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What if we were all bad people before we became Guardians, and the Traveller is giving us all a second chance?

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Me writing Mass Effect lore into my Destiny fanfic

combining two of your special interests into shitty crossovers

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DESTCEMBER 2, 2020 (Prompt #2 - Thin Ice)

This is my very shitty picture of Fae and Crusoe ice fishing on Europa. They found a thin enough patch of ice to break through so they could fish. I normally draw on paper, so drawing on my phone just naturally looks awful 😂😂😂

Also this was supposed to be posted yesterday, but I passed out before I hit the post button 😅

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Destcember 5, 2020 (prompt #4 “Eye for an Eye”)

“His back is turned, my friend. You could take one shot right now, and flee before Glint brings him back,” The Spider whispers to me. Uldren Sov reborn as The Crow stands in the other room, his back turned and his ghost, Glint, hovering over his shoulder. My hand rests on the butt of the Ace of Spades, Cayde’s most prized possession, my fingers itching to put one clean bullet in the back of Uldren’s head.

“No,” I say firmly. “He’s not Uldren anymore. This is a new guardian, one who needs help.” I take my hand off the Ace and look directly at The Spider. “I already had my eye for an eye moment back in the Dreaming City. And I didn’t take the shot then either. I wanted to, god knows I wanted to, but it wouldn’t bring Cayde back then and it won’t bring him back now.”

The Spider chuckles and leans back in his chair. “Very well then, my friend. But I’ll turn my head the other way if you ever change your mind.”

“I won’t,” I say, turning back to look at The Crow. He’s facing us now, curiosity lighting up his face beneath his hood.

I walk over to him and give a small smile. “I’m Fae. I know you don’t remember your life before becoming a guardian, but none of that matters anymore. The Traveller gave you a clean slate. Let’s see if The Spider will let you tag along on a patrol if you’re up for it.”

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Destcember 3, 2020 (prompt #1 - Exodus)

Knock-knock-knock, I hear at the apartment door. “Who is it?” I shout, knowing it could only be one of two people. I wait for an answer but am met with silence. Sighing, I push myself up from my comfy nest of pillows and blankets on the couch and walk to the door. Another set of knocks sounds as I reach for the knob. “I’m coming!” I say.

I open the door to see one of the kinderguardian exo warlocks I had helped in gambit a few months ago. “Um… hi,” he says very softly. “Petra told me where to find you.”

“It’s Nikolai, right?” I ask. “Do you need more gambit training? I think Drifter should be back in the tower by now.”

“Just Nik, please. And no,” he starts, “I need help with something else.” He fidgets and his eyes dart around as if he’s worried someone is watching him.

I gesture to welcome him into the apartment. “Have a seat, and tell me what’s up.” He walks in and stands awkwardly in front of the couch. “Go ahead and sit down,” I repeat.

“I’d rather not, but thank you,” he says. I close the door and sit on the arm of the couch furthest from Nik to give him some space.

“What’s bothering you? What do you need help with?” I ask.

“I think there’s a vex on Nessus that can understand and communicate with us but it’s been analyzing everything I do whenever I go there and I’m too scared to go back because what if one day I’m thinking of something super confidential and this vex can hear my thoughts and uses it against us guardians as a whole,” he says in one breath.

“Wait, wait, wait. A vex on Nessus analyzing you?” I inquire, my mind drifting to thoughts of Failsafe.

“Yeah! It has a woman’s voice, and I don’t know if it’s just because I’m an exo or what, but I can hear it. What if it knows about the nightmares I have? What if it uses those to kill me or corrupt me like the prince was corrupted before you and Petra Venj took him out?” Nik says, pacing around the coffee table with his hands radiating solar energy.

“That’s Failsafe,” I say matter of factly. “And calm down before you light this place on fire.”

He stops pacing and grabs my arms, his hands still on fire. “You know the vex?!” he shouts right in my face. I focus my energy and use stasis to put out his hands and soothe my new burns.

“Sit down,” I say, this time making sure he actually sits. He keeps looking between his hands and the frost lining my arms before he finally sits. “What was that?” he asks.

“Stasis. It’s not for everyone. Especially someone who still hasn’t fully learned to control their dawnblade abilities,” I answer, turning to face him with my feet now on the cushion. Get your boots off the fabric, Faerie! Golden Age stuff like this is rare! I remember Cayde saying the first time I sat like this. I shake my head to return myself back to this moment. “But Stasis isn’t what you’re here to talk about. Failsafe is not a vex. She’s a Golden Age AI from the Exodus Black that crashed on Nessus. She’s pretty bipolar, but she’s cool.”

