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What’s the Janeys/Brakul death scenario?
So like upon review I mostly just was going to kill them off for Couya + Faiza + Hibrides’ character development (#FEMINIST WIN!!!!!!!).
The background situation of their death scenario is something that will happen either way:
Throughout the story, the pilgrimage requests tribute from the towns it passes through (mainly food and other supplies). This is a common practice for pilgrimages and the travels of royalty, and Imperial Wardi civilians are used to the concept (just not so much during a famine). Some people give fully willingly (a lot of people believe in the pilgrimage's goals/and or the necessity to keep its high status participants fed), most are at least partly coerced (usually not via direct threats, but the pilgrimage contains a couple hundred soldiers, the Usoma, and Odonii leadership. The threat is implied), some are Fully coerced via threats.
In the latter third of the story things are not going well. There’s been a lot of internal struggles among the soldiers and dissatisfaction with pilgrimage leadership (mostly Stavis), men are starting to defect and a large body are getting outright mutinous. The group has also lost much of their food supplies and things are getting desperate (they've been starting to eat their own pack khait and oxen)
With this going on, the pilgrimage sends three soldiers to exact tribute from a farming village in the province Lobera. They meet a group of men acting as representatives for the village, who flat out refuse to give tribute. Things escalate into an outright fight, the soldiers are better armed but few in number and are killed.
One of the village elders finds out that this happens and panics, knowing that the men who killed three of the Usoma’s soldiers (one of which is her son) have signed their own death sentences, and possibly that of others. She attempts to persuade the families to preemptively flee, and then takes the village's one remaining skinny old plow ox to carry the bodies of the dead soldiers back to where the pilgrimage is camped. She supplicates herself before Stavis Amanti and begs for mercy, saying they don't even have enough food stored to feed themselves, much less to give, and that the men thus considered the killings righteous self defense. She shows that she’s returned the bodies for rites as an act of goodwill, and offers the ox in tribute, the most valuable thing she can provide. She begs that the Usoma accepts this as tribute and spares the men's lives, and that the pilgrimage moves on without taking anything else.
Stavis bids her safe passage away from the camp (without confirming or denying that he's accepted her plea), and the heads of pilgrimage confer on what to do. The killing of the soldiers is a violation punishable by death, but this would be like, a notably bad PR move. Meanwhile a contingent of soldiers (including some major side characters I haven’t introduced) break off and lead a raid on the village to avenge their fallen brothers and loot supplies. Others get drawn into the fighting, and it devolves into a full on massacre.
A couple families had fled at the elder’s suggestion, but most refused to leave their homes. Some of the villagers believed they would be left unharmed if the killers were given up, others had been preparing for a reprisal and armed themselves with everything available. But they have few actual weapons and none are trained combatants. All of the remaining men and adolescent boys get killed, one woman manages to take out a soldier using a shovel but is killed, most of the other women and girls are spared murder but several are assaulted. The village is looted for supplies and kindling for funeral pyres.
Stavis Amanti has no fucking idea what to do. The soldiers defied orders and killed Imperial Wardi civilians, but the current climate amid the pilgrimage would make it EXTREMELY Bad for him if he demanded their punishment (but also potentially very bad if he didn't- not all the soldiers participated in the massacre and many were horrified). Faiza encourages him to exert authority in a measured response by having the ringleader of the mutineers killed but sparing the rest, and offers to publicly back him in hopes of avoiding full on mutiny.
The raid reveals that the villagers had been hiding more grain than they claimed they had (as in like, enough to feed their people on starvation level rations for a few weeks). Stavis takes this as an opportunity to justify not punishing the mutineers (as the villagers DID technically have something to give, and execution IS technically the punishment for refusing the order of tribute (though not execution of the entire community)), but insists that their Galenii bless the village dead and their men build pyres for the civilians as is honorable conduct. (This attempt to make amends is not particularly appreciated by the survivors.)
The pilgrimage holds a funeral for their own dead soldiers. The village ox that was given in tribute is killed and butchered for the funerary feast.
