accidentally remembering a favorite OTP exists and then having a catastrophic autism event over it. absolutely vibrating over the mere concept of two fictional characters in love. unable to sleep or think or do anything other than marinate in the sensations of it all.
its so surreal remembering how little I cared when they fuckin killed off Leafpool unceremoniously in between books because nowadays I would fight a whole army for that cat. I've grown and changed as a person