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Yāall have no idea how much I want somebody to pick me up around the waist, sit me on a countertop, and kiss me absolutely senseless. Likeā
I was literally daydreaming at work about this.
#just daydreaming#silly little thoughts#just girly things#yāall probably know who I was thinking about š#it would come as a shock to nobody š#except maybe the man himself#glen powell#tyler owens#prompts#writing prompts#because I can totally use this as a writing prompt#just girly thoughts#twisters#vaguely#idk I was thinking of it#so I guess Iāll take it
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Last part for old GF sketches
(Actually, most of these aren't old at all, but their average is brought down by the last picture, which I drew back in August and kept forgetting to post)
#fanart#drawing#gravity falls#stanford pines#stanley pines#i wish more people talked about Ford's piano skills#and his shadow puppet skills#i forgot what i was thinking when i rushed these out#something about Ford only taking pride in his skills because of how other people (ie Stanley) appreciate them#and how he attributes everything exceptional about himself to his hands bc that's where his deepest insecurities/motivations come from#but that isn't something Stan or most people think about at all#but he also IS really talented#and so he gets this big fragile ego#stemming from his mother and brother's praise#but also filbrick's neglect#so it's like outside validation is a substitute/reminder of the people that really loved him#bht also he thinks he's different from them and better than them#but he does love them#and he likes making them proud because he likes seeing them happy#maybe he doesn't know how else to make people happy#something something#Stan being his biggest supporter is a double edged sword#because his opinion matters the most and then he's gone#and Ford doesnt have anyone to show off to anymore#OR anyone who can call him a showoff when he gets too into his own head#OR the person he was pitted against in the first place that made him feel special#because- knowingly or not- they always compared themselves#idk man#Ford is an interesting guy and his head fascinates me
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i know i said more dom!reader blah blah blah sorry arlecchino rotted my brain severely. tmasc bunny!arle giving me severe brain damage /pos
(he/him prns used for arle)
at a glance, the big ears and small puffball of a tail might temporarily make you think Arlecchino is far sweeter then he actually is. how could anyone who looked so cute be anything but, right?
but you know better. you serve under Lord Arlecchino - literally. tucked under his desk while he makes you slobber and choke all over his strap. you barely get to breathe with his hand fisted in your hair, keeping you right where he wants you. if you've been particularly exemplary on your little missions, he might even let you sit on his lap. though whether thats worse or not is debatable, making you cockwarm him as he works. and you'd better keep quiet, too. he's not above muzzling you or just straight up shoving his fingers into your mouth to silence you while you squirm on his lap.
maybe if you last until he's done he'll fuck you properly. bend you over his desk and pound your pretty little holes until you're unable to stand. he'll still make you clean up his strap afterwards, of course.
it's when he's in a bad mood that he really gets going. sheds the act of polite, dignified little bunny. no, he's here to break you in and use you like the little toy you are. and you'll let him, won't you? drooling all over his strap when he fucks your throat raw, drags you into the nearest room the moment he sees you to watch your eyes roll back into your head as his cock stretches you out..
he's just as much of a mess as you are when he's this pent up, though. he doesn't bother keeping up appearances when he just has some pent up stress to get out. if you could even think straight you'd notice his puffball of a tail wagging and his ears drooping as he ruts into you, panting and grunting against your ear when you cum around his strap for the tenth time. you could almost swear you heard him whimper, but you'll be in a world of punishment if you mention it the next day (he absolutely did).
#minors dni#genshin impact smut#genshin smut#genshin impact x reader#genshin x reader#misc#arlecchino smut#arlecchino x reader#arle the stone butch that u r mwah#im a stone butch but im a stone butch with an exception#and the exception is arle he can do whatever he wants 2 me#obligatory mention that this isnt a genderbend. arle isnt a man here. thumbs up#hes just a butch. respect ur local butches 2 day!#anyway arle wearing the harness over his pants propaganda#its soooooooo#twirls hair. sir.#yall remember that tmasc arle thing i talked abt a bit ago. this is just that w bunny arle ough..#tmasc arle w a breeding kink who cant breed reader got me acting up like PLEASEEEEEE#i need normally super dignified arle to be so desperate he starts whimpering bc he wants to breed reader so bad it makes him look stupid#has this been done yet. g-d i hope so. i will ascend#tmasc bunny arle destroying every piece of furniture in the hoth in his efforts can i can a F 2 pay respects#i loveeeeeeeeee dignified super serious arle okay. is arle whimpering a little ooc. maybe#but he deserves to whimper!!!!! let him be pathetic okay thats my pookie :(#tmasc stone butch arle could fix me though i need. 2 write a proper fic abt rthis#arle is more like a hare but its also funnier 2 imagine he just presents himself as a hare so know no one knows hes a silly little guy#grabs his ears. free handlebars!!!!!!!!!#(disclaimer i am not responsible for what happens if u do)#okay ill shut up now I PROMISE...maybe.
