#feel free to send me asks cuz damn did we have ideas haha

[kylo-ren-has-an-8pack]

Owning You Kills Me (M - Darkpilot/Kylux Oneshot)

When Poe becomes a prisoner of the First Order once again, Kylo Ren attempts to manipulate his mind so that the Resistance pilot turns to their cause. It goes horribly wrong. Thx to @mob-lake for being an awesome headcanon buddy. We came up with this idea and I was dying to write it.

Word Count: 3k

Warning: Some dubcon via accidental misuse of the Force on a character.

It wasn’t supposed to be like this.

Poe being a prisoner of the First Order for a second time in so short a period had to be a sign. It had to mean something, and whatever that was, it wasn’t an opportunity that Kylo Ren had wanted to pass up.

Throwing his arm out wildly, he swung it in a broad, wide stroke, letting his gloved hand strike whatever was in his way, a vase and books falling off of the shelf to his right. The piece of no-doubt expensive pottery shattered into a thousand, colorful, jagged shards on the smooth flooring of his second in command’s office, a metaphor of multiple meanings that didn’t fall short in his or General Hux’s minds.

The General watched the Supreme Leader’s tantrum with what seemed to be only a vague expression of concern on his otherwise unamused face. His irritation, as usual, must have outweighed any real semblance of fear of Ren’s temper. Ren didn’t care for that.

“We discussed this,” Hux rebuked him through gritted teeth.

Anger that had never been quelled flared anew, stronger. There it was. That tone. That know-it-all, disapproving sneer that was like metal scraping and tearing at metal. He didn’t need that of all things now. Ren struck out again. This time his fist connected with the bookshelf itself, sending tendrils of pain shooting through his fist in a pleasant burst that only fed his rage.

“You said that you had this under control and you broke him,” the other man went on, no less derisive than before. “And not in the way that we discussed.”

“I didn’t break him!” Ren’s shout was so loud he could feel it in his vocal cords, but it did cause the General to start, taking a small step backwards to allow him to knock another vase off of the shelf closest to his head and watch it smash by his feet.

It wasn’t supposed to be like this. He’d wanted to turn him, not–

“Well, the pilot is in no shape to fly anything now, is he, Ren?” Hux folded his arms over his chest. “You can barely leave him in my quarters for an hour without him mentioning your name a dozen times, asking when you’ll return, when he can see you.” Ren flinched, but Hux appeared to only take the physical reaction as a reason to continue. He wished he wouldn’t do that. “If you never wanted him for the First Order at all, all you had to do was say so.”

“And what are you implying, General?”

Hux arched his eyebrows as if his meaning were apparent. “What I am implying is that all you had to do was say that you wanted a bloody whore rather than a pilot in the first place.”

That did it.

“Get out!”

“This is my damned office!” He stood firm, watching as Ren kicked angrily at a book, making it skid across the room. “Perhaps if you didn’t consistently overestimate your own abilities, you wouldn’t go poking around in prisoners’ brains until you-”

“Out!”

——————————————————————————————————

Frustration still pumped through his veins as Ren stomped back to his own quarters where Poe sat dutifully on the edge of the bed, idly reading a book and anxiously thrumming his fingers against his thighs. He nearly groaned when the pilot jumped to his feet, his eyes lit up with something akin to joy that sent an uncomfortable sick feeling to the pit of his stomach. He hated the way guilt knotted in his gut, then travelled and spread up to his chest until he was choking on it. He was tired of choking on the vile emotion. He wasn’t doing anything wrong! This was what Snoke had taught him. This was necessity, all of it for the good of the First Order. He hadn’t known—he hadn’t meant—

“Ben!”

His face was pressed to Ren’s broad chest in a mere moment and it almost felt like old times every damned time he did it. Days when he himself was shorter, scrawnier, innocent, and answered to that name that had been long forbidden within these walls. He hadn’t stopped the man from saying it, not after—but he still wasn’t entirely used to the feelings that hearing it brought up either.

“Hey,” his voice sounded foreign to him now, softer.

“What happened to you, Baby?” Poe’s arms were looped around his waist and his lips were kissing his clothed chest like he’d just returned from war. “You were gone when I woke up and the door was locked from the outside. Had me worried.”  

Poe’s casual chuckle hurt. How could he think this was like then? How could he think this was normal?

(Ren knew exactly how, but that wasn’t the point.)

“Mhm,” was all he replied at first, absently allowing himself to brush his lips to the crown of the pilot’s head, breathing in the floral scent of his hair. Hux’s shampoo. He still didn’t understand why the General insisted on bringing his own assorted hygiene supplies to his quarters when he shared his bed and refresher. “I thought it was safer for you.”

Poe bit his lip flirtatiously as he looked up, meeting his eyes. “No worries there, Baby, not when I have you to protect me, huh?” His hand went to Ren’s collar and then he was tugging him down.

His kisses were almost the worst part of this whole situation. The familiarity, the softness, the intimacy that deep down somewhere Ren craved and pushed away at once. Kissing Hux tasted like need, but kissing Poe tasted of nostalgia. He’d given into it before, when this first began, before he understood it. He hadn’t particularly stopped giving in over the past couple of weeks, even after he understood, even with what he had with Hux, and even though the General knew and disapproved verbally while still sharing the bed when Poe was in it regardless. He shook off the guilt like an odd chill from the cold as the kisses deepened and hands roamed. Poe wanted this. He wanted this. Ren could feel it in their connection, could feel it thrumming through his blood. He wanted this, even if the reason why was murky and buried in ancient history.

