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You can run, but you'll never escape (Over and over again)
Something I made after I heard about what happens in the alpha for Fallen Hero: Revelations
The Nomad that survives FH:Retribution is a force no one is prepared to deal with now that something, or someone, has a stronger influence than ever before
#//nopalramune#fallen hero#fallen hero: retribution#fallen hero: rebirth#last I heard which was a few months ago there's only one route where its the literal worst possible scenario in every regard#also expect my design for heartbreak at some point :)
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Emerson enjoying a nice night in with their boyfriend | Emerson doing their best impression of the Ben Affleck Smoking meme at the end of FH:Retribution
Tagged by @nightbloodraelle, @detectivelokis, @jinfromyarikawa, @direwombat, and @baldurrs to do this piccrew! Thank you!
I think this has made the rounds already, but I will send a few tags to @sstewyhosseini, @marivenah, @clicheantagonist, @deputy-morgan-malone, @fourlittleseedlings, @captastra, @indorilnerevarine, and anyone else who wants to do this.
#tag memes#Emerson Wright#sorry everyone I'm on a Fallen Hero kick and Emerson is the only one I liked in this#and if you're asking Kate - does Emerson always look this pathetic?#Yes Yes they do#It's just kinda their brand lol#also I tried to avoid major spoilers for book 2 of FH#in the descriptions lol
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‘Oryx’ *cough* at the auction scene
#fallen hero#fallen hero retribution#digital art#fh:retribution#lady argent#illustration#fanart#skull helmets are great#the outfit was so fun to design
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this man. is2g
#YES i am replaying fh:retribution#trying out different motivations#and still romancing ortega#made out with lady argent tho. again
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I just finished Calling of metem's hollow and u should definitely give it a read 👌👌
Altho i can't wait to know more so i gotta stop reading work in progress bc im too excited 😭
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There Are No Heroes in This Story (12553 words) by paudax Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Fallen Hero Series - Malin Rydén Rating: General Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Characters: Sidestep (Fallen Hero), Original Characters Additional Tags: Unreliable Narrator, Sibling Bonding, So You Want to be a Hero, Totally Normal Human People I Swear, Canon Callbacks, Revenge of the Normies, Terrorism, Implied/Referenced Terrorism, Injury, Blood and Injury, Found Family, Spoilers for FH:Retribution, Evil Marketers, Shitty Clients, Monologuing, no beta we die like men
I was expecting Mrs. Collins to turn up at our office again. We'd done a solid job translating her sketchy ideas about superhero-inspired doggy outfits into an actual brand, complete with a nice logo, an online store, and a touching little origin story about her three greatest inspirations in life: Marshall Steel, Marshall Steel's washboard abs, and her asthmatic little dog, Spark Pug. What I was not expecting was that she'd show up literally the morning after our launch party, pug in tow, raring to share Steel's Best Kept Secret with us — whether we wanted to hear it or not.
OR: Sure, superheroes exist, but you aren't one and your life still sucks.
OR, ALTERNATIVELY: Fallen Hero: Rebirth from the eyes of some background characters.
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The Farm Sucks
Name: Léon Bellandini | Puppet: Simba | Villain name: Pride
Daring/arrogant/fighter/lots of contacts/gang leader.
Warnings: Mentions of animal cruelty/death, mistaken for suicidal, implied past sexual abuse and general abuse, memory problems
You were always a bit more defiant than the rest.
It got you punished, and you reveled in it. Because any attention was good. Because it stopped them treating you like you were nothing to them, you would rather being scorned and hated than to be nothing. They were everything, they were your world because you had nothing else and you wanted so badly just to matter.
Every time you tried to escape, they would take you and wash you down with a hose. They took pleasure in forcibly shaving your head and branding you where people couldn't see, like livestock. To prevent lice, they said. There's a patch at the back of your head that doesn't grow hair anymore because of the way they hurt you for their amusement.
A toy isn't satisfying if you can't get emotionally invested in it, after all.
You hate them for everything they've done to you, all the ways they used you and took joy in your suffering. You're never going to be a nobody again.
To complete your transformation you had enlisted Ortega's help in picking out a wardrobe. It meant enduring his delighted teasing and questioning about if there was someone in your life you wanted to impress but you think it was worth it. If he's going to be vain, you might as well take advantage of his expertise.
