#feelin pretty ehhhh about it

[jobbot]

hydrogen bomb vs coughing baby

[atomicjules-blog]

INTERVIEW MEME

——— character question sheet

▌REAL NAME: jules eleanor vaughn ▌SINGLE OR TAKEN: verse dependent, but on a neutral level.. single but also v affectionate and kind of a thing w/ rue as we see in the canon storyline of s1 ▌ABILITIES OR POWERS:  being adorable lbr, being an actual fairy ▌EYE COLOR: light blue w/ a dark blue rim around it ▌HAIR COLOR:  usually white-ish blonde with varying added colors depending on her vibe atm ▌FAMILY MEMBERS: dad (who she adores). mom (who isn’t in the picture anymore). her grandparents on her dad’s side, her pets (dog, cat, lizard) ▌SOMETHING THEY DON’T LIKE: violence, bigotry, letting others down, someone being mad at her, loneliness, bland things, lack of color, math, mean hearted people  ▌HOBBIES / ACTIVITIES: fashion, makeup, astrology, meeting new people, having fun, watching film/foreign film/tv/anime, observing various cultures, exploring, crystals, caring for her pets/plants, mythology, drawing/art ▌EVER HURT ANYONE BEFORE:  i mean yes but never ever with purpose  ▌EVER KILLED ANYONE BEFORE: UM NO not this baby ▌WORST HABITS: acting on impulse, putting herself in unsafe situations, self-harm (of several sorts), being too much of a people pleaser ▌ROLE MODELS: every magical girl in every anime ever i guess ▌SEXUAL ORIENTATION: jules just goes with the flow of what she’s feelin lulz ▌THOUGHTS ON MARRIAGE/KIDS: marriage? one day probs but kids ehhhh  ▌FEARS: ... i’ll just do the main ones. being stuck in a nightmare, choking on something, being dead/a ghost and not knowing, being abandoned, the dark if shes alone (shhhhh)   ▌STYLE PREFERENCES: harajuku reference, “kawaii” jfashion reference, 90s and early 2000s reference, very light lolita reference, goth reference, grunge reference, bright colors, pastels, fun textures, faux fir, mix of patterns, short skirts, chunky boots/sneakers, flowers, cutesy 

▌SOMEONE THEY LOVE:  RUE BENNETT!!!! ▌APPROACH TO FRIENDSHIPS: she just loves to fill them with love!!! super lovey right off the bat and is ride or die for the true ones. she loves to compliment and show little tokens of appreciation and send cute texts! she’s the friend who would do something crazy w/ u  ▌THOUGHTS ON PIE: SOUR CHERRY!!!!!! PUMPKIN!!!!!!!!!! ▌FAVORITE DRINK:  honeydew bubble tea ▌FAVORITE PLACE TO SPEND TIME AT: on her bike finding new places she likes, her room, antique shops, forests ▌SWIM IN THE LAKE OR IN THE OCEAN: either! but prefers ocean  ▌THEIR TYPE: no specific type but she likes guys her age up to much older.. brunette masc more filled out figured guys that make her feel xtra delicate and cute hahah. tall!!!! muscles!! with girls??? she just likes all the pretty girls idk she loves all girls. she likes someone who likes to pull the reigns and be someone who can teach her something in life persay.. someone with a soft side and an appreciation for art and at least a moderate concern for social issues. someone who she can talk about random topics and deep subjects with (like aliens, astrology, past lives, conspiracy theories, art meaning, spirituality, film), someone who is gentle with animals, someone protective but who will still let her be her free authentic self  ▌CAMPING OR INDOORS: both!!!!! she loves outdoors and indoors 

TAGGED BY: @kitkween TAGGING: anybody who wants to do it!!! i don’t wanna leave anyone out 

[yoochann]

92 Truths

Rules: Tag 20 people

I was tagged by @jxnhees (who btw is great for being able to keep conversation with me: a brick wall) @kangyoochanie @wacested @seyoon-ace and also (technicallyyyyyy) by @junheeschoice 😘

THE LAST…

1.Drink: sparkling grapefruit water (ik ik fancy right?)

