#female member of nct

[mazeofyeni]

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ⓘ EVERYONE LOVES BAE YOONCHAE

↺ |◁ II ▷| ♡ | INTRO. welcome to my compilation of yoonchae being loved by the other nct units and other people because who does love her 💜✨

𓈃⠀⠀🎞️ ๋ ㅤCLIP ONE⠀⠀峠

*if you’re not a nct 127 member then you aren’t a real yoonchae lover* – circa 2022

*johnny and jaehyun visiting her on set of her mv*

*they have mask on so she doesn’t notice them* “she’s filming right now look at her” *jaehyun with the mom stance is killing me* “is that dress not too short , i hope she’s comfortable.” *the real parental figure of yoonchae💯* “she doesn’t see us yet” *after she’s done* “oh she’s done we can go see her now.” *yoonchae doesn’t notice them* *notices them but thinks they’re staff* “yah , why are you walking away?” *yoonchae confused* *notices who it is* “oh , oppa!” *look how her eyes light up* *notices johnny* “oh shi- yah , why are you about to curse?” *she looks so happy* “when did you both get here?” “we missed you so we came to see you while you filmed” *they missed her im 😭* *literally showing them everything* “have you eaten?” *mother jaehyun back at it* “later” “call me later and i’ll treat you.” *still salty she could see jaehyun off but at least we got one last jaechae date before he left*

𓈃⠀⠀🎞️ ๋ ㅤCLIP TWO⠀⠀峠

*when yoonchae interviewed jennie* - circa 2024

*yoonchae staff not telling her who’s she’s interviewing* “who is it?” “tell me!” *look how cute she is🥹* *knock on the door* “is it that them?” *hands her a blindfold* “what is this for?” *gets help putting the blindfold on* “oh my god this is so scary JUST TELL ME!” *jennie walks in* “okay you can take it off.” “if it’s like my family or my members im quitting the show.” *takes blindfold off* *doesnt notice jennie* *notices jennie* “oh fuck!” *hides behind a chair* “hi!” *jennie is so cute😭* “why did you guys do this , im wearing sweatpants” *jennie trying to hug her* “no you’re too cute” *yoonchae is about to start sobbing* *yoonchae successful fangirl* “let’s sit down” *trying to stay calm* “I’ve been wanting to meet you” *cut to jennie playing her songs* “oh my god me you know me?” *like yoonchae you’re famous too😭😭* “of course who doesn’t love this show and you?”

*jennie is so real 💯*

𓈃⠀⠀🎞️ ๋ ㅤCLIP THREE⠀⠀峠

* even random children on the street love yoonchae * – circa 2023

*a clip of yoonchaes vlog in la alone* “im sitting in a park alone in the grass and eating strawberries.” *living her cottage girl life* *the toddler notices her* *she smiles* “there’s a very cute baby here and they’re watching me” *the baby walking towards her* “oh they’re coming over here” *waving awkwardly* “hi baby” *gives the child a handshake* *child gives her a full blown hug* “oh my goddess, you’re so cute” “bye baby” *child waves before walking back to her parents* “oh my god a child likes me I’ve been blessed by the angels aboved”

𓈃⠀⠀🎞️ ๋ ㅤCLIP FOUR⠀⠀峠

* idols talking about yoonchae* – mix reactions

*yoonchae performing with nct dream* *aespas karina* *karina leans over to giselle* *mouthing* “why is she so cute?” *giselle noticing the camera* *karina covering her mouth , both of them laughing*

*hyunjin stray kids* *talking about his collab stage with her* “she was so nice to everyone , she bought everyone food after” “i would definitely like to collab with her agains , she’s really talented.” *yoonchae and hyunjins never ending friendship is so cute*

*red velvet seulgi and her love for yoonchae* “yoonchae is watching?” *her little smile oh no😭🩷* “chae chae, chae chae where are you?” “chae chae when can you come over” *yoonchae comments: tomorrow unnie* *seulgi gets excited* “it’s been so long come over and i’ll cook for you” *yoonchaes big sister fr😭* “i love her so much , chae chae i love you”

𓈃⠀⠀🎞️ ๋ ㅤCLIP FIVE⠀⠀峠

*yoonchae being a honorary member of wayv* – circa 2020

*behind the scenes of the nct2020* *where tens love for yoonchae started and he adopted her* “yoonchae my child come” *yoonchae being adopted by a member of every unit in nct* “where is yoonchae?” *yoonderys first on camera interaction!!* “czennies i told you we knew each other , they didn’t believe me , i told them im gonna be a wayv member and they called me delusional.” *throwback to yoonchae telling the public she’s learning chinese from yang yang so she can join wayv* “she’s our honorary member” “yeah we love yoonchae” *yangyang saying this now means something different😭*

*bonus clip* *after yoonchae walks away , yangyang follows behind her* *hendery notices* “yangyang and yoonchae are close” *ten doing damage control* “yeah they’re good friends” *now that we know the real story this did not help🤔*

↺ |◁ II ▷| ♡ | OUTRO. it’s good to know she’s always protected and loved by people … but nobody can compare to love og yoonchae lovers … nct dream ( but that’s for the next video )

「 yoonchaes' masterlist 𖹭 」

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[asystol]

KISS OF LIFE at WATERBOMB SEOUL 2024

✩ ⌒ . HIGHLIGHTS

nakyung’s first time at waterbomb and she had so much fun!!

though her main concern was not falling when the stage got too wet😭

she was super excited to perform the original choreography in front of ppl like idk she LOVES LOVES performing she loves hearing ppl cheer and scream her name

fans posted her reaction to julie taking her shirt off😭 she gasped, fanning herself before reaching for her own shirt

also dw she had like a skin colored bandeau top under her bikini top similar to julie i just didnt feel like finding one and adding it

her part of sticky in the last part with her in the center also went viral

literally give this girl any opportunity and she WILL be shaking her ass

girl she almost got stung by a bee while on stage… she kept backing away and almost fell into the backup dancers but they caught her😭 she does not like bugs…

i want to say the most important thing for after the performance . She had so much fun watching shinee’s minho perform in the crowd like she pushed herself up to the front

and fans that were there posted videos and pics of her singing the lyrics with kiof surrounding her sjdjdndj

eunbi had her come up on stage with her 🥺 hate using that emoji but thats how her fans im just going to name them nakoritas felt

she also stayed to watch natty with jay and then left after natty left the stage and sunmi and yugyeom!!

the next day she went and basically watched the entire thing like she loved the entire lineup for that day fr

she didnt go to the first day but wishes she did so she could see fromis, hwasa, chungh, kang daniel, and chuu :( and CHA EUNWOO?? girl she was pissed

she made a lot of tiktoks during waterbomb and more than half are of her in the bathroom or dressing room sjfndjdj

all in all, a very fun time for nakiof! 10/10 would do again

[gotta-winwin]

RELATIONSHIP WITH IDOLS OUTSIDE OF SVT

MARK LEE (NCT)

THEN: Mark and Cyana first met each other backstage at M Countdown when SVT's Semicolon promotions crossed over with NCT DREAM's Reload promotions. They naturally bonded over both being from Vancouver, exchanging numbers and promising to hang out one day. NOW: They are each other's biggest fans and cheerleaders when it comes to work they put out. Often first in each other's comment sections to show support and always playing each other's songs on livestreams. Mark remains Cyana's longest and closest friend outside of seventeen.

TAEHYUNG (BTS)

THEN: Taehyung and Cyana first met on set for Cyana's solo comeback MV Love Wins All. They acted alongside each other as male and female lead, resulting in a strong friendship. Taehyung often sends Cyana gifts whenever he's abroad, and enjoys boasting about how he befriended Cyana, who is infamously known to have few friends besides seventeen. NOW: Although their friendship is quite recent, Cyana never fails to hype up Taehyung and his solo activities, as well as showing her love for BTS as a whole. Taehyung can be seen supporting her at concerts and they enjoy updating each other once in awhile on their busy lives.

YOUNGJI

THEN: Youngji and Cyana first met on Youngji's interview show Nothing Much Prepared. Although freaked out by it being her first solo activity without seventeen and Youngji's forwardness, Cyana gradually became more comfortable in the environment. They bonded over quirks and shared life experiences as young female idols, trading numbers at the end of the interview and becoming friends. NOW: Youngji is loud and proud about how she became Cyana's first ever female friend in the Kpop industry. They can be seen getting drinks and going on girl days when seventeen is on break. Cyana admitted once in an interview that she had a little bit of a crush on Youngji when they first met initally.

NIKI (ENHYPHEN)

THEN: They first met when Cyana became a special guest mentor on I-LAND, the trainee survival program Niki was on. Having a bit of knowledge on how to speak Japanese due to lessons with Jeonghan, Cyana and Niki quickly bonded as Niki became comfortable speaking in his native language. NOW: Having been supporting Niki throughout the rest of I-LAND and through debut, Cyana has spoken about how she feels like a successful mom and sunbae seeing Niki succeed. They keep in touch despite busy schedules and can be often seen supporting each other through tiktok challenges and showing up to each others concerts.

[misunhye]

DREAM( )SCAPE

HIGHLIGHTS

when she first heard the demo, she didn’t think it’d be her favorite song ever 😭 but she ended up really liking it!

misun wrote a little bit of box and unknown !!

and so her ranking goes unknown > breathing > box > smoothie > icantfeelanything > carat cake 🤭

her hair was blonde this era!! she had a moment where she had pink hair ?? but then it was back to blonde so like??

she did multiple tiktoks with other idols !! txt’s taehyun, kiss of life’s julie, illit’s yunah and minju. even idols that weren’t promoting like aespa’s karina

she was on the k-star next door with jaemin, jeno, chenle and jisung 🎉 she loves jonathan it was so fun

she met zb1’s hanbin who she knew already bc she was the one who got chenle to watch LOL she was also a sung hanbin stan ^_^

misun was on eunchae’s star diary LOL it was fun misun had to do most of the talking and she insisted eunchae called her unnie. and like of course eunchae had to say misun and chaewon looked like twins…

eunchae: misun unnie, you and my chaewon unnie look alike

misun: … i have no clue what youre talking about *literally clueless*

eunchae: ??? … okay anyways

okay and when they had their fansign (240407 withmuu fansign), misun had like ?? sports gear on. don’t ask me what sport but you can see it below !! ↓

misun did dream vs dream with jisung!! FINALLY. jeno and her will be next, trust. (insert link here when i post it…)

she also went on inssadong sulzzi with lee chaeyeon!! she had sm fun and she loves interacting with other idols

she wanted to go on jaefriends but figured sm would’ve told her no

she also kinda hinted to a nct xs comeback?? she posted multiple pics of the girls in the practice room and studio on her instagram story but no comeback news yet

she’s super excited for tds3!!! she enjoyed spoiling the setlist with chenle

smoothie era was rather eventful for her? she tried her best not to go on social media and mostly just interacted with fans through weverse. it was her safe space

as soon as smoothie promos were over, though, she went silent lol per usual

surprisingly no headline worthy dating rumors this era!!

icantfeelanything teasers

SMOOTHIE OUTFITS

PHOTOCARDS

LEFT TO RIGHT: icantfeelanything, smoothie

POPULAR FANSITE SHOTS

LINES

icantfeelanything

Erased from my mind [ 0:50 — 0:52 ]

두려움을 딛어

자신을 믿어 [ 0:59 — 1:02 ]

Erased from my mind [ 1:40 — 1:41 ]

Smoothie

가차 없이 비틀어 논 다음

삼켜 sip, watch how I blend it up [ 0:15 — 0:19 ]

Smoothie, smoothie, smoothie

Smoothie, smoothie, smoothie

가볍게 씹어 삼켜

Smoothie, smoothie

Smoothie, smoothie [ 0:53 — 1:01 ]

Shower that in all this ice

결국엔 녹아 fade out [ 1:15 — 1:20 ]

거칠게 mess up, yeah [ 1:50 — 1:53 ]

달콤함만 기대한 적 없어 난 [ 2:26 — 2:30 ]

(가볍게 씹어 삼켜 smoothie) [ 2:53 — 2:56 ]

BOX

Nobody lockin' me up [ 0:37 — 0:39 ]

더 자유롭게

멈추지 않을래, ooh [ 2:06 — 2:12 ]

Carat Cake

넌 못 감춰 saying "Wow!"