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In the Bury Your Gays route, Brakul is one of the three that gets killed during the tribute extraction. Janeys loses his fucking mind when his body is brought back, and tries to slit his own throat on the spot. Couya stops him by wrestling him to the ground while Janeys screams threats at her and the old woman in a very pathetic public spectacle. He is deprived of all sharp objects.
While the pilgrimage leaders are conferring, he hovers miserably around Hibrides (who is also not feeling so great about all this). He's suddenly very interested in her pregnancy for the first time ever, asks to feel the baby (which has been just starting to kick). She's like "fuck off", but he strongly implies he's planning to commit suicide asap and she concedes and then is like Okay I Let You Feel The Goddamn Baby Now Leave Me Alone Holy FUCK.
Janeys turns his attention to fucking murdering anyone tangentially involved in this happening. He’s among the initial raid party, plays a major hand in it turning from its ostensible 'find and execute the ones responsible, subdue the rest, steal their food' directive to a full massacre by directing his men to immediately attack the first man he sees. He and his group capture three young men as prisoners and demand that they be slain at the soldier's funerals as is wartime custom (this isn't wartime). Janeys additionally demands that he should get to do it, as the only kin of any of the dead men. Once that's done he immediately cuts his own throat and bleeds out. They wind up getting cremated at the same time so things work out how Janeys wanted it.
At one point I realized that this is kind of just The Iliad?
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So like obviously whether they die here or not has little impact on THESE events, but a lot of the endgame revolves around Couya Faiza and Hibrides and these deaths would be very significant to THEM in varying capacities. It affects the trajectory of the final stretch of their arcs and adds a lot of layers to the ultimate Couya/Faiza conflict. I also liked their deaths being kind of random and shitty and meaningless because that in of itself is kinda ~thematically resonant~ with the story. (A lot of tension between the lack of intrinsic meaning to events and the profound levels of meaning ascribed to them).
I'm almost definitely not going with this version of events though. Janeys and Brakul don't have much active involvement in the endgame and don't Really need to be alive for it as it stands, but I think the version where every main character (except Faiza she's doomed) survives to see What Has Been Wrought and living to experience the fallout ultimately works better.
#In retrospect probably not clear enough that the baby feeling demadn is 'I am planning to die imminently you will never have#to deal with me again can I FUCKING feel signs of life from my dead boyfriend's bastard fetus currently in your body before I do'#and not 'let me feel the baby or I kms'. With the latter Hibrides would be like 'Okay Then Die' instead of 'FINE go ahead and then die'#The current scenario might involve the tribute extraction party Not all dying but rather one being killed and the other two being#badly wounded and taken hostage (with the realization of what the consequences of the first killing will entail- as a desperate#attempt to stand off against the pilgrimage and bargain for their safe release)#So the character involvement can stay Similar without ending in death and the fallout of these events will get messy in different ways#The massacre is also the straw that breaks the camel's back that leads to the province of Lobera declaring itself an independent#city-state and seceding from Imperial Wardin so like the pilgrimage spends the final third mostly traversing through outright#hostile territory it's great stuff for them.#A massacre like this happening is pretty much standard for wartime sackings and would not be questioned much if committed#against a declared enemy but this was inflicted on Imperial Wardi civilians which is a big fucking deal
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Happy Gnome's End !
#Unironically the hardest part of this was putting the WRTV logo on there I jumped thru so many hoops to finally extract it from some website#cringe art for my fail blog#half life alyx but the gnome is alive#hlage#wayneradiotv
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You can will one into existence, choose: A Girls' Last Tour movie finished up the last few chapters or a single cour of a Shimeji Simulation anime.
