#everyone read this asap I wrote it in less than 3 hours and am so damn proud of it

[pinkandgreenarepurpleandyellow]

*Banging pots and pans together * ZEE IS JEWISH, ZEE IS JEWISH, AUTHOR HAS 3 BRAINCELLS AND ONE OF THEM IS DEDICATED EXCLUSIVELY TO THIS!!!!

[achieveandhunt]

live typing extra life 2019

part 2

warning: this was a mistake and i’m in the grapes

this starts right at Facilities vs AH. link to first post

let’s fuck some shit up babEY

oh what the fuck they’re playing a prerecorded video

last year was a fuckin doozy, nobody forget that

“legends of the under achiever” i didn’t know someone wrote my biography

why do i hear geoff screaming “FIVE FUCKIN FOUR” in my head, like in the legends of the hidden temple minecraft videos

jeremy looks. so dead inside on this fine november evening

ryan buzzing while they’re trying to explain the rules

my video quality went down so much that i thought i was watching someone playing roblox for a second

ryan “salty mother fucker” haywood has made a lovely appearance. he’s my favorite

michael and lindsay looking so domestic makes me so happy,, they’re my parents

someone donated under the name “ryan goes feral” uh??? yeah? you say that like it’s a bad thing??

oH FUCK MICHAEL GO DRIVE WIN PLEASE

jeremy HAS BROKEN OUT THE GLASSES SHIT’S SERIOUS

NO THEY’RE LOSING GOD DAMMIT

ʳʸᵃⁿ ᶦⁿ ᵗʰᵉ ᵇᵃᶜᵏᵍʳᵒᵘⁿᵈ, ᵠᵘᶦᵉᵗˡʸ: ʰᵉˡᵖ

JEREMY IT’S TIME TO TEST OUT THAT NONEXISTENT GAG REFLEX AND SWALLOW THE OPPONENT’S CONTROLLER

oh nvm they’re winning again lmao

OH FUCK thEYRE LOSING

oh nvm

OH FUCK

oh nvm they unplugged his contoller lol

OH FUCKING TH EY LOST MICHAEL JONES MY HEART IS BROKEN

the amount of people watching has gone up from 32k to 40k in the past fifteen minutes

michael “hurry up you dumb cunts” jones

“oh don’t worry about destroying our cabinet, it’s essentially matchsticks”

“how are you feeling john? are you ready for this?” “MM M M Mmm mM”

TEAM NICE DYNAMITE IS NEXT AND IM READY FOR PERMANENTLY RINGING EARS FROM ALL THE LEET DONATIONS

oH god here we go

“hopefully they haven’t been saving them all day” oh honey. you’ve got a big storm coming

if xavier slaps gavin i think gav might go up in a puff of smoke

i did the math, they went up 45k+ within five minutes of team nice dynamite showing up on stream

GAVIN AND MICHAEL ARE GOING TO DIE

THERE’S GONNA BE A MOONBALL SIZED HOLE IN GAVIN’S CHEST

ryan and lindsay both donating a grand during this segment... so good

the day gavin free successfully gets a tattoo is the day i drop dead

lindsay saying she didn’t want the TND tattoo on michael but she agreed because gav is michael’s boi :((( 

i’m too sleep deprived for this i might cry

oh god michael’s punching the floor

i’m too sober for this

EIGHTY EIGHT LEET DONATIONS IN TWENTY MINUTES HOLY FUCJKIGN SHIT YOU GUYS ARE GONNA BE THROWING MOONBALLS FOR FUCKIN SIX YEARS

on a sentimental note- i love how much collective love we have for gav and michael,, they deserve it all

milk boarded has some not-so-great connotations attached to it

gavin “the bullshit bitch” free

a mark nutt reference?? in my 2019 extra life????

this just in: sarah is going to obliterate gavin

oh. oh my god. that was the sound of a wet fish smacking a wall

why is jeremy the liquor goblin walking like a crab that has a bird attached to its back??? see: flapping arms

that beer and milk concoction... gag

“drink that milk yard”

“YOU GOT MY TOES MILKY”

no. nO MICHAEL NO YOUR INTESTINES NOO

michael “the milk’s in my brain” jones

“stop pouring it on people!” “iT’S HARD DICKHEAD”

lindsay is now. taking a milk shower

*caiti brings a small roll of paper towels* *gavin gently places a single paper towel on the massive puddle of milk*

no LINDSAY NO THINK OF THE CHILDREN

gavin: this has gotten way out of hand. she’s... she’s swimming in an inch of milk! everyone knows you should swim in at least two!!

the fajita seasoning will solve everythinG everyone calm down

fiona: yeah this is my first extra life. jack: and what were you expecting? fiona: this. exactly this.

ah yes. the bunny suits have arrived and michael is ready to tackle gavin

aaaand here comes the AH fanfic. it can only get worse from here so buckle up fuckos

“holy fuckeroni”

“re-reanimated trevor”

michael is so fucking smashed and god i wish that was me

“cum-ductor”

fiona “this is a white man” nova

“bone-ating” *leet donation* *leet donation* 

“ready set blow” made me genuinely bust a lung laughing

aaaand michael’s licking the floor which is to be expected

jeremy “i’m gonna actually harm you” dooley

IF ONE MORE PERSON BRINGS UP RANCH IM GOING TO WALK TO AUSTIN AND PROJECTILE VOMIT ON THE OFF TOPIC SET

no JEREMY NO YOU WERE THE CHOSEN ONE I THOUGHT YOU WOULDN’T DO THIS GET OFF THE F  L O O R

don’t get close ups on jeremy’s tongue. don’t do that to me. i don’t want nightmares

“fuck root” “let’s just fucking fuck”

1 2 3 CONSENT

michael has gone full gerkie

alfredo’s look when larry is reading the part about trevor choking him is how i feel about everything that’s happened in the past twenty minutes

almost 300k in less than an hour 

fiona saying “i don’t want this” overlaying michael humping a trash can

“TAKE THE TACO CHAD”

aaaand michael’s in the trash can

nO why is there a triangle is this a POETRY READING ALL OF A SUDDEN

oh thank god it’s over

OH FUCK THERE’S A N EPILOGUE

aaand trevor’s dead again. poor treyco

DUSK BOYS DUSK BOYS DUSK BOYS EVERYONE PUT A CUP IN YOUR PANTS

people singing along... what goes on

why am i downloading this fuckin song asap

jeremy turning his phone flashlight on and waving it like he’s at a concert god dammit i love these people so much

those are my BOYS

oh my gosh they’re still singing the song. why is my heart so happy from this i need to get slapped

“come on you’ve never been waterboarded before gavin?”

everyone standing in a circle shining their flashlights at gavin

someone surprise them and instead of a moonball just yeet a whole gallon of milk at them

actually, on second thought, no

OH god GavIN Is GOING to Die 

gavin “i forgot to breathe” free

several milk explosions

gavin “my brain is cold” free

michael has milk dripping from his ears

i’m about to pass out i don’t know what’s happening

michael is in the grapes right now man

how many moonballs? oh, only 107. :)

i’m not writing this part- you guys have to watch the moonball segment yourself, if you didn’t watch it live!

team nice dynamite finishes up with over 300k!! holy shit, that’s so cool! this community is awesome

werewolf is up next!

xavier is such a gentleman can we keep him

alfredo: *chooses to kill miles* trevor in the audience: *silently freaking out*

xavier is about ruin another man on stream

miles has no self preservation instinct

barbara is now smelling fiona

this just in: i love alfredo and 100% would have done the same thing

trevor running up to film alfredo getting smacked. what an icon

alfredo SCREAMING oh my god i felt it in my soul

the high-five of the backs in solidarity of intense pain

miles choosing alfredo is so fucking good

and also, i feel so bad 

his heart might shoot out of his asshole this time guys

oh NOOO HE’s so bruised :(((( fredo nooo :((

oh my god it’s gotten to the usual point in the stream where you start to question whether someone is going to die this time

rip blaine but at least i think he can take the hit

he can but ouch it still hurts me 

barbara “i’m participating in the game” dunkleman

yo miles might win this game

the crowd when someone needs to shoot barb: TREVOR TREVOR TREVOR! trevor, with the strength of a thousand suns: N O

people are now chanting about shooting an unprotected trevor. the man already died once this stream god dammit

alfredo is about to throw hands for fiona

that’s a big F in the chat for miles, but his loss is well deserved

xavier’s hands could serve as a defibrillator

alfredo showed jeremy his chest and jeremy shied away as if he was looking at the sun

 --- i’m taking another break to finish an assignment---

i’m barely alive and it’s ready set show time 

oh god please no more shock collars

i’m so fucking tiiiiredd please take thge res t of this post  wigth  a grain of salt lbecasue i can hardly type at this ponitn 

“do you want to control the shock collars” “will there be repercussions” “no” “fuck yeah i’ll do it then”

“smother the children. steal the baby” “DONT STEAL THE BABY TREVOR”

lunging forward “s c a r e  t h e  b a b y” “OKAY I’M PASSING THIS ONE”

“you can’t bake popcorn????” jeremy hits the floor

alec and matt clearly = dream team

oh thasnk god the shock collars are on their arms now i was stressed out for chris earlier

this stream does not promote recreational nyquil usage 

i don’t even know how to explain the pure insanity of what ready set show has become

alec has become this whole segment

i would write more but i have no thoughts because my brain doesn’t work

larry “makes people fuck other people besides their wife” insert last name that my brain can’t come up with

anyways. marbles

oh. no marbles

i’ve blacked out idk what happened during backwardz compatible

i mean i was awake but does that really mean anything at this point

SPPOKU PSOOKY SPPOKKKY SPOOOKY !!! FUCL YEAH 

cole is so good during this segment

oh so many 1337s right away 

the real scariest thing during the segment: being genuine

oH my god the scream being pitched up. i have fucking dogs outside of my house now

i don’t fuck w/ ghosts no thank you

“aba-jail” wow if u guys weren’t gonna get haunted before you will now

okay i’m about to pass out i have to take a nap

oH fucking I SLEPT until thirty minutes before the en d  fuck

conclusion: this community is incredible and raised an unimaginable amount of money for charity. the fact that rooster teeth does this every year is awesome, and honestly, it makes me feel hopeful in times when things aren’t so great. so yeah! for the kids & stuff 

[anonymousdior]

My Lived Experience

I’ve been silent the last few weeks, not because I don’t have a voice or an opinion on what’s happening in this world right now or even more specifically, in my home country. But, because there is just so many feelings of all kind of everything. But, I feel like it’s time to speak up and tell my story and my views. 

First off, If you are new here or need a reminder; I am Tri-Racial. My father is African American; my mother is Italian and Indigenous. Mix those three with being a medical anomaly; it can be confusing thing to divulge to people. Which is probably why I usually don’t. In fact, most people don’t know anything about me I would say. But, that’s about to change.

Let’s get real blunt.. I grew up within Racism. In fact, Racism is as much as my family as a brother and sister would be. How so? One family was so disgusted with my blackness that they administered burning liquids to my scalp to change the way my hair follicles grow. Yes, this was something the main culprit had researched. This family had called me every slur in the book, “The N word”, “Burrhead” were some to name a few. I was treated differently from my cousins because they were considered “pure” and I was “polluted and dirty.” That was just one family. My other family refuses to acknowledge me due to being mixed and insults are hurled on a regular basis in reference to my whiteness or indigenous side. In fact, some self hatred resides within my Father’s family as well. On another note, I was given away and sent away because of my blackness and how it would be easier if I was not nearby for the One side of the family.

Fast forward a few years, I was living with my meema and mooma, a strong Cameroonian woman and African man and my uncle C, an African American male. I am in a neighbourhood that was 96% African American and had a 92% crime rate. Racism was very much apart of this neighbourhood. The neighbourhood was fenced in, to not allow the residents inside venture out. In fact, there was a school, library and a shitty grocery store within this fenced area. It was expected that everyone residing within these buildings would stay within the fence and not “pollute” the rest of Atlanta. If you did get out, well expect to be hunted down and harassed. If you wanted a job, you would have to lie on your application of where you lived. The APD would roll in every day, with guns in hand, not even in the holster anymore. They would rough you up for no reason and if you fought back, you’re arrested on the spot and lucky if you made it to the precinct without needing medical attention. However, in the “white” neighbourhoods, no policing was needed and when you were arrested, you were treated as a human. This neighbourhood was treated as less than. Don’t think the APD are bad? Don’t understand why Atlantans are so suspicious of the APD?

Let’s get real again...I was walking home one night from my shift at T-Mobile. It was dark but I was dirt ass poor, not to mention my money had been taken from me (That will be discussed later on). I am minding my own business and all of a sudden, the APD with their cherries on pull over and draw their guns at me, I am 17 years old and alone, not to mention a girl. They yell at me to get on the ground only once, when I ask what is happening or why, I am lunged at and my face is pushed into the ground. With guns still drawn at my head and this heavy officer on me, I’m asked where I live and what am I? I answer the name of the neighbourhood and I am bi-racial. All of a sudden I’m told that I will do and I fit the description of an aggravated assault with a deadly weapon from a bar that was at least a 2.5-hour walk away. I was arrested and thrown into the back of the car, while wearing my T-Mobile uniform, the whole time I am pleading with them that I didn’t do this crime, that I was at work and to call my boss, he will tell them. I was told by an Officer to shut up and that all people from my neighbourhood are guilty and that anyone with “Black” is straight up wrong and guilty of being alive. AN OFFICER, someone who is supposed to serve and protect. They refused to listen to anything I had to say, didn’t allow me a call to notify anybody and threw me in jail and as they threw me in there, the arresting officer called me a “dirty ghetto N word.” I spent a month fighting charges that weren’t mine to begin with and that based off my registered ethnicity aka racism, I was automatically guilty. In the end, a judge was smart enough to actually read the whole case and discovered I actually DID NOT fit the description among other things.. However, I was still 1 hearing from going to prison for 10-20 years... all because I was bi-racial and one of those races was black.