외쳐 asking how [ 0:22 — 0:25 ]

That's a carat cake [ 1:01 — 1:02 ]

Oh, 손에 잡힌 그 순간 [ 1:35 — 1:36 ]

투명한 그 빛 hit the heart likе clink [ 1:58 — 2:00 ]

UNKNOWN

Why'd you ever doubt it?

No never be scared of trying [ 0:27 — 0:30 ]

Dive in, dive in, into the unknown [ 1:01 — 1:04 ]

다시 널 찾아가 into the unknown [ 1:10 — 1:12 ]

Don't change, let go

Be brave, be strong

But take it easy, no rush

I know you got it [ 1:58 — 2:05 ]

But take it easy, no rush

I know you got it [ 2:48 — 2:51 ]

(I know you try) [ 3:20 — 3:23 ]

Breathing

아주 당연했던 감각, oh

잊어버린 것만 같아, oh [ 0:36 — 0:41 ]

I've been searching for another meaning

나아갈 수 있을까 [ 0:55 — 1:01 ]

I know I'm no good without you

Baby, can you stay all night? [ 2:50 — 2:53 ]

따스해

마주 잡은 손 느낄 때

And my heart starts beating [ 3:55 — 4:04 ]

[nctangelz]

EXCUSES ARE TIRING

where sooyoung is finally tired of making excuses for wooyoung.

warnings :: arguing, mentions of cheating

tags :: @yjjnfied

Sooyoung smiled, looking in the mirror she bought for the living room. She was finally about to see her boyfriend, Wooyoung, after being apart for a whole two weeks due to schedule conflicts. Even though the pair were just spending time at Ateez’s dorms, Sooyoung decided to dress up for her boyfriend. Her hair was braided messily and was tied together with a big white bow, because Wooyoung always loved when she had bows in her hair. He said it made her look cute.

“You look pretty, Sooyoungie!” Jaemin exclaimed, walking out from his room. “Where are you and Wooyoung going tonight?” Jaemin asked, pausing his snack mission to talk to his member.

“Oh, we aren’t going anywhere. I think we are just going to play some games with the boys.” Sooyoung said, turning and smiling at Jaemin, trying to ignore the disappointment on Jaemin’s face.

“He hasn’t came to see you in two weeks and all you are doing is staying in the dorms? Since when have you ever enjoyed playing video games?” Jaemin asked, furrowing his eyebrows. Sooyoung only sighed and shook her head, grabbing her phone and her purse from the coffee table.

“He’s been busy, Jaem, that’s why he hasn’t came and seen me. And, I like playing some games…I like playing Mario Cart! And Cooking Mama!” Sooyoung said, trying to convince herself she would have a good time. It was very unlikely that the other members would want to play those games, and Sooyoung knew that there wasn’t going to be enough controllers anyway. But atleast she got to see Wooyoung.

“Yeah…What time is he bringing you back?” Jaemin asked, sitting down on the couch while Sooyoung texted Wooyoung, letting him know she would be leaving soon.

“I’ll be driving. And I don’t know when I’ll be home. Why? Is there something happening later?” Sooyoung asked, groaning when Jaemin just looked annoyed again. “Why are you suddenly so annoyed with Wooyoung? You seemed to like him the last month when he would come over? What’s the matter with you?”

“What’s the matter with me? More like what’s the matter with him? He hasn’t bothered to visit you at all, and now the day you finally hang out he’s making you drive and not even offering to do something you enjoy?” Jaemin said, frowning when Sooyoung only rolled her eyes. Jaemin stood up and walked towards the girl, slightly leaning over so he could whisper in her ear, “Be mad at me all you want…but you know i’m right. Text me if you need me to come get you.” And with that, Jaemin walked away and went into the kitchen.

Sooyoung was slightly annoyed that Jaemin was subtly insulting her boyfriend and shaming him, but she felt uncomfortable with the fact that she had to agree with him. She was disappointed that Wooyoung wasn’t going to atleast cook her dinner or offer to spend one on one time - but she knew he had a stressful couple of weeks, so she swallowed her grievances and walked out the door.

When Sooyoung finally arrived infront of Ateez's apartment door, she was pleasantly suprised when San was the one who answered the door.

“Sooyoungie! I missed you!” San said, opening the door wider to let the girl in. “How are you?” San asked as she leaned in to give the girl a hug, squeezing her before letting go.

“I’m doing okay! I’ve been doing a lot of stuff with comeback preparations so i’ve been busy. How does it feel to finally get some rest?” Sooyoung chuckled, smiling when San sighed and relaxed his shoulders.

“It’s amazing not having to get up before the sun rises, I can tell you that much.”

Before Sooyoung was able to ask where Wooyoung was, she felt a pair of strong arms wrap around her from behind and swing her around, comfortably leaning her head back when she recognized it to be no other than her boyfriend.

“Hello, baby.” Wooyoung whispered, kissing Sooyoung on her cheek before setting her down. “I missed you.”

Wooyoung kept leaving kissed down the girl’s neck until Sooyoung giggled and turned around, playfully slapping the boy on the chest. “That tickles!” Sooyoung whispered, shaking her head before leaning against Wooyoung’s chest, closing her eyes and listening to his heartbeat. “I missed you so much.”

“I know, Soo. But now we can hang out! I bought you some of your favorite snacks.” Wooyoung said, dragging her into the kitchen to show her the bag of treats he prepared for her, laughing when she immediately went and grabbed her favorite candy.

“I haven’t had this in so long! How did you even remember me liking this?” Sooyoung asked, rolling her eyes when Wooyoung only shrugged. “You’re a goof.”

Before Sooyoung could lean in to give her boyfriend a kiss, Mingi came into the common area and yelled for everyone to come to the living room. Wooyoung only raised his eyebrows and gave an apologetic look towards Sooyoung before dragging her to his members.

Sooyoung listened as the boys argued over what game they should play first - none of them she had ever heard of before. While the boys argued, she went and plopped herself on the couch, quietly eating her candy while getting her phone out.

[ jaem 🐰] how’s cooking mama going?

Sooyoung rolled her eyes, starting to get agitated by Jaemin’s attitude. Sure, she probably wasn’t going to have the best time, but does he really have to rub it in her face?

[ soosoo 🧸 ] stop being a prick. i’m having a good time.

Sooyoung threw her phone on her lap, trying to get Jaemin’s bitterness out of her head. She squirmed as she thought of the small argument the friends had - she hated that Jaemin was right. As the minutes go by without Wooyoung by her side, the more disappointed Sooyoung gets.

[ jaem 🐰 ] you never use periods…why so sad meowscles? chenle and i are going to get icecream…you can tag along

Sooyoung frowned, of course Jaemin and Chenle would get icecream in hopes that she would want to come home. She knew his trick of using icecream as bribe…but she wasn’t going to let it fool her. She hadn’t seen Wooyoung in forever, so even if it’s not the quality time Sooyoung was hoping for…she’ll take it.

[ soosoo 🧸 ] haha, your tricks are old. thanks anyway

Sooyoung shut her phone and leaned back, smiling when she saw Wooyoung make his way over to her.

“Sorry it took so long, everyone can never agree to what game we play first.” He whispered, sitting down next to her and placing his hand on her thigh, softly rubbing circles with his thumb. “Thanks for coming over, I know games aren’t your favorite thing in the world.”

“It’s fine…I would rather be with you and be bored than not see you.” Sooyoung said, planting a kiss on Wooyoung’s cheek. “Did you all make a decision?”

“Yeah…everyone is just getting snacks. If you really don’t want to do this we can go do something else…we can go to your dorm.” He said, frowning when Sooyoung faked a smile.

“You never miss game night, I’m not going to force to miss out on it. Besides, my rooms a mess.” Sooyoung said, lying about her room. Her room was never a mess, she just didn’t want to bring Wooyoung over and face the wrath of Jaemin.

Wooyoung kissed Sooyoung on the lips and whispered a “Thank you”, getting up to grab all of the controllers. “If you wanna join in, let me know. I’m sure Hongjoong-hyung would be more than willing to give you his controller.” Wooyoung chuckled, teasing his leader.

“Hongjoong oppa would be a lot better at these games than me, I don’t think anyone would want to be on their team.” Sooyoung chuckled, shrugging when Wooyoung sighed.

“I would love to have you on my team,” Yunho said, patting Sooyoung’s head gently. “Just don’t throw the controller out of rage.” Yunho teased, laughing when Sooyoung grumbled.

“That was one time! And I didn’t even throw it at anything, I just dropped it!” Sooyoung defended herself from the boy - painfully remembering the day San and Yunho forced her to play a game with them…and of course Sooyoung kept dying and losing. Anyone who was in her position would have also rage quit.

One by one, the members piled in the living room and cramped in. Yeosang apologized when he sat in front of her, limiting her leg room. Before she knew it, the games had started and Wooyoung was sitting next to her, yelling and focused in on his game, leaving Sooyoung to her own devices.

She scrolled through her phone for awhile, rolling her eyes when she saw the selca Chenle sent in the dreamies group chat…both Chenle and Jaemin really had went out and gotten icecream. Sooyoung wished she would have swallowed her pride and went with them. Hours had passed, and soon enough, Sooyoung was passed out on the couch. She slept for hours, somehow tuning out all of the yelling and sound effects from the games.

It wasn’t until three am when Sooyoung woke up to the sound of her vibrating phone, cursing when she saw it was Jaemin. She popped up out of her seat, almost tripping over Yeosang in the process.

