#extremely stupid doodle . i dont want to do my homework

[g1ngerbeer]

i have studied this guy like a bug

[burningalight]

my binders/locker in grade school were stuffed with so much shit i couldnt find anything...always crumpled up papers, trash etc

chewed pencils/pens, broke them taking them apart in class, lost them, often didn’t have one, frequently borrowing them and forgetting to give them back to the point that certain people wouldn’t give me pencils

could comprehend reading i liked very well, but when we’d have reading groups with boring books id always be lost,  or when the teachers would have one on ones and have u read something short and ask questions after to assess ur reading level, they’d often have to tell me to read it again bc they knew how much i remembered didnt add up to my intelligence and reading speed 

moms college friend gave me an unoffical iq test and i did much worse than i know i shouldve on the reading portion bc she’d play a story and then ask me after to list every detail i could remember and i couldn’t remember anything. but when she played 10 numbers and asked me to say them out loud backwards i scored extremely high ?

couldnt do projects, would be in tears, last minute every time, parents mad bc i need a poster board RIGHT NOW ITS DUE TOMORROW . hated assigned reading, horrible at essays even when they helped us plan them. 

i remember my 7th grade social studies teacher assigning a paper, i wrote extremely detailed and well in the first paragraph or 2, and the following ones got shorter and shorter and were completely bullshit bc i got bored. she told me ‘really strong first paragraph.’ and gave me a B  

talk too got damn fast. customers constantly telling me to slow down bc they cant understand me

my mom always says she had to challenge me as a kid bc i would get bored and get in trouble. i was acting out bc i was understimulated, i happened to like learning (esp numbers and puzzles) bc smart so that’s what i could fixate on and felt stimulated by

lunch detention frequently in 8th grade in my first highschool class, algebra, bc i wouldnt do my homework, at one point he just stopped giving lunch detention for that bc i wouldnt do it. i hated that class bc the math was boring and i never paid attention but would somehow pull off a’s and b’s on tests so i ended up with a B. my first B, and i had brought that up from a D (told my mom it was almost a C, he gave a really hard test and we all did bad etc, when she had to sign a paper about my low grade) at the end of the year, during the exam i was so confused the whole time, it was my first highschool exam and i didn’t know ANYTHING. i ended up with a 92 from guessing, and a curve, and every one of my friends got at least a 93 or better and i felt so stupid bc i was supposed to be the best at math

i would take every highschool class in honors but not one english class bc it required more essays and summer reading and i knew i wouldnt do the reading and would cry over the essays

the only other class i didnt take honors was chemistry bc i knew the honors teacher had a lot of projects and i would be stressing over them. i ended up with an A in the standard chem class even tho i never finished any work in class and didnt do homework, but i was still the smartest in the class and did the best overall

lunch detention for forgetting to get papers signed like report cards. they weren’t even bad grades i just couldnt remember. one time i got actual detention for forging my moms signature bc i got lunch detention for several days straight bc i kept forgetting to get the paper signed 

often had permission slips waiting to be signed the day before the field trip, or told my mom it was picture day the day before or morning of. one time i totally forgot it was picture day and didnt dress up

acting out and not thinking ab the consequences, many referrals.. many more times that my teachers let me get away with acting out when someone else doing the same thing would’ve been punished. one time anna and i left in the middle of class to go with emma to the library, only emma had permission, and my teacher had anna and i do wall sits instead of going to the office. in gym in middle school i would never dress out. i hated the clothes and hated gym bc i was awkward and if we didnt dress out we had to copy pages out of the health textbook the entire time and i would barely write 2 paragraphs bc i was so bored and my hand hurt and he never did anything ab it. i wouldnt dress out at least twice per week if not more. told my mom I had a C bc he had it out for me but i was the problem

in elementary school if we didn’t come to gym day wearing the right shoes we had to go into the back and pick out a pair of sneakers that fit out of a box of shoes, and also borrow socks if necessary. i had to do this frequently bc i never remembered to wear the right shoes

i would extremely often forget my library books and have to sit on the couch waiting for everyone to pick out their books for half an hour

when we were even younger we’d have story time and you had to sit in the middle of the floor inside a big circle of chairs where everyone else was if you forgot your library books. i lost one at one point for months and my parents didnt just pay for it so i had to sit in the middle every time. we found the book on a shelf somewhere in the house 

my chorus teacher never liked me bc i talked too much and i always felt like the worst singer, not bc of my singing but bc she wasn’t ever nice to me