I had a grandfather once, we called him mooma. He was an amazing man and one of my hero’s. He was amazing, respected anyone and everyone and would love to talk proverbs with you. A god-fearing man. When I was young, he had an “accident” that left him permanently blind. By accident I mean white supremacists thought it would be fun and an act of god to my mooma who was simply asking if there was biracial kid books within a bookstore. After he left the bookstore that’s when they jumped him. The APD did nothing and refused to file a police report and dropped my mooma off at a mental health area instead of a hospital.  Years from that incident, my mooma would leave for a work trip to Texas and would never return home. My mooma became just another black man gone missing. When we went to report it to the police, we waited 3 hours to file the report while other White families were served asap. When they got around to us, they never wrote anything down and said he probably had a 2nd family because he’s black.... My mooma was murdered by White people who thought they were better then my grandfather...Who didn’t care he had a family waiting for him and a granddaughter waiting for the next critter book. Someone deemed my mooma was not fit to live simply because he was a black man.

As I grew up, I took note how other kids would be treated compared to myself and the people within my neighbourhood. When my uncle would take me to the aquarium, we would be questioned for 5 minutes on the pricing of the aquarium and how there was no guns or drugs allowed. During this time, the white families were let through with no problems. The black families were always questioned and lectured. When I went to school I noticed the kids from my church had better books, their books went to Bill Clinton, my books went to Jimmy Carter. They were assigned homework and readings, I went to class with the lesson on the board with maybe only 4-5 kids in the classroom while our teacher read the newspaper or a book, the white kids teachers were invested in their future. 

As I went into high school, I started attending church with my meema at her request. In her words, “to pray the white devil out of you.” While my meema was busy praying for the white devil out of me, I was getting beat up every Sunday in the back of the church for being black by the pastor kids and their friends. They called me every name in the book, called me disgusting, ripped my shirt and spat on me. They always stole my money (as per for my comment a few paragraphs up, I was always broke because of it) In fact, one Sunday they beat me up so badly I went to the hospital. We tried to file a police report but the APD never came... That was the last time we went to that white church. From this moment on, I have only stepped in a church twice.

When I moved back to Canada, I was hopeful that it would be different and more peaceful. In fact, I have heard how not racist Canada is. I have to disagree; it’s just more behind your back, less in your face then back home. I once was told I need to calm down on the alcohol as I’ll fully turn into a “Drunken Savage.” Or not wanting to learn about the culture and mocking it at every moment someone has. Of course, a racist slur towards my Indigenous side.

Even from my Canadian city I reside in, Georgia still inflicts is racist ways on me. The black vote is suppressed to the point legal actions have been launched all around. The white adults can register easily and usually have a flawless voting process. That is not the case for the minority population and people who reside within low income neighbourhoods. To the point, the last election I was given a hard time to register saying my W looks like a V and that I was trying to defraud the voting process. After persistence, I was able to vote but was given 3 faulty ballots that were already filled out for the current president. When asked for new ones each time I was told why wouldn’t I vote for Donald Trump, he loves the poor. On top of that, this year’s voting process was no different and I was given a timeline that was not given to my white friends to register. I was given the run-around and every excuse to vote and was told the same excuse, that my paperwork was filled out with the wrong color pen, that there was problems with a computer system that they don't even use to register or that I was registered within a different state. None of this was an issue before they read where I was from and the ethnicity on file... 

The above is just a taste of the racism I have experienced/witnessed. It’s a daily battle within myself to love myself and embrace all that I am. The Black, the white and the indigenous. I still avoid mirrors, most photos and you will never catch me at the beach or the pool in fear my hair get’s wet and you see that little hint of curl come to light. 

So yes, these protests are justifiable. Yes, the Atlanta protests were the first turn to ugly and violent.. It’s because we are angry and it’s not just these few incidents, it’s a history of corruption, systemic and blatant racism. It’s years of oppression and anger bubbling it’s ugly head to the surface. I can assure you, it’s always been there..I end this blog with one of my favourite quotes from a movie “The Great Debaters” (If you have not seen it you should!) 

“Saint Augustine said, "An unjust law is no law at all," which means I have a right, even a duty, to resist -- with violence or civil disobedience...You should pray I choose the latter.”

[stupidspaceseven]

A Memori Fic Rec

Hi Friends! In the spirit of celebrating memori engagement week I’ve decided to celebrate some of my favorite fics! Under the cut are a range of fics in different genres and ratings, divided between canon fics and AUs. It’s long but by no means exhaustive. All these fics are completed ;) Happy reading!

Canon Compliant Fics

How All This, And Love Too, Will Ruin Us by biextroverts

Rating: T, One-shot; Genre: Found Family/Angst

Emori finds a family and loses a lover on the Ring.

A great Ring fic that covers the six years in space. I’ve only read it once because it made me That Sad, which is really a testament to how well writting and IC it is, so if you’re a sucker for angst and raven&emori friendship definitely give this a read. 

The Lotus Eaters by maelidify: @maelidpoetree​

Rating: M (no smut), One shot; Genre: Fluff, Character Study

“I don’t like this place, John,” she said. “We’re not safe here.”

Am I partial to this fic because it was a gift to me? Yes, but I firmly believe that more people need to read it and that the author deserves more recognition in general! This pre 4.08 science island fic is sweet and romantic but explores inner conflicts of nature in such a beautiful way (with some awesome anecdotes and metaphors). All her writing is beautiful and poetic and it’s worth your while to go through her memori tag to find/read the stuff she hasn’t posted on AO3.

Cataclysmic by maelidify; @maelidpoetree​

Rating: E (by author request don’t read if you’re not 18+) One-shot, Genre: Angst

She’s looking up at him, half angry, half looking for permission for something. For what—?

Oh.

More breakup angst!! This remains the best Murphy POV I’ve read, it’s messy and angry and sad and the fic tears me up a little every time. I’d even recommend this to people who don’t like/read smut because, while present, it’s tasteful and really this fic is about all the emotions. If the two fics in a row haven’t clued you in just read everything Liz writes, because I don’t have space to talk about all her fics but they are all worth your time!!

First Impressions by interlude; @bombshellsandbluebells

Rating: T, One-shot; Genre: Drama

John Murphy comes back to Arkadia with an unfamiliar grounder woman. The Arkadians and former delinquents react.

(Or: Memori seen from different points of view. Takes places between 4x03 and 4x04.)

Personally I’m a big sucker for outsider POV fics, and the author does a great job with keeping all those outsiders in character and addressing their most pressing motivations while keeping memori in the spotlight of the fic. The story has all the urgency present in s4 and fills in some of the gaps nicely!

The Wild by Debate; @stupidspaceseven

Rated: M, Multichapter; Genre: Fluff

When Emori points up at the sky, it’s with a pointer finger twice the width of his own. He locks away the knowledge that she trusts him deep inside his chest.

[Post Wanheda 2, detailing Murphy and Emori's early season 3 adventures as they grow to mean the world to each other.]

This one is a shameless self-promotion, but I’m recommending it because I think it’s really good!! Fun shenanigans, theft, first kisses, angsty backstory reveals, smut, this fic basically has the works, and I’m like, 98% sure it’s the longest memori canon complaint fic out there. (I have a host of other memori fics, canon compliant and otherwise if you want to check those out too, but this one’s my personal favorite).

Canon Divergent AUs

Her What If List by the_most_beautiful_broom; @the-most-beautiful-broom​

Rating: G, One-shot; Genre: Meet Cute/Ugly

Memori Appreciation Week: Day One: Canon Divergence

Emori and Otan's latest robbery goes awry when the mark ends up being very much awake, but all's well that end's well, and an unexpected connection is made in the middle of the desert.

And she wonders if his eyes weren’t just sad, that they were just asleep. Because maybe it’s the fire, or the fading adrenaline, but now Emori can swear his eyes are sparkling. Which is a stupid thing to think. She’s in the middle of the dead zone, with a gun that isn’t a gun, and a man who could be conning her just like she’s trying to con him.

A really imaginative AU with Grounder!Murphy. This puts our characters in a familiar situation but makes it new and unique. Emori’s POV is both critical and vulnerable and the memori banter is amazing!

home is what the heart protects by emperor_bell

Rating: G, One-shot; Genre: Family/Friendship

"John Murphy had lived a hundred lifetimes in his year on the ground and yet still, somehow, after a year of living in space again, nineteen year old John Murphy hears the word “dad” and his first thought is 'I’m too young.'"

I'm obsessed with the thought of Emori having a baby in space, and I set out to write Memori parents. Instead I wrote 2k words of John Murphy feelings. Enjoy.

More messy feelings! The dialogue here and what characters (mostly Murphy) do versus what they think and say is really interesting and makes for an engaging read. Plus a look at how complicated memori as parents would be and a super angsty sequel if that’s the kind of thing you’re into!

Taking A Village by Zaffie

Rated: M, Multichapter; Genre: Found Family/Survival

Once they get it all sorted, the technical aspect of living on the Ring turns out to be the easy part. It's the rest which is hard. Everyone's got their personal demons to face - except when you're seven people trapped together for five-plus years, "personal" is easier said than done.

This one is much less memori-centric than spacekru-centric, but it’s probably my favorite Ring fic, and the AU aspects just make it better. Both Murphy and Emori are incredibly in character and their chapter is beautiful and sad. If you happen to also be a big Spacekru or Raven fan this fic is a must. Also there’s a great sequel in the works!

I know the sound of your heart by dylanobrienisbatman; @dylanobrienisbatman

Rating: G, One-shot; Genre: Fluff

Bellamy fought hard, and got them the 80 acres on the edge of the valley. They built a house, big enough for all of them, they had a farm, they were happy and safe. Emori should be happy, she should feel like it was enough, but it wasn't. She and John were still apart, and their history made her scared to try.

But as time went on, she watched as John became part of the group. She kept waiting for the other shoe to drop, but the longer she waited, the more it seemed like he was really better.

Was it time to give him another chance?

The soft spacekru feels in this one are almost as great as the memori ones which feature reconciliation and addressing their s5 issues in a healthy way. The lead up to them getting back together is as good the second go around as in the first.

eat, drink, and be merry by flowermasters

Rating: G, One-shot; Genre: Fluff

Murphy and Emori do what they can to improve morale.

So this is the wedding fic that everybody needs in these hours. There’s a healthy dose of spacekru to make it all the ore sweeter and Murphy and Emori are adorably in love while trying to maintain their aloof and uncaring reputations. This fic did so much to heal my soul while in the depth of the s5 angst. 

In This Valley by Kats_watermelon; @katswatermelon​

Rating: T, One-shot; Genre: Angst/Fluff/Kidfic

written for day 1 of memori week, prompt: canon divergence 

This is mostly a really fun spec fic if God Complex went worse and Murphy and Emori got six years alone on Earth. There are big shifts in tone from the start to the end of the fic, but they feel earned and memori have a cure kid in addition to Madi and you get to see them square up with Diyoza asap. Something for everyone!

Life After the Mountain by Ghelik; @ghelikblack 

Rating: T, Series of One-shots; Genre: Hurt/Comfort

The Mountain falls and the grounders keep their distance, because the Sky-People are soldiers that have earned their respect and the lands of the Mountain that they have conquered. Which is good, because skaikru might need a break.

Series of one-shots in an AU where season 3 kind of didn't happen, but elements of it might be borrowed from.

This one is a little different because it’s a series of one shots and not all of them deal with memori but the fair majority of them do, and it’s a great what-if of how Murphy and Emori learn to function in society in a (sort of) kinder world. There’s lots of angst and vulnerability and feelings of inadequacy as well as fluff and healing. The fics span genres so there’s probably something for everybody!

Burn brighter than we ever have before by Zoadgo; @jonnmurphy

Rating: G, One-shot; Genre: Drama

Murphy flees an unknown threat in the Promised Land, running right back to the desert that almost killed him the first time he crossed it. It seems intent on fixing its past failures, and Murphy isn't strong enough to fight it on his own, this time. But someone from his past offers him a chance to survive, and even to prosper in the Dead Zone. That is, if he can bring himself to trust someone who has already betrayed him once.

Another great Murphy POV with additional cool (or hot, rather) desert descriptions and personal conflict. It’s a cool what-if and explores how things could have gone down if t100 didn’t go full scifi. Most of all Murphy and Emori’s understandings of each other/immediate connection shine through. 

Show Them the Mercy They Won’t Find on Earth by berxnica

Rating: NA (no smut), One-shot; Genre: Drama

she just showed up swollen and scared, eyes so impossibly big that they left no room for a smile. she pulled murphy aside and removed the blanket that she previously was clutching to her stomach. and there it was, her stomach, swollen and full and round with the promise of life.

Another memori becoming parents fic, but in a different era. The character understanding shines through in the prose here. Our faves are suspicious and afraid and angry while still being soft with one another. If kidfic is your thing at all it’s def worth your time!

Earth Skills: Reap What You Sow by BeaRyan

Rating: E, Multichapter; Genre: Crack/Smut

That week everyone got high on mutant corn and John Murphy realized juvenile prison might not have taught him everything he needed to know about how to please a woman. Canon adjacent.

This is a Memori story from John Murphy's snark-tastic POV and as such contains minor whomp of everyone. Complete.

This story contains a multitude of side pairings, but it is really good for a laugh, and despite being cracky Murphy and Emori’s feelings are very real and present and sweet. A grand ‘ole fic.  

AUs

Litany by infernalandmortal; @infernalandmortal

Rating: T, Mulichapter; Genre: Angst, Hurt/Comfort

After leaving an abusive relationship, Murphy moves into his best friend's house. He's fine, really. Their new roommate comes with more than enough baggage of her own.

(A Memori college AU)

If you read memori fic chances are you’ve read this, but it’s definitely worth reiterating! Great writing really brings forth raw emotions from both Murphy and Emori’s POVs and a lot of reading this fic is like getting sucker punched in the best way. There’s also a nice side helping of found family feels, and you get it all in Amanda’s lovely prose (her setting descriptions? kill me) truly a must read.

Little Beast by infernalandmortal: @infernalandmortal

Rating: T, Multichapter

Genre: Angst, Hurt/Comfort

John meets her eyes from across the room. What are you running from? his eyes ask.

Nothing, she blinks back. Everything.

“Will I see you again?” His eyes are trying not to be earnest. They are a strange shade of blue-green in the flickering yellow street light outside her house. They are uncomfortably difficult to read.

“Maybe.” It’s all she can give. She’s supposed to fear boys like this. “I’d like to.”

(A Memori-centric small-town AU. Title and opening excerpts from Little Beast by Richard Siken.)

Less angsty than Litany, but no less emotional, this fic is *chef’s kiss*. The fic features Murphy and Emori growing together and becoming family with one another while trying to manage their pasts. The growth the characters have through the fic is amazing and the ending make me feel all kinds of Soft. There are also bonus drabbles in the same ‘verse. And after you read those you might as well read everything else by this author because her stories are numerous and amazing. 