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I made an Orym edit instead of writing or sleeping
#sleep drunk musical#š«£#ttrpg edits are hard.#edits are hard when you have visual cues.#this was a nightmare#like omfg#please clap#orym of the air ashari#orym savior blade of the tempest#cr orym#cr 3#the plot of this was supposed to be his slow decline into ādoing what has to be doneā#its mostly in timeline order#i tried to line up some good bits with āa man becomes a monsterā#i feel like orym thinks of himself as ājust a manā a lot#hes just a guard who experienced a tragedy#theres no other reason for him to be where he is except for the fact that he lost his family in the attack#he thinks its just happenstance#which. it kind of is#but him being just a man is also kind of the point.#demons run when a good man goes to war#(and tbh i wish that poem was better otherwise that would have been the edit)#maybe i still will#who knows#anyways heres an edit#cr edit#critical role edit#critical role
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the next thing they'll be involved with, Logan will be drinking and gets told by a non-Wade "I'm here to save you from Deadpool" or some funny shit like that. Toss in a mention about incursions or Wade's 'higher purpose' having no place for Logan. Watch Logan laugh.
#becoming ever so fond of the idea#of Logan The Worst Wolverine being so valuable to any universe that he just can't be left in domestic peace#He could be great. he's BEEN great#an incredible man who only wants to stay at home#that's protagonist behavior#Logan would have been so settled and at peace w himself by this point#he'll negotiate first. He'll try to boil things down harmlessly#any hostiity to him can get to his and Wade's family after all#no the mother bear instinct. claws and all. they come out when Logan is forcibly taken from that universe.#idk i get giddy imagining it#deadpool and wolverine#deadpool#wolverine#logan howlett#deadpool 3#wade wilson#poolverine#deadclaws#deadpool 2024#logan would be drinking just for the sake of drinking btw#no particular tragedy except for maybe relapsing into depression and needing to self-regulate#but he's good#āhis 'higher purpose' is protecting his friends. when he finds you sneaking around in his universe he'll tell you the same thing. trust me.#cut to āmy higher purpose is being held lovingly by Thor. and protecting my friends. why are you here?ā#give Logan some line like āthe saving goes both ways. we're done with all that shit. walk away nowā#lmao it might probably be wade who's guns first talk later then#the only time his mouth will run quicker than he can draw his weapons is if he can find opportunities to annoy somebody
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Is it bad that I want to see more of that Were-Doc Au?
the people love mad scientist turned big wet dog
#back to the future#bttf fanart#bttf#marty mcfly#emmett brown#doc brown#have this silly little doodle while i cook up some silly big doodles in the meantime :]#aaaand i have just realized i missed a line where doc's other shoulder should be.#whatever. no one notices these things except me lmao#you're not the only one wanting more weredoc hahaha. looks at my 6 other weredoc asks. plus the several ideas i came up with myself.#at this rate doc will appear on this blog more dog than man#anyone who wants to take this au and run off is welcome to as well! maybe you can come up with some science jargon that makes more sense#right now the backstory is he had a bit of einstein's dna for ???? and then messed it up so badly he turned himself into a dog#how? no clue. not even he knows.#kit does an art#weredoc au#just realized this concept is like. the inverse of that au on ao3 where marty used to be a dog LMAOO#havent read it just glanced at it in passing but i think that's really funny
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Thereās one last thing Ford has to do before he and Stan are finished packing for their trip. He made sure he had a few hours to himself, had sent Stan into town for some last supplies, and was standing in front of his old photocopier.
