#felicityheadcanons

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the dupont family

“born of confusion and quiet collusion of which mostly i've known. a modern day woman with a weak constitution, 'cause i've got monsters still under my bed that i could never fight off.”

sterfanie josephina ‘steffy jo’ moreno-dupont (deceased, died in 2010 at age 58)

michael ‘mikey’ dupont (71 years old)

felicity dupont (25 years old)

tw: post partum depression, alcohol abuse, drug abuse, verbal abuse, death/overdose.

michael dupont was born in manchester, england to an english socialite for a mother and a french hotel mogul of a father. as their only son, his father had dreams of him taking over the family business after he passed, but mikey was never interested. a rebellious boy - he hated rules and school and anyone telling him what to do and dreamed of being someone that never had to be tied down or obligated to anyone. he was his father’s biggest disappointment and he had no problem letting him know that often. so, when he was sixteen years old, he decided that he was going to become a rockstar. he packed one bag, made his way to america at just sixteen years old and never looked back.

stefanie josephina moreno was born in havana, cuba to a single mother and a father that she never knew. growing up, she was simply known for being the most beautiful girl in havana and helped her mother pay rent by singing on the street for money. she spent her nights curled up by the little radio that her and her mother had in their tiny little apartment, listening to music and dreaming of being one of those girls on the radio. and her mother knew this dream of hers and knew that her voice was one that the world needed to hear. so she saved every penny she could, even going without food sometimes, and gifted the money to stefania on her sixteenth birthday - enough money for a ticket to america. she promised her she was going to become a star. she packed one bag, made her way to america at just sixteen years old and never looked back.

woodstock, 1969. it was the end of the sixties and while jimmy hendrix was shredding on the guitar, their eyes met in the crowd and that was the start of it all. if there was a textbook definition of ‘love at first sight’, it would have been the moment that they met. after the festival, they moved in together and began creating music, alongside a few friends they met along the way, formed a band called steffy jo and the six and almost overnight, became world wide rock and roll sensations. however, it wasn’t as glamorous as it seemed. because while they pumped out hit after hit and sold out tour after sold out tour, fame and fortune got to steffy and mikey’s heads in the worst ways - they were constantly at each other’s throats - whether it was creative differences or because steffy walked in on mikey with another girl...or girls or because mikey caught steffy kissing the drummer. their relationship was drug fueled, alcohol induced and incredibly toxic. but that didn’t stop them from marrying and playing the role of happy and in love when they were on stage together.

when steffy jo and mikey dupont were 45 years old in 1997, they already had 20 years of fame, scandals, sex, drugs and rock and roll under their belts. they had been touring with their band since the 70′s, traveling the world, selling out stadiums and living the true rockstar dream. they answered to no one and did whatever they wanted and even in their mid 40′s, they were just as messy as they were when they first started out. however, all of that came to a screeching halt when steffy jo found out she was pregnant.

steffy jo never wanted to be a mother and wanted to terminate the pregnancy as soon as she found out. but mikey was adamant that she keep the baby - that this baby was going to be proof that despite all of their make ups and breakups, that they were going to make it. and steffy was too much of a whimsical dreamer for her own good, and she believed every lie that mikey threw her way. steffy’s pregnancy was probably the only time that the couple was stable and on a cold and snowy evening, while their tour bus was driving through new york city after steffy jo and the six had played yet another sold out show at madison square garden, felicity stefanie dupont was born on the back of their tour bus, wrapped up in her mother’s infamous stage scarf until they made it to the hospital.

steffy jo went into shock shortly after felicity was born. the motherly instincts didn’t kick in and instead, she felt nothing but resentment for her little baby girl that had her eyes and couldn’t even stand to hold her, let alone look at her. it was then that she started turning to hard drugs to deal with what was obviously a severe case of post partum depression that she didn’t want to acknowledge or get treated. both she and mikey kept living their life as if felicity didn’t exist - pawning her off on nannies and whatever help was around instead of taking care of her themselves and simply using her as a prop when necessary to paint this false picture of a happy family in paparazzi pictures or magazine spreads. 

