#feel free to talk to me yall im kinda lonely over here

[bitchin-tubs]

Complain time again tee hee but I’m just like UGHHHH talking genuinely to these ppl is SO hardddddd

With girl A, I spent almost a whole class lecture (friendly) debating with this one girl on why people medically diagnosed as psychopaths and sociopaths are not inherently dangerous, are not narcissistic by default and how ‘masking’ is not a form a manipulation. Her source for all of these… You. The Netflix show…

With girl B, I feel like she’s sooooo,,,, dismissive ?? Idk like I tried to introduce her to my friends once and she genuinely did not gaf. Like I said hi B this is C then she says hi to me and me only. Like my girl C is right here. But at the same time she’s always bringing me into her friend groups which is fine but I dont connect easily so most times I’m kinda just there SPECIALLY if it’s an all men group when I have specially told her I tend to be uncomfortable with men for “no” reason

I was having a conversation with girl A and the topic of autism was brought up, I told her that I think I may be low on the spectrum but there are some things I tend to relate to with autism behaviors, and considering opened up to me about her anxiety and how she had previously talked very openly abt diagnosis I thought maybe she’d get it. I know,,, self diagnosis (u are free to feel any type of way abt it) but idk I thought she’d have any type of nuanced comment about it but I should’ve known from the psychopath talk… I had told her that I find meeting new people very hard, I have difficulty talking to said people and I tend to be very restrictive about who I make a meaningful connection to. She said that my personality is and I quote “mamona” (jerk/snob/asshole ish) and completely dismissed my masking, overstimulation, 10 year old special interest, taking shit to literal and not understanding social cues or instructions as “just being different” yeah so I thought… yknow I might not have autism valid but idk I felt so ignored at that moment

Also don’t think I just unpack shit on her unannounced, we talk and convos play out as they usually do and since the topic was out I was like sometimes I wonder if I have it because of so and so plus she was unwinded with me before so it wasn’t impossible for us to talk abt personal stuff, even though we not so tight we are still close

Another thing I’m very bad at making friends, I think I mirror good enough to have nice interactions with people but not to the point they invite me to shit or talk to me outside of classes. Back when I was in my exchange program I was sharing a room with 3 swifties so I had to pretend to like Taylor swift so I wouldn’t feel singled out, I also watched the summer I turned pretty and witnessed these girls thirst over bad boy #2 when I thought the character was so shitty (the actor is good looking but I’m not attracted to him) and also would also unknowingly spend all-nighters on school nights (as in I didn’t know they were meant to be all-nighters) with them watching a movie I didn’t particularly like and see everyone thirsting over annoying man on screen (one of them was some straight outta wattpad step-sibling story ew, the other pride and prejudice IM SORRY YALL I DIDNT GET THE HYPE 😭 call me uncultured it’s okay

A and B are sólo also hardcore swifties and I can only be neutral abt her otherwise they get on my ass about it and saying I like Taylor swift or her music is too big of a lie even for me

I told girl A about this (or at least a bit) and she said that I should’ve just been me. Girl I can’t be me we were both witnessing a girl being actively bullied (tv show ass bullying they printed a picture of her and drew over it ugly, taped it to her dorm room. Still hurtful and bullying tho) I’m NOT about to ostracize myself

HOWEVERRR these are not my main friends, these are like the friends I made to not be lonely in these extra classes for an American 🦅🦅🦅 diploma. My close CLOSE friends are from my same career classes and they are so much more understanding and can interact more naturally with. So in my day to day I got good genuine friends by my side

I recognize that I can be perceiving these memories differently than how they actually happened, misinterpret their actions and just be in my feeling right now but idk I feel like I’m so difficult and constantly just have to comply with people in order to make others comfortable

[prettyheung]

ooo i love ur blog so far! can't wait for the other parts of the atz's series to be out

i saw that u write for dramas and anime. what are some of them that u write for?

thank you so much for reading!! glad you like it.

p.s. san's part is just posted ^^

hmm i'd say some anime i write for is haikyuu, attack on titan, free!, tokrev, jjk, tokyo ghoul,,,,

i also write for webtoon characters, so feel free to throw any lookism, how to fight, etc characters at me as well lol

as for dramas, i write for kdramas as well as jdramas. my kdrama range is pretty broad, so like i said, just throw them at me to double confirm lol. if i had watch it before, i'll most likely be able to write for it.

jdramas would be more specific bc i'm literally only into one franchise? i'm hella into high&low so plsplspls drop sum reqs if you want sum stuff

hmm i also would write for alice in borderland but idk that's gonna be under the manga part or the drama part?? i did enjoy both tho so i'd definitely write for aib

maybe there are some more than i didn't mention but might write for.

