#female member of nct

[mazeofyeni]

❛ FANTUBE.COM ! ─── now playing . . .

ⓘ EVERYONE LOVES BAE YOONCHAE

↺ |◁ II ▷| ♡ | INTRO. welcome to my compilation of yoonchae being loved by the other nct units and other people because who does love her 💜✨

𓈃⠀⠀🎞️ ๋ ㅤCLIP ONE⠀⠀峠

*if you’re not a nct 127 member then you aren’t a real yoonchae lover* – circa 2022

*johnny and jaehyun visiting her on set of her mv*

*they have mask on so she doesn’t notice them* “she’s filming right now look at her” *jaehyun with the mom stance is killing me* “is that dress not too short , i hope she’s comfortable.” *the real parental figure of yoonchae💯* “she doesn’t see us yet” *after she’s done* “oh she’s done we can go see her now.” *yoonchae doesn’t notice them* *notices them but thinks they’re staff* “yah , why are you walking away?” *yoonchae confused* *notices who it is* “oh , oppa!” *look how her eyes light up* *notices johnny* “oh shi- yah , why are you about to curse?” *she looks so happy* “when did you both get here?” “we missed you so we came to see you while you filmed” *they missed her im 😭* *literally showing them everything* “have you eaten?” *mother jaehyun back at it* “later” “call me later and i’ll treat you.” *still salty she could see jaehyun off but at least we got one last jaechae date before he left*

𓈃⠀⠀🎞️ ๋ ㅤCLIP TWO⠀⠀峠

*when yoonchae interviewed jennie* - circa 2024

*yoonchae staff not telling her who’s she’s interviewing* “who is it?” “tell me!” *look how cute she is🥹* *knock on the door* “is it that them?” *hands her a blindfold* “what is this for?” *gets help putting the blindfold on* “oh my god this is so scary JUST TELL ME!” *jennie walks in* “okay you can take it off.” “if it’s like my family or my members im quitting the show.” *takes blindfold off* *doesnt notice jennie* *notices jennie* “oh fuck!” *hides behind a chair* “hi!” *jennie is so cute😭* “why did you guys do this , im wearing sweatpants” *jennie trying to hug her* “no you’re too cute” *yoonchae is about to start sobbing* *yoonchae successful fangirl* “let’s sit down” *trying to stay calm* “I’ve been wanting to meet you” *cut to jennie playing her songs* “oh my god me you know me?” *like yoonchae you’re famous too😭😭* “of course who doesn’t love this show and you?”

*jennie is so real 💯*

𓈃⠀⠀🎞️ ๋ ㅤCLIP THREE⠀⠀峠

* even random children on the street love yoonchae * – circa 2023

*a clip of yoonchaes vlog in la alone* “im sitting in a park alone in the grass and eating strawberries.” *living her cottage girl life* *the toddler notices her* *she smiles* “there’s a very cute baby here and they’re watching me” *the baby walking towards her* “oh they’re coming over here” *waving awkwardly* “hi baby” *gives the child a handshake* *child gives her a full blown hug* “oh my goddess, you’re so cute” “bye baby” *child waves before walking back to her parents* “oh my god a child likes me I’ve been blessed by the angels aboved”

𓈃⠀⠀🎞️ ๋ ㅤCLIP FOUR⠀⠀峠

* idols talking about yoonchae* – mix reactions

*yoonchae performing with nct dream* *aespas karina* *karina leans over to giselle* *mouthing* “why is she so cute?” *giselle noticing the camera* *karina covering her mouth , both of them laughing*

*hyunjin stray kids* *talking about his collab stage with her* “she was so nice to everyone , she bought everyone food after” “i would definitely like to collab with her agains , she’s really talented.” *yoonchae and hyunjins never ending friendship is so cute*

*red velvet seulgi and her love for yoonchae* “yoonchae is watching?” *her little smile oh no😭🩷* “chae chae, chae chae where are you?” “chae chae when can you come over” *yoonchae comments: tomorrow unnie* *seulgi gets excited* “it’s been so long come over and i’ll cook for you” *yoonchaes big sister fr😭* “i love her so much , chae chae i love you”

𓈃⠀⠀🎞️ ๋ ㅤCLIP FIVE⠀⠀峠

*yoonchae being a honorary member of wayv* – circa 2020

*behind the scenes of the nct2020* *where tens love for yoonchae started and he adopted her* “yoonchae my child come” *yoonchae being adopted by a member of every unit in nct* “where is yoonchae?” *yoonderys first on camera interaction!!* “czennies i told you we knew each other , they didn’t believe me , i told them im gonna be a wayv member and they called me delusional.” *throwback to yoonchae telling the public she’s learning chinese from yang yang so she can join wayv* “she’s our honorary member” “yeah we love yoonchae” *yangyang saying this now means something different😭*

*bonus clip* *after yoonchae walks away , yangyang follows behind her* *hendery notices* “yangyang and yoonchae are close” *ten doing damage control* “yeah they’re good friends” *now that we know the real story this did not help🤔*

↺ |◁ II ▷| ♡ | OUTRO. it’s good to know she’s always protected and loved by people … but nobody can compare to love og yoonchae lovers … nct dream ( but that’s for the next video )

「 yoonchaes' masterlist 𖹭 」

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[asystol]

KISS OF LIFE at WATERBOMB SEOUL 2024

✩ ⌒ . HIGHLIGHTS

nakyung’s first time at waterbomb and she had so much fun!!

though her main concern was not falling when the stage got too wet😭

she was super excited to perform the original choreography in front of ppl like idk she LOVES LOVES performing she loves hearing ppl cheer and scream her name

fans posted her reaction to julie taking her shirt off😭 she gasped, fanning herself before reaching for her own shirt

also dw she had like a skin colored bandeau top under her bikini top similar to julie i just didnt feel like finding one and adding it

her part of sticky in the last part with her in the center also went viral

literally give this girl any opportunity and she WILL be shaking her ass

girl she almost got stung by a bee while on stage… she kept backing away and almost fell into the backup dancers but they caught her😭 she does not like bugs…

i want to say the most important thing for after the performance . She had so much fun watching shinee’s minho perform in the crowd like she pushed herself up to the front

and fans that were there posted videos and pics of her singing the lyrics with kiof surrounding her sjdjdndj

eunbi had her come up on stage with her 🥺 hate using that emoji but thats how her fans im just going to name them nakoritas felt

she also stayed to watch natty with jay and then left after natty left the stage and sunmi and yugyeom!!

the next day she went and basically watched the entire thing like she loved the entire lineup for that day fr

she didnt go to the first day but wishes she did so she could see fromis, hwasa, chungh, kang daniel, and chuu :( and CHA EUNWOO?? girl she was pissed

she made a lot of tiktoks during waterbomb and more than half are of her in the bathroom or dressing room sjfndjdj

all in all, a very fun time for nakiof! 10/10 would do again

[gotta-winwin]

RELATIONSHIP WITH IDOLS OUTSIDE OF SVT

MARK LEE (NCT)

THEN: Mark and Cyana first met each other backstage at M Countdown when SVT's Semicolon promotions crossed over with NCT DREAM's Reload promotions. They naturally bonded over both being from Vancouver, exchanging numbers and promising to hang out one day. NOW: They are each other's biggest fans and cheerleaders when it comes to work they put out. Often first in each other's comment sections to show support and always playing each other's songs on livestreams. Mark remains Cyana's longest and closest friend outside of seventeen.

TAEHYUNG (BTS)

THEN: Taehyung and Cyana first met on set for Cyana's solo comeback MV Love Wins All. They acted alongside each other as male and female lead, resulting in a strong friendship. Taehyung often sends Cyana gifts whenever he's abroad, and enjoys boasting about how he befriended Cyana, who is infamously known to have few friends besides seventeen. NOW: Although their friendship is quite recent, Cyana never fails to hype up Taehyung and his solo activities, as well as showing her love for BTS as a whole. Taehyung can be seen supporting her at concerts and they enjoy updating each other once in awhile on their busy lives.

YOUNGJI

THEN: Youngji and Cyana first met on Youngji's interview show Nothing Much Prepared. Although freaked out by it being her first solo activity without seventeen and Youngji's forwardness, Cyana gradually became more comfortable in the environment. They bonded over quirks and shared life experiences as young female idols, trading numbers at the end of the interview and becoming friends. NOW: Youngji is loud and proud about how she became Cyana's first ever female friend in the Kpop industry. They can be seen getting drinks and going on girl days when seventeen is on break. Cyana admitted once in an interview that she had a little bit of a crush on Youngji when they first met initally.

NIKI (ENHYPHEN)

THEN: They first met when Cyana became a special guest mentor on I-LAND, the trainee survival program Niki was on. Having a bit of knowledge on how to speak Japanese due to lessons with Jeonghan, Cyana and Niki quickly bonded as Niki became comfortable speaking in his native language. NOW: Having been supporting Niki throughout the rest of I-LAND and through debut, Cyana has spoken about how she feels like a successful mom and sunbae seeing Niki succeed. They keep in touch despite busy schedules and can be often seen supporting each other through tiktok challenges and showing up to each others concerts.

[itsstarseason]

╭┈──── ◌ೄ◌ྀ ˊˎ

╰┈➤ ❝ FOR OUR TEAM’S SAKE.

in which, Taeyong confronts Seyeon about her guarded behavior and she realizes she can’t ignore the elephant in the room anymore.

✰ STARRING. Seyeon & Taeyong feat. NCT 127

✰ TIMELINE. 2017, before Cherry Bomb era

✰ THEMES. angst, hurt comfort, lore drop

✰ WARNINGS. profanity, mentions of food and alcohol

✰ WORD COUNT. 2.3k

seyeon lore so complex idek where to start

✰ SEYEON'S MASTERLIST

It’s already midnight when Seyeon is hunched over a plate of grapes at a kitchen counter in the 5th-floor dorm. Doyoung bought grapes and refused to share that information with her and the other 10th-floor members, so Seyeon had to take matters into her own hands and eat them before Doyoung could even take a look at them.

Her elbows rest on the counter as she inspects each grape in her fingers before she pops them into her mouth. It’s dark. There’s one dim kitchen light, but it’s more of a shadow, and the city lights sparkle behind the window. The cold wooden floor sucks on her bare feet and it travels to her exposed legs, but Seyeon doesn’t mind. The faint ticking of the clock and water running from the shower in the bathroom fill the emptiness, but there is something else.

Behind her, Taeyong is sitting on the living room couch, drilling holes in the back of Seyeon’s head for a good few minutes.

“Gonna ask or keep staring?” Her voice resonates through the silence.

Taeyong licks his lips before he answers. “What did you do before you joined SM?”

“I lived in the US.”

He nods, although she can’t see it. “I know. New York, right? How was it?”

She lifts her gaze up for a moment, stares at the white ceiling, and angles her body toward him with a shrug. “Alright. Y’ know, it’s New York. It’s okay. I mean, there’s trash and rats everywhere, but hey! The Statue of Liberty is nice, if y-“

“Seyeon.” He looks straight at her and she stares back at his frown. Her hand, which was resting on the kitchen counter, is now holding onto it. “I’m not asking about New York. I’m asking about you. You never talk about yourself.”

She finally fully faces him. Her feet cross on the wooden tiles and hips rest against the counter. She hides her hands in the pockets of her hoodie and chuckles. “What’s there to talk about? Wanna hear about me chasing rats?” She laughs, but there’s a hint of mockery in her voice.