Dipper and Mabel had gladly sent him one of Shermieās old photo albums. And while he had managed to retain one measly picture for the last 40 or so years, it wasnāt the one he needed for what he was about to do.
There, all by herself in the frame, was a picture of their mother. And on the next page, also pictured alone, their father.
He picked one up, set it on the copier, and pressed scan.
#gravity falls#stanford pines#grunkle ford#ford pines#i want ford to bring out a copy of his mom and finally get to say goodbye#except maybe he lets stan say goodbye too as himself this time#but MOSTLY i want him to get to yell at fillbrick fucking pines#i want him to get the closure of telling his dad he was wrong about stan and for stan to not have to face the man#i want ford to stick up for his brother for once like stanley did their whole childhood#and i feel kinda bad about the idea of the grief of letting go of their mom and having to watch a copy of her grapple with her own existence#as a piece of paper and face the threat of water/death#BUT FILBRICK PINES DESERVES THE THREAT OF PAPER MORTALITY AND WATERY DEATH FROM HIS SON
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"I don't want to rule the world! I don't want to rule anything! I never did!"
-- Lestat, Queen of the Damned
#lestat de lioncourt#queen of the damned#anne rice#the situations this man gets himself into#that trope of the unwilling hero except he's the unwilling villainš which you would not have expected from the first book#one funny thing is the vampires slowly gain superpowers over time but lestat is speedrunning by getting blood from supervampires#unwillingly!!!!!#that idea of a power fantasy but you get to pretend you don't want it. but evil#what i don't really understand is that at first louis was her self insert and lestat was her husband...#... now lestat has softened so much is he just the new self insert? or is it more like 'what if this terrible thing happened to my man?'#i think it would be scarier if awful things happened to your loved ones than to yourself so maybe that's why lestat has taken over the story
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Look Iām all for aroace rep in my silly little shows. But I genuinely canāt help but wonder if Luffy would be even AWARE heās ace/ aroace. Like. He knows what sex is. And crushes. And romance and stuff. I mean he dogs on Sanji for it and ace if you read that one scene with Makino that way. But like he never strives for it himself. And sure a moment with Ace or with the bandits where they teased him about liking a girl or getting a girlfriend and he just. Couldnāt fathom the idea and that made him so confused that someone said āoh that probably means your ace/aroaceā and Luffy has just accepted it, would be kinda funny and sweet
But itās infinitely funnier if he doesnāt know. Like. He knows what it is and all that, but itās never once occurred to him that itās meant to apply to him too. Like, never once does think heās meant to like someone. Heās meant to be king of the not smooch people!! Thatās Sanjiās thing!! And like whether the crew is dating each other or not doesnāt matter, they have definitely talked preferences. And itās been a on going mystery/joke to figure out Luffyās type. They definitely thought he was gay for a little while but that idea eventually gets shot down.
Everyone eventually figuring out Luffy is ace/ aroace except ironically, Luffy.