I can act like this is a hard choice and go over it in my head again and again but at the end of the day it was always gonna be the single cour of Shimeji Simulation Anime
#girls last tour#shimeji simulation#tsukumizu#the glt anime ended at a good stopping point that you can basically extract all the themes from#a movie of the last few chapter would just be depressing for a lot of people#especially since a movie would feel disconnect from the rest of the anime which again ended at a good point#i call this the Rebellion effect#and just like Rebellion it wouldn't even be a bad movie it would just leave a bad taste in my mouth#all that is irrelevant to the fact I am just really biased towards Shimeji Sim#and assuming the anime is done well and doesn't get the Otherside Picnic treatment#i.e. they don't have the budget or creativity to animate the more mind-bending and atmospheric moment#and end up filling it in with a bunch of mild stuff that doesn't at all fit the tone and theming of the source material#assuming THAT doesn't happen I would give my life for a ShimSim anime
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after telling my dad that johnny silverhand was honestly most of the reason im playing cyberpunk he told me i should watch johnny mnemonic. i heard of it before but it came out like 7 years before i was born so i didn't see it or know like literally anything about it. so i watched the trailer and wow
#i still haven't seen the movie yet but at least aesthetically speaking it's VERY similar to cyberpunk#i didn't even mention in the post but movie johnny is racing to get the data extracted from his head before it kills him like hello???#cyberpunk 2077#johnny silverhand#johnny mnemonic#keanu reeves#repost because tumblr has me fighting for my life trying not to get my post hidden from tags#my nonsense
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with that new revelation in ii2 e16, i feel like there's... a lot less to know about the world of ii. at least, not to know for sure.
because, before then, you could extract some information from passing comments. remember the french or whatever pizza delivery guy who tried to pass as italian, but spoke spanish instead? from that, you could determine that 1. france, spain, and italy are places that exist and 2. if those countries exist, why not all the countries in the world?
but. but, according to what cobs said at least, mephone4 seems to have made everything. he made the weird looking grass. if he made that, then why not anything else? did that guy exist before he came onto the show? probably not! and if he was made that day, was the concept of "france," "spain," and "italy" made that day too?
there's no way for us to know what the normal world of ii looks like. do they have parallel countries to us? well, we know their continents aren't parallel. it follows that their countries wouldn't be, either. who knows what their history is like? how the normal objects are like? will we know?
#wheucto#wheucto speaks#do i maintag this#i'll go with no for now#ii spoilers#ii 16 spoilers#for what it's worth_ the parallel countries thing is probably still accurate_ at least in my opinion#it was the only thing i remembered that i extracted from the world of ii that fit with this idea#i haven't rewatched much of ii so i don't have/don't know anything else that could be extracted from ii#but anyways_ parallel countries are probably real bc mephone has an audience_ right? i think. actually that's debatable BUT!#if mephone has a real life audience_ then it would make sense that the countries that the characters referenced would also exist in real -#- life_ bc if they referenced some made-up country_ then the audience would notice#also i now just wonder what the normal objects of this universe even are like.#what's their culture? how does being objects affect their society? what's possible for them? do they follow our normal reality rules?#are they even objects? they all could be humans except cobs specifically for all we know#that should be an au. in fact it was an au i've thought of before#well i think it was kind of different actually but it's pretty close.#ALSO at some point mephone's back cover - which as a part of mephone_ is unlikely to be created by him - has referenced NY before#specifically in ii13 i think. it says something about being manufactured in NY or NYC#so_ new york exists. which does imply america exists_ and therefore implies II has parallel countries#but that's not necessarily the case#i love extracting worldbuilding!!! mmm delicious
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extract from my journal #??
I think if [my parents] had another child, that child would've had a better relationship with them. I think my parents would've learned from the mistakes they made with me, and I think that hypothetical sibling of mine would grow up looking at me and know what not to be. I think if I was my own older sister I would look at myself and see exactly what not to be.
