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photos taken by me, circa summer 2019 // Third Eye â Florence + the Machine // Make You Proud â Jensen McRae
#i think i'm a day late to hbhbhb's birthday but i suppose it's never the wrong time to celebrate one of my fave songs ever#also these photos are not edited at all (except for me writing the lyrics lol)#sometimes the sky in iowa just Looks Like That#third eye#third eye song#third eye florence#third eye florence + the machine#how big how blue how beautiful#hbhbhb#florence + the machine#florence and the machine#fatm#f+tm#make you proud#make you proud song#make you proud jensen mcrae#are you happy now#are you happy now album#are you happy now jensen mcrae#jensen mcrae#art#lyrics#lyric art
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i used to freehand comics all the time as a child and since the part i liked was the drawing part i would just draw panel after panel because i didn't want to stop drawing to think about icky icky words, plus the story TOTALLY still made perfect sense! to me! and noone else, but 'whoooo caaaaares omgggg its not like comics and sequantial art are a communicative meeediummmm lmaoooooo'. i spent my entire childhood telling myself stuff like "oh pfft I know this story by heart- ill SIMPLY remember the dialogue and write it later" ...and. I can't help but admire baby maiora's (call that a minora ba tm tsk) fucking audacity? hubris? confident wrongness? kid couldn't even remember to finish the comics in the first place? INCREDIBLE levels of unearned self assurance, wish that were me, genuinely- what an icon!!! anyway i think i have forever cursed myself
#maiora garrulates#the maiora overthinks the process of writing dialogue saga continues!!!!!!!#im so tired. i have been overthinking this shit in circles i have not been making any progress in any which way lmao!#im bitching and moaning for funsies this is not that serious in the Grand Scheme Of Things i just wanna improve at my fav thing#and â¤ď¸ Unfortunately â¤ď¸ my favorite thing in the world involves learning MY MOST HATED *NEMESIS*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! verbal communication. ew#words are fun! i LOVE words! toys!!!!! im using words right now and i didn't combust!!!!! wow look at that!!!!!!!!!!!!!#putting words in SEQUENCE? multiple times?? filtering THOUGHTS into SENTENCES???? sentences that a character would or wouldn't SAY???#AND THEN THERE'S ANOTHER CHARACTER SOMETIMES???? AND THAT BITCH ALSO HAS THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS????? AND THEY ALL HAVE PERSONAL IDIOLECTS#AND TONES THAT S U P P O S E D L Y ARE IMPLICATED BY MANNERISMS AND VERBAL HABITS AND CIRCUMSTANCES (AND THERE'S WRONG ANSWERS! ALSO!!)#AND THEY'RE IN A CONTEXT!! AND THEY'RE INTERACTING WITH EACH OTHER AND INFLUENCING EACH OTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#THE CONVERSATION COULD VARY GIVEN ENERGY LEVELS WHETER OR NOT SOMEONE'S FOOT IS FALLING ASLEEP THE F U C K I N G WEATHER#âoh dialogue is easy just say it out loud to yourself until it 'sounds normal' ^^â#screaming crying throwing up NONE OF THIS IS INTUITIVE TO MEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....!#ok dramatics over its out of my system! for now!!!#this is all easily explained bc i just. draw a lot more than i talk to people. so like. OBVIOUSLY i have more practice drawing#so drawing comes natural! talking does not! subsequently dialogue is Hard! No FUCKING Shit Sherlock!!!!! (affectionate)#so yeah. im using y'all (the tumblr void) as practice! hi!!! words at you!!!!!!!!!!#so yeah thanks for baring with me while passing by my corner of the internet#i do love self indulgence this is fun check out my navel gazing actually no do not look at my belly button#anyway i just think this is mildly interesting. some of my writer buds have the same ânot good enoughâ allergy towards visuals#but they use it to be mean2me >:( same bitch that âomg i cant i suck at drawing i can't do this-â does the âuhm. just write? lol.â 2 meeee#we could have peace and love on planet earth and a common experience and yet you KICK miette for being bad at words!!!1!!! </3 heartbreak!!#what the fuck was i talking about even#oh yeah. perfectionism within creatives i guess. LMAO JK i am talking about NOTHIN!!!!G i am just putting Words Out Here ehehehehehe#its practice >;)c#all this bc ive been doodling comics for myself again and im V!! PROUD OF THE ART!!!! wanna share- but DIALOGUE!*âĄsfx!!*....... so! options#a) leaving it blank. no there are NO microphones in the budget. b) leaving blank *balloons* so that the Rythm is there. implied convo!!!#c) ...doing it badly. (tragic)(heartwrenching)(teeny tiny bruise 2 the ego) *dramatic single tear cleches fists * its the only way.........#...we shall see! literally none of this is all that serious i am procrastinating!! <3 playing with my tuoys!!!!!!!! silly time!!!#/all lh! am reaching 30 tags so that is all for THIS episode of the maiora bitches about dialogue saga thank you for joining me!!okilyBuhBY