2.Phone call: ehhhh it might have been for some kinda takeout

3.Text message: uhhh the s f 9 group chat more specifically kim i guess

4.Song you listened to: whiplash - nct 127

5.Time you cried: i didnt say this ok but it was definitely during the yh dance practice that went up yesterday

HAVE YOU EVER…

6.Dated someone twice: nope i would have to date someone first 

7.Been cheated on: no

8.Kissed someone and regretted it: nope

9.Lost someone special: sort of 

10.Been depressed: yeah

11.Gotten drunk and thrown up: nope

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

pastel  pink

yellow

baby blue

15.Made new friends: yeah

16.Fallen out of love: nah

17.Laughed until you cried:  all the time

18.Found out someone was talking about you: unfortunately 

19.Met someone who changed you: yes

20.Found out who your true friends are: mmmmmm

21.Kissed someone on your Facebook list: no lol

GENERAL…

22.How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them but tbh who uses facebook???

23.Do you have any pets: i have 2 cats and a dog

24.Do you want to change your name: i guess my names fine

25.What did you do for your last birthday: ha funny story we went to go see a performance in boston, but i was really stressed about school at the time and fell ill and yeah that ruined everything lmao

26.What time did you wake up: 7? maybe cant remember

27.What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping 

28.Name something you cannot wait for: graduation next year

29.When was the last time you saw your mother: couple minutes ago 

30.What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: hmmm i kinda wish i grew up in a better area tbh

31.What are you listening to right now: diplomat’s son - vampire weekend

32.Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yeah

33.Something that is getting on your nerves: idk man maybe like general negativity?

34.Most visited website: tumblr and google docs

35.Elementary: is this asking like if ive been through it? then yes

36. High School: almost done

37.College/university: planning to go

38.Hair color: blonde (but like honestly basically yellow)

39.Long or short hair: longish like mid back

40.Do you have a crush on someone: not a legitimate one  

41.What do you like about yourself: idk my eyes? or maybe like i’d say im a pretty soft person in general so maybe that

42.Piercings: my ears

43.Blood type: no idea! but like probably O thats the safe guess

44.Nickname: jess

45.Relationship status: single

46.Zodiac sign: gemini

47.Pronouns: she/her

48.Favorite tv show: for korean shows its weightlifting fairy. for american shows its chopped

49.Tattoos: no

50.Right or left hand: right

51.Surgery: nope (im getting my wisdom teeth out soon tho)

52.Piercings: this was already a question

54.Sport: never lol. unless u count dance then ive been doing that for like 12 years 

55.Vacation: I want to go to Japan during cherry blossom season!!

57.Eating: fave food is probably like ice cream 

58.Drinking: green tea or smoothies 

59.I’m about to: idk mess around some more and not be productive

60.Listening to: know me - dpr live

61.Waiting for: legitimate relaxation

62.Want: svea made me emo so now i want to meet my internet friends :’(

63.Get married: eventually but not too early in life

64.Career: architecture or design 

WHICH IS BETTER…

65.Hugs or kisses: hugs

66.Lips or eyes: eyes

67.Shorter or taller: taller

68.Older or younger: younger dont @ me about this tho

70.Nice arms or nice stomach: arms 

71.Sensitive or loud: cant choose tbh i guess sensitive

72.Hook up or relationship: relationship

73.Troublemaker or hesitant: either but i guess hesitant 

HAVE YOU EVER…

74.Kissed a stranger?: nope

75.Drank hard liquor?: i only drink cute drinks so no

76.Lost glasses contact/lenses?: nope 

77.Turned someone down?: i guess?

78.Sex on first date?: no

79.Broken someone’s heart?: idk probably man 

80.Had your heart broken?: ofc

81.Been arrested?: nope

82.Cried when someone died?: yeah 

83.Fallen for a friend?: 👀👀👀 anyways…..

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

84.Yourself?: eh 

85.Miracles?: no lol

86.Love at first sight?: nope

87.Santa Claus?: nah

88.Kiss on the first date?: i mean if youre really feelin it sure i guess i probably wouldnt tho

89.Angels?: mmmm not in the religious sense

OTHER…

90.Current best friend’s name: kelly/ellen sorry i cant choose

91.Eye color: blue/grey

92.Favorite movie: i dont really watch movies maybe harry potter

tagging 20 people is really going to be a challenge but lets go! I tag @seywow @aceandchoices @javajaeyoon @kimsseyoons @princechani @dnghn @princeseyoon @inv-ace-sive @seokf9 @byeonqkwan @princerowoon @kang-yoochanie @cacetus  @blubluebaby312 @donghuns @kim-seyooned @imwonwootrash @7ace @kang-chan @99hwis

[serialoddities-blog]

I was tagged by @theianitor, who is literally the sweetest ray of sunshine on Tumblr.