“Wait, so a vex isn’t scanning me for information?” Nik asks, relaxing a little.

“Nope,” I laugh a little. “She’s just lonely and will talk to anyone who shows up.”

“Oh, well that makes sense. I would be lonely too.”

“I have an idea,” I say, standing up and grabbing my boots from their spot next to the door. “Let’s go introduce you.”

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“Captain!” Failsafe says as I walk into her little area of wreckage, Nik trailing cautiously behind me with his sidearm at the ready. “And… a guest…” she says.

“Long time, no see, Failsafe,” I say. “This is Nik. He’s what we lovingly refer to as a kinderguardian. I thought it would be nice for him to meet you since he’ll be traveling here a lot more now that the Darkness took out most of our patrol zones.”

“Nik, huh?” Failsafe says, still in her grumpy state.

Nik steps forward and waves. “Um… you’re not a vex, right?”

“Haha! Of course not! The Captain wouldn’t be my friend if I was!” Failsafe said, her cheery side taking over.

“Oh good. Why were you analyzing me then?” he asks.

“I have nothing better to do… I guess it helps guardians know where they need to improve or something…”

I put my hand on Nik’s shoulder. “She takes some getting used to, but Failsafe is great. I’ll leave you to get to know her and ask her for some help analyzing your progress. Failsafe, you work with his ghost and show him around Nessus and the rest of the Exodus Black. Have fun, you two!” I say. I turn and start walking back outside.

“If the Captain says to help you, it would be my pleasure!” I hear Failsafe say as I transmat back to my ship.

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Fae: Toasted Marshmallow Mocha with a dash of caramel, hot obviously

What is your OC’s winter drink of choice?

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Destcember 4, 2020 (prompt #3 “Dearest Wish”)

Crusoe wishes that sometimes he could take a break and start a garden of his own. The flowers are supposed to look like mini ghosts. His dearest wish is for everything to be solved and to enjoy a simple life where he knows Fae will be okay without him always there.

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Destcember 6, 2020 (prompt #5 “Nightmares Before Dawn”)

I wanted to bring in the smoky red from Shadowkeep nightmares because that’s what I think of now when I hear “nightmare”. This would be if the Traveller hadn’t been able to fix itself before the pyramid ships arrived.

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Destcember 1, 2020 - prompt #7 “Beyond Stasis”

“There’s only one left,” I say, stepping over the dead bodies of the Eliksni who had followed Eramis. I pull my Darkness shard out of my pocket and clutch it tightly. “Fae?” Crusoe says softly.

“Yeah, Cru?”

“I know it might seem like the Darkness is the only way to beat Eramis, but before you go in there I just want you to know I’ll stick with you no matter what. I’m not comfortable with you using the Darkness, but if anyone can do it, you can,” he says, floating over the shard. I pat the top of his shell and thank him before slipping the shard back into my pocket and readying my Gnawing Hunger.

I walk outside to face Eramis, feeling the weight of her power looming over me. Fear slowly starts to creep into my mind, but I try to focus on Cru’s words. “Welcome back, Machine Pawn,” Eramis says, her voice filled with power. Before I can react, she uses her stasis ability to freeze my feet. “Your chains are showing. All that power, wasted serving false gods,” she says as the ice creeps further and further up my body.

“Cru, can you help me?” I ask, unsure what to do.

“Fae, I can’t break you out of this… I’m sorry,” Cru says. Eramis flicks her hand, and Cru drops to the floor, frozen. “CRUSOE!” I yell, praying he doesn’t shatter.

“Look what I’ve done for you, pawn. No more Light. No more Dark,” she says, taking the shard from me before the ice covers it.

Memories flash across my mind. I remember the feeling of rushing to help Cayde when we felt Sundance’s Light disappear. I remember running in seconds too late and finding Cayde helpless on the floor. I remember holding his lifeless body next to my heart. And I remember how much the grief and the rage and the desire for vengeance overtook me.

I feel those emotions turning into determination as the ice begins to cover my head. Not again. No more, I think to myself. I focus the energy I feel rising inside more and more until the ice around me shatters. “No!” I shout, a staff of ice appearing in my hand.

Eramis is taken aback and moves further away from me. I focus on Cru and the ice surrounding him melts. “Fae,” he says with wonder, “you did it. You harnessed the Darkness.”

“I’ve lost enough of those I hold dear, I’m not losing you too,” I say back.