#extract from my journal#journal excerpt#life#writing#reality#excerpts#journalling#diary entry#my journal#diary#journal entry#journaling#journal#mommy issues#daddy issues#parent issues#depressing stuff
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#holidays#Corfu#Greece#cats#about me#real life this time#my photos#hi I'd been gone from Tumblr for the last three weeks!#probably no-one noticed because my social self-esteem is that high#one of those weeks was spent on Corfu with my sister and her daughters#the other one was full of anxiety about my old cat#who had all her teeth extracted and then wouldn't eat at all for two days#she's getting better now - eating and back to her loud self#only truly Toothless now - I used to call her that because she's black and has green eyes#now it's more true than ever#Youtube
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You known when you have a thought but it's not well developed enough to put out there in a post? Mutuals I'm suffering of hrkg brain rot (AGAIN??!?!!) so if I end at any of your dm's bear with me because I need peer review before sharing said thought.
#someone help me#I shouldn't be this affected by their story#but Harusono laced it with extracts from my own life so now I'm done for#to be a hrkg fan is to hate them and love them ig
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Replayed Modern Warfare 3 2011 on Veteran tonight and goooooooood night. Blood Brothers never gets any easier to watch no matter how many times you've done it and the ending really never misses huh
I apologize for the amount of yapping in the tags I reread it all on mobile and started giggling because it went on for so long but eh. Blessed are those who won't shut the freak up and all that
#call of duty#modern warfare 3 2011#i just. wow. wow wow wow wow wow#i've played these three games so many times over the last several years and i just.#they literally. never get old.#loose ends and blood brothers will never not make me cry and endgame and dust to dust will never not make me smile so hard#ending it with price smoking the cigar like he did in the first mission in the first game wHEN HE FIRST MET SOAP JUST UGHHHHHH.#i know y'all don't care but i don't care that y'all don't care i could literally yap about this until i shrivel up and die#i have never ever ever in my LIFE seen poetic justice played out so beautifully like it is at the very end#JUST. WOW. WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW. WOW WOW. WOW#they do not frickin make games like that anymore DADGUM#i also forgot how frickin sad down the rabbit hole is?? like jeez louise they didn't have much screen time but gosh#i also have never in my life heard such gut-wrenching anguish from a grown man in my life like price in that one scene#I KNOW Y'ALL KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT THAT MAN MAKES ME FULL ON S O B IN THAT PART HE HAD NO BUSINESS#anyway i'll keep cutely living in denial and pretending literally any of the main characters besides price and nikolai are fine <3#foley and dunn and their team seemed just fine at the end of modern warfare 2 so i will accept that small mercy#at this point these games have taken everything else i love away from me so#y'all probably think i'm wild for how insane i get over these games but the nostalgia bit is a big part of it as well#like they're honestly in my opinion genuinely the greatest video games of all time#but the fact that i have that connection with my dad makes it so special#crazy cause he said he also cried in blood brothers and my dad is 54 and i have seen him cry one (1) other time in my entire life#heck infinity ward but also bless them i hope the devs live long beautiful wonderful prosperous delightful exciting fulfilling lives#Lord bless them and their entire bloodline for the contributions they have made to humanity not even joking#AND DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE FREAKING SOUNDTRACKS DO NOT GO THERE OAUSYDJAKAKDN#MW2 AND MW3 CREDITS. EXTRACTION POINT. COUP DE GRACE. RETREAT AND REVEILLE. CONTINGENCY. PARIS SIEGE. PRAGUE HOSTILITIES. RUSSIAN WARFARE.#UGHHHHHHHGHHHH everything about these games is so unbelievably perfect and immaculate#i have got to get over my art block NOWWWWWWWWWW#makarov is also the best villain i've ever seen idc bro he's frickin awesome#i mean obviously he's horrible and a disgustingly evil human being but as a character he's stupidly well-written
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home freakin run
#scout tf2#its so rough but i could not for the life of me extract lineart from my heavily shaded sketch.#also im sick so i have very limited energy atm but. i will objectify these men thats a threat and a promise#team fortress two#art
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I hated biscuits. Could never stand them. But then one day I bought some to get change for the washing machine and you thought I liked them. So you kept on buying them for me, and I grew to love biscuits. (Via @spilledinkandtears )
He is my love
#spilled ink#spilled words#extracts from a book i'll never write#spilled tears#excerpt from a story i'll never write#i love him#3am thoughts#excerpt from my life#unrequited feelings#spilled thoughts#excerpt from a book i'll never write#poets on tumblr#3 am poetry
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ughhh the stupid fucking tooth is rly stressing me out. i never shouldve moved to fucking washington i wish i could go back in time and hit 18 year old me in the head with a hammer .