[wistfulkitten]

i dream you'd love me again (2) || jk

sadness, guilt, regret. all things jeongguk felt after reading her letter.

genre: angst and fluff? childhood friends, cheating, sisters boyfriend au

pairing: jeongguk x reader

word count: 2.3k

posted: 200518

warnings: longing, infidelity, profanity (kinda), mentions of sex, probably inconsistent punctuation 

a/n: theres probably gonna be minor grammar issues because grammarly is shit and im tired. n e way i tried making this longer, it took me like four hours believe it or not. funni how i can make time for writing but not for my hw. silly me. i tried explained why he did what he did and im sorry if it was crappy. thank u to yall who read the first one. if you guys have any requests or ideas feel free to send me something in my inbox or message me. tyty:))

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sadness. sadness is what jeongguk felt at the end of ___’s letter. sad that he hurt her enough to the point that she thought of herself as anything but perfect. sad that she doubted his feelings for her. sad that despite everything he put her through, she still loved him and still wished him the best. he always knew she had a big heart. it's one of the many reasons he was drawn to her in the beginning, but it was also one of her biggest weaknesses. her heart was too big for her own good and it scared him. ___ was always too quick to forgive and forget and most of the time it came back to bite her in the ass.

 he saw it time after time when her dad had left. he had had an affair and left his wife and two kids for a younger woman and yet she never got mad or ever blamed her father in contrary to yoona. while yoona never gave her father the time of day after the separation, ___ always made sure to set time aside for him even when he never put in enough effort to interacting with his daughters. he was a pretty crappy father, content with his new life. and though it made her sad that her family was no longer whole and her mother was practically always crying herself to sleep, it made her happy that her dad was happy. she was just about twelve then and still, she never gave into childish grudges. thirteen year old jeongguk found her slightly stupid for this trait but as they grew up, he found it quite endearing. 

guilt. after the sadness had settled in, a great wave of guilt washed over his being. while he was here, newly married with a whole life ahead of him, you were somewhere out there living the life you always wanted sad and lonely. too heartbroken to even enjoy it properly. he didn't deserve it, the comfort and security his new marriage gave him, he didn't deserve it. 

 jeongguk was merely seventeen when he fell in love with a sixteen year old ___ all the while he dated yoona, her older sister. he’d known them practically his whole life and it was such a small town that it was simply impossible for you not to know anyone and everyone. everyone went to the same schools and hardly anyone moved out of the godforsaken town. he and yoona started dating in the sixth grade. much too young to be dating but their families were long time friends and saw it appropriate for the two to start early. so that one day the two families would unite. jeongguk hadn’t minded at first. he was eleven at the time but yoona had always been a good friend. they played together all the time so nothing really changed except for the frequent hugs and occasional kiss on the cheek.

 as they grew older they graduated into more mature ways of affection but it never bothered him too much. though he was friends with yoona, he was always closer to ___. sure at first, he had trouble expressing but afterward never once did they ever feel reserved towards one another, only ever honest with every bit of their being.  while yoona was more reserved and occasionally bratty, ___ was outspoken and adventurous. always willing to try something new even if it wasn't exactly encouraged. she never shied away from speaking her mind and that was something jeongguk always aspired to be. she was everything he wasn’t.  she expressed herself in every possible way. hair color was constantly changing since the start of high school. she pulled off any type of style you could think of. you could pick her out of any crowd in an instant. she painted, wrote poems and songs, sang, played various instruments, even took up photography. she turned any type of art form into a way for people to understand her, every single part of her. she was good at so many things and jeongukk, jeongukk was good at one thing. basketball. yet she never made him feel bad about it, instead she went to every game. cheering him on. she was mesmerizing in every single way. 

 while they had their good moments, yoona had a knack of patronizing him for every fault and imperfection. when they started high school she had tried so hard to be looked at as the perfect couple. she made it a point to show that they ‘never fought’ and were always ‘happy’. he never spent too much time with his friends because ‘every boyfriend had to put his girlfriend first’. this is the exact reason jimin never liked her and why jin always referred to her as a pain in the ass. it was safe to say his friends weren't exactly fond of her either. she was so different from ___ which was good or bad, depending on who you were asking. 

yoona was pretty, though jeongguk would say ___ was prettier. soft features, soft personality, light colors were a constant, skirt never too short, hair never too long. she was a straight line kind of girl like the majority of girls in town. grades never faltering. she always believed in the whole study hard, get a good job, have kids plan everyone stuck to and it was always so suffocating. 

