven makes another comment that nearly makes you swerve right off the road. "I thought you and Steve were dating."
You choke on your spit and grip the wheel harder, face redder than Max's hair. Although you knew your sister's words were somewhat innocent, you knew the other girl was behind all the questioning. Steve was nothing but a friend to you. Your best friend. It would be weird to think of him as anything other than that, right?
Since childhood, he was nothing but your best friend. Sometimes you couldnā€™t help but think what would happen if anything else came out of it, but only in your dreams. When you realized how quiet you were, you silently cursed yourself for staying silent for too long as the girls came to their own conclusion.
"He kisses you a lot." Max drawled and bit back a smirk when your face reddens again, the sight nearly making her laugh once more. "Like more than you study for your exams in collegeā€”"
"What will it take for you two to be quiet for the rest of the ride?" You continue to glare at the red-head in the backseat and squint when she opened her mouth. "And your answer will not be money."
Max sighed and looked at Eleven, their eyes meeting and silently communicating with each other. They grinned wickedly and looked over at you, tone overly sweet when they answered your question.
"Admit you're in love with Steve Harrington."
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"Oh, Stevie!" Robin grinned widely as she sauntered back in from the break room, leaning back against the counter. She met his confused eyes and tilted her head, still wearing a mischievous grin. "I have a tiny, little question for you."
Steve dug through the boxes underneath the table and waved his hand, barely listening to the girl. "Which is?"
"Could I just ā€” I dunno ā€” take a peek at your wallet?ā€ She asked and pursed her lips to stop from laughing when she saw his incredulous expression peek from underneath the counter. ā€œI just want to make sure my assumptions are right.ā€
"About what?" Steve sighed in exasperation and ran his fingers through his hair, praying that his hair still looked perfect after how many times he had done it.
"Just give me your stupid wallet." Robin huffed and snatched the leather from his hands. She scrunched her nose at him before opening the wallet, gasping when she found what she was looking for. "Oh my gosh."
Steve creased his brows and looked at the contents of his wallet. There was nothing but cash, his license, cards, and picture heā€™s had since high school. If Robin was planning on stealing, she picked the wrong day.
"What?"
"You do have a picture of Y/N in your wallet!" Robin all but squealed like a child, causing the customers in the store to look over at the commotion.
Steve sent them a strained smile before grabbing his wallet back from Robin and tucking it away, muttering quiet obscenities to the girl. Robin rolled her eyes, but the smirk that curled her lips overtook her emotions. He knew that some kind of electricity between the two oblivious idiots.
"You like her!" She spoke in a sing-song voice, lightly punching his shoulder. Robin laughed in excitement and shook her head before pausing, turning to look at Steve like a behavioral analyst. "Unless it's something more."
He looked to his left and to his right before raising a brow at her. He would never admit it out loud, but somewhere along the line he fell for you. Hard. From summer car drives to coffee at midnight ā€” you were the one for him. Yet he didnā€™t want to ruin what the two of you had.
When Steve stayed silent for too long, she started to punch his shoulder in excitement again. It was the silence between asking about love that seemed to trigger everyone today.
"Oh, you're in love! Steve 'the hair' Harrington finally falls in love with his one true love!" She dramatically put a hand to her forehead and leaned back on the counter again. "I thought I would never live to see the day that happens."
He huffed and lightly shoved her, rubbing his hand over his face. "She's my best friend."
"And?" Robin pushed him back and continued to smile, clearly finding his reaction amusing. It wasnā€™t rare for her to tease him about his dates, but knowing that he was deeply in love with you made it so much more fun. "She clearly likes you too."
"She does?" Steve perked up and rolled his eyes when she winked at him. He flipped her off and pretended to be busy again. ā€œYouā€™re so annoying.ā€
"Stevie is in love!" She laughed again and sighed softly, tapping her fingers against the counter. "You're going to dinner with her tonight, right?"
He sent her an odd look and nodded, brows furrowing in confusion. "Yeah, what does thatā€”?"
"Confess tonight! I'm sure she loves you too, Harrington." She slammed her palms down onto the counter, once again attracting the customers in the store. Steve sent them another apologetic look before turning his head to glare at the girl. By the end of the day, he swore that they would get a complaint about Robin.
Robin put a hand up to his face when she saw he was going to speak. ā€œAnd before you back out, the girls and I already made a plan so nothing becomes awkward between the two of you if it fails."
Steveā€™s eyes widened and pushed her hand out of the way, mind reeling at all the knew information. "Wait what?"
"Nothing!"
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After dinner, you both decided to take a walk around the neighborhood. The temperature was perfect and you and Steve had plenty of calories to kill before heading to bed. Besides, you both had unspoken words to say to one another.
"Are you okay? You've been acting strange since you picked me up." You nudged your shoulder with his and tilted your head, eyes worried with concern.
As you walked through the neighborhood, the orange lights from the posts began to flicker on as the sun set in front of you. On instinct, you moved closer to Steve, accommodating to the warmth you were losing. He hid a small smile and pulled you close by the shoulders.
Steve shrugged and kissed the side of your head again. The gears in his head were loudly turning and he wasnā€™t sure how to make them stop. He met your eyes and smiled softly when you smiled up at him.
"On a scale of one to ten, how would you rate the new diner?" He nudged his head back toward the diner.
You hummed and tapped your chin in thought, snapping your fingers when you figured out how to put it. "A solid six and a half. They threw us a dirty glare for being too loud, but their milkshakes were perfect."
He raised his brows and chuckled softly when you rolled your eyes at him. You were always such a sucker for strawberry milkshakes. "Yeah?"
"Yes, Harrington.ā€ You send him a teasing smile before extending your arm and flashing him your left hand adorned with the wrapping from the straw wrapper. ā€œI even got to make us our paper rings."
You turned to face him properly and grabbed his left hand, lacing them together to show the matching rings. You went to say something else when you found him already staring at you, making your mind instantly blank.
Steve swallowed and squeezed your hand, taking a step closer to you. "Y/N?"
"Yeah?" You murmur and take your own step closer until you were chest to chest.
His gaze dropped to your lips before looking back into your eyes, eyes filled with so much emotion. You gave him a curt nod and let him cup your cheek, shutting your eyes when he leaned in.
Your lips met and for the first time, you really believed time truly stopped. It was just you and him on the sidewalk of Hawkins, Indiana. Your own hands came up to grab the lapels of his denim jacket, deepening the kiss when he pulled you impossibly closer.