in 7th grade science we learned latin root words and every day we’d play a game where we all stood up and one by one he’d ask for a root and we’d give it. if you got it wrong on the first round you’d have to write it on a piece of paper x amount of times and turn it in. if you were the last person left you were allowed to sit on your desk for the rest of the year, during these games while everyone else had to stand up. i wanted so badly to sit on my desk, esp bc i was fidgety and couldnt stand still, but i would never study them bc i’d forget or not want to if i did remember, even tho i really wanted to know them and sit on my desk. that teacher had a huge soft spot for me and one day i just started sitting on my desk during those. everyone knew i was smart, and it was all the smart kids who got to sit on their desks, so no one questioned it. im not sure if he knew i wasnt supposed to and just let me, or didnt realize i hadnt won bc i was smart. 

hyperlexia? mom said i could practically read before i was taught. i’ve always obsessively air written, ie writing words out w my finger in the air, on my leg etc. 

esp during lectures i doodle excessively to the point that my papers margins have always been covered with random scribbly overlapped words, or song lyrics. the words are usually something someone in the class said. ive started keeping an extra sheet of paper just for scribbling when im taking notes or listening in class. when we finished end of year tests in school i would write down full lyrics to songs on my scrap paper so i wouldnt be so bored. my hand cramps up so much but it was better than staring or trying to sleep with the lights on 

doing things and forgetting to turn them in

hyperfixating on books to cope w boredom and social anxiety, at one point read one per day, i was definitely one of the most frequent people in the library 

‘ The way I see it is if I can get information into my mind, I can do a lot with it but getting it in there in the first place is the really difficult part.’ - not mine

none of my teachers ever told my mom any of this i dont think, bc i was the smartest and i always got good grades, most had a soft spot for me BUT COULDNT SEE I HAD ADHD like damn. one time my fourth grade teacher whom i liked a lot was mad at us and indirectly calling people out, and referred to the fact that some of us never stopped talking , then made direct eye contact with me and i felt rly embarrassed bc i didnt realize i did that until she mentioned it

i often had to move seats if i was near friends bc i wouldnt stop instigating talking

at big lots when i had to run the register i was so painfully bored , fidgety, had to sneak my phone soo much bc i was so bored. when i was on the floor i would put away the go backs very quickly and then take upon myself a project like going through the entire wall of individual drinks and pulling out all the expired ones, it was like 5 carts full. my manager put me in charge of organizing the entire makeup section and all the gross clearance makeup bc she knew id do it the best and fastest 

when bosses have me do inventory i can count the products super fast and efficiently, but then when they have me put them into a spreadsheet i stare at it for hours getting nothing done bc distracted and its boring. ammar told me if i’d just get off my phone i could get it done bc he’d been asking for it for weeks, i wasnt trying to ignore it 

when im trying to do something at work that needs more concentration, i want to cry with frustration whenever i hear the door chime and have to get up and help customers and break my focus

[wambsgansroy]

On a scale of 1 to 10, how much would U hate me if I said all of them ? :-))

you are SO lucky i have no homework due tomorrow

EDIT this took me so goddamn long i hate u

1. When did you both get together?

september 16th 2016 !

2. Who made the first move?

you did ! she told me she liked me ha

3. How long have you been a couple?

13 months

4. How did you first meet?

this freaking website sjhfdag

5. Were you already close friends before going out as a couple?

yes :”)

6. Are you/Were you ever in the same class at school?

no

7. Are you long-distance?

yea :(

8. Are you in an open, regular or committed relationship?

idk what ‘regular’ means but we are so exclusive it’s embarrassing

9. Do you live together?

not yet

10. Are you engaged? If yes, describe your proposal. If no, what ring would you like?

no but i wanna engrave things on our rings for each other (her idea)

11. Are you married? If yes, describe your wedding. If no, would you consider marriage?

not yet

12. Which one of you is older? What is the age difference?

she’s 2 years older

13. Which one of you is taller? What is the height difference?

HA i’m like 3 inches taller

14. Do you share any of the same hobbies/interests/passions?

yea we are both interested in politics/arts/animals and we like a lot of the same shows and movies and music

15. What fictional couples would you compare yourselves to?

uhhhhh this is a hard one i’m gonna go with the falsettos lesbians

16. Sum up your relationship in 6 words or less.

perfect wonderful safe happy healthy magical

17. Doodle a little picture of you both as a couple.

lmao i was doing this yesterday here we are with our future dog named jesse

18. Describe your relationship using only emoticons.

i’m on my laptop but all the smiling and heart ones19. Share a cute photo of you both together.

