#fakedisordercrine tw

[system-of-a-feather]

Do you ever just forget that your alters are in your head and not right next to you because of how close they are or how real they act and feel? - i get this alot and it concerns me

When I first read this, I was like "Eh not really", then went on with my day hanging out with my fiance and like... realized like, all the time when we are actually able to be co-con / co-front it is REALLY like this.

Like usually on a day to day basis, not too often, but with where we are with our current core group and how comfortable / safe we are around our fiance, me, Ray, and our little often are all near the front and rapidly kinda swapping "mic controls" - but like, its not a real issue so like.... a lot of the time we are literally talking over / interrupting each other and having an outloud conversation at each other and with our fiance and I really forget we aren't a group of four people in the car together XD I don't necessarily think they are next to me, but I forget that they aren't like... physically here.

Not on the same point, but I feel a lot of people stigmatize increased communication / ability to co-front well / fluidity between parts to be a sign of "faking" and honestly that kind of bothers me. Cause that kind of shit is what helps you recover and have a healthier happier life with DID. It is just integration (not to be mistaken with fusion). Learning to communicate / co-front / switch easily with parts is a GOOD sign of healing that even people with very real DID can go through over the course of healing.

The ease of switching / co-fronting is well known to be directly related to a sense of stability / safety / security in life - and when we are by ourselves and at home, we really don't have that ability to hold three parts comfortably at the front and not loose TOO much time / memory / focus, but when we are with our fiance, its a very safe and comforting environment that has long established a safe place of trust, security, and attachment, so I guess its just easier to manage because - well - dissociation is not as heavily needed.

But anyways, I'd probably get posted on some fakedisordercringe or some bullshit for saying that - when with our fiance - we can comfortably have three alters fronting at the same time and cycling and talkin outloud at ourself because "REAL DID DOESN'T HAVE THAT". Like yeah, untreated, not-recovering, not-healing DID doesn't. But like, you don't go from DID to singlet in a snap and healing is a progress - which includes being able to juggle parts easier over time.

It just annoys me when I see idiots thinking that everyone with DID has to have textbook diagnosis DID and to have made 0 progress in combatting their dissociation. It's very anti-healing and honestly complete bullshit.

We are professionally diagnosed by a specialist who has worked with a lot of people with DID (he used to specifically work with CSA victims with a near by FBI agency that was working to target that) and I sit here doing this shit everyone would call fake.

It's fine to heal and it doesn't make you "fake".

Anyways, my tangential vent and grumble aside, I feel you there. It's a similar experience here when we are more connected / communicated. When we are more dissociated, not so much, but there are definitely moments.

-Riku (Host)