Walking to the kitchen, Sooyoung answered the phone, clearing her throat before her spoke.

“Hello, Jaemin?” Sooyoung asked, wincing when she turned the kitchen light on. “What are you doing awake?”

“I’ve been awake calling you for the last hour, are you still at Wooyoung’s?” Jaemin asked, suprisingly not sounding upset. Sooyoung widen her eyes when she checked her call log and saw a bunch of missed calls from Jaemin. Why didnt Wooyoung wake her up? “I kept getting voicemail, so Wooyoung probably kept hanging up.”

“I’m sorry, Jaeminie, I was asleep. The boys are still gaming..or atleast some.” Sooyoung said, shrugging when she only counted six members. “I don’t know why Wooyoung kept declining it…that’s annoying.”

“Yeah, it is. Do you need me to come get you?” Jaemin asked, getting up when Sooyoung hesitated. “I’m coming to get you, I don’t want to drive when you’re tired. We can go get your car tomorrow.” Jaemin said, hanging up when Sooyoung agreed. She didn’t really want to leave, but she also didn’t want to spend the night crunched up on the couch.

Sooyoung walked back into the living room and gently tapped Sunwoo on the head, waiting until the round of the game finished to start speaking.

“Why didn’t you wake me up when Jaemin was calling me?” Sooyoung asked, rolling her eyes when Wooyoung didn’t turn to look at her. “Don’t you dare start another game, I’m talking to you.” Sooyoung was suprised at her harshness, but she had been ignored for the post six hours…she had the right to be upset.

“I didn’t think it was important, why was Jaemin calling you in the first place?” Wooyoung groaned, unwillingly placing his controller down to look at her.

“He called me because he knew you weren’t going to drive me home, and I don’t like driving when i’m tired. He’s coming to get me, by the way.” Sooyoung snapped, walking over and grabbing her purse, leaving the snacks Wooyoung had bought her on the couch. She could feel herself getting more annoyed by the minute, especially when she saw Wooyoung itching to wrap his hands around the controller again.

“Why are you so pissed? You willingly came over, Sooyoung.” Wooyoung said, and Sooyoung couldn’t ignore the sting when he called her by her full name. He almost never did that, always calling her a nickname or something sweet.

“I wanted to spend time with you! I thought I wouldn’t care to sit here and watch you ignore me…but it’s getting old. You don’t bother to see me for two weeks and then expect me to be fine with sitting here for hours? Doing nothing?” Sooyoung could hear Jaemin in her head, whispering “You know I’m right”, over and over again. She didn’t want to believe him, to admit that he was right. She wanted to believe her boyfriend was better than that.

“I was busy!” Woyoung argued, standing up and following her as she walked to the door. “What did you want me to do, just tell my managers I can’t go to practice and hope they understand?” Wooyoung asked, crossing his arms when Sooyoung threw her arms up and looked at him.

“I’m busy too, Wooyoung! What do you mean “What did you want me to do”? I’ve been making this work ever since we got together. You don’t think I’m busy? I came and saw you after hours of practice, I came to see you during my fifteen minute breaks! I called you every night before bed, and you never, ever returned the favor. Why am I the only one who is actively trying to not to loose what we have?” Sooyoung asked, trying to contain her tears. “Some nights I wondered if you even cared about me. I wondered if you found someone better and were too afraid to tell me.” Sooyoung choked out.

Sunwoo stood there, shocked at the girl’s words. He never would have thought to hurt her like that.

“Baby, I would never leave you. And I would never hurt you like that," Wooyoung whispered, cursing when Sooyoung’s tears escaped her eyes. “Fuck, Sooyoung, I had no idea.” Wooyoung said, backing away and pulling on his hair.

Sooyoung leaned up against the door and let her tears fall, giving up on caring if Wooyoung’s members are watching.

“I think we need a break.” Sooyoung blurted out. Quickly wiping her tears and looking up at Wooyoung, holding her breath when he saw the look on his face.

“A break? For how long?” Wooyoung asked, hope draining out of his face when Sooyoung shrugged.

“I think you need some time alone. You had a stressful time…you need to get yourself together before you put all your energy into something else.” Sooyoung said, clearing her throat when she saw that Jaemin had texted her. “I have to go now.”

And that was it. She turned around, opened the door, and left. Wooyoung didn’t run after her, he didn’t hug her before she left, he didn’t do anything. He just stood at the door, watching the best girl he ever had walk out of his life.

Sooyoung didn’t know she was holding her breath until she got into Jaemin’s car, finally letting everything go when she saw the concerned look on Jaemin’s face. She gasped and cried and screamed all at the same time, hugging her knees to her chest until she could hear Jaemin’s voice again, telling her to breathe, telling her to look at him.

“Sooyoungie, I need to look at me. I want you to pretend my finger is a birthday candle. Blow it out for me, will you? Blow it until the flames are gone.” Jaemin said, holding his finger infront of Sooyoung. Even though she wanted to cry and scream more, she listened, blowing at Jaemin’s finger. She cried in between, but eventually, everything subsided, and she was gently blowing on Jaemin’s finger. “It’s all gone, isn’t it, Sooyoungie?”

Sooyoung only nodded, leaning back in her seat, numbly looking up at the sky through the window. “I told him we needed a break.”

Jaemin didn’t say anything to that, he only frowned and looked ahead, starting the car and pulling away. He wanted to tell Sooyoung she should have broken up with him, but he knew that she needed silence. She need some peace.

Jaemin hated watching Sooyoung go through all this pain. He hated that no one else realized how wonderful Sooyoung truly was, he hated how everyone took her for granted. Sooyoung’s love is beautiful, because when she falls in love, she falls hard. She commits. She will love you until you push her away…and she will keep loving you until the tears run out.

He wanted to be the one to love her, to show her how she deserved to be treated, he wanted to show her that he wouldn’t break her heart, that he would cherish her and spoil her with all of his loving words…but he knew it would never work.

So, instead, he holds Sooyoung while she cries herself to sleep, gently brushing her hair and whispering sweet nothings in her ear. He fills her water bottle everyday and makes her breakfast, pulling her out of bed to stare out the window for a few hours. He sings to her. He tells her about his day. He shows her videos in hopes to make her laugh. He takes care of her and helps her get in the shower, sitting on the toilet and telling jokes so she doesn’t break down in the process. He sits in silence with her, until eventually, she smiles at his jokes, she gets out of bed before him and makes him breakfast, she talks and fills the silence. She sings with him. He holds her until she teases him and tickles him. He helps bring her back to life - and he would do it all over again whenever he needs her to.

Jaemin would keep his love hidden for Sooyoung all of his life, if that meant that he would never lose the girl of his dreams.

[purpleyellow]

house hunting

nct dream 8th member - bee

masterlist

“the dorm days are over”

a/n: Feel free to share your thoughts with me💛 Requests are open for Bee and Hayun!

Living in the dorms was such a constant part of Bee’s life. It didn’t matter if they had back-to-back comebacks, solo activities, or even if the unit was on break, they always had a home to return to. Especially as someone who needed her own space, Bee had the room she had turned into her own little safe space over time, and she was not ready to say goodbye.

When the boys suddenly began discussing moving out into their own homes, she wasn’t the most thrilled about it, simply because she couldn’t imagine herself going through the decision-making process of visiting and picking an apartment for herself, and on top of that, having to go through all the moving work and trying to make another place feel like her own.

“I just think we live in a good apartment, and there isn’t much reason to try and change that” She calmly discussed one morning, while Jaemin cooked breakfast for the both of them.

“Well, technically this apartment isn’t ours, and if the owner wants to kick us out anytime, he’s fully capable of doing so. It’s the most reasonable thing to do. Individually, each of us can already afford to buy a condo, which in the future can become an investment, not to say it would be much more comfortable to live in a place you picked yourself. Not everyone who is our age can do that, I think it would be a waste of an opportunity to not go for it”

“I don’t think I would be comfortable living by myself. In fact, I would probably be a hazard to my own life” Holding onto the one thing he said that she disagreed with, Bee tried to make a point, though she knew Jaemin was probably right about the whole thing.

“Well, you don’t have to be by yourself. I don’t think all of us will move out to be alone, Renjun was thinking about sharing a place if anyone was up for it, you could go with him” The boy shrugged, unfazed by her arguing.

“So you’re telling me your plan is to just leave me out here alone and move out without bringing me along. You know I’m going to starve, don’t you?” Crossing her arms, Bee tilted her head as she noticed the small grin on his face.

“Maybe it’s time for you to do an online cooking course or something. The future I imagine only involves me, a bunch of cats, and a big ass couch”

Sighing, Bee rolled her eyes and dropped the subject with him, but she couldn’t stop thinking about it as the day went on. When she dropped by the studio during one of her breaks, the girl couldn’t help but complain to the 127 members around.

“It’s all your fault for dropping the dorm life and going into your own houses, now the boys think we need to do the same just because we have money” Jungwoo and Doyoung frowned, turning their attention to her, while Mark only laughed and squeezed her sides.

“Well, I didn’t go to my place just because I could afford it, you know. It was more of an investment rather than just blowing money for the sake of it” Doyoung chuckled at her rolling her eyes while he explained himself.

“Even if it’s just to flex, it’s a lot more comfortable living by your rules, it even makes our group moments more enjoyable since we’re not together all the time” Jungwoo shrugged and got up as the producer signalized for him to go into the booth

“And let’s be honest, the company doesn’t spend as much as we can on giving us a nice rental. You should come to check out the gym area in the condo I’m living in. Also, sharing a place with fewer people is a lot nicer than five dudes at once, sorry guys”

“Don’t be, our dorm was a mess, I don’t miss it either” Doyoung and Mark laughed reminiscing, while Bee readjusted herself on the couch the three were seated on. Hugging one leg, she groaned and rested her head on top of her knee.

“I don’t want to go out house hunting, having to face all my finances and the options, and deal with all that moving adult stuff”

“Just move in with me then” Mark casually stated, making a chill travel up Bee’s spine as she froze up. Chocking on air, Doyoung quickly got up and headed for the door, mumbling “I think someone’s calling me outside”

“What?” The boy giggled, confused at everyone’s sudden change of mood.

“I can’t just move in with you” Bee whispered, and thankfully to her, the producer ignored their conversation and kept going with Jungwoo’s recording.

“Why not? It would be so convenient, you wouldn’t have to choose a place, everything’s pretty much already figured out with electronics and utensils and all that adult crap, plus you’re used to being there already”

Rendered speechless, Bee thought for a minute before gasping “What about the fans?”

“What about them?” Mark smiled affectionately before turning serious and counting on his fingers, “Well, first, they don’t need to know we’ll be living together. Second, what’s so different between you sharing dorms with the boys, to sharing an apartment with me”

“You know very well the difference” The girl spoke the obvious, making him shrug.