he wanted more out of life, he wanted to explore places, explore himself. he wanted to get to know himself in more ways than one because he had yet to know all of it. all of him. but by the time he was sixteen, jeongguk already had a career to work towards and a girl everyone was so sure would be his wife. it was like his life was a book and everyone but him was the author. he had no control and he started to dread the future. he was running and he knew what would be at the finish line, so he slowed down. while yoona was running full speed, he was jogging at most. he started faking a persona in front of his family and yoona because they simply didn’t get it and they never would. 

when he couldn’t exactly talk to his own girlfriend about his feelings and problems ___ was always there to listen. she was good at that. listening. she never judged, instead always reassuring him that when the time came he’ll know what to do. she had an easygoing way of living and he longed to live like that too. though her mother didn't agree and favored yoona more, she simply took it as it was and cherished what she had for the time being. her love for her mother and sister never faltered even if their love never measured up. ___ had a way of looking at the world that could get her far, far away from here and jeongguk envied that. she said all his feelings were valid and no one should be mad at him for simply feeling. once he had slowed down enough for the once blurry images to become clear, he’d realized that running with yoona was far too tiring and that walking with ___ was far more fulfilling.

 jeongguk was merely seventeen when he fell in love with a sixteen year old ___ and it was the most exhilarating feeling ever. it had started out as just a friend being there for a friend, but one day it turned into something more. they had been out on one for their many infamous nightly drives when they had stopped at a cliff, a pretty view of their small town in sight. pretty lights below and above. the stars were out that night just like them, watching the rest of the world sleep. she’d looked into his eyes, simultaneously looking into his soul. with anyone else, he would’ve felt naked and exposed but with her, he wanted her to see everything and to understand everything. he realized he only ever wanted one person to do that and he wanted to express it in the best way possible. he kissed her. really kissed her and she didn't shy away. he knew it was wrong, they both did, but it felt so good. so good that it felt right. right there, in the back of jeongguk’s first car, clothes disappeared one by one and they wrote love poems into the bareness of their skin. so passionate, so raw that it was impossible to stop afterward. they did it again and again behind closed doors, behind the curtain they drew in the depths of night. it was nothing they ever felt before. when they weren’t tangled within each other they explored as much as the city would let them. talking about anything and everything. no boundaries. 

___ planned on leaving once she graduated, didn’t know where to but the farther the better. she hated it here and so did he. it made jeongguk sick to even think about a life without her in it. he was selfish, he knows. he had them both and it was very clear which of them he loved more yet it saddened him that the one he favored more would ever leave him here. alone. that was until she asked him to come with. she asked him to run away with her. he swears if he wasn't deeply in love with her then, he was now. of course he said yes. running away and seeing the world with his favorite girl was a dream. a dream he truly wanted to become reality. 

they planned it out. jeongguk and yoona graduated and while ___ finished her final year in high school and yoona stared college, jeongguk took a gap year waiting for ___. waiting for their dream while working jobs here and there, financially preparing. he also took a business internship so that his family would get off his back for working instead of college. it was full proof, even the boys knew. though they thought it was risky, they supported them both. they had grown fond of ___.  they’d both work jobs to add onto their savings and the day after ___ graduated they’d leave and never come back. that was the plan, the dream. and yet they never made it.  

regret. he regretted it so much. the faithful day came but jeongguk didn’t. she waited and waited but he couldn’t do it. he watched from afar, luggage in hand. watch her wait. watched her cry when she realized. he cried with her. he was just so damn scared. a coward is what he was. he was scared of the unknown, something he craved so much and yet he was scared of it. and that's exactly how he felt for ___ at that moment. he craved her so much, loved her so much, and yet he was scared of her. scared that her spontaneous ways would one day be the end of them. he thought of yoona, at least with yoona he knew what he was getting. knew exactly where they’d end up. he wanted certainty and that's why he watched her leave. but to his surprise, she didn't leave, not yet. she stayed and waited, waited long enough for everyone else to find out. she was then branded as a little slut that wanted a taste of the forbidden fruit, the one he didn't choose. it was far from the truth but its what everyone believed. and so she left far far away and he didn't chase after her. god did he regret it. every day since that day he’s felt nothing but regret. he was back to putting the mask on trying to appease everyone. surprisingly no one reprimanded him and for that he felt anger, anger he’d only felt towards himself.

___ was the love of his life so it hurt. it hurt to see that she didn’t think of herself like he did. he wasn't aware she felt that way. like she was in yoona’s shadow. to him, it had never been like that because she’d been the one he sought to look at first in every room. it hurt to see she thought so low of herself but you could say he wasn't any better. he was newly married and yet he was miserable. it had only been a few months since he and yoona got married and people were already asking when they were having a baby. straight out of college and things were moving so fast. he was nauseated and lived life in such a lethargic manner. he needed her. 

she said she still loved him. maybe it wasn’t too late. maybe he could turn things around and fulfill the dream they never reached. so he picks up the phone and dialed the number he used to call every night. it was so familiar that he didn’t need to think twice about it.

it rang once, twice, and finally, on the third ring, she answered.