You're gonna dress well and look good in it, dammit.
And look good you do. Even Ortega was impressed, you certainly have cleaned up nicely since you started working out again and taking care of your appearance. Sharp tailored suits and tasteful, bold signet rings, just the tiniest hint of something a little wicked and dark lurking under the surface.
Now you look like someone worthy of respect. Someone dangerous. Someone who has the money and power to make life very difficult for people who dare crosses you.
Maybe it's a little over the top, but you even got a nice throne gilded with gold leaf put into your base to lounge upon. What's the use of having everything if you can't indulge?
Besides. All the gold and velvet makes your inner child happy.
You certainly look the part of a mob boss by now with treasure hoard of jewellery and enough jewelled rings on your fingers for your minions to kiss they can choose from every colour of the rainbow.
You've got decades of being a tool to overcompensate for and really indulge your vanity. Growing your hair long in a middle finger to The Farm- no more uniform military cuts for you, no exposed barcode on the back of your head.
No more denial of your individuality.
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It's not all easy. Los Diablos is built on suffering and you refuse to be the victim any longer.
If they won't fight fair, why should you?
...It shouldn’t bother you. Doesn’t, really. They mean nothing to you, these people. They exist only to be something to envy - didn’t someone say once that ignorance was bliss?
It must be nice to be so thoughtless and empty-headed that you can’t see the poison that runs through the city. It’s in the streets, the very veins of Los Diablos - this whole filthy place is sick.
The footbridge creaks as you step upon the rusted metal panels, otherwise deserted. Humans like mindless ants swarm the trains below, a steady flow, a pattern that goes unbroken and unquestioned.
It makes you snort.
How easy it would be to crush them all, just like the ants they look like.
How easy it would be to find someone unscrupulous enough to rig up a bomb with your contacts. How easy it would be to talk your way into restricted areas and plant them all under their very feet.
You’ve had enough experience to know that while explosions and destruction are amazing and fun in the moment, somehow the victory feels hollow. Because it doesn’t matter in the end. There’s just no real point in the short-term serotonin rush that comes with petty destruction, especially if no one of actual worth is watching.
Besides, you...you have standards. You’ll only kill those who get in the way, not innocent civilians.
There’s a strange feeling of dread when you think about it. Making your first kill. Makes you hold your breath as you lean against the shaky railing and watch the giant metal murder machines go by underneath you. Or, well, trains, but they could run someone down just as well as you could just because someone got in the way.
And yet. And yet all you want to do is ravage the world that fucked you so hard.
Who knew it would be so hard to remain cool and collected with power when all you want to do is bring the city to ruin and delight in its ashes?
To see them bow and cower before you as you take over this hellhole?
Fuck, that’s a sexy thought.
“Hey, you doing alright, man?”
You’re startled out of your thoughts. Who?
A man stares at you, dark hand extended out and barely visible in the fading light. He’s treating you like a stray cat that he doesn’t want to scare off.
Oh.
He thinks...he thinks you’re going to jump.
The sigh that escapes you doesn’t fail to catch his attention. “I know life can be hard, but this isn’t-”
It’d be so much easier if he weren’t trying to help. That’s why you swallow your annoyance and impatience and paste on a charming smile. It’s almost reflexive by now to twist his confusion and concern into remembering he was going to be late for his train, why did he just stop just now?
You watch the man sprint down the stairs and miss it by seconds, cursing his inattention. Something in you drives you to reach across mentally, to push that frustration aside. Push it into awe and surprised appreciation at the setting sun behind you, it’s been so long since he stopped to appreciate the world, he knows how it feels to feel hopeless and alone, that’s why he stopped to help-
Help who?
-A silhouette bathed in red, gazing down at the tracks below-
No! you frown and push harder, concentrating on a proper distraction. Fix this problem you just created for yourself. Send out your senses - who could you use? Hm, there’s a young lady by the ticket machine, failed her nursing exam and doesn’t know how to break it to her family. Yes, strengthen that thread - what is she going to do with herself, they’re going to be so disappointed in her. If only she had someone to talk to, a friendly ear, someone who didn’t know her, wouldn’t judge.