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#rottmnt donnie#rottmnt#future donatello#future donnie#tmnt donatello#tmnt#yell at me in the tags or the comments or whatever#lets go#Im insanely proud of this one#me thinks I make print#whatcha all think?#sneaks onto the f!donnie train#i like turtles mkay#art#chucks into the void#flees
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My first time doing an art summary for the year!..very happy with all ive made,hoping to improve even more!
Art summary template used here!
#my art#reverse 1999#genshin impact#reverse 1999 oc#genshin impact oc#neuvillette#reverse 1999 forget me not#theres so much more I may make another tbh haha#I usually never get to fill these cause I never have enough art made so im very proud of myse;f this year
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and in part 2 of my delirium audio journey - i've finished my first song for her! being a singer/songwriter is a pretty big part of my offline life, and i've been wanting for a while to turn those skills in a more fandom direction, so here's the first of what might hopefully be a full sandman fan album! (at the very least i have too many ideas to fit into a single song, so others are in the works - this one is inspired by the first page of comic lore we get about her; that her real tragedy is being one of the oldest beings in the universe and yet never seen as more than the baby of the family)
lyrics under the cut:
A long long time ago, there was a girl, who was a child, who thought the world would keep on turning every day at the same time
She was joy and she was bright, she was a beacon in the night, and everywhere she went she left the people merry
But time is broken, don't you know? It broke that long long time ago, and so did she, that girl of cheer and youth and fancy
And so they built a shield
So she'd not see
The world she left in misery
And never asked what she was now
Or if she'd become new somehow
I am every thought in you that says to lose yourself or break instead, so why do you think I need protecting?
And from what, itâs all me, but when you look at me you see a helpless little girl
I'm not your little girl
And so that girl went on and on, her pieces came together wrong, she grew in spirals and the world began to fear her
A foolish child lost and alone with nothing there to guide her home, and all she touched, they said, turned broken with no purpose
But see I don't think that's true, âcause Brother, I know more than you
I've seen our truth, I've seen our pain, I've seen our future
And so what happens now
I've found the cracks
Weâre all a slave to what we lack
Each choice you make, you come undone
And still you laugh as if you've won
I am every storm cloud in the sky, Iâm every fish thatâs floating by, older than stars, older than skies, a child of Night, a child of Time
But all Iâve learnedâs never worth anything at all
They just see little girl
Their endless little girl
Brother think he's scared of me
Sister always busy
Brother talks and talks but rarely sees
Brother never coming back
Sibling thinks it's all an act
Sister sitting, feeling lonely, think sheâs fine, no think sheâs only waiting for the day it all caves in
And I donât know where I fit in
And then I break
And then I fall
And I know nothing
Nothing at all
Scared and defenselessÂ
Maybe theyâre right
Iâm just a little girl
But Iâm the one who put the pieces back
The one who sealed up all the cracks
Iâm not as sane
Iâm not the same
But then I never needed that
And though Iâve changed Iâm all Iâve ever been and more
Come see your little girl
No longer brittle girl
Became a bigger girl
Endlessly
#so if anyone saw me post the tim minchin f sharp song the other day. this is what it was about#my singing is not the strongest here because i went and wrote it in b minor which is the WORST key for my vocal range#but also. b minor pretty. and transposing it just didn't make it sound right. so now we're stuck here đ#but no otherwise im really fucking proud of this and im so glad to get back to songwriting that isn't on a deadline#tiktok video to come when i figure out how i wanna video this#the sandman#delirium of the endless#music#my art#mine
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Man...I should really draw something for pride month...