 throughout her entire childhood, felicity was raised on the road. however, the reality of what being a parent was something that the dupont’s never understood. they simply hired nanny after nanny to stay on the tour bus and in hotels with their young girl and they went back to their regularly scheduled programming of debauchery and fame, the promises that mikey had made to steffy about them being this perfect little family came crumbling down almost immediately. steffy never wanted to be a mother and if mikey was allowed to enjoy his freedom, so was she. felicity was too young to understand what was going on. her nanny would tell her tales of her parents being international superstars and that they were busy sharing their music with the world and she admired them for it, wanted to be just like them. in their rare sober moments, they’d take felicity to the studio and teach her all about music. the girl knew every instrument and had a voice that mirrored her mother’s. and her view of her parents was just as skewed as the view the rest of the world had of them. she adored them and wanted to be just like them, even though she spent her nights being locked away in the back of the tour bus by her nanny covering her ears so she didn't hear the sounds of them screaming and glass shattering.

when felicity was only eight years old, a years long affair that her father was having with a model was revealed, and the iconic mikey and steffy broke up for good and steffy jo and the six was no longer. mikey went on and basically completely abandoned felicity and steffy, starting his own solo career that was an immediate success, but steffy struggled. she attempted her own solo career, but drugs and depression completely took her over and she could barely even function and she didn’t want to, not even for the sake of her daughter because at the end of the day, felicity was the daughter that she never wanted. and through her drug fueled rage and nights of anger, she always made it be known to the girl that she was in fact, never wanted. she never showed her daughter any kind of warmth or empathy and she was always someone felicity feared. she dreaded moments that she was left alone with her because it meant that she had to take care of her - had to drag her off the floor and into bed or hold her hair as she threw up after a rough night out or force water down her throat when she was having a bad trip. and through all of this, felicity held onto the hope that one day, her mother would thank her, or even just love her a little bit. but she never did. and she never failed to make felicity feel like it was her fault that mikey left them.

it only took five years for steffy to succumb to her addiction. felicity found her dead in the motel they were living in at the time in 2010. she was out with her nanny that day and when they returned and found steffy jo unresponsive on the floor, felicity didn't even shed a single tear. she realized then and there that the woman she had hoped she'd become was just something she made up in her head and that her mother's love was something she'd never have and that she'd have no choice but to live the rest of her life with this giant hole in her heart that no one would be able to fill. felicity was sent off to live with her father. however, mikey wasn’t greeted with the big eyed little girl with flowers in her hair who loved music just as much as her parents, he was greeted with a girl who had nothing but hate in her heart for what her parents had put her through and a girl who had blamed him for all of it.

by fourteen years old, felicity had emancipated from her father and was living under the guardianship of her manager. she let go of any dreams that she had of music, not wanting to be anything like her parents and pursued a career in acting, wanting to prove to the world that she wasn't going to be a giant fuck up like them. it’s been eleven years since felicity has spoken to or seen her father but now that the man is 70 years old and he’s slowing down, he’s starting to feel the immensity of regret for everything he’s done. however, he can’t face felicity. because he had hurt her too much and looking at her reminds him of her mother, who’s death he blames himself for. so, he watches her from afar, wishing he would’ve done things differently.

as far as how felicity feels about her parents, she can’t imagine looking at a child and not wanting to give them anything but the best possible life. she has no empathy towards her father and while she used to feel the same about her mother, as she’s gotten older and has gone through similar substance abuse issues and the downfall of her own reputation after spending the first half of her career with a pristine image, she feels like she’s just starting to understand the woman she’ll never get to ask ‘why’ to. but perhaps some things are better left unknown.