#give me oblivious aroace content#istg I genuinely thought romance didnāt apply to me.#I thought I was build different ig??#Luffy didnāt come out to his crew. the crew outed luffy to himself#mans did not even know he was in the closet#it would change nothing except maybe his confusion on why heās taken to pride events#monkey d. luffy#one piece#rambles#asexual#aromantic#asexual monkey d. Luffy#aromantic monkey d. Luffy#aroace#aroace representation#aroace monkey d Luffy#asexual Luffy throws them a curve ball by dating someone#gotta keep em guessing
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My mental image for Kim Rok Soo
I've seen some art of him and have come to realize the image on the novel cover was supposed to be Earth body, but by the time I saw it I'd already come up with my own opinions on his appearance, so I'm not going to set down my vision either lmao
> KRS grew up initially without proper food so he was likely underweight and didn't grow to his proper size, leading him to have a somewhat malnourished look to him
> This is supported by continued comments about his 20-yo self looking painfully thin
> I gave him bangs at that age mostly because he would have been focused a bit more on looking nice for job reasons, but he still doesn't have the money for nice hair products, so it's still pretty short hair
> Since this is also the body he gets in Central Plains, I decided to show his scammer smile too ahahaha-- How odd that must look to Choi Jung Soo and Lee Soo Hyuk, knowing that on Earth he was incredibly stoic and rarely gave a smile - let alone a big one. I didn't look up proper wuxia outfits so uhhh don't think too hard about the fashion djfjsh
> By age 36 he is healthier with regards to his physique, but a lifetime of being thin would likely mean he still would not be the type to bulk up. Getting large would require concerted bodybuilding effort, which he has no time for, and access to a lot of protein. Even if he had time and resources, it isnt really optimal for his own time management nor his actual needs. KRS is a very practical person, so I see him as someone who would prioritize logical self-sustainment: compact, lean muscle, making it easier on resources to maintain
> He might carry a bigger gun too, but I didn't feel like hanging one on him. It would likely be variable anyway, depending on what kind of monster his team needed to face. I chose to just draw the items he would always carry on him. I think he is also supposed to have a metal panel turned into a shield, which I probably should have drawn but didn't ahaha-
> Thanks to overwork, he generally always looked tired and stoic. I imagine his voice was pretty deadpan unless he speaks of something he has conviction for ("you must eat") or during combat if he has to raise his voice for an urgent command
> This older KRS probably has an electric shaver and just buzzes his hair periodically when it gets long enough. He's not vain, so gorgeous hair isn't a priority. I think to contrast this, the long hair he grows as Cale can be seen as him trying to set down this lifestyle, where his self-maintenance only focused on being combat-ready. It also can be seen as him trying to (pre-emptively) enter his "I am done with work" mentality. Fighting with long hair isn't actually logical, so maybe as he grows it longer, it's like mentally telling himself "it's fine, I'm almost done fighting, soon I can be a slacker" (lol)
#tcf#tcf spoilers#trash of the count's family spoilers#lout of the count's family spoilers#36-yo KRS needs a vacati-wait all ages need a vacation. actually can someone properly retire this man????#except he himself won't sit down#he doesn't know how to stop i don't think#maybe raon will have to imprison him in the end#raon please do that#oseiart
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Maybe a hot take I dunno, but I feel like the way Deku handled Shigaraki could've been "justified" or at least a bit easier to accept if Shigaraki had actually killed Bakugou during the final fight.
That, or if Deku only found out Bakugo survived during the epilogue so he could have a moment of self reflection about giving up on saving Shigaraki because he thought someone he cared about got hurt.
Hm. On an emotional and story level, I get it! At first thought, it makes sense - Bakugou on the Heroes' side gets killed by Shigaraki, so narrative karma means Shigaraki has to die too. Would definitely help 'explain' Deku's cold attitude (tho I argue he was already pretty cold before).
But thinking about it more, I feel like it still wouldn't have worked? Shigaraki had already killed a bunch of other heroes and caused lots of destruction - so singling Bakugou out as the justification/last straw for Deku, him essentially killing Shigaraki as revenge for Bakugou, feels unfitting of him as a Hero - too personal, not him acting as impartial law enforcer. I know readers cared much more for Bakugou than Crust, but for the story, this different valuation of lives would look bad. imo.
Plus, Bakugou was truly dead. Shigaraki did kill him! It just didn't stick because of the greatest and weirdest asspull of story history, but that already happened. Bakugou was mangled and Deku did get really mad at thatāfor two seconds until Mirio spoke to him and Deku calmed down in order to ask about whether Shigaraki was still inside ShigAFO - to focus on his goal of saving Shigaraki.
Bakugou died, and Deku made the decision to still "not ignore the crying child". Which is a point towards him for sticking to wanting save Shigaraki despite this new evil thing Shigaraki has done! (But I guess it's just that his 'save' has always been reliant on his sympathy for a ghost child? Whose name he didn't know, so he had to have called Shigaraki 'Shigaraki', and I guess that made it seem like he wanted to save all of Shigaraki; but even at the moment, it was clear that Deku was focused on The Crying Child, given the visuals and Mirio speaking of Tenko's outburst.)
So while I get what you're going for, whether your first possibility or the second, it still does damage to the story of Deku being a Hero.
