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Swap into the CrystalVerse Chapter 17: Fantasy Masks
Co-written with @crystalninjaphoenix
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Prologue | Switch | Stitched | PNPT | Septicheroes | Fantasy Masks
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True enough, at first light Bro and Alt hear a voice outside their tent "Alt? Other me--Bro? It's time to get up." It's Chase.
Alt glitches outside of the tent pretty much immediately, his bag of stuff prepared and slung over his shoulder. He looks like he barely slept at all.
Bro stumbles out a few beats later, blinking sleepily and pulling on his tunic and grabbing his own stuff. “Mhm ‘morning-“ He yawns.
“Whoa!” Chase jumps a little when Alt appears in front of him. “Elders, I forgot… You were really fast there.” He laughs. “Hi you two. We’re going to grab a quick breakfast at the fire and then head out, okay?”
Alt flushes a bit, "ah sorry... been trying not to glitch as much..." He mutters. He nods and starts heading towards the fire.
Bro shakes his head, "If it makes you feel better I live with him and I'm still not quite used to it." He laughs, readjusting his stuff and making sure Alt and him didn't leave anything in their tent.
“Well don’t hold yourself back for our sake. Then we’ll never get used to it.” Chase looks through the tent opening. “Have everything? Alright. Let’s go.”
Alt probably only half heard Chase as he stumbles towards the fire. Bro sighs a bit in worry.
The camp is less busy this early, but it’s never entirely quiet. People are already up and walking around, and breakfast is already being made. As they approach the fire, they see the other four already there.
Henrik is busying himself with packing food into a bag, but he looks up when the others approach. “Ah, good to see you. Chase and Chase and Alt, do you have anything you think we should take? In terms of food supplies, I mean.”
Alt waves a little and stifles a yawn, pixelating a bit. “Um- anything we can eat quick… my magic can be a drain but I can bounce back with some good fuel- like… jerky probably.” He shrugs.
“Good! We have lots of that already.” Henrik closes the bag, buckling the flap.
“Are you okay, Alt?” Jackie asks. “You look really tired and… your form is breaking. Did worry keep you up?”
“M’fine,” Alt mutters, rubbing at his eyes. He’s definitely lying. “We just gotta keep moving… I’ll wake up.”
Chase gives Alt an odd look, clearly not buying that he’s fine, but it’s not worth the trouble.
“I could have provided a sleeping tonic, if you asked,” Henrik says. “Oh! But here is the opposite of that.” He reaches into one of his belt pouches and withdraws a small cloth bag. Inside are a handful of brown beans. “I asked Nemet about your ‘kohfi,’ and she says these are the beans that makes it. This is all she had but she insisted we take them anyway. How kind of her. I am not sure how to make the drink but she says they are fine to eat, if bitter, and provide the same effect.”
Alt’s eyes do brighten a bit at the coffee beans. He laughs and smiles some then grabs a couple to eat. They are bitter but he takes his coffee black. “Mm- that’ll help. Thanks dude.”
“Ah yeah! We eat chocolate covered coffee beans at home all the time!” Bro grins. “Sometimes I like it better than actually coffee- it’s like a fun pick me up!”
Henrik grins. “I’m glad this is not so strange, then.” The beans are a bit different than the ones back home, a bit softer but still with a good crunch. Henrik pops a couple in his mouth too.
“You sure that won’t conflict with your medicine, Schneep?” Jackie asks.
“Is alright, I asked Nemet about that.”
“We’d better hurry,” Marvin says. “The days are only getting shorter.”
Alt nods, gaining a serious expression that sharpens up his features. He double checks he has all his modern things- his headphones, his old pants, the TRVLR. Huh- he actually hasn’t checked the TRVLR since they got here… but he’s sure it’ll work… right?
Bro sneaks some beans too and makes a face, “mhm- could use chocolate.” He chuckles. Then he stands up at attention. “Alright team! Let’s get this show on the road!”
When Alt checks the TRVLR, its screen is at first only that low battery sign. When Alt gives it a jolt, it powers on like usual, but there is now a fourth circle in the middle of the usual three. This one is red, and marked with an exclamation point.
Alt’s eyes widen slightly and he checks on the new circle.
A message in red text pops up, with an X in the upper right corner to close out of it
WARNING Latency Detected
This unit is having difficulty connecting to the universal database. This is for one or more of the following reasons:
-A Ripple is happening
-Current location is too far from unit's home universe
-Current location does not have the technical capabilities of helping connection
Please take this into account when jumping.
Jameson leans over Alt's shoulder to look at the TRVLR screen. What strange symbols, he says.
Bro looks over Alt’s shoulder to read and Alt’s face pales. “…it- it might not work…” he whispers with slight horror. “We-We’re somewhere without technology- I-I didn’t even think…!”
“C-Calm down Alt! I’m sure the fancy Iris guys accounted for something like this! Besides… we can’t leave without Mag… let’s focus on one thing at a time, okay?”
Alt shakily nods and puts the TRVLR away, trying not to panic again. “Right.. right- w-we gotta focus…”
Marvin watches the two of them with concern. "Your talisman for getting home is having trouble? Is there anything we can do?"
“I’m not sure…” Alt mutters, “It says it’s having trouble connecting… cuz we’re lacking some- modern things. Things I dunno how to get here… my- lightning might not be enough…” He squeezes his arm and tries to take a deep breath. “B-But Bro’s right we’ll… have to worry about that later.”
“If it does work I’m sure there’s some other way,” Marvin says, a bit awkward in his reassurances but clearly genuine. “I’ve heard of other worlds so there must be a way to get there.”
“We’ll do everything we can,” Jackie says. “I swear it.”
Alt tries to smile and nods, “Thanks.”
After a quick breakfast, and a brief stop where Jackie, Henrik, and Marvin discuss things with the second in commands, it’s time to go.
Alt is anxious all throughout breakfast and Bro watches him in worry. Usually Alt gets a lot of his anxious energy out through glitching but he’s being unnaturally still. Bro doesn’t see him suppress his glitching much…
Once it’s time to go Alt anxiously bounces on his feet. Bro stands next to him and tries to put a hand on his shoulder but Alt glitches out of his reach. “…it’s gonna be okay Alt- we got this!” He tries to reassure.
The group heads out of camp, passing the Phantoms on perimeter part roll and heading into the woods. Things quickly start looking similar to Bro and Alt, but everyone else seems fairly confident. Chase and Jackie are leading the way.
“Yes, we have this,” Henrik says, overhearing the two of them. “I know it is intimidating, but we are all practiced at this by this point.”
“Ha! I’d believe it! With all the training and you all being so prepared, I feel confident!” Bro smiles.
Alt picks at his shirt, glancing at the woods like something could come out of them at any second and grab them.
Chase glances back and notices Alt looking around. "Hah... worried about animals?" he guesses, grinning. "Don't worry. Predators won't attack a group of humans this big unless they're desperate. Trust me, I grew up in these woods. And as for other people... well, no one comes up here. It's a hard climb and there's nothing nearby." He faces forward again. "Although... I wonder if a storm is coming..."
Alt slowly nods. He gets like this sometimes, thinking about Mag. Like he can constantly hear his laughter in his head. See the slinking of catlike shadows in his peripheral vision. He tries to shake off that feeling, clutching the bow he borrowed from the Phantoms close.
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"Magnificent."
The palace is surprisingly dark right now. But not because it's night. No, looking out the windows shows a gloomy sky overhead, crowded with heavy black clouds. The King is standing by one of said windows. "Are you awake?" he presses.
It takes a second for the magician to stir but soon enough he opens his eyes and sits up right quickly, rubbing at his face and putting back on his mask, “ah yes. Forgive me- didn’t mean to oversleep.” He pushes himself off the bed and dusts himself off before approaching the King. “Hm- looks like it could be a storm…”
“Exactly.” The King nods. “And we don’t want to travel in weather like that. It’s a sure way to catch the shivering. Do they have that where you’re from?”
It certainly looks bad out there. And in this strange land {he should probably trust the judgment of someone who lives here.}
“…I don’t know if we call it the shivering but I’m assuming we do.” Mag comments. He huddles his cloak around himself and thinks. Then he shrugs, “Weather can’t be helped. I certainly don’t want to get soaked- mayhaps I can find more books about the magic here…”
“Oh, you know… fatigue, confusion, shivers, difficulty breathing.” The King lists off the symptoms in rapid succession. “Caused by the cold. And walking in wet clothes will definitely leave you cold enough to catch it.”
“Sounds like a bad cold or the flu-“ Mag muttered with a shrug.
“But enough of that. I’m assuming you checked the library. They may have a secret section there, if I remember correctly.”
Mag flares out his cape dramatically to head towards the library, “Well then- if we’re stuck here I shall spend the day in there.”
"Very well." The King reaches out to the candle sconce on the wall. A spark leaps from his fingertip to the wick, lighting it with an electric hsss. "Let me see if I remember where the secret section is..."
As they walk down the hallways towards the library in the center of the palace, the King continues lighting the candles in a similar matter. It doesn't do much to help penetrate the darkness, but it's better than nothing.
Mag blinks at the king doing this and every so often he’ll light a candle before he does with a twitch of his head- lighting it with green fire. Mhm- a castle would look so pretty covered in such a lovely color. The thought makes Mag smirk to himself.
"Best be careful in there," he says, more to himself than Mag. "Dry paper. Best hope they have candle shields in there."
The library is not as grand as it probably should be for a palace. It's small, and probably would have been cozy if it hadn't been so dusty. The King walks back behind a desk, brushing aside some cobwebs to open a drawer. "Oh good. They do." He pulls out a candle holder with a single candle, a glass bowl attached to the base, high enough to shield the flame. He reaches in and lights it. "Now... where is it...?"