He wanted this.

——————————————————————————————————

Ren didn’t leave the room until an hour later with the taste of Poe’s lips on his tongue and the feeling of his tight, delicious warmth around him lingering in his mind the way that the scent of Hux’s cologne clung to his uniform even after a long day.

“You honestly can’t help yourself one afternoon, can you?”

He ignored Hux’s critical tone, continuing to walk forward as the man fell into step beside him. “Jealousy doesn’t become you, General.”

Hux was equally proficient at ignoring cutting quips, a skill they had both practiced to perfection…and yet they still acknowledged them for the sport of it, Ren thought.

“Shall I have a go at him then, since you’ve been thoroughly spent?”

The taunt in his voice was clear, but Ren still growled, his hand going to Hux’s collar just as Poe’s had pulled at his. He yanked him close, his brown eyes meeting green that flashed at him defiantly as if to say “I dare you”. The standoff ended in Ren crushing the General’s mouth to his in a kiss that become something deep and crude and tinged with warning amidst the desire. He released him roughly.

“Do what you wish.”

Hux rolled his eyes, but Ren didn’t miss the way his cheeks had flushed from the kiss as he took his place back at the bridge and distinctly not in his quarters where Poe remained.

——————————————————————————————————

Ren felt it deep in his chest that he should have seen this coming.

He had initially expected it and yet the possibility had loomed so far in the distance, in notions of impossibility even, that he had pushed the concern out of his mind until the day that it happened. There had been no warning and little fight. He assumed that the traitorous ex-Stormtrooper, FN-2187, was to blame for the stealthy entrance to the dreadnought, and he reminded himself to kill him slowly if he ever saw the man again.

The Resistance had returned for their heroic pilot and they had taken him.

“Well, that certainly takes care of things,” Hux had said with a sigh of relief, sitting back into his chair as his shoulders relaxed.

He was wrong. It hadn’t taken care of things at all, at least not for Ren. That name was chanted in his head like a prayer from that day forward. As it turned out, being physically separated by planets from the other only deepened whatever connection he had created. He could feel the heaviness of Poe’s anguish, tap into his thoughts at will, he could feel the need for him, the worry. He felt it all like a weight on his chest, like gravity pressing him into the ground until he could hardly breathe from the force of it.

“It’s okay! He still loves me. He’s still Ben!”

The happily proclaimed words to his enemies stung and embarrassed him, but the more powerful feeling lay in the fact that he knew that the pitiful pleas to the Resistance were useless. Commander Poe Dameron, prize pilot of the Resistance, looked exactly the victim to them that he truly was. Manipulated by the Force, useless, a shell of what he used to be, his old passion and will stripped away to become the needy thing in love with a memory he thought was come true once again. The lie he had allowed him to believe.

(Was it a lie?)

Ren had thought himself clever when the idea of bringing old memories to the surface of Poe’s mind first occurred to him. He thought that he was strong enough to handle them himself, that they meant nothing to him, just memories of Poe and that boy. Originally, he thought to use them to cause pain – which worked well enough - but then slowly, the idea of breaking him with memories of love, of affection, and trust, neatly seeded into his mind took hold.

Only one other time had he felt the same vicious bite of failure and culpability that plagued him the way it had since Dameron’s mind had been breached.

——————————————————————————————————

Hux was in his bed, bare and sleeping soundly, when he first reached out to Poe with his mind.

“Can you hear me?” He hesitated, waiting for confirmation, a sign that Poe was awake and not deep in a sleep as well. “I can feel you.”

“Ben? Ben, is that you? Oh, you have no idea how good it is to hear your voice.”

The name still managed to prick at him, even after months of hearing it from the other man’s mouth and thoughts. The tired but relieved voice of the Resistance pilot echoed in his own mind and he could tell that the man was simply speaking out loud. Ren wondered if anyone else there could hear.

“Where are you? Why haven’t you come for me, Sweetheart?”

The same, old guilt twisted in his gut again.

“Ben? Ben, hey, Buddy, don’t go. Please.” There was a long pause. “I miss you…I don’t think I belong here anymore, and I don’t know what that means.”

This time, the sincerity was too much.

“Just tell me what to do.”

“Touch yourself for me.”

The words held no power in them, more of a question without much of the usual inflection. There was no Force guiding them into Poe’s psyche, they didn’t need it. Speaking those words was just so much easier than explaining any of this to the man that wouldn’t be able to understand. How do you explain to someone that you’ve irreparably broken them when that was your intended purpose?

(Skewed, but intended.)

There was no need to be able to see Poe to know if he had heard him when he could feel that he was complying. He could hear the soft moans that became low and desperate and the gasps that sounded like his name. Poe spilled into his own hand with a muffled shout and for a moment, all was still and calm. His desire had been to relax him, to perhaps give him some peace after weeks of confusion and pain, but as he listened to the man’s heaving breaths and heard the words “I love you” sighed out in a gentle huff, he felt like he’d only taken another piece of the man instead.