When you finally pulled away, your mind was still blanking and the first thing you could say was ā€”
"Oh, my strawberry milkshake." You whisper out before groaning, hiding your face in his shoulder. "Now the thing I say after we first kiss will always be strawberry milkshake!"
Steve kisses the top of your head and gently squeezed your waist. "You're cute."
You scoff before looking up, playing with the buttons on his jacket. "Did Robin put you up to this?"
"Yep." He chuckled and tucked a strand of hair behind your ear, narrowing his eyes at you when he realized what Robin meant. "Did the girls?"
"Yep." You sigh and push up on your toes to give him a quick peck. You tilt your head when he smiles, "We're not going to tell them about this and make them feel bad, right?"
"Of course not.ā€ He laced his hands with yours and began the trek back to his car. "We're only best friends after all."
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wolfstarlibrarian Ā· 6 months ago
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Thank you followers! šŸ„³
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I am so proud to celebrate a follower milestone! Thank you all SO MUCH for supporting this page through the years and for supporting the authors and fandom in this space. šŸ©·šŸ©·šŸ©·šŸ©·šŸ©·šŸ©·
To celebrate, letā€™s have a slumber party!
Please send in your jokes, pics of your pets, any Librarian or fandom asks, and I will try and answer as many as possible today.
I canā€™t take the day off but Iā€™ll keep answering through the evening. And Iā€™ll allow anon asks as long as youā€™re all nice.
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miabbh Ā· 13 days ago
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reading & commenting (a little too much & too emotionally)
ā”€ā”€ ā CHILL BABY āž šŸŖ©šŸ„‚ ĢŸ!!
by @baekhyunsbestie
cut for the sake of scrolling (ā .ā Ā ā ā›ā Ā ā į“—ā Ā ā ā›ā .ā )
minseok gestures for you to sit, and your stomach drops when you see baekhyun already lounging in the chair across from him. heā€™s got that laid-back, insufferably confident posture, as if he owns the whole damn office. his tie is casually loosened, jacket tossed over the back of the chair like heā€™s at a bar instead of a meeting. he twirls a pen between his fingers with a carefree smirk, completely at ease as though this were some casual hangout, not an important work discussion.
The way I can fuckin see this in my mind as if it was a film scene speakes volumes about how good your writing is + how down we are for bbh. It's infuriating how good he looks even in my imagination through a bunch of words together!!!!!!!! Nhamnham I wanna nham nham him already it's the second paragraph šŸ˜©
your blood boils a little as you canā€™t help but notice how good he looks. it's infuriatingā€”he looks effortlessly sharp in that tailored suit, the kind of guy who knows exactly how to make everything he wears look like it was meant for him. (...)
See, that's what I meant. We're all the same deep down, Baekhyun's Eris. We're all creatures breathing this man talent and beauty and cuteness and making sure the whole internet knows about it &!!!!! we feed each other!
ā€œexceptional,ā€ baekhyun repeats, leaning back in his chair with a grin thatā€™s equal parts smug and infuriating. he lets the word hang in the air like a trophy. then, with an exaggerated sweetness, he shifts his gaze to you. ā€œyou hear that, sweetheart? iā€™m exceptional.ā€
ohhh my god I wanna punch him but at the same time I wanna give him the biggest loudest smooch over. cocky af I totally get her/me/us! Like- mf knows he's ho- HE'S GOOD AT HIS JOB and just uses it at his favor. That's hot.
your jaw drops, and before you can stop yourself, your voice rises. ā€œoh, youā€™ve got to be fucking kidding me!ā€
baekhyun sits up straighter, his smirk vanishing as he frowns. ā€œthe fuck you mean, ā€˜unfortunatelyā€™?ā€ he interjects, indignant. ā€œiā€™m a goddamn asset to this company.ā€
ā€œan asset?ā€ you snap, turning to him with a glare sharp enough to cut glass. ā€œyouā€™re a walking liability.ā€
You won me over here. Do you want my heart, Lisa? I'll give it to you. What do you want? Just say the word. Imma print this and glue it in my forehead. Ah I love enemies to lovers and that's why I'm single. No one is worth being an enemy of mine because no one is like him šŸ˜©šŸ˜©
Poor Minseok having to deal with it but it's just pure entertainment I'm loving it šŸ˜­
you roll your eyes, crossing your arms. ā€œoh, please. fixed? more like rearranged everything i worked on just to make it fit your ā€˜vision.ā€™ā€
baekhyun shrugs nonchalantly. ā€œwell, it worked, didnā€™t it? the client loved it. youā€™re welcome, sweetheart.ā€
I wanna bite them both. This is having me so excited Im shaking as I write! Jeez I wanna stay here forever Lisaaaaa!!!
ā€œlooks like weā€™re going to be spending a lot of quality time together, sweets,ā€ he says, his tone practically dripping with amusement.
the pet nameeessseeeee šŸ˜©šŸ˜©šŸ˜©šŸ˜©šŸ˜© please oh my I them to kiss already but at the same time pls don't keep this going
baekhyun blinks, clearly thrown by the shift in your tone. his usual cocky demeanor falters for just a second, a hint of pink creeping up his neck. ā€œr-really?ā€ he stammers, his voice softer, less certain. he runs a hand through his hair, rubbing the back of his neck as he stumbles over his words. ā€œi... i can look into it.ā€
your smile doesnā€™t falter. in fact, it only grows, but now thereā€™s a mischievous glint in your eyes. ā€œyeah! and maybe while weā€™re out there, i can push you off the boat and into the ocean. and maybe, just maybe, iā€™ll finally be free of you.ā€
Don't do that šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­oh my heart you're evil nooooooo šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ And his reaction? Oh my he's so helpless in love I wanna laugh but my heart is aching
baekhyun raises an eyebrow, twirling his bag strap like heā€™s the most important person in the world. ā€œoh, i found us the perfect place. a real gem.ā€ he pauses for dramatic effect. ā€œone-star motel, just for you, babe.ā€
ahhhh Lisa I hope truth be told's holding it's place tight cuz it's shaking!!!!!
your breath catches in your throat, and you canā€™t stop the small ache that forms in your chest, the memories flooding back despite your best efforts to push them down. he steps closer, his eyes scanning you, like heā€™s inspecting every inch of you as if heā€™s trying to figure out how youā€™ve changed. or maybe how he hasnā€™t.