Mag coughs at the dust and uses some of his magic to sweep it and more cobwebs away. “Eugh.”
The King chuckles. "Not a fan of dust? Me neither." {That's something else they have in common.}
“I deal with it enough at home,” Mag grumbles.
The King begins searching the shelves. "If memory serves me... There's something we can pull or slide that opens an alcove on this wall. Here, search with me. Or on your own, if you wish."
Mag nods and starts to look across the shelves, looking for anything out of the ordinary. He lights a flame in his hand but flickers a shield around it like the king’s candle.
It takes a long while--maybe frustratingly long--but eventually the King shouts "Aha!" One of the shelves on a bookcase slides back into the wall when pushed. Next to it, a section of the stone wall swings open with a grinding noise. "After you, then," the King says, {ever gracious.}
Mag startles a bit at the sudden noise but then smirks at the king, taking advantage of going first. “thank you Aodhan~”
The King nods and steps aside.
The room beyond is small and windowless, but packed with things. Scrolls and old, crudely-bound books line the walls, dried herbs hang from the ceiling, and various crystals, powders, and pressed flowers fill bowls and jars on shelves. Surprisingly well-preserved pumpkins sit on the floor. A large cauldron takes up an alcove on the opposite wall, hanging off the ground by about a foot. A staff hangs on the wall, a red-speckled green stone embedded in the top. Candles sconces hang off the walls, holding blue candles.
"Ah, I see, this is for both witchcraft and wizardry," the King says from the entrance.
Magnificent’s eyes light up at the sight. He seems to actually smile as he looks at the witchy things. He tries to carefully clean off the dust as he looks at the trinkets. “Ha… this reminds me of playing witch as a boy…” He muses.
The King smiles, looking {almost fond.} "You studied magic as a child as well? I suppose that makes sense."
Magnificent laughs quietly, running a finger across some of the crystals, “My family were sorcerers. Prestigious… we had a family name to uphold. My birth was mainly just to keep the family name in tact for my father. He was very strict in what magic I could and could not learn. Very strict with my studies. So much so I did not interact or go out much as a child.” He laughs and then touches around the caldron, “then.., I met my best friend. Jackie. He got me out of my house… and together we learned things together. He showed me forms of witchcraft his family knew- though he didn’t practice. But it was fun… to rebel and learn things that would enrage my father.” He then becomes more aware of himself and flushes some, coughing and turning back around to look further into the room. “But uh- of course that’s all irrelevant. Apologizes.”
The King tilts his head, {softening a bit.} "It does... help me understand you more. Do you think the child of a monarch is ever born with anything other than 'the family name' in mind? The royal line is especially honored in Glasúil, in a way that isn't often found in other lands. And it is because of the legend of legacy. Something I've already told you I never cared for." He pauses. "My powers were weak, once. Limited, as magic here has always been limited. I spent ages studying, strengthening them. And my family never approved of it." Another pause. "But that's all irrelevant. Apologies."
Magnificent looks at the king and shares with him a wry smile. “…we have even more in common then, Aodhan. Never thought I’d have much in common with a Royal-“ he snorts.
"I never thought I would have so much in common with anyone." The King pauses. Then he turns and heads off. "I'll leave you to explore here. If the weather lets up I'll let you know." And he disappears. {Perhaps he wasn't as bad as their first impression led Mag to think.}
Magnificent watches the King go- expecting to narrow his eyes as he back when he left. But… he had been… decent today. Even… pleasant? Perhaps it was the weather.., Nevertheless, he was here to see if could better understand that magic here. There had to be some way to get the upper hand on the king.., and now- he had the whole day to search. And so he began.
It slowly starts to rain, accompanied by distant rumbling thunder. {It's strangely calming.}
Magnificent always did like the sound of rain, what a soothing soundtrack to his research…
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It is not raining in the mountains as the group finally leaves the Greatwoods, finding themselves on a sloping field, grass pushing up between rocks and boulders.
"Aaaand this is officially where my knowledge ends," Chase says.
Marvin shields his eyes from the sun and looks into the distance. Next to him, Draco hops onto a rock, tail swishing as he hunts down some bug or something. "It does look like there's a storm out there."
I think that would be good, Jameson says. If it's in the direction we're heading, it means they'll be forced to stay in one place because of the weather.
Alt seems to brighten at this, “Oh- that’s… that’s good! Maybe we can catch up!”
"It also means we'd have to walk in the rain," Marvin grumbles.
Bro laughs a bit and lightly nudges Marvin, gesturing at his mask. “Afraid of getting wet, kitty?” He lightly teases.
"Yes," Marvin answers plainly.
"Don't you have some sort of water repelling spell or something?" Jackie recalls.
"Yea, but it can't cover all of you, just me. I'm not going to be responsible for all of you getting the shivering."
Chase shudders. "True, that's not pleasant."
"But Alt is right, we will catch up," Henrik says.
"Maybe it'll be clearer by the time we reach that area," Marvin hopes.
“Oh- well, guess that makes sense.” Bro says, messing with the back of his hair and grinning sheepishly.
Alt hums, “The shivering- that must be hypothermia… I’ve gotten that before- s’not fun… so best to avoid the rain if we can.”
“…you’ve gotten hypothermia before?!” Bro asks alt in alarm.
Alt gives him a steady look, “I was on and off the streets for almost a decade, Chase. Lots of stuff happens there.” He moves to keep going, adjusting his mask.
“Ah.. right…” Bro replies quietly.
"Hmm." Chase glances at Alt. "I got the shivering once. It's actually how I found the Phantoms, I was wandering in the woods sick and they decided to take me to Wyvernlair."
Is that what happened? Jameson asks, surprised.
"Oh, right, you and Marvin weren't there. Well, yea, that's what happened, basically." The group is now slowly walking down the rocky field.
Alt has a faraway look in his eyes, "... I had a really bad night... once. It was storming so hard and I was low on magic... and food. I couldn't find a good place to hide and just- had to stay in the rain. in the cold. I thought maybe that might be the night I would die." Bro listens with wide eyes. He hasn't heard this story. "I'm really lucky... someone found me. A group of magicians, noticing I was low on magic and sick. Called themselves the Chaos Circle." He smiles to himself, faintly, "... found some good people there. They saved me from dying out in the cold." He smiles a bit more at Chase, "Kinda like the Phantoms finding you, huh?"
Chase smiles back. "Yeah. Sounds pretty similar. I'm glad you had those guys."
"Sounds like a rebellious coven of sorts." Marvin grins. "Covens here are mostly sorcerers and witchcraft practicers but sometimes others will join. I was always interested in the idea of those, but I wasn't very sociable."
Alt laughs quietly, "Yeah... It was. We thought of ourselves as punks. We didn't wanna conform to the actual circle's practices."
"I guess Henrik and I were your coven, then, Marvin," Jackie says, half-jokingly.
Bro is staring at Alt with wide eyes, "...you don't-... you never really talked about all of that with us..."
Alt's expression darkens. "...it was another... hard part of my life, Chase. I lost... people I cared about from there. I did... bad things. I didn't fit in. I ran away eventually- when the actual magic circle had enough of us. ... I dunno if they're even still around."
The others are silent for a minute. This feels like a somber moment. "You're in good company, at least, then," Marvin says quietly. "I was on my own for a while. Ran away from these guys. Did some... stuff. So... it probably wasn't the same, but I can understand."
Alt looks at Marvin and shares a look with him before smiling softly, "Yeah..."
"At least... now you have your brother, Alt," Jackie says slowly, nodding at Bro. "Didn't you guys also mention you had other friends? I'm sure they're there for you."
Bro smiles and nods, "Yeah! You won't ever have to worry about that happening ever again."
Alt chuckles and shoulder-checks Bro slightly, "Yeah... you're right." Alt looks back at Jackie and smiles, "Yeah- we got.. other versions of you all actually. We have our Jackie... he's a dad- 3 kids. Sweetest things in the world. And our Jameson... he's a doctor. But a doctor of the mind. And our Henrik- he's... he's a performer. He can't hear well but he's just- a ray of sunshine. ...they're good lads." He shakes his head, "They're not gonna believe all of this when we see them again."
"They all sound so nice!" Jackie grins. "I couldn't picture myself as a parent. I'll leave that to you, Chase."
"Heh." Chase gives him a small smile.
"Would you want to be a doctor, Jameson?" Henrik asks. "Because I cannot see myself as a performer."
Jameson thinks about that. I'm not sure I'd be cut out for doctoring. Of the mind or the body. If anything, I'd prefer the performance. I could be a musician. Perhaps the violin!
"A traveling minstrel?" Marvin laughs. "I can see that. Maybe in another world."
Alt smiles, "I like music- m'not very good at it but I can least put stuff together for a show. I like... drawing more. Painting." He flushes.
Bro laughs, "Maybe once the king is defeated you can travel around Jameson! I think being a traveling musician suits you!"
Jameson smiles sadly. Maybe eventually. I'd have to go home first. Sort out the mess the King made up there. Marvin leans closer to him, bumping their shoulders together.
"Maybe you two can return to this world one day," Chase says. "And you can show us some of your art. Or bring your other friends. I think it would be... interesting. For both of us, since our worlds are so different."
Bro beams, "Dude, the others would love it! Jackie is just as much a nerd as I am- he'd love to try sword fighting. We spar all the time." He laughs, "And i bet Henny would love not feeling like the most out of time anymore."
"I'd love to teach another me how to sword fight!" Jackie exclaims. "I wonder if we'll learn the same way. Well, I'm sure it'll be different. I learned when I was a child."