Tears, she visibly droops and starts trembling. There’s no one else around except the retiree who’s fallen asleep and the cleaner who’s already disillusioned enough with life that he would just tell her to suck it up.
Yes, that’s right. Sob loud enough for him to hear. He blinks, suddenly taking notice of the girl behind him and losing hold of the muddled confusion that he’d just forgotten something.
There’s something very satisfying in being able to do something like this, you think, watching the girl break down in tears as the man comforts her. As they both are strengthened ultimately by the interaction despite the circumstances that brought them together. The way she tearfully leaves her number in the phone of the blushing man.
It’s all played out just like you imagined.
How...predictable.
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4am is perhaps more familiar to you than 4pm.
The world is quiet. A still moment in black and white, just like out of those film noir clips.
You breathe in the smoke and imagine your life was as romantic as the films made it out to be.
You have the tailored suits. The tattoos on your knuckles, the underlings to do your every command.
They don't talk about the messiness of seeing life leaving the world in your hands, evaporating like the heat of a cooling body in the snow. A morbid picture, painted in red.
They don't talk about the distasteful things, like evacuating their bowels, the frightening things people will stoop to when brought to their lowest. When you see what people are when you strip away the veneer of civilisation from them and you're left only with a terrified beast.
The way their bodies jerk to the ground reminds you of it, sometimes.
Snowball, you called her. You'd been curious, wary of her at first. Her twitchy nose and soft ears fascinated you but the handlers were watching and you didn't want to risk messing up so soon after last time.
Your mission was to take care of her. A trial bodyguard mission for a defect-filled asset that wasn't much of an asset at all. They were starting to get impatient with you, you know - it was a thin line between daring enough to get away with it and ending up being made 'redundant'.
So you just stood there. Stared at her, munching contently at her carrot.
"It's not going to bite you." The new handler is different from the others. You call her Red for her hair, it's not like they ever identify themselves to you. She doesn't scream at your uselessness when you don't react to their satisfaction, she doesn't get distracted by a colleague and leave you abandoned in a dark room for nine hours because she forgot to put you away.
You still hesitate - does she want an answer? Does she want you to take the initiative? Does she just want you to follow only her stated orders, is this just a test?
You can't tell and that frustrates you.
Reading their minds is forbidden unless expressly stated, but she's tapping her pen impatiently like she's expecting you to draw the real orders from her brain.
What to do. What to do?
Remain obedient and only react to what she commands you to do? Or make a move, taking the guess that it's what she actually wants from you? It's a gamble on what will get you punished.
...To hell with it. You don't care anymore.
Wordlessly, you step over to the rabbit and kneel down.
Looking back up at her gives you no clues - no changes in expression that would reveal approval or disapproval. That...you're probably okay for now, it seems.
Probably.
Her fur is so incredibly soft under your hand. It feels like you could break her if you accidentally mishandled her.
It's the first thing you ever have for yourself and you love this little creature that is so dependent on you and looks up at you with such dark, trusting eyes.
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Red encourages you to get familiar with the clients.
So you make sure to practice her orders. And, well, if you spend more time than you need brushing her fur and calming her when she's stressed, that's confidential information between you and your 'client', isn't it?
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The newest training mission briefing reads as follows:
Your client is revealed to be a mole working for the enemy. Dispatch of them personally.
You're punished severely for acting out and getting caught in the middle of the night sneaking out of the facilities, but Snowball gets safely past the fence once you distract the dogs into attacking you instead of her.
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For your disobedience, you're made to dispose of newborn rabbits while they watch.
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They punish you for sobbing afterwards.
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They also punish you for assaulting Red for putting you through that.
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The dogs always get you when you run. You're not as fast as a rabbit.
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You lose track of the punishments.
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Sometimes you forget. You can't help it, they teach you lessons and you keep forgetting and they just get so angry at you
It's better than the darkness
It's better when they're mad, because it's better than being forgotten
You hate being forgotten and you hate forgetting, one day you are going to forget yourself and that's the worst thing of all
You don't even know why they're angry with you but you wake up one day with dried blood on your hands and that handler that touched you never appears again
Red is so pleased with you though that it doesn't matter. "That's right, little one, you are mine," she tells you. "No one else will ever touch you in my care."