Ohhhh myyyyyyy I read the tags but I forgot about this but now šŸ˜©šŸ˜©šŸ˜© Oh my the difference and the tension is too good
When it's well written, oh my the male rivalry and jealousy and everything has me on my knees. Lisa, you're fantastic! Bbh and Jongin then???? DAMNNN
ā€œsorry, donā€™t think weā€™ve met,ā€ baekhyun says, his voice dripping with a saccharine sweetness thatā€™s anything but genuine. he tightens his arm around your waist just enough that you can feel the shift in his posture, like heā€™s pulling you into his orbit. his eyes flicker briefly to you before he meets jonginā€™s gaze again, sharp and calculating. ā€œwho are you?ā€
you know when you're soo deep into the story that you can feel and smeel and, sometimes, get scared when you notice you're not there? Wow, I just felt a good male perfume and it's in the middle of the night plus all the perfumes I have are sweet. Man, I'm in love with this piece and I'm just in the beginning.
boyfriend.
boyfriend. boyfriend! šŸ˜©šŸ˜© i want a baekhyun to be my (fake) boyfriend too
ā€œweā€™re actually here for new year's, you know,ā€ baekhyun says, his voice laced with a sweetness that you canā€™t quite shake off. ā€œmy girl canā€™t stand the cold back home, so we thought weā€™d escape for a bit.ā€
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the car ride to the hotel is the kind of moment youā€™d want to capture forever. the windows are rolled down, letting the warm, golden sunshine pour in, and the tropical breeze carries the scent of saltwater and plumeria. you lean your head back against the seat, letting your eyes flutter closed for just a second as the warmth kisses your skin. it feels almost unreal, the stark contrast to the biting cold and slate-gray skies of new york city that you left behind.
this is so film coded, Lisa, that if I end up deciding and getting a master's degree in cinema, we will recreate this! Maybe not in Hawaii but WE WILL!!!!!
you glance at him from the corner of your eye, trying to piece it together. heā€™s relaxed in the driverā€™s seat, one hand loosely gripping the steering wheel while the other rests on the open windowā€™s edge. his shirt sleeves are rolled up to his elbows, and his hair is ruffled slightly from the breeze. he looks completely at ease, like he belongs in this setting, soaking up the sun and radiating that same kind of effortless warmth.
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ā€œbaekhyun,ā€ you hiss, your voice low enough to avoid drawing attention but packed with enough fury to cut through his smug demeanorā€”or so you hope. ā€œwhat the hell happened, king of the fucking finance department? you were in charge of the booking.ā€
IMMA.FREAKING.TATTOO.THIS.IN.MY.FOREHEADDDDDDEEEEEEEEE
this is too good if this was a book by now I would have had to buy three more copies because the pages would already be stuck to my wall with highlighters and notes and stickers
suddenly, he stops, his face shifting into a more serious expression, though the hint of a smirk still lingers. ā€œactually, iā€™ll shower first. we can talk about the whole sleeping arrangement after, but iā€™m down for the pillow wall, if you are, sweets.ā€ his eyes twinkle as he adds, ā€œi know that was on your mind. and hey, you wouldnā€™t want your dear old boyfriend to sleep on the not-as-comfy sofa, would you? be a good girlfriend, would ya?ā€
DON'T 'YA' ME RN MAN WHAAAAAAAAA?????!!!!!!! I'm having a hard time already, bitting my nails and smiling like crazy and then you 'ya'? Don't 'ya'!!!! I'm too weak for this šŸ˜©
why am I so weak for his 'ya'? It's just a word šŸ˜­ brain is a weirdo
the same baekhyun who has spent months throwing paper clips at you during meetings, the one who always swiped the last muffin in the break roomā€”one he knew youā€™d been eyeing all day. standing there, completely unbothered by your presence, his sharp hip bones and smooth muscle curves on full display.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HSJSJSSISJSJJSJSJSHSJSSIBSOSBSKDIABSKDJSAJWNDKSNSODNDKSJSSOXJSKSISBSKABDKD šŸ˜«šŸ˜«šŸ˜«šŸ˜«šŸ˜«šŸ˜«šŸ˜«šŸ˜«šŸ˜«šŸ˜«šŸ˜«šŸ˜«šŸ˜«šŸ˜«šŸ˜«šŸ«ØšŸ˜©šŸ«ØšŸ˜µā€šŸ’«šŸ¤§šŸ«ØšŸ˜©šŸ˜µā€šŸ’«šŸ˜µā€šŸ’«šŸ˜©šŸ˜µā€šŸ’«šŸ˜£šŸ«ØšŸ˜©šŸ«ØšŸ˜©šŸ«ØšŸ„¶šŸ˜£šŸ˜³šŸ˜ØšŸ«ØšŸ˜ØšŸ˜³šŸ˜ØšŸ™šŸ˜ØšŸ˜²šŸ˜ØšŸ™šŸ˜“šŸ˜³šŸ˜“šŸ˜²šŸ˜ÆšŸ˜“šŸ«¤šŸ˜žšŸ˜’šŸ˜ šŸ§šŸ¤”šŸ˜¶ soooooo nhamnham I wanna punch him for that all but AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
his broad shoulders practically fill the doorway of the bathroom, water droplets still clinging to his skin, glistening under the light as they trail down his collarbones, catching the soft glow of the room. they follow the sharp planes of his abs, disappearing just below the towel hanging low on his waistā€”just barely hiding the path that your eyes desperately try to pull away from.
and again I felt the smeel of shower soap? this must have a name but wow Lisa this rarely happens to me, only when I'm really deep into the reading but with your writing it's just to natural oh my- im truly chocked
also idk about you but in all my fics I imagine him soon after his "big Boy" era. Something about huge Baek has my heart on its hands and I'm not fighting back. Just imagine the difference on the shoulders, for starters šŸ„µ *fangirl sounds*
baekhyun raises an eyebrow, clearly entertained. ā€œnot even gonna send me straight to the couch?ā€ he teases, his voice dripping with amusement. ā€œgonna give me a chance on the bed tonight? you goinā€™ soft on me, sweetheart? promise i wonā€™t disappoint. yā€™know, women are actually trying to get into my bed, not out of it.ā€
Oh my he's so shitty and cocky. Lisa you really surpassed yourself on this wow! Everytime they open their mouth I'm smiling like an idiot.
still, this part here?? He's so in love oh my. I mean who wouldn't but damn
before jongin can retort, baekhyunā€™s grip on you tightens, and he tugs you back into the room with a firm, deliberate motion. the door clicks shut behind you with a satisfying snap, the confrontation left to fizzle out on the other side.