Alt blinks at Jameson and wants to ask more but.... sounds like its a loaded situation. He anxiously starts to chew on a few more coffee beans.
"Ah, be careful, Alt, we do not have many of these," Henrik says.
"oh- right." Alt blushes and hands the bag back to Henrik, "You should hold onto these then..." He hides in his hood.
"Do not worry about it," Henrik reassures him, putting the beans in his pouch.
"He knows... how to fight! But with his fists, and with fancy moves!" Bro laughs, "Me and Him know more of how to fight with our bodies then with weapons. Cuz- they're illegal in our world- or at least the UK."
"Wait--weapons are outlawed?!" Chase repeats, wide-eyed. "What?!"
"Wait, what?" Marvin snaps back to the conversation. "All of them? Entirely?"
Jackie and Jameson seem equally shocked.
"Do not be so surprised," Henrik says to the rest of them. "Your cultural obsession with weaponry and warriors is a strange thing. In Alterde only the knights and performers may carry weapons."
"You don't know that we're out alone," Jackie says defensively. "I hear that Yuko's home nation is similar."
Bro blinks then laughs, "Well in our world... weapons are more... dangerous now. We have weapons that can... they can kill you in an instant. Faster than a sword could- and easier to carry. And we have a bit more of a structure- there's less to fight for. So, to try to make sure less people get hurt, only certain people can have weapons. But even our... guards for cities- they don't even carry dangerous weapons anymore. It's completely different in other countries though. Our country isn't perfect but- we definitely don't need weapons every day anymore."
"...huh." Jackie blinks. "I can't imagine that. I..." he laughs. "I genuinely can't imagine that. It's easier to think about using lightning as money."
"Something you must understand about this kingdom is that fighting is not just a necessity here," Henrik says. "It is, but it is also a form of... glory, I suppose? And entertainment. And a hobby that you can indulge in. I found it just as strange when I arrived here, but you get used to it. I will remind you that Jackie started training to use a sword as a twelve-year-old."
"Which has made me strong," Jackie says confidently. "Strong enough to handle almost anything."
I hope you're right, Jameson says.
"I get it! That's how our Jackie feels about his fighting- and his job. He can like- travel really fast and do these cool moves. He's really passionate about it. Makes him feel like a hero- like me!" Bro replies. "But yeah... I'd bet you guys would find it strange... how- i want to say peaceful our world is but... that's not true. We just... don't really carry weaponry around and do cool battles anymore."
Alt grips at his knife he has in his bag- Chase always had it a little more easy than he did. He never had to spill blood with a knife. ...sometimes he wonders if that made them too different.
#SITCV FM#swap into the crystalverse#fantasy masks au#alt anti#bro fantastic#swap magnificent#some very interesting facts come up about mag and alt :)#facts that i def wanna write about in the future#and this is why i love rping!!#cuz i wouldnt have even thought about these things until we sat down to write replies!!#and now like?? i love these ideas so much#so eee things are starting to ramp up!#tomorrow is the most fun chapter of this part i think ;)
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Based on the fact that Evil Future Tim got many other Future heroes to become Evil Future heroes, I sort of wanna write a fic. An Achilles near the end of trojan war (or clarisse at the battle if manhatten take ur pick) except a but more reasonable.
The idea is that the heroes want to assust Ra’s. There’s some greater threat and they’ve all got to team up. But Tim just can’t. He CAN’T trust Ra’s, he can’t have anything but a bad feeing about trusting Ra’s. So he gives the stand down order.
Kon, Cassie, Bart, and Arrowette don’t even think. They’re almost immediately followed by Jaime and Eddie. I’m gonna reread 2000s Teen Titans b4 this but i think at least Gar and probably Raven would follow suit (i think both of them would at least fully believe that tim wouldn’t give an order like that lightly)
I’m still considering which other heroes might choose to listen to Tim over the JL, but I can’t get the concept out of my head.
Edit: can’t believe I forgot Cass. I think she’s very important to consider. I can def see her not listening to the order but rather either agreeing with tim or just recognizing the intensity a fear in him and understanding why he’s making that choice.
And i should make it clear that tim would be scheming and his team would show up to take down Ra’s at the inevitable double cross
#tim drake#dc#batfam#yj98#young justice#teen titans comics#teen titans#kon el#cassie sandsmark#bart allan#jaime reyes#eddie bloomberg#garfield logan#raven
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Hi, can you write something nsfw with Leehan? (it can be anything 😵💫)
player leehan, roommates
once again, i’m gonna be writing smaller stories for now because i’m still new to this! hope you like it and i’ll def write longer ones in the future 🤭
“damn.” you sat in your room thinking about how you haven’t done anything intimate in a while but it seems like your roommate was doing it every other day, with who knows which girls. leehan had always been some kind of player and could definitely get anyone with his looks, but his persona is hidden by his nice personality and cute puppy smile.
although he had a hidden reputation, leehan had never made moves on you despite being roommates which, technically, would allow for easy access. you could only sigh as you didn’t know wether to be disappointed or pathetic for feeling this way.
“earth to y/n,” you didn’t notice that he had actually been knocking on your door this whole time and was worried that you didn’t answer so just opened the door. “oh, hi.” you said with slight panic. you weren’t doing anything illegal but he looked at you as if he could read your mind and it felt odd.
“wanna order food?” he said, grabbing his phone and casually placing his body on the doorframe, a position that you didn’t would be hot but here you are, mind rushing to someplace else because well, it’s leehan.
“hm.” you didn’t want to be noticed like this so that’s all you said. it was a miracle that you always had your lights off, only being lit up by led lights because if not, he would definitely notice your thighs starting to rub against each other. “are you not hungry, hun?” it was normal for him to be calling you hun but the situation made it feel like he definitely read your thoughts earlier.
“uh, no?” leehan could only chuckle at your words, almost like questioning him but your face blushing for whatever reason. “are you okay, y/n?” he put his phone in his pocket and let himself in. leehan sat on the edge of your bed and for the first time ever, the air was awkward between you two. not knowing what to do, you shrugged and stretched your arm out to get your phone. in doing so, accidentally revealing your legs from under the blanket and the fact that you were only in your underwear.
“oh fuck.” you quickly sat down again, feeling cold air seeping into your thighs. leehan didn’t say anything, only watching your panicked actions. you hoped he didn’t see you half naked but from your thoughts earlier, it would be hot if he did.
“you know, i usually never..” he stated, biting his lips in realization. “leehan.” you said, almost wanting to avoid whatever is about to happen, but still rubbing your thighs at the thought of it. “i can see you.” he smirked, looking down from your eyes, to where your thighs are. the air felt heavy and the urge to kiss him was even heavier. “can i?” surprisingly, you asked first as the tension between you two was evident. leehan didn’t even answer and started to kiss your lips gently. it was almost like his lips were asking for permission too. the kiss went on for what felt like forever.
“leehan.” you huffed out, letting go of the kiss to get some air. his lap was calling out for you so you straddled him, feeling the warmth of his boner on your ass.
“this should’ve happened sooner.” he sighed out, hugging your body with his big hands to initiate the kiss again, the kiss being alot more intense this time.
the two of you had fun that night.
#boynextdoor hard hours#boynextdoor imagines#boynextdoor#bnd#leehan#boynextdoor smut#bnd smut#leehan smut
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holes fandom IM BACK AND TODAY ILL BE DISCUSSING THE DIFFERENCES BETWEEN BOOK AND MOVIE I LIKED AND DISLIKED
(future me, after writing this, it’s a lil weird i yoinked my name from zero but whatever he’s so gender so don’t mind that)
-1. first up, the things they didn’t have in the movie, my 2 fav scenes. the first one was when they’re on the mountain, after finding water—the flowers petal scene. in the book, zero is asleep, stanley is awake and watching him. there’s a good few paragraphs dedicated to stanley pretty much admiring him. basically for those who don’t know, there’s like a flower petal on zero’s face that goes back n forth as he breathes and Stanley notes that it’s like smth out of a cartoon. after a few MINUTES it falls and Stanley basically thinks “I wanna put it back but.. it wouldn’t be the same.” also he describes zeros face as “being lit in the moonlight” and if that aint romantic idk what is. THE MOVIE, MUCH TO MY DISMAY, DID NOT HAVE THIS.
-2. when they are walking back to the camp, they’re being stubborn lil bitches and are trying not to be the first to drink any water. their argument gives “you hang up first, ‘no YOU hang up first! 🤭” vibes. THE MOVIE ALSO DOESNT HAVE THAT AND I C R I E D
-3. however, the movie also has things the book doesn’t! for one, stanley thinking abt how he’s glad he’s on this mountain w zero, while in the book he’s just thinking it, in the movie him and zero are discussing it and it is so cute and fghkfjdjhdihbdhibdhibehibdi help
-4. also, the little things; in the book, after Mr. Pendanski says “nobody cares about hector zeroni” that’s kinda the end of the chapter or something. BUT IN THE MOVIE stanley walks in right after he says that, looks him dead in the eyes, and says, “I do.” and that broke me
-5. Another little thing—in that scene where Stanley gets his nickname of caveman, the the book, I don’t remember hearing from zero during that (I could be wrong tho). but, in the movie, as Stanley seems like he’s in a dangerous position, zero grabs a pool ball off the table (it’s implied that he’s gonna hit the guy antagonizing stanley) but after the situation cools down, there’s a shot of him putting it down. im telling you ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS AND THIS SCENE IS SCREAMING
-6.? idk if I misremember but in the movie they bring up like “damn Stanley, zero will only talk to you” and idk if that’s mentioned in the book or not but I don’t think so, the fact that one of the characters points it out like 2 or 3 separate times in the movie tho..