I turn my attention back to Eramis who is backing away onto an open balcony looking over the Europan landscape. It comes instinctually, but I find myself launching balls of ice at Eramis and stunning her while she tries desperately to fight back, realizing she is no longer the strongest weirder of the Darkness. I alternate between my ice staff and my Falling Guillotine, cutting down each of her attacks. She fights back with everything she can, but I land a blow that freezes her the same way she had been trying to stop me. “I am my own master, Eramis,” I say, “and I will not stop fighting while the lives of the people I hold the closest to my heart are still living. The Darkness is not yours.”

I turn away as the ice fully covers her and the last of her cries falls silent. I sheath my sword and take a deep breath of the cold air. I look out over the snow covered cliffs and touch the ring Cayde made for me to my heart. “Fae?” Crusoe says, floating up over my shoulder.

“I’m okay,” I say softly. “For the first time since he was taken away from me, I’m okay.”

Cru rests on Eramis’s frozen hand and looks at me. “I was worried you would still be grieving, if I’m being honest. It’s what scared me most about Elsie teaching you to use the Darkness.”

“This isn’t just Light or Dark, Cru. It’s something more. I was stuck so long in my path for vengeance, almost like an emotional stasis. And now I’m free,” I whisper, a smile crossing my face.

“You’ve moved beyond stasis and found your own sense of balance, Fae. I’m proud of you.”

We stare at the scenery for a moment, watching the light dance on the red ice below. “Wanna go get some ramen?” I ask.

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1) Faeratil Samuels AKA Fae or Faerie; it could either mean quite literally “a fairy” or roughly elvish for “little light in the woods”. I just love names that no one would think of, but also I like the nickname Fae because it makes me think of Morgan le Fay from Arthurian legends.

2) Crusoe. He’s an Australian ghost, but also Robinson Crusoe was one of Fae’s favorite stories as a child.

3) Khvostov, Monte Carlo, Forward Path, Future Safe, Hazard of the Cast, Black Talon. Pretty much auto rifles and swords. The D2 weapons are all masterworked or in the process of being masterworked, and I have easily killed thousands with all the ones that I had before Forsaken. I’m at roughly 200 with Hazard and close to 100 with Black Talon.

4) She goes into the Crucible for Doubles and Iron Banner, but avoids it otherwise.

5) Hunter, but she definitely prefers being a Warlock.

6) Stormcaller, either attunement of the elements or attunement of chaos.

7) Bladedancer

8) Asking a Warlock a question unless it’s Ikora. If it is Ikora, I’d go play the knife game with Cayde.

9) Close friends. She’d mostly play really dumb childish jokes on Cayde and the members of her fire team, but would also switch out Ikora’s research tomes with smut and convince Zavala that Suraya wanted to go out with him only to have her sass the crap out of him if he asked her out and catch the whole thing on tape. She’d also play pranks on Brother Vance by telling him that Osiris wanted him to do certain odd things like wearing socks on his head during an eclipse.

10) Cayde. In my au/fanfic I’m writing, her and Cayde end up getting married right before the fight with Ghaul just in case one of them doesn’t make it. Honestly makes Forsaken even more painful.

11) Skolas but mostly as a way to meet Petra.

12) Hobbies: planning tactical strategies, shooting thrall, watching black & white films on golden age tech, manufacturing new weapons infused with arc energy.

13) Silence. After Omnigul, silence is a relief.

14) It’s a mix of different armor sets, but she uses Karnsteins with everything.

15) She loves storms. She likes to stand outside and join the lightning.

16) She was a military strategist who gave her life saving millions of civilians outside of Moscow, she died in her past life husband’s arms right outside where the Last City wall would be built. She knows about bits and pieces of her past, and remembers them in dreams and in traumatic moments that make her freeze up while reliving the memories.

17) Fae and Crusoe and super close. Crusoe is practically on the same emotional wavelength as her and goes into a state of silent depression for a few days after Cayde’s death.

18) Nope. The only way she’d ever do that would be if it got her closer to Cayde or Petra.

19) She used to look up to Osiris, but once she met him she found out he was an egotistical dick and would rather punch him in the face repeatedly. She hasn’t found a new lore hero yet.

20) She does. She loves flowers, and would love to have a garden, but she kills all flowers she tries to nurse.

21) Vex tech. She is obsessed with learning all she can about the Vex as she used to study them in her past life before anyone knew what exactly they were.

22) She reads all the time to learn everything she can about everything. She also writes, and in my au she wrote Hunter of the Heart as an anniversary gift for Cayde. Her favorite movie is Gone With the Wind. She’s a sucker for romance, but also enjoys a good zombie story here and there.