Taeyong’s stare is sealed on her face. His expression is stone-like.

“Some members feel like they don’t know you.”

Seyeon doesn’t say anything. She doesn’t move and doesn’t look away. She is as stoic as Taeyong.

“Who did you talk to?”

“That’s not important, but it’s not just me. It’s hard to ignore your behavior.”

She looks to the side. Her jaw relaxes as quickly as it tightens. “It’s not true. You guys know me.” Her voice is convincing, but not enough for Taeyong. He gets up from the couch.

“We know you, but we don’t know anything about you.”

He wipes his nose with his fingers. His shoulders drop and he’s staring at her with a mother-like worry. Even his voice sounds like that, despite being shaky.

Seyeon hates it.

“If you want to be coworkers, it’s fine, but you’re a part of our team and you need to be open with us.”

Seyeon shakes her head, but her eyes grow stern on Taeyong. “We’re not just coworkers.”

“Then talk to us. Seyeon, I asked you a simple question, and you ditched it.”

“I know.”

“Is everything okay?” Taeyong hides his hands in the pockets of his pants. His voice is laced with sincerity, and his big eyes stare at hers with concern.

“Yeah.”

Her response is light, but the longer Taeyong stares at her, the more confidence her eyes lose. They wander around the dark room. She can only see the shapes of furniture, but at the moment, she prefers that over Taeyong’s pity.

“Seyeon.” Taeyong’s voice cuts through the silence. Half of his body is gone behind the wall. Seyeon’s head turns to him with the same unreadable expression. “If it’s a personal matter, I can’t tell you anything. But, we’ve been a team for more than a year and we will be for a long while. So, as a leader,” his eyes flicker to her feet before he gives a final look at her face, “whatever it is, rip the bandaid off. Please. For our team’s sake.”

He lingers long enough for his words to settle into the dark room, then disappears in the hallway. Seyeon’s head hangs low and her fingers curl inside her pockets. She gulps.

For our team’s sake.

A few nights later, Seyeon returns to the 5th-floor dorm.

The conversation with Taeyong lingered in her mind like a rabbit jumping in and out of its underground tunnels. She had expected a confrontation—the members aren’t stupid and she could only go so long avoiding any not-work-related interaction—but she thought she could ride that wave longer.

That night, Taeyong left her no choice. She can’t risk hindering the group’s dynamics and she can’t keep lying to them. If she chose to live this life, she should man up and go in on it.

The dorm is pitch black until Seyeon’s eyes adjust to the darkness. It’s quiet, too; the floor is barely creaking under Seyeon’s bare feet. The cold from her damp hair makes her exposed legs shiver. She walks to the kitchen first. Her eyebrows raise at the sight of clean counters. She has grown used to the mess on the 10th floor, it’s strange to see the sink not filled with dirty dishes. She opens the fridge. The light casts a shadow on her face, making her eyes squint before she inspects each shelf. A bottle of beer is hidden behind some leftovers, so she takes it, opens it with her teeth, and closes the fridge. It’s probably Taeyong’s.

With the beer in hand, Seyeon walks toward his room. A “Come in!” reaches her ears as soon as she knocks on the door.

Taeyong is seated at his desk across the door. The blue light from the computer screen is illuminating his face and a lamp in the corner of his room is lighting the place. He is staring at her, a little confused. He still has makeup on from the day, but the dark circles under his eyes are now peaking through the layers of concealer.

“Hi.”

Seyeon shuts the door behind her and sits cross-legged on his bed, placing the beer in her legs. She catches the quick side eye Taeyong gives her and looks at him. “What?”

He licks his lips and shakes his head. “Just… don’t spill the beer, please.”

She stares at him for a second before a smirk appears on her lips. “Got it. No wet bed tonight.”

Taeyong chuckles, but then his expression turns unreadable. He watches water drip from her hair onto his sheets and takes a deep breath. She’s making a mess. Taeyong looks back at Seyeon’s face, but she is already staring ahead, eyes unfocused, and sips on the drink he bought yesterday. Taeyong takes another deep breath. The words linger on the tip of his tongue. He looks at her face and opens his mouth to say something and that’s when he stops himself.

Seyeon’s lips are pressed into a thin line. Her gaze isn’t just unfocused, it’s distant. Her back is hunched and her slim fingers play with the bottle. Although she has just showered, she looks the opposite of refreshed.

Taeyong knows why Seyeon is here. He is starting to figure out how she works, so he turns back to his computer but leaves his body angled toward her.

Seyeon takes longer them either of them expected. She shifts restlessly on the bed, lying on her back, side, stomach, back to sitting. Her fingers fidget with her clothes, hair, even her toes, and Taeyong’s sheets, and the silence between them only stretches with her wandering eyes. By the time Seyeon speaks, most of her beer is gone and Taeyong’s eyes are red from rubbing them too many times.

“I never wanted to be an idol.”

Taeyong’s hand pauses over the keyboard. His head twitches toward her and his eyes immediately find her face. He slowly turns his chair toward his bed, facing her.

“Had no singing or dancing skills… never even thought of it,” she says with a half-smile. “Like a week after I came to Korea, though, this one woman basically stalked me,” she chuckles, making quick eye contact with Taeyong. “She was everywhere I was, I have no idea how. And she��d always come up to me and ask ‘Do you want to be famous?’, ‘You have potential’, ‘You should be a celebrity’, shit like that—I was 10 years old, it was fucking weird—she just kept telling me to audition. I’d just ignore her, but one time I thought she’d leave me alone if I go.”

A smile lingers on Seyeon’s flushed face, but it’s paired with a light frown like she’s judging her own words. She glances at Taeyong long enough to catch his reaction without eye contact. He is staring at her with a kind of pureness in his eyes. He stays silent. Seyeon takes a sip of the beer and continues.

“It was a random day in a week. I dunno, maybe Thursday? Doesn’t matter. But the moment I entered the building,” her eyes widen, “everyone was staring. Everyone knew who I was, I could tell. It was so fucking weird. And it was around the time ‘Tell Me’ by Wonder Girls was released, so I learned the choreography and sang it. It was terrible.” She pauses, shaking her head. “It was so bad.”

A soft smile graces Taeyong’s face and his head tilts to the side. “You were always the best trainee. I couldn’t be that bad.”

“Deadass.” She stares at him. “I mean, you know, I did my worst on purpose, but oh my fucking God…” Her palm lands on her lips to cover her open mouth. “I gave them the laziest performance ever. And—you know how they are—they were so silent. The air was so awkward, they were staring at me and I could barely see their faces because of the lights. The atmosphere was so weird, so I thought I tricked them and scared them away. They brought a contract instead.”

Taeyong’s mouth drops open.

“They signed you right away?”

Seyeon nods. “After ten years, that moment is still the fastest I’ve ever seen them work.”

Taeyong lets out an airy laugh. He shifts in his chair, resting his intertwined fingers on his lap and letting his spine melt into the leather. “When they cast me, I said I’ll audition if they buy me food. They agreed.” His smile falters a little. “It was a little weird, but,” his voice gets weaker, “I had no choice.”

All this time, Taeyong thought he and Seyeon were far from similar. But with the way Seyeon stares at him now, silent and free of any judgment with such deep understanding in her eyes, he thinks she knows exactly what he means. He doesn’t have to say anything more, because she knows what it means to be desperate. He feels seen—not as an idol or a leader—as a person with wounds and scars. He thinks he sees the same in her.

Still, it’s too much to handle. Taeyong clears his throat. “If you didn’t want to be an idol, why didn’t you leave?”

Seyeon’s jaw tightens. Her fingers intertwine around the bottle between her legs and her eyes jump to the computer screen behind Taeyong. She gulps and nods toward it. “Open YouTube. I wanna watch something.”

Taeyong stares at her blankly. “Now?”

“Yeah,” she says in a flat tone.

He can press on further and point out how she ignored his question. He can send her away and finally go to sleep. But after four years of knowing each other, this is the first time Seyeon has ever voluntarily spent time with him. For the first time since their debut, Seyeon initiated a conversation that was more than small talk or job-related. It’s not worth the risk, at least not tonight.

Taeyong does what she says. He scrolls for a minute until any video catches his eye. When it does, he looks at her for approval, and she nods. They watch the video in silence. Seyeon lies on his bed, and Taeyong slides down on his chair and puts his feet on the edge of the seat, wrapping his arms around his calves.

That night, Seyeon falls asleep before she can walk back to her dorm. She occupies most of Taeyong’s bed and still has the—now empty—beer bottle in her hand. He watches one or two more videos before he turns the computer off.

Taeyong’s gaze shifts to Seyeon with a sigh. He walks to her, takes the bottle from her grasp, and puts it on his desk. He gently shoves Seyeon’s limp body to the side of the bed and lies down on the empty side.

His cheek presses into the pillow and his body melts into the mattress. It’s a single-sized bed, but there’s just enough space for either of them. Their backs gently press into each other, and as Taeyong listens to Seyeon’s muffled breaths, he lets his eyes close. It’s a little strange to be this close to Seyeon. It’s the first time her guard is not up in front of Taeyong or any of the members, even more so now that she is asleep. It’s new, but oddly comfortable. For the first time, he doesn’t mind having wrinkled sheets.

Before he falls into slumber, Taeyong hopes that none of them will regret tonight.

itsstarseason 2025 ✰

[misunhye]

DREAM( )SCAPE

HIGHLIGHTS

when she first heard the demo, she didn’t think it’d be her favorite song ever 😭 but she ended up really liking it!

misun wrote a little bit of box and unknown !!

and so her ranking goes unknown > breathing > box > smoothie > icantfeelanything > carat cake 🤭

her hair was blonde this era!! she had a moment where she had pink hair ?? but then it was back to blonde so like??

she did multiple tiktoks with other idols !! txt’s taehyun, kiss of life’s julie, illit’s yunah and minju. even idols that weren’t promoting like aespa’s karina

she was on the k-star next door with jaemin, jeno, chenle and jisung 🎉 she loves jonathan it was so fun

she met zb1’s hanbin who she knew already bc she was the one who got chenle to watch LOL she was also a sung hanbin stan ^_^

misun was on eunchae’s star diary LOL it was fun misun had to do most of the talking and she insisted eunchae called her unnie. and like of course eunchae had to say misun and chaewon looked like twins…

eunchae: misun unnie, you and my chaewon unnie look alike

misun: … i have no clue what youre talking about *literally clueless*

eunchae: ??? … okay anyways

okay and when they had their fansign (240407 withmuu fansign), misun had like ?? sports gear on. don’t ask me what sport but you can see it below !! ↓

misun did dream vs dream with jisung!! FINALLY. jeno and her will be next, trust. (insert link here when i post it…)

she also went on inssadong sulzzi with lee chaeyeon!! she had sm fun and she loves interacting with other idols

she wanted to go on jaefriends but figured sm would’ve told her no

she also kinda hinted to a nct xs comeback?? she posted multiple pics of the girls in the practice room and studio on her instagram story but no comeback news yet

she’s super excited for tds3!!! she enjoyed spoiling the setlist with chenle

smoothie era was rather eventful for her? she tried her best not to go on social media and mostly just interacted with fans through weverse. it was her safe space

as soon as smoothie promos were over, though, she went silent lol per usual

surprisingly no headline worthy dating rumors this era!!

icantfeelanything teasers

SMOOTHIE OUTFITS

PHOTOCARDS

LEFT TO RIGHT: icantfeelanything, smoothie

POPULAR FANSITE SHOTS

LINES

icantfeelanything

Erased from my mind [ 0:50 — 0:52 ]

두려움을 딛어

자신을 믿어 [ 0:59 — 1:02 ]

Erased from my mind [ 1:40 — 1:41 ]

Smoothie

가차 없이 비틀어 논 다음

삼켜 sip, watch how I blend it up [ 0:15 — 0:19 ]

Smoothie, smoothie, smoothie

Smoothie, smoothie, smoothie

가볍게 씹어 삼켜

Smoothie, smoothie

Smoothie, smoothie [ 0:53 — 1:01 ]

Shower that in all this ice

결국엔 녹아 fade out [ 1:15 — 1:20 ]

거칠게 mess up, yeah [ 1:50 — 1:53 ]

달콤함만 기대한 적 없어 난 [ 2:26 — 2:30 ]

(가볍게 씹어 삼켜 smoothie) [ 2:53 — 2:56 ]

BOX

Nobody lockin' me up [ 0:37 — 0:39 ]

더 자유롭게

멈추지 않을래, ooh [ 2:06 — 2:12 ]

Carat Cake

넌 못 감춰 saying "Wow!"