Ren broke contact.

——————————————————————————————————

Nearly two weeks had passed since reaching out to him, though he never stopped listening - he wasn’t even sure that he fully could if he wanted to, and he did. Foolishly, he had nurtured the idea that Poe would slowly regain what he had taken away if he kept his distance, but the pilot persisted. Their connection never wavered, and it seemed, Poe never reverted to his usual self, absent him.

“He loves me, Leia. You don’t understand. He still loves me.”

Every time similar words reverberated back at him, it was like a punch to the stomach.

The nights were the worst of it, whether Ren was jerked from sleep by Poe’s nightmares and screams for Ben, or his mumbled pleas as he tossed and turned. A week earlier, Poe had attempted to steal an X-Wing. That was when they decided that locking him in his quarters was the only option for his safety and theirs, and Ren hadn’t meant for this to happen. Yes, he’d wanted to defeat the pilot in a way. Yes, he’d been angry. He’d wanted to cripple the Resistance, he’d wanted to hurt them all but then why did he feel this way now that he had finally begun to succeed?

He was able to feel the connection doubly when the scavenger feebly attempted to invade Poe’s mind as he had, gently prodding with her limited knowledge of the Force in what Ren assumed was a final, ditch effort to bring him back to his old self. He wasn’t an idiot and he knew there wasn’t much time left. It had been nearly a month since Poe had returned to the Resistance changed, in love or obsessed, manipulated by the First Order until there was no guarantee or even a reason to believe that he could be trusted among them. Why should they trust a man that seemed in every way delusional and no longer seeing their cause as priority? Why should he be allowed close to their leaders? Loyal as they were, he knew that even the rebels knew the meaning of the greater good and the phrase ‘living on borrowed time’.

He felt it when Rey saw images of their intimacy inadvertently pulled from his memories, old and new, images of their pilot with him, with Hux. He could sense Leia Organa’s presence in the room as well, but wouldn’t allow himself to sense anything else regarding her. He could hear Poe’s cries of pain at the clumsy intrusion until Rey broke the connection abruptly, frightened and upset.

Rey’s choked sobs into the traitor she called Finn’s chest were only salt on the wounds as he heard her gasp out, “I couldn’t help him. It’s so much worse than I imagined and I couldn’t help him.”

——————————————————————————————————

His heart was heavy and his head felt blurred around the edges. Sleep didn’t come easily anymore and especially today, he felt the consistent tug of exhaustion as he tromped around the halls, frustrated.

“There’s a reason that they left him on that planet, Ren. He’s utterly useless.”

Ren supposed that was meant to comfort him in a sick way. “Yes. He is.” His answer was slow and even, but apparently, it was neither slow nor even enough to convince the General beside him of his words.

Hux’s face grew slightly red with frustration. “Yes?” he repeated hotly. “And whose fault is that? Honestly, Ren, you should see this as more of a victory rather than stomping about like a child.”

“Oh? Why is that?”

“Why not?” he snapped back at him sharply like the clack of a cur’s jaws snapping on air in warning. “Their best pilot is out of commission, their morale more likely than not will be shattered if it isn’t already.” He adjusted course mid step, moving in front of Ren, making the larger man stop just as short. “They’ve seen your power now. They’ve seen the power of the First Order. What more do you want from this?”

His throat felt thick and swallowing didn’t help. Pausing though, did seem to help further irritate his partner and second, especially the longer he waited, and somehow that made him feel better about his own discomfort. “I didn’t mean for this to happen.”

“Oh, don’t act like this is a moral dilemma in need of righting, Ren. You absolutely meant to manipulate his mind and you did it wrong. Accept your failure and forget him.”

“Fine,” he replied flippantly. “Then I’m no longer discussing this matter with you.”

Ren attempted to step aside, but again, Hux blocked his path. He narrowed his eyes as if he could read his thoughts rather than it being the other way around.

“You’re thinking of going back for him.” The General waited for a long, deliberating moment, his eyes boring into Ren’s accusingly. “You want him back in your bed.” His words had been chosen carefully. Not our bed. Not here on the dreadnought. His bed.

Ren ignored him - not only because he was wrong about his intentions, but because he was done explaining himself - turning on his heel in the direction of the hangar where his ship was being fueled. 

The joke was on him. He didn’t know what he wanted at all. 

[nikatyler]

Oh hey, long time no replies. And these are the first ones of this year. I have a hard time replying now. It’s not like I don’t have time - I’m doing okay, actually. I mean, I wouldn’t complain if there was less homework, but still. Free time exists. It’s just that I can’t bring myself to replying to either comments or messages...I replied to asks quite quickly though, which is something unusual for me. Usually that’s where I’m slowest. I don’t know, is this another weird anxiety thing? Like I know I can reply, but I just...don’t?

Anyway...let’s get that done now I guess. There’s a lot of these, apologies if something got lost. Maybe it’s my fault, maybe it’s not, all I know is that sometimes my activity feed doesn’t show me everything.

unstablesims replied to your photoset “Vlad the fashion icon strikes again.”

he's rocking that goth TM look lmao

I mean yeah.

unstablesims replied to your photoset “This brings back memories. Maybe he’s not evil, he just wants some...”

he's vv nice to his friends..... the problem is becoming his friend ��

I was going to reply with “if this ain’t me” but...actually once I get comfortable around people, irl especially, I’m awful to them D: (I can quite easily turn into the sarcastic asshole friend and no one believes me until I unleash it lmao) But anyway yeah I kinda can see Vlad to be that way, now that you mention it

#JusticeForVlad2k19

justkeeponsimming replied to your photo “End of the Year Tag 2 This time I was tagged by @justkeeponsimming....”