-7. the ending… pool party in the movie, boring normal ending in the books. end of story.
honorable mentions, both ONLY in the movie:
-I SQUEAL EVERY TIME I WATCH THE SCENE WHERE THEYRE OPENING THE CHEST AND FINDING OUT ABT THE MONEY AND THE.. THE WAY STANLEYS LIKE HOLDING ONTO ZERO AND JS MESSING WITH HIS HAIR?? I CANT
-also WHEN ZERO IS REUNITED W HIS MOM. Stanley is just standing there and admiring him I KNOW IT.
summary/tldr;
while some of my fav scenes from the book aren’t in the movie, the movie is SO much gayer and I love it so much and it’s the little things that bring me joy. they are so gay for each other in the movie I cannot even put this into words.
also zero def has a big gay crush on Stanley like immediately that’s just canon to me
#holes movie#holes book#hector zeroni#stanley yelnats#zanley#i think that’s the ship name#maybe#stanley x zero
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so i read the latest chapter, of COURSE, and ohhhhh my god i am just hopping up and down at the sheer ALL OF IT. where do i even begin? leona teasing azul about his obvious whole "down bad for jamil viper" state that has, lets be real, his state since NRC, but is now elevated by a 100 ever since he's seen proof that jamil can love him back. and leona bringing up teh fact that jamil has started looking at azul in a certain way as well? i was EATING IT UP OMG!!!!!
leona pointing out azul is def enjoying getting to carry jamil around and azul only a few scenes later being upset that omar is pushing jamil and that he has to let jamil go talk it out with his mom alone---azul, sir, you are NOT beating the "i wanna treat jamil like the most precious treasure ever all the time" allegations.
vil. im not even gonna lie. i cried. he deserves so much, im so happy to see him HEALINGGGGGGGG and finding his way back to himself. god, im so invested in the leovil of it all. leona sticking with vil and being his support even when vil takes a break from the world and disappears. god, my heart. just genuinely caring for and loving vil even when he seems further away from the confident boy in NRC that leona first fell in love with. he loves him so much and supports him so hard and i just love it sm. they are everything. vil being excited to show leona and leona happily holding vil close--i wont lie i cried Again
AND WJAMIL. JAMIL AND HIS BROWN HAIR AND AZUL FALLING IN LOVE ALL OVER AGAIB. (also azul being upset jamil is dyeing his hair bc the future he saw had jamils roots grown out is SOO good i love it esp bc it wraps up with him being happy regardless bc jamil is getting healthier. also leona and azul waiting for vil and jamil is so funny to me. i love it. theyre the ppl who tell their partners an earlier time for an event or destination so they can actually make it on time)
I am sO hype for the next couple of chapters, i am READY to get my heart broken and to feel feelings and im SO wary abt jamils meeting with his mother, when jamil went without azul i KNOW its important bc azul is respecting boundaries but i was inwardly like OH SHIT NO AZUL LISTEN TO YOUR GUT. azul loves jamil so much i know he would weather fatima's attacks on his person for jamil, but godddd im soooo on edge abt whatever jamil and fatima woukd talk abt and how the things she would say will affect jamil, his health, and his confidence.
kudos to azul, a very supportive, loyal, loving simp
HI AGAIN 😍😍 Leona was so fun to write since he notices everything and the teasing starts lol XD LOL Azul's never beating the "down bad for Jamil allegations" in any department, it's so funny XD OMG I'm so glad you love the LeoVil subplot, they are everything to me 🥺🥺❤️❤️ lol Azul and Leona bonding in the future over how long their husbands take to get ready XDD Azul, a supportive, loyal, loving simp 😍😍 No worries, more fluff is on the horizon lol ❤️❤️
#twisted wonderland#jamil viper#disney twisted wonderland#jamiazu#my jamiazu fic#my writing#personal#ash leaves and willow
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I don't wanna sound hateful, but some people are literally campaigning for more Three Houses characters when 7 of them have already won
Listen. I'd love a brave Yuri, but they ruined the idea for me because I can't stand the idea of too many winners being from the same game
Y'all got Gatekeeper. You can deal without brave Felix or Bernadetta
It's def a contentious situation, cuz on one hand, 3H characters are (for the most part) deservedly popular, but on the other hand CYL is more than just one alt in august, it's also the deciding factor for what characters get priority in getting most of their games' alts in the first place. It's why Caeda, Nino, and Lilina get alts despite not winning, and why Reinhardt gets more stuff than Leif.
Not winning-or constantly being third/fourth-is not like, a death sentence lol. Bernadetta (along with Doro, Ingrid, and Hilda as other top contenders) has a reasonable amount of representation parallel to her popularity. Felix is a weirder case cuz FEH hates men, but him and Byleth still got nice variants this past year, and most likely still will in the future.
TBH, like you, I'm also just very ambivalent to complaints about characters getting shafted, mostly 3H characters, cuz that game's cast still gets the lion's share of content and has gotten the most winners out of CYL in the first place, 1 of which being a joke character, and 2 of which (Lysithea and Marianne) were pretty blatantly a result of people wanting to "force" IS to acknowledge them cuz they weren't in the game at the point when they won (despite the fact that there are other games in the series that were on a cycle to add characters from and 3H despite being new wasn't gonna get constant banners every other month).
And I'm not above saying I don't like Bernadetta's character whatsoever cuz I find her writing terrible and near fetish fuel-esque. So I am extra ambivalent in that regard.
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i think it was mentioned that some of the aspects of iwyts were inspired by what's wrong with secretary kim (please forgive me if i'm wrong) but i just wanna say that i prefer this story better. (!! spoiler for anyone who hasn't watched what's wrong with secretary kim) in wwwsk, they made kim miso stay when since the first episode, she wanted to find herself and be her own person instead of someone's secretary. the scene where she goes to meet her friends and all the stuffs in her bag belonged to her boss just made me feel really icky. i think everyone interprets it differently but i hated the fact that she never really got to know a world without him until the end. im really thankful and happy that y/n is choosing herself and is moving towards living a life free of debt. indeed a woman written by a woman!! <33 i hope y/n continues to put herself first and i hope in future y/n and jungkook develop true and genuine relationship. i know most of the people are sad and frustrated (me included) but looking at things through both y/n's and jungkook's perspective made me realize that i wouldn't want someone to love me knowing they feel indebted to my family or love someone while feeling indebted to their family. i hope im not the only one who wants a happy ending for mr Ri tooo!!!
loved the chapter as always will be not so patiently waiting for the next chapter <33
Yes, it's What's Wrong with Secretary Kim! I love that drama. I also find a lot of things wrong with it hahaha but true, he asked her to marry her so she'd stay so... def some parallels there. 😬😬
OC's choice is rly to rid herself of that burden. We'll see how she thinks about her decision later on. But also, I have so many plans for these 2 (that I'm rly hoping I have all the energy to write haha) bc there's so much growth to still be had after everything. I like exploring the different ways that flawed people handle their relationships and new challenges and I hope to be able to do that with these 2. We spent 10 chapters trying to understand them as people so let's see what new things they encounter. 😌✨
That said, I hope you enjoy the rest of this story!! Thank you so much for reading and letting me know what you think. 💕💕
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Hello! I would like to request a little nsfw something with Yurgir, if possible, please? Maybe something where he, as a proud and powerful orthon, tells anyone that cares to listen about the mortal that comes to him whenever he calls on them when he wants to fuck, just to mask the fact that their hole is the best he ever had and that he is practically addicted to the feel of his little rabbit (somehow) fitting and clenching around him? If possible, with a sprinkle of degrading praise, please and thank you! I'm just a sucker for strong/powerful/intelligent beings, absolutely crumbling the moment they dick down that one specific person lol.
Hey anon here is your request
Writing this went smoother than I thought. I guess Yurgir is one of those characters that clicked easily for me, which is a pleasant surprise.
Also I had a similar thought when I met him, I've simped for him more than Raphael and when i realise I could make him join me during the hope fight I was over the moon.
Def slept on, wanna write for him again in the future.
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unfortunately a slight mood damper bcs I wanna explain why i am so low activity here & why it will most likely stay like this for the foreseeable future.
I'll be real. it is the rpc. or the general vibe of it. I am soso tired of how people treat each other on here. I am tired of the shittalking behind backs that get people hurt - I won't even deny that I took part in it but man can people take this far here. also as sb who has been on the receiving end of people talking badly about me,,, just not fun.
then there is the difference with which characters are treated. femme characters are held to such high standards, I am not surprised that femme ocs & npc players go inactive quickly, there is either no interaction or less. masc characters can also ship as much as they like while I know for a fact those with femme ones are being talked about negatively. & it often feels like a blog for a femme character can only gain attention by depending on masc characters.
also noticing an increase vibe of "only the way I/(writer) writes this character is valid" while you don't need to love every version of a character, or be duplicate friendly ( I know I wasn't for the longest of times on my old canon blogs ) playing the 'superior portrayal' card is. harsh. ofc we all have our fave portrayals but the way it has been rubbed into peoples faces? bit cruel. bit sad.
I dunno, maybe it is because rn I am in a currently very open & friendly rpc but in retrospect i just noticed a lot of...harshness in this rpc & think it could benefit from some kindness. it def keeps me away from really enjoying my time on here because I notice how I immediately walk on eggshells when I log onto this blog.