Don’t be surprised if I love you (for all that you are) by not_a_total_basket_case; @raven-reyes-of-sunshine​

Rating: G, One-shot

Genre: Fluff

Emori doens't want to find her soulmate, she wants to make that choice herself.

Who doesn’t like a good soulmate AU? The mechanics of soulmates in this AU are really unique and structured in a way to make the payoff at the end all the better. It’s a great friends to lovers story, and the supporting cast is lovely too, this fic make you feel all warm inside. 

Tired of Yourself and All of Your Creations by Chash

Rating: T, One-shot

Genre: Fluff/Drama

Murphy didn't ask to be successful and relatively wealthy and friends with people in good standing in society. It just sort of happened, and now there are all these families who apparently think he'd be a good match for their daughters. Being a respectable member of society is a pain, really.

I certainly didn’t know I needed a memori Regancy!AU until I read this, but the characterizations were picture perfect and the plot quick and smart without getting pulled down by the type of dialogue common in regency writing. A very fun AU!

Quiet Thought Come Floating Down and Settle by LayALioness

Rating: T, One-shot; Genre: Drama/Fluff

When Murphy meets the girl, it’s not under the best circumstances.

A great example of canon transferred to modern AU well with prickly Murphy and mysterious Emori. The story is fast paced and all of Murphy’s inner musings and snark are highly amusing. 

traitors never win by Kats_watermelon; @katswatermelon​

Rating: T, Multichapter; Genre: Crime/Drama

Murphy's been kicked out of his crew. Emori's been alone for a while now. They both have a knack for robbery and dreams bigger than their pasts, and they're willing to steal from anyone and everyone to prove it.

If you like the high drama this is for you, a very edge of your seat read with a great payoff at the end. Lovely dialogue as well and a combo of both Murphy’s and Emori’s POVs.

Golden by frikdreina;

Rating: E, One-shot; Genre: Smut/Fluff

It was their two years anniversary and Emori had planned this for weeks. Murphy would be at her place after seven and Emori skipped her last period so she could get everything done before he got there. Her heart was pounding as she unlocked the door to her apartment, the thrill of anticipation taking over her. It was like if electricity was running through her veins and she couldn’t get enough of it, with her mind drifting to the way he kissed her and how his touch had always felt right on her skin.

If you’re just looking for some hot and sweet memori smut this is the fic for you! Doesn’t get into anything too kinky and remains intimate throughout with great descriptions. 

she’s the tear in my heart by flowermasters

Rating: M, One-shot; Genre: Fluff/Drama

Murphy is in love with the girl he's sleeping with, and is incredibly bad at handling it.

Oh man This Fic. The banter is amazing and full of little call backs and tie ins, the descriptions speak to Murphy and Emori so well and transfer to a modern AU so easily. The fic is lovely and if you want something where Murphy and Emori are just dumb about their feelings than this is for you. Another author to keep your eye on if you like memori (or becho) fics. 

[drybonesawaken]

A group of people wanted to share a journal together. So this week, I've been journaling (almost) every day, and tomorrow I'm gonna be passing it onto the next person.

It was kinda fun. Bit scary to put my thoughts out there - but not that bad tbh. I figured since I am not gonna keep the journal I should transcribe my thoughts somewhere, so here they are.

Yes, the math bits were included in the journal when I wrote. Just something fun I did. You can try to figure out if it means anything if you want :)

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Maple 3.27.21

I don't like journaling .-. mah handwriting sucks, and pen ink takes too long to dry. Apologies If any of this page is smudged as a result ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ And no, Maple does not use anything but pen. When mistakes are made, and trust they will definitely be made, you see a lot of bleh <- that. I also missed like three words in the previous sentence, but it's messy to try to go back and put them in :( this is the consequence of writing when brain is running at negative mph... This may be two paragraphs of nothing, but honestly that's how my day goes, usually. Right now I'm listening to this audiobook to fill up my brain and stop it from thinking. It's quite interesting. I read the book back in middle school, and it's taking me on a trip down memory lane. I was listening to this earlier while playing tetris, too. I'm joining a tetris tournament tomorrow, so I've been grinding this week. Hopefully it goes well! It's funny how I spend so much time playing this game which means so little - but somehow, I find fulfillment in the emptiness that it brings me. Breaking personal records is such a meaningless ordeal, but somehow it's something I strive so hard to do. These days, PBs come once every couple of months. It's not worth it.

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Maple 3.28.21

Today felt like I did everything and nothing all at the same time. I found out I don't like tetris tournaments. I hung out with some friends. I ate a big dinner. I made some choices I highkey regretted, yet couldn't stop myself from making in the moment. I spent some time sulking over said mistakes by cuddling with roommate. Very thankful for him - I definitely make him so uncomfortable LOL but he puts up with it because he knows touch is my love language. I was debating for awhile today over what I should eat for dinner (or breakfast or lunch or whatever you want to call it :') ) and I realized what I wanted to eat most was my own cooking. Unfortunately, I wasn't feeling like cooking, so I had to settle for something else, but this was kind of a wake up call: when's the last time I cooked for myself? hmmm... It's also at the same time pretty cool because less than a year ago, I was still at a place where I strongly disliked my cooking and only ate it because I had to. Crazy how things can change in just a year - my culinary skills must have improved a lot over last summer... I really need to get my car tires fixed tomorrow. I have time tomorrow. I had better go. If I don't, my car is gonna break.

How does one stop beating themselves up for their mistakes? I don't struggle with forgiveness, but oh how I struggle with forgiving myself...

1 + 2 = 4 = 2

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Maple 3.30.21

Yesterday, we had to record something for Easter that took forever. It was not fun. I kept messing up. And my perfectionist self kept blabbering about wanting to redo certain things. Everyone was tired - it went so long - some people had exams; I can only imagine how annoying it must have been to hear me complaining about doing things again, and yet - and I hate myself for this - I couldn't help but keep bringing it up. Of course, being unsatisfied with the way I played, I volunteered to patch things up in post production. *sigh*, what a mistake that ended up being. Afterwards, I was tired and wanted to go home. Yet, because someone asked, and I guess I was a bit hungry, I decided to go get food with Junshik and Bryan. My ulterior motive was to talk to Bryan about buying cars, so I guess that worked out. But yikes, I only got 7 hours of sleep last night. - Today sucked. I'm realizing more and more that part of depression is the complete dependence on sleep. When I get not enough sleep, I'm not just fatigued: my life is just hell. I straight up no-showed to a meeting and apologized for it 8 hours after the fact (my excuse was that I feel asleep. Wow, something so embarrassing most people would find an excuse for it has now become my go to excuse. Rip). Went to a meetup because I didn't want to cancel - again - so that was fun (sorry if you're reading this. I lied when I said that I was ok :/). Life group was great I wanted to die but I was leading worship so I couldn't just leave. And oh yeah I just spent the last 4 hours after life group mixing that audio clip because stupid ol' me volunteered to do it asap yesterday. Tomorrow will be fun. I have 7 meetings/meetups from 9am to 8pm. I wonder how many I'll cancel last minute, or straight up skip...? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I hate ______.

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Maple 3.31.21

9am to 8pm today was rough. It's kinda crazy - when I wake up, I knew it wasn't gonna be a good day...but I really needed it to be at least an okay day. And I think I somehow willed that into existence :O I need to try this again sometime. Didn't cancel or skip a single thing today! (Praise God!!!) After my meetings all ended, I had to tutor for another 3 hours until 11:30, too. That was draining. I also pranked a friend today - told her I was dating right after midnight. Oh I love April Fools. She's the only one I can consistently troll year after year. I also spent a considerable amount of time after midnight trying to figure out how to script Audacity in Python. Useless, sure, but it could save us sound people a couple of minutes every Sunday if I figure it out. This is what my degree is for :') Sleep is going to feel so good tonight.

5 + 4 - 7 = 2 + 1 11 + 1 + 1 - 1 = 6 4 + 2 = 3 5 = 2 + 2 - 3 5 = 4 - 1 - 2

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Maple 4.2.21

I think my handwriting is getting better with this almost-daily practice =) This whole week has been busy-ness from when I wake up to when I go to bed. Hung out with people yesterday for the first time this week, and it was pretty tiring. I can't say I regret it though; I had a lot of fun and learned a lot about certain people. Recently, I've been noticing that people can tell when I'm tired a lot more obviously - someone on worship team who I only interact with on Sundays literally called me out for it. I'm finding that it just sort of slips onto my face, in such a way that I don't notice and can't even recognize it: I'm shocked every time it happens. Maybe it's because I've lost the will to live, so the lack of will to hide it came alongside as well. I accidentally let it slip that I've been brain empty to worship team today, and now there are even more people worried for me, some of whom I barely know. I'm such a burden :( Brain empty is honestly such a mood though. I have too many problems and not enough will to confront them. Better to just avoid. Yeah yeah yeah this is not healthy I know. I'll save doing things the healthy way for tomorrow :')

1 + 1 = 4 + 3 + 2 + 1 8 = 7 6 - 5 = 10 + 1 1 + 2 = 1 - 1

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Maple 4.3.21

Today was supposed to be a more chill day, but it really wasn't... Forced myself to get out of bed for a meetup rather than cancel it. I think if I had cancelled it, everything else I had to do today would have followed suit shortly after.... It ended up being a 2-hour meetup, straight into 2.5 hours of tutoring. As much as they might have been pretty ok tbh, I can't say I enjoyed it. I was so dead afterwards. I wanted to cancel my dinner meetup so bad. But I had already gone shopping earlier today (during the first meetup) so that I could cook for him. And I knew if I cancelled it'd be another week before I'd have a chance. The food would have gone bad. So following 2 tilt-inducing matches of tetris which were supposed to be stress relieving (they were not), commenced 2 hours of cooking, followed by a 3.5 hr meetup. It was... haha... Did I enjoy it? Yup. Did I have a hella-thick mask on the whole time? Also yup. I'm so ready for a long hot shower and an early bedtime. Tomorrow is Easter. I'm not feeling very victorious...

1 + 2 = 4 - 1 1 + 1 - 1 + 1 = 1 1 + 2 + 3 - 4 = 4 - 1 - 2 + 1

[dangerouslycleverbooks]

MARCH WRAP UP???

Hi everyone!

So I decided that Saturdays will be the day of posts. Posts in other days than Saturday will be more random and probably shorter. I do realize that it’s the middle of the month of April and that everyone kind of forgot about March, but I’m about to post my March wrap up anyway.

Because in March I’ve read 9 books I will try to write it as short as I can. It’s not a lot, but I’m not disappointed, because as I said before there are 8 books I need to read per month (because of my reading challange for 2018). Not only I wasn’t disapointed by the number of the books, but also the contents; from all of 9 books I’ve enjoyed every single one, some more, some less, but there is no book I’ve give less than 3*.

The first book I’ve read in March was Good Night Stories for Rebel Girls by Elena Favilli and Francesca Cavallo. I’ve enjoyed these stories. I wish I had this book when I was younger. It’s inspiring and really well written. Most important it’s not only “book for children”, it’s something that we all can learn something from. Not only young girls and what’s most people haven’t noticed; not only girls. While I get a lot of women that were mention in book are not a really good examples to be followed for good girls, the book is not about being GOOD. It’s for a rebel girls for goodness sake! The book is about powerful and influential women, which sometimes doesn’t go along with being “the good girl”.

The next book was Before I Let Go written by Marieke Nijkamp. Best friends Corey and Kyra were inseparable in their snow-covered town of Lost Creek, Alaska. When Corey moves away, she makes Kyra promise to stay strong during the long, dark winter, and wait for her return. Just days before Corey is to return home to visit, Kyra dies. Corey is devastated―and confused. The entire Lost community speaks in hushed tones about the town’s lost daughter, saying her death was meant to be. And they push Corey away like she’s a stranger. Corey knows something is wrong. With every hour, her suspicion grows. Lost is keeping secrets―chilling secrets. But piecing together the truth about what happened to her best friend may prove as difficult as lighting the sky in an Alaskan winter… Though I haven’t gave this book 5* it’s still one of my favorite storie I have ever read! I love the concept, getting to know characters, the wat Marieke wrote this book, not unnecessary the style. I don’t want to say too much because I’m afraid I could destroy you the reading experience.

Another book, or should I say graphic novel, is The Mortal Instruments; The Graphic Novel Vol I. Hanging out with her best friend, Simon, is just about the most exciting thing in Clary’s life…that is, until she realizes there are people only she can see. But when her mother disappears and a monster attacks her, Clary has to embrace a world that she never even knew existed–a world full of vampires, werewolves, demons, and those who fight for the humans, Shadowhunters. I love the idea of the graphic novel for The Mortal Instruments because the first books from the series aren’t really good for older teens and adults. They could easily skip the first three books by reading the graphic version of them! For now, there is only the first half of City of Bones (the first book from TMI series) but there will be more! And hopefully we will get them at least to City of Glass. I recommend buying this edition not only for people who are a bit too grown for the way CoB was writte, but for everyone. It’s fun, the illustrations are really good and also there is one scene that was missing from the original book!

The fourth book from March wrap up is Daughter of the Pirate King by Tricia Levensellet. Sent on a mission to retrieve an ancient hidden map—the key to a legendary treasure trove—seventeen-year-old pirate captain Alosa deliberately allows herself to be captured by her enemies, giving her the perfect opportunity to search their ship. More than a match for the ruthless pirate crew, Alosa has only one thing standing between her and the map: her captor, the unexpectedly clever and unfairly attractive first mate, Riden. But not to worry, for Alosa has a few tricks up her sleeve, and no lone pirate can stop the Daughter of the Pirate King. It’s really typical YA novel and from the synopsys you can clearly say it is cheesy, but I really enjoyed my time reading this. I hope the next book (because it is a duology, and  I haven’t gave you the name of the sequel for a reason; it’s pretty spoilering). Maybe I liked it because the book is about pirates and sea adventures, and I’m all about it! I don’t have problems with light books (and this was definitely one) I also don’t have any stipulations with it. But I do have some thoughts starting with „this could be better if…”. I wasn’t the big fan of a romance in it, but I believe that Levenseller will make it up with another books!