Ronnieeee!!! Your sims are SO gorgeous! Love love love this!

Aaaaah thank you so much! ♥

dandylion240 replied to your photo “I tweeted this last night but I want to share it here as well because...”

When Ross and Caleb finally got together. I'm still hoping Caleb changes his mind and turns Ross.

If I had replied to this a week earlier, I could’ve used my favourite eye emoji. Oh well. Yeah, it’s good he changed his mind, isn’t it? :D I couldn’t stand the idea of separating them.

jackssims replied to your photo “I tweeted this last night but I want to share it here as well because...”

The birth of Miracle! Caleb, Ross, and Sunset! The high school story and when Miracle and Adam got together as well!

ghkjahfljhk lately (I mean for the past few months) I’ve been really disliking Miracle and Adam’s storyline but for some reason when people mention it, they always say they liked it, so I guess I didn’t do that bad of a job? 

Same with the good old Zoey storyline. Everyone who has ever talked to me about it said they liked it and thought it was interesting, but I’m over here like “gjkfjgfjhg don’t mention that mess to me ever again”.

melien replied to your photoset “Sunset spent the New Year’s Eve by playing sims. This is very...”

I'M LITERALLY DOING THIS RIGHT NOW

I feel personally attacked

It’s fine, we’ve all been there :D

I think I played sims too this year. Well, first we played some board games with my parents, then there was midnight, I cried, went to see the fireworks (while finishing a bottle of wine but I swear I wasn’t drunk)...oooh and then I watched a stream and edited my sims screenshots! Okay so I didn’t actually play but I edited the pics and like...these are still fun new year’s eve plans, am I right?

melien replied to your photoset “Dawn came over and the two spent hours talking about space.”

I love their outfits! Totally would wear something like this

I like Sunset’s style especially. Well, sometimes she wears clothes I wouldn’t, but for most of the time, it’s just comfy fun stuff I wish I had. Especially considering my dark phase is over and colours are slowly coming back to my closet :D

melien replied to your post “I have some random sims I could share. Anyone interested?”

Ohhhh... on one hand I'd always want sims from you but on the other hand I fear I won't do them justice because idk where to use them rn. Dilemma

pls ask

I’m always down for creating sims for mutuals and friends (I just never talk about it), so just let me know when you want one. Also, I’m sure you would do them justice. I’m really not afraid you would fail there. You know I love everything you do, so... :D

melien replied to your photoset “This guy ♥”

Ending 2018 on a high note

The best note possible

simtress replied to your photoset “Caleb: Isn’t it sad that there are so many ways a vampire can live a...”

i love the name caleb...♥

Me too! I’ve liked it since the first time I had seen it in an English textbook years ago.

dandylion240  replied to your photoset “Oh god please tell me I didn’t accidentally have risky woohoo on or...”

It'd be fun to see what their kid would look like.

I agree and I’m surprised I’ve never played with their genetics. smh ron

cafeheart replied to your photo

okay he's hot but this also makes me uncomfy for some reason asfdlkjaj put him back

jackssims replied to your photo

I agree he’s got a hot vibe going, but this just feels wrong tbajfnakcn

It is kinda weird, I’ll admit that (but “reimagining” him was fun). It’s like...taking away Caleb Vatore’s weird emo hair. I admit I’ve done that once but it was just to mock myself anyway. I wouldn’t do it “for real”. Emo hair must stay. Yes it’s dumb, but also, it’s iconic. we stan dumb hair

I’d say this is something similar. I don’t want to say anything about Ross is iconic, but...you get my point, right?

jackssims replied to your photoset “Ross: “Okay, I don’t like this. I have a theory.” Caleb: “I know what...”

👀

The funny thing here is, when I was writing this dialogue, I had no idea what was going to happen later.

jackssims replied to your photoset “Caleb: “I don’t…I don’t ever want this to end.” Ross: “You’re the only...”

Way to dodge that, Caleb

Oh yeah. He’s good at that

unstablesims replied to your photoset “Sunset: I know I said I’d work out today but I really don’t want to…oh...”

mood

An everyday one

alfalfalegacy replied to your photo “Sim Download: Cara Meadows she/her, bisexual Another one. I imagine...”

ahh she's cute! might have to nab her for my private save ;)

Yay, I’m so happy to hear that! :D

jackssims replied to your photoset “Everything about this picture is a big mood. You may tag yourself now.”

Tbh I’m both Caleb and Sunset

Relatable

tiny-tany-thaanos replied to your photoset “Valentine: “Relationships and love aren’t really for me, but attending...”

Ironically her name is ValentineXD

Yup. Exactly. I bet it must be annoying for a person who couldn’t care less about getting into a relationship.

myopiccc replied to your photoset “Sunset wasn’t born to follow the crowd.”

