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Harry + Gentle touch
This man deserves to be pat on the back and feel good about it (Kim is ON that mission)
#Saw a few posts about mischaracterization of Harry as a touchy person#when my man is traumatized and initiates touch maybe three whole times in the game (and the hug can go not great for him too)#while kim is described as cold and detached when this guy cannot keep his hands to himself PLEASE#but Harry deserve to know he isn't scum and deserves touch to feel good and reasuring and im clawing at my face#anyway i love all of these sm#disco elysium#harry du bois#I made this
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rip jayvik divorce era you will forever be missed
#this is lowkey a redraw of a piece i did in 2022???#idk i miss machine herald#jayvik#arcane#is this a safe space can i say i didn't rlly vibe with viktor and the hexcore....#it felt too organic idk and like he was detached from it all#and the mh design.... still not sure how i feel about it#they gave him a slutty waist so that's a win i guess ???#gonna delete in the morning if i get anxious dhdh#hummise art
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Sub Bucky and a breeding kink 💀 dead unlived it's one of my favourite things 😌
This is pretty high up there on my list of dream fantasies 🥵 these are two of my biggest weaknesses, don't even look at me rn
One of life's greatest joys is cuddling with the other person's head resting on your chest so you can play with their hair and rub their shoulders. I love that shit, having someone else's body weight on you is so comforting.
I imagine that's something Bucky would really enjoy too. It's so soft and sweet and tender and getting to feel cared for would really appeal to him.
But that's up until his hands work their way under your top, up over your bare skin so he's able to cup your breasts and bury his face between them while he's getting his hair played with. Life's pleasures don't get much simpler than that.
After a few moments he shifts slightly, tugging the neckline of your shirt out of the way to give himself space to kiss and nip your skin. All of a sudden he's desperate and it's beautiful to watch.
"Please." He whispers between frantic kisses, flicking his tongue over the stiff peak of your nipple before engulfing it with his warm, eager mouth.
"Please, what?" You tease, tugging on his hair just a little for emphasis.
He groans, frustrated by his own lack of coherence, pulling his mouth from your nipple. "Please let me put a baby in you."
That's not what you were expecting but fuck, he makes it sound pretty appealing.
"Bucky-" You begin but he cuts you off, giving your other nipple the same attention as he gave the first. God, that's distracting.
"You'd make. Such. A pretty. Mommy." He whispers, kissing his way down your body until he reaches the bottom seam of your top. From there, he pulls it off, letting it fall to the floor before removing the rest of your clothes.
"You'd look so pretty with a little baby bump." His huge hand rests on your bare tummy, imaging how your body would change.
"I want it, Buck." You mean it too. It doesn't sound like such a bad idea when he's taking his clothes off.
"I know you want it." He groans, rubbing the tip of his dick against your soaked core. "Y-you're so wet."
He presses his hips forward, sliding inside you and you can't explain it but you swear it feels different this time.
"Don't even think about pulling out." You cup his face in your hands, keeping his eyes on you and you almost worry he's going to fuck himself senseless into you. "I want you to make me a mommy. You're going to give me every single drop of cum and when it starts to drip out of me, you're going to fuck it back in."
His head falls onto your shoulder, sobbing a pathetic moan against your already hot skin. The pace of his thrusts matches his need, his hips slamming into yours and when he finally gives in, he cums inside you with your legs clamped around his waist, making sure he couldn't pull out even if he wanted to.
#asks answered <3#becca writes spice#anon#sub!bucky#subby bucky#this is one of those fantasies that's nice in my head#I think I'd like to be at that point in my life but it's absolutely not where I'm at rn#maybe some day tho#I started writing a new series yesterday#making a lil moodboard#excited to post the concept#can't decide if I want each chapter to feel like a continuation of the one before#or if I want the chapters to be more detached from each other with time passing in between#might actually space it out over a weekend?#I took my lil granny out for lunch today and she's just the cutest#she usually comes up to ours for Sunday lunch but my parents were out this weekend#so I made her dinner last night and took it down to her and I asked if she wanted to go out for Sunday lunch for a change#she made me book the table right there in front of her so she'd be able to look forward to it 🥺#I sat with her for over an hour yesterday evening and she smiled nearly the whole time#she's too cute I swear
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"Our paths diverged long ago. It was affection that held us together." Hello? HELLO??????????????