“So, if that classified information happened to leak, we can just say we each have our separate rooms” Deciding to let go of his tensed-up girlfriend, Mark gave her a side hug and a kiss on the side of the head “Just think about it, okay? There’s no pressure to say yes, though I think it would be a nice option for you, and I would be happy if you agreed to. But also, I’m the happiest when you are, so take your time deciding”

Despite Mark giving her as much time as she needed, everyone else seemed to be moving at a lot faster pace. In just a few days, Bee was touring apartments with Renjun and Jisung, both of whom were open to being roommates for the time being.

“This one is actually really nice” Renjun commented while going through the kitchen. The real estate agent that came with them was just by the door getting a phone call, or at least pretending to, while letting the three idols talk about their last stop for the day.

“I think so too, the bedrooms and the living room are all pretty large” Jisung nodded, looking into the hallway “The only downside to it, it’s that there are only three rooms, but I’m willing to put that aside for the quality of the apartment”

“We wouldn’t be able to have guests, though. The boys would be fine since we’re used to sharing rooms and stuff. Although I don’t know about Renjun, if my parents came over from overseas I’d like to welcome them into my house”

“That’s what I was thinking too” Renjun sighed, leaning against the kitchen sink, “Having somewhere my family could stay and visit freely would be ideal”

“Still, this place is amazing” Bee looked around again, and the boys agreed with dreamy “Yes” “It really is”

“I think we should reflect, and just consider if we should go for it,” Renjun thought out loud just as the real estate agent stepped back into the conversation.

“About that, if you would like to keep this place, I suggest you decide as soon as possible. I know it’s not ideal, but there are more people interested, and the most I can guarantee you it’s until tomorrow night”

Feeling like their little bubbles had just cracked, the three thanked him and assured him they would keep in touch until the deadline.

Going down the elevator, Bee thought through about how everything could be slowly turning into place without her noticing it, and it seemed to her that there was one way of satisfying everyone’s wishes, which made it look easier to take the next step in her relationship with Mark.

“I kind of wish we hadn’t visited this one because it would make that one with four bedrooms from earlier a lot nicer looking” Jisung sighed as they crowded inside a taxi.

“Well, if we decide to not keep this one, we’ll have more time to look for another apartment that we like better” Renjun looked out of the window contemplating their options.

“Would you guys still go for this last one if I decided to step out?” Bee questioned from the middle, looking from side to side to watch their reactions.

Jisung frowned at her confused, while Renjun scoffed, “Yunhee, weren’t you the one begging us not to be left alone? Don’t panic yet, we can find a place that’ll fit all of us”

“I know we can, I’m just considering my options as you said. So like, if I were to take on another offer, it would solve the missing bedroom problem. Would you guys still want to keep this last apartment?”

“Is this a trick question?” Jisung asked exasperated.

“I’m being serious Jisungie, I was already considering this other thing before today, and know that there’s a place that would be great for you two, I’m almost certain you should take it without me”

“What the hell other offer is that? Can you just be open to us” Renjun groaned annoyed, and the girl shrugged, trying to sound casual to check for their reactions. “Mark asked if I wanted to move in with him”

Gasping, Jisung stared at her with judging eyes, “And you spent an entire day house-hunting with us after your boyfriend invited you to share an apartment with him?”

“He told me I could think about it” Bee mumbled at his outburst, though she was more worried about Renjun’s silence than the youngest’s annoyance. “Oppa, so what are you thinking?”

“That solves everything, doesn’t it?” Renjun smiled optimistically. “I’m kind of not ready to live with one less person, but still, everything would work out”

“It would. When we get home, I’ll confirm with Mark that everything is okay with him, and you guys can call the agent tomorrow morning”

“No need to worry, I’m calling him right now” Jisung beamed from her side just as his phone picked up the call “Mark Hyung, great news for me, not so great for you. Bee agrees to move in with you”

Just as the girl gets ready to punch Jisung’s arm, she listens to Mark’s excited “Really? Holy shit” and that makes her certain she made the right call.

[wonubby]

Aenergy - Aespa 5th member

Y/NS RELATIONSHIPS INSIDE THE GROUP...

karina x y/n

(Y/N) and Karina have known each other for nearly 6 years. Since (Y/N) was the member who trained the longest, Karina would always learn from the younger girl and would ask for guidance. When the two learned they were making their debut together, they were ecstatic. Being the youngest yet most experienced member of AESPA was very hard for Y/N, as she would act like a teacher towards her older members, which came with scolding them. Whenever Karina messed up, (Y/N) would scold her, which led Karina to pinch (Y/N)'s cheeks, talk about how cute she was, and then fix her mistake. Right before (Y/N) and Jisung's dating rumour was spread, Karina had walked in on the two cuddling in the practice rooms, and the first thing she did was laugh. She was happy for her friend but was also concerned that if the company heard about it, she might not get to debut. Karina knew (Y/N) was under pressure when the dating rumour came out, so the first thing she did was spend the night in her dorm, where the two girls just sat and ate junk food the whole night. Whenever Karina is asked about (Y/N), the first word that comes to her mind is darling.

giselle x y/n

These two were never really that close when they were trainees, but 3 months before Aespa's debut, the two became close. They are known as the designer couple. This name originated from the two of them being from rich families and owning many designer items. Giselle teaches (Y/N) English whenever they have free time so the younger could improve her speech. Of course, training for only 10 months was one of Giselle's disadvantages since it affected her performance on stage, but Y/N  was always there to help. She would cheer the older girl on and teach her tips to improve her performance. (Y/N) helped improve Giselle's rap a little bit before they were set to debut and continued helping during the Savage era, when Giselle couldn't seem to get the words out of her mouth. When Aespa had just debuted, Aeri was shocked to know her company mate, Jisung, and (Y/N) were dating after the older male had come to their debut showcase to give the girls flowers. Whenever being asked about (Y/N), the first word that comes to Aeri's mind is her duplicate.

winter x y/n

(Y/N) and Winter met during an acting class they both were attending. (Y/N) took the acting classes to improve her facial expressions, while Winter wanted to become an actress. When the two first met, they were paired together in a group and instantly hit it off with one another. Winter was shocked to learn that (Y/N) was not only younger than her but had been a trainee longer than her as well. This moment was when Winter gained a lot of respect for the girl by putting up with a very strict and horrible industry at such a young age. Winter knew about (Y/N) and Jisung. The moment he confessed to her, (Y/N) was screaming her head off while Winter was jumping up and down, knowing her friend had finally found a man to put up with her weird ass. Debut season ended up being a mess as everyone was in a rush and there was a lot of stress, which caused (Y/N) to worry a lot and took a toll on her mental health. During this period, Winter was the one who tried the most to keep (Y/N) in line. She would buy her food, plushies, and games; she even once brought Jisung over so he could calm the poor girl down. When asked about the girl, the first word that comes to mind is psycho.

ninging x y/n

A mess. That's what these two are together. When Ningning first joined the company, these two were put up against each other due to their amazing singing voices, which caused an unwanted rivalry between the two for a couple of years before they realised they had nothing against each other. It started when (Y/N) came up to Ningning and just sat down and started a normal conversation. After a couple of hours of talking, the (Y/H/C) girl ordered Chinese food so the two of them could enjoy it. The two sang a duet song together in their trainee years. Fans of the two kept begging and asking for the video to be released, but in return, the two girls decided to tease until they finally released it in early 2021. Ningning first heard about (Y/N) and Jisung's when the dating rumour came out, and he instantly recognised the girl in the picture and immediately called (Y/N). When ever asked about (Y/N), the first word that comes to mind is competition (in a joking way)

[anqelified]

✶𓏲ּ𐀔.ᐟ ⠀⠀⠀JULIETTE⠀ ( 🐰 ) relationships ! ───── sm family 𖤛

features : boa, tvxq, super junior, snsd, shinee, exo, red velvet, aespa, riize

▶︎ FAMILIAL FIGURES

⠀⠀ boA ( 보아 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀90%

when boa debuted, juliette was just getting to be born

with the fifteen year age gap, boa essentially took juliette under her wing like everyone else.

told her the hardships and challenges as a soloist but managed to be her first confidant.

fans LOVE their interactions sm like always point out juliet is boa’s baby 😭 😔

mother & daughter type of duo!!

⠀⠀ TVXQ ( 동방신기 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀80%

just like the rest of the 1980 - 1994 artists, juliette has more of a familial relationship with them

changmin & juliet had have collaborated in the past before and he’s always regarded her as a talented artist

just like changmin, u-know respects juliet for her hardwork as an idol and is always open to hearing out her troubles

⠀⠀ SUPER JUNIOR ( 슈퍼주니어 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀75%

to be honest, juliet only fw a few of the suju members. donghae & eunhyuck and probably leeteuk

although she’s more closer to the d&e duo, she puts suju in high regard as her seniors and their level as 2nd gen stars

she does talk to them occasionally tho

⠀⠀ SNSD ( 소녀시대 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀90%

mothers and their daughter i fear

besties w tiffany and their bond is to die for

snsd > 2ne1 srry

juliet FOUGHT on the forums for them

it’s like sisterhood but also motherhood in a way so like… idk they just love juliet and they baby her whenever they get the chance to

⠀⠀ SHINee ( 샤이니 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀90%

shinee took juliet under their wing once they met the 10 year old. when they were introduced to the pre-teen, they were in definite shock and became her older brothers

one of the core memories she has with them are the way the members would help her with her homework. since taemin had debuted awfully young as well, the pair would often be seen helping each other in their respective studies (with jonghyun stressing bc now he had to take care of TWO kids.)

key made it his responsibility to protect juliet throughout his life. of course she wasn’t the youngest person in sm, but at the time, she was just a mere ten-year-old girl who wanted to follow her dreams

⠀⠀ EXO ( 엑소 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀85%

just like shinee, most of exo (especially suho) took juliet as their daughter

often coined as the mini baekhyun w her massive amounts of energy

talking abt baekhyun, the vocal line is the reason why juliet manages to a “voice pocket” in her dimple. they always manage to teach her new ways to either sing or hit a note

but definitely older brother(s) & younger sister energy

⠀⠀ RED VELVET ( 레드벨벳 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀90%

juliet was originally supposed to be in red velvet as she appeared in the ‘happiness’ mv but the idea was later scrapped

she trained with them and formed a sisterhood bond

out of all of the members, she’s super close w yeri and they have their own little girl dates together

irene is just a single mom who works two jobs, who loves her kids (wendy, joy, yeri, & juliet) and never stops

▶︎ FRIENDS

⠀⠀ AESPA ( 에스파 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀100%

just like dream, she’s more closer in age w aespa

she bonds more with giselle and they have such a tight friendship, u would think she’s dating giselle

as aespa goes to more award shows now, she’s seen tagging along with them and often coined as the hidden member.

when juliet found out that aespa was going to debut, she cheered bc she finally had more girls her age in the sm building 🙏

▶︎ GETTING TO KNOW

⠀⠀ RIIZE ( 라이즈 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀89%

when she found out shotaro and sungchan were leaving nct but debuting in riize, she cried…

YET she still truly has to make friends with the rest of the riize members. like yes she will film a challenge w them but afterwards it gets quiet…

bias in riize? probably sohee. she finds him so adorable

THO she LOVEEEESSS their music.. like play talk saxy and she will SING. like name a song that u can both cry and dance to...