The next two books are my rereads and the first one is Clockwork Angel by Cassandra Clare. The year is 1878. Tessa Gray descends into London’s dark supernatural underworld in search of her missing brother. She soon discovers that her only allies are the demon-slaying Shadowhunters—including Will and Jem, the mysterious boys she is attracted to. Soon they find themselves up against the Pandemonium Club, a secret organization of vampires, demons, warlocks, and humans. Equipped with a magical army of unstoppable clockwork creatures, the Club is out to rule the British Empire, and only Tessa and her allies can stop them… I’ve reread this book because I am taking part in rereading Clare’s books before Queen Of Air And Darkness release. I have to admit when I first read Clockwork Angel I wasn’t a big fan of it, especially the love trangle. During the reading this book this month I focus on London and the case they were into, I’ve tried to ignore the love affairs and I have to say, I was really pleased with it. I’m not saying that I’m madly in love with Infernal Devieces and it’s not my favorite series by Cassandra, but it definitely jump on higher place.

My second reread is the first book of my favorite duology of all times (which are basically on the same place as Shades of Magic by V.E. Schwab), and that is Six of Crows by Leigh Berdugo. Ketterdam: a bustling hub of international trade where anything can be had for the right price–and no one knows that better than criminal prodigy Kaz Brekker. Kaz is offered a chance at a deadly heist that could make him rich beyond his wildest dreams. But he can’t pull it off alone… A convict with a thirst for revenge. A sharpshooter who can’t walk away from a wager. A runaway with a privileged past. A spy known as the Wraith. A Heartrender using her magic to survive the slums. A thief with a gift for unlikely escapes. Six dangerous outcasts. One impossible heist. Kaz’s crew is the only thing that might stand between the world and destruction—if they don’t kill each other first. If you still wonder about buying this book… don’t wonder, just buy it! If you already read The Grisha trilogy, buy Six of Crows asap! Or if you’re not really interesting in reading The Grisha, just jump right into it! I am really mad at myslef for ignoring Six of Crows because of the hype, but it really is worth it, at least for me. There is no words that can describe my love for this book. The first time I’ve read this book in January of 2018 and I immediately had to jump into the second book! I’ve finished SoC at 9 AM and right after this I went to local book store and bought Crooked Kingdom! Still it wasn’t enough so I ended up wanting to reread both books! First time I focused only on the story and the task they had to do, which basically made me miss a lot of really important things in relation between characters. Probably with the third reread (which will probably happen in the next 4 months) I will find something else. Six of Crows is connected to The Grisha trilogy and some people says it’s not necessary to know it before reading duology. I do believe it is better to read Grisha first because there you have the whole magic system and most important thing of this world is in it. Plus Six of Crows happened after The Grisha series which basically means you might find some spoilers, not big one, but still spoilers. I personally read Six of Crows first, but if I could I would definitely start with The Grisha series.

And now the book that I did enjoy but not that much… and everybody seems to love it… and after years of trying reading it I finally finished it. Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone or if you prefer The Sorcerer’s Stone by none other but J.K. Rowling. Everybody probably knows what this book is about so I won’t write about it. And to be clear I love the world of HP, I love the films, I love the story, I love characters… it’s just, the book (THE FIRST BOOK) was not for me. I dislike the first movie from the series as well so maybe it’s just how it is. And maybe because I wasn’t growing with the books or that they are written for kids… I didn’t get it.  The only thing I liked about this book was the exploring the world all over again. More details about it etc. For me the worst part of the book (and I do get why it was shown this way, but it still was really pissing me off) is the hate towards Slytherin. That everybody in this house have to be evil. Like they are the worst. (I also might be a bit offended because it’s my Hogwart house).  But I will continue the series becuase after all I didn’t hate the book. It was okay, just not something I am madly in love with… or at love at all. I hope the next books will be better, I’m especially excited about The Half Blood Prince which is my favorite part when it comes to movies. I hope to love this series just as everybody else so much! Let’s hope I will.

Let’s move on to two the best books of March, and the first one is… Strange the Dreamer by Taylor Laini. I am so suprised that I loved this book so much. The dream chooses the dreamer, not the other way around—and Lazlo Strange, war orphan and junior librarian, has always feared that his dream chose poorly. Since he was five years old he’s been obsessed with the mythic lost city of Weep and when a stunning opportunity presents itself, in the person of a hero called the Godslayer and a band of legendary warriors who proposed an expedition … to someone else. Because I’m writing full review about this book, I am not gonna write here much. I really do love Lazlo and the storie following his person, and not only his! I am really happy I did buy Strange the Dreamer and I cannot wait to hear more stories from Laini because she’s an amazing author!

And finally probably best of the best reads of this year is A Conjuring of Light by one and only, amazing V.E. Schwab. I absolutely adore Shades of Magic trilogy, it stole my heart with the first sentence! Because A Conjuring of Light is the third book in a series I won’t write anything about it, except the fact that it did broke my heart and left me empty, and yet the ending was so satisfying and beautiful that I cannot complain, but I do need more. And I heard we will get the stories set five years after the Shades of Magic, but we will see what will happen! For now, I will just highly recommend you this trilogy.

Well, I hope you enjoyed my little wrap up and that people won’t jump on me becuase of Harry Potter… we all should respect each others opinion, I mean, everybody has a right to have one (..right?). But that’s it for much, thanks to anyone who read this and let me know down in a comments what was your reads of the month of march and what was your favorite? 🙂

[romanssippycup]

Undeniably Important Chapter 3: Restraunt Restraint

250 FOLLOWERS!? WHAT!? You guys are too good to me!! I love each and every one of you. And to celebrate I thought I would put up the next chapter I wrote. I hope you all enjoy! (Taglist at the bottom. Yes. I’m manning up and making a gosh darn to stay taglist. Gotta go through and find everyone again.)

Chapter 1 -- Chapter 2

8:10 am

Thomas had sat down on his couch waiting for his aspects to spring up from the mind palace. He had sent the summon about a minute before and expected a quicker response.

"You called?" Princey sprung up striking his fanciful pose.

"Hey Princey! I'll talk about what I called everyone for once they all get here."

"Alright. As you wish Thomas. Patton is just turning off the stove, he will be up soon."

Thomas gave a bewildered look. "You guys eat breakfast too?"

"Well yes of course. We need energy same as you."

"What did Patton make for breakfast?"

"Bacon and Waffles."

"And you didn't invite me!?"

"Well it seemed as if you had your breakfast under control."

"But that sounds much better than Oatmeal and a granola bar." Thomas whined slightly. "Did he make it for all of you?"

"Yes. Patton usually makes breakfast. I create lunch for everyone. Dinner is quite random. It really depends on the night." Roman scratched his head thoughtfully.

"Has Anxiety or Logan ever cooked?"

Roman's face fell slightly at the mention of the trait he had hurt earlier that morning. "Yes. Logan does cook. His meals are exquisite. Anxiety, on the other hand, has only ever cooked once and it wasn't anything fancy, not that he really is fancy."

"I heard that." Anxiety popped up on the stairs.

"Hey Anxiety." Thomas half waved to him.

"Hey Thomas." Anxiety greeted him with the same amount of enthusiasm.

"Well, its true you aren't that fancy. I mean all you made was Mac n' Cheese."

"Yeah, but its better than that carrot cake you 'attempted' to make."

"Logan liked it."

"Yeah. And only Logan."

"Speaking of the teacher, where exactly is he?" Thomas inquired. "He's usually one of the first ones here."

"Having a mental breakdown in his room." Anxiety stated while looking at his fingernails.

"What?!" Thomas was shocked and Princey looked down at the ground feeling very guilty.

"I'll let Roman tell you why. He still needs to apologize." And with that Anxiety sunk back down.

"Roman. What happened?" Thomas looked sternly at Princey.

"Well-"

Suddenly Morality entered the conversation. "Princey was singing this morning and played a really funny prank on Logic, but Princey took it too far when he said that it didn't matter because Logic couldn't feel anything anyways."

Thomas gasped. "You said that?!"

Roman looked at his feet. "Yes."

"And you didn't even apologize?"

"I also thought that didn't matter because he wouldn't understand the mushy 'I'm sorry' business. He hasn't understood it in the past." Roman assumed his fanciful pose.

Thomas rubbed the bridge of his nose in disbelief.

"Then I told him to do it anyway. Logan may not understand feelings, but he does understand when someone says something mean and means it. He understands logical emotions such as trust, honesty, and loyalty. I know that's more of my department, but Logic is always included in building friendships. He understands the cause and effects of people's choices." Morality stated.

"Wow. That...makes sense. Okay Roman. When Logan gets up here you will apologize."

"Oh alright. I suppose I should." Roman clicked his tongue in obvious regret for his mistake.

"That was a fun movie night last night though." Thomas changed the subject to get Princey's mind on something else.

"Yes it was fun! It was too bad those two fell asleep so early. That was the first time I saw Logan ever sleep out in the living room. He must have been tired." Patton scratched his chin.

"His sleeping position was hilarious." Roman pointed out.

"It was almost as if he was sleep reading." Morality giggled.

"He's such a nerd I swear." Roman chuckled.

"An important nerd though." Thomas pointed at Roman warningly.

"Yes yes alright. You do need him Thomas."

"And so do you Princey." Morality teasingly and playfully punched prince in the shoulder.

"Yes I suppose I do need him too."

"What was that Roman?" Logan appeared and gave Roman a slightly haughty look.

"Hey Logan!" Thomas and Morality both said at about the same time.

"Salutations." He waved back.

"I was just saying how you were a nerd and-" The looks Roman got from Morality and Thomas slightly destroyed his ego.

"Okay! Okay! Fine. Logan I am sorry. Yes I played a silly trick on you and I am not sorry for that. But what I am sorry for, is pretending that I knew who you were and how you would react."

"Yes. Your apology is accepted Roman, but you said something else right before I appeared."

"Ugh! Fine. I and Thomas both need you." Princey huffed. He had been defeated.

"'Thomas and I'. But, thank you for apologizing Roman. So often we sides tend to hurt each other's... "feelings", because we hardly know anything personal about our counterparts. Perhaps if we spent more time together, that wouldn't be the case." Logan rubbed his chin thoughtfully.

The room went silent. Morality, Roman and Thomas were obviously thinking about what Logan had just suggested.

"We have spent time together. That's when everything goes downhill and we get hurt." Anxiety reentered. "This morning was a perfect example."

"I don't think Logan is just talking about movie nights and board games, Anxiety." Morality chimed in.

"Yes and we wouldn't be rolling down hills either Anxiety. That practice is very unsafe."

"Ugh. Again with taking me literally." Anxiety slinked back and leaned against the wall.

"I love that you're all trying to think up of ways to get to know each other better, but I kind of need some help right now." Thomas slightly butted in as he wanted his situation dealt with asap.

"Oh yes of course, Thomas. That is what we are here for." Princey's ego had resurfaced.

"What can we do for you Thomas?" Logan added.

"I'm just nervous."

"Because you're going out with friends today and they told you to pick the restaurant this time. I know because I saw it on Logan's to do list. Yeah, you should be nervous Thomas. What if you pick a place only you like? They will think you're selfish." Anxiety attacked.

"Nuuuuuu! That's not true!!!" Thomas began to worry.

"Calm down kiddo. Let's not jump to conclusions here. We all know what your friends like, so we can make a judgement based on that." Everyone turned to Morality.

"Since when have you become Logan?" Roman scoffed at Morality.

Anxiety threw up his eyebrows in surprise and Logan had his hands over his mouth in utter shock. "I am very proud of you Patt-"

"We all know your friends like bagels!"

Everyone sighed in disappointment.

"I'm pretty sure only you like bagels Morality." Thomas responded.

"Dang. So close." Logan put his hands down and on hips looking very disappointed.

"But I did like Patton's idea." Thomas thought. "Logan?"

"Yes Thomas?" He turned his head toward his 'host'.

"Could you give me a list of all the possible places we could go that my friends would enjoy?"

Logan snapped and his writing tablet and pen appeared in his hands. "Give me a half an hour and the list will be ready." Logan motioned to Thomas and he sank back down into the mind palace.

"I guess you will call us in a half an hour then?" Princey asked.

Thomas shrugged. "Unless you want to stay and we can start a disney movie together."

"Don't you have chores to do Thomas? You haven't even done laundry in like three weeks." Anxiety huffed in disgust.

"Ugh. Oh fine. Might as well do that before I go out today. Thank you for reminding me Anxiety."

"Your...welc-?"

"Welp! I'm gonna go put the leftovers away. Haha!" With that Patton sank down.

"I too believe I have some unfinished business back in the mind palace, anyways. Toodles!" Roman followed Morality's lead leaving Anxiety and Thomas alone.

"Are you...doing okay Anxiety?" Thomas broke the awkward silence.

"Why does it matter to you?" Anxiety snapped back at him.

"Because whenever you aren't feeling okay, neither am I. I just wanted to empathize with you...even just a little?" Thomas asked sheepishly.

Anxiety looked around at all the places his fellow traits would be, looking for lingerers.

"Ugh. Fine. Look, it wasn't a good morning for me or Logan. I am just really annoyed at everyone right now. Can I go?" Anxiety pointed downward with a very irritated look on his face.

Thomas threw his hands up in the air in defeat. "Sure."

"Thanks..." Anxiety quickly left the real world leaving Thomas alone to do Laundry.

8:32 am

Logan was finishing up his list that Thomas had asked him to write when he heard a knock at his door.

"Who is it?" Logan asked in his normal voice.

"It's your dad, kiddo." Morality sounded as chipper as usual from the other side of the door.

Logan rolled his eyes, stood up, and opened the door. "Is there something I can do for you Morality?"

"Oh nothin' really. I just wanted to let you know I did the dishes for you." He smiled wide.

"But...it was my turn to wash the dishes." Logan was slightly confused.

Morality laughed. "I know Logy. I knew you were busy on Thomas's restaurant list, so I thought you could use one less thing off your mind. Right?" Morality held his arms open wide as if asking for a hug in return.

"Its just Logan." Logic blinked not moving a muscle.

Princey teleported next to Morality.

"Now what I believe Morality wants you to say, Logan, is thank you."

"Thank...you-?" Logan was now very confused.

"Your velcro!"

Silence.

"Morality it's your welcome." Roman looked at him about as confused as Logan now.

"Oh I knew that. I was just thinking velcro might hold your tie in place better, Logan. A small sticky patch that can be put on and removed easily from your clothes might do the trick. I know you hate it when it's messed up." Morality motioned to Logan's necktie.

Logan looked down at his tie and then back up at Morality. "That...is actually a very useful tip. I might just do that Morality. Thank you."