23) She likes alternative, classical, punk rock, and pretty much anything but 2010s pop music. Her favorite song from the Golden Age is “Stop” by Dalton Rapattoni.

24) Her apartment is very disorganized to the average person, but she knows exactly where everything is. She likes neutral colors, but still on the darker side. She has blue accents all around. Her apartment has a living room that leads into a hallway with the kitchen on the left, the bathroom on the right, and the bedroom at the very end. She has a queen sized bed hidden under an ungodly amount of pillows, and her bedroom is the only room with red instead of blue. There are papers and books everywhere, and Cayde has even found a volume of one of Asher Mir’s stories in her freezer.

25) She doesn’t get down to the city too often. When she goes, she goes on dates with Cayde to the ramen shop. The people there seem to like her, but they’re also wary because she’s there with Cayde of all people. She has gone to the city once by herself and taught a few children how to play hopscotch, a game forgotten from the Golden Age.

26) She is good with kids, but she doesn’t want any of her own. Also it would be hard to have kids with an Exo boyfriend or an Awoken girlfriend (sexuality is a myth at this point and anyone can fuck whoever and whatever they want). She teaches them old games and tells them stories she remembers from before the Collapse.

27) Shaxx is like that favorite uncle that you both love, but also wonder if he’s all there upstairs at some moments.

28) She sleeps restlessly, and often wakes up in the middle of the night crying from nightmares and memories. Cayde is usually there to calm her down and help her fall back asleep. She sleeps for about 3-5 hours a night when she’s at the Tower, but can go days without sleep if she’s on a mission and needs to be constantly aware.

29) She is very much a tea drinker. She has an entire cupboard full of tea, some of it found preserved from the Golden Age. She would never mix all of the drinks together for herself, but she would make Cayde and her fireteam members drink it.

30) She’s aggressive when she needs to be, but she’s very professional about it. She doesn’t hesitate to ask for what she wants. She’s willing to help anyone who needs a hand. She loves joking around. She is attracted to roguish guardians, but also to guardians who actually know what they’re doing. Cayde is her ideal guardian (roguish), but she also has the hots for Petra and will totally act on it after I write the Last Wish into my au fanfic (knows what she’s doing). Just use them as a rough idea of what she finds intriguing about other guardians.

Questions for you to answer about your guardian or guardians:

Assume these also mean their plural versions. Also reblog this with your answers when you see this and tag a friend if ya want! I wanna learn about your OCs!!!

1.) What is your guardian’s name? What does it mean? What inspired you to choose that name for them?

2.) What did your guardian name their ghost? What does it mean? What inspired them to choose that name?

3.) What is your guardians favorite weapon of choice? What mod do they use for it? Do they have a masterwork on it and if so, how many enemies have they killed with that weapon?

4.) Do they participate in the Crucible often or do they just go to complete the daily challenges?

5.) If your guardian had to choose to be another class, what class would they pick? Or would they stay the same?

6.) What is their favorite subclass within their own class?

7.) What is their favorite subclass in a different class?

8.) Would they rather receive a titan kiss ( a hard ass headbutt that mostly results in death ), asking a warlock a question that might result in a long explanation, or deciding to play the knife game with hunter and bet at high stakes?

9.) Would they prank other guardians or just their close friends? What kind of pranks would they pull?

10.) Which vanguard memeber to they like to hang out with the most?

11.) Who would they fml out of Skolas, Ghaul, and Calus?

12.) What kind of hobbies do they do in their free time? Are there any particular skills they have that help them with this hobby(s)?

13.) What is their favorite armor set and what shader do they use for it?

14.) Do they prefer silence or are they unbothered in loud areas?

15.) Are they afraid of storms? If so, is there a specific reason why?

16.) Who were they before their ghost revived them? Do they know about this and if so how or what did they use to learn about themselves?

17.) How close are your guardian and their ghost? If they are not close, would your guardian kill their ghost and choose to answer the darkness’ calls?

18.) Would your guardian engage in a romantic relationship with Fallen, Cabal, Hive, etc? If so, what do they find attractive about the species?

19.) Who is their favorite lore hero? Example, Jolder, Saint-14, Andal Brask, etc. Why is this person their favorite and in what ways do they inspire your guardian? What would your guardian say if they were face to face with them?

20.) Does your guardian like plants? If so, what kinds? Do they prefer flowers or trees or shrubs? Would they start a garden?