Seriously!?!? I would never know THEY can use an umbrellas clever way! LOL

Lol they sometimes open it inside. Doesn’t seem clever to me :D But yeah, I didn’t expect them to sit down like this.

solarmoodlet replied to your photo “Sim Download: Enric Noel he/him, gay Sometimes a miracle happens and I...”

hes so cute. added him to my save. Tyvm!

Ahhh thank youuu!

tiny-tany-thaanos replied to your post “Simblr 2019 Goals”

I join you with the last point�� I kinda defeated social anxiety irl but the online anxiety stays. And they say shy people can communicate better online!

melien replied to your post “Simblr 2019 Goals”

I third the online anxiety, glad to know I'm not alone

I wish I could say I defeated it irl as well...things got better (mainly because I just had to get used to it and grow a thicker skin) but I’m still an anxious trainwreck 99 % of the time :D It’s the same online. 

Also, instead of actually starting a conversation with people, I’m always like “oh you know, if you feel like talking to me, just send me a message, I don’t bite” but the problem is I know there’s a lot of us like that here and I’m not the only one with this fear of communication so maybe I should be the one to find the courage once

Wow that didn’t make sense but I think that only proves my point that I’m an anxious trainwreck :D

penelope-and-wonders replied to your photoset “You can put the umbrellas away, guys.”

What fun would that be? ��

Oh right, I can’t have a normal wedding :D It’s a universal rule that I should finally accept. Something would be wrong if everything went right for once.

tiny-tany-thaanos replied to your photo “Sim Download: Leigh Smith she/her, pansexual A long long time ago I...”

Omg, I looove her! ❤️❤️

Thank youuu ♥

green-productivitea replied to your photoset “Sunset: “What can I say? Freaking finally. Took you long enough to...”

The fact that she call him dad :O

Yep, she did. I love the relationship these two have.

yamekamerainbows27 replied to your photoset “Sunset: “You’re the woman that said she didn’t want a child, and you...”

Damn Sunset! You tell her girl ��

melien replied to your photoset “Sunset: “You’re the woman that said she didn’t want a child, and you...”

Go Sunset!

That’s what she deserves

sparkiemonkey replied to your photoset “I mean, Sunset was right. Dawn is adorable.”

she is totally adorable

Up until now I was always saying that this legacy has some Good Genes, now with Dawn it will be more like Cute Genes.

unstablesims replied to your photoset “Marcella: “What are you two doing?” Sunset: “Watching the clouds!...”

let them be dorks in peace!! lmao

Exactly!! No reasons to judge

cafeheart replied to your photoset “I would lie if I said I saw this coming.”

yknow if someone didnt have context for your legacy this kinda looks like caleb is murdering ross asdkfbbd

omg you’re right and I hate that you are right

vampcatsims replied to your photoset “Ross: “We’ve taken many risks already and now I’m taking another one,...”

noooo he's going to leave him at the altar god this is going to hurt so much

omg wow this is where scrolling down and reading new ones before old ones causes reaction mistakes cuz omg this is for realsies isn't it?

kyveria replied to your photoset “Ross: “We’ve taken many risks already and now I’m taking another one,...”

@vampcatsims don’t worry, ross has already had someone leave him at the altar so Caleb is going to stay ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Haha yeah, they’re going to be fine. I think. Can’t promise anything.

jackssims replied to your photoset “Caleb: “I…how can I say no to this? Yes, Ross. Yes, I will.” Ross:...”

Good! I was scared he was going to say no for a second ����

Imagine if he left him and I’d introduce a new spouse now. Or bring back Jordan. Or Marika.

Omg imagine I’d bring her back and she’d get her “happy little family” she claims she wishes for now.

myopiccc replied to your post “ - fave types of movies?”

Such a tense era! I'm a historic nerd too:)

Yeah, I love it! I mean, I don’t actually love it, there were some bad things happening, no freedom of speech and such, but for me, it’s an interesting era to learn about. I also think it’s important to know about these times because in a way, they’re still so similar to where we are now, we really should look back at them and try to not make the same mistakes...sadly, when I look at the situation in my country...sometimes it feels like people forget. Not just people like me who didn’t experience it and have only learned about it in History classes...feels like even people who have been there forget and it’s sad and frustrating and I wish I could do something about it. Okay rant over.

jackssims replied to your photoset “Caleb: “Tell me honestly. Did you expect me to change my mind with...”

Nice! But I swear if this somehow backfires and Ross ends up dying...

👀

dandylion240 replied to your photoset “This doesn’t even need a caption.”

Ross you better not have died!!

jackssims replied to your photoset “This doesn’t even need a caption.”

/ROSS/

ajkfaglafkghlahgfk I didn’t realize this would seem like he’s dying I’m sorry for causing panic fjaklflk

I just thought it was funny he set himself on fire and Caleb is over there like “nooo I agreed to marry this freak I have made a grave mistake”

princessdejamars replied to your photoset “Ummmm”

oh no not again

Yes. Yes again. And yeah, I could’ve left without saving. I didn’t. I was shocked when it happened and once I realized he’s pregnant again...you should’ve heard my hysterical laughter. Something is wrong with me and I don’t like it.

cafeheart replied to your photoset “Dawn: “Not a chance.”

sunset looks scared shitless asdkfjdbdb

"fhlakhfalklahkjjkij she’s kissing me I wasn’t prepared for this what do I do jgljfkjhlaafkgl”

jackssims replied to your photoset “Caleb: Nothing happened…I’m fine…I’m just gonna give this dog a bath...”