"Darn it Morality. You ruined the moment. It was a good Disney joke too."

"After this morning Princey, I don't think anyone wants to hear anymore Disney jokes."

The three aspects turned to the opposite, protruding corner of the hallway to see Anxiety leaned up against it.

"How would you kn-"

The door that Logan was holding open was now shut and locked from the inside.

"Just saying." Anxiety pushed himself off the wall and made his way to the living room.

Princey and Morality followed him.

"Was Logan's mental breakdown really that..." Once they rounded the corner to enter the living room, Princey's voice trailed off as he realized that Anxiety was no longer there and he was just talking to empty space.

"...bad...?"

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Kogangst - What it Means to be a “Good Leader”

Arghhh, I’m annoyed that I haven’t been working on my headcanons as much recently! I’ve got so many ideas and prompts to work on, but suddenly I have a social life, like wth?! Anyway, I /am/ still writing, though not nearly as much as before. Since there’s less than 8 hours to go until season 3, I thought I would post this headcanon I wrote a couple of weeks ago.

Thank you to @prospails for the prompt! I had great fun doing it and chatting with you (I promise to get around to finishing the other headcanon soon)! If you haven’t checked out their blog, please do! You’re missing out on some quality art!

Prompt: Keith asks Lance if he thinks he’s a good leader.

Apologies for any mistakes and/or OOCness!

The team had just returned from their first mission with Keith acting as leader. It… could’ve gone better. Although they'd managed to save the spacecraft of escapees, quite a few had been caught in the paladins’ conflict with the Galra, most of whom had managed to retreat, unharmed. In the end, the victory was bittersweet.

It was not the first time things hadn’t gone to plan, but to Keith this felt far, /far/ worse than any of their previous mission mishaps. Which, of course, could be traced back to one fact: it was Keith who was now leading the group. That’s what it really boiled down to, and the weight of everyone’s disappointment fell heavily on his shoulders.

During their post-battle meeting, Keith attempted to compliment the others on their accomplishments. He tried to be optimistic, like Shiro would be. Yet, with the reality of his failure set before him, his heart just wasn’t in it, and he was incredibly thankful when Allura quickly picked up the fraying ends of his speech. She spoke about how this was only a learning curve, and that they were all adapting to the new roles they found themselves in. Keith tried to let her words rid him of some of the dreaded guilt that consumed him, but it did little to help.

Afterwards, Keith started to head to the training room, needing to clear his head, only to remember that it was currently being used as makeshift accommodation for the ex-prisoners. In fact, most of the ship was now occupied, and the last thing Keith needed was to have to keep hiding his anger and frustration whilst he was surrounded by people. He /couldn’t/ let them know how much the mission got to him. He’s supposed to be strong, someone they can rely on, to turn to when they were in need. He sighed, wondering for the umpteenth time why the hell Shiro thought Keith should be leader.

Left with few options, Keith made his way to his room, needing a space where he could finally be alone. Maybe then he could bottle up his emotions, since he couldn’t work them off against the gladiator. His door opened with a hiss and he blinked at the sight that met him. 

In the middle of the room, looking very awkward and uncertain, stood Lance. Keith froze. It wasn’t even Lance’s presence that shocked him the most. It was the timid way in which he held himself, shoulders hunched, arms wrapped around himself, one of which reached up to rub self-consciously at his neck.

“Hey, Keith.” No nickname, no insult, no smirk, no sarcasm. This wasn’t a Lance he was familiar with. Keith had glimpsed him in the past, but it was often so quick to dissipate, that he hadn’t really ever interacted with him.

“Hey,” he managed to choke out as a reply, before realising that Lance must have been waiting for him. “Do you… Is there something you need?”

“Yes…? No? I'm not really sure. To be honest, I'm a little shaken up after the mission.” To hear someone else say it, to know that he wasn’t the only one struggling was a little comforting. He had felt so pathetic as he had watched the others keep their composure whilst he was falling apart on the inside.

Suddenly as the fatigue from the mission finally caught up with him, Keith removed his jacket and sat down in his bed. Thankfully, Lance needed no verbal invitation before he joined him, leaning back on the wall. At first, Keith thought he might just be pausing, gathering his thoughts before he started, but after a few minutes, Lance still had not spoken. His silent presence helped calm Keith’s nerves, the tightness in his body slowly fading as he relaxed. Now he was sat still, he could think over the mission.

It had all seemed to be going well, though Keith’s stomach had been cramping with nerves, but then he’d hesitated too long, and the Galra had taken advantage of his uncertainty to attack the escapees’ ship. He had known he could no longer be irrational nor make moves without thinking them through, so he had weighed up his options, and yet those few moments were all it took for the Galra to gain the upper hand. Now Keith had no idea what he should be doing.

“Lance…am I a good leader?” The tone of his voice made his own opinion on the matter very clear. Keith could not trust himself to protect so many others. Instead an immediate reassurance, or agreement with Keith, Lance continued to remain quiet.

After a few moments, Keith considered the possibility that Lance had managed to nod off, and his disappointment surprised him. However, when he turned to face him, he found Lance staring at him, assessing him.

“I don’t think you're Shiro.” There it was. Keith had known he could never replace him, but to hear it still stung. He opened his mouth to reply, but Lance apparently hadn’t finished. “I don’t think you're Shiro, but that doesn’t mean you are a bad leader. Yes, the mission didn’t go perfectly, but that was because we were unprepared, that was NOT down to you. In fact, I think you’re the reason we managed to turn the tables on the Galra, at all. You managed to set us all clear goals to accomplish, which meant we weren’t trying to deal with everything at once.” Lance’s voice was low, hushed, yet it sounded loud in the quiet of Keith’s room.

“But- But when I needed to be certain and decisive, at the most important part, I wavered. I wavered and now people are suffering because of it!” Keith’s hands clenched around the sheets of his bed, carving grooves into the surface.

“You were doing it to protect us, weren’t you?” Keith started at his words. He hadn’t spoken about this to his team yet. He assumed they believed he had done it out of fear, and Keith couldn’t deny it, as it was true. He’d been afraid for his team.

A leader should not hesitate. They should have a clear plan in mind. They should be a pillar of support for the team to lean on. Keith had been none of those.

“So, yes, you are a good leader.” …wait. What?

“But all those people-“

“It was the Galra, not you, who injured them.”

“I had to rely on you all so much! Hunk had to point out the weakness in the structure of the Galra’s new weapon, Pidge was the one who snuck up the disable it. You and Red provided cover, whilst Allura and Hunk guided the ship to safety!” Keith’s voice rose, and, to his horror, cracked as he let out all his frustration. “Did I even contribute?! I can’t think, I don’t know, I just-” Lance was hot against Keith’s side as his arms clamped around him, stopping the shaking he hadn’t realised he'd started.

Suddenly completely out of breath and exhausted beyond belief, Keith drew in a large gulp of air as he let his weight fall onto Lance. Here he was again, still being a burden. Couldn’t he do anything right?

“If you ever paid attention to what I said, you’d realise that you played a huge part in the success of the mission-”

“I don’t know if I'd call it a success…” Keith muttered, yelping when one of Lance’s hands slapped him admonishingly in the shoulder.

“Of /course/ it was a success! We saved the people, and the bad guys are long gone! What more do you want?!”

“But the injured-“

“-are fortunate to still have their lives. I thought you knew by now that there are things we cannot help. Nothing will ever go perfectly, you just have to adapt when it doesn’t. And, guess what, Hotshot. That’s what /you/ did.” Keith pulled his head up from Lance’s shoulder, who slowly released his hold of him so that he could sit up once more. With a shock, he realised that the oppressing weight of failing to meet everyone’s expectations had faded, and his breaths came easier and deeper. Still…

“Are you sure I’m… Don’t you think Allura would be bett-” Lance stopped his murmuring with a dramatic sigh, collapsing backwards to lie down on Keith’s bed.

“Do I really have to say it again?! I don’t want your head to get too big to fit in your helmet!” Lance moved his arm, which he had draped across his face, so that he could look at Keith directly. “YOU are a good leader. You ARE a good leader. Don’t make me say this all night! But I /will/ if that’s what it takes to get it through your thick skull that we don’t need to switch or replace you!” Keith couldn’t help but huff a small laugh at Lance’s dramatics. Honestly, he was too much sometimes.

“There we go! Finally, a smile! Come on, we should go back to the others and celebrate!”

Actually, Keith thought as he followed after Lance, he wasn’t too much… maybe Lance was /just/ right.

Fin.

So, I hope you enjoyed it! I hope to be posting more headcanons soon (even ones which aren’t Voltron *gasp*), but feel free to send me any prompts, which I will get to asap! If you’d like to read more of my headcanons, check out my masterpost!

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Tumblr-Girl (Part 2)

Tumblr – Girl (Series)

Part 1 Part 3 Masterlist 

Pairing: Misha Collins x reader Summary: the day after the first conversation Word Count: 1.913 Warnings: panic attack, angst, depression, mental illness, self doubt

Notes: it is my first ever fanfic and I am not a English native speaker so please don’t hate me, I hope you like the idea, there at least some more parts to come. :)  IMPORTANT: I’m looking for someone like a beta-reader (since I’m not an English-native-speaker there are (probably) loads of mistakes in my texts as well as some ideas seem better in my mind than in the text, so you know what a beta-reader does, don’t you? Just shoot me a message if you want to help me with my texts 

Now enjoy the second chapter ;)

Your POV

The next day you woke up, your body in pain and extremely tired, you swore you would never again trust a single human being who wants to help and certainly not some guy on tumblr. Yesterday you thought this guy really cared, that you have finally found someone to get this weight from your shoulders, but as everyone else he just let you down. Just wanted to play a knight until he read this few lines and recognized your unappealing character, until the game got boring, as it always does when you were involved. 

You decided to get a long, hot shower to please your body and after that you checked the cuts on your wrist, they weren’t very deep, it would just take a few days for them to heal, they probably wouldn’t even leave scars. Good. You hated the scars on your wrist, where too many people could see them, there were a lot more scars above your elbow and on your tights because hiding them there was a lot easier. You just cut on your wrist when you didn’t really think about what you did. When you just urged to feel your body, when your mind completely shuts down.

You put on your favourite hoodie and some jogging pants and thought about checking your tumblr inbox. No. You just promised yourself not to do this again, maybe you should just delete that app from your mobile phone. But you couldn’t get yourself to do it, not yet, so you just went to your phone settings and switched off the tumblr-notifications. You don’t want to hear anything of that guy anymore, you thought.

Mishas POV

As I woke up in the morning I wasn’t as tired as I thought I would be, I looked at the time and jumped out of my bed shocked. Shit. It was nearly 10, filming started at quarter to 10. I put on a pair of comfortable jeans and a simple T-shirt, then I rushed to the bathroom, brushed my teeth while fixing my messy hair. Why wasn’t there any alarm? Oh, my mobile was still off because of the lack of battery. Shit. In my car I plugged in the portable charger and instantly messages came in. I quickly looked at it and hoped for a message of the tumblr-girl from the night before but as I unlocked the screen there were just seven texts and two missed calls from Jensen.

Morning, I’m going a bit earlier today, want me to pick you up? -Jensen

I’m leaving in 10, if you want me to pick you up, tell me. –Jensen

Okay, I’m leaving now. I guess I’ll see you on set in 30 minutes. – J

Where are you, buddy? Late night yesterday? ;)

Hey Misha, where are you? They are looking for you, shooting starts in 20

Mish, where are you? Forgot your job, huh?

Misha?

I shook my head. Shit. They are gonna hate me. I quickly wrote a text to Jensen

Hey buddy, I overslept, I’m sorry will be there asap – Misha

I got on set just 20 minutes later, although everyone was ready and waiting for me, I was a bit embarrassed and tried to get ready very quickly so we could start filming. When I sat down at the make-up table, Sarah, the make-up artist looked at me shocked. “Is something wrong?” I asked her confused. She stared at me and pointed at my eyes “Did you stayed up the whole night?” she asked blankly. I looked at me in the mirror and recognized the dark shadows below my eyes. “I’m sorry.” I said “but you can fix this, can’t you?” I replied with a little smile. She sighed “It will be a lot of work, but I think I can.” I nodded and let her start applying loads of make-up to my face.

I was tired the whole day, every now and then my mind went off to the tumblr-girl which hasn’t responded since last night. I was messing up constantly and at some point Jensen talked to the director to get some time for a break. Then he came back and looked at me “Everything okay, buddy?” he asked and I nodded instantly “It’s just because you are absent the whole time, what’s going on?” he kept going. I sighed quietly, not sure if I should tell him about the situation going on but then you nodded “See, I was on tumblr yesterday-“ – “What?” he stared at my perplexed “You were on tumblr? What did you do, read fanfictions about us?” he laughed, but as he saw my concerned face he got serious again and just said “go on.”

“Yeah, I just like to see what people are doing to each other, there are incredible supporting and helpful people out there. I really love to see how they are a family just as we are.” I smiled but then I got back to the subject “but yesterday I met this girl on tumblr, she sounded really desperate and more or less asked the community for support.” I looked at him and he nodded slowly and I kept going. “I- I don’t know, there was nobody responding so I just shot her a message with some nice lines, you know. I couldn’t just sit there and do nothing.” I looked at my feet “She responded somewhere in the middle of the night, I was still awake, maybe because I was a bit worried about her, she sounded desperate, like she had nobody to talk, we wrote a short time, maybe two or three messages and then my phone battery went out, I had to look for my charger but didn’t find it so some minutes passed and when I finally sent her a message from my laptop she didn’t respond. I heard nothing from her since then. I- I’m just worried, Jensen.” I finished.

Jensen nodded again and gave me a gentle hug. “I understand.” He smiled “You are simply too precious for this world, buddy, but I understand. I hope she is responding soon, maybe she is just as tired as you are and overslept as well, or she needs just a little time, I’m sure she is okay.” He patted my shoulder and I gave him a weak smile. “I hope so.” I said “Okay, let’s get back to work and wrap the thing for today.”

Your POV

Since you had your day off every Friday you had no duties to do today, you just stayed at home and listened to some music, did your laundry, tried to keep yourself busy. But you couldn’t forget about this guy. Every now and then you started crying, your head felt like it would burst any second and you just couldn’t anymore. You thought a long time about killing yourself, you wouldn’t be a burden for anybody anymore, but you couldn’t get yourself to do it. Instead you took a pill against your headache and grabbed the bottle of white wine from the fridge. Of course you knew that medication and alcohol weren’t a good combination, but who cares, if you die you die. At least it would be over then. So you sipped at the bottle turned on the TV and started watching Supernatural, again.