21.) If your guardian became obsessed with something, what would it be?

22.) Do they like reading books or watching movies or both? What genres are their favorites? Does their fireteam have the same taste?

23.) What kind of music do they like? Do they dance around anybody in any situation or in the privacy of their quarters? What would their favorite song from the Golden Age be?

24.) What does their living space look like? Are there a bunch of pictures around or do Knick knacks cover the shelves? Do they enjoy bright, neutral, or dark colors? Would they purchase a fur rug?

25.) Do they travel around the city often? If so, what are their favorite places to go and who do they go with? Are the civilians ever excited to see them or do they give them a look because of precious mishaps that resulted in property damage?

26.) Are they good with kids? If not, how do they react when a child tries to talk to them? If they are good with kids, what kind of things do they do to entertain them?

27.) Are they in love with Shaxx?

28.) When your guardian sleeps, are they stiff and stay in one spot or wild and kick off the sheets? Do they have nightmares often and if so, about what? How often do they sleep?

29.) Do they enjoy coffee, tea, soda, or water? Would they mix all of these together and drink the liquid on a dare?

30.) What about their personality attracts other guardians to them? What is it about other guardians that attracts your guardian to them?

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Hey can I have a link to your story plz

Of course! Thank you so much for your interest!

I have 9 parts uploaded currently, but I also have a few uploads from Destcember 2019 which I can add to this post if you want to read those too, even though some of those come way after where I’m at in the main story.

I am in the process of editing the fic, though, so I will make sure to reblog whenever I fix the edits on here. Every part of my story, including Destcember and other headcanons, is also under “faeratil samuels” in the tags!

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

Part 4

Part 5

Part 6

Part 7

Part 8

Part 9

Please let me know if you’d like me to add the Destcember and other headcanon links too!! Again thank you so so so much for your interest in the fic!!!

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My dear Destiny fans who follow me!

If you are participating in Destcember 2020 or see any Destcember posts you think I would enjoy, I would absolutely love to be tagged so I can fully enjoy all of this awesome Destiny content!

My first Destcember post will be up later when I can get to a charger!

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Some of my warlock Faeratil’s adventures these past few months (ft my bf’s titan)

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I know the Destcember prompts are numbered to correspond with the days of the month, but sometimes I have an idea for a specific prompt that I just cannot wait to write, and this year I wanted to kick it off with my bf choosing the first prompt for me. So my numbers will be out of order for the most part, but I’ll have the posted dates included on all of them 😊

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I wish I was better at drawing so I could draw Faeratil and Cayde-6 in various scenes from the fanfic I kind of abandoned because I’m rewriting all the parts that included my ex husbands guardian.

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Headcanon where Fae is teaching Kinderguardians how to play Gambit

Fae: Once you’ve killed enough enemies, drop your motes in the bank. Sometimes it’s better to drop only 5 at a time.

Kinderguardian 1: *keeps killing enemies after picking up 15 motes*

Fae: Drop your motes.

K 1: *moves to the next area without dropping their motes*

Fae: Hey! Drop your motes!

K 1: ....

Fae: DROP YOUR FUCKING MOTES!!

K 1: *dies*

Fae: Someone please get me some alcohol....

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Fae: There’s a high value target over there. You should go kill it to get a lot of motes.

K 1: *punches a dreg and drops 1 mote in the bank*

Fae: Look, your friend is fighting the high value alone with 8 motes. Go help him so he doesn’t lose any.

K 1: *stands near portal and emotes*

K 2: *dies*

Fae: *looks at the camera like she’s on The Office*

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K 1: *kills one of four blockers and walks away*

Fae: There are three more. Kill those ones too.

*two more blockers spawn*

Fae: Kill the blockers.

K 2: *throws a nova bomb and clears the middle*

Fae: Good job! Now drop your motes!

K 2: *goes back to fighting enemies with 11 motes*

K 3: *drops 1 mote*

Fae: Good effort...

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Fae: Watch our for invaders!

*invader spawns*

K 1: *runs into the middle to bank 15 motes and gets sniped*

K 2: *runs into the middle for the res and gets sniped*

K 3: *runs into the middle, drops a rift, tries to scope the invader, gets sniped*

K 4: *emotes in the spawn while his allies respawn*

Invader: *nova bombs all four of them*

Fae: Why....

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Fae: *after an entire day of training, opens Drifter’s door and invites herself in*

Drifter: Woah there, sister. What are you doin’ here?

Fae: Alcohol. Where is it?

Drifter: So I take it you don’t want to train them again tomorrow?