That's totally not going to lead to more problems later, Caleb, if anything *did* happen (/sarcasm)

Yup. It’s totally okay to do that.

jackssims replied to your photoset “oh shit”

Oh fuck

alfalfalegacy replied to your photoset “oh shit”

wow

this is wild haha

Basically my reaction

jackssims replied to your photoset “Stella: “Dad, you’re home alone?” Caleb: “I think so.” Stella: “Aw,...”

jlkfdzsjlkfadg She's pregnant, he's pregnant, truly amazing

ikr

That’s a twist I truly didn’t expect at the end of this generation. Not that I’m complaining

jackssims replied to your photoset “Stella: “Anything else?” Caleb: “What? Is there supposed to be...”

/Caleb/

jackssims replied to your photoset “Caleb: “And that’s not all…” Ross: “Huh?” Caleb: “Nothing. Forget it.”

//Caleb//

See Ross and Caleb were made for each other because they both have a hard time learning from their mistakes lol

dandylion240 replied to your post “I WAS HOPING HE WAS PREGNANT WITH HIS FIANCE'S BABY NOT GETTING...”

There's a way to bend the rules. Since Ross will become a vampire. He and Caleb have forever to have a child together. So once Sunset takes over as heir I say anything goes for Ross after that �� but that's just me lol

Ooh, technically that could work! I didn’t even think about that. Good point. I don’t think they’ll have children together but I really do like this idea.

jackssims replied to your photoset “Ross: “Is there anything you would like to tell me?” Caleb: “I was...”

Good! Caleb got the courage to tell Ross

I mean he didn’t really have another option at this point

jackssims replied to your photoset “Caleb: “You’re not going to leave me now, are you?” Ross: “I’m...”

Wholesome Ross (he’s really come full circle tbh)

I kept saying he would get better and no one believed me. There you have it guys, he’s a changed person. Character development! :D

simtress replied to your photo “™¥ ♥”

*eeps! she's too cute1

ikr, I miss her ;-;

melien replied to your photoset “Stella: I can’t believe it’s actually raining on my wedding day. We...”

It's a free riiiiide when you've already paid

Is this a reference I am supposed to get

Because I’m dumb and don’t get it lmao

melien replied to your photoset “Sunset: “Say cheese hair!”

So don't ask how I remember it because I'm probably too invested lol but your theme with red hair/blonde(yellow) hair in gen 3 of every legacy? It continues

Omg I didn’t even realize! Sebastian and Lynn started it obviously, then in my Raven Legacy it was a little “easter egg” but this time, it’s a coincidence (a nice coincidence). I guess I just can’t have too many redheads!

melien replied to your photoset “oh shit”

The ultimate plot twist

The plot twist I normally would’ve welcomed but this time, I actually felt sorry for him. He didn’t deserve it the first time (aka the time I was petty and did it on purpose) and he didn’t deserve it this time either. But still. Aliens. I can’t just quit the game without saving when it has to do something with them, can I?

melien replied to your post “I WAS HOPING HE WAS PREGNANT WITH HIS FIANCE'S BABY NOT GETTING...”

Maybe babies for them perhaps?

Y’all really want them to have kids huh

melien replied to your photoset “Nooooo Rocket :( He’s old now!”

Can Caleb also turn Rocket? Vampire doggo would be fun

Man I’d love if that was possible (even though...I just imagined him biting the poor dog and that’s kinda weird). Buuuut...there’s something else that I did and it’s almost as good.

tiny-tany-thaanos replied to your photo “Sim Download: Minako Ito she/her, lesbian Traits: Good, Loner,...”

All of the Sims you put for download are so pretty! I'm grabbing them all!

Thank you so much ;-;

tiny-tany-thaanos replied to your photo “i was enchanted to meet you”

Aaahh nostalgia!

I knoooow ;-; I love them and I miss them and I want to play with them again

I mean I could, first I’d just have to finish the high school story and that’s...highly unlikely lol

tiny-tany-thaanos replied to your photoset “oh shit”

Aliens are in love with him that's true

New otp: Caleb/Aliens. Oh that's weird

They have a weird thing for Calebs

If you guys know a Caleb irl protect them

If you are a Caleb, well...I’m sorry

tiny-tany-thaanos replied to your photoset “Rocket: Hey I’m old, just thought you should know…oh nevermind what...”

This is somehow sad=((

Yeah. I love this little dog so much :(

[mykastory]

Me 2.0

I met a new guy...

It kinda happened outta nowhere...

A few months after the divorce was made official, I had another crazy work month with three shoots back to back. The guy I met was a part of the first shoot. He was filling in for a regular that we usually have, but in the two~three? days that he filled in, we got to talking and got along pretty well.

Never thought I'd see him again until I was in Busan for the second shoot...

I had heard from him that he was going to be in Busan, too, because it was the same week as BIFF. What I didn’t know was that the other guy that was on the shoot (not the usual but there was one other... I call him Pooh cuz he reminds me of Winnie the Pooh haha) Anyway, so Pooh randomly texts me while I’m in Busan, asking how I’m doing down there - turns out he’s there too and heard from JH (the new guy) that I would be there too. As it happens, I was having a pretty damn shitty day and told him so, to which he asked to grab 치맥 after work.