ATTRACTION20. Top 5 fav things about your partner.

her intelligence

her sense of humor

her kindness and patience

how she always makes me feel better even when im in the worst mood

how she always gives me good advice

21. Your partner’s top 5 fav things about you.

i believe shes said my writing ? yikes

my sense of humor on occasion

my taste in women obviously

my extremely outspoken opinions

all my many talents (sike)

22. What physical traits do you find most attractive about your partner?

her eyes / eyeliner

her hair

her body

her skin is so soft and nice

her hands are also soft and she’s good with them if u know what i mean

23. What physical traits does your partner find most attractive about you?

hair

eyes 

mmmm eyelashes

***** lmao

hands probably

24. What personality traits do you find most attractive about your partner?

oh man i just listed it but she’s literally the kindest most generous most patient person ever

25. What personality traits does your partner find most attractive about you?

i’m literally awful but she’s said my humore

26. Do you hold hands in public? Any other public displays of affection?

yea we kiss and hug in public lmao

27. List your top 3 turn-ons about your partner.

the fact that she’s a top and d*minant

when she kisses my neck

when we make out esp in the shower

28. List your partner’s top 3 turn-ons about you.

straight from her ladies and gays

apparently my sex noises

the fact that i trust her (i completely do)

my lips n kissing :)

29. How would you seduce your partner? How would they seduce you?

we do a fair bit of sexting and when we’re together we make out or have sex in the bath or bed slakhsjkg this is nsfw

30. Innocently or not, where do you like your partner to touch you?

EVERYWHERE

31. Describe your partner’s eyes.

beautiful and so full of light and so expressive and looking in them makes me feel safe and at home

32. Describe your partner’s hair.

very soft and silky and nice to touch

33. Describe your partner’s smile.

literally the most beautiful thing ive ever seen. landscapes and sunsets dont have shit on her

34. What is your partner’s voice like?

just very soothing and warm

35. What is your partner’s scent like?

like her vanilla (i think) perfume and v warm shgjkhg

36. How does your partner impress you? How do you impress them?

shes SO SMART and she wont admit it but shes so good at art and she’s just so strong and i impress her by sending her writing that then gets her in trouble at school and by performing

37. What outfit would you like to see your partner in? What would they like to see you wear?

she likes this sheer black shirt i have and when i wear her sweatshirts and i think she looks gorgeous in anything pink and in my clothes

38. Show your fav picture of your partner that they’ve posted online.

have you ever in your life seen such an ethereal gorgeous goddess i dont think so

ROMANCE39. Do you have cute pet names for each other?

baby, babe, love, angel, princess, wife, etc

40. What’s one of your favourite memories as a couple?

the most recent one i have is us laying in my bed post sex watching breaking bad and her falling asleep in my arms and just feeling so full and safe and happy and like i could stay in that moment forever

41. Describe your favourite date so far?

oh god SO MANY but when we went to see dear evan hansen in july that was pretty spectacular

42. What’s the sweetest thing that your partner’s ever done for you?

everything but for our anniversary she made me a whole book of reasons she loves me and it’s my favorite gift in the whole world

43. Do either of you get jealous?

we both do to a healthy degree

44. Is one of you protective of the other?

we both are in different ways

45. How do you both like to kiss?

we like to make out :’) but we kiss a lot casually like waking up or to say thank you :’’)

46. How do you both like to cuddle?

i’m usually the little spoon

47. What’s a gift that you’ve given to your partner? And one they’ve given to you?she gave me this aforementioned book and I gave her a necklace I think she really likes also once a scrapbook

48. Are you an openly mushy couple or a reserved couple?

mushy jshgjfgagf

49. Does one of you like to cook for the other?

we literally just go out everywhere but i’m a better cook lmao

50. Do you have unique ringtones/images for each other on your phones?

we have lots of emojis by our names and cute icons for each other

51. Have you ever had your initials written on a tree or in the sand?52. What’s “your song”?

ilysb by lany

53. Do you own any items that are a special symbol of your relationship?

we have promise rings and matching necklaces ! and i have a locket from her and she has a necklace from me

54. What did you both do for Valentine’s Day?

she got me flowers and a bracelet and i got her a bathbomb and chocolates i think :’)

55. Do you express your love lavishly or discreetly?

both !