#putting this in a separate post because people need to see how insane this is#i like how viktor specifically calls it affection- not love or friendship or anything- it feels so detached compared to what jayce feels#will write abt this in another another post. maybe. if school allows :(#guys.... guys...... i cannot do this#i was not. ready for that#i need to vomit#he was literally taking care of viktor for who knows how like and they just break up#JAYCE WAS SO EMOTIONAL TOO and viktor was so like... distant#break up arcccccc 🤪#effects of the hexcore me thinks#jayvik#arcane spoilers#arcane season 2#viktor#jayce#jayce talis#arcane writers i am shaking you by the shoulders
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I know I predicted radio silence from me...But I had what I think is a cool idea and wanted to share it before anything gets disproven in the next episode (Brief, singular mention of the Eden!Culprit theory).
So, I saw a lot of people talking about the Arei-Eden parallels, and the Ace-Arei parallels (and differences), and the Min-Eden parallels in the hug scene...Because of that, I started thinking about how Eden and Ace relate to all the others. And then I remembered the very obvious Teruko-Ace parallels.
Ace and Teruko both trusted someone who betrayed them in one way or another. Teruko with...Well, everyone, and especially Min, and Ace with Levi. In chapter two, they're both pretty similar, being closed-off and trying to not care about others with varying degrees of success. And, of course, Ace almost dies just like Teruko did, in an attempted murder.
All those things are fairly obvious, especially them being the only participants to be almost-victims. And I'd always noticed that, but it got me thinking...
In chapter one, Teruko was the victim of an attempted murder, surviving on the pure luck of the knife just-so-happening to miss anything vital in her abdomen. Then, instead of sympathy for her life almost being taken, people are upset with/suspicious of her because they think she was the one who killed Xander. And that fact is no fault of Teruko's, she just had the misfortune of being at the scene of the crime (and Min moving the evidence to further incriminate her). Barely anyone asks if she's okay or shows much concern other than Min, who betrays her, and Eden. She is then forced to defend herself in the trial almost completely alone until finally some others start to come to her defense.
In chapter two, Ace has been put in the position of being the victim of a murder attempt but surviving through the pure luck of Eden and Teruko just-so-happening to come to the second floor late at night. If Teruko hadn't happened to forget her clothes on the second floor, chances are that Ace would be dead. No one feels sorry for what Ace went through, because he was a total asshole to Nico and along with no one taking him seriously to begin with, they think he, in a way, had it coming, trauma and injuries be damned. Now, he is forced to defend himself, presumably alone unless Levi decides he wants to help and be the Eden equivalent. And Ace has been blamed for Arei's death not through any fault of his own, but because he had the misfortune of being at the scene of the crime, where someone else tried to murder him.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that it would honestly be pretty cool if Ace finished this chapter going through rather similar events to the ones Teruko experienced last chapter. Some people say that Ace being her parallel will show her during this chapter that distrusting isn't the right way to go, but he doesn't have to die to show her that at this very moment. Hell, it might hit even harder if he manages to go through everything she did, since it would make them even more similar.
Plus, if Eden is the Min parallel, and Ace is the Teruko parallel, that's pretty dang cool! Of course, if Ace does all the Teruko stuff during the trial, it makes sense for Eden to have done all the Min stuff...And I mean, the episode seems to be saying that's depressingly possible, so maybe.
So yeah, I just thought Ace and Teruko's similarities continuing into the trial would be fun. After all, he's been pretty consistent about following in her footsteps so far, so you never know. Like imagine if he says a protag line or something it'd be hilarious. Especially if all his points during his defense are like Teruko's, but with an Ace-y twist that makes them more funny or stupid or whatever. Fun!