I was silent this whole time because I just cant get enough of (not so fakely) jealous!possessive!Baek. LISAAAAAAAAAA šŸ©·šŸ©·šŸ©·šŸ©·šŸ©·šŸ©·šŸ©· I CAN'T STOPP READDINGGGHGHHHGGGDJ
baekhyunā€™s laugh rumbled deep in his chest, low and teasing, sending a shiver racing down your spine. ā€œif you kill me, princess,ā€ he whispered, his breath warm and distracting against the side of your face, ā€œyouā€™re goinā€™ down with me.ā€ his voice dropped to a mockingly romantic tone. ā€œkinda poetic, though, donā€™t ya think? like romeo and juliet.ā€
honorable mention. Hehe šŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚
before you could respond, the sliding glass door to jonginā€™s room swung open, and his voice rang out, breaking through the tension. ā€œif you two are going to have sex in the pool, iā€™m calling security!ā€ he yelled.
No hehe to you šŸ˜’ That's called envy, Jongin! You lost! Go, go away! Also, damn lucky to have him there right there anyway šŸ™„
it was fucking infuriating.
It is, isn't it? Damn, Baekhyun is so handsome even when he's just breathing this makes no senseeeseee!!!!!
ā€œaww, you guys shouldnā€™t have. but iā€™ve already been here for a couple years now,ā€ baekhyun jokes, grinning as he glanced over at kyungsoo. ā€œalso, iā€™m in finance, not marketing.ā€
LISAAAAAAAAAA!!!!! I'M IN LOVE ENOUGH STOP WITH THIS SASSY LINES FROM HIM IMMA SMOOCH HIM! WITH TONGUE!
baekhyun swears heā€™d fallen in love at that moment.
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you glanced at him, the corners of your mouth twitching into a subtle smirk, eyes glinting with amusement. ā€œthanks,ā€ you said, reaching for a muffin, your voice light and playful. ā€œby the way, nice try with the whole ā€˜iā€™ve been here for yearsā€™ thing. thought it was kinda cute.ā€ you paused, your gaze lifting to meet his, the challenge in your eyes sharp and clear. ā€œbut, what was it you said afterwards? wondering if iā€™m a 'yes man' or a hardass?ā€
Oh!! So she was the one who started šŸ¤”šŸ¤”šŸ¤” good to know, good to know. Poor Baekhyun, how could he not to fall in love and get so down for here? If things were a little different, maybe he would kneel right there and then
for the first time in either of your lives, you look up at baekhyun with something entirely new in your eyes. thereā€™s a pink tint dusting your cheeks, softening the sharpness of your usual quips, and a sparkle in your gaze that practically screams that, to you, baekhyun puts the stars in the sky.
Oh my oh my oh my it's now, isn't it??!!!
ā€œi could (make you come),ā€ he breathes, the words almost shaky, like heā€™s barely holding himself together. his breaths are ragged, his chest rising and falling faster than youā€™ve seen all night.
SIR? I mean- hello for you too! He's so sassy how's that even possible???? Also you said the smut is šŸ„µ and I'm not ready! I'm shakingggg!
in that moment, the fireworks erupted in the distance, their deafening roar ringing in the new year as baekhyunā€™s lips crashed into yours with a force that stole the breath from your lungs. it wasnā€™t gentle or deliberateā€”nothing like the soft, romantic kisses youā€™d imagined. this was raw, primal, as if an invisible force had pulled you together, unrelenting and inevitable. every frantic press of his lips against yours felt like an explosion, a desperate, magnetic connection that neither of you could fight.
Mia.exe stopped working. Mia.exe stopped working. Mia.exe stopped working. Mia.exe stopped working. Mia.exe stopped working. Mia.exe stopped working. Mia.exe stopped working. Reason: overheating.
with every pop and crackle of the fireworks, his kiss deepened, more frantic, as if he couldnā€™t hold back any longer. the colors aboveā€”bright, burning, aliveā€”seemed to reflect the way he touched you, his hands pulling you closer, his tongue moving with desperation that matched the chaos of the display. it was a beautiful, reckless collision of sound and motion, and for that brief moment, nothing else existed. it was just you, just him, and the fire in his kiss, mirroring the explosion of fireworks lighting up the sky.
So beautifully written Lisa oh my šŸ˜©šŸ˜©šŸ„µ I wanna tattoo this in my hand so I can read it all the time oh my- you're so good with words Lisa how lucky I am for reading this šŸ˜­ I love you Lisa damn I can't stop thinking about this lines
without any warning, his hand comes down hard, a sharp slap landing on the soft curve of your ass. the sting leaves a fiery trail as his fingers linger, pressing firmly through the fabric of your dress, now hiked even higher.
ā€œalways have to talk back, donā€™t you?ā€ baekhyun spits the words, his knee pressing between your legs. his grin, so innocently handsome, spreads across his face as he notices the soft moan that slips from your lips. he grinds against you purposefully, feeling your body shift under him. ā€œwhy wonā€™t ya ever, hahā€”believe me?ā€
DOM BAEK?????!!!!! OMG LISA I'M GIVING YOU MY HEART SEND ME YOUR ADDRESS OR WHATEVER
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I wasn't ready for this. I wasn't expecting this. But I like it. I like it very much. Very very very much šŸ„µ
you stare at him, utterly deadpan. ā€œyeah, youā€™re definitely getting pushed into the ocean tomorrow.ā€
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WHAT WAS THAAAAT????!!!!!!!! OH MY LISA THIS WAS FANTASTIC!!!!
I loved it so, so, soooooo much!!!! All the cockyness, the tease, Their dynamics are so fluid that it is truly entertaining, it doesnā€™t feel forced, not a single line! Also related to this, the transition from enemies to lovers was soooooo smooth and created such strong anticipation!!! I was almost crying, Lisaaaaaaa šŸ„¹šŸ„¹
The male rivarly too šŸ˜© so well written too!!! Nothing, at least for me, is over the top. Like- it could be true so bad and still it's great enough to create the tension but without making it too heavy and to big of a difference to the general pace of the story šŸ˜©šŸ˜©šŸ˜©
I really wanna print this
THE SMUT šŸ„µšŸ„µšŸ„µšŸ„µ DOM BAEK????!!!!!! "GOOD GIRL?????" Oh my everything was too hot I couldn't stop really šŸ˜© and still he's so down for her/us like- dude can't even be playfully threatened she's looking somewhere else he made making her come his life mission! And wow man, wow
As I said, Lisa, loved it all šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­
Also, Truth be Told 's place is safe! But this one It's definitely a second favourite from now on! You just get better at each time, Lisa šŸ©·šŸ©·!!!
Thank you for your time and dedication writing this and then sharing it with us! You did amazing šŸ„¹šŸ„¹ soooo amazing!