Coke or pepsi: BEPIS.

Disney or dreamworks: Ehhhh I think both studios have done some great work, but maybe Disney? I don’t know. I’d like to say Dreamworks because they’re more diverse and inventive but Disney has some classics.

Coffee or tea: AHHHHH I must choose between my two greatest loves. Coffee, probably. Especially if it’s iced coffee.

Books or movies: Both. I have mild ADHD so it’s hard to focus on either but movies are easier for me. I used to read a lot when I was younger so it’s a shame that I’ve strayed away from that, but my goal is to read a lot more this summer.

Windows or mac: Windows. I’ve never used a Mac.

Dc or marvel: DC

Xbox or playstation: Xbox. Even though I know Microsoft is a flaming dumpster of a company. It’s more that I only ever played on Xbox systems growing up so they’re familiar. They’re definitely not better than Playstation. 

Dragon age or mass effect: They’re both my absolute favourite series but I’d have to give the edge to Dragon Age because I played the series first. Also Cullen Rutherford is my husbando.

Night owl or early riser: Night owl. Woooo insomnia.

Cards or chess: Chess.

Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla.

Vans or converse: Never had either.

Lavellan, trevelyan, cadah, or adaar: Oooo this is tough. I like playing as elves or humans. Qunari characters look badass but I found that they’re stories / romance options were limited in comparison to the other species.

Fluff or angst: Angst. Then fluff.

Beach or forest: Beach.

Dogs or cats: Cats. I like dogs but they’re a lot of work.

Clear skies or rain: Rain.

Cooking or eating out: Eating out because I literally can’t cook anything without ruining it.

Spicy food or mild food: Both. Spicy food is yummy tho.

Halloween/samhain or solstice/yule/christmas: Halloween is amazing because horror movies and candy and Spook Aesthetic, but Christmas is also amazing because of the Cozy Aesthetic and hot chocolate. 

Would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot: Cold. Growing up I never had air conditioning so being too hot has plagued me my entire life, LOL. Screw hot, sticky summer weather tbh.

If you could have a superpower, what would it be: I know this is super weird and specific, but definitely dream manipulation. You could give your enemies terrible nightmares. You could subtly manipulate people’s actions without them ever guessing it was you. And you could also get into someone’s subconscious and understand what they’re really thinking / what they really want. Idk is that weird?????????? sorry lmfao

Animation or live action: Both.

Paragon or renegade: Paragon.

Baths or showers: Showers, but if I’m Feelin’ Fancy and want to spoil myself I’ll have a bath.

Team cap or Team ironman: I don’t follow the Marvel universe at all. 

Fantasy or sci-fi: I CAN’T CHOOSE!!!!!

Do you have three or four favourite quotes? If so what are they?:

“atrast nal tunsha- may you always find your way in the dark.” - Dragon Age

“To be yourself you need to suffer, pretty thing.” - I can’t remember, it was in a documentary and someone getting interviewed said that. It really stuck with me.

“When I die I’ll go to Heaven because I have spent my time in Hell” - A paraphrase of a US Marines military song that was popularized during the Vietnam War.

“If love could have saved you, you would have lived forever.” - David Ellsworth

Youtube or netflix: Both. If I had neither I would die of boredom.

Harry potter or percy jackson: Harry Potter.

When do you feel accomplished: If I get out of bed on time lmao

Star wars or star trek: Star Trek.

Paperback books or hardback books: Hardback.

Horror or rom-com? Probably horror. I’ve seen about three romantic comedies in my life and they either verge into the territory of cringe or are alright. 

To live in a world without literature or music: Music.

Pastel colors or dark colors: AhhHHHhhhHHH. I can’t choose!!!!!!! My favourite colours are a combination of both lmao.

Tv shows or movies: Depends.

City or countryside: Countryside.

If any other zodiac sign could describe you, what would it be: I think Sagittarius suits me just fine. I don’t really pay much attention to the Zodiac, anyhow.

If you could only listen to one album for the rest of your life what would it be? Anything by Grime or maybe Enya.

Cinema or theatre? Theatre. :^)

If you could be any fictional character’s best friend, who’d you be? I’d love to friends with anyone on the Normandy from Mass Effect. I feel like Joker or Liara would be an amazing friend. Or Garrus because he is my favourite space lizard man. Maybe Dorian from Dragon Age because he’s a smartass. 

Smiling or smirking? Smiling. If I smirk it looks like I’m forcing it so it just looks like a creepy grimace.

