#fbiartist // 004

[deceptivemorals]

@fbiartist​  liked the starter call // What Will Be Left // Amnestic AU

          it’s not like he doesn’t know something is wrong. it feels like something’s tickling in his brain, trying to make its way to the surface. but every time he tried to grab it to pull it up, it slipped away. it frustrated him and that frustration led to anger that makes him want to break things.

          his name. it's on his tongue and yet he cannot say it nor remember. it's something with 'e', he's sure. or perhaps 'e' is some kind of brand that had been engraved in the cufflinks of the fine suit in which he attained consciousness.

          maybe he worked in this area somewhere? even if this would surprise him very much because this doesn't seem to be an area for suits, let alone for such expensive ones. one of the reasons why he dumped the suit for something more casual to blend in while he's looking for answers. jeans and t-shirt will do as well although he has to admit it felt foreign, strange even.

          days passed and nothing changed although he stayed in the area in which he regained consciousness. apparently, no one even seemed to miss him which caused him to believe that no one is looking for him because he was alone before. admittedly, it hit him a little because his gut told him that he hasn't been a nobody before.

          he found distraction in the nightlife. it gave plenty to drink and to feed on and no one asked too many questions so it didn't make him feel too.... lost.

          he had just gotten himself beer in a plastic cup at the bar before he made his way through the dancing crowd when someone bumped into him and the content of his cup spilled over someone's arm.

          "oh, sorry. i apologize for the accident," he looked at the woman apologetically and raised his free hand in defense, hoping she won't get mad.

[azhefa-moved]

                          𝑪𝑯𝑨𝑹𝑨𝑪𝑻𝑬𝑹 𝑻𝑹𝑼𝑻𝑯𝑺 .

bold   –   always  ⁄  often italic   –   sometimes

001.   smoking:  the  action  or  habit  of  inhaling  &  exhaling  the  smoke  of  tobacco  or  a  drug.

002.   binge  drinking:  the  consumption  of  an  excessive  amount  of  alcohol  in  a  short  period  of  time.

003.   drug  abuse:  the  habitual  taking  of  illegal  drugs.

004.   nail  biting:  a  common  body  language  sign  of  anxiety / tension.

005.   lip  biting:  a  common  body  language  sign  of  anxiety / tension.

006.   night  owl:  a  person  who  is  habitually  active  or  wakeful  at  night.

007.   early  bird:  a  person  who  rises ,  arrives ,  or  acts  before  the  usual  or  expected  time.

008.   negative  attitudes:  a  philosophy  of  approaching  life  with  criticism  &  pessimism.

009.   positive  attitudes:  a  philosophy  of  approaching  life  with  optimism  &  confidence.

010.   swearing:  the  use  of  offensive  language.

011.   superstitious:  an  irrational  belief  that  an  object ,  action ,  or  circumstance not logically  related  to  a  course  of  events  influences  its  outcome.

012.  inspecting  fingernails:  a  common  body  language  sign  of  boredom.

013.   scratching  your  neck:  a  common  body  language  sign  of  uncertainty.

014.   foot  &  finger  tapping:  a  common  body  language  sign  of  stress / impatience.

015.   nose  touch:  a  subtle  body  language  sign  of  deceit.

016.   flipping  hair:  a  common  body  language  sign  of  craving  attention.

017.   twirling  hair:  a  common  body  language  sign  of  flirtation.

018.   cracking  knuckles:  a  common  body  language  sign  of  readiness.

019.   hands  behind  back:  a  common  body  language  sign  of  confidence.

020.   finger  pointing:  a  common  body  language  sign  of  authority.

021.   hands  on  hips:  a  common  body  language  sign  of  readiness.

022.   hands  in  pockets:  a  common  body  language  sign  of  mistrust / reluctance.

023.   frequent  touch:  a  common  body  language  sign  of  warmth / familiarity.

024.   throat  –  clearing:  a  common  body  language  sign  of  rejection / doubt.

025.   jaw  –  clenching:  a  common  body  language  sign  of  hostility.

026.   eye  –  rolling:  a  common  body  language  sign  of  irritation.

027.   head  –  tilt:  a  common  body  language  sign  of  interest.

028.   whistling:  to  emit  high  –  pitched  sound  by  forcing  breakthrough  a  small  hole  between  one’s  lips  or  teeth;  usually  to  a  tune.

