#fear is always destructive

[postersbykeith]

[art-is-kayos]

Checking up on his commission

[clownsuu]

Small detour of what I usually post, but I absolutely wish (other) clown the best of luck during these confusing and almost hopeless times- nobody knows how to deal with such amount of attention in such short amount of time- a blessing and a curse to behold

[rennyrose]

I adore Vivio as well just two very kind but very broken people trying their very best hhhhhhhhhh

But Chyeah one of my fav things about their dynamic is how comfortable they are around each other- esp with Vash being so trusting of Liv from nearly the very get-go

Whether it’s goofin together or having a deep moment, it comes easy to them-

I like the idea that whenever LR are around it means that it’s time to Rest™️ for Vash, mind and heart at peace knowing everything will be alright since they’re there (even if it gets in the way of quality time sometimes)

[spiritofpassionfruit]

A–Aventio TGCF idea?? Wherein Civil God Veritas Ratio meets the infamous Ghost King Aventurine during his first mission cuz cuz like— The "live for me" paralels?!? The one who has all the luck partner as well?!? The villain who was actually not the Villain this whole time!?!? The loving humanity a little too much it causes their downfall !?!?!?

Rant AU in the tags proceed with caution

[angeart]

Y'know I was sitting here this morning with the hot spring rambles on my brain, specifically thinking about if the hair washing is close enough to preening to make Grian's birb brain happy

And it just really hit me how unfair hhau world is to birb Grian in particular. Birb brain wants preening from Scar and to show off for him, but being noticed is what's most dangerous for them. T-T

-🎀

hhau world is cruel to birb grian. besides just turning his wings into big shining targets and a huge liability, grian can't have anything his instincts want and crave and yearn for.

preening (as much from himself as from scar—he can't get any version of it and it's driving something in him despondent and mad), idle touches to his feathers, using wings for nonverbal language, using them as a comforting warm blanket on cold nights, flying... the list goes on.

he's a grounded bird that sometimes contemplates if he wouldn't be better off without his wings. that's what this world's done to him.

and oh gosh the things he'd like to do now that him and scar are openly horribly in love? all the new instincts and cravings and urges? all of those things he equally has to stifle and bury deep down... all those things that he feels insane need for but an even bigger terror of them—an emotion that doesn't belong, should never have been put there, and yet it's so deeply rooted and entangled through him now, so much so that it feels insurmountable and irreversible...

it's honestly unfair and so very sad, yeah 😭

[akkivee]

HOW ARE YOU WATCHING THE DIVISION FANMEETINGS I’m a hypster member so that’s not a problem I just get an error when I click on the link and I lowkey need to watch mtcs or I may pass away

lol i’ll apologise upfront about this ask, this one is a monster topic

ight so the fan meetings are actually not at all streamed on hypster!!!! all lives, stage plays, and most hypmic extra content are streamed on abema. the fan meetings cost like, ¥4400 a ticket and i think???? they take international credit cards???? idk about that one actually, i usually just buy tickets on my phone 😭😭😭

thing is tho, abema has probably one of, if not thee strictest region blocking system on the planet i feel lmao, like you can’t watch a lot of content on that site if you’re located anywhere outside of japan. which means you’re going to need a ✨vpn✨

i use two different methods of watching abema content and they both lead back to vpn gate!!!!

the landing page is important if you’re on mobile, but i’ll get to that later. what you need for pc is to go to the download link at the top of the site, and hit the first option

on the download page, download the first option

and install!!!!! or i think it’s run application after you extract the files lol

i highly recommend you follow the instructions on the site to get connected lol, but once you run the app, let it do its installation thing and once it’s done, let the program open up and it should look sumn like this

double click the option that’s boxed in the pic and it’ll bring up a BUNCH of vpns to use!!!! double click on any one that says japan, hit yes until it starts connecting and once it does, you’re in, you’ve done it, you’ve learned basic vpn connecting lmao