“gukk?”

he cried at the sound of her voice. he missed her so much. after a while, he could hear soft sniffling from the other line.

“can i come home?” he asked, voice so hoarse it hurt.

“you are home… aren’t you?” voice strained, sounding confused.

“no no, you’re my home ___. i need to come home. “

with that jeongguk couldn’t help but cry harder.

“shhh shhh gukk, it's ok. everything will be ok.” she cooed familiar words he hadn’t heard in a while. “ok, come home. come to me baby.”

he booked the first flight he could as soon as she said where she was and packed up as much as he could. he was gonna stop living this lie and start living for himself. something he should have done four years ago. and in a few hours, that’s exactly what he was gonna do. live the life he dreamed of with her, no holding back. he needed to stop being afraid. he was on his way, without a care in the world. jeongguk loved ___ and ___ loved him. that's all that mattered.

he’d send the divorce papers over tomorrow.

[smallestclowninthecircus]

Season 4 notes

Ep 121: mmmm tape recorder turning on without them knowing goes brrr. AAAhjhdsjfhjdf "do you mind if i call you jon" its like "can i call you elias?" is this the dream guy with the tendrils? who wants to bet the boat is captained by peter lukas? big man if it killed yall how are you still here. oh boy the tape is doin that thing. who do we think it is? did he wake up? hmm. ep 122: lol jon. 6 months!?!? bruh quit movin big man. he just Knows things sometimes you know how it is. nah b/c i can relate to feeling like other ppl/ things arent real, thats the biggest mood BUT i think it is kinda pretentious to entertain the idea that youre the only Real person. If you dont see a body dont believe it. i'll hold out hope for a bit. theres not a new archivist is there? surely i wouldve heard about that. oh god peter what changes did you make. ep 123: web development. hope its about spiders. she blames him. bruh why. if they hadnt done anything the world would've ended piss off melanie. why are ppl acting like he chose to be in a coma for 6 months. we know this they just appear. no longer "head archivist of the magnus institute, london" now he's just "the archivist" covered in spiders? cuz ik the spider has to do with controlling what youre doing and all this stuff but i cant think of how this connects to that. ep 124: ugh vertigo. is michael crew an old man? oooh. fairchild. how did he know it was martin? hmm. GRR I LOST MY NOTES AGAIN. FROM EPISODE 125 - part of 131. ep 131: bruh he's so hard to understand big man ur voice is so low. Jared Hotworth. the boneturner. "the ones i helped find their proper bodies" name a better top surgeon? our favorite trans ally? ep 132: woo field trip into the coffin! static lol. he says "chill out im just poppin in for a quick recall mission" is the rib thing actually gonna work? bruh it feels so odd and contrived but he's an odd man with some odd powers so idk. rip that archivist ayyy statement time. voices? recordings? are those tape recorders? was it the tape recorders? did they pull him back? i hope so b/c if the rib thing actually worked im gonna be so disappointed. ep 133: predicting the lonely? tundra. like the lukases. hmm. sanikova! like sanikov land. so its the hunt? i suppose? yeah. so daisy's clearly rejecting the hunt, which makes sense cuz she doesnt seem to like the entities that much. wait so are we just not gonna talk abt all the tapes playing on the ground?? no? ep 134: not an archival assistant anymore? Adelard Decker (or however you spell it) i recognize that name. 15th power. i was right there are 15. the extinction? im trying to remember what ive heard. oooh spooky. no i gotta be real i dont understand this fear but i'll believe you that its a thing. ew lukas is so squealy. lukas can turn invisible? oh boy. oooh martin put the tape recorders there. lol lukas is worried he's gonna be an avatar of the eye. ep 135: yoo its the third Daedalus statement! maxwell rayner (reiner? reigner?) i dont know who that is but ik its somebody. is he the cult leader guy? church of the divine host? 4 people?? what? did they kidnap somebody and keep them up there?? oh dear jon are you dying? did he try to See or Know or whatever? why does everyone call basira detective lol. ep 136: he was the one from the spider movie that ate ppl right? the special effects artist? is it annabelle cane? "its a joke jon" lol. hmm they wanted to record the therapy session with melanie? i wonder who that is. i almost wanna guess annabelle cane but im not sure. ep 137: this is the one! he went to the other place and read the war statement but it wasnt the one she took. not the music again. sounds like the slaughter. who the heck is eric lol. "the watcher's crown" like the crown of eyes we saw in the piccrew ep 138: oh boy Robert Smirk time. is that elias? as unhelpful as usual. if new powers can be "born" can others die out? did jonah magnus wear the watchers crown? maybe they were born from our fear or maybe our fears were born from them. ceaseless watcher does ceaselessly watch so. idk what you want