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debut single : a&w by felicity dupont

“i haven't done a cartwheel since i was nine i haven't seen my mother in a long, long time. i mean, look at me, look at the length of my hair, my face, the shape of my body. do you really think i give a damn what i do after years of just hearing them talking? call him up, come into my bedroom ended up, we fuck on the hotel floor . it's not about havin' someone to love me anymore. this is the experience of bein' an american whore.” (SONG HERE!)

after being snubbed by the academy and uninvited to the oscars for the first time in her eleven year career as an actress, felicity dupont has released a 7 minute rant track on oscar night where she seemingly addresses, for the first time, the public’s perception of her and responds to the hate she’s received, the world’s oversexualization of her and how she no longer cares if everyone views her as an ‘american whore’ as a direct response to the industry that had seemingly turned their back on her after the leak of her sex tape, deciding to make the message not so subliminal by releasing it on oscar night.

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🧬💜☂️ ace x felicity

🧬ace - the first pic in her camera roll of him

💜 ace - her fave pic of him

☂️ace - her last pic of him

@starcrs

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( all ) who is the hottest person in la?

ANSWERS UNDER THE CUT !!

johnny: myself ophelia evans

felicity: my girl mal or ford...or travis...

bianca: jordana mother fucking kennedy aka the future mrs. jordana fucking kennedy-shafai

jackson: what are we twelve? mallory.

persephone: jordana, cookie & london, nothing compares to my girlies. except julain.

brooke: this is a bloody ridiculous question. that smug idiot david...and valentine.

bradley: london. london. london. london. london. london

georgina: i <3 dilfs so julian, alastair, louie, dante, tony, alvie & daveed

maverick: the word 'hot' is degrading...but isla & alabama have good facial symmetry or whatever.

@fvkophelia @fvkford @brvkenhecrts @fvkmallory @stcrscrossed @fcklondon @fckdavid @shebloom @lgends @alcstair @fcklouie @kiwislices @turnedgold @exhalcdvibes @fckdaveed @hvpnotics

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𝕥𝕒𝕤𝕜 𝟘𝟘𝟚 - '𝓱𝓮𝔂 𝓶𝓽𝓿, 𝔀𝓮𝓵𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓶𝔂 𝓬𝓻𝓲𝓫!"

𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘧𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘤𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘥𝘶𝘱𝘰𝘯𝘵

she wanted to be as far from l.a as she possibly could while still being able to commute to work daily, so she figured malibu was a nice compromise. the second she walked into the little pink house on a dead end street, she knew it was hers. small and quaint compared to most california homes, with a flair of boho glam, felicity’s home is everything she ever dreamed of having as a child. it’s warm, colorful, bright and cozy. it’s her safe haven. she had never been a fan of luxury and instead, prefers to surround herself with things that make her smile. her favorite room is her office where she keeps her extensive record collection and instruments that she only feels comfortably playing when she’s alone.

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𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓱𝓸𝓶𝓮 𝓸𝓯 𝓯𝓮𝓵𝓲𝓬𝓲𝓽𝔂 𝓭𝓾𝓹𝓸𝓷𝓽

𝐥𝐨𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 : laurel canyon, california 𝐩𝐫𝐢𝐜𝐞 : 1.9 million dollars 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐩𝐮𝐫𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐬𝐞𝐝 : 2015

when felicity was just a little girl, the only person in the world she had to look up to was her god mother, stevie nicks. she remembered one photoshoot in particular of hers where she shot in this dreamy cabin that seemed like it was in some fairytale land. when she was eighteen years old, moving out of her manager, everly's home, she saw the house from that exact photoshoot on the market, she knew it was meant to be.

small but mighty, the home built in 1961 feels like it's from a different time, nestled in the heart of los angeles' infamous laurel canyon neighborhood, where creativity and music flourished in the 1970's. the home is surrounded by outdoor decks and exposed to nature, with the inside of the house full of endless rich wood details and stained glass accents. although it's located in the heart of los angeles, it immediately feels like an effortless retreat away from the craziness of hollywood, with old magic and charm in every nook and cranny of this home.

(full picture directory here!!)

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[📸] ---- felicity + jade .