#imo#this is actually really hard to talk about#because there's so much shit going on#do i bring up that it was technically ShigAFO who killed Bakugou?#so not exactly Shigaraki himself?#except that Shigaraki comes back later and seems to know what happened#and didn't really care#I said here that Deku calmed himself down to stick to his promise to save The Crying Child#but that's more of an interpretation#because maybe he really was speaking of Shigaraki as a whole#separate from ShigAFO#idk man!#untangling this requires a wall string chart and i just don't want to torture my brain like that#nalslastworkingbraincell#thanks for the ask!
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I'm finally readin the webnovel of Omniscient reader's viewpoint, from the beginning, and I'm sorry, am I supposed to somehow believe that Kim Dokja has never once drawn fanart, written fanfiction or fantasized about a self-insert in three ways of survival?? This man made a badly written novel the reason for his continued existance and he didn't even like how it ended. Also, chapter 95 - Singularity (4), "In the first place, the ending I wanted was impossible. Yet if I changed small impossible things one by one, I might end up changing it to the impossible ending". Don't tell me that doesn't scream fanfic fix-it of the 'for the want of a nail' variety to you.
#I am sorry but I refuse to believe a man so obssesed with a novel without a fandom didn't take it upon himself to create some form of#Fanart or fanfic#Even if he never showed it to anyone (except maybe his mother)#Aaah I want to write a fanfic where everything is the same#Except Kim Dokja is not a genious planner (or maybe yes) he is just following the plot of his fanfic#Where everyone lives and Yoo Jonghyuk has a happy ending#Also no spoilers please I already had enough when I visited the tag#omniscient reader's viewpoint#orv
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The stereotypical 'harem anime protagonist' revolutionises and disrupts contemporary heterosexual norms in regards to romantic narratives. Rather than envisioning a stereotypically masculine power fantasy, the 'harem anime protagonist' instead cultivates a more realistic perspective, portraying its character as decidedly average in his abilities and looks, if not an outright outsider to normal society. In this way, rather than presenting romance as a quality 'earned' via successful displays of masculine superiority - a one-sided dynamic which all too often relegates women to be nothing more than narrative 'rewards' for the protagonist's achievements, taking the position less of individuals in their own right than of symbolic gatekeepers for hyper-masculine worthiness - it is instead portrayed as the result of burgeoning relationships between persons through quality time spent together.
Instead of expecting said love interests to be 'impressed' by the protagonist's successes (thus putting him on a pedestal above them, and enabling the masculine need to be 'better' than his partner), romantic feelings are nurtured realistically through shared interests and hobbies, and as a result of the protagonist's kindness and interest in helping said women with their life problems. Rather than man as conqueror, and romantic success as signifier of competitive superiority, romantic feelings are naturalised as contextual and mundane - as a normal and everyday fact of life that any person, regardless of social status, may be able to experience through commonplace bonds between relative equals and sincere concern for others' wellbeing.
Likewise, the 'harem anime protagonist' inverts the manic dream girl archetype; rather than existing to kickstart his own character development, the focus is almost entirely on the personalities and circumstances of the female love interest. If the protagonist 'earns' his relationships at all, it is not by displays of dominance or charisma, but through a genuine interest in their lives and willingness to help the women around them achieve their own personal goals. Said goals are often far grander than any the man himself could grasp at, again positioning the men in supportive, even submissive positions; rather than be turned off by this lack of traditional masculinity, the female characters are shown to find these very displays of kindness and supportiveness (typically feminine qualities) attractive, offering a different path for lonely and sensitive young men.
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#I knowwwwwwwwwww the joke doesn't work if you write a whole-ass essay before you even get to the tagline#but. would you guys still respect me if I said I unironically believed this.#'harems of girls falling for a nondescript guy just because he's nice to them' idk man I think. that's a good reason to fall for anyone tbh#'he does nothing to prove himself and earn all this adulation' okay so????????#bonus points when the girls aren't even actually in love with him and. ppl are just mad that this dorky nerd has ~~multiple female friends~#maybe ppl shouldnt have to do exceptional things just to like. have others be nice to them maybe.#idk mannnn I just think 'basically nice guy who pays attention and helps you out with your goals' is like. more than enough to make a crush
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I've only now noticed Eva Yan's scars on your drawings of her, is there any story or headcanon behind them?