Short time later the warm feeling of the alcohol in your blood helped you to relax a bit, you got more emotional and you started crying at some points of the TV-show. You really loved the characters, you loved the connection between the brothers and between Dean and Cass, how they did everything for another and you were sad that you had no friend, no family, to rely on just as they do.

When your thoughts beat you up again and you forced yourself to breathe slowly, when you tried to calm yourself down you took your mobile and opened the tumblr app without thinking. Your eyes focussed immediately on the little symbol above the inbox-sign. Two new messages. You were shivering as you opened your inbox and the chat with oldbonesgoingdown, you read the message, which arrived maybe half an hour after your message yesterday, when you were too freaked out to watch your phone.

“Don’t think like that, Y/N. I don’t know you that well (now), but I think you are an interesting person, you seem like there are a lot of interesting things to know about you and I would like to get to know them all. 

Oh my dear, I hope you are better now, I feel with you, I know this feeling when your head puts up some cruel ideas and you can’t do anything but believing it, I really know it, but it will pass, at least for a while. And remember, I am here, girl, I am.

Love, oldbonesgoingdown

PS.: And I don’t think Y/N is an normal, boring name, like you said, I think it sounds very light, adorable and lovely, I don’t know anybody who is called Y/N. I really like the sound of it. 

You had to read the message multiple times, tears rushing down your face, struggling for air, but then a soft smile reached your face. When you scrolled down to the second message, also from oldbonesgoingdown the smile vanished as fast as it appeared.

Hey Y/N,

I haven’t heard from you all day, so I decided to ask once again if you are okay. I hope I said nothing that could have intimidated you, if I did, I’m so sorry. I just need to know how you are doing.

Please, just shoot me a short message.

Love, oldbonesgoingdown

Ps. If I said something that annoyed you, or if you just want me to stop messaging, just say it, I don’t want to force you to anything, I just care about you.

There once was a person who cared and you managed to disappoint him in under a day, you aren’t worth getting the care of a person as nice as this guy seemed. In spite of you knowing you weren’t worth his attention you wrote a short message, to tell him you were still alive, because you couldn’t do the favour to the world and kill yourself.

Hey stranger – I still just know your tumblr-id?

I’m alive is maybe the best I can say after today. I’m far from alright although I’m drunk and crying while watching the boys kill monsters, but your message gave me a smile. I didn’t want to make you wait for my complaints and for sure I didn’t want to make you worry.

I know (no, I don’t understand it, but you told me) you care about me and you want to hear things about me and for the moment you know some things about me (My name is Y/N, I’m good at disappointing people, getting myself into trouble and being a burden for others and I’m a huge SPN fan as I’m in the family) but I just want to know some things about you, at least I name, please.

And of course I don’t want you to stop writing, but I know who I am, so if you want me to stop, yeah, just tell me, I guess.

Greetings, Y/N

The fact that you were drunk made you write things you hadn’t told anybody if you were sober, anybody. You wrote as you thought, don’t beat around the bush.

Part 3

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The Drama of the last 2 Weeks

This story is mostly for Kayla, @daringswordfights, and is too long to message. I will probably delete it once you’ve read it. To everyone else, my last two weekends have been crazy, and I need to vent. To summarise, the girl I’ve been crushing on for two years got herself a girlfriend.

The story starts back in February of 2015. I moved into College to start Uni. I met Kat in O-Week and we had a great chat. After my first conversation with her I walked away saying to myself that if I got a crush at college it would be her, or one of two others that I’ve got to know (The other two are now some of my closest friends). First semester happens; I slowly start coming out as Bi, like one person here, another there, told the majority of my school friendship group in one go. Life’s great besides from my homophobic sinkie (like roomie, but we have our own rooms but share a bathroom). Now in July, people start coming back from mid-year break. It’s odd not seeing people for a month when you’ve basically seen them every day for four months, and didn’t know them before then. Kat comes back and I’m super excited. Chatted to her about how she was and the great deal I got on my new shoes. Leaving that conversation I evaluated why I was so much more excited to see her than everyone else combined, and I hit me. I had a crush on her. Part of me was patting myself on the back for predicting this five months ago, the other half was lost at what to do now as I’ve never had a proper crush before.

I kept the crush to myself for a while, processing everything. Told my Day Kid Friend (non-College student), one of my closest friends I let them guess. She got it as I apparently I talked about Kat too much. My school friends found out at a picnic in September in the park near our old school. They were so excited for me, and this crush became the main topic of discussion at every group meet up for the next six months. There was the excitement and novelty of my first crush, but they were really supportive. From September onwards I started trying to find a good time to tell her. I’ve read too many slow-burn fanfics and just wanted to move on, one way or another. Finding a good time was a challenge. Do I wait for end of year, where I didn’t have to see her for three months if things went badly, or before then so if things didn’t we’d have time to start something?

My sinkie found out I had a crush, and was very desperate to know who it was. She offered to tell me hers’ in exchange, which I didn’t take up as I wouldn’t know who it was and I frankly didn’t care that much. I let her guess, but due to homophobia she just got very confused. Uni got busy, so I decided to tell her on the day I moved out. At 9 am I messaged her saying I was leaving at midday, and to come say goodbye if she wanted to. I also sent this message in a group chat. I expected visitors to come evenly over those three hours, but instead I got ten people all at 11:30. These people were still in my room when my parents arrived, and Kat came down after them. As I wasn’t going to reveal everything in front of a stack of mutual friends and my parents, my opportunity passed. Kat and I hugged goodbye, promising to catch-up over the summer, as for college friends we lived relatively close (3 hours by train).

Kat and I messaged so much over that holiday. More so then I had with anyone else on Facebook in the four years I’ve had it. It was Saturday the 14th of December. I was on the train heading to Melbourne for Taylor Swift’s last 1989 concert. Kat and I were messaging, and she was also on the train to Melbourne. I had my niece’s birthday party, which I had time to go help set-up, but didn’t have to, and she had some free time as well. “This was it” I thought. Started messaging friends for support, told the friend who was joining me for the party before we both went to the concert that it was happening and she said she’ll give us space. I was so nervous, but ready to go. I waited for Kat at her platform. We met up, I went with her to get flowers for her event, and we went to get lunch. I was ready to say something over lunch, but it didn’t happen. We started chatting to the people in line behind us, also in Melbourne to see Taylor, and ended up sitting at a table with them. There was no time to tell her before my friend found us and I had to leave for the party. I vented to my friend so much on the train to the party.

We didn’t get another chance to meet up; Kat got a job and I went away on holiday, but we were always in contact. I stopped breathing when it came up on Facebook that Kat had liked a Buzzfeed post, “19 photos that definitely won’t make sense to straight girls”. I had to let that sink in for a solid four hours and chat extensively to a friend before asking Kat about it. I wrote “If there is anything you want to tell me, I’m still here for you”. Her response was “Haha I was thinking of my softball friends when I read that!” followed by her favourite emoji, the winking tongue out. Mixed emotions for sure, but at least I could breathe again.

Second year of Uni and College came around. We played softball together for the second year. We didn’t live in the same block anymore, so our spontaneous stairwell conversations were no more. My birthday rolls around, then it’s Easter. Tuesday the 29th of March I’m having a catch-up/ one week late birthday party with my school friends after seeing Batman vs Superman with one of them. Over lunch my friends ask me about Kat, cause of course they do, and I say I need to tell her asap as it’s been months since I’ve first tried to. They say they have my back, and even suggest in the group chat afterwards that I should have some liquid courage, really confusing the friend who has missed all the catch-ups where Kat was discussed. 

I message Kat asking if we could talk when she’s back at college as there’s something I need to talk with her about. She was very curious and asked if everything was okay, and I just said there was something I needed to say. We plan to chat on Friday, which was the 1st of April. There is a text-post going around saying that Aprils Fools is the best day to tell your crush that you like them as you can say it was a joke if things go badly. Sadly our chat had to be postponed to the next day as Kat ran out of time before a 21st birthday party. Although it would have been easier to do it on Friday, I’m glad I didn’t have that back-out option. Around 11:30 on Saturday morning I went to Kat’s room. We chatted for half an hour before a lull in the conversation meant it was time. I told her I was Bi and that I had a crush on her. She handled it really well. She said she didn’t have time for a relationship, but was amazed with my courage and glad I told her. We then went back to talking for another half an hour before heading to lunch. I messaged her after thanking her for taking it so well. She reiterated her comments from before and asked if I wanted to talk to any of her softball teammate about it (the stereotype is so real), but I declined. My crush didn’t go away completely, but it had stopped being a prime motivator for me to do things.

In the year and a bit since I still see her occasionally, but not the multiple times a week like first year; even less as she’s moved out of college for this year. I sent her messages over summer, which didn’t get replies, which was such a turnaround even as a friend. She was talking a technology break over summer, which I don’t know how that is possible, but I was working full time for most of the break to be too concerned. Kat comes back to coach softball this year, I see her at my 21st birthday party, and other random times, and then last weekend happens.      

Her housemate, who is also a good friend of mine, holds her 21st at their place. It’s a small gathering; 10 invited, 6 came. When I walk in I see Kat’s wearing flannel. When I sit next to her on the couch I see she’s wearing this ring (x) it has a gap to signify the gap in marriage equality. At the end of the party I ask for a tour of the house as it’s my first time there as I missed the housewarming (went to the footy instead). On her desk is a mini gay flag. Kat’s always been a strong supporter of gay rights, so I’m not super surprised, but all three things are a bit too much. I didn’t get a good chance to chat with her during that party, but we both had another 21st that night, so I wasn’t too bummed. I didn’t chat to her that night. There were a lot of people there I haven’t seen in some very long times, and Kat left earlier than I did. Again I knew we had another 21st on the Saturday just passed.

Kat organises a group present and there is someone I don’t know in the group. Kat and this birthday girl had some subjects together last year, so I just assumed it was a mutual friend from there. The party was a three hour drive from Melbourne, and my car arrived at 7. By 8 everyone was wondering where Kat was. I ask others who she was driving with, as most of our friends invited were already there. A friend said she was coming up with her capital G girlfriend. I was blindsided, and tried to keep my visible shock to just “I didn’t know she had a girlfriend”. I find out very little before they arrive, but do message my friends back home for moral support. They ring me up, and our conversation is hampered by terrible reception, but they help calm me down. By the end of the chat I head back inside to find that Kay and her girlfriend have finally arrived, three hours late, and in each other’s arms. I stall as long as I could, but it was cold outside. I go in and find Kat alone, have a nice chat for a couple of minutes. Nothing about the gf or her sexuality was brought up. 

This party was 80’s themed. My friends who I was just on the phone with had giving me glow-sticks for my 21st that I’d brought along. I offer them to Kat, and she takes some. Later on I find the gf is wearing a couple and it hurts. I avoid them the rest of the night. There was a lot of PDA. So much so how they were sitting could not have been comfortable. They played with each other’s hair, shared their drink, held hands constantly and I even saw them kiss. I got stuck playing Never Have I Ever with them, and I want to bleach my brain. I went to bed a bit after 2am, and I hadn’t seen them for a while before then. To get back to Melbourne I left very early, well before anyone else sleeping over was considering getting out of bed.

It’s been a week now since the reveal. I spent most of Sunday sorting through my feelings. I’m happy for Kat, and I’m sure her girlfriend is nice as I trust her taste. It’s just not the situation I thought I’d find myself in. There’s nothing on either of their Facebooks suggesting that they are together, but the gf knew no-one at this party, besides Kat, and it was a 6 hour round trip, so they must be pretty serious. I don’t know where to go from here. Writing this out was pretty therapeutic though.  

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I'm trying to get insurance quotes for a car I will be buying in a few months. They ask for what violations I've had in the last 5 years. The only one was a ticket for rolling through a red light (turned red at the last second. However, I took the online class to cut down the price of the ticket and to avoid points being added to my license. So the question is, when I get insurance, will they factor in that ticket? Just trying to figure out if I should include that ticket when they ask for violations in the last 5 years. Thanks""

If i report my car stolen will the insurance company ask for the keys?

My car was tolen... But i lost the keys to it. Does either the police or the insurance company ask for the keys?

Will my gf's car be taken away if I don't have any car insurance but I have my driver's lisence?

I am a young adult and I recently obtained my Driver's License last year on the day before Thanksgiving. After that, I have been driving my gf's car and was wondering what ...show more""

Whats the cheapest insurance for a moped in ireland?

i think age is important in this so im 17. im desperate to get some form of transport and my dad sais he will help get me a moped/scooter when i pass my driving test and theory test. but first he wants me to find out how expensive insurance would be on this vehicle. whats the cheapest possible? links would be much appreciated. thanks a million

""16 year old male, first car and insurance?""

Alright, I turned 16 a few months ago and got my license the day after my birthday. The majority of cars that we have looked at are around $1500 a year for just liability. However, 3 cars that we have not checked with insurance have really caught my eye. The first being a mazda3 anywhere from an 04 to an 08, the second being a mazda6 with the same age, lastly a 04 mazda rx-8. I would be added to my parents progressive insurance and was curious how much the insurance would be on each of these cars? My family and I are planning on checking with an agent tomorrow but I wouldn't mind an educated guess. :) If it matters I have not had any accidents and my GPA is around a 3.25. Thanks for your help""

Where can I find cheap auto insurance after a DUI?

I have a bad driving record that includes a DUI and driving with a suspended. I am looking for some way of getting reasonable priced auto insurance in Florida. I went to Geico and they want to charge me around $700 a month! Also what is an SR-22? Any help would be great. Thanks.

""Can you recommend a good,cheap insurance for a 17 year old??

I don't want to be on my mom's because mine will be higher than normal because hers is already really high.I'd rather just have my own insurance.Thanks in advance!!

Insurance Claim check question.?

Hello, recently I got a claim check from my insurance, anyways im a student right now, no job, and the problems are costemic, nothing really mechanical, let's say that the price to fix it was 2k, but I received a check for 1.5k with the deductible included does that mean I can keep the money or fix it if I wish to or not? meaning the deductible is already taken care of?

Why do men pay more for car insurance than women?

This fact is surely sexism based on pure stereotypes rather than relevant information such as the driver's history. Doesn't this just portray the stereotype that men are more irresponsible or 'risk takers' when it comes to driving? Why not base car insurance on ethnicity?

