#extinction as divorce is also a rly fascinating choice i like it … kind of making it more personal and internal

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ok umm um um my au is very self indulgent and im shaking and crying rn scared of sharing it

so !! tma!nastya .. sjhes 25 in this au bc i feel like its more worthwhile exploring these themes when shes not 15 ! its also, for me, a cool exploration of her in her adult years!!! she usually dies before she gets there!!!!!!:D so this is awesome for me her base fear is corruption - other than rot and stuff like that, it "also show themes of love and companionship with unhealthy boundaries, where several of its victims find comfort in its manifestations, growing fond of company others find vile" which fits nastya perfectly

the REAL story begins with her having an awful awful breakdown though. shes 'realised the truth' that shell never be loved. nobody will ever love her, shes incapable of being loved, theres no point in living if no one loves her. shes lived her whole life trying to do the right thing that will make her worthy of love, but she just cant figure it out:( sad! oh well. her heart breaks into 15 little pieces, with seperate fears claiming each one ! :3 each are a Sick and Twisted kind of love Ooooo... abuse...

the extinction is DIVORCE! for nastya, realising that shell never be loved was such a drastic thing for her that its basically like an apocalypse ... the eye is all "if you have nothing to hide, you'll let me look through your phone no problem :3 right? you have nothing to hide? youre faithful? show me your phone" !! has all the passwords, goes through all the messages, has a tracker there, etc... i think itd be cool if she could see through phone/computer cameras ! :) the lonely is still under the belief that she'll never be loved, so she hides away... however !!! she, like.. attracts people with her sopping wet cat vibes.. "i can fix her" and then she takes you down with her. no interest in getting better, just wants you stay with her at her place. shes like a gluetrap, kinda..! her parents arent exactly 'alone' since shes with them, but for some reason, they still feel like they are:( etc ... i think theyd lose track of time at her place ... they think they spent an hour at her place but actually its been 2 days and theyre starving and exhausted and dying ! and so on for all the fears..

nastya wants love soo badly... shes just covering all her bases... its ok guys shes just finding love... its ok... and she doesnt get it!!! in none of her iterations!!!! bc shes abusive in a vast (ha) majority of them !!!! toxic at best. i told u the tamer ones but aughhhh i love herrr . shes awfulll . shes awful and awful and i love her and she just wants love but shes Not Geting It !!!!!! and she doesnt even know that shes aro

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