외쳐 asking how [ 0:22 — 0:25 ]

That's a carat cake [ 1:01 — 1:02 ]

Oh, 손에 잡힌 그 순간 [ 1:35 — 1:36 ]

투명한 그 빛 hit the heart likе clink [ 1:58 — 2:00 ]

UNKNOWN

Why'd you ever doubt it?

No never be scared of trying [ 0:27 — 0:30 ]

Dive in, dive in, into the unknown [ 1:01 — 1:04 ]

다시 널 찾아가 into the unknown [ 1:10 — 1:12 ]

Don't change, let go

Be brave, be strong

But take it easy, no rush

I know you got it [ 1:58 — 2:05 ]

But take it easy, no rush

I know you got it [ 2:48 — 2:51 ]

(I know you try) [ 3:20 — 3:23 ]

Breathing

아주 당연했던 감각, oh

잊어버린 것만 같아, oh [ 0:36 — 0:41 ]

I've been searching for another meaning

나아갈 수 있을까 [ 0:55 — 1:01 ]

I know I'm no good without you

Baby, can you stay all night? [ 2:50 — 2:53 ]

따스해

마주 잡은 손 느낄 때

And my heart starts beating [ 3:55 — 4:04 ]

[purpleyellow]

house hunting

nct dream 8th member - bee

masterlist

“the dorm days are over”

a/n: Feel free to share your thoughts with me💛 Requests are open for Bee and Hayun!

Living in the dorms was such a constant part of Bee’s life. It didn’t matter if they had back-to-back comebacks, solo activities, or even if the unit was on break, they always had a home to return to. Especially as someone who needed her own space, Bee had the room she had turned into her own little safe space over time, and she was not ready to say goodbye.

When the boys suddenly began discussing moving out into their own homes, she wasn’t the most thrilled about it, simply because she couldn’t imagine herself going through the decision-making process of visiting and picking an apartment for herself, and on top of that, having to go through all the moving work and trying to make another place feel like her own.

“I just think we live in a good apartment, and there isn’t much reason to try and change that” She calmly discussed one morning, while Jaemin cooked breakfast for the both of them.

“Well, technically this apartment isn’t ours, and if the owner wants to kick us out anytime, he’s fully capable of doing so. It’s the most reasonable thing to do. Individually, each of us can already afford to buy a condo, which in the future can become an investment, not to say it would be much more comfortable to live in a place you picked yourself. Not everyone who is our age can do that, I think it would be a waste of an opportunity to not go for it”

“I don’t think I would be comfortable living by myself. In fact, I would probably be a hazard to my own life” Holding onto the one thing he said that she disagreed with, Bee tried to make a point, though she knew Jaemin was probably right about the whole thing.

“Well, you don’t have to be by yourself. I don’t think all of us will move out to be alone, Renjun was thinking about sharing a place if anyone was up for it, you could go with him” The boy shrugged, unfazed by her arguing.

“So you’re telling me your plan is to just leave me out here alone and move out without bringing me along. You know I’m going to starve, don’t you?” Crossing her arms, Bee tilted her head as she noticed the small grin on his face.

“Maybe it’s time for you to do an online cooking course or something. The future I imagine only involves me, a bunch of cats, and a big ass couch”

Sighing, Bee rolled her eyes and dropped the subject with him, but she couldn’t stop thinking about it as the day went on. When she dropped by the studio during one of her breaks, the girl couldn’t help but complain to the 127 members around.

“It’s all your fault for dropping the dorm life and going into your own houses, now the boys think we need to do the same just because we have money” Jungwoo and Doyoung frowned, turning their attention to her, while Mark only laughed and squeezed her sides.

“Well, I didn’t go to my place just because I could afford it, you know. It was more of an investment rather than just blowing money for the sake of it” Doyoung chuckled at her rolling her eyes while he explained himself.

“Even if it’s just to flex, it’s a lot more comfortable living by your rules, it even makes our group moments more enjoyable since we’re not together all the time” Jungwoo shrugged and got up as the producer signalized for him to go into the booth

“And let’s be honest, the company doesn’t spend as much as we can on giving us a nice rental. You should come to check out the gym area in the condo I’m living in. Also, sharing a place with fewer people is a lot nicer than five dudes at once, sorry guys”

“Don’t be, our dorm was a mess, I don’t miss it either” Doyoung and Mark laughed reminiscing, while Bee readjusted herself on the couch the three were seated on. Hugging one leg, she groaned and rested her head on top of her knee.

“I don’t want to go out house hunting, having to face all my finances and the options, and deal with all that moving adult stuff”

“Just move in with me then” Mark casually stated, making a chill travel up Bee’s spine as she froze up. Chocking on air, Doyoung quickly got up and headed for the door, mumbling “I think someone’s calling me outside”

“What?” The boy giggled, confused at everyone’s sudden change of mood.

“I can’t just move in with you” Bee whispered, and thankfully to her, the producer ignored their conversation and kept going with Jungwoo’s recording.

“Why not? It would be so convenient, you wouldn’t have to choose a place, everything’s pretty much already figured out with electronics and utensils and all that adult crap, plus you’re used to being there already”

Rendered speechless, Bee thought for a minute before gasping “What about the fans?”

“What about them?” Mark smiled affectionately before turning serious and counting on his fingers, “Well, first, they don’t need to know we’ll be living together. Second, what’s so different between you sharing dorms with the boys, to sharing an apartment with me”

“You know very well the difference” The girl spoke the obvious, making him shrug.

“So, if that classified information happened to leak, we can just say we each have our separate rooms” Deciding to let go of his tensed-up girlfriend, Mark gave her a side hug and a kiss on the side of the head “Just think about it, okay? There’s no pressure to say yes, though I think it would be a nice option for you, and I would be happy if you agreed to. But also, I’m the happiest when you are, so take your time deciding”

Despite Mark giving her as much time as she needed, everyone else seemed to be moving at a lot faster pace. In just a few days, Bee was touring apartments with Renjun and Jisung, both of whom were open to being roommates for the time being.

“This one is actually really nice” Renjun commented while going through the kitchen. The real estate agent that came with them was just by the door getting a phone call, or at least pretending to, while letting the three idols talk about their last stop for the day.

“I think so too, the bedrooms and the living room are all pretty large” Jisung nodded, looking into the hallway “The only downside to it, it’s that there are only three rooms, but I’m willing to put that aside for the quality of the apartment”

“We wouldn’t be able to have guests, though. The boys would be fine since we’re used to sharing rooms and stuff. Although I don’t know about Renjun, if my parents came over from overseas I’d like to welcome them into my house”

“That’s what I was thinking too” Renjun sighed, leaning against the kitchen sink, “Having somewhere my family could stay and visit freely would be ideal”

“Still, this place is amazing” Bee looked around again, and the boys agreed with dreamy “Yes” “It really is”

“I think we should reflect, and just consider if we should go for it,” Renjun thought out loud just as the real estate agent stepped back into the conversation.

“About that, if you would like to keep this place, I suggest you decide as soon as possible. I know it’s not ideal, but there are more people interested, and the most I can guarantee you it’s until tomorrow night”

Feeling like their little bubbles had just cracked, the three thanked him and assured him they would keep in touch until the deadline.

Going down the elevator, Bee thought through about how everything could be slowly turning into place without her noticing it, and it seemed to her that there was one way of satisfying everyone’s wishes, which made it look easier to take the next step in her relationship with Mark.

“I kind of wish we hadn’t visited this one because it would make that one with four bedrooms from earlier a lot nicer looking” Jisung sighed as they crowded inside a taxi.

“Well, if we decide to not keep this one, we’ll have more time to look for another apartment that we like better” Renjun looked out of the window contemplating their options.

“Would you guys still go for this last one if I decided to step out?” Bee questioned from the middle, looking from side to side to watch their reactions.

Jisung frowned at her confused, while Renjun scoffed, “Yunhee, weren’t you the one begging us not to be left alone? Don’t panic yet, we can find a place that’ll fit all of us”

“I know we can, I’m just considering my options as you said. So like, if I were to take on another offer, it would solve the missing bedroom problem. Would you guys still want to keep this last apartment?”

“Is this a trick question?” Jisung asked exasperated.

“I’m being serious Jisungie, I was already considering this other thing before today, and know that there’s a place that would be great for you two, I’m almost certain you should take it without me”

“What the hell other offer is that? Can you just be open to us” Renjun groaned annoyed, and the girl shrugged, trying to sound casual to check for their reactions. “Mark asked if I wanted to move in with him”

Gasping, Jisung stared at her with judging eyes, “And you spent an entire day house-hunting with us after your boyfriend invited you to share an apartment with him?”

“He told me I could think about it” Bee mumbled at his outburst, though she was more worried about Renjun’s silence than the youngest’s annoyance. “Oppa, so what are you thinking?”

“That solves everything, doesn’t it?” Renjun smiled optimistically. “I’m kind of not ready to live with one less person, but still, everything would work out”

“It would. When we get home, I’ll confirm with Mark that everything is okay with him, and you guys can call the agent tomorrow morning”

“No need to worry, I’m calling him right now” Jisung beamed from her side just as his phone picked up the call “Mark Hyung, great news for me, not so great for you. Bee agrees to move in with you”

Just as the girl gets ready to punch Jisung’s arm, she listens to Mark’s excited “Really? Holy shit” and that makes her certain she made the right call.

[nctangelz]

EXCUSES ARE TIRING

where sooyoung is finally tired of making excuses for wooyoung.

warnings :: arguing, mentions of cheating

tags :: @yjjnfied

Sooyoung smiled, looking in the mirror she bought for the living room. She was finally about to see her boyfriend, Wooyoung, after being apart for a whole two weeks due to schedule conflicts. Even though the pair were just spending time at Ateez’s dorms, Sooyoung decided to dress up for her boyfriend. Her hair was braided messily and was tied together with a big white bow, because Wooyoung always loved when she had bows in her hair. He said it made her look cute.