No one else.
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She makes sure of it.
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They keep teaching you lessons for all your disobedience and you, you keep on doing it all over again
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Red's not so new a handler anymore, but they never give you their names. Why would they introduce themselves to a thing?
She's still just Red. She says she loves you and asks you to say it back.
It feels weird on your lips.
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She gives you a kiss on the forehead for following orders and being good for once.
You despise her. You love her. She's the first one who ever cared about you as a person - even if only to be cruel to you.
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You're not a rabbit. You can't run.
No. You are a lion, you will be the one others run from.
Red's the first one you ever kill, you let her live up to the name you gave her and she is just as red on the inside as on the outside
And you cry, cry, and keep on crying because you're so relieved and so heartbroken and you will never understand why you still love her. You don't even know her real name.
"I didn't mean to," you whisper into your pillow, because without her you're so lonely.
But you do. You did. You still do, because you hated her as much as you adored her.
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You let yourself forget. Let yourself smile, smirk, put all your ruthlessness and charm that they taught you to good work.
You don't want to remember and yet. You still don't want to forget.
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Your past seems to be catching up to you these days. This time you won't ever be so weak as you once were. They broke you, reforged you, made you into a weapon of their choosing.
And now that very weapon will be turned back on them.
"So. Pride. You are newest rising star in town, I hear."
You let yourself paste on a serene, pleasant smile. "Oh? Have people been talking about me?" you inquire. That's good to know, it pays to know your position within underground circles so you know where you stand. Where you can bargain from. "Why, I'm flattered."
His own answering grin is too cruel, too rough, unrefined. Not as proficient in the whole act of it like you are. "They also mentioned you were a vain narcissist who talks too much."
Your mood shifts to irritated annoyance internally; your face is placid. Friendly. It wouldn't do to show any weakness to a potential enemy. "How strange," you murmur. "Perhaps they have me confused with someone else."
"Yeah, I don't think so, buddy." And now to the threatening tone already. How predictable. "You see, we wanted to give you a little welcome, from us locals here. Want us to be good neighbours, yeah?"
Your noncommittal noise encourages the guy to continue. "Just wanted to let you know that we're the ones in charge of this good ol' neighbourhood here, but we're a little old and traditional. Don't want anything shake up what's nice and settled."
"I see."
Because you do. They're warning you not to mess up the status quo.
Too bad you were always a rebel. "Was there anything else you needed, or were you just going to drone on about your Master's stale old knitting club?" You drone out the words, bored of this already.
The smile he returns to you is a little stiff. "Look. We were hoping you were going to join our... Homeowners Association. You'd have to contribute a small monthly fee, but I assure you it'd be worth it. To keep our front gardens lookin' all pretty, see."
"Not really," you tell him, because this little game of coded words and phrases is beginning to bore you.
There's something of a twitch in his eye when you glance over, but the man actually tries to just pretend you didn't say anything and continues. "Right, so, as our newest member of our little association-"
"I didn't say I was joining."
That truly takes him off guard. "I- What?" he blinks. "Mr Pride," he begins, and you have to laugh at the way they haven't even been able to find out your actual name. "You agreed that by moving into this neighbourhood that you would join the , erm, housing association. It's not optional."
"I did no such thing."
You actually manage to break the man's composure. "You do realise if you don't go along with this, there will be consequences?" he hisses.
"I'm not stupid," you tut, peering at your manicured nails. "I'm aware. I just don't care."
The man ends up leaving with a thunderous look on his face as you greet Ortega. A genuine smile to match Ortega's wave.
"What's that? Are you actually talking to people other than me now?" he teases.
"Just a business associate. He kept trying to sell me a scam." You frown a little. "But that doesn't matter. Let's go have lunch, shall we?"
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They make good on their word.
You aren't going to roll over and show them your belly like their pet dog. Let them think you're nothing but an arrogant little upstart. Let them think they can put you down on their command. Just because you’ve never killed someone personally doesn’t mean you’re not a threat to contend with.
They see the man at the top with the smart suits and the rumble of purred threats, deep and low. The King of the Lions, Pride.
They won't be suspecting the panther stalking the shadows.
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Simba isn't loud or boastful or broken like Léon is. Not so angry, not so easy to fall to passion.