How cheap can you get car insurance for if you teach drivers ed?

I'm going to school for Health and Physical Education, definitely thinking about minoring in Drivers Ed. to add a little something extra to my resume. The course seems easy enough and I'll be able to make money during the summer while my other teacher friends are painting houses. I'm curious how much of a deduction on car insurance these guys get. Anyone know?""

Can you get car Insurance with No Bank Account?

My question is would it be a problem to obtain car insurance without having a bank account, my credit is in the toilet because someone ran up my debit card and the over draft fees forced the account closed, and now the bank is asking for $600.00, and I can't afford to pay that off with the kind of salary I have, so can anyone let me know if their would be any difficulty in just paying in cash or perhaps money orders or even a check in someone elses name?? thanks""

When can I drop full coverage insurance?

I have a 2010 nissan versa I have full coverage I wanted to know how long until i can drop the full coverage and will my insurance rate be lower?

Can anybody help me about car insurance?

For the last few months I've been sharing my Dad's car, I've been a named driver for that car. Now I've bought my own car, however, at the moment I cannot afford to pay the 220 starter fee to insure me on my own car just yet. So my question is, if I upgraded the insurance on my Dad's car to fully comp. Will I be covered to drive my car? I'm 17 by the way, if that changes anything. Any help will be very much appreciated.""

Health Insurance Cost - Private option or School option?

For those of you who have experience about buying health insurance, what is the average annual cost? And usually, what is the minimum cost for basic health coverage, vision and dental coverage? (Particularly in the U.S.) Should I buy health insurance from a private company or from my university? Thanks a lot for your time.""

What insurance companies provide non-owner auto insurance in Ohio?

looking to insure myself for car insurance in columbus ohio but I dont own a car.

Where can I get individual health insurance that will cover Pregnancy?

I live in a small town in Texas, I was recently married in June 2008, we got pregnant with twins but unfortunatly had a miscarriage...one of hardest things I have ever had to deal with...anyways...we want to try again but I really want to have health coverage and not have to pay out of pocket...does anyone know of any health insurance that covers pregnancy...from what everyone else is telling me no individual policy will cover me if i get pregnant...if anyone can help I would appreciate it...""

Anyone have experience with Western and Southern life insurance co.?

I am looking to purchase term insurance

Why do we still allow auto insurance providers (since it is a law we must get liability)?

to check our credit to give us the cost? This doesn't seem fair. What should our credit score have to do with the cost of liability?

Can you help me make some sense of these health insurance policies?

I'm 7 months pregnant and making plans to line up health insurance for my baby. The plan my company offers is a decent HMO with $20 deductibles for everything but it costs $305 per month! That's over $3,500 per year! I started doing some research and I am finding that I can get a PPO direct from the insurance company for less. I'm confused as to which plan is best though, I found a PPO though Blue Cross that is $155 per month with $40 deductibles. I found a PPO through Kaiser that is $163 per month. I pay 100% of everything up to $1500, then Kaiser picks up everything else. Confused....""

What are the best car insurance's?

I had geico but now I was thinking about nationwide or Triple AAA.

How much does testosterone therapy cost per month?

I'm a young trans guy (almost 20) and I don't have insurance. It is important to me that I start hormone therapy while I am still in college, but I need to know if I can ...show more""

Question regarding life insurance for children?

I have 6 children between the ages of 19 and 3..so i am interested in buying a life insurance that will cover college expenses, but i don't know which one to go for..does anyone know if gerber life insurance would be a good option?""

""Car Insurance, including APR?""

So, im looking for car insurance and I found the cheapest one for me. 'A deposit of 70.00 payable by credit or debit card followed by 10 monthly instalments by Direct Debit of 55.90. Total payable is 629.00 including APR of 29.6%.' What does it mean including APR of 29.6% That I will have to pay an extra 29.6%. Its my 3rd year driving and I've never seen this before.""

6 penalty points for driving without full license?

I recently received 6 points for driving without full license and no insurance. Car was insured but named driver was not in the car (i was insured as well but without somebody over 21 years old with license next to me so insurance is not valid then) What happens next? It was stupid idea but you always learn on mistakes :I

""I am 18 years old and have 6 points on my driving license, will my insurance cost go down after a year?

I currently aren't on any insurance policy!

How come different auto insurance agencies charge different prices for the same insurance company?

yes i went to three different insurance agencys to see what quotes theyll give me. one say said ill pay 50 a month and 140 down payment for access auto insurance . the other agency said ill pay 60 a month and 90 down payment for the same company. and the third agency said i would probably not qualify for access auto insuranc. im 20 year old male riverside ca 94 accord. why would three different agencys quote diferently for the same auto company ? whyyy is it a scam

Adding additional drivers to my car insurance..?

Will adding my mom or dad (perfect driving record) affect them or their insurance at all? Or, if I got into an accident, would it go on their record? The policy would still be in my name...they would simply be listed as a secondary driver. Please only knowledgeable answers. It's crucial I get this figured out correctly.""

Where are the best Extended Auto Warranties Online - An Extended Auto Warranty that isn't too overpriced?

Where can I find an extended auto warranty online that is also good value? The one that came as standard with my car is very basic but their extended auto warranty plan is way overpriced. I'm now worried I'll have to pay out thousands in repair costs because something goes wrong with my car, conveniently just after the warranty expires. Is an extended auto warranty something I can get from an independant source?""

How much would car insurance be for a 16 year old girl with a mustang?

I will be turning 16 and getting my license in January and i plan on getting a Mustang 2008 GT not certain the color yet although i understand that affects the cost of insurance. Its most likely to be red, which i also understand it will cost more for red. Anyways it will be a convertible. So i would just like an estimate on monthly cost for insurance. and if your one of those adults that is just gonna mouth off that its not reasonable for a teen to get a mustang convertible, your just trying to look cool ect ect, please dont, adults always feel the need to be snarky i just am asking what you estimate is thank you for your time!(:""

Can you really get auto insurance for less than $30 per month?

I have been amazed with all of the TV ads and online ads showing young adults claiming that you can get auto insurance for under $30 per month. I am 48 years old, live in Los Angeles, have a clean driving record, no tickets or accidents in over 10 years. So I went to my neighborhood insurance broker a few weeks ago and he told me that the only way a person could get the minimum insurance required by the state of California, they would have to be at least 70+ years old, driving a 70's Buick, with a clean driving record. LOL!!! Yet since I just seen a commercial on TV a few minutes ago, showing the typical young adults (between 18 to 25 years of age) so happy and perky that they are able to get auto insurance for less than $30 a month, I figured I would toss this question out to Answers Yahoo to see if there are any such insurance companies here in California, that offers the basic auto insurance required by law in California for someone my age and with my driving record for less than $30 per month.""

Difference between policy holder and insured?

In Royal Sun Alliance my husband has two letters, one mentioned policy holder and the other insured. Whats the difference between them?""

How much would auto insurance be for an 18 year old female?

ok I have good grades (straigh A's) I will be driving around 2,500 miles 5 days a week I will be able to drive a 2001 chevy tahoe, 2004 honda civic and 95 toyota camry main car is 95 toyota camry though i live in san bernardino what would be the average amount for insurance? where can i go to get cheap liability insurance?""

Do you have health insurance?

if so, how much does it cost per month, How old are you? what kind of deductable do you have?? Feel free to answer also if you don't have insurance.""

Insurance Claim check question.?

Hello, recently I got a claim check from my insurance, anyways im a student right now, no job, and the problems are costemic, nothing really mechanical, let's say that the price to fix it was 2k, but I received a check for 1.5k with the deductible included does that mean I can keep the money or fix it if I wish to or not? meaning the deductible is already taken care of?

https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/calculate-how-much-insurance-i-can-afford-peter-holland/"

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11.11.11 – A Natural Cure For Cancer?

I believe, that given the right tools, the body, combined with a strong belief system, can naturally heal itself. Unfortunately, it is a very sad fact that more people die from chemotherapy than die from the cancer that the chemotherapy is trying to get rid of in the first place. It is not only toxic to cancer cells, it is also toxic to your body’s own good cells; as you will have seen if you have ever witnessed the terrible effects that it has had on anybody who has gone through chemotherapy.

There are two ‘alternative’ natural health products which we strongly recommend that you research very thoroughly before committing yourself to undergoing chemotherapy. There have so far been no clinical trials carried out on either of these products, nor on the two of them combined; as they are both naturally occurring, and therefore cannot be patented, they have no commercial value, and therefore no interest, to the big Pharmas and drug companies. herefore, all our evidence is still purely anecdotal but we do have people, who have been given three weeks or less to live by their doctors, who have used this unique combination of natural products, and who have had complete remissions, and who are still alive today, and who remain completely cancer free. Most of the doctors involved with these cases simply refuse to believe the results that they have witnessed, as they say that it is impossible, and that you cannot simply cure cancer just like that… and they then say that their original diagnosis must have been mistaken in the first place… but the people who are still alive today are living proof and testimony to the fact that using the unique combination of these two products together really does have a very profound effect on eliminating cancer cells from the body.

1. L-Carnosine L-Carnosine is the first product; it a dipeptide of the two amino acids Beta Alanine and L-Histidine. This substance is naturally occurring in all of our bodies, but it depletes with age by about ten percent per year, after we reach the age of 30. It was first discovered back in 1900 and scientists still haven’t fully ascertained its exact function within the body yet; but it appears to be a major part of the body’s own repair mechanism. Also, back in 2005 a study carried out at the University of South Florida College of Medicine proved that L-Carnosine increases the body’s own stem-cell production; these are the very basic building blocks of the body, and cells which can then go on to turn in to any part of the body where they are needed the most. A later study carried out in 2008 at the Lomonosov Moscow State University School of Biology also proved L-Carnosine’s unique ability to increase the efficiency of DOPA Therapy of Parkinson’s Disease patients.

L-Carnosine For the Treatment of Cancer

DAILY DOSAGE: We recommend taking 10g a day of L-Carnosine, dissolved in a 1 litre bottle of mineral water, and then drink from the bottle, half-hourly throughout the day, so that the last drops are drank just before sleeping.

You can read more about some of L-Carnosine’s other excellent health benefits, including its unique cellular rejuvenating properties, here:

http://ethosworld.eu/store/ethos-endymion-fountain-of-youth.html

4) In the first tests, it was noticed that one of the batches of normal medium cells had become contaminated with cancer cells. It was growing rapidly. When L-Carnosine was added to this dying population, the cell cultures became free of cancer cells! They tried it against seven different human cancers and every one showed the same result. It seems that as beneficial as L-Carnosine is to normal cells… it was selectively toxic to human cancer cells!

Also, as L-Carnosine is naturally occurring and endogenous to the human body, there are no contraindications nor adverse side-effects, only beneficial side-effects, unlike virtually all prescribed drugs and especially chemotherapy. If you do opt for having chemotherapy then we very strongly advise that you take the L-Carnosine as well as it has excellent protective qualities and it will greatly reduce the damage to your good cells whilst also eradicating the cancer cells.

There are several different manufacturers of L-Carnosine and not all give the same results; some are ‘inert’ and not bio-active. So be sure to uses Ethos Endymion which is the very purest form of L-Carnosine in the world and is guaranteed to be bio-active.

The Role of Carnosine in Cellular Maintenance

http://protein.bio.msu.su/biokhimiya/contents/v65/pdf/bcm_0843.pdf

For further scientific papers, please visit pubmed.com and search for ‘Carnosine’ – there are well over 1,500 peer-reviewed studies there now, and ALL of them show beneficial effects, with absolutely no bad side-effects whatsoever.

2. Marine Phytoplankton 100% Pure Organic Marine Phytoplankton is the second product; there are over 40,000 different spices of marine phytoplankton and they are microscopic, single-celled, organisms that live in our oceans. The name phytoplankton comes from the two Greek words; Phyton, which means plant, and plankton, which means drifter or wanderer. Marine phytoplankton contains 400 times more energy than any other living organic matter and thus it is a very potent and complete super-food for our bodies. It gives the body everything that it requires to develop and grow healthy new cells plus it also provides essential neuro-chemicals like serotonin and dopamine for the brain. You’ve also probably already heard of the benefits of omega-3-6-&-9 fatty acids, and how important they are to the body, phytoplankton is the very best way to get these into the body as they are far more easily absorbed than any fish-oil based supplements and can actually cross the blood-brain barrier and are much more bio-available within the body.

Marine Phytoplankton For Treating Cancer

DAILY DOSAGE: We recommend taking at least 3g of 100% Pure Marine Phytoplankton; 1g taken 1/2 hour before meals as that is when the stomach is at its most emptiest.

You can read more about it’s other excellent health benefits here:

Canadian Man Believes ‘He Can Beat Cancer’

Kelly Barrows, pictured below, is a Stucco Contractor from the city of Nanaimo in Vancouver Island, Canada, and he wants to tell his story to everyone who is suffering from cancer, about his colon cancer which did a complete positive turnaround, in just over two weeks, after he started taking 100% Pure Marine Phytoplankton.

http://ethosworld.eu/store/100-pure-organic-marine-phytoplankton-super-nutrition-75-x-veggie-capsules.html

ANOTHER CANADIAN MAN RON HILES ALSO BEATS CANCER

expect that, reading these headlines above, you will obviously still be very skeptical of these claims. So was this person’s Doctor in Canada when I first told him about this unique and very powerful combination of products and the incredible results that we had witnessed from people using them; until he recently tested them out for himself on a patient of his who had inoperable stomach cancer; after which he wrote back to me with the following reply…

August 15th 2011

Hi Pete

This man has inoperable stomach cancer.

We did an open and close procedure 3 months ago.

He is supposed to be dead.

He has been on phyto and carnosine.

We need more ASAP – please.

I am starting to believe you!

Richard

He then wrote back to me on the 13th October 2011

Hi Pete

Well, my patient with stomach cancer is still alive and no cancer found on CT scan.

He is having problems with blood clots in his legs requiring anticoagulation and subsequent gastric bleeding needing transfusion.

Blood clotting in cancer is common.

Best wishes and thank you for your ongoing interest.

Richard

So he’s still not fully recovered yet, but he is still alive when, as his doctor said he should, in all reality, be dead, and his CT scan confirms that he no longer has any cancer!