big man. yeah jonah for sure did something. ep 139: agnes!! lol that one dude threw off all their plans thats so funny. BUT this does tell us something. the tree in the backyard of the hilltop house? not made by her. it going down didnt kill agnes. im guessing gertrude tied agnes to the house using the tree? u good jon? cuz every time you try to Know smth intentionally it seems like it causes you great pain. how come he can do it accidentally with no problem but the second he wants to know smth of plot relevance he gets a headache or whatever ep 140: lol pagan exultation. classic. "oh thats my rib" lmaoo. ppl are always so mad at jon and his Eye powers except when it benefits them. they're like "oh you shouldnt do that its not right" and then all of a sudden they want to know something and its all "oh cmon jon its the only way" ep 142: oh god jon what did you do. its interesting she's giving her statement in the way that they do when jon Asks. did he see her in the Coffin? and so he's following her? ok cmon jon you're supposed to let them come to you. lmao ikr martin. "start to hear the blood" "suure." lmao ep 143: lol that awkward moment when gertrude is already dead. big J if you die im gonna kill you. bruh. ayo helen? i guess it worked? ep 144: lol this reminds me of that one edgar allan poe story where he kills the old dude with the weird eye. spooky music stuff. lol thats my favorite symptom of a heart attack its hilarious. so its smth abt the location probably? bro i feel like you should write down the numbers idk. 162830165049 564846474827. seems like the distortion? like the kinda thing that causes you to go crazy because of the numbers. oh boy is it the extinction again. bro what?? im?? his dad just died and he's like eh. martin dont be mean. he's being all lonely again. big man ur pushing ppl away. oh god its fucking squealy boy. ep 145: that almost sounds like breekon/hope... Arthur? agnes. aah was he from the lightless flame cult. a tree. lol he's just ranting rn. hehehe fuck landlords amirite. yay someone tells jon outright to go to therapy. now do it big man. ep 146: oh great! the distortion! i'm making a spiral themed building in mc right now! jon maybe accept you did a bad? nah this goes back to what i said before. they're fine with him compelling ppl when its convenient for them but otherwise its "no jon you cant, youre a monster jon" the tapes didnt turn on. i spose that means its not important? i agree with daisy, this seems unecessarily dangerous. ep 147: is that a tape? the first tape? well that went better than i expected tbh. BAHAKJASHDJKF she did the "can i call you jon" like nikola says "elias, can i call you elias?" damn annabelle is such a girlboss. oh! the one thing from the picrew. its been a while since ive connected smth to that. lol all the other avatars always talk abt their patron so lovingly and the jon just. absolutely hates the eye. ep 148: lol thats the most elias thing. "i just like the way it sounds" ep 149: did he disappear? bruhh. ur lonely powers are popping off i guess. oops i accidentally deleted my notes for 150 - 152 ep 153: thats the cult right? yeah. it doesnt sound like the church of the divine host? idk. if it is the church of the divine host then they worship the dark right? so is the eleventh the dark star or wtvr? it almost sounds like the corruption b/c of the oil or grease or whatever. oh dear what happened. oh its the hunters. theyre so annyoing. not an "it" he has a name. he's a person. is this a page from the skin book? ep 154: oh shit this is gerry's dad! oh shit he quit! oh dear god. jon don't you do it. haha martin. yeahhhh... is he gonna tell the others? cuz you know theyre gonna get mad if he doesnt. oh also picrew connection! the bandages over the eyes? yeah thats this im guessing. ep 155: oh good he told them. oh my god what did you do. lol i have no mouth and i must scream. nah you get none of my sympathy you're straight up murdering ppl. its like the desolation, destroying lives to sustain your own. ok but taking their statements doesnt