Simba watches. Simba is patient. Once he's got a target in his sight, he never stops hunting it.
Your mind is quieter when you are Simba, and so are you. You don't need to keep talking to drown out the thoughts in your head.
Silence suits Simba. He doesn't need words to assemble his sniper rifle, his dark skin blending in with the shadows. Doesn't need feelings to peer down the sights and wait for your moment.
Now the only question is, is Simba the puppet here or Léon?
Because you're not sure if you know anymore. You're starting to become unsure of who you really are. In the end...are you nothing more than what you made you?
You really don't know. But Simba doesn't care. All he needs to do, is, well, his job.
A man walks in front of your vision and seals his fate.
You fire.
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It wasn't supposed to be like this. She wasn't supposed to be visiting her boyfriend.
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There is a distant gunshot ringing in your ears but you are the one holding the still-smoking pistol.
Which would be all good and well if you could remember why you're here. You try and keep the confusion from appearing on your face as you take in the scene in front of you.
A neat little bullet hole straight to the heart. The woman is scrambling wide-eyed as she attempts to plug the hole. Unable to comprehend what's just happened.
With the amount of blood pooling, it'd be over soon enough from blood loss. But you're not cruel and because of that, you aim your gun once again at her head. At her frozen face, mouth wide open to beg-
And fire.
She falls to the ground like a rag doll.
You don't even know who she is. Was. But you must have shot her for a reason, right?
Couldn't let her suffer. Had to finish the job. You don't feel any hatred for this woman, she must have just gotten in the way. Somehow the blood on your hands doesn't look real when you're wearing your puppet. Simba's hands are darker, more delicate, more slender than yours. Shake less.
Sometimes it bothers you, these little gaps in time. You keep coming back to awareness like this and it's starting to get a little frightening.
You're not supposed to be the one losing control.
It makes your head hurt. You've fought so hard to be something, be a person and then…
You can't even remember half of the things that made you, well, you. You have emotions and fragments and half-remembered bits stripped of their context. A man without a past, like you were plonked down in the world one day half formed.
A puzzle with all the most important pieces missing.
But for now, you have a mess to clean up. Dirty work for a dirty man like you, but Simba doesn't hesitate like Léon does. Doesn't mind the blood crusting under those ragged fingernails, so unlike your own polished, clean hands.
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You keep waking up in a sweat. Terrified and with no idea why.
.
..
There is-
There is blood under your carefully manicured fingernails.
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The dog park is quiet this early in the morning. Just stare down at your book. Headphones on. Classic 'don't disturb me' look.
It's been ten minutes, you should probably turn the page.
The dogs keep away from you. Maybe they notice your heart rate spiking when they come near. You're not...you're not afraid of them anymore. It's fine.
It has to be. Just...just take in their pure thoughts. There are no dogs, just thoughts, just-
Your first thought is that you're being attacked when you feel something make rough bodily contact with your knee and your body just reacts.
Spoon gives a surprised whimper as your foot makes impact, you’re just trying to stem the panic. It's okay, it's just Spoon, he's not the giant German Shepherds that haunt you.
"Spoon!" Chen barks out, alarmed, a little bit angry. You're not usually this jumpy, you're not usually this bad, you should have seen him coming.
This is too raw to be able to show your face to Chen. That's why you leap up and back off. "Leave me alone, Chen!" you shout, and you hate that you can't control the way you genuinely sound terrified. The unusualness of it makes even Chen frown and look slightly taken aback.
"Léon, what was that just there?"
This is no time to have a panic attack. This is no time to break down. "Just leave me alone, Chen!" you shout. "Stay away from me, keep him away from me!"
You don't turn around to look if he actually does as you ask. You're just trying desperately to flee, over and over and over again, just waiting for the teeth to grab on and bite harshly down on you.
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You're still waiting for those jaws a few hours later.
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It's better when they hate you. It's better because you can hate them back, you can lash out and hurt them because you hurt and you just want it to go away
That's why you push them away, because they care. You keep on hurting the people you care about and you're too proud to say you're sorry.
Ortega with his worried eyes and questions left on the tip of his tongue.
Herald, little fly-boy, oh-so-trusting and oh-so-oblivious.
Your crew, your little family you've built up all on your own.