“You look pretty, Sooyoungie!” Jaemin exclaimed, walking out from his room. “Where are you and Wooyoung going tonight?” Jaemin asked, pausing his snack mission to talk to his member.

“Oh, we aren’t going anywhere. I think we are just going to play some games with the boys.” Sooyoung said, turning and smiling at Jaemin, trying to ignore the disappointment on Jaemin’s face.

“He hasn’t came to see you in two weeks and all you are doing is staying in the dorms? Since when have you ever enjoyed playing video games?” Jaemin asked, furrowing his eyebrows. Sooyoung only sighed and shook her head, grabbing her phone and her purse from the coffee table.

“He’s been busy, Jaem, that’s why he hasn’t came and seen me. And, I like playing some games…I like playing Mario Cart! And Cooking Mama!” Sooyoung said, trying to convince herself she would have a good time. It was very unlikely that the other members would want to play those games, and Sooyoung knew that there wasn’t going to be enough controllers anyway. But atleast she got to see Wooyoung.

“Yeah…What time is he bringing you back?” Jaemin asked, sitting down on the couch while Sooyoung texted Wooyoung, letting him know she would be leaving soon.

“I’ll be driving. And I don’t know when I’ll be home. Why? Is there something happening later?” Sooyoung asked, groaning when Jaemin just looked annoyed again. “Why are you suddenly so annoyed with Wooyoung? You seemed to like him the last month when he would come over? What’s the matter with you?”

“What’s the matter with me? More like what’s the matter with him? He hasn’t bothered to visit you at all, and now the day you finally hang out he’s making you drive and not even offering to do something you enjoy?” Jaemin said, frowning when Sooyoung only rolled her eyes. Jaemin stood up and walked towards the girl, slightly leaning over so he could whisper in her ear, “Be mad at me all you want…but you know i’m right. Text me if you need me to come get you.” And with that, Jaemin walked away and went into the kitchen.

Sooyoung was slightly annoyed that Jaemin was subtly insulting her boyfriend and shaming him, but she felt uncomfortable with the fact that she had to agree with him. She was disappointed that Wooyoung wasn’t going to atleast cook her dinner or offer to spend one on one time - but she knew he had a stressful couple of weeks, so she swallowed her grievances and walked out the door.

When Sooyoung finally arrived infront of Ateez's apartment door, she was pleasantly suprised when San was the one who answered the door.

“Sooyoungie! I missed you!” San said, opening the door wider to let the girl in. “How are you?” San asked as she leaned in to give the girl a hug, squeezing her before letting go.

“I’m doing okay! I’ve been doing a lot of stuff with comeback preparations so i’ve been busy. How does it feel to finally get some rest?” Sooyoung chuckled, smiling when San sighed and relaxed his shoulders.

“It’s amazing not having to get up before the sun rises, I can tell you that much.”

Before Sooyoung was able to ask where Wooyoung was, she felt a pair of strong arms wrap around her from behind and swing her around, comfortably leaning her head back when she recognized it to be no other than her boyfriend.

“Hello, baby.” Wooyoung whispered, kissing Sooyoung on her cheek before setting her down. “I missed you.”

Wooyoung kept leaving kissed down the girl’s neck until Sooyoung giggled and turned around, playfully slapping the boy on the chest. “That tickles!” Sooyoung whispered, shaking her head before leaning against Wooyoung’s chest, closing her eyes and listening to his heartbeat. “I missed you so much.”

“I know, Soo. But now we can hang out! I bought you some of your favorite snacks.” Wooyoung said, dragging her into the kitchen to show her the bag of treats he prepared for her, laughing when she immediately went and grabbed her favorite candy.

“I haven’t had this in so long! How did you even remember me liking this?” Sooyoung asked, rolling her eyes when Wooyoung only shrugged. “You’re a goof.”

Before Sooyoung could lean in to give her boyfriend a kiss, Mingi came into the common area and yelled for everyone to come to the living room. Wooyoung only raised his eyebrows and gave an apologetic look towards Sooyoung before dragging her to his members.

Sooyoung listened as the boys argued over what game they should play first - none of them she had ever heard of before. While the boys argued, she went and plopped herself on the couch, quietly eating her candy while getting her phone out.

[ jaem 🐰] how’s cooking mama going?

Sooyoung rolled her eyes, starting to get agitated by Jaemin’s attitude. Sure, she probably wasn’t going to have the best time, but does he really have to rub it in her face?

[ soosoo 🧸 ] stop being a prick. i’m having a good time.

Sooyoung threw her phone on her lap, trying to get Jaemin’s bitterness out of her head. She squirmed as she thought of the small argument the friends had - she hated that Jaemin was right. As the minutes go by without Wooyoung by her side, the more disappointed Sooyoung gets.

[ jaem 🐰 ] you never use periods…why so sad meowscles? chenle and i are going to get icecream…you can tag along

Sooyoung frowned, of course Jaemin and Chenle would get icecream in hopes that she would want to come home. She knew his trick of using icecream as bribe…but she wasn’t going to let it fool her. She hadn’t seen Wooyoung in forever, so even if it’s not the quality time Sooyoung was hoping for…she’ll take it.

[ soosoo 🧸 ] haha, your tricks are old. thanks anyway

Sooyoung shut her phone and leaned back, smiling when she saw Wooyoung make his way over to her.

“Sorry it took so long, everyone can never agree to what game we play first.” He whispered, sitting down next to her and placing his hand on her thigh, softly rubbing circles with his thumb. “Thanks for coming over, I know games aren’t your favorite thing in the world.”

“It’s fine…I would rather be with you and be bored than not see you.” Sooyoung said, planting a kiss on Wooyoung’s cheek. “Did you all make a decision?”

“Yeah…everyone is just getting snacks. If you really don’t want to do this we can go do something else…we can go to your dorm.” He said, frowning when Sooyoung faked a smile.

“You never miss game night, I’m not going to force to miss out on it. Besides, my rooms a mess.” Sooyoung said, lying about her room. Her room was never a mess, she just didn’t want to bring Wooyoung over and face the wrath of Jaemin.

Wooyoung kissed Sooyoung on the lips and whispered a “Thank you”, getting up to grab all of the controllers. “If you wanna join in, let me know. I’m sure Hongjoong-hyung would be more than willing to give you his controller.” Wooyoung chuckled, teasing his leader.

“Hongjoong oppa would be a lot better at these games than me, I don’t think anyone would want to be on their team.” Sooyoung chuckled, shrugging when Wooyoung sighed.

“I would love to have you on my team,” Yunho said, patting Sooyoung’s head gently. “Just don’t throw the controller out of rage.” Yunho teased, laughing when Sooyoung grumbled.

“That was one time! And I didn’t even throw it at anything, I just dropped it!” Sooyoung defended herself from the boy - painfully remembering the day San and Yunho forced her to play a game with them…and of course Sooyoung kept dying and losing. Anyone who was in her position would have also rage quit.

One by one, the members piled in the living room and cramped in. Yeosang apologized when he sat in front of her, limiting her leg room. Before she knew it, the games had started and Wooyoung was sitting next to her, yelling and focused in on his game, leaving Sooyoung to her own devices.

She scrolled through her phone for awhile, rolling her eyes when she saw the selca Chenle sent in the dreamies group chat…both Chenle and Jaemin really had went out and gotten icecream. Sooyoung wished she would have swallowed her pride and went with them. Hours had passed, and soon enough, Sooyoung was passed out on the couch. She slept for hours, somehow tuning out all of the yelling and sound effects from the games.

It wasn’t until three am when Sooyoung woke up to the sound of her vibrating phone, cursing when she saw it was Jaemin. She popped up out of her seat, almost tripping over Yeosang in the process.

Walking to the kitchen, Sooyoung answered the phone, clearing her throat before her spoke.

“Hello, Jaemin?” Sooyoung asked, wincing when she turned the kitchen light on. “What are you doing awake?”

“I’ve been awake calling you for the last hour, are you still at Wooyoung’s?” Jaemin asked, suprisingly not sounding upset. Sooyoung widen her eyes when she checked her call log and saw a bunch of missed calls from Jaemin. Why didnt Wooyoung wake her up? “I kept getting voicemail, so Wooyoung probably kept hanging up.”

“I’m sorry, Jaeminie, I was asleep. The boys are still gaming..or atleast some.” Sooyoung said, shrugging when she only counted six members. “I don’t know why Wooyoung kept declining it…that’s annoying.”

“Yeah, it is. Do you need me to come get you?” Jaemin asked, getting up when Sooyoung hesitated. “I’m coming to get you, I don’t want to drive when you’re tired. We can go get your car tomorrow.” Jaemin said, hanging up when Sooyoung agreed. She didn’t really want to leave, but she also didn’t want to spend the night crunched up on the couch.

Sooyoung walked back into the living room and gently tapped Sunwoo on the head, waiting until the round of the game finished to start speaking.

“Why didn’t you wake me up when Jaemin was calling me?” Sooyoung asked, rolling her eyes when Wooyoung didn’t turn to look at her. “Don’t you dare start another game, I’m talking to you.” Sooyoung was suprised at her harshness, but she had been ignored for the post six hours…she had the right to be upset.

“I didn’t think it was important, why was Jaemin calling you in the first place?” Wooyoung groaned, unwillingly placing his controller down to look at her.

“He called me because he knew you weren’t going to drive me home, and I don’t like driving when i’m tired. He’s coming to get me, by the way.” Sooyoung snapped, walking over and grabbing her purse, leaving the snacks Wooyoung had bought her on the couch. She could feel herself getting more annoyed by the minute, especially when she saw Wooyoung itching to wrap his hands around the controller again.

“Why are you so pissed? You willingly came over, Sooyoung.” Wooyoung said, and Sooyoung couldn’t ignore the sting when he called her by her full name. He almost never did that, always calling her a nickname or something sweet.

“I wanted to spend time with you! I thought I wouldn’t care to sit here and watch you ignore me…but it’s getting old. You don’t bother to see me for two weeks and then expect me to be fine with sitting here for hours? Doing nothing?” Sooyoung could hear Jaemin in her head, whispering “You know I’m right”, over and over again. She didn’t want to believe him, to admit that he was right. She wanted to believe her boyfriend was better than that.

“I was busy!” Woyoung argued, standing up and following her as she walked to the door. “What did you want me to do, just tell my managers I can’t go to practice and hope they understand?” Wooyoung asked, crossing his arms when Sooyoung threw her arms up and looked at him.

“I’m busy too, Wooyoung! What do you mean “What did you want me to do”? I’ve been making this work ever since we got together. You don’t think I’m busy? I came and saw you after hours of practice, I came to see you during my fifteen minute breaks! I called you every night before bed, and you never, ever returned the favor. Why am I the only one who is actively trying to not to loose what we have?” Sooyoung asked, trying to contain her tears. “Some nights I wondered if you even cared about me. I wondered if you found someone better and were too afraid to tell me.” Sooyoung choked out.

Sunwoo stood there, shocked at the girl’s words. He never would have thought to hurt her like that.

“Baby, I would never leave you. And I would never hurt you like that," Wooyoung whispered, cursing when Sooyoung’s tears escaped her eyes. “Fuck, Sooyoung, I had no idea.” Wooyoung said, backing away and pulling on his hair.

Sooyoung leaned up against the door and let her tears fall, giving up on caring if Wooyoung’s members are watching.