Or who knows, maybe Ace will just hire David as his defense attorney, since he's the only one to have successfully defended Ace so far. /j
#as funny as an episode from ace's perspective would be i doubt he'd go full-protag mode like that#that's probably waaaay too far of a stretch#but him simply wrapping up his teruko parallels feels a little plausable to me#especially since they made the point of making the eden-min connections really obvious#ace being completely detached from those parallels and just being some guy who's also there wouldn't be quite as cool imo#disclaimer that i know ace isn't 100% blameless in the nico situation but i was trying to make a point so sorry if it sounded like that#...hm...i guess you could argue that teruko herself is just the teruko in this situation not ace#...i might have overthought things again--#danganronpa despair time#drdt#drdt spoilers#ace markey#teruko tawaki
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you will always live on in the hearts of those who loved you btw
#sorry this is SO RANDOM BUT#been thinking abt friends on here who left or deactivated#and missing them a lot#and i called one of my irl friends today and we were talking and i was like ‘man i miss you so much it’s so nice to talk to you’#and she was so casual like ‘oh yeah i always check your location when i get home to know if you’re at home too and i have a reminder set to-#-call you every week!!!’ and i just like . almost started crying????#bc like she knew i love talking to her but don’t have the time or mental bandwidth to do it rn#and so she just . cared enough to know that and do it#and sometimes it can be easy to feel like we don’t matter or that people don’t see us#but there are those who love you so deeply#and care about you in ways only they can#even if you feel distant or detached#even if they aren’t present anymore#there will always be a space for you in someone’s heart#even if it’s mine!!!!!! i love all of you really truly i do!!!!!!#im so grateful for all the friends ive made on here and all our little interactions#i truly care for each and every one of you :’)#you are more loved than you could ever know#DJSKCKDK SORRH THIS GOT LONG AND SAPPY HAHAHAHAHAHHAA#was in a yearning longing mood today HAHAHAHAHA#anyways here’s your weekly unsolicited quinn advice i suppose :33#i love you all!!!!! i hope you’re having a great day and week <333#q speaks
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my new miffy erasers ᐢ. ₓ .ᐢ
#feel free to remove caption but make sure to credit if reposting please!#they’re detachable erasers that came with two super cute pencils and a little plastic case that has her reading a book on the front so#I just love being gifted stationery it makes me so happy even though I feel bad using some of the stuff because it's just too adorable lol#mine#miffy#miffy the rabbit#miffy and friends#i love miffy#miffy aesthetic#miffy icons#stationery#cute stationery#kawaii stationery#cute#cutecore#cute aesthetic#kawaii#kawaiicore#kawaii community#kawaii cute#pastel#pastel aesthetic#pastelcore#pastel colors#soft#softcore#soft aesthetic#toycore#school supplies
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I love how despite learning so much about her in chapter four, there's still a lot we don't know about Poppy.
We learn that after the Hour of Joy, she acted as the leader of the Safe Haven toys. But at some point, she left for reasons that we don't know and gets shut up in her case by the Prototype. We don't know exactly how long she was gone, just that it was long enough for the others to lose faith in her. We know that she won't tell Doey about the case, but why is that? Kissy knows, if only because Poppy talks about it to the employee in front of her, but why not Doey?
We learn that she's Elliot Ludwig's daughter, but unlike a lot of the other characters we meet, we still don't know her human name (Assuming it isn't actually just Poppy) or her experiment number. All we can do is narrow it down to somewhere between 814 and 1006.
Everything I learn about her raises another question. Poppy's like a puzzle to me, and I can't wait to see the rest of pieces fall into place.
#poppy playtime#poppy playtime poppy#i wonder about her a lot#although i worry my theories leans a little too close to headcanon territory#like#that cheery and affable persona she had at the beginning of chapter two? a part of me feels like she *is* like that to an extent#but she plays it up in the beginning of the chapter so the player will trust her a little more easily#or that she acts stronger than she is around others#although the prototype does call her out on that one#or that detached almost monotone voice at the end of the chapter?#i sometimes wonder if that's how she copes with being trapped#since she acts like that immediately once she's unstuck from the wall#but she doesn't do it at the beginning of the chapter because she's had a little while to reorient herself#admittedly that's the one that really feels more headcanon than theory#but in one of the tapes ollie goes “i know what you're doing poppy. talking like that”#so maybe i'm right? idk
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considering changing 🦇’s emoji to 🐦⬛. we bonded over iwtv but we don’t talk about it anymore and he likes birds. still brainstorming other possibilities tho
#the problem is i blog in a goth manner and it’s kinda hard to see the bird against a black bg#or maybe 💼? but that feels too cold.. a little detached
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I broke my rules for you only to realize i betrayed myself for nothing.