▶︎ TO BE ANNOUNCED

⠀⠀ HEARTS2HEARTS ( 하츠투하츠 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀–%

⠀⠀ dearALICE ( 디어 앨리스 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀–%

⠀⠀ MYTRO ( 마이트로 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀–%

[nctyena]

Distance Goodbye

Note: I still can't believe Markhyuck couldn't say goodbye to Taeyong face to face I hate SM...

"Yah, how could you still be handsome? That's not fair."

"We can shave your head too Haechan."

"Stop fighting guys. Hyung, we will miss you so much. Take care, okay?"

"I know Markie. Now I gotta go. Don't worry I'm gonna be back without you noticing anything."

"I love you oppa. Please be careful."

"Aww, are you going to cry."

Taeyong couldn't hold his laugh at Yena's flicking the boy's head.

"Lee Donghyuck , don't tease her too much. I love you guys. Take care of each other."

"Ah! By the way check your bags. I left something for you."

They ended the facetime and looked at each other.

"If one of you cries I kill you."

"As if you won't."

Yena left the room without saying anything. She was curious about Taeyong's surprise. She seeked through her bag and found a paper that had her name on it.

"How didn't I see it before?"

She opened the letter and took a deep breath before starting to read it.

"Dear Yena,

I know this is a bit old fashioned but I figured writing a letter would fit the situation more. If you miss me just read these words over again. First of all I want to say that I'm so proud of us. Even if I'm the one going to military because I grew up, that also makes me realise that you grew up a lot too. I still remember when I first met you , or when we practiced as traniees , dreaming about the same things on our minds , when you came to me crying about debuting with us because you were too worried... But now look at you. A beautiful , succesful and confident woman doing great things. I'm so happy to be a viewer by your side through all the struggles and accomplishments. And I will be by your side no matter what and no matter where I am. When I'm back I want to see you stronger and as a person who did whatever they want. Don't hold anything back. Release your solo songs , meet lovers , travel many places , make different hobbies , but don't forget to listen yourself while doing all these too. Take your time and don't forget to rest. Promise me to stay healthy and happy. And I promise you back. I will be back healthy and happy. I love you so much. Never forget this. From your friend , your brother , your leader , your fairy

Lee Taeyong."

Yena folded the paper carefully and put it back inside the bag. She knew that this wouldn't be the first time of her reading it. And she was already glad for it. She wiped the tears under her eyes and messaged her leader on her phone.

"Wow you are really old now. A letter huh? Grandpa"

[ggukkiedae]

notes: hannah tries her best to send taeyong off to the navy. (dialogue written in italics are spoken in english)

setting: jeju international airport, 240415

wc: 1,175

content warning: taeyong’s enlistment

“You good, Hans?”

Mark’s voice pulled Hannah back down to earth. As soon as he sat down next to her, she leaned into his side and glanced at Donghyuck, who stood a few steps away on the phone with Taeyong. She was the last of the three of them who’d be on the phone with him since they decided to go by age.

She groaned while pulling her hat down by the visor. Next to her, Mark was shuffling in his seat until he had his arm around her, lightly patting her shoulder.

“This isn’t fair,” she ran her hand down her face. “Is it so hard to say no to even just one event so we could have all come home yesterday?”

She could feel the 99-liner squeeze her shoulder, “You know how it is, Hans. Hyung knows, too.”

“We tried so hard,” she slumps further into his side, “and we don’t even get a glimpse of him in real life before he leaves!”

The two of them could only sit in silence after that. The three 127 maknaes had taken it upon themselves to rearrange their schedule in order to reach their leader’s send off, but they were beat.

That’s how they found themselves in Jeju.

The stress of trying to make it in time was something she didn’t think she’d ever go through. Months ago when their leader first told them he was enlisting, she thought she’d be right there with the rest of 127 (and maybe all of NCT) to send their leader off.

She didn’t expect to look at their managers’ itinerary only to find they wouldn’t even be in Korea on the day of.

“Hyung wants to know why his princess is pouting.”

“I’m not pouting,” Hannah looked up to glare at Donghyuck until she realized who was on the small screen looking at her. “Oppa!”

The older 00-liner snickered while handing her the phone and placing the bluetooth headphones over her ears. In her excitement to stand up, she elbowed Mark in the ribs.

“I gotta take this,” she jogged over to the isolated corner for a semblance of privacy then looked at the smiling man on the screen. “Boss! How are you? Are the oppas treating you okay? Did you get my present? Have you met any other people you’re entering with?”

“Calm down, Haeeunie,” Taeyong chuckled, “breathe. I’m alright, missing you kids. Everyone’s treating me the same, I haven’t really met anyone yet, and what present?”

A grin made its way to her face, “I snuck something into your backpack last week when I helped you pack some stuff.”

“I’m looking forward to it,” he smiled at her.

Seeing him smile pulled at something in her chest. She squeezed her eyes shut, slipping her sunglasses on. She did not want to cry in front of Taeyong, but it felt impossible to do. She went for the second best option: not letting him see.

“Hey,” Taeyong held his phone closer to his face so she could only see one of his eyes on the screen, “I want to see your face before I go.”

That did it. A tear escaped.

“Oh,” she sighed while taking off her hat and moving her sunglasses up her head to hold her hair back, “I hate that we’re not there with you!”

He gave her a sad smile once he held his phone at a normal angle again, “Don’t worry about it. We know how hard you three worked to get here, and I love you for it. You did everything you could, and that’s what matters, alright?”

“Alright,” her voice came out as a whisper. “I’m really sorry, Oppa.”

“Nothing to be sorry about, Haeeunie,” he reassured her. “I promise. And you know I don’t take my promises lightly, especially not with you.”

She bit her lip, nodding instead of talking. Talking would just make her cry harder. But Taeyong wasn’t done talking.

“You know what?” His tone brightened, “I’m going to make you another promise right now. After basic training, when I get my phone back, you’ll be the first person I call after my mom and my sister. Sound good?”

“Sounds great,” to her luck, her voice didn’t shake, “and I’ll have Hyuck and Markie with me.”

“Good, good,” Taeyong nodded.

Hannah smiled, “And you bet I’ll drop any schedule I have then and there and drag those two with me so we can talk to you.”

“Unfortunately, I don’t expect any less.”

“Unfortunately?”

“As your leader,” he shrugged with a mischievous smirk, “but, as one of your big brothers, I say have at it, Boss Lady.”

Laughs slipped past her lips, in time with his. “You better look out, oppa, because I’m planning on doing something to anger the company for not having the balls to reschedule or say no to one event.”

He grinned at her, “Can’t wait for you to tell me all about it. Don’t give your oppas too much grief.”

She was about to retort when a muffled voice caught Taeyong’s attention. His frown told her all she needed to know.

“How much time you got there?” she asked him.

“Not a lot,” he admitted, “but I’m gonna tell you what I need you to hear right now before I leave, okay?”

“Okay.”

“First of all,” he began, “it’s not your fault, okay? We can put the blame on the weather. Second, I miss you, and I’m going to miss you, but this’ll pass and either you’ll be able to visit me or I can go on leave. Watch over the boys, you know most of our brain cells rest in you. But also don’t forget to allow them to take care of you. I love you, Haeeunie, a lot.”

“I love you, too, Oppa,” she smiled at him, wiping away the tears that were starting to fall. “You stay safe. Don’t get sick, don’t get hurt.”

“I’ll try my best,” he nodded, “now go and get the other two with you so I can say bye to all of you!”

With a nod, she walked back to the two boys with her, sitting on Donghyuck’s lap and throwing her legs over Mark’s. She handed the phone to Mark, who turned the bluetooth off.

“You kids take care of each other,” Taeyong began with a smile. “I’ll see you when I see you. It won’t be too long.”

The three 127 maknaes said their goodbyes and watched as Taeyong clicked out of the call. They sat in silence for a few seconds, staring at the black screen.

That was it.

That was them sending their leader off. That was the first time they were sending off one of their big brothers, and this was how it ended.

“This isn’t fair,” she muttered, leaning her head on Donghyuck’s shoulder.

Her twin flame sighed, “It really isn’t.”

“It’ll be okay,” Mark gave her knee a squeeze. “Hyung knows we love him and that we’d do anything to be with him right know. He’ll be okay.”

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( 𝓓rabble ) the final straw ft. lee jeno ̨ ! ୨୧ 一 act iii ՞

⸃ ⸰ ⌁ after the fan that had been stalking yoonchae finally manages to find her apartment she finally breaks down  ヾ

time ・ december 2023 p. yoonchae ・ sasaeng ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ g ・ angst ‎ ‎ ‎ cw ・ ‎ ‎ ‎stalking , anxiety attacks ‎ ‎ wc ・ ‎1k ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎| ‎ yoonchae's story

「 yoochaes masterlist 𖹭 」

when fans first began to show up to her apartment; yoonchae was moved from her apartment, ordered to stay in a hotel for a while, of course she didn't stay in a hotel, she slept on chenles' couch— but she soon missed her own bed, and her cat; so the company thought it would be okay if she did moved back into her apartment as long as she was careful of her surroundings, and everything was fine — up until that day.

she didn't feel like anything was out of the ordinary except the weight from the day on her; she had gotten off of a hectic schedule, a staff member bringing her back from the company. her street was quiet, her building mostly consisted of families. that's why she felt bad when the fans would show up. she thanked the manager, he even offered to walk her up which she declined. “it's late , you should go home and get some rest.” she climbed out of the car , waving off the manager, who waited for her to enter the apartment doors before driving off.

she pressed the elevator button , sending a text to her mother who she had neglected to respond to due to being busy , while waiting for it to come down, pressing her floor making her way up to her apartment. “hi babies.” her cats waited, purring at her feet. “did you eat?” she closed the door, making sure it was locked. “i missed you today.” she made her way to her room. “mommy's gonna take a shower, she'll see you in a few.”

finally able to rest, she made her way to the kitchen for some food, her face in her phone as she waited for the food to heat up, her phone ringing; she sighed realizing it was another random phone number, she got these at least 40 times a day, no matter how many times she changed it; called the so called fans out, it never worked.

sitting her phone down; about to grab her food when there was a knock on her door; there's never a knock on her door, her managers almost never come up and most of not all the neos have the passcode to her apartment thanks to hyuck. she didn't say anything; luckily she had a doorbell camera.