“I think we need a break.” Sooyoung blurted out. Quickly wiping her tears and looking up at Wooyoung, holding her breath when he saw the look on his face.

“A break? For how long?” Wooyoung asked, hope draining out of his face when Sooyoung shrugged.

“I think you need some time alone. You had a stressful time…you need to get yourself together before you put all your energy into something else.” Sooyoung said, clearing her throat when she saw that Jaemin had texted her. “I have to go now.”

And that was it. She turned around, opened the door, and left. Wooyoung didn’t run after her, he didn’t hug her before she left, he didn’t do anything. He just stood at the door, watching the best girl he ever had walk out of his life.

Sooyoung didn’t know she was holding her breath until she got into Jaemin’s car, finally letting everything go when she saw the concerned look on Jaemin’s face. She gasped and cried and screamed all at the same time, hugging her knees to her chest until she could hear Jaemin’s voice again, telling her to breathe, telling her to look at him.

“Sooyoungie, I need to look at me. I want you to pretend my finger is a birthday candle. Blow it out for me, will you? Blow it until the flames are gone.” Jaemin said, holding his finger infront of Sooyoung. Even though she wanted to cry and scream more, she listened, blowing at Jaemin’s finger. She cried in between, but eventually, everything subsided, and she was gently blowing on Jaemin’s finger. “It’s all gone, isn’t it, Sooyoungie?”

Sooyoung only nodded, leaning back in her seat, numbly looking up at the sky through the window. “I told him we needed a break.”

Jaemin didn’t say anything to that, he only frowned and looked ahead, starting the car and pulling away. He wanted to tell Sooyoung she should have broken up with him, but he knew that she needed silence. She need some peace.

Jaemin hated watching Sooyoung go through all this pain. He hated that no one else realized how wonderful Sooyoung truly was, he hated how everyone took her for granted. Sooyoung’s love is beautiful, because when she falls in love, she falls hard. She commits. She will love you until you push her away…and she will keep loving you until the tears run out.

He wanted to be the one to love her, to show her how she deserved to be treated, he wanted to show her that he wouldn’t break her heart, that he would cherish her and spoil her with all of his loving words…but he knew it would never work.

So, instead, he holds Sooyoung while she cries herself to sleep, gently brushing her hair and whispering sweet nothings in her ear. He fills her water bottle everyday and makes her breakfast, pulling her out of bed to stare out the window for a few hours. He sings to her. He tells her about his day. He shows her videos in hopes to make her laugh. He takes care of her and helps her get in the shower, sitting on the toilet and telling jokes so she doesn’t break down in the process. He sits in silence with her, until eventually, she smiles at his jokes, she gets out of bed before him and makes him breakfast, she talks and fills the silence. She sings with him. He holds her until she teases him and tickles him. He helps bring her back to life - and he would do it all over again whenever he needs her to.

Jaemin would keep his love hidden for Sooyoung all of his life, if that meant that he would never lose the girl of his dreams.

[wonubby]

Aenergy - Aespa 5th member

Y/NS RELATIONSHIPS INSIDE THE GROUP...

karina x y/n

(Y/N) and Karina have known each other for nearly 6 years. Since (Y/N) was the member who trained the longest, Karina would always learn from the younger girl and would ask for guidance. When the two learned they were making their debut together, they were ecstatic. Being the youngest yet most experienced member of AESPA was very hard for Y/N, as she would act like a teacher towards her older members, which came with scolding them. Whenever Karina messed up, (Y/N) would scold her, which led Karina to pinch (Y/N)'s cheeks, talk about how cute she was, and then fix her mistake. Right before (Y/N) and Jisung's dating rumour was spread, Karina had walked in on the two cuddling in the practice rooms, and the first thing she did was laugh. She was happy for her friend but was also concerned that if the company heard about it, she might not get to debut. Karina knew (Y/N) was under pressure when the dating rumour came out, so the first thing she did was spend the night in her dorm, where the two girls just sat and ate junk food the whole night. Whenever Karina is asked about (Y/N), the first word that comes to her mind is darling.

giselle x y/n

These two were never really that close when they were trainees, but 3 months before Aespa's debut, the two became close. They are known as the designer couple. This name originated from the two of them being from rich families and owning many designer items. Giselle teaches (Y/N) English whenever they have free time so the younger could improve her speech. Of course, training for only 10 months was one of Giselle's disadvantages since it affected her performance on stage, but Y/N  was always there to help. She would cheer the older girl on and teach her tips to improve her performance. (Y/N) helped improve Giselle's rap a little bit before they were set to debut and continued helping during the Savage era, when Giselle couldn't seem to get the words out of her mouth. When Aespa had just debuted, Aeri was shocked to know her company mate, Jisung, and (Y/N) were dating after the older male had come to their debut showcase to give the girls flowers. Whenever being asked about (Y/N), the first word that comes to Aeri's mind is her duplicate.

winter x y/n

(Y/N) and Winter met during an acting class they both were attending. (Y/N) took the acting classes to improve her facial expressions, while Winter wanted to become an actress. When the two first met, they were paired together in a group and instantly hit it off with one another. Winter was shocked to learn that (Y/N) was not only younger than her but had been a trainee longer than her as well. This moment was when Winter gained a lot of respect for the girl by putting up with a very strict and horrible industry at such a young age. Winter knew about (Y/N) and Jisung. The moment he confessed to her, (Y/N) was screaming her head off while Winter was jumping up and down, knowing her friend had finally found a man to put up with her weird ass. Debut season ended up being a mess as everyone was in a rush and there was a lot of stress, which caused (Y/N) to worry a lot and took a toll on her mental health. During this period, Winter was the one who tried the most to keep (Y/N) in line. She would buy her food, plushies, and games; she even once brought Jisung over so he could calm the poor girl down. When asked about the girl, the first word that comes to mind is psycho.

ninging x y/n

A mess. That's what these two are together. When Ningning first joined the company, these two were put up against each other due to their amazing singing voices, which caused an unwanted rivalry between the two for a couple of years before they realised they had nothing against each other. It started when (Y/N) came up to Ningning and just sat down and started a normal conversation. After a couple of hours of talking, the (Y/H/C) girl ordered Chinese food so the two of them could enjoy it. The two sang a duet song together in their trainee years. Fans of the two kept begging and asking for the video to be released, but in return, the two girls decided to tease until they finally released it in early 2021. Ningning first heard about (Y/N) and Jisung's when the dating rumour came out, and he instantly recognised the girl in the picture and immediately called (Y/N). When ever asked about (Y/N), the first word that comes to mind is competition (in a joking way)

[anqelified]

✶𓏲ּ𐀔.ᐟ ⠀⠀⠀JULIETTE⠀ ( 🐰 ) relationships ! ───── sm family 𖤛

features : boa, tvxq, super junior, snsd, shinee, exo, red velvet, aespa, riize

▶︎ FAMILIAL FIGURES

⠀⠀ boA ( 보아 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀90%

when boa debuted, juliette was just getting to be born

with the fifteen year age gap, boa essentially took juliette under her wing like everyone else.

told her the hardships and challenges as a soloist but managed to be her first confidant.

fans LOVE their interactions sm like always point out juliet is boa’s baby 😭 😔

mother & daughter type of duo!!

⠀⠀ TVXQ ( 동방신기 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀80%

just like the rest of the 1980 - 1994 artists, juliette has more of a familial relationship with them

changmin & juliet had have collaborated in the past before and he’s always regarded her as a talented artist

just like changmin, u-know respects juliet for her hardwork as an idol and is always open to hearing out her troubles

⠀⠀ SUPER JUNIOR ( 슈퍼주니어 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀75%

to be honest, juliet only fw a few of the suju members. donghae & eunhyuck and probably leeteuk

although she’s more closer to the d&e duo, she puts suju in high regard as her seniors and their level as 2nd gen stars

she does talk to them occasionally tho

⠀⠀ SNSD ( 소녀시대 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀90%

mothers and their daughter i fear

besties w tiffany and their bond is to die for

snsd > 2ne1 srry

juliet FOUGHT on the forums for them

it’s like sisterhood but also motherhood in a way so like… idk they just love juliet and they baby her whenever they get the chance to

⠀⠀ SHINee ( 샤이니 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀90%

shinee took juliet under their wing once they met the 10 year old. when they were introduced to the pre-teen, they were in definite shock and became her older brothers

one of the core memories she has with them are the way the members would help her with her homework. since taemin had debuted awfully young as well, the pair would often be seen helping each other in their respective studies (with jonghyun stressing bc now he had to take care of TWO kids.)

key made it his responsibility to protect juliet throughout his life. of course she wasn’t the youngest person in sm, but at the time, she was just a mere ten-year-old girl who wanted to follow her dreams

⠀⠀ EXO ( 엑소 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀85%

just like shinee, most of exo (especially suho) took juliet as their daughter

often coined as the mini baekhyun w her massive amounts of energy

talking abt baekhyun, the vocal line is the reason why juliet manages to a “voice pocket” in her dimple. they always manage to teach her new ways to either sing or hit a note

but definitely older brother(s) & younger sister energy

⠀⠀ RED VELVET ( 레드벨벳 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀90%

juliet was originally supposed to be in red velvet as she appeared in the ‘happiness’ mv but the idea was later scrapped

she trained with them and formed a sisterhood bond

out of all of the members, she’s super close w yeri and they have their own little girl dates together

irene is just a single mom who works two jobs, who loves her kids (wendy, joy, yeri, & juliet) and never stops

▶︎ FRIENDS

⠀⠀ AESPA ( 에스파 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀100%

just like dream, she’s more closer in age w aespa

she bonds more with giselle and they have such a tight friendship, u would think she’s dating giselle

as aespa goes to more award shows now, she’s seen tagging along with them and often coined as the hidden member.

when juliet found out that aespa was going to debut, she cheered bc she finally had more girls her age in the sm building 🙏

▶︎ GETTING TO KNOW

⠀⠀ RIIZE ( 라이즈 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀89%

when she found out shotaro and sungchan were leaving nct but debuting in riize, she cried…

YET she still truly has to make friends with the rest of the riize members. like yes she will film a challenge w them but afterwards it gets quiet…

bias in riize? probably sohee. she finds him so adorable

THO she LOVEEEESSS their music.. like play talk saxy and she will SING. like name a song that u can both cry and dance to...

▶︎ TO BE ANNOUNCED

⠀⠀ HEARTS2HEARTS ( 하츠투하츠 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀–%

⠀⠀ dearALICE ( 디어 앨리스 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀–%

⠀⠀ MYTRO ( 마이트로 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀–%

[rensaries]

✦•┈๑⋅⋯ stress written scenario about jungeun in which ; she takes on heavy stress with the end of year award shows coming up and additional nct promotions see jungeun's masterlist !

time : november 2023 ⋮ pairings : jungeun , jaemin , mark , and dream's manager ⋮ genre : angst, fluff ⋮ warnings : tw.ᐟ mentions of disordered eating , stress , jungeun overworking herself , mentions of panic attacks , jungeun almost passing out , if i miss anything pls lmk!

when the members received their upcoming schedules for the next two months, jungeun thought it would be easy to manage. despite finishing a tour only a few months ago, jungeun was somehow motivated for the upcoming promotions. but her excitement was cut short when she found herself almost passing out in the practice room while preparing for her solo for an end of year award ceremony.