keeping it real babygirl [gender neutral] the story is that this woman canonically kills herself, canonically contemplates suicide, quite explicitly mentioning the method she intents on using to you (with implications that she has, at the very least, thought about it/thought it through before), and lives with broken mirrors so she cannot (/doesn't have to) see her face like i just think She Is Mentally Unwell. like as a long-term, enduring, persistent thing, She Is Mentally Unwell and the plague is just worsening her condition, while it didn't cause it. the storey/headcanon is that she is mentally ill, openly and canonically has self-destructive tendencies, so. the scars are here because she lives with a lil something something in her mind which drives her to plenty of destructive acts in ways big and small. ywkim
#like when i jokingly and lovingly called her a ''mentally ill bisexuelle''. i wasn't joking. ykwim#man i've given eva those for a long ass while i can't even rember when i started. i give some to peter too for the same reasons#(except he doesn't succeed in killing himself. but he does try.) but like. he has long sleeves & pants when i post him on here so. elusive#suicide /#self-harm /#what's that diagram showing how the closest you are to dankovsky the more suicidal you are. as someone who's been there#i can reclaim chuckling about it#ring ring (answers)#anonymous#& even if she doesn't die in my mind [bc she doesn't in every route] well. she still has those. she lives through them; and then with them#and lives on. you know. real recovereds will get this etc you get the jist#this is equal part story and headcanon on that one but there's also this pattern that eva throws her whole body into destruction. ykwim.#the way she kills herself is fullbody; entire physical body out of a window; it's not like how she first mentions it to dankovsky#it's a complete and utter destruction [which is not destruction *to her*; because; well we see how it ends]#it's also easy to see how her constant seeking of companionship; her sudden infatuations for a stranger and her offerings of companionship#can also be read as her ''throwing her whole body'' into it [here; into something that; maybe; can ''fill a void'' left by her spiritual#emptiness. so in the spirit of ''putting her whole body'' into destruction/into trying to fill an intangible void left by emptiness and fel#well. scars and the act make sense to me at least. because there is that attempt to exteriorize an inner suffering with acts like those
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cw suicide mention & imagery
original play idea where people seem to live their normal lives but the audience gets the feeling that somethingās wrong, thereās a tension and there are things that obviously go unsaid that hang in the air between the characters uncomfortably long enough until the last member of the audience has filled in the blanks in their own way.
there is a figure off to the side, a very young man in a suit, watching them, unmoving and silent, and as the scenes and progress, as characters leave and appear, as the setting changes, the young man is always there. no one interacts with him, but there are moments when they almost do. when the characters stop what theyāre doing when they stand close to him, and appear to listen. but thereās nothing.
the sound of TV news reports, all playing over each other, create an uncanny and uncomfortable buzzing that never, never stops, and there are too many to really make out the words. they get more silent the closer they get to the young man in the suit, quieting down to nothing when they stand by him to listen ā but the characters seem unaware of the change. so does the young man, statuesque though he is.
then thereās a little girl, covered in dirt, her hair askew, her cheeks rosy ā the image of having spent the day outside, playing in the dirt, a smile on her face, her eyes big, as she skips towards the young man and asks, ācan we go now? can we play?ā
the young man cards his hands through her hair and says, āyou go ahead, iāll be right there.ā
but still he stays there, seated.
everything continues as before, but the characters slowly undergo a complete change in character, in routine, in appearance. the old man who wore suits is not dressed in sweats and old, worn out, dirty shirts. the sweet, kindhearted young adult is now quiet and apathetic. the woman who, in the beginning, was talking her friendās ear off and could barely stand still is unmoving now, staring out into nothingness.
the buzzing and bustling background noise is slowly, gradually getting louder as the characters become increasingly nonverbal and unmoving. the lights dim down.
then all at once, after a crescendo, the noise stops suddenly, the lights turn off completely, before, with warm, yellow light, a woman weāve seen before ā as she stares into nothingness ā appears on the stage, slowly approaching the young man as if unsure of her body but undeniable in her grace.
they smile at each other for a moment.
m, whispering: youāre not supposed to be here, not yet
w, cradling his cheeks: i was always supposed to be here long, long before you
m: i know. iām sorry, iā
w: i know. i forgive you. iāve always forgiven you
m, after a while: but not yourself
the woman shakes her head.