“hello?” she said , the person didn't say anything, she couldn't see the person either, their face was covered by a mask and a hat , they also had a hood on. “yoonchae?” she didn't recognize the voice , and that's when her heart dropped, did someone get into her apartment building? the person began banging on the door , harsher , she could see the door shaking.

the person outside the door was relentless, pounding at the door , screaming her name and other obscure things, her neighbors probably hearing this; she was terrified. she ran to the kitchen grabbing her phone to dial for the police. “please help.” she didn't realize she was crying until she tasted the saltiness on her lips. “please come quickly.” she sobbed into the phone. “please.”

hanging up the phone , she ran to her room to hide and wait for the police , she dialed the only number she could see through her tears, and the closest person to her. “yoonchae?” she heard jenos voice. “jeno.” she cried. “th-there's someone out there.”

“out where? where are you?” he asked. “my apartment, they got in somehow.” she said. “how? how the hell did they find your number.” he said. “i don't know, they must've followed me up , but there was no one in the elevator.” she said. “i called the police and they haven't shown up yet , I'm so scared , they're pounding on the door.”

she could feel the tightness in her chest , she had been experiencing panic attacks ever since they figured out her address the first time. “hey calm down , wait for the police to get there,” he said. “im coming now i'm close by.”

the banging on the door came to a quick halt, the person probably running away. “the person probably realized we were coming and ran away.” the police arrived soon; jeno must've informed the manager because he showed up around the time the police did , along with himself. “i should've walked you up, i didn't even see anyone following behind you.”

the manager talked to the police, while jeno comforted her but she couldn't even let out a sigh of relief , her whole body was shaking with fear , it felt like everything was was finally coming to a hilt , the stress from everything, the crazy fans constantly harassing her , this seemed to be the breaking point , she couldn't hear anything, even when the police arrived , it felt like she was having a out of body experience , they could barely get anything out the girl. “i don't think she's doing good.”

“she's had schedule after schedule , she hasn't had a day off in like 6 months.” the manager said. “i talked to the rest of the managers and they informed the CEO, we all think she should get some help.” he said, rubbing his temples.

“i don't need help.” she said. “yeah you do.” jeno said, he could see she needed it , hell everyone could see she needed it , even her mother who was miles away could tell just from hearing her voice; she could still remember her mother crying telling her to slow down a bit , she'd been working non stop for the past 4 years without any breaks.

“if you don't get help it won't end well , you're trying , but everyone can see it.” jeno said. “look at you still shaking , panic attacks after every show isn't normal.” he rubbed her shoulders calmly. “i already talk to the CEO , they think it's what's best.” the manager said , she sighed nodding. “you have to move out of here as well, it's clearly not safe now that they know your apartment number.”

“you can stay in a hotel until the company finds you a new apartment.” you packed a bag. “jaemin wouldn't mind 2 new cats for a minute.” jeno said , watching you pack a bag. “it's just until they find you a new one.” he said. “don't worry.”

“it's gonna be okay.” jeno wrapped his arms around the girl. “get the help you need, go see your grandmother in jeju.” he said. “maybe you can go visit your family.” he said. “it'll be okay.” he kissed her forehead, something he did even when they were young. “the manager is gonna take you to a hotel, i’ll get your babies to jaemins.”

it was quite ride back to the hotel , the managers making phone calls to all the necessary people , they found a nice hotel for the night, her mother was stressed over the text messages, she was begging for her to see if she could come home just for a while , she told her she'd come home if she could but she needed to receive her treatment.

the manager rode with her all the way up to her room. “stay here for a couple days, clear your head until the treatments start,” he said , sitting the bags you packed on the hotel room floor. “the company will find you a better apartment , more secure than the old one.” was the last thing he said , before he left the girl.

she didn't want to be alone , but she didn't want to call anyone , she didn't want to be a burden to anyone. jeno did call her to make sure she was alright, the rest of the boys were told what happened , but the managers told them to not bother her until the morning.

for now she was alone , all alone in her hotel room , feeling ten times as worse as she was already feeling.

it was gonna be a long recovery for the the girl.

©MAZEOFYENI

[rensaries]

✦•┈๑⋅⋯ stress written scenario about jungeun in which ; she takes on heavy stress with the end of year award shows coming up and additional nct promotions see jungeun's masterlist !

time : november 2023 ⋮ pairings : jungeun , jaemin , mark , and dream's manager ⋮ genre : angst, fluff ⋮ warnings : tw.ᐟ mentions of disordered eating , stress , jungeun overworking herself , mentions of panic attacks , jungeun almost passing out , if i miss anything pls lmk!

when the members received their upcoming schedules for the next two months, jungeun thought it would be easy to manage. despite finishing a tour only a few months ago, jungeun was somehow motivated for the upcoming promotions. but her excitement was cut short when she found herself almost passing out in the practice room while preparing for her solo for an end of year award ceremony.

"jungeun, are you sure you don't need to sit and take a break?" the manager's worried voice echoed through jungeun's ears like they were heard from another planet. her head was dizzy, her breathing was picking up, and her vision was blurry.

"no. i'm fine. let's run it again." she took a deep breath as she tried to get herself up from where she was sat on the floor, but that quickly failed as she fell to the ground in her attempt to get up. jaemin and mark, who were present in the practice room, ran to jungeun to help her up.

after a few minutes of sitting up and getting some water, jungeun insisted on finishing her practice, "only one more time, please?"

"no, you need to rest for the rest of the day." jaemin's words coming out cold and sharp. anyone would think jaemin was seriously mad, but no, he was only like this so jungeun would give herself a break. and not only does it upset him seeing her like this, mark was just as hurt.

"yeah, you need to take a break. you have plently of time until the performance to practice, but you're not going to improve at all if you work yourself to nearly passing out." mark came off more genuinely concerned, he knew what it was like to practice until you can't stand straight, and he didn't want to see jungeun do that to herself.

jungeun sighed and placed her head in her hands, tears starting to form in her eyes. she knew she needed to take a break, actually take time to allow herself to improve every move and detail of her dance. but it ate at her every day that she wasn't practicing, she felt as if she wouldn't provide a good performance if she wasn't constantly working on it and trying to improve. she also knew it wasn't healthy to skip meals and rather go to the company building to repeat the same steps over and over until she was short of breath. it's not like she meant to do any of this to herself on purpose, but as an idol she feels she need to perform at her best and from her experience through the years, you can't take breaks until your art is perfect.

"jungeun, we can't stay to watch you to practice the dance a million more times until you pass out again." jaemin rubbed his hand along jungeun's back in an attempt to calm her down. "have you eaten anything today? we should get something to eat."

jaemin's words rung through her ears, he couldn't possibly know she wasn't eating properly? she tried her best to hide it from the members, not wanting them to become apart of her stress and issues. but as usual, jaemin knew even if he didn't see it with his own eyes. her passing on dinner the past few weeks, getting small portions when the group went out, "oh i ate earlier before practice", and other small indications that she wasn't eating healthily.

despite her mind telling her that jaemin's protest was unnecessary, she sighed and lifted her head, "okay." satisfied with her answer, jaemin gave her a small smile.

╱ on the ride back to jungeun and jaemin's shared apartment the silence felt suffocating to her. every second passing was another that neither of them spoke. as she watched the cars pass she was still thinking about needing to practice. no matter how hard she worked the itch was still there and it bothered her knowing thate jaemin wouldn't let her practice again for the rest of the day, even though it's because he cares about her health.

"why didn't you tell me you weren't eating?" jaemin said finally breaking the silence. jungeun took a deep breath knowing she couldn't hide it from him anymore, she felt bad for lying in the first place but her practice was her number one priority for the last few weeks.

"I- i was eating, just not as much as i probably should have." jungeun's voice was quiet, she was slightly embarrased to be talking about this out loud after keeping it to herself for so long. jaemin opened his mouth to speak again but before he could jungeun continued, "i know it's not healthy, but i really want this performance to be perfect so i feel like all i can focus on is practicing." it was hard for her to get her thoughts out, she knew everything she had been dealing with and how she felt but actually getting herself to say it aloud to jaemin's face was difficult. trying to gather the words in her head quickly became even harder, her thoughts jumbling and her mind beginning to scramble. realizing how hard she'd been pushing herself without going to any of the members for support hit her like a brick, and suddenly her breathing started to pick up and tears prodded at her eyes.

jaemin, waiting for her to continue speaking, looked over at jungeun and noticed her anxious state. his expression quickly turning into a worried one, "jungeun, what's wrong?"

"i'm fine, sorry." she hid her head in her hands, tears from her eyes immediately wetting the fabric of her hoodie sleeves.

"jungeun, you're not fine. please tell me what's been going on. tell me everything even if you find it embarrassing, which i know you do because i know how hard talking about your problems out loud is for you. just please talk to me."

jungeun was honestly touched by his words, she felt bad not being more open so now she felt she had no choice but to tell him everything.

"i'm just really stressed jaem, i feel like everytime i practice the choreography there's something else i need to work on and the performance has been stressing me out for weeks. i want to perform really really good, i'm excited but i'm scared i'm gonna mess it all up if i don't work on it every day." she doesn't notice she's fully sobbing at this point, she never realized how much she needed to talk to anyone about this. "if i go to practice during the day i usually don't have time to eat before so i've been unintentionally missing meals, so that's making me more stressed and i've been so anxious recently and sometimes i have panic attacks again and-"

"wait, you've been having panic attacks again and didn't say anything?!"

"i- well, yeah sometimes." jungeun's voice gets quiet again. she looks down as she plays with her hands, ashamed of not having told jaemin her issues earlier. "i'm sorry, i feel bad if you have to deal with me when i'm having panic attacks so i tried not to bother you about it."

"jungeun, you need to tell me, or any of the members, when you have panic attacks. it's not safe for you to deal with them yourself."

"i feel bad that you have to worry about me, they haven't been bad so i didn't think saying anything would be necessary." jungeun knew it wasn't safe for her to not bring it up to the members, panic attacks being a recurring issue for her that's affected her ability to promote during schedules several times. she's had them for years since debut, but overtime she's been able to manage the attacks better and even reduce them by focusing on relieiving stress. she's gotten used to them so she forgets to say anything to the members sometimes, which causes problems when they end up find out.

"listen, i don't mind dealing with you at all if you need me to help you, but please tell me this stuff when it happens."

jungeun is ashamed that this conversation even came to be, so all she can do is nod to jaemin's words.

"we don't have to keep talking about it if you don't want to, i understand, but you need to tell me these things when they happen. i love you and i don't want to see you struggle like this without reaching out."

"thank you, i love you too jaem."

note ʚɞ sighs i SUCKKKK at writing scenarios/fics.. i feel like this had a good start then i just kept writing and it ended weird 😭 i also apologize if this portrayal of mental struggles isn't that good, i went off my own experiences so it may not seem realistic to others but i hope it's enjoyable nonetheless!

