#fanfic brain: is there an AU where they are just kinda “meh” at it? what would that world even look like?

[aelfwyn]

Aaaaand another Eurovision done, and what a glorious show. The interval? Brilliant concept and execution. Daði Freyr? A delight. Mel Giedroyc? I love her. Sam Ryder? Continues to be absolutely UNREAL. Hannah Waddingham? A delight and I love her.

(Has someone gifed Mel "literally milking it" while Hannah tried to put on a respectable show? Apparently not. Just gonna leave this here then:

Mel, you treasure.)

... Oh, the contestants? Also great, though – for me – nothing as memorable as Subwoolfer or Sam Ryder or Kalush Orchestra. Strong field overall and my main favourites (Finland, Sweden, Norway) all made top 5, woo! Aaaand both my home nations ended up at the bottom of the table next to each other - I'm not surprised about Germany, but slightly gutted for Mae Muller, who had a great song! But I think the live performance fell a bit flat. :(

In conclusion: I will need more Graham Norton + Mel Giedroyc + Hannah Waddingham co-presenting in my life.

[cats-inthe-cradle]

5, 8, 15, 21, and 40!

Hi Grace! Thanks for the ask :D

5. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? 

Sometimes! Tho not so much recently, I sleep with my cat Misty instead <3

8. What’s your favorite band/artist? 

I don't really have one? Idk I'm not, like, the most musically minded? If that makes sense? I've never been good about remembering artists n stuff. Basically if I like a song I'll listen to it and/or add it to one of my many playlists I have for stories/characters :D

If you've got any suggestions tho I'd love to hear 'em, I'm always looking for new stuff to listen to 👀

15. What’s your favorite season? 

Spring! The tempature's perfect, everything's always so green, we get some of the BEST thunderstorms where we live (and it's always really windy, which is an added bonus, I love the wind), it's when all the baby cows are born so whenever we drive somewhere we get to see all the little calves out in the fields, and I always have more energy in the Spring! (Apparently there's this weird phenomenon for POTS patients where our symptoms get overall worse in the fall/winter, so I always feel better in the spring).

Anyways yeah, I love Spring

21. How was your day today? 

Honestly? Not the best. I didn't really get enough sleep last night so I've had a headache most of the day, and I've just been really tired this whole week. Also writing & arting & storying in general has Not been cooperating (probably because my brain is tired) so yeah. BUT! Hopefully the weekend will be better :D I've got plans to go see the new spider-verse movie with my friend on Saturday, so I'm really excited for that!

And yknow? Most days are meh for me. I've got a chronic illness that sucks and I'm running on Not Enough Energy pretty much all the time. But I've learned to appreciate the small moments, and that helps a lot. 'Cuz even if most days are just meh (or worse) there's still a lot of good moments in them that more than makes up for it. So even tho physically I've been kinda miserable all day, I'm happy. I got to binge some rottmnt with my brother (soon I will introduce him to my aus >:), I played some minecraft, I listened to music, I played with my cat, I read some good fanfic, I'm messing around on tumblr at 3am

So really, looking back on the emotional aspects of today? It's actually been a good day. Maybe not an amazing, or memorable, or significant day. But still a good one, and that's enough.

Even if I still have a headache shdhd

40. Do you like the beach? Do you prefer it sunny or cloudy? 

I love the beach!!! So much. It's one of my favorite places. One of my favorite things about it is being able to see forever. And, hmmmm it'd probably depends on if I wanna go swimming or not. Actually, I'd still go swimming if it was cloudy (and have actually) as long as it's not too cold. So really I don't have much of a preference? If I'm at the beach at all I'll be happy. I like when it's clear so I can see forever tho, but I also like I when it's cloudy and rainy in general, so.

[polkahotness]

9, 32 and 33 for the fic asks because i LOVES ya

First of all, I loves YOU ♥️

9. What is the longest fic you've read?

Okay, so this is a hard question for a few reasons. We talking chapters because then it was this fic called "Dear Mr. Diary" and it's a hilarious story I've read like 5 times and laugh at every time, without fail. First read it when I was in high school with a friend and we just DIED. That was a twilight fanfic though and, oddly enough, the story that opened up the fanfic world to me. Words wise? Longest would be... I have no clue? Probably one of your fics honestly cause, imma be honest, I'm a baaaaaad fanfic reader. I mostly write. Which probably makes me a bad kid. I'm just awful at reading and keeping up with reading. I do better if it's already complete but even then I 10/10 dont go hunting to read a fic because I'll just go write it if I wanna read something in particular?? Gosh that makes me sound horrible and like a total poop nugget of a person. I do miss reading fanfics though. I should get back at it honestly... I'm like a fanfic hoarder where I favorite all these things I INTEND to read and then never end up doing it. I'm a bad kid 😬