Smirk. Tease. Twist them around your fingers and move them as your pawns. That's how you keep from getting hurt.
You will never, ever, let someone control like that again. Not unless you had planned for them to, not unless you could trust and predict them.
...Stop thinking about Ortega. Stop thinking about how betrayed he'll look if he ever finds out. Stop thinking about how it should serve him right for betraying you and leaving you to die.
Stop thinking about how everything Daniel knows about you is a lie. That you only agreed to train him for your own ulterior motives before he wormed his way into your heart.
Stop thinking about Anathema and the disappointed look on what was left of Themmy's face after…
No.
No, don't.
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Anathema’s stupid, dumb face won’t leave you alone. Not in your waking hours, not in the silent hours.
Fuck. Fuck’s sake, Themmy. Will you go away if I go and visit you?
No answer. You don’t know what you expected.
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Anathema’s grave is well tended. The flowers are still fresh.
Your grave is next to his, you know. Your name looks so solemn engraved in such a sober, formal font. Like you were some sort of honoured pillar of the community instead of awkward smiles and messy emotions that spilt out everywhere. Before even those attempts at smiles faded away and all you were left with were the sharp edges that cut into other people’s skin.
The rush of fury at all, all, all this - whatever this is - drives you over the edge. There’s a certain satisfaction in stomping over to your grave and kicking over the flowers. Crushing them underneath your feet.
The same way they crushed you. The same way your bones were crushed on impact.
You’re only vaguely aware of a sense of unease as you pant, too out of it all to focus. There shouldn’t be anyone here to notice you making a scene, what does it matter that you lost your temper?
The mangles mess of stems and petals feel like your life. Something about about it makes you stare. Pause.
Lilies. Your scowl fades away into a genuine frown. Who…?
Ortega knows you’re alive.
That just begs the question, a painful realisation on the tip of your tongue. Who could hav-
-Someone is watching.
Someone is watching you.
The flash of alarm and shock screaming through your brain is the only warning you get.
They knew you were coming-
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…..
Anyone watching Simba sleeping wouldn’t notice anything amiss to signify his awakening, no change in breathing pattern, no facial twitches to give him away. For all intents and purposes still all but dead to the world.
The sound of the magpies fighting again outside is too familiar - you recognise them. Feed them on occasion, it gives Simba a reason to be sitting around outside watching the world.
So. Unmoved from his apartment then. Unless they’d gone to the trouble of kidnapping the exact same birds, you recognise their own distinct bird calls by now. The one with croak you named Harry. Harry is currently arguing with his rival, Barry, and isn’t as distressed as a bird would be if someone had indeed taken him from his home by force.
Your breathing is steady, keeping your ears peeled for any signs of an intruder. Letting Simba ‘wake up’ naturally like any other day.
...Good enough.
Fling the bedsheets aside and walk to the window, to the blackout curtains. Stop for a moment to observe. No visible threats - but that doesn’t mean anything in this day and age.
The skies are too blue, it makes Simba’s forehead crinkle. Take in the position of the sun, consider the implications of it all.
This can’t be allowed to let stand, after all.
No one will ever get the best of you again.
#fallen hero rebirth#fallen hero retribution#spoilers#fanfic#Léon Bellandini (OC)#character study#fic#Pride (OC)#mob boss#what are titles pffft#FH:rebirth#fh:retribution
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A Spoonful of Peace at a Time
Dogs don't care that you're broken. Dogs don't care if you're a bad person who's done bad things.
They don't even care if you're not human.
The slobber all over your face is a testament to that, Chen sternly trying to get Spoon to behave and assuring you he's not as bad as a dog trainer as it might seem at first.
"He really should know better." Chen sighs. "Looks like I'm going to have to go back and reinforce his training."
"It's okay." you tell him. Because it is. Because that's been one of friendliest contacts with another living being you've had in a long, long time. You don't mind the doggy breath or the spit all over the place, because you know what it means.
Spoon...Spoon actually likes you. His emotions are so pure, so unrestrained - he doesn't hold back from loving people with all his heart, doesn't hold back from showing them his love. It makes you smile.
All Spoon cares about is what's happening here and now. It's an important thing you should keep in mind more often, sometimes you get so lost in the drama that is your life you forget to take a moment just to breathe. Relax.