#things i never thought i'd say#angst#sad realization#sad thoughts#sadgirl#things i wish you knew#first love#letting go#spilling thoughts#literary quotes#past love#poetic#being in love#lovers#love quotes#i'm not gonna wait for you anymore#detachment#i deserve better#moving on#feeling deeply#personal#original#things unsaid#i was in too deep#unsent messages#unsent letters#did you know#i miss you#him
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1998’s Gus the theatre cat is so so painful for me and I can’t praise it enough for that. like - the shaking, the aimless wandering…., his vision of the past that nobody else can see, that he’s chasing in such a confused way because it’s the only thing that feels familiar,,,,,,,,,,the frailty of the voice, the way he cries into Jellylorum’s chest, the tangible sense of grief !!!!!! and the way Old Deuteronomy encourages the other Jellicles to show him both affection and respect, honoring him for the life he’s lived………. I don’t think I can ever be normal about this sorry!!!!
#not going to go too deep into it but like. for anyone who’s ever experienced caring for a loved one with dementia it just hits SO different.#and there’s almost like this sense of…….detachment from Jellylorum. like she doesn’t GET it and that just feels SO real.#and the way Deuteronomy treats him is so very peerlike like he KNOWS who Gus was for real & is just trying his best to be there for him now#just the deep sense of respect he harbors for him shown in the gentle way he guides him is just the most painful in the world!!!!!!! it#it’s so important to me#cats the musical#cats 1998#gus the theatre cat#jellylorum#old deuteronomy
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fighting the mydei demons so hard but failing. worst part is I can't even write a good fic for him because I'm just not invested in the amphoreus storyline thematically tbh AFKFBEKFNDND sorry for the world building liberties I'm about to take in this fic
#even the ethnic tension and displacement stuff feels a little too. detached from reality for me to really dig into it#they spoiled me with aventurine and sunday LOL their arcs were thematically quite juicy#we'll see how it pans out but so far id rank amphoreus story writing below penacony but above luofu and belobog#yueshuo
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gatsby designs. does this make any sense.

#covers ears and shields face so the audience does not throw tomatoes to get me off stage#extra things:#if youre even looking at the tags:#they all have some white on them as like a connecting link#jordans hair is supposed to be kind of orangey brown because nick says its like an autumn leaf and. yea#toms overcoat represents like power/anonymity/detachment#im too tired to change it but if i did id make his overcoat gold and undervest black as like his inner feelings cuz. fear#nick and daisy both have little matching moles#and nick wears a tie about the color of her hair#daisy wears her headpiece with gold and black for tom#showing how even as shes with gatsby toms in her mind kind of like? a shield#daisy's not as tanned as any of them for her being kind of stowed in her comfortability of. riches you know#while nick/gatsby were in the war#jordan does sports etc#they tan!#the great gatsby#great gatsby#jett talks (me)#jett art (me)#nick carraway#jay gatsby#daisy buchanan#tom buchanan#jordan baker
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[modern] cael | red dress, white dress
After Cael picks up a new hobby relating to your latest work, the two of you discuss weddings and wedding dresses. It ends with a proposal, from you to him.
1.8k, set after qixi [+ some spoilers for his whisper], romantic fluff + super self-indulgent, reader is mc, sequel to this cael fic [but you don't have to read it in order], series: none


IN THE TIME SINCE THE night of the QIxi festival, Cael has discovered an amusing new hobby with which to occupy himself with, when he's with you.
The words that the painter and the spirit speak—particularly towards end of your oneshot—are, evidently, not unrelated to your relationship with him. That much is obvious. And it'd be rather difficult to claim otherwise, given the faces they wear.
You haven't tried to, either.
Between the two of you, there is an acknowledgment, implicit, that they are a reflection of your innermost thoughts and desires. That they are the kind of daydreams that even someone eloquent as him would find difficult to describe, domestic and loving—just tumultuous enough to describe their standing, with the sort of fairytale ending most would wish for. That they are memories, transformed only in setting and time—only this time, they are not newly acquainted or on a time limit.