📸 𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎 𝚏𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚌𝚒𝚝𝚢'𝚜 𝚌𝚊𝚖𝚎𝚛𝚊 𝚛𝚘𝚕𝚕 : 𝐟𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐣𝐚𝐝𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐨𝐬

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[😔] ---- felicity + jade .

☎️𝚒𝚗𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚜𝚊𝚍 𝚟𝚘𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝚖𝚊𝚒𝚕 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 : 𝐟𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐭𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐣𝐚𝐝𝐞 {𝘢 𝘧𝘦𝘸 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘴 𝘢𝘨𝘰}

"hey....i broke up with ayaz. i...i don't know why, i don't know what got into me he just...he told me he loved me and i freaked out and i just left. i thought i could do the whole normal thing, you know? i thought i wasn't anything like them, but maybe i am...how do you do it? i mean you and ford just...seem so happy. and i thought i was happy too, but it didn't feel like enough...and i don't know what will. anyway, i'm just going to stay at mal's. i'll see you soon, bye."

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🎸 : travisty .

🎸𝚜𝚙𝚘𝚝𝚒𝚏𝚢 𝚙𝚕𝚊𝚢𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚝 : 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐟𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐭𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐬

cinnamon girl by lana del rey felicity dupont {eventually}

"there's things i wanna say to you but i'll just let you live. like if you hold me without hurting me. you'll be the first who ever did"

you by miley cyrus

"i got some baggage, let do some damage. i am not made for no horsey and carriage. you know i'm savage, but you're looking past it. i want that late-night sweet magic, that forever-lasting love, but only if it's with you."

what about love? by banks bristol decker

"i belong to no one, you belong to someone else but, maybe if we just rewind the tape. give me one more chance to show you baby, maybe if you just realized what we could be. maybe if you just relearned my name. what about the life that we could make? we could grow older. what about love?"

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🥱 : fee x trav .

☎️ 𝚒𝚗𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚜𝚕𝚎𝚎𝚙𝚢 𝚟𝚘𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝚖𝚊𝚒𝚕 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 : 𝐟𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐭𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐬

"i guess you're sleeping, i know it's late. i couldn't sleep and i....just figured it would probably be easier if you were here. but tomorrow's another day, right? goodnight, trav."

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📸 - Ford & Fee

📸 𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎 𝚏𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚌𝚒𝚝𝚢'𝚜 𝚌𝚊𝚖𝚎𝚛𝚊 𝚛𝚘𝚕𝚕 : 𝐟𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐨𝐧

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[felicity] ✰

✰ - … My muse’s best friend ; mallory wells

you're the closest thing to family that i've ever known. since i was sixteen years old, you're all that i've had, the only person i have to lean on, to depend on. everyone else is gone. and i'm scared that one day, you'll be gone, too. i don't tell you things anymore, because you have enough on your plate, you have a whole other person to look after, a person who deserves to be surrounded by nothing but the best. and i'm not the best, i'm far from it. you're the closest thing to family that i've ever known, but family's always left me.

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aperol spritz & piña colada - for felicity.

[ piña colada ]  how do they show affection?

she's never been an overtly affectionate person (unless drunk), but one of the few ways in which she does is if she shares her music with you. not many people have heard her sing, let alone know that she has hundreds of notebooks filled with lyrics she's written over the years, so if she shares that with you, you must be someone special.

{aperol was anwered for her already}

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FELICITY / [ aperol spritz ]  which is one thing they still think about a lot?

"i think a lot about my younger self...and how much i'm letting her down."

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(for whoever!) describe your dream proposal scenario.

"marriage is a social construct that deludes people into thinking that because they're bound together by law, they belong to each other when in reality, fifty percent of marriages end in divorce and twenty five percent of all married people have cheated on their spouses and people don't belong to people. so i'll pass on the whole proposal thing."

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( felicity ) are you going to miss travis once filming wraps ?

🗲 𝐇𝐎𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐘 𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝟎𝟎𝟏: "i'm excited for my next project."