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butchfalin · 1 year ago

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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

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serenityquest · 1 year ago

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#metamorphosis #change #fear

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caffeinatedopossum · 2 years ago

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Me when I remember something I said ages ago that was wrong or my values no longer align with

#my path of self improvement has been less self righteous and personally gainful #and more just. a lot of embarrassment and pain #like i wouldnt change the path i took to get where i am now but i wouldve chosen to travel that path sooner because omg #nothing hits me like the fear that future me will feel the same way about right now me that right now me feels about past tense me

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feral-ballad · 23 days ago

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Victoria Chang, from With My Back to the World: Poems; “The Islands, 1961”

#victoria chang #love #fear #sadness #excerpts #writings #literature #poetry #fragments #selections #words #quotes #poetry collection #typography

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athlast · 9 months ago

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there's something about butches reclaiming protectiveness and chivalry from an imposed "caring, nurturing" character associated and often forced upon women. something about how while straight men often try to present as careless as possible, masculinity and care are not only not conflicting in the butch identity, but inherent to it. there's something there.

#I've always been very fiercely protective of my friends and family #and i damn hated the idea of coming across as ��motherly” so much #so much that i radically changed the way i interacted in fear of being percieved like some sort of mom friend #my views on this radically shifted since i started meeting butches #it also made me open my eyes to how people (esp femmes and other lesbians) actually see me and percieve me #theres an abyss of difference #and its an interesting thought #butch #butch lesbian #lesbian #butchfemme

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lakemichigans · 10 months ago

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the way supernatural treats food is soooooooo crazy because they establish that sam and dean grew up in poverty and they had such little access to food that dean would have to shoplift bread and go without meals for himself so he could feed sam. but then as the show goes on they make more and more jokes about how much dean relies on food for comfort and can never feel full enough, and how sam stringently follows diets and exercise regiments as a form of control. but it's funny you see because dean likes pie and sam likes rabbit food. it's funny

#i'm going through my drafts lmao #it's funny to see a time capsule of my changing interests #but supernatural is everywhere... it is never leaving me i fear #spn

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what-the-fuck-is-not-chosen · 5 months ago

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the movie was great and i love LOVE the dynamic poolverine have but people now say that Wade/Lodan is more iconic then THEM??? no wayy

#scogan are an OG toxic old men yaoi couple im sorry no one can change that i fear #scogan #scott summers #cyclops #logan #wolverine #jean grey

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heartorbit · 5 months ago

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find another role, carry on the show

#EDIT IT DIDNT SAVE MY TAGS. hey so this post got a thousand notes huh. interesting. surely nothing will change #i'll leave all the old tags. for my thought process. and its kinda funny #take a bow stupid idiot (throws a tomato at them)#in stars and time #isat #siffrin #siffrin no middle names no last name ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ )✧#... or is it. Smiles #i'd like to draw mira for her birthday but um (hasnt open artfight website in a few days) im scared.#also i have NICE ASKS TO ANSWER.... But im scared. give me a minute #Uawaaaaagh i drew this bc i was trying to animate a little bit but it just . Didnt look good. im not good ag 2d animation #tch. ill keep trying cause there ar e way too many songs that and now about isat because i have brain worms. i need amvs.#IM SCARED TO POST THINGS THAT ARE SPOILERY BECAUSE I WANT MY FRIENDS TO PLAY ISAT. BUT.#isat spoilers #in stars and time spoilers #sasasap #sasasa:p #WHAT IS THE PROLOGUES TAG.#tshirt that says 'i <3 killing the image in the mirror and taking its place' on the fromt #and a list of megan thee stallions tour dates on the back. お金稼ぐ俺らはスター #Im kind of tempted to edit this to be the versiom with the eyes. or maybe twt can have that. or. well #all of my friends are on twt (trombone slide sfx) so maybe thats where i should worry about spoilers.#ill see if i want to slap an eyepatch on them in the morning #Im one of those people who was like idgaf about twohats (lets it simmer for a week) Oh my god. Oh my god. Ohmy god #EDIT. i swapped it out for the Eyes version it should be fine as long as its tagged formspoilers right...#ill post eyepatch vers on twt partly bc spoilers but also ppl over there can be .. annoying ..... ....#i fear i would get 800 You Forgot The Eyepatch replies. PLEASE JUST SEE MY VISION.#[BANGING MY HANDS ON THE GLASS] HIS HAND. LIKE IN THE PROLOGUE. WHEN THEYE. HANDS. HELD[EXPLOSION