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╰┈➤ ❝ FOR OUR TEAM’S SAKE.

in which, Taeyong confronts Seyeon about her guarded behavior and she realizes she can’t ignore the elephant in the room anymore.

✰ STARRING. Seyeon & Taeyong feat. NCT 127

✰ TIMELINE. 2017, before Cherry Bomb era

✰ THEMES. angst, hurt comfort, lore drop

✰ WARNINGS. profanity, mentions of food and alcohol

✰ WORD COUNT. 2.3k

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✰ SEYEON'S MASTERLIST

It’s already midnight when Seyeon is hunched over a plate of grapes at a kitchen counter in the 5th-floor dorm. Doyoung bought grapes and refused to share that information with her and the other 10th-floor members, so Seyeon had to take matters into her own hands and eat them before Doyoung could even take a look at them.

Her elbows rest on the counter as she inspects each grape in her fingers before she pops them into her mouth. It’s dark. There’s one dim kitchen light, but it’s more of a shadow, and the city lights sparkle behind the window. The cold wooden floor sucks on her bare feet and it travels to her exposed legs, but Seyeon doesn’t mind. The faint ticking of the clock and water running from the shower in the bathroom fill the emptiness, but there is something else.

Behind her, Taeyong is sitting on the living room couch, drilling holes in the back of Seyeon’s head for a good few minutes.

“Gonna ask or keep staring?” Her voice resonates through the silence.

Taeyong licks his lips before he answers. “What did you do before you joined SM?”

“I lived in the US.”

He nods, although she can’t see it. “I know. New York, right? How was it?”

She lifts her gaze up for a moment, stares at the white ceiling, and angles her body toward him with a shrug. “Alright. Y’ know, it’s New York. It’s okay. I mean, there’s trash and rats everywhere, but hey! The Statue of Liberty is nice, if y-“

“Seyeon.” He looks straight at her and she stares back at his frown. Her hand, which was resting on the kitchen counter, is now holding onto it. “I’m not asking about New York. I’m asking about you. You never talk about yourself.”

She finally fully faces him. Her feet cross on the wooden tiles and hips rest against the counter. She hides her hands in the pockets of her hoodie and chuckles. “What’s there to talk about? Wanna hear about me chasing rats?” She laughs, but there’s a hint of mockery in her voice.

Taeyong’s stare is sealed on her face. His expression is stone-like.

“Some members feel like they don’t know you.”

Seyeon doesn’t say anything. She doesn’t move and doesn’t look away. She is as stoic as Taeyong.

“Who did you talk to?”

“That’s not important, but it’s not just me. It’s hard to ignore your behavior.”

She looks to the side. Her jaw relaxes as quickly as it tightens. “It’s not true. You guys know me.” Her voice is convincing, but not enough for Taeyong. He gets up from the couch.

“We know you, but we don’t know anything about you.”

He wipes his nose with his fingers. His shoulders drop and he’s staring at her with a mother-like worry. Even his voice sounds like that, despite being shaky.

Seyeon hates it.

“If you want to be coworkers, it’s fine, but you’re a part of our team and you need to be open with us.”

Seyeon shakes her head, but her eyes grow stern on Taeyong. “We’re not just coworkers.”

“Then talk to us. Seyeon, I asked you a simple question, and you ditched it.”

“I know.”

“Is everything okay?” Taeyong hides his hands in the pockets of his pants. His voice is laced with sincerity, and his big eyes stare at hers with concern.

“Yeah.”

Her response is light, but the longer Taeyong stares at her, the more confidence her eyes lose. They wander around the dark room. She can only see the shapes of furniture, but at the moment, she prefers that over Taeyong’s pity.

“Seyeon.” Taeyong’s voice cuts through the silence. Half of his body is gone behind the wall. Seyeon’s head turns to him with the same unreadable expression. “If it’s a personal matter, I can’t tell you anything. But, we’ve been a team for more than a year and we will be for a long while. So, as a leader,” his eyes flicker to her feet before he gives a final look at her face, “whatever it is, rip the bandaid off. Please. For our team’s sake.”

He lingers long enough for his words to settle into the dark room, then disappears in the hallway. Seyeon’s head hangs low and her fingers curl inside her pockets. She gulps.

For our team’s sake.

A few nights later, Seyeon returns to the 5th-floor dorm.

The conversation with Taeyong lingered in her mind like a rabbit jumping in and out of its underground tunnels. She had expected a confrontation—the members aren’t stupid and she could only go so long avoiding any not-work-related interaction—but she thought she could ride that wave longer.

That night, Taeyong left her no choice. She can’t risk hindering the group’s dynamics and she can’t keep lying to them. If she chose to live this life, she should man up and go in on it.

The dorm is pitch black until Seyeon’s eyes adjust to the darkness. It’s quiet, too; the floor is barely creaking under Seyeon’s bare feet. The cold from her damp hair makes her exposed legs shiver. She walks to the kitchen first. Her eyebrows raise at the sight of clean counters. She has grown used to the mess on the 10th floor, it’s strange to see the sink not filled with dirty dishes. She opens the fridge. The light casts a shadow on her face, making her eyes squint before she inspects each shelf. A bottle of beer is hidden behind some leftovers, so she takes it, opens it with her teeth, and closes the fridge. It’s probably Taeyong’s.

With the beer in hand, Seyeon walks toward his room. A “Come in!” reaches her ears as soon as she knocks on the door.

Taeyong is seated at his desk across the door. The blue light from the computer screen is illuminating his face and a lamp in the corner of his room is lighting the place. He is staring at her, a little confused. He still has makeup on from the day, but the dark circles under his eyes are now peaking through the layers of concealer.

“Hi.”

Seyeon shuts the door behind her and sits cross-legged on his bed, placing the beer in her legs. She catches the quick side eye Taeyong gives her and looks at him. “What?”

He licks his lips and shakes his head. “Just… don’t spill the beer, please.”

She stares at him for a second before a smirk appears on her lips. “Got it. No wet bed tonight.”

Taeyong chuckles, but then his expression turns unreadable. He watches water drip from her hair onto his sheets and takes a deep breath. She’s making a mess. Taeyong looks back at Seyeon’s face, but she is already staring ahead, eyes unfocused, and sips on the drink he bought yesterday. Taeyong takes another deep breath. The words linger on the tip of his tongue. He looks at her face and opens his mouth to say something and that’s when he stops himself.

Seyeon’s lips are pressed into a thin line. Her gaze isn’t just unfocused, it’s distant. Her back is hunched and her slim fingers play with the bottle. Although she has just showered, she looks the opposite of refreshed.

Taeyong knows why Seyeon is here. He is starting to figure out how she works, so he turns back to his computer but leaves his body angled toward her.

Seyeon takes longer them either of them expected. She shifts restlessly on the bed, lying on her back, side, stomach, back to sitting. Her fingers fidget with her clothes, hair, even her toes, and Taeyong’s sheets, and the silence between them only stretches with her wandering eyes. By the time Seyeon speaks, most of her beer is gone and Taeyong’s eyes are red from rubbing them too many times.

“I never wanted to be an idol.”

Taeyong’s hand pauses over the keyboard. His head twitches toward her and his eyes immediately find her face. He slowly turns his chair toward his bed, facing her.

“Had no singing or dancing skills… never even thought of it,” she says with a half-smile. “Like a week after I came to Korea, though, this one woman basically stalked me,” she chuckles, making quick eye contact with Taeyong. “She was everywhere I was, I have no idea how. And she’d always come up to me and ask ‘Do you want to be famous?’, ‘You have potential’, ‘You should be a celebrity’, shit like that—I was 10 years old, it was fucking weird—she just kept telling me to audition. I’d just ignore her, but one time I thought she’d leave me alone if I go.”

A smile lingers on Seyeon’s flushed face, but it’s paired with a light frown like she’s judging her own words. She glances at Taeyong long enough to catch his reaction without eye contact. He is staring at her with a kind of pureness in his eyes. He stays silent. Seyeon takes a sip of the beer and continues.

“It was a random day in a week. I dunno, maybe Thursday? Doesn’t matter. But the moment I entered the building,” her eyes widen, “everyone was staring. Everyone knew who I was, I could tell. It was so fucking weird. And it was around the time ‘Tell Me’ by Wonder Girls was released, so I learned the choreography and sang it. It was terrible.” She pauses, shaking her head. “It was so bad.”

A soft smile graces Taeyong’s face and his head tilts to the side. “You were always the best trainee. I couldn’t be that bad.”

“Deadass.” She stares at him. “I mean, you know, I did my worst on purpose, but oh my fucking God…” Her palm lands on her lips to cover her open mouth. “I gave them the laziest performance ever. And—you know how they are—they were so silent. The air was so awkward, they were staring at me and I could barely see their faces because of the lights. The atmosphere was so weird, so I thought I tricked them and scared them away. They brought a contract instead.”

Taeyong’s mouth drops open.

“They signed you right away?”

Seyeon nods. “After ten years, that moment is still the fastest I’ve ever seen them work.”

Taeyong lets out an airy laugh. He shifts in his chair, resting his intertwined fingers on his lap and letting his spine melt into the leather. “When they cast me, I said I’ll audition if they buy me food. They agreed.” His smile falters a little. “It was a little weird, but,” his voice gets weaker, “I had no choice.”

All this time, Taeyong thought he and Seyeon were far from similar. But with the way Seyeon stares at him now, silent and free of any judgment with such deep understanding in her eyes, he thinks she knows exactly what he means. He doesn’t have to say anything more, because she knows what it means to be desperate. He feels seen—not as an idol or a leader—as a person with wounds and scars. He thinks he sees the same in her.

Still, it’s too much to handle. Taeyong clears his throat. “If you didn’t want to be an idol, why didn’t you leave?”

Seyeon’s jaw tightens. Her fingers intertwine around the bottle between her legs and her eyes jump to the computer screen behind Taeyong. She gulps and nods toward it. “Open YouTube. I wanna watch something.”

Taeyong stares at her blankly. “Now?”

“Yeah,” she says in a flat tone.

He can press on further and point out how she ignored his question. He can send her away and finally go to sleep. But after four years of knowing each other, this is the first time Seyeon has ever voluntarily spent time with him. For the first time since their debut, Seyeon initiated a conversation that was more than small talk or job-related. It’s not worth the risk, at least not tonight.

Taeyong does what she says. He scrolls for a minute until any video catches his eye. When it does, he looks at her for approval, and she nods. They watch the video in silence. Seyeon lies on his bed, and Taeyong slides down on his chair and puts his feet on the edge of the seat, wrapping his arms around his calves.

That night, Seyeon falls asleep before she can walk back to her dorm. She occupies most of Taeyong’s bed and still has the—now empty—beer bottle in her hand. He watches one or two more videos before he turns the computer off.

Taeyong’s gaze shifts to Seyeon with a sigh. He walks to her, takes the bottle from her grasp, and puts it on his desk. He gently shoves Seyeon’s limp body to the side of the bed and lies down on the empty side.