"jungeun, are you sure you don't need to sit and take a break?" the manager's worried voice echoed through jungeun's ears like they were heard from another planet. her head was dizzy, her breathing was picking up, and her vision was blurry.

"no. i'm fine. let's run it again." she took a deep breath as she tried to get herself up from where she was sat on the floor, but that quickly failed as she fell to the ground in her attempt to get up. jaemin and mark, who were present in the practice room, ran to jungeun to help her up.

after a few minutes of sitting up and getting some water, jungeun insisted on finishing her practice, "only one more time, please?"

"no, you need to rest for the rest of the day." jaemin's words coming out cold and sharp. anyone would think jaemin was seriously mad, but no, he was only like this so jungeun would give herself a break. and not only does it upset him seeing her like this, mark was just as hurt.

"yeah, you need to take a break. you have plently of time until the performance to practice, but you're not going to improve at all if you work yourself to nearly passing out." mark came off more genuinely concerned, he knew what it was like to practice until you can't stand straight, and he didn't want to see jungeun do that to herself.

jungeun sighed and placed her head in her hands, tears starting to form in her eyes. she knew she needed to take a break, actually take time to allow herself to improve every move and detail of her dance. but it ate at her every day that she wasn't practicing, she felt as if she wouldn't provide a good performance if she wasn't constantly working on it and trying to improve. she also knew it wasn't healthy to skip meals and rather go to the company building to repeat the same steps over and over until she was short of breath. it's not like she meant to do any of this to herself on purpose, but as an idol she feels she need to perform at her best and from her experience through the years, you can't take breaks until your art is perfect.

"jungeun, we can't stay to watch you to practice the dance a million more times until you pass out again." jaemin rubbed his hand along jungeun's back in an attempt to calm her down. "have you eaten anything today? we should get something to eat."

jaemin's words rung through her ears, he couldn't possibly know she wasn't eating properly? she tried her best to hide it from the members, not wanting them to become apart of her stress and issues. but as usual, jaemin knew even if he didn't see it with his own eyes. her passing on dinner the past few weeks, getting small portions when the group went out, "oh i ate earlier before practice", and other small indications that she wasn't eating healthily.

despite her mind telling her that jaemin's protest was unnecessary, she sighed and lifted her head, "okay." satisfied with her answer, jaemin gave her a small smile.

╱ on the ride back to jungeun and jaemin's shared apartment the silence felt suffocating to her. every second passing was another that neither of them spoke. as she watched the cars pass she was still thinking about needing to practice. no matter how hard she worked the itch was still there and it bothered her knowing thate jaemin wouldn't let her practice again for the rest of the day, even though it's because he cares about her health.

"why didn't you tell me you weren't eating?" jaemin said finally breaking the silence. jungeun took a deep breath knowing she couldn't hide it from him anymore, she felt bad for lying in the first place but her practice was her number one priority for the last few weeks.

"I- i was eating, just not as much as i probably should have." jungeun's voice was quiet, she was slightly embarrased to be talking about this out loud after keeping it to herself for so long. jaemin opened his mouth to speak again but before he could jungeun continued, "i know it's not healthy, but i really want this performance to be perfect so i feel like all i can focus on is practicing." it was hard for her to get her thoughts out, she knew everything she had been dealing with and how she felt but actually getting herself to say it aloud to jaemin's face was difficult. trying to gather the words in her head quickly became even harder, her thoughts jumbling and her mind beginning to scramble. realizing how hard she'd been pushing herself without going to any of the members for support hit her like a brick, and suddenly her breathing started to pick up and tears prodded at her eyes.

jaemin, waiting for her to continue speaking, looked over at jungeun and noticed her anxious state. his expression quickly turning into a worried one, "jungeun, what's wrong?"

"i'm fine, sorry." she hid her head in her hands, tears from her eyes immediately wetting the fabric of her hoodie sleeves.

"jungeun, you're not fine. please tell me what's been going on. tell me everything even if you find it embarrassing, which i know you do because i know how hard talking about your problems out loud is for you. just please talk to me."

jungeun was honestly touched by his words, she felt bad not being more open so now she felt she had no choice but to tell him everything.

"i'm just really stressed jaem, i feel like everytime i practice the choreography there's something else i need to work on and the performance has been stressing me out for weeks. i want to perform really really good, i'm excited but i'm scared i'm gonna mess it all up if i don't work on it every day." she doesn't notice she's fully sobbing at this point, she never realized how much she needed to talk to anyone about this. "if i go to practice during the day i usually don't have time to eat before so i've been unintentionally missing meals, so that's making me more stressed and i've been so anxious recently and sometimes i have panic attacks again and-"

"wait, you've been having panic attacks again and didn't say anything?!"

"i- well, yeah sometimes." jungeun's voice gets quiet again. she looks down as she plays with her hands, ashamed of not having told jaemin her issues earlier. "i'm sorry, i feel bad if you have to deal with me when i'm having panic attacks so i tried not to bother you about it."

"jungeun, you need to tell me, or any of the members, when you have panic attacks. it's not safe for you to deal with them yourself."

"i feel bad that you have to worry about me, they haven't been bad so i didn't think saying anything would be necessary." jungeun knew it wasn't safe for her to not bring it up to the members, panic attacks being a recurring issue for her that's affected her ability to promote during schedules several times. she's had them for years since debut, but overtime she's been able to manage the attacks better and even reduce them by focusing on relieiving stress. she's gotten used to them so she forgets to say anything to the members sometimes, which causes problems when they end up find out.

"listen, i don't mind dealing with you at all if you need me to help you, but please tell me this stuff when it happens."

jungeun is ashamed that this conversation even came to be, so all she can do is nod to jaemin's words.

"we don't have to keep talking about it if you don't want to, i understand, but you need to tell me these things when they happen. i love you and i don't want to see you struggle like this without reaching out."

"thank you, i love you too jaem."

note ʚɞ sighs i SUCKKKK at writing scenarios/fics.. i feel like this had a good start then i just kept writing and it ended weird 😭 i also apologize if this portrayal of mental struggles isn't that good, i went off my own experiences so it may not seem realistic to others but i hope it's enjoyable nonetheless!

©️rensaries

[mazeofyeni]

╰ 💋︰ ( RELATIONSHIP WITH NCT DREAM ) ─── ❛ 넌 나의 tangerine love † 찬 바람 속 내 곁에 온 you're my favorite ?! ~ 🥀

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ𝒊. 마크 ¡ mark ✟ . ༅｡˚

♪ … now playing : saturn - sza ׄ ⸝⸝ 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐬 . ₊ 🍒 ᤺ . . .

his : minhyung💞

her : yoon❤️‍🔥

♡⃝ about machae ... ❤︎ ྀི ݁𓂅˚۪

being new to korea , yoonchae spent most of her time to herself — training and eating alone, that was until she met mark.

mark was older than her , but he still made an effort to get to know her , helping her get out of her shell.

the first person she broke the news to when she made the debut team , the look on both of their faces when they realized they both made the same debut team.

he can tell when she's struggling and knows how to help her , pulling her aside if she gets too overwhelmed.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ𝒊. 런쥔 ¡ renjun ✟ . ༅｡˚

♪ … now playing : golden hour - jvke ׄ ⸝⸝ 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐬 . ₊ 🍒 ᤺ . . .

his : jun🩵

her : 洛夫 💐( love )

♡⃝ about yoojun ... ❤︎ ྀི ݁𓂅˚۪

renjun is yoonchaes' home , she trusts him with all her secrets , he just gets her on a different level.

he isn't a yes man , he isn't afraid to tell her when she's doing something stupid or is slacking — at first this made her upset but then she got used to it.

he's softer when it comes to her though , he's tough but he'll tell it to her in a way that won't hurt her , but also in a sense that he does things for her that he'd never do for anyone else.

always seen behind the scenes , holding hands or her head on his shoulder sleep , it's just so cute.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ𝒊. 제노 ¡ jeno ✟ . ༅｡˚

♪ … now playing : old love - yuji ft putri dahlia ׄ ⸝⸝ 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐬 . ₊ 🍒 ᤺ . . .

his : 개🐾 ( dog )her : chae🛸

♡⃝ about jenchae ... ❤︎ ྀི ݁𓂅˚۪

much like mark , jeno was another person who helped her come out of her shell as a trainee , he protected her when other trainees would make fun of her.

everyone loves a protective jeno.

even after debut he still looked over her , there are so many videos of him making sure she's safe at airports or if a fan is making her uncomfortable you can see him watching them before telling a staff , subtly getting close so he can pull you away.

can't stand her saesangs , like he hates that they're the reason she's always struggling , has to try his best not to curse them out when they're calling her on live.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ𝒊. 해찬 ¡ haechan ✟ . ༅｡˚

♪ … now playing : die for you - the weekend ft. ariana grande ׄ ⸝⸝ 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐬 . ₊ 🍒 ᤺ . . .

his : fullsun☀️

her : yoonie🫶🏼

♡⃝ about yoochan ... ❤︎ ྀི ݁𓂅˚۪

mark didn't know what he got himself into when he introduced these two before they debuted , it was like giving him a slightly evil twin.

anybody who comes across these says they're destined to be friends forever , they debuted glued to the hip.

he memorized her apartment code before she did , has a drawer there and all.

there's the dreamies friendship ring , then there's the yoonchan friendship bracelet , these two silver bands that they bought with their first check after debut and either one of them have yet to take it off.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ𝒊. 재민 ¡ jaemin ✟ . ༅｡˚

♪ … now playing : be my next - riize ׄ ⸝⸝ 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐬 . ₊ 🍒 ᤺ . . .

his : jaeminie🤍

her : noonie⭐️

♡⃝ about yoomin ... ❤︎ ྀི ݁𓂅˚۪

the dating rumors with these two are never ending , since 2017 when Jaemin and her were seen together with without staff ( doyoung was right behind them )

they're always seen bts sharing cheeky glances or throwing random finger hearts or subtly flirting.

some people think they're just doing fan services others think different and that they're dating.

there are a few times where people are like are they? aren't they? were they? are they gonna be? people are confused.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ𝒊. 천러 ¡ chenle ✟ . ༅｡˚

♪ … now playing : stuck with you - ariana grande ft. justin beiber ׄ ⸝⸝ 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐬 . ₊ 🍒 ᤺ . . .

his : 丈夫💍 ( husband )her : 妻子💍 ( wife )

♡⃝ about chenchae ... ❤︎ ྀི ݁𓂅˚۪

in everyone's top 3 ships in nct, everyone says they're like an old retired married couple – they even call each other pets siblings.

before she moved out into her own apartment , she would sometimes spend the night at his apartment , now they do it interchangeably , he has the key code to hers.

not only to they act like a old married couple , they fight like one , everyone says they fight over the pettiest things.

her travel buddy , they've went to many places during their breaks together.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ𝒊. 지성 ¡ jisung ✟ . ༅｡˚

♪ … now playing : best friend - nct dream ׄ ⸝⸝ 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐬 . ₊ 🍒 ᤺ . . .

his : andy park🐹

her : jennifer bae🫰🏼

♡⃝ about yoosung ... ❤︎ ྀི ݁𓂅˚۪

awkward as hell when they debut it was funny cause you could see them both awkwardly smiling at each other , even sometimes they bow to each other or speak formally, people doubted if they even liked each other.

that was debut them , skip a few years to 2018 , you constantly saw these two walking to restaurants or shopping together , people were shock with the total 360 , which did cause a dating scandal ( people thought it a enemies and lovers situation ).

they just simply had to get used to each other , now they get along so well — they even celebrate their birthdays together since they share one.

also has her password to her apartment , and just makes himself a home when she isn't there.