He thinks of the quaint little moment where the painter promises to make sure that no one will bother his lover. Had he not done the same for you, once, long ago?
He remembers the casual affection the spirit showers upon her love too, the way she finds herself with her head on his lap underneath the wisterias, and if that ever stops feeling familiar, it must be because he's lost his mind.
After all, you've always been an affectionate person. How can he miss it when the evidence remains in the lingering heat left by your touch? Through the way you so easily take his hand, or throw your arms around him—
When your lovesick gaze isn't boring holes into his body, that is.
He's no better in that regard. In some ways, he thinks he might be worse, with the way his loving gaze seems incapable of following anyone but you. But you might turn it into a competition if he brings it up, so Cael—well aware it won't end well for him—keeps his mouth shut.
Still, it's clear that you never expected him to start quoting your dialogue back at you.
It reminds him of one of the first times he'd properly let his mask down. The way the gears turned in your head, your deer-in-headlights expression betraying your panic before he'd clarified his joke. You'd stared at him—half-relieved, half-surprised, sitting in the silence a bit longer before you laughed.
Today, when you stare at him, there is a hint of defiance peeking through from underneath your flustered mien.
You're dressed casually, in a yoga pants and an oversized t-shirt with one of your favorite cartoon characters. Jagged lines run across the drawing, signaling its age. Some parts of the design have entirely vanished, but it remains one of your most faithful companions still.
With your head on his lap and legs thrown over the armrest, you're sprawled across the couch. In your hand is your phone, and before he dropped his line of the day on you, you'd been showing him a red dress that you really liked—one you intended to buy with your next paycheck.
"Thank you." The effect of your haughty tone is greatly lessened by the scarlet hue painting your cheeks. You clear your throat. "Does that mean you'd like to see me in a red dress?"
Cael chuckles, brushing your hair gently. "To me, it seems like you're the one who wants to be seen in a red dress."
"Of course, I do," you reply, your hand reaching out to play with his hair. "But red or white, it's not the dress that matters. As long as there's a certain someone waiting for me at the end."
For a moment, his quick-thinking mind betrays him, offering him nothing but static. He puts down the book in his hand down and carefully adjust the bookmark until it looks neat. His attention had left its crisp pages when you'd sat down beside him, but it remained in his hand still.
Occasionally, he would flip to the next page, then remember that he had absorbed none of the words on the previous page. So, he would go back, a fact that had not escaped your keen gaze—you'd teased him plenty for it, and who was he to stop you?
"I wonder who that certain someone is," he murmurs.
"I think he knows who he is," you answer, holding onto the end of his now braided strands. After a moment of digging around in your pockets, and the sofa as well, you managed to find a hair tie. "Or, he should, by this point."
"Indeed," Cael says, earning himself a wry smile from you. "It would be difficult to miss."
Enamored by your smile, he sifts through his memories, searching for the line that had left every single reader in desperate search of their own painter.
You'd been rather pleased when you went scrolling through the comments, with a smile so big it bordered on evil. So pleased, in fact, that you made sure to show him every such comment. The underlying meaning to your words was clear—you'd already found your painter, after all.
You'd have a big ego if you were dating someone so pretty too, you'd said, when he'd commented offhandedly on it.
He remembers responding with:
Then I'm certain I have the biggest ego out of anyone.
Though, his words ended up only disarming you for a brief second. It wasn't long before you were throwing your arms around him and calling him a liar ". But for the time being, the comment section was forgotten, and it was just you and him—and Beanie, watching you both from his favorite spot underneath the round table in the corner, seemingly miffed at being excluded.
He had snuck in a few extra treats for him.
Then, all was well in their relationship once more.
"'If that day ever comes, no matter what you want—'" Cael smiles helplessly, remembering the way you'd so easily captured his expression on the painter's face. "'I'll do everything in my power to bring you the most elegant wedding in the entire world.' Though you said the dress itself doesn't matter..."
You inhale sharply, seemingly forgetting—for a moment—that you're in the middle of braiding another section of his hair. When you look back at him, having looked away, your eyes are shining with poorly-disguised affection and your voice is painfully soft.
"When," you correct. "When that day comes. That's what I should've written down."