32. Fav AU tropes

So I am gonna be honest, I had NO IDEA what a trope was... I didnt know it basically was like a "what if" scenario lol. I guess I'm a morbid kinda bitch because I like the trope of like, "what if this very important character dies from a very serious issue" scenario or like "crazy coincidental car crash" (ooh check out that alliteration my marshmallow chilli babies) situations. I love that crazy stuff. Probably why I have literally written 2 stories about those exact things: The Club, where I legit killed Olga from a brain tumor and Humans Without Wings where I forced Helga and Arnold to get into a car crash with each other. OH and Spaces Between My FiNgers where I killed Arnold's grandpa AND for bonus points there was Autumn Leaves where I straight up like either killed or paralyzed Arnold... I cant remember honestly. I like dark sad things that make me or the author dig deep into the psychological thoughts and actions of a character and why they do what they do and how they react. Maybe that's why when i play sims I torture the people... I'm not a serial killer I promise. Also-- I'm not ALWAYS mean. I really like AU tropes of like ZOMBIE APOCALYPTIC scenarios and I've always wanted to try writing one I've just never thought up a good enough plot for it. Or like just an apocalyptic scenario in general but NOPE. that's still probably traumatic for the characters. I see that now. Hmm. But the trauma stuff really only seems to go for HA! Stuff maybe because it's a kid show? I'm not as mean to my twilight buds aka my main man Embry or Leah or Quil but like... so many of the twilight characters I care about already had tough mean things happen to them because smeyer is mean and racist and sexist so like... maybe give them a break? Like currently I'm putting embry through some tough shit but he kinda needs it but im not killing anyone to dig into his brain like I did helga. I'll be real. That was just mean. I'll admit that. And I always make helga smoke and sometimes try drugs. I made her get divorced once like me... idk sometimes my headcanon involves embry sleeping around and being a lil rebellious cause hes bummed about not imprinting but not quite as bad as what I've put mah girl helga through. I'll shut up now though. I could talk about this for AGES and I'm straight up rambling now. You didn't ask for this.

33. Least favorite AU tropes?

Oh boy. Freaky Friday situations are lame to me? Idk I feel like that's so overdone these days and unless theres something really unique to your idea maybe just dont do it? I'm also gonna drag myself here and say groundhog day scenarios are lame sometimes (yeah, I know, Lindsey-- YOU wrote one of those. It's called "rent a life," you dingus) but to be fair most of them are the same concept and I probably should have left well enough alone but MEH I tried it and I dont regret it but MEH. Whatever. There are a bunch of strange ones in the twilight fandom I cant even begin to start talking about tbh... like I give them props for being creative and stuff but like... idk if it's just me but I'm a pretty canon-y person and YES that series is ULTRA problematic and needs fixing, I AGREEEEEE to the nth degree that is NOT the stuff I'm talking about, it's some of the incredibly straight up bizarre off the wall plots I've read or even been asked about and if you want to know the one I'm referencing, I'll tell you privately. It was... something else. I digress though. AU tropes... honestly those are the only ones I can think of that I dont care for that much. I'll pretty much try anything. I have mostly a hard time if characters are OC or if the plot is SO AU that it makes no logical sense to me... I'm lame I guess idk. 🤷🏻‍♀️

I am SO SORRY. nobody ever sends me asks so I kinda just milked this because I love answering questions and so I lived my truth through this ask. I love you, you're awesome, i miss you, keep being fantastic and amazing and all things spectacular ♥️♥️♥️

[cupkayke]

The character ask thing: Boueibu A's aka Akihiko, Akoya and Atsushi (if that's too many you can just pick who you want)

WI already answered Aki, so here I’ll do the other two A’s!

Akoya

NOTP: I don’t really have NOTPs like at all so this question is always really hard, but I guess I’m pretty ‘meh’ about Akoya with Kinshiro. Like, could I see it working? Maybe. Do I think they’d actually be attracted to each other in the first place? Probably  not...

BROTP: Everyone Brotps Akoya with Ryuu and I agree with the sentiment. Pinks gotta have their silly rivalry. Could definitely also see Akoya being besties with Aki and/or Haru, once the third years graduate.

OTP: Here I go again with my OT3s but AkoIoRyuu is my jam. But I suppose I’ll talk more about the OT3 in the poly question. If I had to pick ONE, I do really like AkoRyuu because the angst dynamics have a lot of potential and they just seem like they’d be really... explosive. Passionate. Ooh la la. That’d leave poor Io alone though so it kind of makes me sad lol.