©️MAZEOFYENI

[soul2seoul]

S. II. S. Members Profile

Home » Kpop Duos » S. II. S. Members Profile

S. II. S., also known as SOULTOSEOUL, is a duo under Delphi Entertainment. The duo consists of Alice and Seira. They debuted on June 4th, 2021 with the single album, Russian Roulette. On April 10th, 2022, it was announced that S. II. S. had signed with EDEN Records for global promotions.

Official Greeting: From here to there, hello, we are S. II. S.!

Official Fandom Name: Cosmea

Official Fandom Color: Kismet Violet (#c9b3d3)

Dorm Arrangements (As of January 2024): Both have their own apartment.

S. II. S. Official SNS Accounts:

Website: DELPHI ENTERTAINMENT | S. II. S. / S. II. S. JAPAN

Instagram: soul2seoul

Twitter: soul2seoul / soul2soul / soul2seoul_jpn

TikTok: soul2seoul

YouTube: S. II. S. Official

Pinterest: S. II. S.

S. II. S. Member Profiles

Alice

Stage Name: Alice (앨리스)

Birth Name: Min Jiwoo (민지우)

Birthday: November 17, 2001

Zodiac Sign: Scorpio

Chinese Zodiac Sign: Snake

Height: 164cm (5’5”)

MBTI: ENFP-T

Nationality: Korean

Representative Emoji: 🌙/🐶

Representative Color: Pink

Instagram: doffltm (personal) / lookingforalice (photography)

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Seira

Stage Name: Seira (세이라)

Birth Name: Akiyama Seira (秋山セイラ)

Birthday: January 9, 2002

Zodiac Sign: Aquarius

Chinese Zodiac Sign: Snake

Height: 168cm (5’6”)

MBTI: ESFJ-T

Nationality: Japanese

Representative Emoji: ☀️/🐰

Representative Color: Blue

Instagram: seira

Show more Seira fun facts …

[nctyena]

Distance Goodbye

Note: I still can't believe Markhyuck couldn't say goodbye to Taeyong face to face I hate SM...

"Yah, how could you still be handsome? That's not fair."

"We can shave your head too Haechan."

"Stop fighting guys. Hyung, we will miss you so much. Take care, okay?"

"I know Markie. Now I gotta go. Don't worry I'm gonna be back without you noticing anything."

"I love you oppa. Please be careful."

"Aww, are you going to cry."

Taeyong couldn't hold his laugh at Yena's flicking the boy's head.

"Lee Donghyuck , don't tease her too much. I love you guys. Take care of each other."

"Ah! By the way check your bags. I left something for you."

They ended the facetime and looked at each other.

"If one of you cries I kill you."

"As if you won't."

Yena left the room without saying anything. She was curious about Taeyong's surprise. She seeked through her bag and found a paper that had her name on it.

"How didn't I see it before?"

She opened the letter and took a deep breath before starting to read it.

"Dear Yena,

I know this is a bit old fashioned but I figured writing a letter would fit the situation more. If you miss me just read these words over again. First of all I want to say that I'm so proud of us. Even if I'm the one going to military because I grew up, that also makes me realise that you grew up a lot too. I still remember when I first met you , or when we practiced as traniees , dreaming about the same things on our minds , when you came to me crying about debuting with us because you were too worried... But now look at you. A beautiful , succesful and confident woman doing great things. I'm so happy to be a viewer by your side through all the struggles and accomplishments. And I will be by your side no matter what and no matter where I am. When I'm back I want to see you stronger and as a person who did whatever they want. Don't hold anything back. Release your solo songs , meet lovers , travel many places , make different hobbies , but don't forget to listen yourself while doing all these too. Take your time and don't forget to rest. Promise me to stay healthy and happy. And I promise you back. I will be back healthy and happy. I love you so much. Never forget this. From your friend , your brother , your leader , your fairy

Lee Taeyong."

Yena folded the paper carefully and put it back inside the bag. She knew that this wouldn't be the first time of her reading it. And she was already glad for it. She wiped the tears under her eyes and messaged her leader on her phone.

"Wow you are really old now. A letter huh? Grandpa"

[itsstarseason]

╭┈──── ◌ೄ◌ྀ ˊˎ 

╰┈➤ ❝ STAN TWITTER: U EVER SEE SOMEONE ELSES PERCEPTION ON YOUR BIAS AND CRINGE SUPER HARD? (SEYEON VER.) !

✰ SYNOPSIS. Fans complain and call out misconceptions about Seyeon under a trending tweet.

✰ WARNINGS. twitter drama, lots of toxicity and ugly words

my tl is full of quotes to this tweet and i wondered what seyeon’s fans would have to say about this! i feel like it’s a glimpse of what people get wrong about seyeon and some of the reasons why she gets hate.

✰ SEYEON’S MASTERLIST

itsstarseason 2025 ✰

[misunhye]

A Burning Hill

characters kang sunhye (misun), lee donghyuck (haechan), kang jaesuk, lee haewon, brief mentions of other idols

words 2.3k

warnings idk none misun’s just a hater and a fourteen year old girl

2014

Keep it cool, Misun, Key’s words echoed in her head.

      Maybe he would like a meal treated on her? (That she’d begrudgingly get the money from her father.) Or maybe a favor he can check in whenever? She just knows she’s going to have to give him a good apology once she’s finally let out of this damn room like a kid in trouble.

      Which, to be fair, she is.

      Their vocal coach, Solbin, stared down at the two teenagers who were both avoiding her gaze, nervously picking at their fingers. They let it go too far this time. Usually, Misun could control herself to not blow up on Haechan, but Haechan was just so irritating and he provoked her constantly. Was she supposed to just sit there and take it?

      In fact, the constant belittling from him made her think of her mother. It wasn’t something she liked to think of a lot, especially when she wasn’t even with her mother right now. But unlike with her mother, she didn’t get upset and want to crawl under her blankets. She got angry.

      It was easier to defend herself against Haechan, a stranger, than her own mother. How was that? She shouldn’t be afraid to tell her mother anything.

      “This is the sixth time this month you’ve gotten in trouble for being a distraction,” Solbin sighs, bringing a hand to her forehead to rub it. Misun was starting to feel bad, but it wasn’t her fault. It wasn’t.

      The two of them stayed quiet.

      “How will you two ever debut if you can’t even do the simplest thing and keep your mouths shut?” She tries to look them in the eyes but neither will look up. “So now you two decide to stay quiet?”

      “We’re sorry,” Misun says, deciding the best route would be to apologize first. It always is.

      “We—”

      “You’ll do better next time, I know,” Solbin presses her lips together. “You said that the last time, Donghyuck-ah.”

      Haechan ducks his head down. Misun tries to be a fly on the wall, but Solbin isn’t letting her go freely.

      “Sunhye, you’re better than this. What happened?”

      A short breath leaves her lips, diverting her attention to a poster of SHINee. Did Taemin have to deal with this, too? What would he do if he were in her position? Actually . . . maybe it’d be better to ask what would Onew do . . .

      Her shoulders slump. He wouldn’t let it get to him.

      “Listen to me carefully,” Solbin steps away from the table, staring both of them down, “You are not special. You’re nothing.” Misun feels her mouth go dry. She looks down, feeling her heart clench painfully in her chest. “There are trainees here better than you— we can easily replace you with them.”

      Misun can no longer hear anything over the sound of her ears ringing, feeling her face get warm. Replaceable. That’s what she is.

      She didn’t dare look at Haechan or Solbin, keeping her chin tucked to her chest with tears burning in her eyes. Haechan didn’t speak.

      Solbin sighs, “I believe I got the point across. Go join your friends in the cafeteria. You can still get something if you hurry. Sorry for keeping you so long.”

      Misun stands on wobbly knees, bowing deeply and uttering in unison with Haechan, “Thank you, Kim Solbin-nim.” Her legs feel like lead as she makes her way out of the studio, hearing Haechan’s small footsteps behind her. She continues walking, even when she hears him stop.

      Haechan calls her name, probably to apologize, and she hears his footsteps growing faster and louder. She breaks into a run, passing employees who call out for her to slow down. She’s panting by the time she reaches the elevator, quickly pressing the button to go up. The hair on the back of her neck stands straight, sending a shiver down her spine. Someone is watching her. She turns around.

      Haechan is standing behind her, a guilty expression on his face and she huffs, rolling her eyes. He was always like this, always apologetic after they got into an argument. He would say all those things about her but then he’d act like he was sorry. She refuses to believe him anymore. She’s made that mistake multiple times before.

      “Go away,” she turns around as the elevator doors open and steps inside. Haechan doesn’t listen, following her inside the elevator despite her hastiness to press the ‘close door’ button. She groans as the door shuts with both of them in the elevator, alone. She regrets choosing the elevator. She presses the next floor, wanting to get out already.

      “What a coincidence that we’re both here,” Haechan smiles nervously at the floor and then her, smile faltering when his smile is met with a glare.

      “You followed me here,” she says.

      “No, I just needed to use the elevator,” Haechan responds quickly. “I wasn’t following you.”

      Misun’s cheeks flush in embarrassment, “Whatever.”

      “I– ah, I wanted to say I’m sorry,” Haechan can’t look her in the eye, staring down at the floor. She taps her foot on the floor, wishing the slow elevator would hurry up. “I was rude, and I shouldn’t have been.”

      She doesn’t respond, sighing in relief when the doors open at the next floor, “Leave me alone, Haechan. Your stupid sorrys don’t mean anything to you, or me.”

      Misun ends up in one of the empty girls’ restrooms on the tenth floor. She checks under the stalls before locking the main entrance. She pulls out her phone, the one her father got her and pays the bill for. She goes to her recents, scrolling down the short list.

      Her eyes pause on her mother’s name before skipping down to where a younger version of her brother smiled at her. She clicks the contact without a second thought, bringing it up to her ear to wait for him to pick up.

      It rings a couple of times before she hears the automated voicemail message and hangs up, immediately calling back again.

      After three rings, he picks up, “Hello?” His voice sounds tired, and she bites down on her lip, chewing at the skin. She didn’t know he was sleeping, it was three in the afternoon.

      “Hi,” Misun says, “Were you sleeping? I’m sorry.”

      “No,” Jaesuk clears his throat, seemingly to finally just realize who was on the phone. “Sunhye, what’s up? Are you OK?”

      “Just wanted to talk to someone who isn’t my competition,” she rests her head against the stall, looking down at her shoes, pristine, clean, and white. She clutches her phone tightly, yet to realize how hard her hand was shaking. “I miss you.”

      “I miss you, too,” she can hear the smile in Jaesuk’s voice and smiles, too, but it makes a wave of tears appear and it’s evident when she sniffs a second later. “Sunhye. What’s the matter? Do you want me to come up there and talk to—“

      “No!” Misun nearly shrieks, voice starting off loud and then lowering when she realizes how loud she was, “I’m fine. I don’t need my big brother coming all the way from his fancy studio to defend me. They already think I use you guys to get my way,” she sniffs, “I hate it here. Can’t I leave and come to YG?”

      “If you think SM is bad, I promise you, YG is worse,” he speaks in a hushed tone, as if Yang Hyunsuk would have his phone bugged and hear his words.