Letting go of his hair, you pull yourself off his lap and draw your knees closer to your chest. You rest your head on his shoulder. And as loose dark hair begins to tickle his cheek, his hand seeks out yours, pinky finger brushing against the back of your hand.
"When that day comes, we'll get married."
His gaze softens when he looks at you, in the midst of murmuring his agreement. Your wedding is something he's thought about often—his own is not. But now, the groom at the altar is no longer a blurry figure, devoid of any recognizable qualities and having only an aura of happiness that befits a day so celebrated.
It is something he'll ponder over until the day comes, all so that you're the happiest bride to ever live, whether on Earth or any other world.
"Good." You squeeze his hand gently. "Consider it a proposal then."
"It's the first time I've ever been proposed to," he comments offhandedly.
"Really?" For some reason, you sound surprised. And though your words sound like they could pass for a joke, the thoughtful note to them makes it clear that they are not. "Alright, I'm taking it back. I'll make sure to come back with a ring next time."
Cael smiles helplessly at you. "I'm not sure if you can take something like that back so easily."
His breath catches in his throat when you lift your head slightly to meet his gaze. Because in that moment, you're smiling at him brightly, It is blinding. While he's distracted, you lean in close and steal a quick kiss from his lips.
"Temporary measure," you respond, squinting at him in faux annoyance. "You're not getting rid of me so easily."
In a voice so soft that he's half certain you'll miss it, he says, sincerely, "I would never dream of it."
Judging by the way your smile widens into a grin, you don't miss it at all.

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"YOU KNOW, YOU MISSED IT BEFORE," you point out unexpectedly, long after they've moved on from the topic of weddings and wedding dresses.
Cael catches onto the context immediately.
It's past dinner time now. The dirty dishes in the sink wait for you and your yellow rubber gloves patiently for their turn. He'd been the one to make dinner, something quick and easy, per your request. Your wish for the day had been "a lazy day together", so your initial intention was to order to takeout.
But halfway through the day, you began to crave his cooking.
Once he'd made sure the ingredients were there, getting them both out of a trip to the supermarket, you had no reason to refuse his offer. So you'd scrapped your plans and followed him into the kitchen to help.
"I'm not sure it would've been very appropriate to point out," he says, from where he sits at the dining table.
He'd expected nothing to come out of it, so he simply never brought it up. There were more important things to worry about at the time—your presence in Godheim, and all that came after that. His heart aches at the memory of your tears, particularly because he'd been the one to cause them.
They'd never properly spoken of it—of the day Peter Pan understood, but could not bring himself to make peace with, the fact that Wendy would have to leave him one day.
"After all, you were a teenager," Cael adds, remembering what he'd told your friend Natalie. "It would be no different than taking advantage of you."
His words, however, go in one ear and go out the other. You're rather specific about what you choose to pick out from his words, your next words discarding all but the subtext.
"So, you did know about my crush on you."
Though your words are undeniably a conclusion, a statement and not a question, they carry with them an expectation of a response. You crane your neck to fix him with an equally expectant stare, as if the weight behind your words isn't enough.
"Yes, I knew about your crush on me," Cael admits wryly. A helpless sigh accompanies his words. "What brought this on?"
You hum strainedly, returning to your dishes. "Nothing."
For the time being, he leaves it at that.
It is only when the two of you happen to encounter Lars while on a date that he discovers the truth, after some coaxing on his part. That you'd been under the impression that your crush on him was a secret kept carefully under wraps. That it'd been Lars who'd guessed otherwise—after some advice on how to handle Cael's new hobby—and subsequently been proven correct, leaving you to sulk on your own.
Unsurprisingly, Cael does not manage to stifle his laughter before you notice.