#pan rambles#I need a pride month icon!! So I'll make it myself!#but also I really wanna finish this one other drawing first...#I feel like I talk about that drawing a lot but trust me guys!!! You'll understand why it took so long once you see it!#I'm so proud of it so far and need to use all the power in me to not constantly post about it on Tumblr-afksnfkdn#To my pals who have heard me ramble about that drawing as I make progress on it...Thank you <3#ANYWAYS#I'm ping ponging so hard rn between f/os and crushes someone save me
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Shout out to my boyfriend who, compared to the rest of my idiots, is just normal. and nice. and mentally stable.
#And he worked hard to get there!!! I'm very proud of him#He's 37 with a stable (ish) job and mindful hobbies and also he likes swords and dino nuggets (canon I didn't make that up /gen)#Not afraid to be a little childish and have some fun but he's very calm about it#If I asked him to make a pillow fort with me he would say ''Yes'' instantly and then we would put a ridiculous amount of effort into it#It's not even childish fun at that point it's a team building exercise#But the satisfaction when it's done? Unmatched. Truly there is nothing like it#He gets all smiley when I call him handsome :) <3 And I can buy him flowers... And we can go on walks together...#.Genji#.thoughts#f/o gush
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hello everyone. do you want to see my tua self insert whose lore is so confusing and discombobulated because of time (i also have too many ideas for her lore wise so it's okay i guess). i'm being brave, because you are seeing her and i'm indecisive.
look at my darling. i love you. (i like the one on the left a lot i'm sorry)
picrew
#guys i'm being brave. be proud of me.#she is everything to me did you know i love her so much#did you know she's also a tragedy and the love of her life is fighting apocalypses#<- s4 doesn't exist to me okay#funnily enough their like ship name is âslow burn tragedyâ because i was saying it as a joke#but it strangely works out because they're both a tragedy in the making god save them both#her lore is odd because there is a canon of me following the seasons and it being widely different#<- i'm not showing or talking about that one as that's for me personally#she'll get like plethora of different lore because timelines exist#<- i'm the biggest nerd with time you'll all hate me (probably)#oh yeah hi hi hi hi hi!!#she and five are forever together and i do not CARE what you say they are in love your honour#probably.....#another fun fact about her is that i called her âthe witchâ and refer her as âeightâ a lot#i'm being so brave rn guys are any of you proud of me#sighs so loud i combust into flames#i'm fine (i'm lying)#ashley talks#should i make a s/i tag for her but what would it be lol#<- i think i know#i'll add it later.#i'm just proud i managed to talk to show the self insert and talk about the f/o i've been too scared to talk about#it's five btw if you care <- i love him a lot he means a lot to me please let me have this.