except i meant it when i said abema has the strictest region blocking on the planet 😌

a lot of the vpns on the app are pretty old, and the first couple dozen or so (they have the ip 219) are actually blocked by abema. the older the vpn, the more likely it will not work on abema. try to aim for any that’s been up for a few hours, two days at max and it should circumvent the block. the host tho may close the connection at any time so sometimes you may get disconnected mid stream (or that you’ve been relying on that one connection for a very long while only to discover you can’t connect anymore either bc of the host or abema themselves blocking the ip but i don’t think you’ll have to worry about this specific problem lol). if you get disconnected, just find a new one as quickly as you can so you don’t miss anything lol

if you’re on mobile, i can only help with iphone stuff!!! but you’ll need to have these things:

the openvpn app

the abema app

a jp itunes account LOL and jp itunes gift cards bc apple won’t let you add an international card iirc

the abema app is only available in jp itunes so if you don’t want to google how to make one real quick, feel free to stick to pc lol. but if you already have one download the two apps 😌

to run a vpn on your phone, i again recommend you follow the instructions on the site lmao (tho it was made using ios ‘old as dirt’ so the interface looks a liiiittle outdated lol. should be the same tho) but go back to the previously linked landing page and click on the link in the boxed section of your chosen vpn

on that page, there’s typically four links; you’ll want to choose either of the bottom two, but i’ve found tcp links works more frequently. click the link and it’ll download the file. once it’s downloaded, pull it up and it should offer to open via openvpn. the app will redirect you to a tab that looks like this in the app

hit add, then hit connect, and it’ll go back to the connections tab in app and start connecting. if it connects, it’ll be all green and you’re good to go!!!!

more times than not tho, it’ll fail LOL just repeat the steps until you find one that works 😭😭😭

my hot vee tip is that sometimes when you’re connected, videos might pause mid connection. idk what’s causing it, but my gut says it’s likely bc of the ping you see in the line quality section (or the ping section on pc). go for a high mbps and very low ping if possible for less interruptions on both pc and mobile!!!!

that’s all i got for ya lol good luck i’m sorry we have to fight everyday to enjoy and support this fcking franchise ✌️

[shannonsketches]

lays on the floor do you guys ever think about how in ResF Bulma falls for Vegeta's fake-out with Freeza and both she and Yamcha are worried about Vegeta's villain fake-out strategy in Champa and Beerus' mini tournament and how it's only been a couple of years since the Buu saga and how Vegeta straight up stopped using that strategy after that tournament

[samuraipussy]

don't know if this is actually a new blue eye samurai take but reading she who became the sun I expected to see some of mizu in zhu and instead I see him in ouyang

[meowww-ffxiv]

Awwh the surprise reward of the newest Tataru quest is a portrait of Gaius and his dead children + the remaining one.

Meowdred who despises the ex-imperialist piece of shit and still haven't forgiven him and ALSO hates him like a twisted reflection:

[sadistic-softie]

My repressed anger wants out so badly that I'm showing cracks in my perfectly imperfect facade that I've conjured via repressing everything.

I can feel it pulling me apart from the inside.

I'm slowly breaking down.

Slowly but surely.

The ever increasing number of manic fits that only seem to get longer and more difficult to cease as my mind fails to keep calm.

Uncontrollably laughing at the pain.

It hurts so fucking much.

As I so desperately try to keep everything inside.

Feeling the utter humiliation of every little emotional slip.

Talking so fast and so much I can't even hear myself.

Sweating, shivering, knowing that my distress is obvious.

Knowing that they can see every rise and fall of my heavy breath.

Knowing that they can see the flushing of my cheeks as I realize how unstable I look.

How the energy in my body is visibly overloading my senses.

How embarrassing.

How shameful of me.

All of this feels so wrong.

Going against what I was taught about anger...

And how I should never release it.

Not in any capacity.

Never.

But I can't hold back forever.