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inori<3
everyones favorite seaweed surgeon!!
cw: (teen) homelessness
My identity hc for them
i honestly dont have much thoughts on her identity? i hc her as ace but thats abt it,, nothing confirmed or canon for her!!!! this section is so short im sorry my girl
Thoughts on their home life/family
girlie doesnt have one of those. uhhhhm.. i think she's very. lives day to day + doesn't think she'll ever have a life outside of work? so i dont think she's really thought about settling down and what she might want for the future. she doesnt know where she wants to live if she wants kids etc etc. she gets v upset if people try and ask her abt it, she doesn't enjoy talking about that.
How i feel about their canonical writing/handling
iiii like it! she's def a character who'll be improved by rewritten posts. but i think liiiike.... while she's maybe not full of all these twists and turns and who saw this coming! she's very... her writing is solid nonetheless? she's just a fifteen year old.
The one thing i’d want to make canon about them
kinda building off whats above. despite the fact she's so incredibly independent like... yall she's Just Young... shes literally a traumatized teenager and she acts like it! this is canon and it shows that this is how things are so this is maybe a cop out but. yeah. for a small little detail that wont really be relevant on canon. she's probably got like.. all those games u see mobile ads for (fishdom gardenscapes) etc like. maxed out she's played all the levels etc. she doesnt have any other hobbies
My number one favorite ship for them
yall sold me on kuronori....
…Now everyone else i ship with them
maki + tomori!!! the kuronorimakitomo polycule is REAL. also i like her with iranami!!!! and im gonna deviate from what i usually say a bit to say that i actually think she could be cute with taira.
The thing i will NEVER ship
shrugs. inori stay winning ig!! she's very shippable!
a dynamic/relationship i wish was explored more (in canon, or in fandom)
i still miss my edgy kids,, but, i dunno! inori + a parent figure ?... i think she should get to bully higa
thoughts on their design (appearance-wise)
hmmmmm... one of the less like. "cute" designs, but i like it! for how like... comfort over style it is (usually i aim for comfort + style, but style isnt even remotely part of her fit) im actually very fond of it. we arent gonna chat about inoris hair tho i kinda wanna change it hmmm
A music-related thought- a song that reminds me of them, or what their music taste is, etc
ya know. she has a playlist but going through it i dont think i want?? to say yes any of these songs are #her... i think inori listens to anything and everything, oddly enough! she'll listen to hyperpop she'll listen to country she'll listen to rock it doesnt matter to her. she likes noise which she can control <3
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hi hi taku my love!! <3 this is the k polycule ask plus i remembered that i’ve been writing a bajiharu fic and i also wanna talk about that hehe. actually i’ll talk abt that first bc the k polycule is all happy and the bajiharu fic.... not so much. and you deserve healing :)
btw btw beware this is long. really long. i copied this message into a wordcounter and it’s 1.5k without the paragraph you’re reading rn... whoopsies. i insaned a little on my ramble. do tell me if i should shorten it bc it’s too long, and take all the time you need to reply afhjfdgjjgdfh
so okay the bajiharu (baji x sanzu just in case that’s not clear for some reason) wip is currently sitting at 15k and. wtf man 15k ?? i wrote that ?? damn. anyways idk how many of my posts abt it you’ve read but it’s p much a giant character/relationship study of the two. basically bajiharu across the years and timelines. canon compliant too, which sadly means that baji is dead most of the time but oh well. it is VERY angsty (i mean baji is dead that’s where the angst is starting already... and i mean sanzu’s canon life) and uh. i keep describing sanzu dying in nearly every future timeline but i’m having a ton of fun :D also it’s gonna be angst with a happy ending when i’m finished and probably around 30k words. a 30k one-shot. i don’t think i can even chapter it.... welp. accidents happen. yk this was supposed to be a maximum of 5k of bajiharu in the og shin timeline (the one in which he lives and mikey has the accident and ends up dying and stuff) and the final timeline but. uhh. uhm. yeah honestly idk what i did but my brain wouldn’t let go of them so here we are lol
i would summarise the plot of the fic but there hardly is one ?? like it’s just random excerpts from their lives. i mean some of them are like 3k long too and def have plots in and of itself but there’s no greater plot to be summarised 😭
tho what i can say is that they actually are somewhat together in the og timeline and they are.. happily together. they are NOT happy in fact they are miserable but they love each other in a tender way yk. but but they WILL be happy in the final timeline. and happily together too!! i just need them to be happy pls okay thanks. in between baji is dead so not many feelings on his part (😭😭) but sanzu is a miserable wet cat. also i have the most tragic death planned for him in the bonten timeline bc i am a ‘‘weird on-off-ish romance-ish but they don't wanna admit it's that even though it very obviously is and there is so much emotional (and sexual) tension and my god how can they live like this’’ bonten rinzu truther. wowie. and wouldn’t it be really fun if rindou accidentally shot sanzu on a mission gone heavily wrong that ends in sanzu dying in his arms? yeah <3
also!! akashi siblings!! i very much plan on writing abt them too in some timelines. specifically i think i’ll have sanzu move in with senju in the manila timeline before mikey kills him off (i am so excited to write this you don’t know istg) and i’ll have him move back in with takeomi in that one timeline in which izana takes over and naoto & takemichi end up dying in the future bc i hc that senju was shot dead in the past and sanzu has nowhere else to go after mikey’s death (bc he’s actually dead in that future...) so yeah. akashi siblings <3
also in case you wonder what my current 15k cover so far (i’m forcing myself to write chronologically for once bc i really wanna finish this and i’ve got a lot of scenes i’m excited to write i can use to push through the others), it’s the og timeline, the timeline in which draken gets killed by kiyomasa, one of the two following timelines in which draken survives and ends up on death row (i decided to cut one of them bc imo they’re too similar to write abt again), and some past stuff happening before that. which. is not a lot. just now realising how unmuch that is actually wtf it feels like sm more- okay anyways i plan on writing about the bad toman timeline with takemichi as executive, the manila future, bonten future, the future timeline after that with izana, and naoto & takemichi dying, possibly some tenjiku timeskip stuff, and then ofc the final timeline. (i. i gotta say i hope those 30k aren’t lowballing it by like 10k bc if you consider that i’ve written for three timelines plus some inbetween bits and i’m planning for another five whole timelines with inbetween stuff-- ayayay bajiharu is gonna be the death of me)
uhm this is already mUCH longer than planned help buuuut some k polycule stuff bc i love them and they love each other and they are happy. okay so ik you read my posts abt them so i’ll just start with them in their mid/late thirties, finally settled down somewhere they feel safe and they actually like :3 cough cough switzerland mayhaps ? cough cough. yk it can’t be japan anyways... and switzerland is far away...... and i know it well....
okay. they adopt a cat. or maybe two. probably two actually. two cats for them bc they’d like some company other than themselves and kazutora loves cats anyways. i believe that koko is actually more of a dog person bc inupi, but he’s the type of guy to go ‘‘ofc YOU GUYS can get a cat. it’s gonna be YOUR cat. YOU will have to take care of it. i won’t (unless absolutely neccessary.)’’ and then a month or smth after they get a cat kazutora & kakucho are away for a weekend for.. work or smth idk and when they get home koko & the cat are sleeping on the couch while he’s hugging the cat close to his chest, and there’s cat toys all over the floor bc he spent hours playing with the cat. he will still refuse to admit how much he loves the cat but he continues to play and snuggle with it whenever his bfs (husbands? i feel like they’d wear matching wedding rings and call each other husbands even if they legally aren’t bc poly marriage is forbidden) aren’t there to see. also this is really random but kakucho is the small spoon, kokonoi the middle spoon, and kazutora the big spoon. or two of them just sleep hugging the third person.
kazutora would work at a pet shop again i think. maybe he’d even study medicine to become a vet assistant? tbh i’ve always seen him doing that more than chifuyu or baji (tho i love vet student baji too <3). struggling with giving the other two jobs bc after bonten i don’t think kakucho would still want to work with kids (tho i def see him doing some kind of charity work in his free time) and kokonoi... he can’t sponsor anyone like this nor could he do finances for anyone, and he would never ever work at a bank. he’d still like a high paying job/smth at least loosly related to money tho. maybe like some sort of secretary for someone in finances? idk. very open to ideas for these two bc well i am stuck lol.