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songbirdmunson Ā· 6 months ago
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OH MY GOD GIVE ME IT RIGHT NOW
18+
Eddie sitting on top of you, hands holding onto your breasts as he rides your strap. Your slick spilling out around the harness and sticking on your thighs and him. Heā€™s in his own world of pleasure, his curls soaked in sweat and matted to his forehead. His head is tossed back, baring his delicious jugular, that pick chain that sways with every movement, and a beautiful body littered in tattoos, scars woven through the ink. Heā€™s got his muscular thighs spread on either side of your hips, eyes going from clenched closed, to opening ā€” switching to the ceiling, finally finding your own, and his cock kicking, so hard you can tell that itā€™s hurting him with the need to releaseā€¦
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midnightwinterhawk Ā· 1 month ago
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interlude (412 words) by ladybundle
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Dune - All Media Types, Dune: Prophecy (TV)
Rating: Mature
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Desmond Hart/Javicco Corrino
Characters: Desmond Hart, Javicco Corrino, Natalya Corrino
Additional Tags: Mild Sexual Content, Infidelity, but she lowkey doesnā€™t give a fuck
Summary:
Desmond Hart will follow Javicco.
And Javicco will follow her.
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Look at this wonderful present I got! I šŸ©· you so much my friend. šŸ’œ Thank you for this!
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madrabit Ā· 6 months ago
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May I request C, U and M for the fanfic ask game? šŸ˜Ž
C:Ā What member do you identify with most?
Ohhh, this is simultaneously hard to say and the easiest thing in the world, but I do identify the most with Jan. We both have that black cat chaos energy and we both are cat parents šŸˆā€ā¬›šŸˆ, so I'm obviously more inclined to feel similar to him from the get go.
I've also been described as mysterious and confused (less mysterious, more confused), so I feel like that might fit. And we're both kinda sleepy and have a resting šŸ˜šŸ¤Ø face. I call it lovingly "resting blank face".
Also, I, too, cannot help but want to film Bojan whenever I can or stare at Nace...
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U:Ā Share three of your favorite fic writers and why you like them so much.
Ngl, this is a hard pick, so I'll just mention a few ppl I like the writing style and fic of! šŸ©·
This will be more than three ppl cause I couldn't decide and in no particular order!!
@sizzlingsheepcheesecake // ao3
Does someone want to read some Bo(Jan)Ā²? Well, you're at the right address! Her fics are so good and capture you with their emotional roller coaster they're taking you on! Her writing style is also really nice and pleasant to read šŸ˜ŠāœØļø
I particularly like her fic Come play with your food, bejbi which is an absolute fluffy vampire Bo(Jan)Ā² fic that has me kicking my feet with how adorable it is. There also are some Bonus bites to this one!
And her poly BoJanKris fic Distortion can leave you happy in one moment and make you cry in another!
She also has a vampire BoKris fic The thrill and the dark, of the hunt and your eyes in which both Bojan and Kris are vampires, it is also really good and definitely worth a read if you haven't yet! And she has so many more fics as well!
@seokoilua // 1236 on ao3
I absolutely adore her writing style. The way she's able to take suffering and resolve it in all the good smut? Yes, definitely one of my favs. I especially like her fic been deprived and the sequel quietly, so if you like angst in your smut, her fics are definitely your thing then!
She also has a vampire BoKris fic ravenous in which vampire Kris picks up Bojan in a club and ngl, I need the second chapter like yesterday šŸ˜‚
@vampmilf // @fruitybashir on ao3
Sophie has a really, really nice writing style, and I enjoy his Ne Bi Smel verse starting with The Holidate so much! It's so sweet and the smut is so hot and good and spicey and hahsjjskdjdkfkf for a long time having something nice to read every Sunday was just perfect to end the week with! He mainly writes BoKris (also, give Dopamin a read, the way he writes overstimulated Bojan is just so sjjdndndndnndnfmfm so good), but there is also a nice focus on Jance, that I really enjoy :3
I also absolutely love following him and seeing him on my dash, cause every time he reblogs something unhinged about Bojan I just have to giggle and laugh (calling Bojan three blueberries tall is literally everything to me and I love it so much, also letting him be his slutty little self in fics? Yessssss). He's also such an incredible nice person and was very sweet when I met him! šŸ’–
@da-proti-toku-grem // ao3
Maca writes these absolutely adorable Kiss prompts here on tumblr and on ao3. From Jance to BoJure and JureJan, she's got so many ships and all of them are so good and fluffy and adorable or spicy! I really enjoy all of them! And she's made me have an incredibly big soft spot for BoJure :3 šŸ’›šŸ©·
An honourable mention goes to @185northgower // ao3
Not only will I read literally everything she writes no matter what pairing or what fandom, but we share one exact braincell, which works perfectly cause we do love collabing on fics together and I couldn't imagine a better co author! šŸ„¹šŸ©·āœØļø
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M:Ā Got any premises on the back burner that youā€™d care to share?
I actually have a few ideas I've been cooking, a few of them are gonna be joined collabs with North! Next to continuing our DJwD verse (yes, there will be more, these men won't stop and have infected our heads with Daddy Nace and I just cannot, I cannot anymore), we also planned a Romeo & Juliet šŸŒ¹ fic, which we won't go into detail yet, since we can't start it yet šŸ¤­
Then I also have a Bo(Jan)Ā² fic started, its the same one I mentioned last time, the one with the skirt, but I cannot shut up about it. I keep calling it the āœØļøgirlfriend thingāœØļø if that helps anyone...
And next to those and continuing with my other fics, I also can't get a vampire Bo(Jan)Ā² fic out of my mind...
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sabine-of-the-day Ā· 10 hours ago
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Hi there, fellow Sabine fans! My real life is getting busier, but I want to keep posting here every day.
So, I'm going to mix up our usual posts with more fanart, behind-the-scenes content, Natasha (and cast!) photos, and maybe even some memes šŸ¤”. Please feel free to submit any of these things, and any ideas, to the ask box!
As usual, the focus will be on Sabine (and her actors), and not any specific ships. Thanks everyone for your support, and for keeping this blog a happy, welcoming place for all Sabine fans!!