Everything is becoming misaligned.

My breaths.

My thoughts.

The way that my eyes see the world.

Darting around every room as if to look for some imperceivable threat.

Looking at everything at once yet looking at nothing.

Looking through it all.

I feel like a cornered wild animal.

Moving so fast yet thinking so slow.

Feeling myself lose control.

My emotions quickly taking over all of Me.

Being powerless to stop it.

At least not for much longer.

They tell me I need to let it out.

I'm scared.

I'm so scared.

Can I do this?

What's happening to me?

What's going to happen when I break?

Am I going to lock myself away and destroy myself again?

Scar my knuckles again?

Cover them in my own blood?

Would I be able to resist that pain?

My heart feels like it's going to burst.

My body feels like it's going to combust.

My head feels like it's swimming in the abyss.

I want to seal my mouth and I want to scream out all at the same time.

I'm helplessly trying to fight something inside me that's clawing its way out.

It's a battle that I have been fighting for years now.

Never allowing myself to feel raw anger.

Not fully.

Not truly.

The conclusion to this battle is long overdue.

I always knew I was going to lose.

I've already lost it once before.

But the time is coming quicker than I had ever anticipated.

There's almost a sense of finality to it.

And it's all so completely terrifying.

Horrifically and viscerally.

Like looking up at the bear that's about to maul you.

And yet...

It feels beautiful.

[angelstrawbabie420]

crazy how i have no one

[coffincanary]

I keep thinking about just how Dean can't deal with failure. At all.

And it's not just failure, it's not being good enough in general.

It has been installed into Dean from when he was a child that failure was not acceptable. In their line of work, with their stakes, it was simply no option to make mistakes. If Dean didn't protect Sammy well enough, Sam might actually get hurt. If Dean did something wrong during a hunt, someone might die. If he disobeyed or got out of line, he might have to face disappointing his father.

Dean never got told that it was okay to make mistakes. He wasn't allowed to fail, because there were always severe consequences for it.

I feel like that'd eventually manifest in him obsessing over being perfect. Finding quickest and most effective way to kill any monster (because what if it got away? What if it hurt someone while Dean was fumbling?) Saving on ammunition by becoming the best possible shot (because what if they run out? What if they actually need the bullets but don't have enough because Dean wasted them?)

Dean obsesses over how everything could go wrong and as a result, tries his hardest to become the best hunter, the best protector. And if he fails, it's his fault. There is no "There's nothing that could have been done". Because Dean could have simply been better.

[subconsciousmysteries]

The so called "unique duality of type 6 that no other type has" really isn't that special once you actually LTR. Whether a 6 is a Rebel or a Conformist they are fixated on the same thing: Faith. Finding or creating a framework that explains reality, to give them Faith that they are ready to experience reality. Not realizing that the experience is inauthentic when it is done through the lens of a mental framework, and they don't actually need a framework for everything to be alright, they already have the power to experience reality without dying.

Typing someone as a 6 because they are a rebel or a conformist is WRONG! Other types have this same duality between rebel and conformist too. It's called being a human being and facing the dilemma between doing what is right and doing what is easy. It's the dichotomy between growth and stagnancy. Every type has its own version of it. To name one example 7 has a dichotomy between being a dumb consoomer (conformist) and being a disciplined visionary (rebel). I could go on forever.

There must be the primary fixation on Faith and building intellectual belief systems to explain reality, and an intense sense of fear and lostness without this belief system solidly intact. Or else it is not a 6.

Also there's no geometric reason for any type on the enneagram other than 9 to be a unique snowflake so please just stop trying to make snowflake 6 happen. It is never going to happen.

[talesinfallacies]

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[mercale]

I can’t art, but I’ve got this vision in my mind and I thought I would share. Billy Hargrove, face tilted upward, looking as broken up as he does before his death. A tear rolling down his cheek. And above him, the sword of Damocles. Just... feels like a good summation of him in that final moment.