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mrsducky · 19 days ago

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KYLE GALLNER in DINNER IN AMERICA 2020, dir. Adam Rehmeier

#this changed me for ever I fear #dinner in america #kyle gallner #simon dinner in america #simon dia #filmgifs #moviegifs #mancandykings #mine

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hyunpic · 7 months ago

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HYUNJIN | SKZ CODE EP. 54 + bonus he’s trying to escape his enclosure

#hyunjin #stray kids #bystay #staydaily #bonus gif HES NICE AND NONTHREATENING AND WONT BITE LET HIM OUT #skz #his arrest streak of putting people in cardiac arrest cause he’s so hot must be really high #gifs #the gif of him arguing like i need u as my lawyer not my cop. i fear u have to change jobs now

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0m3n-0f-d3ath · 9 months ago

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Sock eye salmon

𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

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sodapopper · 2 months ago

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Ponyboy is like “Darry ALWAYS yells at me but NEVER yells at Soda! I don’t understand!! Why??!”

…because you yell back, my guy. Whereas Soda just cries.

#darrel curtis has one (1) fear and it’s making soda cry #change my mind #oh to be everyone’s favorite brother #I need someone to write a fic of darry accidentally making soda cry and promptly panicking #sodapop curtis #bawl baby sodapop curtis #the outsiders #the outsiders musical #darry curtis #the curtis brothers #ponyboy curtis

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callmegaith · 3 months ago

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Remember that CHANGE BEGINS WITH US! RESIST! FIGHT FOR YOUR FREEDOM!! ✊️

HOLY SHIT THIS WAS SO FUN TO MAKE hope I'm feeding yall well with my Citizen art I love them sm

#half life #hl: change begins with us #oc: pete #nate as male 07 #marcel as male 09 #hes the fear one #the one from the consoling couple is uuuuuh #well clearly another male 09 xD #hl: female 01 #hl: male 01 #hl: male 02 #i promises posters and here they are 🥰🥰#anyway join the resistance #down with the combine 😤✊️#ship: consoling couple

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longlostlorian · 2 months ago

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been playing a lot of this game over the past month. cahara just wants to feel included

#fear & hunger #cahara #ragnvaldr #enki #the girl #enki and girl: changing their address. they live here now. on their mobile heat rock #also tagging as #enkivaldr #cos why not #my art

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timethehobo · 2 months ago

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Still haven’t gotten to him yet but I needed a self-indulgent doodle. 😔

#dragon age #dragon age the veilguard #DAtV #Emmrich volkarin #my art #I fear I’m setting myself up for pain with this #but the visual is still on my mind and he’s still rotating in my brain #I doubt they’ll change the casuals just from what I’ve seen with the companions I have rn #messy hair Emmy tho #self indulgent is self indulgent #hush now #I’m so excited to see him grahhhhh

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herinnerwolf · 2 months ago

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[GUNSHOT] [CAR CRASH] [BOOM] [PEOPLE SCREAMING] [SIRENS] [GLASS BREAKS] [DISTANT YELLING] [EXPLOSION] [HELICOPTERS AND NEWS TRUCKS] “... WE’RE REPORTING LIVE FROM THE SCENE-“ [AMBULANCE SIRENS]

#rivals #taggie o'hara #rupert campbell black #taggie x rupert #i fear the parentified daughter and the infamous rake have forever changed my brain chemistry

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