Remember that you're a person now and you can allow yourself to relax.
It's hard to remember sometimes, what with all your lofty goals and secret life all crammed into that skull of yours. You know how easy it can be to lose touch. To lose sight of the little things. Sometimes you feel you're balancing over a precocious ravine, just daring yourself to fall (and keep on fall, fall, falling.)
Spoon nudges his snout into your hand and looks up at you with his big, guileless eyes. Absently you rub him behind the ears and watch as his eyes shut in pure pleasure. For Spoon, all he cares about right now is his moment. Living his life. Enjoying all the ear scratches he can get.
"You're a good boy." you tell him, because he is.
"Don't reward him for his bad behaviour." Chen makes a point of huffing - although that was definitely a smile twitching on his lips while he watches the two of you.
Spoon just wags his tail, banging it against Chen's prosthetic leg with a tinny Thump! Thump Thump! each time. Eyebrow raised, Chen finally gives in and pets Spoon too.
Huh. Even Chen isn't resistant to Spoon's puppy dog eyes, it seems.
The background chatter and noise of the dog park has become white noise. It's something to distract you from the darkness that creeps in when you're left alone to your own thoughts. You definitely don't want that, thinking too much is dangerous. Better to keep your mind occupied at all times so you don't have to deal with the reality of the situation.
Maybe your life is a mess. Maybe everything is going to fall down like dominoes around you.
Right now you're just enjoying the peace while it lasts.
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I love Ortega too much ok
You are dying.
You are dying and you know it.
It wouldn't matter to you, shouldn't matter to you - you were always glad to embrace death's arms, had always known how disposable you were - except Ortega is here and it matters to him.
"H-hey," you whisper, throat dry. "Don't cry."
"Of course I'm crying," he sobs. "Look at you!"
The world is growing cold and blurry and you'd lift up your head to look except it feels so heavy. Everything smells like iron, tastes like iron when he takes his lips in his and he kisses you with such desperation you wonder if he's trying to give you the kiss of life.
So selfish. You shouldn't have fallen in love with him, shouldn't have reopened old, scarred over wounds and given him hope. This is all his worst fears and nightmares come true and it's all your fault.
He gave you his heart; so precious, so warm, so alive. A second chance despite the hurt, an old, shaky dance of better days and better memories and younger, more naïve people. Less cynical. Less burdened with old memories and old pains and that wary love that comes from being loved and being hurt.
And what did you do?
You've given him heartbreak all over again.
There's no getting back up from having this many bones shattered in your body - you're not as young and fit as you used to be, there will be no bouncing back up from this. You know this.
Ortega knows this too.
"I'm sorry." you say. The words aren't enough, you'll never have enough words to encapsulate the full breadth of what you want to say to Ortega. A lifetime's worth of unspoken regrets, fears, joys and love.
Now they'll never be said. You would never have enough time because you are greedy, so greedy and selfish that you wanted to have a whole lifetime spent at his side. You wasted so much time, the both of you, dancing around what you really wanted and thinking this would always be here and now…
Now there's only time for regrets.
"No, no, no, no," he begs, because his heart refuses to accept what his mind already knows. "Please, you can't, you can't leave me-" Not again. He chokes up, unable to continue.
You don't need to be able to read his mind to hear the things he doesn't say.
Gently, softly, you stroke his cheek, still wet and trembling. Tell him: "It's okay, Ricardo." and mean it, because you love him and all you've ever done was hurt the people you love and he deserves better. You never deserved him - but he chose you for some strange, inexplicable reason.
You're selfish enough to be happy about it.
"Forget me." You tell him, as the world grows dark, because he needs to leave this broken shell that is you behind. "Be happy."
"D-didn't I already try and fail at that?" He's half sobbing, half laughing through his tears. Because he just doesn't know what else to do. "I wasn't happy. I could never forget you. And I... I could never stop loving you."
You're dying and it hurts, it hurts so bad. So why can't you can't stop smiling?
"Hey- please, no, don't go to sleep, please, please!"
So, so tired. You don't ever remember not being tired deep down in your soul anymore. Haven't you earnt your rest?