Are you an ‘all or nothing’ type or are you more consistent? I am an indecisive being and have abandoned more projects than I have finished them. I am not consistent, I feel like I’m constantly changing.

Playlists or your whole library on shuffle? Usually shuffle. But I always skip a bunch of songs loool.

Travelling or staying at home? Travelling. Mostly because I dislike the city I’m in and would love to see the world.

If you could have a meal with three people, alive and dead, who would you choose? Marilyn Monroe, Audrey Hepburn and Lucille Ball. I love Classical Hollywood cinema so I feel like they’d be really interesting people to talk to.

Favourite sports team? Uhhhhh honestly I don’t really watch too many sports aside from F1. So maybe McLaren.

Thanks for the tag! I tag @mussolinguini, @raginghuman, @ladyrindt or anyone else who wants to do it. :^)

[cosmosogler]

hi guys, sorry i didn’t post yesterday. my meds ran out on tuesday and i have been feeling like hot garbage. i did pick them up today though so hopefully i’ll start feeling ok again tomorrow. i also seem to be struggling with the beginning of yet another cold.

i wanted to go to bed 20 minutes ago, but i got distracted by some tv show review videos on youtube. i also can’t seem to put my game down again.

i need to... do... something. anything. i did take wiley out for a walk today, for an hour, because we got hit with a cold front last night and it was pretty nice out. other than being kinda humid, which didn’t feel too great on my stuffy nose with the pollen and everything. 

ehhhh. not a lot going on upstairs the last few days. i was going to take eve out for a walk around the block but after i got wiley inside i was exhausted and still feelin awful. dad said her surgery isn’t actually scheduled, since my uncle seems to have forgotten to call dad back to actually set a date. i should take her out more before she can’t go, but it doesn’t feel right to take her without diogi. i need to make a decision there.

i really, really hope that i’ll start feeling better within a day or two now that i’ve got my meds refilled. i do not like being a useless lump. i so badly didn’t want to deal with people today that i went around the back of the neighborhood mostly, behind the houses rather than in front. 

it’s hard to describe how exactly i’m feeling. it’s definitely a physical thing, but also, i feel dumber than usual. i’ve got a headache and a stuffy nose, but also very little motivation to do things. like eat or sleep or communicate. sleeping is the worst. my mind can’t seem to be bothered to come up with anything to look at dream wise. like man, even my overactive imagination don’t got nothing to say. i guess i can’t always be a horrifying fountain of words. 

i asked dad if he wanted to start watching jojo again tonight after work and he said probably not. he didn’t even come over to say hi to me when he got home. maybe he didn’t enjoy the show as much as i thought he did? maybe he feels like neglecting my interests since i didn’t have the energy to play board games with him the last few weeks? maybe i was just telling myself i didn’t have the energy and should have just tried harder.

that specific phrase keeps popping up again and again, doesn’t it? when it comes up i not only feel intensely inadequate, but i also kind of observe it with a cold detachment. yeah, of course that’s something mom’s always said to me. i wish i could put it out of my mind. you can tell yourself that someone else’s opinion doesn’t matter til the cows come home, but at the end of the day it’s still going to be there. especially when they say it like every day for 24 years. internalization is a strange thing.

i wish i could do the cold detachment thing more, but at the same time, i kind of hate that about myself? i mean, it’s a good way to keep people and feelings at arm’s length, and it’s a nice tool to use to make quick decisions. but at the same time, i feel like it lends itself really well to experiencing people as, i guess, also tools, or complicated machines, instead of the unfathomable, unpredictable beings that they are? or maybe getting the feeling that any person could turn on me at any moment for any reason is a confidence issue? but it happens, like, all the time. people slam dunk me into the garbage like moldy bread for all kinds of reasons, most of which i don’t even have any control over. like my sex drive...

the main thing that makes that, sort of, ruthlessness ugly when i used to be kind of proud of it is that craig used it too. i don’t want to manipulate people... i tell myself it’s different, because i want to help people, but it’s still, the same tactic. you know? but it’s the only thing that let me survive growing up around mom, is learning how to push people around. not physically, but by, like, telling them something and making it sound like their idea. even giving people pep talks or trying to give advice feels uncomfortably like i fancy myself some kind of chessmaster. and... i don’t want to. but do i do it anyway? 