We have now treated several people with this unique combination of products; all had been given less than three weeks to live by their doctors and all of them had complete remissions and, as far as we know, they are all still alive today. The patients we have treated so far have ranged from people suffering with breast cancer, stomach cancer, bowel cancer, intestinal cancer, throat cancer and ovarian cancer; so it seems to pretty much work across the board with any type of cancer.

L-Carnosine and Marine Phytoplankton effectively deliver a very powerful two-pronged attack on cancer. The L-Carnosine is selectively toxic to cancer cells and regenerates and rejuvenates the good cells. The Marine Phytoplankton provides the body with super-nutrition and energy to develop and grow healthy new cells and to win the fight against cancer.

You may also like to watch this very moving story about Tom Harper, a shellfish farmer on the West Coast of British Columbia in Canada, who was the first person to discover the excellent anti-caner effects that Marine Phytoplankton has, after he was diagnosed with a very rare and inoperable mesothelioma lung cancer:

Go to our other Marine Phytoplankton website and then click the link on the left, half way down the page, where it says: Watch the DVD – Click Here http://marinephytoplankton.net/

…it’s below this picture of the the ‘Another Day’ DVD.

The other amazing side-effect to Tom’s already incredible story is that his diabetes also completely disappeared, as well as his cancer, and he had previously been taking 26 units a day of insulin for the condition for decades.

There are several different manufacturers of Marine Phytoplankton and not all are 100% pure phytoplankton powder. Many contain other much less expensive mixers, fillers and incipients. Because of an oddity in labeling regulations, manufacturers can put 100% Pure Marine Phytoplankton on their labels, even if the actual product only contains a small amount of the 100% Pure Marine Phytoplankton powder. One leading manufacturer promotes their brand of 100% Pure Phytoplankton as ‘100% Pure’ but when you look closely and read on the back of the label each 500mg capsule only actually contains 50mg of 100% Marine Phytoplankton and 450mg of another, much cheaper, ingredient. So be very careful when buying Phytoplankton. Ethos Marine Phytoplankton is guaranteed to be 100% Pure Marine Phytoplankton Powder with nothing whatsoever added or taken away and with no added mixers, fillers or incipients. It also comes in a vegan friendly veggie capsule or, if you prefer, you can buy the 100% pure powder itself. It does have quite an unusual ‘fishy’ kind of taste to it, so personally I prefer to take the capsules myself.

As the old adage goes, ‘an ounce of prevention is far better than a pound of cure’, and both of these products have excellent prophylactic properties, as well as their many other excellent health benefits including; anti-aging, cellular rejuvenation and regeneration, protection against disease and illness, and they both help the body to heal itself naturally and holistically. For people who are not addressing any serious health issues, the recommended daily ‘maintenance’ doses are; 1g to 3g of L-Carnosine per day, dependent upon overall body weight, and at least 1g of Marine Phytoplankton per day.

A New Anti-Cancer Vaccine Looming up Brightly on the Horizon?

Cancer researchers have been studying the mole rat (Heterocephalus glaber), pictured below, as it is the only known living creature that is totally immune to cancer. Humans have one built in defense mechanism against cancer and, when this breaks down, cancer starts to develop and grow very quickly, but the mole rat has not only one but two different defense mechanisms which very effectively stops cancer from ever developing at all. It is not only immune to spontaneous cancer it is even immune to experimental lab induced cancers as well.

Now that the scientists have finally discovered this, it shouldn’t take too much longer for them to replicate this effect in humans and to then develop a new anti-cancer vaccine which will finally put an end to this deadly disease once and for all. They hope that this might also unlock the key to our aging as well as the mole rat can live up to 31 years in captivity, shows very little signs of aging, and remains highly fertile right up until the time of its death. In the meantime, while scientists work to unlock the key to the mole rat’s cancer immunity, the unique combination of the two products discussed above currently appears to be the very best alternative cancer treatment yet to be discovered.

For further reading see:

The Genome Of Mole Rat Could Unlock the Secrets of both Cancer & Anti-Aging

http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/235908.php

Signs of Ageing Halted in the Lab

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/health-15552964

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11.11.11 – A Natural Cure For Cancer?

I believe, that given the right tools, the body, combined with a strong belief system, can naturally heal itself. Unfortunately, it is a very sad fact that more people die from chemotherapy than die from the cancer that the chemotherapy is trying to get rid of in the first place. It is not only toxic to cancer cells, it is also toxic to your body’s own good cells; as you will have seen if you have ever witnessed the terrible effects that it has had on anybody who has gone through chemotherapy.

There are two ‘alternative’ natural health products which we strongly recommend that you research very thoroughly before committing yourself to undergoing chemotherapy. There have so far been no clinical trials carried out on either of these products, nor on the two of them combined; as they are both naturally occurring, and therefore cannot be patented, they have no commercial value, and therefore no interest, to the big Pharmas and drug companies. herefore, all our evidence is still purely anecdotal but we do have people, who have been given three weeks or less to live by their doctors, who have used this unique combination of natural products, and who have had complete remissions, and who are still alive today, and who remain completely cancer free. Most of the doctors involved with these cases simply refuse to believe the results that they have witnessed, as they say that it is impossible, and that you cannot simply cure cancer just like that… and they then say that their original diagnosis must have been mistaken in the first place… but the people who are still alive today are living proof and testimony to the fact that using the unique combination of these two products together really does have a very profound effect on eliminating cancer cells from the body.

1. L-Carnosine L-Carnosine is the first product; it a dipeptide of the two amino acids Beta Alanine and L-Histidine. This substance is naturally occurring in all of our bodies, but it depletes with age by about ten percent per year, after we reach the age of 30. It was first discovered back in 1900 and scientists still haven’t fully ascertained its exact function within the body yet; but it appears to be a major part of the body’s own repair mechanism. Also, back in 2005 a study carried out at the University of South Florida College of Medicine proved that L-Carnosine increases the body’s own stem-cell production; these are the very basic building blocks of the body, and cells which can then go on to turn in to any part of the body where they are needed the most. A later study carried out in 2008 at the Lomonosov Moscow State University School of Biology also proved L-Carnosine’s unique ability to increase the efficiency of DOPA Therapy of Parkinson’s Disease patients.

L-Carnosine For the Treatment of Cancer

DAILY DOSAGE: We recommend taking 10g a day of L-Carnosine, dissolved in a 1 litre bottle of mineral water, and then drink from the bottle, half-hourly throughout the day, so that the last drops are drank just before sleeping.

You can read more about some of L-Carnosine’s other excellent health benefits, including its unique cellular rejuvenating properties, here:

http://ethosworld.eu/store/ethos-endymion-fountain-of-youth.html

4) In the first tests, it was noticed that one of the batches of normal medium cells had become contaminated with cancer cells. It was growing rapidly. When L-Carnosine was added to this dying population, the cell cultures became free of cancer cells! They tried it against seven different human cancers and every one showed the same result. It seems that as beneficial as L-Carnosine is to normal cells… it was selectively toxic to human cancer cells!

Also, as L-Carnosine is naturally occurring and endogenous to the human body, there are no contraindications nor adverse side-effects, only beneficial side-effects, unlike virtually all prescribed drugs and especially chemotherapy. If you do opt for having chemotherapy then we very strongly advise that you take the L-Carnosine as well as it has excellent protective qualities and it will greatly reduce the damage to your good cells whilst also eradicating the cancer cells.

There are several different manufacturers of L-Carnosine and not all give the same results; some are ‘inert’ and not bio-active. So be sure to uses Ethos Endymion which is the very purest form of L-Carnosine in the world and is guaranteed to be bio-active.

The Role of Carnosine in Cellular Maintenance

http://protein.bio.msu.su/biokhimiya/contents/v65/pdf/bcm_0843.pdf

For further scientific papers, please visit pubmed.com and search for ‘Carnosine’ – there are well over 1,500 peer-reviewed studies there now, and ALL of them show beneficial effects, with absolutely no bad side-effects whatsoever.

2. Marine Phytoplankton 100% Pure Organic Marine Phytoplankton is the second product; there are over 40,000 different spices of marine phytoplankton and they are microscopic, single-celled, organisms that live in our oceans. The name phytoplankton comes from the two Greek words; Phyton, which means plant, and plankton, which means drifter or wanderer. Marine phytoplankton contains 400 times more energy than any other living organic matter and thus it is a very potent and complete super-food for our bodies. It gives the body everything that it requires to develop and grow healthy new cells plus it also provides essential neuro-chemicals like serotonin and dopamine for the brain. You’ve also probably already heard of the benefits of omega-3-6-&-9 fatty acids, and how important they are to the body, phytoplankton is the very best way to get these into the body as they are far more easily absorbed than any fish-oil based supplements and can actually cross the blood-brain barrier and are much more bio-available within the body.

Marine Phytoplankton For Treating Cancer

DAILY DOSAGE: We recommend taking at least 3g of 100% Pure Marine Phytoplankton; 1g taken 1/2 hour before meals as that is when the stomach is at its most emptiest.

You can read more about it’s other excellent health benefits here:

Canadian Man Believes ‘He Can Beat Cancer’

Kelly Barrows, pictured below, is a Stucco Contractor from the city of Nanaimo in Vancouver Island, Canada, and he wants to tell his story to everyone who is suffering from cancer, about his colon cancer which did a complete positive turnaround, in just over two weeks, after he started taking 100% Pure Marine Phytoplankton.

http://ethosworld.eu/store/100-pure-organic-marine-phytoplankton-super-nutrition-75-x-veggie-capsules.html

ANOTHER CANADIAN MAN RON HILES ALSO BEATS CANCER

expect that, reading these headlines above, you will obviously still be very skeptical of these claims. So was this person’s Doctor in Canada when I first told him about this unique and very powerful combination of products and the incredible results that we had witnessed from people using them; until he recently tested them out for himself on a patient of his who had inoperable stomach cancer; after which he wrote back to me with the following reply…

August 15th 2011

Hi Pete

This man has inoperable stomach cancer.

We did an open and close procedure 3 months ago.

He is supposed to be dead.

He has been on phyto and carnosine.

We need more ASAP – please.

I am starting to believe you!

Richard

He then wrote back to me on the 13th October 2011

Hi Pete

Well, my patient with stomach cancer is still alive and no cancer found on CT scan.

He is having problems with blood clots in his legs requiring anticoagulation and subsequent gastric bleeding needing transfusion.

Blood clotting in cancer is common.

Best wishes and thank you for your ongoing interest.

Richard

So he’s still not fully recovered yet, but he is still alive when, as his doctor said he should, in all reality, be dead, and his CT scan confirms that he no longer has any cancer!

We have now treated several people with this unique combination of products; all had been given less than three weeks to live by their doctors and all of them had complete remissions and, as far as we know, they are all still alive today. The patients we have treated so far have ranged from people suffering with breast cancer, stomach cancer, bowel cancer, intestinal cancer, throat cancer and ovarian cancer; so it seems to pretty much work across the board with any type of cancer.

L-Carnosine and Marine Phytoplankton effectively deliver a very powerful two-pronged attack on cancer. The L-Carnosine is selectively toxic to cancer cells and regenerates and rejuvenates the good cells. The Marine Phytoplankton provides the body with super-nutrition and energy to develop and grow healthy new cells and to win the fight against cancer.

You may also like to watch this very moving story about Tom Harper, a shellfish farmer on the West Coast of British Columbia in Canada, who was the first person to discover the excellent anti-caner effects that Marine Phytoplankton has, after he was diagnosed with a very rare and inoperable mesothelioma lung cancer:

Go to our other Marine Phytoplankton website and then click the link on the left, half way down the page, where it says: Watch the DVD – Click Here http://marinephytoplankton.net/

…it’s below this picture of the the ‘Another Day’ DVD.

The other amazing side-effect to Tom’s already incredible story is that his diabetes also completely disappeared, as well as his cancer, and he had previously been taking 26 units a day of insulin for the condition for decades.

There are several different manufacturers of Marine Phytoplankton and not all are 100% pure phytoplankton powder. Many contain other much less expensive mixers, fillers and incipients. Because of an oddity in labeling regulations, manufacturers can put 100% Pure Marine Phytoplankton on their labels, even if the actual product only contains a small amount of the 100% Pure Marine Phytoplankton powder. One leading manufacturer promotes their brand of 100% Pure Phytoplankton as ‘100% Pure’ but when you look closely and read on the back of the label each 500mg capsule only actually contains 50mg of 100% Marine Phytoplankton and 450mg of another, much cheaper, ingredient. So be very careful when buying Phytoplankton. Ethos Marine Phytoplankton is guaranteed to be 100% Pure Marine Phytoplankton Powder with nothing whatsoever added or taken away and with no added mixers, fillers or incipients. It also comes in a vegan friendly veggie capsule or, if you prefer, you can buy the 100% pure powder itself. It does have quite an unusual ‘fishy’ kind of taste to it, so personally I prefer to take the capsules myself.

As the old adage goes, ‘an ounce of prevention is far better than a pound of cure’, and both of these products have excellent prophylactic properties, as well as their many other excellent health benefits including; anti-aging, cellular rejuvenation and regeneration, protection against disease and illness, and they both help the body to heal itself naturally and holistically. For people who are not addressing any serious health issues, the recommended daily ‘maintenance’ doses are; 1g to 3g of L-Carnosine per day, dependent upon overall body weight, and at least 1g of Marine Phytoplankton per day.

A New Anti-Cancer Vaccine Looming up Brightly on the Horizon?

Cancer researchers have been studying the mole rat (Heterocephalus glaber), pictured below, as it is the only known living creature that is totally immune to cancer. Humans have one built in defense mechanism against cancer and, when this breaks down, cancer starts to develop and grow very quickly, but the mole rat has not only one but two different defense mechanisms which very effectively stops cancer from ever developing at all. It is not only immune to spontaneous cancer it is even immune to experimental lab induced cancers as well.

Now that the scientists have finally discovered this, it shouldn’t take too much longer for them to replicate this effect in humans and to then develop a new anti-cancer vaccine which will finally put an end to this deadly disease once and for all. They hope that this might also unlock the key to our aging as well as the mole rat can live up to 31 years in captivity, shows very little signs of aging, and remains highly fertile right up until the time of its death. In the meantime, while scientists work to unlock the key to the mole rat’s cancer immunity, the unique combination of the two products discussed above currently appears to be the very best alternative cancer treatment yet to be discovered.

For further reading see:

The Genome Of Mole Rat Could Unlock the Secrets of both Cancer & Anti-Aging

http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/235908.php

Signs of Ageing Halted in the Lab

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/health-15552964

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