kill them. oh... bye melanie. ep 156: lmao imagine if the tape recorder spoke back. oh boy decker! i swear we got a statement from him already. oh god mirrors scary. They're gonna eat the body arent they. Yup... sounds like the flesh or the slaughter, but I'm not sure. Could be the extinction for sure. Smth at the center! Like Helen mentioned. God Peter you dick. Ep 157: peter's just so :/ another decker statement i see. a statement about the corruption? hmm. maybe its not abt the corruption. the extinction. lol pandemics. topical. John Amherst. helen? lol i can hear admiral purring in the background. oh cmon helen dont be like that. im trying real hard to like you but you make it so difficult. ep 158: did they fucking free the stranger? im gonna lose it. you absolute dumbass. im sorry who is that? jonah magnus? my guy. peter. you absolute dickhead. that's elias. (im p sure i had this spoiled for me that elias is jonah) oh dear this is her death. god peter you prick. i hope this is a pop off martin moment and not a "martin you idiot" moment. i hope the hunters kill the stranger entity. or she kills them. furry daisy pop off! yeah fuck you peter martin can make his own decisions. you know that clip from Twisted where jafar says "ok what the fuck was that" martin D: ok like i know its gonna work but still D: D: ep 159: peter you bitchboy. because if im alone i cant hurt anyone else. imnotgonnacryimnotgonnacryimnotgonnacry do it do it do it do it. pop off jon. ok its a pretty good idea for a ritual i gotta be honest. she didnt even have to blow it up lol. oh dear that was certainly a noise. "he gets you" did he not have jon already? he's back! our boy is back! awwww thats so cute. ep 160: oh right this is the thing in the safe house. i love him. "obviously im going to tell you if i see any good cows" martin my beloved <3 :)) oh boy who is this. fuckin. people. jonah you dick. gahh. you can tell he's trying to resist so hard lol. ohh. hehe keep an *eye* on him. altho if the extinction is a real thing he needs to be marked by that right? lol he sounds so intense im sorry- i want martin to just burst in and be like "look at this cow i saw!" its so dramatic and for why.

[golbrocklovely]

only the lonely survive // colby brock - chapter five: i wonder what you think of me

A/N: hey everyone! i just wanted to say thank you to all the ppl that started following me recently and have been liking what i post and whatnot. yall are the real mvps, seriously. i wanted to let yall know that i was thinking of starting a taglist for this story, so hit me up if you want to be part of it! hope you enjoy this chapter :))

description of the story

trigger warning: swearing

word count: 1294

DAY 2/14 into 3/14

After coming home from the Trap House, I immediately fell asleep. I woke up a couple hours later. Rolling over, the alarm clock on my night stand read 12:03 A.M.

I got up and started to unpack. I grabbed my phone to play some music only to see two messages from unknown numbers, sent from around the time Casey and I went home.

 Unknown: heyyyy baby it's your soon to be baby daddy brennen

 I rolled my eyes, saving the contact as 'Brennen'. I clicked on the other message.

 Unknown: hey it's Colby. Brennen gave me your number. I hope that's cool

 Oh my God, Colby has my number?

I saved the contact. I decided to respond to Colby.

 Skye: it's no problem. I told him to give out my number if any of you asked for it

 I turned some music on, grabbing my clothes again. Just as I put some shirts away, the music muted for a second, only to turn back up again. I looked at my phone, a new text from Colby.

 Colby: ok cool. are you getting ready for bed cuz i'll stop texting you

 I smiled lightly at my screen. I replied to him.

 Skye: actually I just woke up. I fell asleep after hanging out with yall so im probably gonna be awake for a while.

 I stared at my screen for a moment, seeing Colby writing a response.

 Colby: can i call you?

 I gasped quietly, my eyes widening. Why did he want to call me?

 Skye: sure. Is something wrong?

 I didn't get a message back. My phone lit up, incoming call. I clicked answer.

"H-hello?" I asked, stammering.

"Hey. Nothing's wrong, by the way. I just wanted to talk." Colby stated.

I sighed, "Oh okay, good. I was a bit scared for a moment."

He chuckled. "Sorry about that."

"Is there any reason why you wanted to call me?" I questioned, putting the phone on speaker so I could continue to unpack.

"Um, actually there is. I can't get to sleep right now and all of my friends are already asleep so I thought maybe talking to you could make me tired." He confessed.

"Are you saying I'm boring?" I asked jokingly.

"No that's not what I'm saying. I just thought talking might make me tired." He laughed.

"I know, I'm just kidding." I giggled, grabbing more clothes from my suitcase.

"Yeah, I don't know what it is but I can't get to sleep at a decent hour anymore." He grumbled.

"Maybe you need to talk about something, get something off your chest. That's usually the reason why I can't sleep." I divulged, shrugging my shoulders.

He sighed, annoyed. "Yeah, maybe you're right."

"Well lucky for you, you're talking to someone right now. Feel free to tell me your secrets." I joked.

"Haha. Maybe at a different time." He replied. "I just feel like... I need to hang with someone and maybe that will make me tired. But everyone's asleep."

"You could always hang out with me." I stated.

Skye, you're so stupid. Why would he want to hang wit-

"Are you sure? I mean, aren't you gonna be tired soon? Hasn't jetlag gotten to you yet?" He questioned.

"No, I don't mind hanging out with you, if that's what you want to do. The only problem is you would have to come get me because I don't really know where your house is." I explained.

"Yeah, no, I can come get you. Are you sure you want to hang out with me?" He asked again.

"I'm down to hang. Just hang up and I'll text you the address." I insisted, closing my suitcase.