56. What’s the funniest thing you can remember your partner doing?

when she asked me to prom she gave me a stuffed whale and when i squeezed it it said ‘whale you go to prom with me’ and i died

57. Does thinking about your partner still give you butterflies?

yes she’s all i think about in school

58. What’s the weirdest part of your relationship? Idkkk I think we can be very weird and comfortable with each other and I love that

BEING TOGETHER59. Fav things to do together on a rainy day?

go to a coffee shop and talk

60. Fav things to do together on a sunny day?

go out walk around get coffee go swimming if we can !

61. Got any plans together for next week?

no :( just facetiming i wont see her till november :(

62. What’s your favourite thing to share together?

a bathtub

63. What did you do for your partner’s latest birthday? What did they do for yours?

her birthday is in a month and i’m pretty happy about my gift for her and for my bir

64. Where would you like to go on holiday together?

paris !!

65. You have a whole weekend to yourselves and 500 in cash- what do you do?

oh man we’d probably go somewhere uhh with 500 probably just somewhere in america maybe cali and get a hotel and lots of coffee and walk around

66. How would you comfort your partner on a bad day? How would they comfort you?

the other day i burst into tears and she was so helpful and let me be stupid and just hugged me :( and i try to do the same for her even though i give shit advice

67. Where would you both get takeout together?

pizza probably

68. What’s the longest time you’ve been apart?

2 months

69. What things remind you of your partner? What things remind them of you?

ahs, cats, psychology, eyeliner, red hair remind me of her, brba, game of thrones, broadway reminds her of me

70. Has your relationship changed at all since it first started?

we’ve definitely built so much trust and grown together and changed opinions and stuff

71. Have you ever worked on a project together?

uhhh not that i can think

72. Have you both influenced each other in any way?

yes

73. Have either of you made sacrifices for this relationship?

hm not anything huge idt

74. Has you discovered anything surprising about your partner?

sure she surprises me all the time

75. How have you both made a positive impact on each other’s lives?

she’s made me so happy and made me want to be a better person and helped me figure out what i want/who i want to be and i think i’ve encouraged her and made her happy :)

76. What do you both mutually agree is the most important part of your relationship?

trust and love

EVERYDAY LIFE77. What are the everyday things you both do to show you care about each other?

we tex gm and gn, we buy each other food and stuff when we’re together, we always check in on each other

78. Do you follow each other’s blogs/twitter/instagram?

duh

79. Is there a favourite place that you both frequently go to together?

any coffee shop esp one in my neighborhood called gather

80. What TV shows do you like to watch together?

breaking bad, the office, american horror story, and i recently made her start glee bc she isn’t a real lesbian

81. How do you relax together?

cuddling and listening to music or watching tv

82. What sleep positions do you tend to sleep together in?

spooning with her as the big spoon

83. Do you borrow each other’s clothes or other items?

yessss

84. Do you ever share the bathroom together?

yea lmao

85. How do you both keep in touch when you’re away from each other?

text, skype, ft, calling, rabb.it

86. Do you share secrets between each other?

yea she knows everything about me

87. Do you rotate house chores or do you each have assigned chore duties?

we dont live together yet but we both do all stuff lmao

88. Do you remember how your partner takes their coffee/tea/bar drinks?

iced coffee w/ cream and sugar or iced chai latte

89. What does your partner think of your Tumblr?

shes my biggest fan :’)

90. What characters do you play as together when playing multiplayer games?

uh we aint gamers

COMPATABILITY91. Are you both introverted/extroverted or opposites?

i’m a little more extroverted

92. Who is the more dominant/submissive one?

alexis is more dominant fjhsadhfjsg

93. What are some major differences between you both?

i have a shorter temper than her skfhjadgs

94. When are you both “in your element” together?

when we’re chilling in a park or in bed just cuddling and talking wow gay

95. Who would win in an arm-wrestling contest?

ALEXIS WE DID THIS ONCE AND IT WASNT EVEN A CONTEST

96. What are each of your zodiac signs and how do they compare?

pisces and scorpio and we are v compatible

97. What are each of your MBTI types and how do they compare?

ngl i dont know either of ours

98. What are each of your Hogwarts houses and how do they compare?

i’m a ravenclaw and alexis is slytherin and i think it works out great

99. If you were both in a dating sim, what character tropes would each of you be?

i’ve never played sims

100. If you were both animals what would you be? Would you be the same animal?

we’d be cats i think

101. How does your partner’s wardrobe differ from yours?

you wear more tee shirts then me probably i wear more sweaters and button downs

102. Have you ever both said something at the exact same time?

yeah but not anything like groundbreaking ha

103. Rate your relationship on a scale of basic vanilla (1) to extremely kinky (10)

6-7 sometimes less depending on the mood shkfjadsjf

104. Mix your fav colour with your partner’s fav colour- what is the result?

peach :’)