it’s nuts. i can see my self doubt unraveling and dripping all over the words but i can’t do anything about it. i don’t know me. i don’t know what i got. how am i supposed to go anywhere when every step feels like the rug could be pulled out from under me at any time by my own brain? let alone by other people that i have no control over? i know the answer isn’t to have more control, but to let go. but even when i want to let go, and i try to, that doesn’t mean it happens, and i don’t know whether i actually have or not, and that uncertainty in myself kind of... sucks. it really sucks. 

what also sucks is that i probably wouldn’t feel like this if mom wasn’t a total dick. and if craig wasn’t cancerous. and if i wasn’t bullied every day for four years in christian school. i’d probably be a lot happier if that stuff hadn’t happened to me. 

and then i have another fun round of “what is my fault and what isn’t? how far can i get if all i do is push my faults and shortcomings off on other people? i should be stronger than this. if i just tried harder...”

yeah, me too, me. if only.

[trashikino]

here is an about-meme-thing,,, usually i do not do these but im feelin it today and i got tagged by roomie so its like....i Gotta,,, i must Appease her

anyways,

Rules: Tag 20 people you’d like to get to know better (im not going to do that because i dont know 20 people. in fact. im probably not tagging anyone tbh)

Name/Nickname: Jess (or, depending on the quantity of Jess-es in a chat, “small Jess”)

Gender: Gal pal

Star Sign: Aries 

Height: 5′2 (I could be 5′3!!! I COULD STILL GROW OK)

Sexual Orientation: I’m gay. like really really gay,,,,harold im a lesbian

Hogwarts House: i have never read or watched harry potter, or bothered to figure this out. I think my friends are still arguing over gryffindor/hufflepuff tho

Favorite Color: shit man it’s hard to pick,,, i like greens and blues a lot. 

Favourite Animal: four legs and fur = friend. reptiles too tho....all domestic animals and the usual Basic Ass faves like foxes and wolves...i just love them ok....i love animals they’re so good..........

Average Hours of sleep: 5-6 during school, 7-8 during Not School

Cat or dog person: I love them both deeply but if push comes to shove, dogs

Favorite Fictional Characters: literally almost any girl i can say is gay, including all of the LL cast, izetta, flip flappers, any video game i’ve played ever,,, do i need to say more thfh ((love live cast does hold an Extra special spot for me, though, i love these girls...... :’) ))

Number of blankets I sleep with: Usually two, but if I’m somewhere cold i will pile them upon myself like nobody’s business

Favorite Singer/Band: yes

Dream Trip: I’d like to go visit certain people, like online buddies, but I don’t really have travel destinations in mind. if i could just like, teleport into all my pal’s houses and play video games or watch a movie or whatever it’d be rad

Dream Job: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

When was this blog created: November 2015, I think. I made it after I put up ygtbk 

Current number of followers: 559

When did your blog reach its peak?: My guess? Probably after I took a fuckton of prompt fills, just before the Muse finale came out and between that and sunshine, when everyone was desperate for content

What made you decide to make a Tumblr?: I had one before this blog, but i was feelin pretty ehhhh about it. I made this one for writing and prompt fills! and for fun bc i like me some Relatable Content 

Birthday: April 18th! 

Relationship status: Single and ready to achieve maximum gal pal

Siblings: Two younger siblings, one brother one sister. 

Wake up time: For school i wake up around 6:00 - 6:45, depending on how late I stayed up the night before/homework completion. off of school, it fluctuates WILDLY because I’ll stay up until like 4am and sleep until noon or stay up till two and wake up at nine like...who knows my dudes....

Lemonade or sweet tea: Lemonade 

Day or night: Night!

Coke or pepsi: I almost never drink soda. I remember liking coke more tho

Calls or texts: Texting, but good luck getting my reclusive ass to text first RIP

Ever met a celebrity?: I met an internet friendo, mon, once and im still 90% sure i went into cardiac arrest on the spot, tbfh i’ll count that as famous....

Smiles or eyes: I don’t know what this is asking??? both?? like if u dont have both then idk what to tell u....ppl can smile but their eyes r like MURDER or look kind of nice w their eyes but their mouth is like I WILL GRIND YOUR BONES TO MAKE MY BREAD so like....pls both at once....

Country or city: are we assuming best-case or worst-case scenario bc like....both could be cool or both could be shitty and it really depends on the town and people tbh

Last song i listened to: Funky at heart by studio killers

this is the part where I’m supposed to tag people, but idk who to tag because I know these things can get annoying fr some people....I guess if u wanna do it and you’re a mutual go wild?? yeah