#faceworm

[ryanronaldlife]

I'm thinking of what to buy on Shopee. I have 16 Shopee coins right now and I want to spend them before December 3 after which they will all expire. I can't buy anything from Shopee right now because I'm busy right now and have many things to attend to.

I helped buy an item last night and spent 900+ pesos. It's fine, I gained a bit of income recently anyway. I don't really stick to a budget much anymore.

Apart from that, I'm not doing much really. I am about to play Ragnarok Online again. I am pretty bored with my main characters so I am playing my backup characters. Ideally I want to farm the Faceworm Instance with dozens of characters, but it seems a lot of classes are too weak to do the job.

[dudenukem]

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[nicejewishguy]

i just watched pimple popper for the first time and OH MY GOD WHAT THE FUCK THESE ARE NO NORMAL PIMPLES THESE ARE FACEWORMS

[evodevo-geekmonkey]

The thing about Cosima in season 3, and why she is so uncooperative with Delphine, is it isn’t just because she wants to be difficult or because she’s mad at her, it’s a lot more than that. It really comes down her feeling a loss of control over her life and her own body.

She’s sick and she has to work with these people she hates in order to cure herself. And they want to be in charge of her. They want to make decisions on her care, withdrawing it to manipulate her sister, giving her conditional access to resources. They treat her like a subject not a person and worst of all like her body belongs to them not her. And from the patent they put on her it’s pretty clear that’s what they believe.

Now Delphine honestly just wants what’s best for her. She doesn’t think she owns her body or her life the way DYAD does BUT she has made choices for Cosima in the past, against her will. She let her take a treatment without telling her what it was. She decided what was best for their relationship, to end it, without even talking to Cosima about why she was doing it. She gave her blood samples to Leekie, because she knew they could help, even when Cosima told her not to.

Cosima wants to be in control of her own body. She doesn’t want DYAD having their hand in anything she can keep away from them, but Delphine insists on working through DYAD to help her. I truly don’t think she ever thought Delphine wanted to her hurt her, but she did think Delphine wanted to take control away from her decisions. (Which I don’t think is entirely true, but it is probably what it felt like).

Even with Shay, she comes in warning her to stay away, asking for urine samples and to Cosima it really seems like she is just once again taking the control away from her. Even though Delphine’s intentions come from a good place. It sort of just comes down to “can everyone please stop telling me what to do?” But it’s also a lot more than that. It probably feels like trying not to be swept away by a flood.

Cosima is incredibly independent. She is stubborn and values her freedom. She wants to know what is going with her body and she needs to be in control of it and her own life. And no one wants their ex taking control of their health care decisions or, worse, handing it over to some giant company that thinks of them as an object not a person. This is a common theme between all of the sisters, dealing with their loss of control, and this is one of the ways in which Cosima is handling it.

The problem is, Delphine is just trying to keep Cosima and her sisters alive, but Cosima is trying to keep control and autonomy over her life. That’s why she didn’t tell her she made a copy of the book. Because live or die, Cosima wants the cure to be hers and her sister’s not DYADs and she doesn’t know if Delphine wants her to have the cure, or if she just wants her to be cured. And, of course, she doesn’t want to sacrifice her “soul” for a cure. No faceworms in her sister. No using her niece as a tissue source. She wants to do it, but she wants to do it the right way and on her own terms. But that is incredibly difficult with DYAD and Delphine breathing down her neck all the time. So she lies. And she hides information. So she can keep the situation under her control.

The beauty of the whole web they have created with this story is that the conflict between Cosima and Delphine doesn’t come from either of them being a bad person. It doesn’t come from them trying to or wanting to hurt each other. It just comes from them being unable to see the situation from the same point of view.

Because Cosima wasn’t there when Rachel used their relationship against Delphine. She doesn’t understand why Delphine changed her game plan. She doesn’t understand that she realized that their relationship was a liability. She just sees that Delphine abandoned her when she was scared and hurt and probably in pain. And she doesn’t understand why she insists on butting into every aspect of her life even though she doesn’t want to be with her. It’s probably really painful to have to see her all the time and to have her demanding things from her.

They’re not bad people, either of them, and they’re not trying to hurt each other. They are just seeing the same problem through conflicting angles and the bond they have between them and the fact that it means they can’t be together, and the pain that causes, is just fanning the flames. Their emotional squish humans just trying to do the best they can with what they’ve been given. And it actually makes for a really good story, as sad as it is, because there really is no bad guy here. It’s like watching two magnets dancing around each other, trying to find opposite poles but they keep ending up repelling each other.

Which is also why I’m really interested to see something new in season 5, whatever it is. Because it’s the end, and we have to see how the magnets come together right? Something has to shift in the dance so they can be together, because that’s how you end a story right? I want to see the solution. I want to see what they’ve learned and how work together when they finally figure out how. I feel like whatever happens, it’s going to be really really good (because it has been SO well written so far) but what I truly crave is an evolution of their relationship.

[stickgirltrioth-blog]

Nessa with dim sum vs. the vile FaceWorm! http://goo.gl/L7jbi3

[ryanronaldlife]

I have around 7 Shopee coins now which will expire in late January, so I will just buy items there next year.

I just cooked some rice in a rice cooker, took out the trash, laundered my clothes, and some other chores. I did a lot of chores this morning which was pretty boring.

I tried this cola brand that started in 1906 or something, and it tasted great. It was way better than Coca Cola. No wonder that cola brand is making a comeback.

I am going to be pretty busy in December since there are so many things to do in that month. I might not have much time to play Ragnarok Online, but at the same time, I have very little interest in playing lately apart from the Faceworm and Sarah's Memory instances.

[ryanronaldlife]

My Shopee coins will expire in January, so I will probably buy new items there next year.

I haven't had time to play much of Ragnarok Online lately since I have been resting a lot. I usually just do a few quests of Faceworm and Sarah's Memory and collect login rewards.

I actually spent a bit of money recently so I don't have much of a budget to buy things. I will probably buy things again next year.

[evodevo-geekmonkey]

No but really if neolution spent as much of it’s time, money and resources that it does on spying and murdering people on improving quality of life, actually researching diseases and stuff, they could go pretty far to make the world a better place. But here we are. Faceworms and blowing people up and countless fatally ill clones later and all they have to show for themselves is that they keep getting screwed over by a punk, a soccer mom and a grad student. Good job guys.

[stickgirltrioth-blog]

The FaceWorm metastasizes!: http://goo.gl/22JzIQ