His cheek presses into the pillow and his body melts into the mattress. It’s a single-sized bed, but there’s just enough space for either of them. Their backs gently press into each other, and as Taeyong listens to Seyeon’s muffled breaths, he lets his eyes close. It’s a little strange to be this close to Seyeon. It’s the first time her guard is not up in front of Taeyong or any of the members, even more so now that she is asleep. It’s new, but oddly comfortable. For the first time, he doesn’t mind having wrinkled sheets.

Before he falls into slumber, Taeyong hopes that none of them will regret tonight.

itsstarseason 2025 ✰

[nctangelz]

can i be a kid forever?

in which sooyoung isn't ready to be an adult.

warnings: growing up, mentions of death, insecurities

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sooyoung loved watching the raindrops trail down her window, it always brought her back to when she was riding the bus with her siblings, pretending the rain drops were racing to the bottom of the window and betting on drops. she always lost. doojung always won, it seemed. he always knew the right answer to everything, always picked the right raindrop, picked the best tasting fruit, and always had the best jokes.

sooyoung remembered dreaming and dreaming of being older, being the same age as her brother, being a teenager and having a bunch of friends, staying up late just to talk to them, running around the neighborhood after school let out, ignoring their studies. she always wished she would have a big group of girlfriends, people she could gossip with, go shopping with, talk about their crushes and plan dates together.

no matter her age, she wished to be older. even once she was a teen. she wanted to be twenty, she wanted to be able to hang out with the older members late at night, drink by the fire and celebrate until the beverages ran out. she wished to be older, so people would finally start taking her seriously.

but now it was the night before she turned twenty, the night before she was an adult, and she dreaded it. she wanted nothing to do with adulthood.

she thought she knew everything, she thought she had her life planned out, planned out by the year when she was going to achieve things. she was going to be sensational by twenty-one, a soloist by twenty-two, a wife by twenty-eight. perfect by twenty. but, it was the night before everything seemed like it would changed. and she felt like she knew nothing at all.

what if she failed? what if she messed up? she couldn't bounce off of "she's just a kid", anymore. would people hate her if she showed a flaw, now that she wasn't "cute" and "innocent", now that she was "of age"?

her parents always told her she would have a plan by the time she was of age. that she would be where she wanted to be. but she felt far from it. she loved her career, she loved her group and she loved her friends - but she still felt like she was so behind. she didn't feel good enough.

she wanted to have a song she wrote on their albums by now - but it never happened. she faced rejection over and over again.

what if she couldn't be perfect? what if she couldn't be sensational? a soloist? would the company even allow her to have such creative freedom?

what if she lost her spark? her glow?

she was growing up. she took the nights she spent with her little sister for granted, when they snuck into eachothers room and played past their bed time, hiding under the covers and using their sparkly flashlights for lights. giggling and pretending to be asleep when their mom came to check on them. her mother never said anything, but she knew. sooyoung was forever greatful for her mother allowing them to create special memories together.

but now, none of her family is under the same roof. sooyoung being in seoul, her sister being in america, her mother and father in daegu, and her brother....

they will never be whole again.

sooyoung looked at the clock. 10:36pm. exactly one hour and twenty four minutes until her life would change. until her expectations would change.

she hated being scared to grow up. especially when it was all she would wish for.

sooyoung turned from staring at the window when she heard her door creak open, giving a forced smile to mark. mark walked over, sitting next to her and handed her a small bag, giving the girl a sheepish grin.

"it's not much, I wanted to pick out something better but...i've been busy. but i couldn't just not get you something for your big birthday." mark muttered out, placing the bag in the girl's lap.

sooyoung frowned, looking down at the bag. it was real. and there was nothing she could to do to stop it from happening.

"what if...i'm not ready to be twenty?" sooyoung asked, looking over to her leader, sighing when she could feel tears start to form in her eyes. "i feel like everything is going to change, i feel like life is going too fast, it just keeps going, but it's leaving me behind." sooyoung whispered out, her voice breaking in the process. she felt so...alone. it seemed everyone had it figured out. everyone was an adult, but her, chenle and jisung. and the rest of the boys couldn't be more excited to turn twenty. gosh - they were on the moon.

mark sighed, running his hands through his hair and looking out the window infront of him, crossing her legs in front of him.

"we can never truly be ready for anything. we don't know what's going to happen, the possiblities are endless." mark said, laughing slightly. "you know, ailens could land in front of us at any given moment." mark said, frowning when sooyoung didn't laugh.

"i was scard to turn twenty too. i was scared that...you know, people would be disapointed in me now that i was an adult. i felt like i would be stuck in the mindset of being young and free, and not live up to what the world wanted me to be. and the truth is, i still feel like i'm not where i should be." mark said, looking over at the girl. "adulthood is scary, but its not the end of the world."

sooyoung nodded, wiping the tears off of her face. "im just scared the only reason i'm loved is because i'm 19. what if they realize i'm not special when i'm no longer a teen?" sooyoung asked, playing with the glittery tissue paper in the bag.

"then they would be foolish, sooyoung. i've known you since you were 13, and everyday, you're better than you were yesterday. i promise, that everyone will still adore you. you're life isn't going to drastically change once you're an adult. you'll still be sooyoung. did you think of me any different once i turned 20?" mark asked, smiling when sooyoung whispered out a no. "no one expects you to have everything figured out now. people are still figuring it out in their fifties. you have your entire life infront of you, you have room for mistakes, and you have room for growth. regarless, you'll still be my friend, my member." mark finished, resting his head on her shoulder.

"thank you, oppa." sooyoung said, smiling softly. "just promise you'll find me when i feel like i'm drowning?" sooyoung asked, looking over at the boy.

"i'll find you before you're even in the deep end."

sooyoung smiled. she was still scared, and she still felt like there was no way she was old enough to be so close to adulthood, but listening to mark...it made her feel better. she thought of all her members, not just dream, but everyone in NCT. had everyone gone through the same thing? pondering if they made it all happen the night before they were twenty, wondering where their life would take them?

she was sure some of them had the same thoughts of her, she was sure multiple of them did. no one said growing up was easy, but its something you have to cope with.

"open you're gift, it'll make you feel better." mark said, sitting up straight and smiling over the girl, his eyes bright with excitment. sooyoung chuckled, slowly removing the tissue paper from the pink paper bag, gasping when she saw what is inside.

sooyoung pulled out a CD case, smiling when she saw a muliple pictures of dream all together complied in the cover, gems decoratiny the plastic. in the middle, it says, "the playlist of our youth", and when sooyoung turned it around, she could feel tears coming down her cheeks once more.

mark wrote out the songs on the CD on the back, and every single song on there, was a song that the group had listened together, whether that be on car rides, when celebrating, when crying, or simply just their favorite songs. every song on there, she had a sentimental memory with.

the first song, young forever by bts. sooyoung had played that song over and over again when it came up. whenever she had the aux, that was the first song she played. the boys pretended to be sick of it, but she always had them singing along to every verse.

then, my first and last. and the songs kept going on and on, all having a special memory with them, but the song sooyoung was most suprised with, it was her song. the song she had spent hours and hours on, showing it to mark when she felt confident enough. mark loved it. monique composed a piece of music for her. dream loved it - but, the company didn't. it was sooyoung's favorite work, but she hasn't listened to it since. she deleted it because she was so upset.

"how did you even download this?" sooyoung asked, looking over at the boy, furrowing her eyebrows.

"monique had it saved, she felt like you were going to rage delete it, and she didn't want your hard work to go to waste." mark said, nervously rubbing his neck. "we also, might have resubmitted it to the company." mark mumbled out.

sooyoung's mouth dropped, looking over the boy. she felt a mix of emotions, shock, confusion, and...for some reason felt disappointed. she should be happy her song is getting a second chance, but she felt like it would only get denied again.

"we have a new director, and I figured they might be willing to give it a listen. maybe give it a chance. they're listening to it tomorrow, but sooyoung, i think you have a chance. he seemed really intrigued when I talked to him about the song, I told him that everyone adored it." mark said, scratching his neck. "monique edited the track a little and smoothed some things out, and she's really hopeful too."

sooyoung sighed, looking down at her hands. she felt hope rising in her chest, but she didn't want let herself get too excited. that song getting rejected crushed her, and she wasn't sure if she could deal with that pain again.

"if it gets denied again, will you take me out for drinks?" sooyoung asked, smiling when mark laughed at her, rolling his eyes jokingly at her suggestion.

"you're not even twenty yet and already thinking about drinking?" mark asked, gently pushing the girl's shoulder. "i'll take you out for drinks to celebrate, sooyoung. but you're not going to get hammered, i really think your mother would kill me if you got wasted on your first night out." mark said, smiling when sooyoung laughed.

the duo sat in silence for awhile, peacefully sitting next to eachother, watching the rain. it was starting to fade out. sooyoung looked at the clock again, 11:59. the girl softly smiled, nudging mark with her shoulder, pointing at the clock.

"one more minute until i'm not longer a kid." sooyoung whispered, closing her eyes and clasping her hands together. "i need to thing of a wish."

she wished that her song would get the love she knew it deserved, and for her to achieve everything she wants in her twenties. she figured she deserved two wishes.

"happy birthday, sooyoung!"

sooyoung screamed when she heard a group of boys scream, jumping up and looking behind her, covering her mouth when she saw the rest of the members at her door, jaemin holding a cake with twenty candles, haechan and jisung throwing balloons in her room, renjun, chenle and jeno carrying gifts in their arms.

sooyoung smiled brightly when the boys all started singing happy birthday to her, cheering when she blew out all of her candles. jaemin immediately placed her cake on her desk, running over to her to engulf in a hug, jumping up and down. "welcome to the twenties club!"

one by one, the boys came up to hug her, ending with chenle, and sooyoung swore she was going to cry with all the sweetness. the boys were so excited, they seemed like they were planning this surprise for months. haechan hurriedly pushed her to sit on her bed, handing her gift after gift to open.

jeno gifted her a gold charm bracelet, each charm representing each era of NCT dream.

renjun gifted her a purple lace leotard, a very nice one. sooyoung never would imagine she would have a luxury leotard, but she was very excited.

haechan gifted her a perfume she had been eyeing at the mall for a long time, and she knew he probably went to the mall the next day after she pointed it out and bought it for her.

jaemin bought her a new stuffed animal (a bunny!!) and a pink sweatshirt with flowers on the back.

chenle bought her a new ring, and jisung bought her a paint set with canvas's (her new hobby!).

by the end of the night, sooyoung's heart was so full. she no longer felt worried about whether or not she would be loved or wanted now that she was an adult, because she knew that regardless, she would have her boys. they would always be there for her - even if she didn't have everything figured out. they would love her, like they always have, and she knew, she could always count on them to bring the light back into her life.

[misunhye]

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