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my dad came in and saw me on the couch (for the first time all day and i had literally just sat down for less than a minute when he came in) w heating pad and immediately goes "you have two options" (different chores to do) (as if i was like 10 years old and getting punished for something that i didnt even know i did wrong). what about secret third option where you treat me like an adult or i don't come home for winter next year. Lol
#.mei chats#soryr really my family is. great i need to stpo complain#i just wish theyd realize that im not incompetent#i do a really good job taking care of myself for the entire 10 months out of the year that i dont live with them#and im proud of the independence ive developed bc i worked really hard to feel ANY sort of positive feelings about myself#but they just dont recognize it at all when i come back#trying to tell me how to microwave my food and reminding me of paperwork i have to do#Thanks i literally managed the entire program tasks myself for the last 6~months but yeah you better remind me about the medical forms#or else ill totally forget and mess up the whole thing :'333 bc im just so stupid!! thakn you soooo much for taking care of me!!#<- not like ive been hypervigilant and anxious about making sure i do every little thing with it perfect#in fact there was actually an issue w one of my forms bc they made me submit it even though i didn't think it was filled out properly.#they were like âitll be fine youre overthinkingâ guess who got an email 3 days later saying the form was completely invalid.#god just bottom line why cantthey trust me when i say im on top of it. fucking trust me this program is my entire life right now#i am putting literally eveyr ounce of effort i've got into not ruining it. they just dont see the improvements and growth ive made at all#so frustrating bc ive worked so hard to pinpoint and fix that specifically but what can ya do#god this got long. sawry#.not f/o related
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The Ultimate Comfort Character
Thank you, Kiyotaka
#kiyotaka ishimaru#f/o#kiyotaka my dear#ultimate simp#f/o positivity#it me#danganronpa#ishimaru kiyotaka#dr1#i've really been going through it so i imagined Taka reassuring me#i eventually did what i had to do and i just couldnt help but feel like hed be proud of me#flakytartART#f/o x s/i#s/i x f/o#s/i x canon#self-insert#selfship#self insert#shoutout to my Jan. I love you you make me so happy
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man.. shipping with characters from movies is so hard..
#ash rambles đ#I'm the kind of person thats super particular about my self inserts#i need them to be lore accurate and have super fleshed out backstories. i aspire to create the characters i want to see in media#and they will always be their own characters before they are me#that being said. i have such a hard time making an s/i when there's no wiggle room#this new guy I'm crushing on.. the story is so fast paced#and he's really in love with another girl#i love him and all that. but it feels like there's no room for me. that just pisses me off! ugh!#i feel the same way about k.ili too though not to such a great extent#idk man. i just hate when this kind of thing doesnt work right#writing my inserts is my greatest passion and i truly am proud of some of my lore#I'll always care for them as characters more than as a vessel for me to kiss pretty characters and i know all my friends can agree that 90%#of what I've sent them is writing about my s/is and not my f/os LMAAAOOO#but yeah. it's so hard for me to figure out where my self insert goes in this movie#also um. i dont want to have an s/i just be a useless side character that just stands there. i know this might sound silly but#as a brown woman who didnt grow up with much representation and to this fucking day has not seen a single punjabi woman in the media i grew#up watching.. i dont want my characters to be useless#ugh sorry I'm rambling sorry for being so negative#anyhow. I'm almost done with the first movie. crush boy is so handsome!!! gamers idk how long i can keep his identity a secret#hahaha what if you were a blacksmith and i was a cute writer and... and we kissed..? haha jk..... unless..?
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In exactly one week, I'll finally be out of this house and in my own apartment. Things have been rough and slow-going, but my f/os would all be so so proud of me for getting this far.