"Okay, sounds good. Thanks. I'll see you in a bit." He affirmed.

I smiled, "Alrighty, see you soon. Bye."

"Bye." He said, ending the call.

I sent him the address and laid down on my bed, looking up at my ceiling. He replied to my message.

 Colby: cool i'll be there soon

 Holy shit, he's coming and I'm not ready at all.

I jumped up, looking around my room. I didn't want to get dressed up since we were literally just going to hang out for at most an hour. I did need some advice though. I opened my bedroom door and went down the hall to Casey's room. I knocked, hearing her yell back "Come in!"

I started speaking fast, "Hey so Colby's coming over in like twenty minutes to hang out with me and I'm concerned because I don't know what to wear and I'm freaking out because I did not plan for this to happ-"

She jutted in "I'm sorry, can you slow down a bit? Did you say Colby's coming over?"

"Yes. In like fifteen minutes. To hang out. With me." I sputtered.

"Oh my God that's great!" She exclaimed.

"It would be if I had planned this out better. But this is such a last-minute thing, and you know how much I hate last minute things. I need a plan and there isn't one here." I sighed, nervously.

"Calm down. Don't have a panic attack." She stated.

"Too late." I muttered, sitting on her bed.

"Look, Colby wouldn't be hanging with you if he didn't want to. So there's no need to be scared about that. Since it is late at night, don't change into anything too nice, otherwise it'll look like you tried. Just wear some sweatpants and a cami. Throw a plaid shirt on top and you're good to go." She smiled.

I nodded my head, "Thank you."

"No problem. Now, go get ready 'cause he'll be here soon. Text me if he makes you feel weird, I'll come get you if you need me to." She replied, walking me out of her room.

I turned back to her and hugged her, "Thanks Casey."

She hugged me back, "Don't mention it. Also, if you guys have sex, please tell me everything."

I rolled my eyes, "Oh my God Casey." I walked back to my room.

"What? If one of us gets laid, we need to live vicariously through the other." She stated, shrugging her shoulders. I laughed and closed my door.

I can't even think about that right now.

I grabbed my clothes to change into. I ran a brush through my hair and sprayed some perfume. I heard my phone vibrate, making my heart jump.

 Colby: i'm here

 I took a deep breath. Fuck, this is actually happening.

I walked out of my room and into the living room. I grabbed a set of keys, going over to the front door. I stepped out, seeing Colby's car sitting behind Casey's car. I waved, locking the door behind me.

I strolled over to his car, opening the passenger side door. I got in and turned towards Colby.

"Hi." I mumbled, smiling awkwardly.

"Hey." He replied, returning the awkwardness.

Nice.

"So, I'm not entirely sure where you wanted to go, since it's one in the morning and like, no places are open. So I was thinking we would just go back to my house and talk there, if you're cool with that." He stated, turning the car on.

"Uh, that sounds fine." I agreed, putting my belt on.

He nodded his head, backing the car out of the driveway.

"Oh by the way, I know this might be a lot to ask but I'm kinda hungry so... could we get food somewhere?" I asked, scrunching up my face.

"Sure. Where did you have in mind?" He responded.

"McDonalds?" I shrugged.

He smiled lightly, "Sounds good to me. Haven't been there in like... three days."

I laughed. "Is that a personal best?"

"How'd you know?" He smirked.

I rolled my eyes, chuckling back at him.

 << CHAPTER 4 || CHAPTER 6 >>

[sunnysidewrites]

Best Friends to Lovers!Chani

Requested by anon: best friends to lovers au w chani from sf9 please!!! 

omg here it is my sunflower anon!!!111!!! yOU ARE THE REAL DEAL AND STAN REAL TALENT!!!! I hope this was what you wanted!!!! and just like I promised, I will be dropping another imagine bC WE HAVE REACHED 100+ FOLLOWERS YALL IM CRYING,,,,, YOU GUYS HAVE MADE ME SO HAPPY,,,,,,, THE NEXT IMAGINE WILL BE ANOTHER ONE THAT WAS VOTED BY A LOT OF YOU 😈😈😈 hint: it is the subin one ;))) ANYWAYS YALL STAN TALENT STAN SF9 I LOVE MY 2ND ULTS

warnings: my sick child chani finds luv and he will not be kidzoned!!!

You grew up with smol chani ever since elementary/primary school

You thought he looked like a sick child lmao i mean it’s true have you seen his baby pics yikes he’s cute but jesus christ

And you came up to him and were like “hey dude you seem cool but u need rest or smth”

“What”

“It’s ok i’ll take care of you!!”

And he’s like this person is w e ir d but sure whatever

And you started to hang out with him more and you would be checking in with him about eVERYTHING

“Chani did you finish your homework yet”

“Remember to eat all your meals you need to grow healthy!!”