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therentyoupay Ā· 1 month ago
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Have you ever imagined Jack and Elsa dancing together? For some reason, I always picture them dancing Kingdom Dance from Tangled,I imagined it being the rare times Elsa let herself lose up a little and drags Jack along with her to dance together.
oh interestingā€”yes, but only in certain contexts!
for example, i wrote a bit about this in at the center, but i thiiiiiiiiink that is the only story i have that currently (šŸ‘€) contains any dancing scenes/moments. interestingly enough, itā€™s just not something i think about very much for jelsa?
flying-together-dancing, YES (šŸ‘€šŸ‘€šŸ‘€šŸ‘€šŸ‘€ spoilers?).
dancing-dancing on the ground? hmmmm. i am not as compelled, i think.
personally, if i do imagine on-the-ground-dancing scenarios, i would love them in an AU (like my cinderella!au, or my 1700s!au, or my apples fic, something like that), but not as much in a canon-esque crossover. i am not sure why. šŸ˜‚
i have loved writing dance scenes for other ships (e.g., tahnorra, break the ice) butā€¦ now that iā€™m thinking about it, i realize i really donā€™t actually have any jelsa!dancing headcanons!
but also, it sounds like you should totally write this fic!!! or draw this art!! šŸ„¹šŸ©·šŸ©·šŸ©· i bet it would be lovely! thank you for the ask, nonny non šŸ„¹šŸ©·šŸ©·
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sunrisesinthesuburbs Ā· 8 months ago
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borrowed words just hit 10k hits, which is not a lot in the grand scheme of things but itā€™s a lot for me. my first long fic, my first au, in a language thatā€™s not my own.
thank you to everyone who read it šŸ©·
(ps: if youā€™d like to go back to this universe with some one shots, send me prompts! missing scenes youā€™d like to read, more flashbacks, something from the four years we skipped over in the epilogue. just tell me and Iā€™ll do my best to do it!
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sp00kymulderr Ā· 1 year ago
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15th Oct.
This week has been difficult for me. Recovering from a medical procedure took longer than I had hoped and with my not so great mental health Iā€™ve been feeling pretty down.
But there have been things to bring me back up, and Iā€™m forever grateful for that. I havenā€™t been involving myself in fandom much recently for personal reasons but Iā€™ve been in the background enjoying peoples posts and creations. And of course, the man himself always brings joy - I wasnā€™t able to join the bloodsucking bastards watch on the space sisters server but I had a Prospect rewatch which always lifts my spirits. Thank goodness for Ezra & Pedro šŸ’š
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Iā€™ve read less than Iā€™d hoped to this week, but Iā€™ve loved the things I have! Some recs from me:
A forgotten scene by @fromthedeskoftheraven
Cockwarming w Marcus M by @flightlessangelwings
Kiss me quick by @secretelephanttattoo
Iā€™ve also made a start to some longer fics & series which Iā€™m loving and so excited to keep reading! (Iā€™m so so slow, Iā€™m sorry)
The Pit by @morallyinept
Muddy Waters by @bonezone44
Recovery Road by @chronically-ghosted
A ghost of you by @wannab-urs
Compulsion by @iamskyereads
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Of my own work, this week Iā€™ve posted a few little things - to be honest Iā€™ve been filled with dread about posting fic recently but Iā€™m pushing through and trying to appreciate my own creativity more:
-Dulia (Ezra x gn!reader)
-Ascending Stars (Ezra x f!reader)
-take the long way home pt 2 (marcus pike x afab!reader)
-A selection of Dieter & one Ezra phone wallpapers here and here
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For the week ahead, Iā€™m kind of nervous about some work things but I do have plans (a date!!) and Iā€™m super excited to hopefully have Our House of Flames pt 3 (Joel x reader) out. I also have a good old list of fic to read (95 and counting on my tbr - god bless the talented and prolific writers in this fandom).
Thank you all for brightening my dash & my days - always sending my appreciation. And love to anyone who reads this random Sunday ramble!
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moonlinos Ā· 8 months ago
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Hey Mila! Hope you're doing terrific! If not, things will get better eventually, I promise.
I wanted to know which is your fav trope or scenario to read, I'm really curious, and if you don't mind, I'd like to read one of your favorite ones.
Remember to drink lots of water, eat and sleep well! šŸ©·šŸ©·šŸ©·
šŸ©· anon
Hello!!! Iā€™m happy to see you back šŸ¤—šŸ©· your messages are always so so sweet, they mean a lot to me. Thank you ily šŸ«¶
And honestly I really donā€™t focus on tropes a lot when I read fanfic lol but I only read soft soft fics. Even if thereā€™s angst, and even smut I read is soft šŸ¤ 
Hereā€™s a small list of some of my favorite stories on Tumblr!! Theyā€™re all Minho fanfic sorry šŸ™ƒ I only really read about him, I hope thatā€™s okay. I also recommend the authors of these stories as well, all their work is amazing šŸ©·šŸ’–šŸ’žšŸ’—
Bunny by @tasteleeknow (one of my favorite Minho fics. I also love her current series Hello Stranger)
Everything and no one also by @/tasteleeknow
Wishful thinking by @withleeknow
When the rain stops + the sequel by @moonjxsung
Sweet taster by @jilixthinker
Nightmares by @linospuddin
This one (no title I think?) by @rachalixie
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chai-berries Ā· 6 months ago
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ko-fi: ko-fi.com/dirtychailatte
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fic recommendation [all x reader]
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spicysix Ā· 2 years ago
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For the Steddie ask game :)
3, 12 and 15?
thank you for asking!! ā™”
3. Favorite three Steddie fanfics?
technically i've already answered this one but i'm going to use this as a loophole and talk about three more fics hehehe >:) using different tropes! (previous three ones here) ā€¢ my soul looks forward to loving you by @strawberryspence - soulmate!AU (you should read the previous one in the series to make this feel more delicious but if i'm recalling it right, it can be read as a standalone) love love LOVE everything about this and it's a mix of so many delicious tropes. it also has one of my favorite subgenres of soulmate!AUs which is platonic soulmates and not only romantic ones and the entire party being soulmates is something that can be so personal ā€¢ your cosmic call sign by @nancywheeeler - aliens!AU this is such an amazing take ok. i love love love the exploring of the story that inspired ST in the first place, and listen. ALIENS???? i'm NOT an alien guy but this fic does this so amazingly it turned me into an alien guy. i was so obsessed i rambled on and on for hours about it to my brother who literally couldn't give a flying fuck (he likes ST so that was our only common ground). it is amazing and even if you're not an alien guy give it a chance!!! ā€¢ Wild Geese by watchcatewrite - roadtrip!AU so so so soft. so beautiful. like that first breath of warm, salty, humid air when you arive at a beach. like feeling the water peeling off all your rancid from outside to the inside. like a cold refreshing pressurized shower. poetic, even. our boys deserve this so much.
