#eycelue

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inspired by your one "elder brother luffy" thing

HOLY SHIT THIS IS PERFECT THANK YOU

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(delete if makes you uncomfortable) hello!! i read your acelu answer (?) where you talked about ace and/or luffy being infertile and its amazingly good angst but. imagine luffy winding up pregnant, and then the sudden shock and horror when he winds up miscarrying. just. them suddenly finding out while theyre both doing a normal activity for one another like hunting, and luffy dropping to his knees all confused. ace holding his dear brother close, terrified because "why is he bleeding?? he didn't get bit or clawed at!!! what's wrong???" and being unable to hold back tears and screams as he tries to carry his poor panicking and in pain brother to the treehouse.

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Goddd this is so devastating though?? Especially if they didn't even KNOW that Luffy was pregnant, so there's that brief moment of absolute joy at the news. . . and then reality slams into them.

Luffy usually bounces back (heh, because he's rubber!) from things so easily, nothing ever gets him down, but this. . . Losing Sabo was devastating, but now that grief and pain is coming from his own body and he doesn't even really know why. Bonus points if the miscarriage happened because he wasn't eating properly (because they live in the jungle) or because he was hit a few too many times during a fight (because they live in the jungle) or because he's just stressed in general (because they live in the jungle) so then they both have to deal with the guilt of "causing" the miscarriage.

Ace never gets over it. He had seen Luffy injured before, but never like that and he has nightmares for months of Luffy covered in his own blood and bleeding out on the forest floor. He buries his grief and fear though because, for once, Luffy is the one who needs comfort and support. He still blames himself though.

It takes them both a long time to recover emotionally. The joy that Luffy could get pregnant in the first place, that they could start a family together, gets overshadowed by the traumatizing experience and the fear keeps them from trying again for a good, long while, first with Ace refusing to even touch Luffy, then with them using the strongest birth control available in their village.

And when Luffy finally does get pregnant again, it doesn't matter if the pregnancy itself goes totally fine, they're both still stressed and scared the whole time and Ace 100% has a panic attack during the birth. He didn't know there would be so much blood.