He came by the hotel I was staying at and we grabbed chicken n beer next door. It was mostly just me listening to him as he told me how him and JH had talked about how great and nice I was during the shoot and how I seemed like a 현모양처 type. I guess it was kind of a big deal how nice I was to them - they deal with a lot of 통역s in their line of work, but they never had someone 챙겨줘 them like I did. Of course I did cuz I wasn’t JUST the 통역 for the shoot. I was the producer, but they didn’t know that. Plus, I like 챙겨줘ing stuff for people cuz when I'm working on a shoot and no one 챙겨줘s me to eat the good stuff, too, then I get sad haha

Anyway, he kept saying let’s have a 송별회 since I was leaving for the states soon and planned to come by tomorrow, again, with Mr. H (the usual guy) and maybe JH, too.

Next day, Pooh tells me Mr. H can’t make it, but JH can. Pooh might get off late so he tells me to grab a beer with JH, first, and then he’ll join us. But then 갑자기 he calls me at around 9 or 10? telling me to come downstairs. Not sure what’s going on so I tell him I’ll be down in five minutes and quickly get dressed and go down.

As I meet him downstairs, he tells me to get in the car so 얼떨결에 I get in the car and he starts driving off.

I’m so confused, have no idea what’s going on, and am starting to wonder if I made a mistake... How well do I know this guy, anyway? Where the hell is he going?!

There's this other guy in the passenger seat, he appears to be their 통역. I only know cuz I said something in English and he kinda responded or something like that. I dunno. It's fuzzy cuz it was a while ago...

Anyway, Pooh is on the phone with someone else, telling him not to forget to grab blah blah and to stand outside the blah blah.

The car stops, the door opens, and all of a sudden, JH gets in the car.

He looks as surprised to see me as I do.

We're both wondering what the heck is going on, when Pooh suddenly stops the car in the middle of the road and tells JH to take the wheel and that he'll call when he's done.

둘다 당황해서 멈칫하다가 he jumps into the front seat and drives to their hotel - Pooh had told him to take me up to their room and "TV 보면서 맥주 한잔 하고 있어."

We both felt it might be weird to go to a hotel room, just the two of us, so we ended up going to a bar down the street.

전날 Pooh랑 얘기했을때에 비해 대화도 너무 잘 흘러가고 (with Pooh, it was more like me listening, rather than having a conversation), I ended up telling him about the divorce.

It's not like I meant to... 무슨 얘기하다 it kept becoming inconvenient to mention who or what I was talking about, so I ended up just telling him.

He took it pretty well and said a few kind words to make me feel better...

Ohhhh righhhttttt!

And then I found out about Pooh's shadiness.

The night before, Pooh had told me that he doesn't have a girlfriend.. that he has a "fuck buddy" but not a girlfriend... but then I found out from JH that he DOES have a girlfriend. We were trying to figure out why he lied to me.. cuz he went wayyyyy out of his way to lie to me.. It wasn't just like a simple "no" but rather a long story about how they never really see each other, and when they do, all she does is play games on her phone so he gets mad and he barely sees her cuz she's always away at work and they just pretty much watch each others' dogs.

HA-HA.

We were trying to figure out why he would've lied... JH concluded that it was better to lie that way than to explain that they were living together even though they weren't married. Eh. Not like that's a big deal but maybe he's super traditional Korean. Molla. That may have been his conclusion, but mine was that Pooh was interested in me and lied on purpose. JH refused to support that theory.

I told him that I might feel awkward if Pooh comes (this was before either of us had made our conclusions and when we were still wondering what the heck was going on) so he told Pooh that I was really tired and would probably leave soon.

Anyway, we went outside to smoke and someone was coming by or something.. I don't remember.. but he put his hand behind my back in a protective manner and I totally 심쿵했어. He was so.... kind and 매너있어 that I was kinda starting to fall for him. But I knew he had a girlfriend.

Oh right!!!

This part is soooo important.

He had a girlfriend.

I remember him telling me when we were on the shoot together and that's why I had put him out of my mind.

So anyway, he does that, so I turn to him and I say,

"Do you always just touch any girl like that?"

And he's like why?

And I'm like

"설레어요."

Okay. So let me clarify.

I actually said this in kind of a bitchy way.

He had said a few bitingly harsh? words to me, so this was my way of telling him to back off. I mean, what girl doesn't 설레 when this cute guy touches her?!

근데 문제가!!!!

When I told this to a few girlfriends, they were like, dude... you were totally hitting on him.

Whatever. I wasn't.

Anyway, Pooh comes and he's in SUCH a rush to get me home - I guess it's cuz I said I was tired.

JH offered to drive me home but Pooh insisted that he put me in a cab, which he did, and then gave the cab driver money which was really sweet but also further confirmed that I was right about his feelings...

When I got home, I texted JH to say thanks, but while I was typing, he texted me first asking if I got in okay.

몇번 카톡 주고 받다 - with both JH and Pooh, reporting to me that they were eating and sending me the same foodie pic haha - that was that.