"Please- just a little longer, the paramedics are here-"
Sometimes, there's just not enough time. You wasted so much of yours. Your only regret is not stealing back every second you wasted and spending it all on Ortega.
"Goodbye." you whisper, struggling to get the words out, your tongue half numb and clumsy. Your last breath will not be wasted.
"Don't- don't leave me!"
You were never supposed to stay. Never supposed to live, have a life. You were always living on borrowed time and it looks like everything finally caught up to you.
"I love you." you tell him, and break his heart one last time.
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Sometimes the bravest thing is living
You would die for Ortega. Then again, you never put much stock in your life. You would die willingly for a lot of things, the promise of oblivion has always called out to you.
No. Maybe it's more accurate to say you would live for Ortega. He makes you happy with his insufferable smiles, he makes you want to tease his stupid face, complain about his meddling while feeling a warm glow all the while.
He makes you want a future. A future by his side, filled with shared grins and soft words.
But that- That's something you'll never have. So you live this lie and you curse the world for being so cruel, that the lies are all you have and even they are going to fall apart one day and where does that leave you?
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Pride (OC Sidestep) info & master list
Secret Identity: Léon Bellandini | Puppet Name: Simba
Daring / Arrogant / Fighter / Lots of Contacts / Gang Leader
Hunger scar, wants revenge. Vice is cigarettes. Aromantic Pansexual, friends w/ benefits woo. Big Dom Energy. (tm)
Léon @ the ROs:
Ortega should suffer because I care about him Argent is a fucking trashbag who has everything I want and throws it away I hate it. Steel is a dickhead but at least he honest about not giving a shit Herald who? You mean Danny? Aw isn't little Danny boy cute, let me teach him the cruelty of the world personally tied up in my dungeon Mortum makes dat good shit
Léon is a...
Sadomasochistic control freak who hates getting dirty
Drama queen who always wanted to go into theatre and loves monologues
Mother hen to his underlings & evil bastard to most people
Léon has issues with...
Trust (Feels betrayed by the rangers/world)
Abandonment (Clingy, this + trust issues makes him tsundere and pulling people in only to push them away, rinse repeat)
Past abuse, PTSD (Messed up sense of boundaries and flashbacks)
Love/hate (Was taught abuse = love. Does not feel romantic love, only platonic.)
Anger (Lashes out to feel better / keep people away. Directs it into desire for revenge and inflicting pain.)
Misc: His armour is imposing, golden lion themed with a bright red cape and scandalous red thigh high boots. His favourite movie is The Lion King and thinks it's funny he has his own 'pride' of lions (his cute minions) who he bakes cookies for. He has a throne in his headquarters spray-painted gold and a secret ‘treasure’ room full of chocolate coins to roll around in.
FICS:
Pride - Pride, an up-and-coming mob boss interrogates Herald and ends up confronting his own demons.
A Chosen Family - Léon watches a pride parade and accepts himself. Character study.
Catch Me When I Fall - Pride goes from fighting Herald to saving him to ravishing him. M/M, Bottom!Herald.
Euthanasia - Léon has blood on his hands and can’t always remember why. Dark.
Mutually Assure Destruction (Part 1, Part 2) - Pride doesn’t feel alive until he faces death in the eye and in his bed. Her name is Angie, and he hates enough to want her ruined underneath him.F/M.
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Oh yeah I totally got that vibe! I was curious if there was something explicit I had missed or something! Okey so: I liked it but it felt a little short for me, idk if that makes sense. I only played it once so far and for me there is a lot of important info or scenes missing that I could have gotten with other choices (never got to kiss ortega for example u.u), so I will have to play again to get a full view of EVERYTHING
oh yes!! it was the same for me too!!my first playthroughs were so short because i played safe but my advice would be to be more daring? choose options that get you out there, socialize more? that way i got a lot more scenes that made the plot have more sense and more achievements (ortega is suspicious of me....drama and angst....and the farm noticed me). i just love that you can replay fh:r many times and get different results every time
also, after playing fh:retribution alpha, i’d say this - if you want to romance ortega with your mc, make sure he and your puppet are just friends at the end of book 1 because you get some scenes in book 2 that actually add to the plot, explain some things and you can see ortega from a different perspective......that man is DANGEROUS. i love him but i dont trust that bitch
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