#everything feels pointless

[lunasberry]

life feels so pointless.

I don't know why I'm here.

[lonicera-edulis]

I am unsure I want to post anything here at all. Maybe it's a current mood and I will continue after some whining as usual, but everything is very discouraging.

[burnt-out-phoenix1]

[twoheadedfawnn]

so so sad i want 2 disappear

[aberooski]

I think I've lost all of my desire to do anything at all and I don't know how to get it back.

I can't sleep, I don't eat, and if I do it's snacks or the same like 3 meals alternating. I have to fight myself to drink water sometimes, or brush my teeth or get out of bed and I hate showering. I can't play video games anymore, I don't have a desire to listen to any music anymore, I can't watch shows or movies anymore, and I can't even draw or write anymore.

I've been trying to finally start Chazzerella this week and I'm still slogging through the storybook opening because I just can't find the words.

I can't even bring myself to look at jobs half the time anymore and I actually need to do that. I *have* to get a job because I have both no money and student loans to pay. But even that feels like a pointless waste of time.

I feel like I'm broken. Something broke inside of me and I don't know how to fix it and now I can't even function anymore.

[belong2human-kind]

A little venting here, something quite silly I guess

I'm feeling very very bad and down today. I'm not feeling sure and good about what I'm writing and what I'm drawing, I'm not enjoying my work and I'm feeling like it will never be suitable or good enough. I write and drawn as a hobby, as a fun thing, but this will be the first time sharing, and I don't know, my mind is just busting me with some "your stuff is unnecessary, don't post it, you'll ruin it". Some of my drawings didn't work out as I intended, and I have this annoying perfectionism that if isn't good I should just stop completely. Not sure if it's my ocd or gad talking rn, but I feel pretty sad and unmotivated. Guess I'll take a time to rest and then try again. Hope you all have a nice night/day🌻

[actual-corpse]

Not as drunk as I want to be...

But I can feel it

[king-carrington]

Nothing even matters anymore

[autumskys]

[lunasberry]

nothing feels fun again. there's no real thing I enjoy doing.

[daedrabela]

i don't see my counselor for another 6 days.

[itmightneverbetherighttime]

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[justinmwhitaker]

Today's 5 Links

Scalzi on How to Weave the Artisan Web.

Leo Babuata on How the Feeling of Pointlessness Derails Us. There's meaning in the struggle.

AdScam on How Capitalism Works. Subscriptions to unlock the performance in the car you already own? And it only adds .8 seconds to the 0-60 time? (AdScam is totally worth your time BTW).

Aww, shit, the marketers have rediscovered Tumblr.

Nice to see that Metallica is still pretending that bass players don't exist.

[none-gender-left-beef]

back to our regularly scheduled depression

[disappear-into-the-night]

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[virgothozul]