#and also 17 year old me. and 16 year old me. and 15 year old me. all of you have a part in this. cunts.#bc i would e hust had the crown done if i didnt get fucking stranded in wa for 10 months. ive just been kicking it with my sanded down toot#sincee. over a year now and i dont think theres any saving it bc i think its got cavities so theyll probably just have to extract it#and then i check online and ill have to also get it replaced with a fske one or my fucking bones will dissolve or whatever (dramatization)#and like. cant lie. the fact i did all that for a guy who Didnt fucking love me. ok. ok. ok. in love connor is not allowed to make decision#ever again bc actually fuck that guy. like. obv for more than just the tooth thing#i was just so stupid . and ik you have to make mistakes to learn from them but this mistake might be rly expensive idk if the state#insurance will actually cover it or if therell be copays I dont have moneyyy i dont have a fucking job. i need to get my stupid ged. STUPID#FUCKING PAST CONNOR DROPPING OUT OF SCHOOL I HATE YOU YOU RUINED MY LIFE. but its wtvr. its fine bc that guys dead and now its me. YIPPEE#a2t#for my tooth stuff#dental tw#idk . i used to have a mut who needed that tagged but idk if theyre still with us. in that ive lost many mutuals in my years so they may be#gone DNRNFJFNJF but jic. if u r here sry i thot you werent.. sry...
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i always end up defaulting to just a couple brushes and characters, but since i made this blog specifically for experimentation. here. a tree made with a bunch of Awez's incredible krita brush bundles. (seriously check them out)
does it make any sense? no! and i don't give a shit! because i'm the vyllayn here and i do what i want!!!!11!
#i don't hate you guys i'm just being evil#and by evil i mean creative#art#artwork#digital art#original art#art study#drawings#my art#foaming at the mouth#also quick note on how sombre it looks#in the coolest way. i could imagine those splotches coming out of the bottom like ghastly hands.#almost reaching out for the next victim of a tragedy that plagues the town this tree resides in#it is not a life sprouting in spite of the misery#but a constant reminder of the days of old....#so mysterious and cool...#that wasn't planned you just watched my train of thought happen in real time#i'm admitedly not a writter nor am i trying to be#but damn someone with the skill could 100% write a cool poem or extract from a novel from that idea#make it happen tumblr#vylayn
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every single tarot (+ other cards i fiddle with online sometimes) reading i do: listen. man. you are literally on the right track. you're doing great and working hard. you're being too hard on yourself and needlessly worry all the time. go easy on yourself, trust yourself, you're gonna be okay
me, every single time: hmm. surely this could mean anything. good thing i'm not spiritual or else this would've given me a needless sense of confidence!