#fics by aya#lovebrush chronicles#lovebrush chronicles x reader#for all time#for all time x reader#cael anselm#cael anselm x reader#lbc cael#lbc cael x reader#lovebrush cael#lovebrush cael x reader#rambles from here on ->#this has been on my to-do list since qixi ended#also i don't think it's ever said that mc had a crush on him but. i feel like that's something im very attached to#the idea of cael being mc's first love...it's just too good#wanted to add that into the story but then i couldn't fit in the quote so i said “whatever make it an extra”#now i can finally pivot to alkaid bcs. i was supposed to do alkaid but i started during maintenance. and i needed te3#anyways im really in love with the way cael promises to find the perfect dress from mc but makes it sound like he won't be part of it#sir did you miss the part where you're the groom#hc that mc didn't realize how detached painter!cael sounded until she read it much later and hated using “if” vs “when”#just in general im in love with the whisper bcs. if you've seen me on discord lmao#at the time of writing this it's still in my name
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#not a vent just a journal entry (feel free to scroll past; there is no snz here and this is also not that interesting)#realizing now that i never thought of myself as#someone whose absence would register to others in any other way than just neutral/detached recognition?#phrasing this really badly and i am truly going to delete this later bc it is embarrassing LOL#i think when i was young and posting all this fic into questionable places (the f*rum) i was like#(@ an unfinished work of mine) no way anyone could be bothered by these cliffhangers 👍 they can just imagine the ending#even though i would frequently be bothered by other people's cliffhangers. that exact same principle just wouldn't apply to me in my head#and when i did not respond to people i was like.. i'm sure i wasn't really an important part of their lives so they won't mind it#if i stepped away?#i never really entertained the concept of people missing me or looking forward to my responses 😭 i never thought of myself as someone worth#missing... so when i disappeared it was always with little to no sense of guilt. i think even now i struggle with#seeing myself as someone that inhabits like a tangible enough space in other people's lives that my absence would be felt#(and i don't mean that in a morbid way. and i do recognize that it's quite hypocritical)#on the flipside of things i frequently miss people and look forward to their responses. and sometimes i wonder like#do they all know? do they all know that i miss them because they somehow understand this aspect of human nature better than i do?#or are they in the dark like i am? are these things assumed or are they only known when they are said... 😭#i am a little bit of a coward so i am not saying anything (also because can you even say this kind of thing to someone??#i would probably die of embarrassment) but#how strange it is to have someone suddenly inhabit a space in your life that is substantial enough that#when they're gone you feel that space open up and you miss them#the few times in my life people have conveyed that sentiment to me i remember feeling puzzled that my presence could have that kind of#weight to them. i think my problem is that i purposefully do not read between the lines if the conclusion is something favorable towards me#because i don't want to bank on something good that might or might not be true 😭 anyways this is way too long already. if you read this#then good morning or goodnight
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You know one thing that really bothers me about the idea that if Ayame was around when Akane was revealed as despair her first/main reaction would be "I can fix her" and put all her might into trying to get Akane to change is that it feels like Ayame as a person is being completely ignored in the equation.
Seriously, have you guys ever thought about how Ayame would be feeling when receiving that information? Because i think she would be pretty fucking devastated if she was there to see someone she cared about so much turn out to be one of the people who made them go through this hellish killing game. Hell, i always thought that if she hadn't broken/lost hope thus far this would be her breaking point.
Do you really think she would have the mind to completely push past all that in a millisecond and go "NOOOO AKANE I WILL SAVE YOU‼️‼️‼️"? Don't get me wrong i could totally see her being in denial, but i don't think her will would be that strong to be doing that the whole chapter when she would be hurting so fucking bad on the inside.
Would she even be able to go after Akane afterwards? Would she be able to bring herself to look at her in the face? Have you guys ever considered that? That maybe seeing the person you once found comfort and joy in twisted into a ruthless despair would really hurt a lot for someone who cared so so deeply like Ayame?
This is, once again, Ayame being boiled down to a tool for Akane's character instead of being treated as a character in her own right and I don't need to see more of that.
#this isn't directed to anyone specifically just this general concept. i got an ask that made me think of this again and this ramble#turned out way too long and too detached from the context of the ask itself#anyways. i know that Linuj has apparently said if Ayame had made it through chapter 6 things coul have gone differently#but i don't think her just tuning off any personal feelings on the matter and focusing 100% into wanting to save Akane#is what he meant by that#and again. i could see her being in the denial. i could see her wanting to save Akane#just not in this detached-of-feelings manner I've seen people mention/hc/joke about every now and then#hyena ramblings#dra#danganronpa another#Ayame Hatano#Akane Taira
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