“yOU GOT INJURED OK WAIT LET ME GET–”

“iT’S JUST A PAPER CUT OMG CH I L L”

Chani was like jesus they’re so oVERBEARING but i like it :(

He finds it a little overwhelming but it’s nice to have someone care for him!!!

He would be busy because his parents introduced him to the acting world and you’re like omggggg mY BEST FRIEND IS GONNA BE FAMOUS!!!

And he’s like i literally was just in a goldfish commercial pls calm

Over the years you would gradually see him less and you feel a little downcast bc he’s not someone you see every day anymore

But you suck it up and you convince yourself it’s ok bc he’s out there doing what he loves

You would try to keep tabs on him, as in watching all of his works and texting him to give him your feedback and thoughts

And he would be like o m g ur like my mom p ls

And you’re like wELL I DO MOTHER U A LOT

But the thing is,,,,

Your heart just weighs a little heavier every time he says those things

Ofc you care about him such that it might come off as maternal but,,,,,

You’re still his best friend regardless

And you may or may not have taken a liking to him

You were watching one of his recent dramas and everything was fine until,,,,

That Scene

yOU KNEW IT WAS FAKE EVERYTHING ABOUT THE KISS WAS FAKE BUT IT TRIGGERED YOU

“oH NO I LIKE CHANI MY SICK CHILD??????”

You realize just how much he’s grown into the fine young man he is now

And you’re like o my god i seriously like this smol dude

Chani somewhere in the distance: “wE ARE THE SAME AGE AND I’M ACTUALLY OLDER THAN YOU TECHNICALLY”

You: that’s nice child anyways

You’re like,,,, did i,,, get,,, mOMZONED EW?????

Ofc not silly reader

Every time chani gets a role in a romance drama, he just reads the script and lowkey wishes it was you he was workiNG WITH AAAAAAAA *SCREAMS INTO THE ABYSS*

Whenever he starts leaning in to perform a kiss he’s just like,,,,

*sigh* if only it was with her

WOW IM SOFT

And you’re doing your usual text and being like “your acting is excellent as always yadda yadda yadda” but you have hints of bitterness in your words lmao

And he’s like did i do smth wrong

“Oh no nothing is wrong that kiss scene was convincing”

“Oh,,,, thanks i tried to make it that”

But irl he’s like :(( and you’re like :(( and ppl on the outside are like :((

His schedule is always so packed but when he finally has a free day he’s like omg let’s hang out!!!!

Ofc you agree to it you haven’t seen him in months

He’s trying to keep a low profile bc of the recent popularity he’s been gaining so you guys travel to somewhere just a little more exclusive

You’re just hanging out in the empty park and eating some ice cream together this is giving me diabetes

You’re joking around and laughing like old times and it just makes you fall even harder

Bc wouldn’t it be nice if you could do coupley stuff on top of this??

You look at his free hand and start thinking about how it would feel to hold it

He occasionally sneaks glances at your lips ;)))) and it’s not just bc you have ice cream all over them LOL

You’re casually sitting on the swings with him next to you

You’ve been just cracking jokes the whole time but now the conversation has hit an end and now you’re both reflecting on what’s happened for the past few months

“I,,, miss this. A lot.”

he slowly starts to say, “i,, do too. It gets pretty lonely on set since i’m usually just around the makeup artist or rereading my lines,,,”

And you’re like omg :(( that’s kinda sad you can text me whenever you know that? I care a lot about you

“But,,, you don’t care for me in that way,,,”

You’re like ???? what are you talking about

“I’m not sure i’m following?? I do so much–”

“y/n that’s not what i’m talking about”

And for the first time ever he speaks to you in the most serious tone

“I know you care,,,, obviously i know that better than anyone. But,,, you probably only think of me as a little kid”

And you’re like omg what?????

“Chani where is this even coming from–”

“I liKE YOU” he blurts out

Oh

O H

You guys both look like deer caught in the headlights like :OOOO

“Wait, i’m sorry, i mean–”

“Why are you apologizing?? I,,, do too”

Chani’s soul has Left His Body

And he’s suddenly giggling uncontrollably like omG HAAHAHAH

And you can’t help but laugh too like why are you laughing why am i laughing why aRE WE LAUGHING

And he’s just like “i just,,, i thought i was gonna be kidzoned – that sounds really weird”

“bOI I THOUGHT YOU SAW ME AS A MOM HOW DO YOU THINK THAT FEELS”

Chani: u right

After some more laughing you guys decide to head back home hand in hand :’)))

Chani will try to take care of you just as much as you do for him bc he wants you to see him as A Man!! And dependable!!

Pls help him