029.   humming:  make  a  low,  steady  continuous  sound  like  that  of  a  bee;  usually  to  a  tune.

030.   perfectionism:  refusal  to  accept  any  standard  short  of  perfection.

031.   photographic  memory:  the  ability  to  remember  information  or  visual  images  in  great  detail.

032.   paranoia:  a  mental  condition  characterized  by  delusions  of  persecution ,  unwarranted  jealousy ,  or  exaggerated  self  –  importance,  typically  worked  into  an  organized  system.

033.   exaggeration:  a  statement  that  represents  something  as  better  or  worse  than  it  really  is.

034.   intuitive:  using  or  based  on  what  one  feels  to  be  true  even  without  conscious  reasoning;  instinctive.

035.   quick  –  witted:  showing  or  characterized  by  an  ability  to  think  or  respond  quickly  &  effectively.

036.   interrupting:  breaking  the  continuity  of  a  conversation  with  one’s  own  statements.

037.   doodling:  to  scribble  or  make  rough  drawings,  absentmindedly.

038.   irritable:  having  or  showing  a  tendency  to  be  easily  annoyed.

039.   gambling:  to  play  games  of  chance  for  money;  bet.

040.   travel  –  sick:  suffering  from  nausea  caused  by  the  motion  of  a  moving  vehicle ,  boat ,  or  aircraft.

041.   sensitive:  having  or  displaying  a  quick  &  delicate  appreciation  of  others’  feelings.

042.   melancholy:  a  feeling  of  pensive  sadness,  typically  with  no  obvious  cause.

043.   chewing  gum:  the  exercise  of  chewing  flavored  gum  which  is  not  intended  for  swallowing.

044.   fidgeting:  to  make  small  movements,  especially  of  the  hands  &  feet,  through  nervousness  or  impatience.

045.   skeptical:  not  easily  convinced;  having  doubts  or  reservations.

046.   neat  –  freak:  compulsively  obsessed  with  cleanliness.

047.   gossiping:  divulging  personal  information  about  others.

048.   prim:  feeling  or  showing  disapproval  of  anything  regarded  as  improper;  stiffly  correct.

049.   abbreviating:  giving  others  nicknames / shortening  names / giving  pet  names.

050.   having  a  catchphrase:  having  a  sentence  or  phrase  typically  associated  with  a  specific  person.

𝑻𝑨𝑮𝑮𝑬𝑫 𝑩𝒀 : @brvgrl <333 𝑻𝑨𝑮𝑮𝑰𝑵𝑮 : @azentri @natshana @graunblida @shekore @fbiartist @suitsdeath @spyai @saviare @azsleya literally anyone who wants to! 

[armyhoned]

LAYER  001 :   THE  OUTSIDE.

NAME.   matthew simmons EYE COLOR.   dark brown HAIR STYLE / COLOR.   kept very short, especially on the sides andd back / black HEIGHT.    6′2 CLOTHING STYLE.   tight-fitted t-shirts and henleys in muted colours, dark jeans, sometimes layered with an open button-up or a jacket BEST PHYSICAL FEATURE.   *gestures to generally everything* objectively, probably his physique

LAYER  002 :   THE  INSIDE.

FEARS.   harm coming to his family or team, rejection based on something he can’t change about himself, trauma GUILTY  PLEASURE.    watching nerdy shit without having any context on the universe BIGGEST  PET  PEEVE.    don’t touch his bike okay AMBITIONS FOR THE FUTURE.   succeed as a father

LAYER  003 :   THOUGHTS.

FIRST  THOUGHTS  WAKING  UP.    who else is up with him, what time is it, is there something he should be doing or can he stay in bed with kristy for a bit longer WHAT  HE  THINKS  ABOUT  MOST.   family. WHAT  HE  THINKS  ABOUT  BEFORE  BED.     most often, mundane stuff: he tries to get the case out of his head before even coming to the bedroom HE  THINKS  HIS  BEST  QUALITY  IS.   empathy, professional achievements.

LAYER  004 :   WHAT’S  BETTER ?

SINGLE  OR  GROUP  DATES.   group TO  BE  LOVED  OR  RESPECTED.   loved BEAUTY  OR  BRAINS.   brains. DOGS  OR  CATS.  both.