w: a mother will never forgive herself for burying her child, and a father will forgive himself even less. (a beat) you have such a handsome face.
m: itās not your fault
w: so beautiful, those eyes, iāve missed you so much
m: listen to me, itās not your fault!
w: and your hair! papa would be so glad to know thatā
m: mother. mama. listen to me. itās not your fault
w, tearful and whispering: you were supposed to be fine. you were always supposed to be fine. it was never supposed to be this bad, we were supposed to help, butā
m: i know. i tried, i really did. both times
in that moment, the little girl comes skipping on stage again, approaching them with her wagging ponytail.
g: what are you doing here, mama? will you play with me now? itās been so long!
the woman gasps, her tears getting the better of her as she falls to her knees and pulls the girl to her chest, who readily returns the hug
w, sobbing, kissing her cheek: hi, baby. yes, iāll play with you, of course i will. letās go.
the young man helps his mother up, allowing her to pull him into a hug, and she whispers: āas much as i love her with all my heart, iām so proud of the young man youāve grown into. and now i have you both, just as i always did.ā
the young man brushes a kiss to her cheek, then lets her go, watching as his mother disappears with the little girl.
m: i have to stay a while. iāll follow you soon.
(woman and girl, hand in hand, exeunt)
the lights dim, and the buzzing returns, accompanied by the sound of dragging footsteps the audience cannot see, until everythingās back in total darkness. the noise stays. growing louder in increments, leaving the audience uncomfortable and unsure if this was it.
as they quiet down, we hear a man, sobbing uncontrollably, before eerie silence takes his place, too.
the curtain falls.
#idk what this is but itās deeply fucked up suicide awareness#obviously there are no dialogues except for that one half assed thing but the dialogues and the imagery and the stage setup and directions#will allude to the fact that the young man who killed himself remains uncomfortably in the lives and the minds of those who miss him#and he cannot leave because he chose this. heās anchored to them more than he was when he was alive#maybe heāll have a soliloquy or two. or maybe the empathetic character will speak for him in ways that we do when people die#in the ways that we put words in their mouth and turn them into people they might not have been because grief is funny like that#the static buzzing news caster noise is obviously 1) the 21st c at large; 2) grief preventing you from feeling calm; and 3) doom news#there will be quotes like āyour death it wonāt happen to you. it happens to your family and your friendsā#yes the young man is trans. no thatās not why he killed himself. yes the mother takes the blame bc thatās what mothers will do#itās all just fucked up what can i say. there are no redeeming qualities#suidice cw#cw suicide#itās 2am i have nothing to say in my defense#i was overcome with the urge to write a play and the ideas for it sorry#not st
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Luke raising Jonathan au is so galaxy brained omg. you're so right Luke would be the ideal person to raise him because he would do his best to fight his own biases and avoid treat him like a lost cause or broken. also the fact they both got turned into monsters by Valentine... the potential is crazy (now I can't stop thinking about this)
exactly!! and not only do we have their own similarities, as monsters and outcasts.. but also valentine's real son being raised by his own ex-parabatai being a mirror to his pseudo-son being raised by his psuedo-ex-parabatai? and then there's also some vague parallels with ash's storyline (even if we never get ash himself in this universe) with jonathan being under the protection and guardianship of his cruel father's brother figure. and idk something about valentine's kids being split up between his runaway wife and his scorned parabatai.. it just sits so nicely in my head.
#the question of course would be where this au would diverge from canon#and i have to think it would be after jocelyn runs away with clary but not long after#maybe some residual parabatai senses get luke doubting valentine's death#maybe when he's found the house valentine lives in with jonathan he sees that it's basically abandoned except for this young child#bc val was with jace at that point in time#and luke thinks. this kid may look like a monster. but he's also jocelyn's kid#and he doesn't deserve to be a victim to valentine the way luke himself was#and he takes the child#for jocelyn. for the man he once thought valentine to be. for himself.#gah! i literally fell asleep thinking about this and will probably be thinking about it all day#but alas i must go to work now T-T#luke graymark#jonathan fairchild#tsc#the shadowhunter chronicles#tmi#the mortal instruments#asks#isabella š¦
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