      “The older trainees are all really nice…” She sniffs, quickly wiping a few tears off her face. “And it’s not all of the younger ones, either. Some of them are really cool, like Ningning and Herin. The guys aren’t hard to get along with either, like Jaemin and you know, Mark. Jaemin’s really nice, and you already know about Mark.”

      “And the ones that aren’t really nice?” Jaesuk prods.

      Misun doesn’t say anything for a minute, wondering if Haechan was worth wasting her breath on. And then she decides that Haechan really got on her nerves, and Jaesuk was really the only one she could talk to about it. “Haechan!” 

      Jaesuk laughs, “Him? Again?” When she huffs and makes a noise of agreement, he laughs harder, “I’m starting to think this kid has a crush on you, Sunhye!”

      Misun makes a face, “You’re not funny.” What made him think Haechan had a crush on her based on everything she’s told him? Haechan was rude to her, he pulled her hair any chance he got, made fun of her any chance he got, and never stopped looking at her. She’d rather die. After brutally rejecting him, of course.

      “Come on, I know you’ve watched those dramas where the guy is mean to her when he actually likes her,” Jaesuk says. She makes a retching sound and he chuckles, “Don’t be like that.”

      “The day that Haechan likes me is the day the world will end,” she says stubbornly, no longer wanting to talk about him to Jaesuk anymore. His reaction disappointed her, thinking he’d take it seriously but it seemed as if she was wrong. She huffs, “I’ll talk to you later. Bye.” She hangs up without letting him get another word out. She frowns down at her phone before shoving it into her hoodie pocket.

      She leans against the wall of the stall, closing her eyes as a lump forms in her throat. Why could things never go her way? She hates the way she dreads going to the company to train. It really ruined her day. The only thing to solve her problem was to either make Haechan leave or leave herself. Why should she have to lose her dream just because Haechan couldn’t leave her alone? She doesn’t want to stop training, and she knew Haechan would never, either. But he has to leave. He has to, it can’t be her. She needs to be a star, just like her mother could’ve been. She has to show her mother what she missed out on.

      Misun hears a noise and her eyes open, listening more carefully. A loud knock at the bathroom door startles her, making her nearly jump out of her skin as a voice asks, “Hello?” There’s more muffled words behind the door, but she doesn’t hear as she quickly unlocks the stall to unlock the bathroom door.

      An unfamiliar set of girls are staring at her and she flushes, eyes darting to the floor and rushing past the group. She wipes at her eyes discreetly as she makes her way down to the cafeteria where she knows where some of the older girls will be. That was so embarrassing, she knew she should’ve left right away. She just hopes they don’t talk to anyone else about her locking herself in the bathroom by herself.

      When Misun passes a set of doors, her interest is piqued when she hears someone singing a familiar song. She quickly understands that it’s Baby by Justin Bieber and the person singing it is Haechan. He sounds good, something she begrudgingly can admit. Never to his face, she’ll always insist he’s a terrible singer in front of him. She stands slightly around the corner of the door frame, peeking in curiously to see Haechan is singing in front of Taeyong, Johnny, Jaehyun, and Ten. Her heart drops, creating a pit in her stomach. She crosses her arms, feeling upset at the fact that Johnny was listening to Haechan, too. She knows they were friends, too, but she was friends with Johnny first– doesn’t that mean something? She rolls her eyes at the situation, turning around before any of the group can spot her. At least Mark wasn’t here, too. She doesn’t know how he wasn’t since Haechan would never leave him alone, similar to her.

      “Where have you been?” A sudden voice makes her jump and she turns to see that it was Lee Haewon, a girl that also went to her school. The dark haired girl smiles apologetically, plump cheeks flushing, “Sorry! I’ve just been looking for you, and I couldn’t find you after Teacher took you away. I saved you some food! Hina told me what you liked so I got it for you.” She seems to realize she’s rambling, and the pink on her cheeks darken, “Sorry–” She catches herself going to talk more and stops herself.

      “It’s OK,” Misun can’t help but smile. She noticed she was gone? Did anyone else? She shakes that thought away, “Thank you, Haewon. Want to walk to the cafeteria together?”

      “Mind if we come with?” A loud voice says from behind them. Misun already knows who it is without turning, and she knows who else was with him, too. She huffs, not turning her head and still looking at Haewon.

      “We don’t care,” she mutters, ignoring the look of shock from Haewon at the disrespectful words. “Come on, Haewon.” Through her shock, Haewon still manages to keep up with Misun and turns around to walk with her.

      Misun can’t control her bitterness, it seems. Even if she knows what she feels is irrational, she can’t help but act out on her feelings. She feels uneasy as she walks away from the group of boys, not liking that she took her feelings out on someone who doesn’t deserve it. But it was too late to go back and apologize, not that she really would, anyway. She hated apologizing.

      “Are you OK?” Haewon whispers to her, casting a glance at her. Misun’s heart warms at the concern in her voice. She didn’t really know Haewon, and she was better friends with some of the other girls, but Haewon cared enough to find her. Misun smiles as she loops her arm through Haewon’s. Haewon seemed like a good friend, and Misun didn’t want to let the opportunity pass.

      “I’m OK,” Misun nods and smiles convincingly, “Is this OK?” She realizes she should’ve asked before touching her, but Haewon simply beams back at her before beginning to talk about drama she overheard from the older female trainees. Misun smiles more genuinely this time, appreciating the effort to distract her. But she can still feel someone staring at her. She doesn't mean to, but she looks behind her. Haechan's eyes meet hers and she curses in her head, but glares back at him before turning her head back around.

Stupid Haechan.

[ggukkiedae]

notes: hannah tries her best to send taeyong off to the navy. (dialogue written in italics are spoken in english)

setting: jeju international airport, 240415

wc: 1,175

content warning: taeyong’s enlistment

“You good, Hans?”

Mark’s voice pulled Hannah back down to earth. As soon as he sat down next to her, she leaned into his side and glanced at Donghyuck, who stood a few steps away on the phone with Taeyong. She was the last of the three of them who’d be on the phone with him since they decided to go by age.

She groaned while pulling her hat down by the visor. Next to her, Mark was shuffling in his seat until he had his arm around her, lightly patting her shoulder.

“This isn’t fair,” she ran her hand down her face. “Is it so hard to say no to even just one event so we could have all come home yesterday?”

She could feel the 99-liner squeeze her shoulder, “You know how it is, Hans. Hyung knows, too.”

“We tried so hard,” she slumps further into his side, “and we don’t even get a glimpse of him in real life before he leaves!”

The two of them could only sit in silence after that. The three 127 maknaes had taken it upon themselves to rearrange their schedule in order to reach their leader’s send off, but they were beat.

That’s how they found themselves in Jeju.

The stress of trying to make it in time was something she didn’t think she’d ever go through. Months ago when their leader first told them he was enlisting, she thought she’d be right there with the rest of 127 (and maybe all of NCT) to send their leader off.

She didn’t expect to look at their managers’ itinerary only to find they wouldn’t even be in Korea on the day of.

“Hyung wants to know why his princess is pouting.”

“I’m not pouting,” Hannah looked up to glare at Donghyuck until she realized who was on the small screen looking at her. “Oppa!”

The older 00-liner snickered while handing her the phone and placing the bluetooth headphones over her ears. In her excitement to stand up, she elbowed Mark in the ribs.

“I gotta take this,” she jogged over to the isolated corner for a semblance of privacy then looked at the smiling man on the screen. “Boss! How are you? Are the oppas treating you okay? Did you get my present? Have you met any other people you’re entering with?”

“Calm down, Haeeunie,” Taeyong chuckled, “breathe. I’m alright, missing you kids. Everyone’s treating me the same, I haven’t really met anyone yet, and what present?”

A grin made its way to her face, “I snuck something into your backpack last week when I helped you pack some stuff.”

“I’m looking forward to it,” he smiled at her.

Seeing him smile pulled at something in her chest. She squeezed her eyes shut, slipping her sunglasses on. She did not want to cry in front of Taeyong, but it felt impossible to do. She went for the second best option: not letting him see.

“Hey,” Taeyong held his phone closer to his face so she could only see one of his eyes on the screen, “I want to see your face before I go.”

That did it. A tear escaped.

“Oh,” she sighed while taking off her hat and moving her sunglasses up her head to hold her hair back, “I hate that we’re not there with you!”

He gave her a sad smile once he held his phone at a normal angle again, “Don’t worry about it. We know how hard you three worked to get here, and I love you for it. You did everything you could, and that’s what matters, alright?”

“Alright,” her voice came out as a whisper. “I’m really sorry, Oppa.”

“Nothing to be sorry about, Haeeunie,” he reassured her. “I promise. And you know I don’t take my promises lightly, especially not with you.”

She bit her lip, nodding instead of talking. Talking would just make her cry harder. But Taeyong wasn’t done talking.

“You know what?” His tone brightened, “I’m going to make you another promise right now. After basic training, when I get my phone back, you’ll be the first person I call after my mom and my sister. Sound good?”

“Sounds great,” to her luck, her voice didn’t shake, “and I’ll have Hyuck and Markie with me.”

“Good, good,” Taeyong nodded.

Hannah smiled, “And you bet I’ll drop any schedule I have then and there and drag those two with me so we can talk to you.”

“Unfortunately, I don’t expect any less.”

“Unfortunately?”

“As your leader,” he shrugged with a mischievous smirk, “but, as one of your big brothers, I say have at it, Boss Lady.”

Laughs slipped past her lips, in time with his. “You better look out, oppa, because I’m planning on doing something to anger the company for not having the balls to reschedule or say no to one event.”

He grinned at her, “Can’t wait for you to tell me all about it. Don’t give your oppas too much grief.”

She was about to retort when a muffled voice caught Taeyong’s attention. His frown told her all she needed to know.

“How much time you got there?” she asked him.

“Not a lot,” he admitted, “but I’m gonna tell you what I need you to hear right now before I leave, okay?”

“Okay.”

“First of all,” he began, “it’s not your fault, okay? We can put the blame on the weather. Second, I miss you, and I’m going to miss you, but this’ll pass and either you’ll be able to visit me or I can go on leave. Watch over the boys, you know most of our brain cells rest in you. But also don’t forget to allow them to take care of you. I love you, Haeeunie, a lot.”

“I love you, too, Oppa,” she smiled at him, wiping away the tears that were starting to fall. “You stay safe. Don’t get sick, don’t get hurt.”

“I’ll try my best,” he nodded, “now go and get the other two with you so I can say bye to all of you!”

With a nod, she walked back to the two boys with her, sitting on Donghyuck’s lap and throwing her legs over Mark’s. She handed the phone to Mark, who turned the bluetooth off.

“You kids take care of each other,” Taeyong began with a smile. “I’ll see you when I see you. It won’t be too long.”

The three 127 maknaes said their goodbyes and watched as Taeyong clicked out of the call. They sat in silence for a few seconds, staring at the black screen.

That was it.

That was them sending their leader off. That was the first time they were sending off one of their big brothers, and this was how it ended.

“This isn’t fair,” she muttered, leaning her head on Donghyuck’s shoulder.

Her twin flame sighed, “It really isn’t.”

“It’ll be okay,” Mark gave her knee a squeeze. “Hyung knows we love him and that we’d do anything to be with him right know. He’ll be okay.”

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