i think they’d mostly just try to take it slow and enjoy their more peaceful lives now (well kazutora’s life was pretty peaceful before too.. but kokonoi & kakucho) without having to worry about illegal and dangerous and whatnot else stuff. they deserve it okay they all had to go through too many things 😭
also more random stuff about them. kokonoi is banned from the kitchen not because he’s a safety hazard or because he burned down the kitchen once or smth but because he keeps wanting to cook overly expensive gourmet foods, and while they do taste good they are way too expensive and take way too much. plus he HATES having other people in the kitchen with him (he straight up locks them out) and refuses to leave the kitchen while he’s cooking even if he has to wait two hours for something to slowly simmer on low heat so essentially he AND the kitchen are gone for half a day if he wants to make dinner. he doesn’t really mind the kitchen ban though so it works. i think kakucho enjoys cooking the most, but he and kazutora both cook a lot. and sometimes kokonoi forces himself to wake up extra early on weekends (like. 6am. and then he’s done at 7am. and the other two wake up at 9am when early, more like 10am to 11am bc weekend and kokonoi has to wait with his beautifully prepared breakfast for hours) to make pancakes for them all <3
uhh that’s everything in my brain rn i think. i hope. and this is already a fucking essay so whoopsies. anyways that was it, i very much hope you enjoyed my long ass rambles <3 fr fr i missed writing these rambles for you,, but aa i can do that again!! :D
hello elys my love <333 but allg!! i actually read this whole thing a few days after u sent it initially but ive been rlly drained these past like 3 weeks so i hadnt been able to get to it :(( apologies again my love
no cuz fr 15k crazy!!!!! good job!!! no cuz like that lil description of ur rinzu is actually so real.... (this is making me miss my tokyorev hyperfixation so bad ngl) but ur bajiharu fic sounds so good!! the idea and concept of it is so well thought of i applaud u so muchhh
NO CUZ FR WRITING ABT THINGS UR FAMILIAR WITH >> its like u know it so fuckin well which means u can go into rlly good amounts of detail like !!!!!!!!!! ok so first paragraph is so :333 koko being a softie for the cat is so sweettttt omg
i think the jobs u chose for them are good !! suits them all very well but yes agreed they most definitely deserve it <33
ofc its kokonoi doing that, but u cant blame him fr hez just being a good husband </3333
it was fun having this in my inbox again !!! i miss doing these too and i hope the late reply doesnt discourage u <333
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okay so i am DEF not tearing up at how adorable that playlist is wtf 😭💔💔💔 that is literally the cutest thing i’ve ever seen and all those songs are so perfect for him. so soft rn i love it. ALSO ROMEO AND JULIET INSPO ?? MY HEART IS EVEN MORE BROKEN NOW 😩 when i used to write fanfics, dialogue was always my fave part too :)). i feel like you can do so much w it and express so much so easily yk ? and hyunjin dialogue always make me weak in the knees like you guys just know how to write him and write what he’d say so accurately
wishing you luck at bowling today and also for the skz album 🙏🏼 being the oldest sibling, i would 100% buy my siblings an album if they were into kpop so hopefully he’ll do the same
andddd gonna make it easier for you and reply to my other one here ^_^ apologies again for how frazzled i am 😭 but yea the lip piercing on hyunjin just…. no words can explain. like genuinely i cannot explain the way it makes me feel. it’s just perfect. and good lord purple minho 😩😩😩 THE FLUFFY STYLING TOO ??? EVEN BETTER. LIKE ITS SO GOOD ??? i need more colored hair minho i feel like it’s so underrated. AND SEUNGMIN i wanna see more colors on him bc his hair is so perfect. or even bringing the pink bangs back.. yes please 🙇🏻♀️🙇🏻♀️🙇🏻♀️
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i feel like a majority of stayblr writers are able to write so well for him due to the fact that he is a complete hopeless romantic. it’s easy for romance writers to write him because he himself is the epitome of romance, you get me? written by a woman type of man. it’s also why i find it easy to make a playlist for him, cause i feel like any love songs would suit hyune </3 you’re right, dialogues are super fun. says a lot about a character and i would say dialogues are the most impactful parts in a fic!!
it’d be tmr for me! it is still the same day rn hehe, wednesday, eighth of march here ^__^ my timezone is gmt +8. what’s yours, if you don’t mind me asking? i’m also actually the oldest sibling, so we’re twinning again hehehe. ‘m always the one to buy my siblings things, so it wouldn’t hurt to ask for something just ONCE, right. . . ? (completely ignoring how i one time coaxed my brother into buying me genshin impact primogems LOL)
don’t apologize, milov. i, too, am a mess. i honestly feel like i could ramble to u abt anything for ages. one of it being hyunjin’s (alleged) tongue piercing predebut AND that belly button piercing in play with fire dance cover 🗣 mmm curls deffo look good on minho. likeeeeeeee brooooo. makes him look all boyish and and dreamy and and looking like my future hubby 🤠 you don’t understand just what i would do to get strawberry blonde minho. gonna call him my strawb strawbs 💭 for the love of god jype pls change seungmin’s hair colour sometimes 😔🙏 that hairstyle he had during 2022 mama awards tho? bias wrecked everybody and they mamas. i was left absolutely BAFFLED. a couple of stays i know ended up seungmin biased because of the look and I GET IT 💯 maxident was his era too HE OWNEDDDDD IT WITH THEM PINK BANGS. i need and i mean i NEED that blue hyune had on seungmin. grunge seungmin would END kpop i’m telling UUU. omw to the cuties dorm to put hair dye in his shampoo, wanna join? we can put some in minho’s shampoo too zzzZzz.
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watch and learn | iwaizumi hajime x f!reader x team japan
there were two things they all had in common: the growing bulges in their pants that they were urgently trying to distract themselves from, and the fact that their full attention was on you.
warnings: 18+, timeskip!everyone, BIG MANGA SPOILERS BASICALLY, exhibitionism, voyeurism, orgasm denial
w/c: 3.1k
a/n: now i don’t know if iwaizumi hajime (27) athletic trainer learned about female orgasms when he was studying sports science at irvine BUT he def knows how to show a girl a good time which is reason enough for me to write this. also, i read this article to prep for this piece and it was super enlightening, so i do recommend giving it a read if you’re interested!
in the middle of his morning run, iwaizumi slowed momentarily to check the repetitive buzzing of this phone, curious as to who was messaging him this early. when he’d left the apartment, you were sleeping, and you had the tendency to still be sleeping by the time he returned, so who else could it be?
he unlocked his phone, quickly finding the source of the notifications: the team japan group chat.
[06:43 AM] miya: hey @iwaizumi—you know stuff abt the human body right?
[06:43 AM] miya: cus like you studied it in college and shit??
iwaizumi rolled his eyes. i spent four years in america to earn my degree, came back home to support my country’s olympic team, and dealt with the biggest idiots of volleyball, only to get treated like this?
[06:44 AM] iwaizumi: yes, miya. i took many courses on the human body. in fact that’s the purpose of my job. to know the human body. because i am a fucking athletic trainer.
[06:44 AM] miya: okay okay i get it. dumb question
[06:44 AM] iwaizumi: why? is something up? you need help or anything?
[06:44 AM] miya: uhhh kinda
[06:44 AM] miya: @hinata i’m not fucking asking this
[06:44 AM] bokuto: bro just do it
[06:44 AM] miya: @hinata @hinata @hinata
iwaizumi cocked an eyebrow. what the hell are they going on about?
[06:45 AM] iwaizumi: so am i needed or...
[06:45 AM] hinata: YES
[06:45 AM] hinata: we had a question
[06:46 AM] sakusa: by “we” he means him, miya, and bokuto
[06:46 AM] suna: yeah don’t bring us into this
[06:46 AM] hinata: don’t listen to them! both suna and sakusa wanna know too
[06:46 AM] iwaizumi: okay. what’s up
[06:47 AM] hinata: we wanted to know how to make a girl cum
he chuckled in disbelief.
[06:47 AM] iwaizumi: you’re telling me that you guys are in your mid-20s, literal olympic athletes, and you don’t know how to make a girl cum
[06:47 AM] iwaizumi: have you never done it before??
[06:47 AM] miya: NO
[06:47 AM] miya: FOR THE RECORD IVE MADE MANY GIRLS CUM
[06:48 AM] bokuto: ME TOO
[06:48 AM] bokuto: i think
he laughed out loud, briefly startling another runner on the sidewalk.
[06:48 AM] iwaizumi: you guys are unbelievable
[06:48 AM] hinata: i mean she says she finished but idk what i did to make that happen
[06:48 AM] bokuto: ^^
[06:48 AM] hinata: so like i wanna know how to actually do it
[06:48 AM] suna: actually im kinda interested in this too
[06:48 AM] aran: i pray for your future girlfriends. this is painful to see. im out
[06:48 AM] kageyama: i’m with aran on this one. you guys are dumb
[06:48 AM] hinata: shut up. you suck.
[06:48 AM] miya: cmon iwaizumi, help a guy out
[06:48 AM] sakusa: it wouldnt hurt for you to give us some pointers at least
iwaizumi sighed.
[06:49 AM] iwaizumi: @miya @hinata @bokuto @suna @sakusa meet in the locker room after practice. ill give you guys a lesson in the art of pleasing a woman
to teach effectively, he needed a volunteer, though he was sure you wouldn’t need much convincing. you’d always loved the attention, and the biceps, of the pro athletes. he spun on his heel and jogged home.
you woke up to the sound of your apartment door opening, your boyfriend creeping inside, forehead damp with sweat.
“hey,” you said quietly, making your way towards him.
“hey, baby. sorry for waking you up, i was trying to be quiet.”
you giggled sleepily. “s’okay, haji. you spoil me too much anyway, always letting me sleep in for hours while you’re off doing god knows what.”
at that, his eyes crinkled in amusement, and as you tried to step into a hug, he shuffled back. “woah there, baby. i gotta shower, ‘m all gross from my run. and then,” he gave you a peculiar look that you couldn’t quite place, “i got a proposition for you.”
after his shower, he waltzed out of the bathroom, steam wafting out from behind the door. his tanned body made you feel things you definitely shouldn’t be barely an hour after the sun’s risen, and you reached out to massage the tension in his shoulders. “so, what’s your proposition?”
“well,” he hesitated. “it’s a bit... unconventional. the team asked me to show them how to make a girl cum,” he took in your intrigued expression. “and it’d be a lot easier to explain if i had someone to do a live demonstration with. so,” his eyes flicked up to you. “that’s where you’d come in.”
“a... live demonstration? like you’re gonna make me cum in front of them?”
“yeah, essentially.” he gave you a devilish grin. “you want that, baby? wanna show those boys how a real man treats a gorgeous woman like you?”
you rubbed your thighs at his words. “yeah,” you purred. “i do. wanna show them how good you are to me.”
and that’s how you found yourself nestled between iwaizumi’s muscled thighs, back pressed against his chest, completely naked, with five of japan’s best volleyball players staring at your body in awe.
practically an expert in his field, iwaizumi knew the human body inside and out. this had many benefits; of course it allowed him to catapult up the ranks and work with the country’s best athletes to keep them at the top of their game, but it also had a unique side effect: an overwhelming vault of knowledge on how to make a woman feel good anywhere.
you’d seen the proof firsthand; he knew exactly where to push, prod, stroke, and tease to have you cumming in seconds, over and over, as many times as you wanted. he was amazing, and you were well-aware just how lucky you were to have such a talented man in the sheets.