12. What is your headcanon of their sexuality? (Gay? Bi? Pan? Etc)
i am a bi4bi truther!! to me everyone ever is always bi (unless they aren't lol). i of course read gay!Eddie bc it's what we have the most and i can honestly see the vision as well. but to me (and in all of my own fics) they're both bi
15. If you created a cross-over/AU, what other show, movie, or book would it be and why did you pick that universe?
crossovers are not my cup of tea tbh and so if i were to use any other media i would probably put them in a reality tv show LMAO release those bitches inside Ex On The Beach or Love Island and see chaos being installed.
send me some Steddie asks!
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mariahcarreyyy Ā· 1 year ago
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okay so i just yk... dabbled in the ao3 world again and stumbled upon an oscar/carlos fic. and yk, ofc, rarepair so im intrigued.
now why the hellllll was it actually convincing me that they would be 'enemies' in public but fucking behind closed doors??? with BOTTOM!carlos as well. im bamboozled and genuinely impressed.
- @planete777 šŸ’“
u dont know the amount of weird ass ships that ao3 got me to support baešŸ’€šŸ’€
like im sorry in what world is max verstappen topping oscar HELLOOOO???? I still eat it up every timešŸ˜˜
the rarest pairs always make the best smut because u can take such a small interaction between the drivers & make it wayyyy deeper than it acsh is. Almost to the point where the reader believes whats being written
kinda like being gaslighted ngl
but like why does enemies to lovers w/ carlos n oscar makes senseeee likeeeešŸ˜µā€šŸ’«šŸ˜µā€šŸ’«šŸ˜µā€šŸ’«
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mountttmase Ā· 1 year ago
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Read this earlier in the week and I just loved it šŸ„ŗ
I see this as real life Mason so much like you just know the bubba will always be an angel for him cause heā€™s so good with them but I loved how reassuring he was when she was feeling rubbish and he knew he had to do more šŸ„ŗ
I had this with my nephew when he was little, always cried when I came into the room and it makes you feel so rubbish but weā€™re little besties now but itā€™s honestly so relatable that this little human can make you feel so useless
And I love how open and honest they can be with each other it was SO CUTE like sometimes you just need a cuddle from your man šŸ„ŗšŸ©·
LOVED IT šŸ©·šŸ©·šŸ©·
plz could you write something about mase looking after you when youā€™ve had a rough day with the baby!!
stress - m.m
a/n: hello angel! thank you for your request. omg i love it so much, kinda changed it a little if thatā€™s okay! (dad! imagines own my heart!!!!). idk how to feel about this one so lmk what you guys think! anyways, letā€™s get on with the imagine, enjoy reading šŸ«¶
mason mount taglist: @noturbabe22 @luvvtrent @peterparkerbae
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four weeks, it had only been four weeks since youā€™d had your baby and you were already feeling like youā€™d failed her.
you knew becoming a mum would be difficult but you didnā€™t realise just how hard it was going to be. it was like everything you did was wrong.
Mason had gone back to work only a week after Margot was born and that was one of the worst thing to ever happen. you felt like you didnā€™t have support even though he would get up with her during the night and as soon as he got back from work he would take over looking after her. what was funny was whenever Mason got back from football she was never crying, it was like she could sense he was coming home.
Margot loved Mason. whenever he had her she hardly cried, sheā€™d watch his face with such concentration and coo at him all the time. but when she was with you, sheā€™d scream and cry no matter what you did.
you felt useless.
you felt like the worst mum in the entire world, not understanding what was wrong with her as she cried just hurt your heart. you just wanted to be in the ā€˜baby bubbleā€™ everyone spoke about.
you wanted to feel like your friends did when they had their kids. they were always smiling, always happy when they were with their babies who hardly cried when they were with them, it was like you were broken.
today was like no other. it started out okay, Margot was actually happy this morning when you woke up, Mason had given her a bath and put her in the cutest outfit but then as soon as he said his goodbyes to the two of you and he drove out of the driveway, all hell broke loose.
she was just sobbing and it hurt you to hear those cries. ā€œoh Margot, whatā€™s the matter my angel. please donā€™t cry sweetheart. are you hungry? is that what it is?ā€
you quickly balanced her with one arm as you tried to lift up your pyjama top so you could breastfeed her but every time you tried to get her to latch she would turn her head away and sob louder.
you had realised that Margot would hardly ever latch when you tried to breastfeed her. it was very rare that she would allow you to breast feed her so you had decided to start pumping your milk and give it to her in a bottle instead and most of the time she would drink it from the bottle.
ā€œhow about we get you a bottle instead hmm? would that make you feel better?ā€ you knew she wouldnā€™t reply to you but it was nice to speak to her. you got up from the sofa after fixing your top and warmed up the milk.
her sobs grew louder as you rocked her. waiting for the microwave to ā€˜dingā€™ felt like hours. ā€œi know sweet girl, not long nowā€ you poured the milk once it was warm enough into the bottle and went to sit back down on the sofa. you tried a few times before she finally started drinking the milk, her sobs died down but her eyes were still filled with tears and the tear stains on her cheeks broke your heart.
she was hiccuping slightly as she drank her milk but her eyes were fluttering masa img she was trying her best to not fall asleep. ā€œyou rest angel, mummy isnā€™t going anywhere. and iā€™m sorry i canā€™t understand you like your dad does, i promise iā€™m trying my bestā€
with that, her eyes closed and it was finally silent in the house. you just hoped today would be a lot better than the rest.
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Mason was back home a little later than expected tonight, he had been asked to stay back to speak to ten Hag which he forgot to tell you about but he knew you had it all okay at home. you always had Margot in a good-ish mood when he would come home and it was always nice to come home to a quiet house after training or a football match. he would hear shouting all day and coming home was just perfect.
you didnā€™t want Mason to know you were struggling, to you it felt like the worst thing iā€™m the world. you were meant to be a good mum as soon as you gave birth but you just felt like all you did was struggle. you had no idea what you were doing and you didnā€™t want Mason to be disappointed in you.
however, tonight Margot would not stop crying. after her bottle this morning she napped for maybe 30 minutes before her sobs started again and that continued for the entire day. you didnā€™t know what to do and you felt like you had failed as a mother. you had no idea what was wrong with her and you hated that you couldnā€™t understand what she was crying for. you felt like she hated you.
as Mason entered the house he could hear the wails coming from Margot, he had never ever heard her sound like this before and or worried him. he could hear you, speaking to her softly over her cries, you sounded just as upset as her. ā€œiā€™m so sorry angel, i donā€™t understand why youā€™re crying. iā€™ve fed you, cuddled you, changed you, i donā€™t know what else i can do. iā€™m sorry iā€™m failing youā€
his heart broke. he walked into the living room and saw you holding Margot in your chest with tears streaming down your face. you looked so defeated and he hated it. ā€œhey, whatā€™s going on? are you okay?ā€ he questioned as he slowly walked towards you.
you hadnā€™t heard the front door close so hearing him made you jump. you didnā€™t want him ti see you like this so you quickly wiped your eyes and showed him your best convincing smile. ā€œoh yeah iā€™m fine, sheā€™s just, i donā€™t know whatā€™s the matter. i think she just might be tiredā€ you lied, of course you werenā€™t okay.
