#fcbf & CFV mentions

[lacunasbalustrade]

feeling sentimental today so let me ramble about role playing

OCs are looked upon with hesitation by many. Self inserts are considered indulgent. Honestly roleplay as myself, without any proxy characters as masks, has changed my life for the better. I used to spend at least four hours a day talking with my brothers because of it, and not the rule-ridden D&D either, not the kind where every decision is made by the GM, but a collaborative work. We have three people altogether, sometimes two if one wasn’t free, so we’d take turns doing povs of each other and try to keep our stories as separate as possible. Our personalities are very different so that worked for the most part. My elder brother resembles Kageura from the Dark Buddyfight series. My younger resembles the protagonist of the Holy Chronicles. They usually try for sword skills and world dominion respectively. In that order.  All our role plays are irrevocably changed by whatever anime we’re into at the moment. I can never not link Sword Art Online to Doctor Gara’s (future card buddyfight) experiment, or My Hero Academia to Toshiki Kai (Cardfight Vanguard) having a dragon quirk. We do ridiculous crossovers and force a character to follow us around so we can explore the world without straying from the plot. Role playing with them forces me to improve my crazy plot ideas to keep things interesting without going overboard on the implausabilities. It forces me to elaborate on visual verbal and auditory clues. I have to develop my scene enough so they can make their own story out of it. And that makes me confront my own weaknesses.

Yet, I’m not placed into a role of impartiality. I have every right to twist their scene to help me at my end. They have every right to do so in mine, we are constantly battling to trick each other into following clues that will only hurt us and prevent us from reaching our goals. And strangely enough this is fun …. Without those dice rolls, without the character spreadsheet to make things fair. Without any reservations. The reason this is? We are all little npc characters running around in a story that is not ours and we are making it our own. That’s too fun to give up even if sometimes you do wish you could prove you deserve to punch that one character out of the narrative. It can be fun to roleplay as characters, of course, and that’s exactly what we do as gms as well; we play all the characters from time to time during someone else’s pov. 

I wish I had more time to roleplay like that. More people to do roleplay like that with. It’s so inexpressibly fun, it’s what I own half of my imagination to.

[buddyfightbarista]

stolen from @nykrose :D

muse aesthetics, tarot edition.  bold what applies to your muse, italicize what sometimes or sort-of applies, strike through what’s antithetical to your muse.  repost, don’t reblog, and have fun!  

tw: mentions of alcohol.

Major Arcana: a long journey  -  a feeling of raw energy  -  putting a name to something unknown  -  an elaborate patchwork  -  unexpected catastrophes  -  unexpected blessings  -  vivid dreams  -  sudden awakenings  -  the feeling of shedding your skin  -  the echoes in holy places  -  bright lights  -  deep shadows  -  feeling the earth move beneath your feet  -  wandering in museums  -  the strange clarity of moonlight  -  thunder and lightning  -  an unfamiliar road  -  coming back to the place you started as an entirely different person  

Cups:  being overwhelmed by emotion  -  finding something to celebrate every day  -  finding something to mourn every day  -  connecting with others  -  the scent of ocean air  -  making food for your friends when they’re stressed  -  the remembrance of something lost  -  sublime confusion  -  cool colors  -  a cozy cafe  -  a bustling bar  -  calm waters, hidden depths  -  getting tipsy in the afternoon  -  summer rain  -  comfy sweaters  -  flowing skirts  -  a house by the sea  -  deep conversations after midnight

Wands:  the scent of spices and dark wood  -  making something just for the sake of creation  -  dry heat  -  crackling fire  -  a bolt of inspiration  -  refusing to apologize for your passion  -  stubborn optimism  -  taking on more than you can handle  -  hot tea  -  warm colors  -  getting up early  -  staying up late  -  bright fire, fast burnout  -  tacky thrift store finds worn with the utmost confidence  -  the thrill of starting a new project  -  spring storms  -  hotel rooms  -  perpetual restlessness

Pentacles:  the scent of rich soil after a rain  -  hard and diligent work  -  solid ground, strong foundations  -  the satisfaction of a long-awaited payoff  -  generosity that comes with a catch  -  work boots and heavy jeans  -  silk and jewels  -  resting on your laurels   -  seeing your work through to the end  -  harvest time  -  fresh bread and rich soup  -  earth tones  -  jewel tones  -  a lush garden  -  sunlight through the trees  -  dark chocolate  -  a home in the farmlands  -  a sprawling house in the old part of the city

Swords:  the scent of fresh air  -  focusing on the intellectual at the expense of the emotional  -  freshly fallen snow  -  burying yourself in action  -  tending to your own wounds  -  a foreseeable disaster  -  crisply tailored suits  -  starkly elegant dresses  -  refusing to admit defeat  -  cold air, clear thoughts  -  old hurts  -  fresh starts  -  overthinking your overthinking  -  the harsh glow of street lamps  -  black coffee  -  a cabin in the mountains  -  an apartment downtown  -  the quiet before the dawn

Tagging @wingsofatonement, @waterlord and whoever else wishes to steal this ;3

I'm sorry if either of you have already done it 🤣