105. If you were both ingredients, what would each of you be and what would be the resulting recipe? (e.g. PB & jelly sandwich)

we’d be fruit in a smoothie i’d be raspberry and she’d be strawberry

106. Which of you would win in a Pokemon battle? Assign yourself and your partner a fitting Pokemon type (e.g. water, grass, poison etc). Are either of you super effective against the other?

i literally could not tell you one (1) pokemon

CONFLICT107. What happens when you argue with each other? How do you both make up?

ok we really dont argue a lot but when we do we just talk about what’s happening that we’re upset about and we talk and process and explain it lmao gay

108. What’s something that your partner does that annoys you? How do you annoy them?

ummm she doesn’t have a lot of traits that like genuinely annoy me idk how to answer this

109. What are some imperfections that you love about your partner?

?? you are perfect idk you can occasionally procrastinate but same

110. What are some imperfections that your partner loves about you?

i get v aggressive and defensive very fast

111. Has your partner ever accidentally hurt you? Have you accidentally hurt them?112. Is there anything about you that your partner just doesn’t understand?

probably why i get so mad at ppl who aren’t her so easily skdlgjajg

113. Is there anything about your partner that you just don’t understand?

how she’s so patient and forgiving lmao

114. When was the last time you cried about your relationship and why?

yesterday bc i missed her

115. What is something you love that your partner hates?

dark chocolate

116. What is something you hate that your partner loves?

most horror movies

117. When was the last time you had to apologise to your partner and why?

i dont really remember the last major thing honestly

118. Do either of you get too clingy?

we are both clingy and we love it

119. Do you have any insecurities about your relationship?

i mean shes like. out of my league but i trust alexis a lot so not really

120. When was a time that your relationship was put to the test?

idk distance is always a test i guess we’ve never had any major (or minor) threats of a breakup

121. What would your partner have to do to make you end the relationship?

i love her pretty unconditionally

RELATIONS122. Does your family approve of your relationship?

yea my parents love her

123. What do your friends think of your relationship?

my friends love alexis

124. How do you both act together around others as opposed to when you’re alone together?

we talk a lot of shit when we’re alone sdjkbfhdjga but honestly it’s a lot of pda either way

126. Do you think you and your partner look similar to each other?

i don’t esp since i cut my hair

127. How does your partner treat you special compared to everyone else in their life?

she buys me cute gifts and i think you tell me more than most people ? also you give me or*asms :)

128. Do you both have a mutual friend group, or only separate friendship groups?

mostly separate friends bc long distance but we’re friends with each other’s friends

129. What’s a common misconception about your relationship?

i think people sometimes think it’s less serious than it is bc long distance lmao sike

130. Has your relationship affected any of your relations with others?

not really

131. Has anyone tried to sabotage your relationship?

no sdkfjhdkjf

132. Quote something somebody has said about your relationship.

“i wanna find someone who loves me like you love alexis”

133. Quote something somebody has said about your partner.

a random girl in my school hallway: “your gf is so pretty!” me: ik

FUTURE134. What do you hope for the future of your relationship?

we’re gonna stop being long distance in less than 2 years, then we’ll move in together and probably get married after college asjkdhfajdgs ahh

135. If you both got married, what would you want your wedding to be like?

classy but small with our close friends and outdoors with live music

136. Can you imagine what your ideal home would look like?

ideally a big penthouse looking over central park with lots of windows and a big bed and a clawfoot tub

137. Do you have kids/want to have kids? What would they be like?

we’re gonna adopt one daughter name undecided she’s gonna be happy

138. If you could do anything for your partner what would you do?

i’d make it so that you never had to feel sad of stressed again and i’d pay your college funds and i’d buy us a house

139. Do you think you’ll still be together when you’re old and wrinkly?

i know it

140. Got any relationship advice?

hmmmm trust your partner. communicate and tell them about things we do that a lot and it’s one of my favprite things about us