Second Choice Pairing: AkoRima, considering that seems to be everyone’s OTP with Akoya. I like the dynamic well enough; it seems like Ibushi would pay a shitload of attention to Akoya and Akoya would eat up every second of it but idk I feel bad saying this but Ibushi as a character still doesn’t really stick out to me :/ So like... I’m pretty blase about all the ships including him.

Fluffy Pairing: Yumotoooooo because smol fluff child. Despite pretty exclusively shipping Yumoto with a/both Beppus this would be the only ship involving Akoya that I could see being tooth-rottingly cute. Akoya screams sophistication and like old-school romance or fiery passion and Yumoto would be the only one who could probably bring out his softer, cutesy side. Let Yumoto brush and play with his hair? Yas. Snuggle pajama party? Yas. 

Angsty Pairing: The aforementioned AkoRyuu. Because holy smokes I feel like I am alone in pinkship land but like two words; hate fucking. I have a fanfic premise for them built around an enemies to frenemies to frenemies with benefits to friends with benefits to boyfriends and it just sounds so delicious. Imagine the snark, the sass, the spontaneous makeout sessions. Y’know these boys would be passionate and put in 110% to whichever emotion they were processing. Which likely would be a combination of annoyance and lust. Damn I need to write this thing. Along with my twelve other fic ideas -cries-

Polyship: AkoIoRyuuuuuuu and now I get to talk about it. Like okay. Take the fiery spark that is Akoya and Ryuu together and add in the mutual pining for Io (the other element to the pinkship) and then lo and behold Io is a willing participant...? Io would balance the pinks out, bringing a level head to their sometimes rash behaviors yet spoiling them silly when he’s feeling particularly mushy. The pinks would probably have their strengths and weaknesses in meeting Io’s needs- like Akoya knows about the finer things and would definitely look good on his arm at any fancy business events whereas Ryuu would be the more lowkey one and their strong friendship would form a foundation for Io’s emotional support. Idk they have such potential for their dynamics and again, there need to be more fics with them. And by that I mean fics that aren’t AUs (because I swear it seems like half the boueibu fics are AUs and... I’ll shut up before I start ranting).

Weirdest Pairing: Um, Akoya/En? Akoya/Atsushi? I can’t see either of those really happening but then again in weird ways they may work. Unfortunately I can’t put words to it, though.

Atsushi

NOTP: Atsushi/Yumoto? Idk I see more brother/senpai/parental dynamics from these two and I just... cannot see it romantically at all. Hm, maybe I do have some NOTPs. But does anyone ship this anyway? Lol.

BROTP: The obvious En/Kinshiro when they aren’t shipped romantically. Atsushi has his best friends and they’re all so precious. Also weirdly if the boys started hanging out at Yumoto’s house more instead of in the onsen I could see Atsushi getting along well with Gora. They seem to have a similar personality.

OTP: Enatsu all the wayyyyyyy. If we’re picking a non-poly ship, that is. Like isn’t that everyone’s OTP with him? Maybe? Best friends blossoming into boyfriends is my shit. It’s adorable. Atsushi takes care of En in all the best ways and En helps Atsushi lighten up a little.

Second Choice: I ship Enatsu more than Kinatsu so I guess Kinatsu is the second choice here. Still cute dynamics but with a more unrequited love becomes requited vibe on Kinshiro’s end. It does feel weird to me though to have these two as a standalone ship because then... where does that leave En??? And in my boueibu-verse everyone gets paired off and is happy but I just cannot decide which pairings I like best lol (someone save meeeee)

Fluffy Pairing: Kinatsu has more potential for just sheer fluff like I can’t. Kinshiro being the delicate thing that he is needing reassurance and attention and Atsushi, having learned his lesson with the curry thing, won’t let anything fester or settle and they talk things out and cuddle and go on cute dates and aldsfjasldkfjal;sdkj -explodes- okay maybe they’re cuter than I thought they were.

Angsty Pairing: ...actually, literally the same answer, but twist Kinshiro’s response to a jealousy angle over En and you have the makings of some drama right there. Or the OT3 could have Atsushi be caught in the middle for even more potential angst.

Polyship: Enatsukin? Kinenatsu? Enkinatsu? What is this ship name even? BUT YES THAT ONE. I ship this OT3 even more than the other polyships I like and that’s saying something. Because this way, none of these three are left alone and both En and Kinshiro get Atsushi’s caretaking and empathetic nature and Atsushi gets the strong friendship foundations he has with both of them and they all have this mutual trust going on once En and Kinshiro come around to the idea and deal with their feelings for one another as well as for Atsushi. 

Weirdest Pairing: I can’t quite wrap my brain around Atsushi/Arima but then again it kinda works to put the two ‘mom’ characters together. And the two sass masters. Like, it fits but it’s weird to me.