#it's not just the readings it's like everyone in my life too#i heat them i get them. i just. don't internalize any of it. bc it feels like i'm lied to#even tho atp ik i'm not and they're being honest. in which case i just think they're wrong#(like i probably AM on the right path and i KNOW i'm working very hard by my own standards.)#(i just. can't seem to extract any self worth from it ig.)#(a bit worrying bc just earlier today i heard a guy in my theater ensemble talk abt how you *need* a stable self confidence to succeed in -#- this field. ruh roh raggy)
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i have always said that i would never have kids but i was a kid myself and a lot of kids do say that because they can't fathom the thought. i'm 15 now and yes i'm still a kid but i definitely do not ever want to be pregnant nor do i particularly crave kids, but i think if i do i'll adopt. maybe someone around the age of 10 or older because the older the kid the less likely they'll be adopted unfortunately. my mind may change in the future but one thing i know is if i ever do decide to adopt a kid, it won't be out of loneliness or because i'm "supposed to" but rather because i want to nurture a child into an adult and try to give them the means to succeed in life. if i ever adopt, it'll probably be a tad "later" in life than people usually expect. i want do something related to psychology and research. i'll probably end up getting a doctorate or something. if i adopt it'll probably happen during the last years, or after, my education. my parents certainly aren't the worst parents and i know they love me but they have made so many mistakes i know not to make. but they've also showed me a few traits i know creates a better parent. i don't think i will ever end up in a romantic relationship for the rest of my life. i'm not aro-spec (maybe demi idk) but i just don't see myself as the person who will end up with a typical happily ever after with a wife or so. but i still want romance, i know i don't need it though. maybe i'll end up in found family situation, that sounds appealing. the idea of marriage makes me uneasy, not the idea of a long-term romantic relationship but the legalities and the ceremonies and whatnot. maybe my mind will change as i grow and see more examples of married couples that aren't strictly stereotypical heteronormative indian parents. idk what i'm rambling about now but i remember not even a few months ago i couldn't even fathom the idea of being a mother. i am growing and learning more about myself and so my views change. not having kids or having kids, no decision is "better" than the other as long as it's true to your desires and wants and your capabilities. there is nothing i detest more than parents who had children they didn't want to have or didn't have the means to raise. people shouldn't be pressurised to have kids to check this imaginary box of an imaginary list of things that apparently constitute making your life "complete". there was no structure to this but oh well i'm most honest in these kinds of rambles.
#finally starting to stick to my username loll#life#writing#reality#rambles#ramblings#parenting#parents#children#future#future kids#motherhood#mother#parenthood#adoption#adoptive family#adoptive parents#found family#lesbian#wlw#sapphic#aromantic#arospec#demiromantic#extract from my journal#excerpts#journalling#diary entry#diary#my journal
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THE IPOD IS WORKING
I REPEAT
THE IPOD
IS WORKING
#OKAY CONTEXT A FEW MONTHS AGO I BOUGHT AN IPOD CLASSIC‚ THE A1238 MODEL FROM 2007 TO BE EXACT#ON THE FLEA MARKET FOR THREE EUROS#THIS BAD BABY IS CAPABLE OF STORING EIGHTY GIGS OF MUSIC ON IT#TROUBLE IS‚ I WAS IN TOO MUCH SHIT TO GO LOOKING FOR A CABLE I COULD ATTEMPT TO CHARGE IT WITH#(the people at the flea market in my hometown are usually very honest about whether or not a piece of tech is working but i'll always have#my doubts until i see for myself)#TODAY I FINALLY MANAGED TO BRING MYSELF TO GO TO MY FAVORITE TECH STORE AND AFTER SOME DIGGING THEY ACTUALLY FOUND A 30-PIN CABLE#(it took them a while because the younger of the two dudes who were in the shift didn't exactly know what he was looking for. he brought a#package to the older guy and he said ''that's a samsung cable.'' in his defense‚ that cable and the actual 30-pin are incredibly similar in#shape so i don't blame him lmao‚ it was an honest mistake)#and i plugged that bad boy in tonight and NOT ONLY IS IT GIVING SIGNS OF LIFE (CHARGING)‚ IT SENT ME RIGHT TO THE MENU SCREEN AS SOON AS IT#GOT TO A CERTAIN PERCENTAGE!!!!! HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#NOW I FINALLY HAVE THE MOTIVATION TO GO THROUGH MY ENTIRE YOUTUBE DOC AND EXTRACT EVERY SINGLE SONG I'VE LISTENED TO IN THE PAST THREE YEAR#(that's as far as they date the watch history logs‚ sadly - they start deleting them after some point so everything before late 2020 is los#to time‚ but fortunately enough there is PLENTY left!)#CAN I GET A HELLLLLL YEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH BABYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY#logs#I AM IMMEASURABLY HAPPY ABOUT THIS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
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