“oi,” iwaizumi snapped his fingers, drawing each of the players’ eyes away from your glistening cunt. “pay attention. i know more than anybody that she’s hot as fuck, but you gotta listen to what i’m saying or else there’s no point to this.”
he lightly pressed his lips against your collarbone, slowly tracing them against your jaw, the contact making you squirm. “if you wanna make a girl cum, first thing you gotta do is make her comfortable. if she’s worried about how she looks or sounds or smells she’s gonna be too stressed to let go.” he moved his hands to grope your tits, his calloused fingers brushing over your hardening nipples. “so reassure her, tell her how irresistible she is, how pretty her moans are, how tasty her pussy is. shit like that. the sexier she feels the better it’ll be.”
he leaned into you, whispering into your ear. “feeling good, baby? we can stop whenever.”
you nodded weakly, afraid to open your mouth, barely holding in your whines as his palms worked wonders on your chest and stomach, sending shocks of heat wherever they touched.
you craned your neck up to observe the men before you. atsumu was flushed red, wringing his hands as if he was worried they’d do something embarrassing if he didn’t keep them occupied. hinata was bouncing his leg up and down, wiping his palms on his shorts as he took in the plushness of your thighs. bokuto was basically drooling, greedily tracing your soft curves with his eyes. suna maintained his indifferent expression, but the reddening tips of his ears showed that he was a lot more hot and bothered than he let on. sakusa stood quietly to the side, leaning against the wall, mask tucked under his chin as if he’d just realized how much the temperature had gone up in the room.
there were two things they all had in common: the growing bulges in their pants that they were urgently trying to distract themselves from, and the fact that their full attention was on you.
"make sure to try different things; there’s multiple ways to make a woman cum. only like a quarter of women experience orgasms just from penetration,” someone made a sound of shock. “yes, the number is that small, bokuto.”
his fingertip slowly trailed past your belly button, dipping into the mess between your thighs, causing you to slightly arch your back into the solid chest supporting you. “foreplay with the clit is your best bet; even stupid fucks like you probably wouldn’t screw it up too bad.”
hinata opened his mouth to speak, but iwaizumi anticipated his question and continued.
“i know you’re wondering where the clit is. it’s around here, under this hood of skin,” he slid his digit between your labia. “s’not gonna come with a label so you gotta explore a little bit. i know where hers is like the back of my hand, but for you guys, with your girls, you’re gonna have to move your fingers around. slowly. and pay attention to her expressions.” he began to rub in a circular motion around your clit, causing you to make small whimpers of pleasure and shift your hips to meet his movements.
“if she clenches up or twitches when you feel a certain spot, like this,” your legs flexed as he increased the pressure, “that’s the clit. be kind, it’s not a volleyball. be gentle n’ make small circles, whether it’s with your fingers or your tongue.”
he thought for a second. “speaking of which, oral’s important. very important. most women cum when they’ve been eaten out, so use your mouths for something more useful than just dirty talk. suck on the clit, maybe tongue-fuck her a ‘lil, but your main focus should always be the clit.”
he removed his hands from your sopping pussy, and you made a pathetic noise of frustration. “’m sorry, baby,” he muttered seductively in your ear. “don’t wanna have you finishing too early. lesson’s barely started.”
he turned his attention back to your audience, his lustful tone being replaced by a more instructional one. “there’s other places that’ll help a woman orgasm, too: her nipples, her neck, her ears—”
“her ears?” sakusa questioned. he blushed profusely as everyone turned to look at him, surprised that he’d opened his mouth. “what? we were all thinking it.”
“s’a valid question,” iwaizumi said. “yeah, you can lick ‘em if they’re sensitive. hers are.” as if to prove his statement, he licked a stripe on the shell of you ear, making you wiggle helplessly at the stimulation. “‘n leave kisses everywhere else. feels good for them just like it does for us.” he wrapped an arm around your waist, pulling you closer to him and forcing your movements to stop as he traced patterns with his tongue all around your neck.
“something you should know about an orgasm is that it’s something called a positive feedback loop.” he looked up and was met with five blank stares. shouldn’t have expected anything from these dumb jocks, he lamented. “basically that means that, once you start releasing sexual tension, things will feel better and better until you climax.”
“oh!” atsumu chirped. “like how my sets get better and better throughout a game.”
“no, not really,” he quipped. “your sets suck throughout.” atsumu frowned at that.
iwaizumi exhaled exasperatedly. “the general idea is that the body gets more and more sensitive, muscle contractions become more and more frequent, and touches feel more and more stimulating until you cum. all right?”
they all made noises of understanding except for bokuto and hinata, whose eyes had glazed over at the first mention of an academic term. whatever, iwaizumi thought. they’ll get it through example.
"don’t worry about it too much if you don’t get it, that’s just an orgasm on paper. in practice, though, this is the crucial step: listen to her. she knows what feels good. never forget that you’re just an idiot with a cock.” he took a breath, gathering his thoughts before proceeding with his lecture.
“if she tells you to slow down, you slow down. if she tells you to go harder, you go harder. if she tells you to keep doing what you’re doing, you...”
“keep doing what you’re doing”, they all chimed in at staggered times.
“that’s right. don’t go faster or else you’ll mess up the rhythm and she won’t cum. and you wanna make her cum, don’t you?”
they nodded simultaneously.
“so if you keep up the tempo and force that feels good to her, you’ll be fine. questions?”
suna spoke up. “what about,” he choked on the word. “penetration?”
hinata hummed in agreement and bokuto jumped in. “yeah, what if i wanna make her cum on my cock?”
iwaizumi made a weird face. “that’s some pretty advanced stuff, but i guess i can go over it. when you try it, though, you have to be patient. with both of your bodies. s’not rocket science but s’not always easy. also it depends on the woman but sometimes she physically won’t be able to finish from penetration alone. just make sure you’re communicating.”
his swirled two fingers over your hole before shoving them in, your wetness making it easy for him to thrust in and out as your entrance stretched to accommodate him. “f—fuck!” your eyes flew open at the intrusion and you body lurched forward, but you were held back by his strong forearm. “ohmygod, oh my g—ah! feels s’good haji, s’good!”
“i know, baby, i know. you’re taking it so well.” he turned his attention back to the men, each of who were gulping heavily. if that didn’t signal to you that they were evidently affected by your moans, the way they shifted in their workout shorts did.
“boys, focus.” he curled his fingertips, brushing at the spongy spot at the top of your walls, ripping a pleasured wail from your throat and causing tears to prick at your eyelashes. “when you’re fingering her, you’ll feel an area inside that’s a bit soft and squishy. that’s the g-spot.”
you trembled in his arms as he mercilessly struck the same place over and over again with his fingers. “when you’re fucking her, try to keep the pressure building there, but it’ll be harder to make her finish since you can’t see what you’re doing.”
your breath hitched as iwaizumi’s incessant movements brought your body tantalizingly close to your release. he suddenly stopped and you almost sobbed in disappointment, until he plunged his fingers impossibly deeper.
a guttural scream of ecstasy came from within you, and your eyes rolled back as he began playing with another part of you, your body putty in his hands. “hngh, haji, ah! so good, s’good...” you threw your hands back around his neck, nails digging into the skin as you desperately tried to keep yourself grounded. your soft moans filled the air.
“stop clenching,” he hissed. “can barely move my hand.” you tried to relax but failed miserably as the tips of his fingers grazed your cervix.
“holy fuck,” suna muttered. “you’re a god.”
“she sounds so pretty,” atsumu said in amazement.
“i wanna make a girl feel good like that, too!” bokuto sulked.
“you can do it, bokuto!” hinata hit him on the arm. “just listen to iwaizumi. clearly he knows what he’s talking about.”
their eyes refocused on your figure, writhing in pleasure, prompting white hot waves of arousal to pool in their stomachs.
“yeah,” sakusa said. “clearly.”
“stop talking,” iwaizumi ordered. “and listen. beyond the g-spot is the cervix, which is basically the end of the vagina. if you’re long enough,” he briefly scanned each of their faces, “which i’m sure you are, you’ll be able to reach it if you bottom out.”
“haji—hajime, please.” the stimulation was coming absolutely unbearable, and you could tell he was sadistically holding you at the edge, refusing to give you the satisfaction of finishing. “lemme cum, please. please lemme cum, please, please, i can’t—i can’t take it ‘nymore!”
“what was that? you can’t take it anymore? gonna cum?” you helplessly bobbed your head up and down, hoping that he’d give you permission. “well,” he growled, “we can’t have that happening, can we?”
he abruptly halted his thrusts, pulling his fingers out of you with an embarrassing squelch and popping them into his mouth. pearly tears rolled down your cheeks as you grieved the loss of contact and relief.
your viewers looked on in horror, feeling immense sympathy for you; you just looked so dejected from being denied yet another orgasm.
“why didn’t you—why didn’t you let her cum?” bokuto asked.
“why do you think?” iwaizumi snapped. “don’t want you guys to see her when she does. that’s for me, and only me.”