ā€œdo you want me to take her?ā€ he held is arms out so he could take Margo from you so you quickly passed her to him and he gently started rocking her which no iā€™m surprise stopped her cries. you felt your heart break. was it really that easy?
your eyes filled with tears, jealousy and frustration taking over your body as you saw how easy it was for him to calm her down. ā€œlook, go upstairs and have a shower, iā€™ll take care of Margot and you just have a break okay?we can talk after if you want toā€ he watched your shoulders drop slightly and your chin quiver as you tried to hold in your tears, something was definitely wrong and he was going to figure out what.
once he heard the bathroom door close he sat down on the sofa with Margot. he watched her huge brown eyes dart across his face. ā€œwhatā€™s happened angel? you giving mama a hard time?ā€ she cooed at him, a small smile on her face which looked exactly like yours. ā€œyou canā€™t give mama a hard time honey, mamaā€™s with you all dayā€ she squealed, obviously not understanding him.
ā€œiā€™m sure you tired, if youā€™ve been crying like that all day iā€™m surprised youā€™re up right nowā€ he decided to grab a bottle and try get her to nap so he could speak to you. he had never seen you like that before.
he warmed up the bottle and went upstairs to her nursery and sat in the rocking chair. he started feeding Margot and immediately her eyes started to close, he honestly wished that he was able to stay off work with you when Margot was first born. he had only gotten a week off work before he had to go back and he felt awful but ten Hag wouldnā€™t give him anymore time off.
once Margot finished her bottle he turned on the white noise machine and put her down into her crib. he quickly exited her bedroom to leave her to nap and went to your shared bedroom. he wanted to talk to you, you barely speak to each other now and he wanted to spend time with you.
after waiting for a while you finally came out the bathroom in new pyjamas and your hair was wrapped in a towel. your eyes were red, it was obvious you had been crying. ā€œheyā€ you said, noticing him on the bed. he opened his arms and waited for you to sit on the bed next to him so he could hug you.
you quickly got onto the bed and cuddled into him. ā€œwe havenā€™t cuddled in ages, we havenā€™t spoke in ages. i want to know whatā€™s bothering you sweetheart. iā€™ve never seen you look so upsetā€ he kissed your forehead.
ā€œi just, i feel like iā€™m not a good mum. like everyday all she does as soon as you leave is scream and cry and iā€™m trying my best to understand whatā€™s wrong with her and iā€™m struggling. iā€™m struggling a lotā€ you felt your eyes well up with new tears. Mason felt his heart break. he was annoyed with himself for not noticing sooner.
ā€œit feels like she hates me. and i just feel stupid because as soon as sheā€™s with you, you calm her down. she even smiles at you. iā€™m feeling so lonely and i feel like a terrible mum.ā€ your tears started flowing down your cheeks. you were quietly sobbing as Mason pulled you in closer and ran his hand up and down your back.
ā€œiā€™m so sorry sweetheart, i really am. iā€™m sorry i havenā€™t been here to support you, iā€™m sorry youā€™ve had to do it all on your own. itā€™s not fair at all. and iā€™m sorry you think that youā€™re a bad mum because you arenā€™t. you are the most incredible mumā€ he heard your sniffles, guilt eating him alive.
ā€œif you werenā€™t a good mum you wouldnā€™t do half the shit you do now. she doesnā€™t hate you angel, she loves you. you donā€™t know what she tells me when i come homeā€ he joked which made you giggle through tears.
ā€œi know it is tough right now, but i promise itā€™ll get better.ā€ you looked up at him with uncertainty. ā€œit will, stop giving me that lookā€ he gave you a sympathetic smile. he hated that you were feeling this way, he wanted you to enjoy being a mum.
ā€œyou stay here for a bit, i need to go do something. donā€™t come downstairs until i say alright? just watch some tv and iā€™ll be backā€ he gave you a few pecks before he left you in the bedroom, confusion filling your body. but nevertheless you grabbed the remote and turned on the tv, trying to finally relax.
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it had been over an hour since Mason asked you to stay upstairs and all you could hear downstairs was Masonā€™s footsteps. you had absolutely no idea what he was doing and you were nervous to even go back downstairs.
ā€œy/n sweetheart you can come down nowā€ you heard him shout up to you so you quickly turned off the tv and made your way downstairs. whilst you were upstairs Mason did come to get Margot who had awoken from her nap about thirty minutes into him leaving you upstairs.
you had gone to get her out of her nursery but Mason quickly shooed you away back to the bedroom so he could take care of her. you were grateful he went to help Margot, he knew how stressed you were and he was trying to make you feel better so he took Margot downstairs with him.
you walked down the stairs and into the living room and saw blankets and pillows covering the sofa with your favourite food on the coffee table and your favourite movie ready to play on the tv. Mason was holding a now very aware Margot who actually reached out for you.
ā€œi know itā€™s not much but i thought maybe we could spend time together for once?ā€ Mason handed Margot over to you and kissed you passionately. ā€œiā€™d love toā€ you kissed him one more time before you both made your way to get under the covers on the sofa.
Mason pulled you into his hold and kissed your forehead. ā€œi know this doesnā€™t make up for whatā€™s been happening these past few weeks but i do want you to know me and Margot appreciate everything you doā€ you felt a smile form on your face as he spoke, he had a way with words which always made you feel special.
ā€œi have also spoken to ten Hag and told him that iā€™m gonna take a few weeks time off to look after you both. i donā€™t want you to feel alone, ever, because i am here for youā€ you looked up at him, it was the first time heā€™d seen you smile in ages.
ā€œi know you are, you didnā€™t need to take a few weeks off. will he not get angry at you?ā€ you kissed his cheek and he shook his head. ā€œi didnā€™t get to take the time of when she was first born so i i donā€™t care if heā€™s mad. i have a family to look afterā€ he lent down to kiss you again.
you didnā€™t know why you were so anxious to tell Mason how you were feeling, you knew he would help you and you appreciated him. ā€œthank you mase, i love youā€ he smiled at you ā€œi love you moreā€.
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