#i'm picking myself up off the ground and pushing through as best i can#completely on my own no less#i'm proud of myself and it makes me even happier to know that my f/os would be proud of me too#đ¸ hana speaks
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what do i have to do to get Joanna Newsom fans to listen to Shabaka and his recent solo debut album Perceive Its Beauty, Acknowledge Its Grace. what do i have to sell who do i have to bribe pls brethren he is right there
#joanna newsom#ys#shabaka#shabaka hutchings#perceive its beauty acknowledge its grace#ok so. story time. first came across Shabaka while he was still in Sons of Kemet (aka before he retired from the sax for the#forseeable future) and absolutely f*cked with that sh*t. i mean F*CKED with it bc look. he's Bajan. he's cranking out some serious#Afro-Caribbean jazz during his time there the polyrhythms are f*cking on point etc etc#tucked that sh*t away in my Spotify library didn't think much of it. then i heard he was retiring from sax to focus on other instruments#and went '??????' bc yk. Shabaka. sax. kind of inseparable. he did it anyway for his mental health's sake and i'm proud of him#but then. THEN he dropped the first single off of this album on us back in February and i lost it. then he dropped the second#in March and the third in April with he and Moses Sumney i. good God just take me already nah#by the time it dropped on April 12 a day after the Sumney drop i was locked tf in. like it has been on rotation with some of my#other favorites since but anyway. only recently i realized while loading it up again that 'hey this sounds like something Joanna#would put out' and lo and behold. he says it right there that's exactly why it sounds like that brethren. pls. listen to the entire#thing for me pls. the last track called 'Song of the Motherland' features his father performing a spoken word piece and lives#inside my head rent free now. sorry. if this haunts me then it must haunt you too i don't make the rules
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Good evening gamers! I hope everyone's day has gone well! :>
As for me, I'm just thinking about all my familial f/os. Specially my kids and fankids-
#pan rambles#It mainly started bc I've seen that one rb game where you ask for headcanons of your f/os sexuality/gender#And since most of my kids (Minus Iris) are in their teens or 20s I think they're old enough to experiment with that sorta stuff-afksnfkdnf#And for my fankids... Usually I imagine them as very young (because the thought of them getting older makes me all emotional ;v;)#but I do sometimes imagine what they'd be like when they're older and have my own headcanons for their gender/sexuality#speaking of Fan kids...I need to talk about them more!!!#I have 3 of them! <3#2 of them are my Snow fankids!! <3 I don't have names for those two but I do have a design for them both#They're the cutest and I love them so so much! They're pretty developed actually! I'm just bad with names-afksnfkdn#My other fankid is Soleil! She's my Dimitri fankid! I need to develop her a little more but she's very cool!#Also a heck I just realized...Xander also has a kid...#He's still only a crush but...If Xander becomes an official f/o then I'll have a new son boy!#Afksbfkd Anyways point of this post is that I love my kids (both fankids and official ones) and I'm proud of them all!#And that I should talk about them more often
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nuzzles my face against my baby ryan đĽşđ
#f/o:đwhat a fool believesđ¸#tape entry circa 1980#SILLAY MODE ENGAGED#FACE OF A MAN WHO HAS JUST PISSED OFF MIN HFDJS#OOOO my baby ;w;#i miss him so so fucking much i like. literally had a breakdown abt how much i missed him a couple days ago ghdfjk#full on sobbing abt how much i love and miss him and need him here holding me#i really want to be vulnerable w him and wrap my arms around him as bury my face in the crook of his neck#oh god id do anything to hear him... i want to hear his beautiful wonderful angelic voice... IM TEARING UP AGAIN#everything about him... its so wonderful... him and my min-gi own my entire heart#id do anything for them... i love them...#thinking of ryans voice makes me tear up from how much i love and miss him...#i want to hear him tell me how talented i am and he knows ill be able to do all the things id like and be something great#that he knows im destined to be a rockstar and we all will get to be rockstars together :'-]#i want him to play w my hair while he talks to me and runs his other hand over my body caressing me#id like to hear him sing to meee#maybe we'll put on a record or just listen to a tape and sing the songs together#id also like for us to play some guitar together :-]#ive been making progressing again on this song last night that i had to put off w stuff + surgery#and i feel like ryan would be proud of me :'-]#but just auh my heart is so full i just love my baby more than there are stars in the sky type of thing#i want to take in his scent and be comforted by it and his presence and how im being held against him#holding his pretty face in my hands and looking into his beautiful dark brown eyes#smoothing out his hair and tucking any loose strands behind his ear#kiss his pretty hands... just all over just hold it to my face as i keep planting little kisses all over#on his finger tips where his callouses from playing guitar are eheh#anyways aouh ( blasts thunder road by bruce springsteen while thinking of ryan and me )
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