LAYER  005 :   DOES  HE…

LIE.   yes, though rarely for himself. BELIEVE  IN  HIMSELF.     eeeeeh. BELIEVE  IN  LOVE.   absolutely. WANT  SOMEONE.   always.

LAYER  006 :   HAS  HE  EVER…

BEEN  ON  STAGE.   no. DONE  DRUGS.   no. CHANGED  WHO  HE  WAS  TO  FIT  IN.   partially.

LAYER  007 :   FAVORITES.

FAVORITE COLOUR.  changes on an almost weekly basis---dark grey, currently. FAVORITE  ANIMAL.   tropical fish. FAVORITE  BOOK.   ironically, period murder mysteries. FAVORITE  GAME.   cricket, soccer.

LAYER  008 :   AGE.

DAY  HIS  NEXT  BIRTHDAY  WILL  BE.   august 19. HOW  OLD  WILL  HE  BE.   38.

LAYER  010 :   FINISH  THE  SENTENCE.

I  LOVE   my family, my friends, my team. I  FEEL   lucky, hopeful. I  HIDE   most of my fears. I  MISS   the irt. I  WISH   nothing will have to change for a few years.

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[casualtysought]

                      LAYER  001 :   THE  OUTSIDE.

NAME.  sam  wilson . EYE COLOR.   brown . HAIR STYLE / COLOR.   black ,  cropped,  fro . HEIGHT.   5′8″ . CLOTHING STYLE.   comfortable  but  stylized  athlete.  splashes  of  bright  colours  like  reds,  purples,  pinks  &  yellows  amongst  dark  neutral  tones  like  navy,  black  &  browns. BEST PHYSICAL FEATURE.   friendly  &  approachable  smile .  his  badonkadonk .

                      LAYER  002 :   THE  INSIDE.

HIS  FEARS.   helplessness  &  powerlessness .  fears  getting  to  a  friends  aid  too  late . HIS  GUILTY  PLEASURE.   watching  trashy  reality  tv . HIS  BIGGEST  PET  PEEVE.   wasting  food . HIS AMBITIONS FOR THE FUTURE.   hopes  to  be  cleared  of  all  charges  following  the  sokovian  accords  bullshit .

                      LAYER  003 :   THOUGHTS.

HIS  FIRST  THOUGHTS  WAKING  UP.   get  up.  get  up.  get  up . WHAT  HE  THINKS  ABOUT  MOST.   his  family.  if  they’re  doing  okay,  what  the  think  about  him  now  that  he’s  a  wanted  fugitive . WHAT  HE  THINKS  ABOUT  BEFORE  BED.   usually  about  the  future  &  what’s  going  to  happen  when  the  law  finally  catches  up  with  them . HE  THINKS  HIS  BEST  QUALITY  IS.   his  ability  to  set  others  at  ease  with  his  humor  &  optimism .

                      LAYER  004 :   WHAT’S  BETTER ?

SINGLE  OR  GROUP  DATES.   group . TO  BE  LOVED  OR  RESPECTED.   respected . BEAUTY  OR  BRAINS.   both . DOGS  OR  CATS.   both .

                       LAYER  005 :   DOES  HE…

LIE.   sam  tries  to  be  as  honest  as  possible . BELIEVE  IN  HIMSELF.    he  absolutely  believes  in  his  skills  &  ability  to  survive . BELIEVE  IN  LOVE.   yes . WANT  SOMEONE.   sometimes  but  given  his  current  state  of  affairs  he’s  doubtful  that  any  romantic  relationships  would  last  very  long .

                        LAYER  006 :   HAS  HE  EVER…

BEEN  ON  STAGE.   yes . DONE  DRUGS.   no . CHANGED  WHO  HE  WAS  TO  FIT  IN.   never .

                        LAYER  007 :   FAVORITES.

FAVORITE COLOR.   purple . FAVORITE  ANIMAL.   birds . FAVORITE  MOVIE.   the  goonies . FAVORITE  GAME.   rugby .

                        LAYER  008 :   AGE.

DAY  HIS  NEXT  BIRTHDAY  WILL  BE.   november 29th . HOW  OLD  WILL  HE  BE.   35 .

                        LAYER  010 :   FINISH  THE  SENTENCE.

I  LOVE.   my  family . I  FEEL.   stressed . I  HIDE.   my  worries . I  MISS.   my  siblings . I  WISH.   things  could  be  fixed .

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