“oh, okay,” he responded, disgruntlement clear in his voice.
iwaizumi’s glare could cut glass, it was so sharp. the possessiveness that had enveloped his mind made him hyperfocus on just one thought: being alone with you. “so, any other questions? if not, we’re done here.”
you pouted at that, not wanting the demonstration to be over. “but haji,” you mumbled into his collarbone. “i di’nt get to cum. and i wanna.” you looked up at him, eyes wide with want. “please make me cum.”
iwaizumi sent a harsh glance to the players that nonverbally communicated his message loud and clear: get out. they shuffled awkwardly out of the locker room due to the hardness between their legs that they would most definitely need to deal with soon.
your boyfriend turned his attention back to you. “’m sorry, i know i had to deny you a bunch of times. i just really hated the idea of anyone but me seeing the cute way you look when you cum.”
you made a small noise of acknowledgement and a little whisper of it’s okay, haji. he looked down, sensing the way your poor, desperate cunt was pulsing around nothing, the erotic sight injecting him with the pure need to ravage you.
he shifted his head to kiss you passionately. “why don’t i make it up to you?” he breathed between your parted lips before picking you up by the backs of your thighs, forcing you to lock your ankles around his waist.
he delicately situated you onto one of the recovery beds at the back of the room, before murmuring something that made your pussy throb in anticipation: “i’ll make you cum whichever way you want, however many times you want, all right? all you gotta do is lay back and take it.”
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*crawling on the floor like the food water atmosphere fish from spongebob* please do you have any minedai fic recs
i have a humble amount my friend :) i'll list the SFW ones first and leave the saucier stuff for the bottom. i encourage yall to peak around the Dojima Daigo/Mine Yoshitaka tag on AO3 and find some other gems i might've missed (because i have def missed out on some great stuff, but if there’s any other fics that aren’t AO3 that are also good send em my way)
"if they all say so" by bio_at
literally one of my all-time fave minedai fics and fics Period i'm in love with this thing. it's just the gang teasing talking with mine about daigo in a reality where mine lives beyond 3. i'm selling it short on how lovely and feel-good this fic is like please read it i'm not good at selling things--
"Batter Up" by McEuropeskies
mine takes daigo to the batting cages and has to endure watching him make the worst swings of his life, inevitably leading to A Personal Favorite wherein he has to help him with his stance. as much as i love composed and calculating mine, it's also really fun to see him lose his cool a bit, and this fic's full of that in a way that also doesn't do it excessively. it's cute, it's short, it's funny, and it's got baseball. i love it.
"Only Him" by frozenCinders
i talked bout this one a couple weeks back but it's a short, cute, and sweet fic wherein mine and daigo go out on an impromptu dinner date to smile burger. i just love how casual and carefree daigo is and i love how mine Also loves how casual and carefree daigo is (even if he appears somewhat unprofessional, but that's a part of it isn't it)
"New Heights" by celadon_dreams
they get stuck in an elevator, wherein its the perfect time to be even remotely, subtly ballsy about the fact you're crushing on your coworker. in a twist though it's actually daigo having butterflies in his stomach and making a move, a nice switch up i really like to see from minedai fics
"Record" (marked as adult but nothing overly graphic happens) by gwyllgi
it's just mine and daigo waltzing, but it's written in a way that's just So. i really like it, it's a great vibe. it's very domestic That's the word i was looking for :)
"from the ashes of us" by jaigheart
REALLY GOOD Mine Lives is hard to write but the build up for this and the exploration into daigo's mind and feelings (PLUS BARTENDER BESTIE) was IMMACULATE. plus i ALWAYS love a daigo-centric fic...
"Bangkok Necktie" by Skysquid22
ANOTHER REALLY SWELL MINE LIVES FIC daigo and mine chatting after mine attempts suicide and tho it doesnt downplay the seriousness of the situation, it does a neat job of easing out of the tense circumstances into a more hopeful atmosphere for mine's future
"Sweet Tone" (+18) by frozenCinders
mine's down horrendous and just wants to shag daigo. fics exploring mine's obsession with daigo in one way or another are great to me, but i can prob save that rant for another post. since he can't get daigo, the second best thing he's got (aside from fuckin dudes who might vaguely look or sound like him) is having an innocuous phone call with him. just the way bro's really about to bust while daigo's talking about the most Not Sexy things ever is what makes me love this
"Always Be Prepared for Anything" (+18) by ravenselle
daigo gets stuck in a vent and mine has to get him out of it, and that alone was enough to make me wanna read. the way gwyllgi writes everything out really capitalizes on the humor factor for me, with the actual shagging being moreso a bonus (with a pretty goofy ending too. poor majima LMAO).
#snap chats#fic recs#minedai#'humble amount' girl i looked through the entire tag again LMAO#had to remind myself of some good ones#but yeah happy reading ! and if yall find or have any more good minedai fics let a brother know#im bouta start writing to fill the void im greedy
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Thoughts on headline lyrics?
HEADLINE - faith in the future (deluxe track?)
sometimes i wake up and i hear you through the silence
you let your pride hide all your beauty and your kindness
so fast to judge in error
you thought you knew me better
so quick to kill forever
person he used to live with / spend a lot of time with, if he’s waking up to their absence
“pride” // “lost in your pride,” defenceless
“kindness” is a word we recognise ykyk
they had a falling out that went pretty personal - i thought i knew you / you misjudged me
they were committed to each other, but it’s over
chorus:
you used to read me like a headline
so many reasons now you're not mine
to read someone like a headline: negative connotation, especially considering louis’s life - detached, fragmented information - to judge by what someone else is writing or saying, not what’s coming from them / base an entire opinion on only part of the facts
OR, positive: you used to read me as easy as it is to read a headline - one look and you knew it all
is the person reading them like a headline one of the reasons they’re not theirs anymore? -> too quick to judge, think they knew the whole story?
-> esp. considering the next lines:
maybe if you'd taken more time
i'd still be the one you wanna talk to every night
if you got in my head
you wouldn't be so scared of what you'd find
you used to read me like a headline
oh that's the reason now you're not mine anymore
you think i’m this bad person bc of the bits of info you’re basing your opinion on // the headlines (esp in the past) slandering louis’s image
you spent your summer working for your education
while i was running after dreams that kept us waiting
you never told me never
i guess i never knew we'd have the shortest forever
thought i could but i can't forget ya
(chorus)
you used to read me like a headline
(???) up and i wish you were beside me
louis the superstar going after his dreams, leaving his love behind at school/...
“shortest forever” <-> his usual love songs telling the story of a long-term relationship
thoughts
so i know i’m not making this post very official bc we haven’t heard the song yet, and i also prefer analysing songs in the context of the album, so this one’s just a quick overall opinion. when i first read it i was like... stunt song. then i was like, could there be lyrics in there that are about zayn? bc their falling out really went from a tight, brotherly bond, being together almost 24/7 to nothing. there’s obvs a lot there that went down that we don’t know about, but we’ve seen the pettiness and the judging. and we also know (very painfully) that it was like a breakup.
buuuut ofc the song is def written to be more about a relationship, but then it also kind of doesn’t fit the eleanor narrative. there’s the education thing again, like with the uni mention in we made it, but their relationship is supposed to still be going (lol) and has been going on for ages as well.
it fits in with louis’s previous songs in terms of the pride and silence, the lack of proper communication, waiting. perhaps the sound will tell us more, and that it fits more in with a habit kind of vibe, as in: louis asking the other to see his true colors, to let each other back in, give each other another chance. so far, by just reading it, the lyrics sound a bit harsh tho, so idk??
it could also be more figurative, and “you” is more directed at the general public, or at the kind of person that’s got him wrong and lost faith in him.
of course, this song could still have been written by someone else for louis, or with louis, with the intention to just have that play on the whole “headline” thing, louis being famous and plagued by press and all <3
#headline#kind anon#fitf#lyric analysis#idk this one is a bit random but those are def some thoughts!!#hit me with opinions back
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Hello friends ~
tw for mental health and chronic illness discussion
I know some people probably think I overshare on here, but in all my years as a tumblr person I’ve had full transparrancy with my followers and I want to keep it that way!
I am simply not doing so hot at the moment, a mix of my physical health taking a big decline really suddenly, uncertainty about my future and life expectancy, complicated family relations, and the fact that getting proper help for my severe BPD and my pretty recently diagnosed adhd isn’t really an option as things are right now.
I’ve recently been put back on a bunch of strong painkillers, which does help with my pain levels, but makes my already bad brainfog and reality distortion issues a lot worse.
I’m also very utstable moodwise, def a bad BPD turn, which is exhaunsting in itself, but also dangerous combined with everything else going on.
I don’t really have anyone to turn to with this, as the only friend I’m comfortable with seeing these things are moving away as we speak, and I don’t want to sully other friendships with this, or be a burden towards anyone more than I already am.
I know I’m going to be okay again, but I also know it’ll take time, and might be a real rough period coming up for me.
I’m not gonna step away from here or anything, honestly fandoms, working on fics and art and tumblr in general is something that helps me trough periodes like this, and I appreciate it endlessly!
About your requests ~
Requests will remain open, and I’ll work on them when I am in the right mindspace, but I’m not gonna pressure myself to write when I’m not in the headspace for it, mainly because what I produce then ends up being garbage!
So, if you still wanna wait for your requests, I promise I’ll get to them in time, and if you don’t want to wait, let me know so I can prioritize those who do? <3
I mainly just want you guys to be aware, so that if I post something weird or anything you know why, and know I’ll be okay again soon!
#yeah I’m so sorry about this#personal#mental health#chronic illness#chronic illness tag#BPD#bpd awareness#bpd tag#bpd vent#living with borderline#adhd#unmedicated adhd#CFS#chronic fаtiguе ѕуndrоmе#endometriosis#psoriatic arthritis#POS#scoliosis#irl tag#txt
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