The next day, I had a bit of a fiasco at the airport with the crew and then had two or so hours to kill so I texted him thinking he might be at the airport (cuz they usually are a lot the first couple days).

He wasn't, but after that, he would keep texting me every so often which became pretty much every day after a day or two...

He was really nice and supportive while I was working the third shoot, offering to pick me up and give me rides and stuff, but I still felt kinda weird cuz I knew he had a girlfriend and I wouldn't be so happy if my boyfriend was contacting this other girl as often as he was contacting me.

During the last leg of my shoot, he came by my house cuz he was working in the area and we had a smoke together before he left... and then we went to go watch a movie a few days after that...

연락이 너무 잦아지니깐 I asked him if his gf was okay with him contacting me and meeting me like that, to which he told me they broke up.

I asked him why he didn't tell me, and he said cuz technically it was none of my business.

I tried to explain to him my point of view, but he didn't seem to understand.

"내가 알아서 하는데 왜 문제야?"

Eh...

That was the first red flag.

Regardless, now that he was "free," we started 본격적으로 dating.

Everything was pretty good at first.

He made me feel special and loved to the point where I wondered what the hell I was doing the past four or so years.

To be honest, he was more of a rebound/ expiration dating for me than something serious, since I'm moving to the states at the end of the month (which he knows, too) but he started talking about things pretty seriously which scared me but then his actions didn't really match up so I was confused... We fought a few times because he didn't like me talking about S... This was really strange to me, because I thought this was a part of dating and getting to know each other... Getting to know each others' pasts is important so you know where the other person comes from and it becomes easier to understand them... But everytime I talked about S, he would get upset, and one time it got to the point where he was so upset with me that he said,

"Sometimes I wonder why I'm doing the 똥치워ing."

What the fuck?

Who says that???

어쨌든... 싸우기만 하면 너무 막말하고 I saw a scary side of him that I didn't like. Plus, he didn't understand what it meant to make sacrifices for family and didn't handle it well when I was busy helping my sister plan her wedding and wasn't able to 챙겨줘 him -_-

Regardless, 계속 만났다... Even though I wondered if he was more like L and only dating me as an investment for his future, I had way too much time on my hands and all my friends were lost in the shit that went down with S...

It was still good at times...

I think what actually made me decide to end things was meeting A and J again...

Let's start with J since he's short and easy... ㅋㅋ

I met J when I first came to Korea and was teaching English.

He was the only decent guy there, so naturally, boy crazy me had a crush on him haha

He never really returned the feelings, but after that, he ended up becoming good friends with my sister.

At the wedding after party, he was hitting on me like crazy and even took me home to make sure I got home okay and apparently keeps asking my sister about me.

Meh. I'm not into him anymore but it was flattering at least ㅋㅋ

Then, there's A.

My sister always tried to hook us up but it never worked out and he ended up marrying someone else, until...

I was supposed to sing at my sister's wedding with another guy, but he ended up not being able to make it and so my sister asked A because A is also a famous singer-songwriter. He usually hates singing at weddings, so she was just gonna ask him to help me with my song that I planned to sing alone.

Well, she goes to ask him, and turns out he's fresh going through a divorce right now, too...

It happened a couple weeks before my sister's wedding so he was going through a really rough time but still agreed to help me (which actually turned into him and I singing a duet which was awesome btw :))

As we practiced the song together, we kinda got to talking a bit more, and it was just really nice talking to him... in English, something I wasn't able to do with JH.

At this point, especially with JH in the picture, I hadn't talked about S in a while, but talking about it with A after some time helped me 정리해 a lot of things and was really helpful...

Plus, seeing how hard he was pushing to keep their marriage from falling apart and praying to God about it made me realize what I had been missing with S...

Both A and JH made me realize that I wasn't married to a husband.

I was married to a child.

These past four years weren't a relationship with a man... it was with a son.

That's why I was so unhappy and stressed and lashing out...

JH actually helped me in this respect, a lot, which I'm thankful for... He showed me what it meant to date a man that cares for you, not a boy that you need to care for.

A showed me how important it is for your husband to be a God loving/ fearing man. Well, S made me understand this, too, but it helped to see someone who walked the walk...

Anyway, getting back to JH, as the relationship progressed, his true colors started to show, as did mine.

He was just a typical Korean guy. He would ask me things like,

"If I came home after work, would you draw me a foot bath?"

Eh...

"I'll probably be busy making dinner."

"Is it that hard to draw up some water?"

Eh.

Wtf.

근데 내가 그렇게 반응하니깐 he's all,

"I guess you're not as 착해 as I thought."

WTF?!

My true colors showed, too.

When I say that, I mean that I realized who I am is heavily dependent on who I'm with.

I don't know if this makes me sound like I have some weird personality disorder or whatever, but I realized that I'm a different person depending on who I'm with. 맞춰주는 성격이니깐...

For example,

Being with JH made me a little more crabby, cuz he would always 지적질 about my clothes or my appearance and even went so far as to tell me that I have shitty taste and that everything I buy should be cleared through him... -_-

When I'm with A, I feel bright and happy and it shows...

I need to meet someone that brings out the best in me...

Where are you?

Ugh this post is sooo all over the place but I guess that’s how I feel right now... Can’t even write clearly... ㅠㅠ

Maybe I DO need to gtfoutta here...