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Family, community of sinful people

What exactly is a family? The smallest unit of society. The community of loving people. For small children almost the entire world. But lately, the truth about a family touches me in a different way. I look at us - at myself, my husband, my children - and I see us as the community of sinful people who love each other. For a long time, I wanted to be the perfect wife and mother. Maybe not perfect, but as close to perfection as possible. Each of my falls, my failures in love, I have seen as something terrible, a big mistake, which destroys the unity of our community. Now I see that through this kind of thinking I've isolated myself. No, I'm among my family precisely because I am weak and sinful. I need them and they need me. They need me as I am. Sinful. Only then I can love them mercifully and be assured that they will love me mercifully in return. The family is not - and should not be! - an ideal. We're not all great, and we have our flaws, our weaknesses. Yes, even small children do. They may not have any sin, but they can have a difficult character or other problems. The family that for itself creates the image of a great and wonderful cannot truly be like this. Children who believe in this image, sooner or later, will experience a very painful disappointment - even if in fact it is a very good family. It is better here and now to be able to say: we are not perfect; still we make mistakes, and especially we as parents do. Do you know how to apologize to your child? Regardless of his age? But what's more: if I can accept forgiveness do I still feel a member of the community? I still have within me the certainty that what I have done is not so important, because I'm still loved? It is difficult to me. It's easier for me to accept the fact that someone I love has its drawbacks and weaknesses than the fact that I have them, and despite this - or rather, precisely because - I am loved. Can it be true that I am loved through my weaknesses? Is not too strong a statement? No. Family - as God - loves most where there are weakness and sin. For why should a perfect mother be loved? If she is perfect, she alone can handle, she does not need to be loved by her children. And if she is not perfect, that's when children can love her the way she needs it most. Only if I, as a mother, can show the kids my weakness and sin? I need the love of my children. But not for selfish complacency that I am a good and great mother. I need it just when I know that I hurt them and I crave their forgiveness. Children want to know that parents need their love. If children see me as the ideal mother image (image-only, because there are no perfect mothers, there are only self-portraits), they will never come to me with their own sin and weakness. How can they expect mercy from someone who is perfect? Mercy can be given only by the one who humbled himself on the cross. Christ was without sin, but He took our sins upon Himself. For what? To show us mercy. Children also need to see my humiliation so that they can believe in my mercy. I feel so weak and useless. Sometimes I would like to hide in shame that I make so many mistakes. I wish that neither the husband nor the children have seen my weakness. Only then I isolate myself, and I hurt them even more. Look. Look at me. I am weak and sinful. But please, take me the way I am. Love me, because I need your merciful love. And when one of you go astray, then know that you can always come to me. I will understand. In the end, I'm not perfect either. We are a community of weak, sinful people, united by merciful love. God dwells among us.