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chat how cringe is it to have watched all of house m.d imagining house as your unhinged doctor dad
#chronic daddy issues who? don't know her#i'm a big fat liar i DO know her and i wanna block her!!#honestly though what triggered this was the episode where house had to figure out what was bothering an autistic kid#y'know the kid that gave house his psp#amd my autistic ass was like#huh??? a man who would not dismiss my autism growing up???#a man who interacted with a child (cuddy's) and was actually pretty chill???#i was unhinged for the longest time#and pookie i am SORRY you had to go through that phase i was really living in my delulu era#“but lizard you always go delulu about middle aged men who could be your father!!”#shhhh no i do not#i was this close to writing a drabble about house with a daughter who put up with all his random shit and just supporting him all the way#even when he gets ghost-sued for the 5th time in an hour#gregory house#house md#lizard's scribbles
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if you’ll stay with me, we can rewrite the rules of the universe
"does she have to go away? can't they just live together happily?" - director son, melo is my nature
there's an idiom in chinese that i think about a lot.
天下没有不散的酒席
the first time i heard it, it was season 2 of a drama i loved as a kid--three years old, sitting too close to an old, heavy color television, my cousin warm by my elbow, and my grandmother's voice drifting in from the kitchen.
(it's a technicolor memory, filtered a little yellow with age.)
season 3 of this drama is something i try to never watch.
first of all, they changed the cast, and even though leo ku is a beautiful man, he couldn't replace the legend, alec su.
(we don't talk about the new female lead.)
second of all, shit hits the fan and the character i loved the most becomes the character i hated the most.
third of all,
the idiom becomes true.
(there is no such thing as a banquet that never ends.)
see, the drama is about two girls who meet each other in historical beijing and become sworn sisters despite being polar opposites of each other. where one is gentle and demure, the other is reckless and brash. one of them (guess which?) happens to be the long-lost daughter of the sitting emperor. the other girl promises to help her reach her father. after a series of unfortunate events, the emperor crowns the wrong girl as princess. season 1 is about the fake princess sneaking the real princess into the palace, their struggles with palace life and figuring out a way for the emperor to recognize his real daughter without executing his fake one, and them falling in love--one with the 5th prince and the other with a son of a palace official.
eventually, the misunderstandings are addressed, and the emperor realizes he loves both girls too much to have harm come to either of them, so he recognizes both as his daughters. more things happen, but eventually, the two girls get married, and it's happily ever after.
BUT.
but they decided to make a season 3.
(in hindsight, it makes sense, because the non-blood related princess could have never lived a happy life caged in the palace, but it's nice to dream ok)
season 3 ends with the non-blood related princess and the prince she marries (my childhood crush) leaving the palace for good, and thereby giving up the throne, to live in yunnan. many, many years later, a carriage arrives at their tea field, and it's the emperor visiting them during the last years of his very long reign.
even writing this really poorly-articulated synopsis can bring me to tears. it's not an ending i can watch without crying.
(i can still see the ending in my mind's eye. the scarf around her hair, the basket of tea leaves by her side, the sound of children laughing and the carriage rolling to a stop. they see erkang first. yongqi and xiao yanzi greet him and their laughter is wild from happiness. but then erkang lifts the curtain to the carriage, and the emperor steps down from the coach.)
(the moment yongqi drops to his knees and says 皇阿玛 is usually when i start bawling.)
(the end end is them riding the carriage together, singing, and the words 全剧终 appear on screen, and you can almost fool yourself into believing that the carriage just continues on until they are back in the palace, ten years into the past.)
i like endings where everyone stays in one place.
senior year of high school, i watched a drama where the ending was a group of friends, who had bound together to conquer evil, literally all going their own ways and the main character dying, and i was so traumatized, i cried for three hours, shakily typing up my english essay through a curtain of tears until 6am in the morning.
when i finally went to bed the following night, i rewrote the ending in my head.
maybe because i was so tired, or maybe because the pain was too raw and not something i wanted to face, i managed to convince my sleep-addled brain that the drama actually ended with the female lead gathering the remnants of the male lead's soul, finding an elder in the snow-capped mountains (which is the setting where the drama leaves us), bringing him back to life, and the two of them returning home, where their friends have gathered to welcome him back.
this remains my most successful daydream yet (nightdream?), because i can still see the fabricated scenes play out in my head, the imagined emotions on the actor's faces, the ghost of a soundtrack playing in the background.
there's still a very, very large part of me that likes for everyone to stay in one place.
but maybe it's getting used to reality, or maybe it's me viscerally feeling how difficult it is to stay in a place for too long, i've slowly started to accept people dispersing.
i used to not understand those scenes in dramas where old friends who have moved away come to visit the main character for just one afternoon, because in my head, i would always think wow, i would've had them stay. my friends would've stayed the week.
but see, time doesn't move in a way that lets us stroll in the past for a very long time. now, i'm grateful for the hours taken out of a night to meet with familiar faces and make plans for a future we know might not happen. i swallow the faint wrenching feeling when we bid goodbye, and continue my own solitary journey home, and through life.
but in the end, we move through the world alone and with nothing.
there's still a very, very large part of me that likes for everyone to stay in one place, but i'm guilty of leaving.
you'd think after four years, i'd be used to not knowing what home is, but i'm still a little scared of going away.
i don't know what i'll do with my room when i do. i don't know what to do with the posters on the walls (magazines cut-outs from high school still posted above the living room desk that has long not been mine), or my mountain of books that spill into every room in the house, or my keyboard sitting heavily above my bureau, or my guitar stashed by my closet, or my upright.
i don't know when i'll play my upright again, and that thought in itself really hurts.
i used to do this thing where i count the number of hours i'll be able to spend time with another person. i used to do it with my grandparents and it's honestly the most painful exercise of all time.
i try not to do it now, and as i write this, i'm actively pushing the process out of my mind, because i know i'll be able to calculate the number of hours left i can live in this house.
in my final story for my creative writing project, someone says this to the main character, "You were banking on us to preserve this idealistic vision of the past--to stay the same--so that when you got tired of being an adult, you could return home to us. But, we were growing too. Maybe we were growing in tandem with each other, but out of sync with you."
this is a line buried in the text among many other sentences that i think are a lot more beautiful. but, this is the line that took me over two weeks to write. for the first time, i tried to put the anxiety and regret i felt for four years into words.
(that sort of reckoning is akin to pulling out your chordae tendineae through your esophagus and wrestling them into something worth presenting to the world.)
see, i want to experience the world, get to know foreign lands over the period of a couple of years, call the hidden corners of large cities home, visit mountain tops and build a life there, but i don't want the world to change.
part of it is because if it does, i'll never get to know the world. the japan i'll see in the future will never be the japan i saw last year and the japan i missed this year.
part of it is because life is a long, tiresome process of getting used to the new. as i grow up and out of this two-story condo, i am constantly having to digest this larger, more nuanced picture of the world. but, sometimes i get tired and i want to fall back on something familiar.
sometimes, that something familiar changes, and you're left utterly, completely alone.
i'm more used to this process now. i'm no longer so bothered by it that i balk at the idea of my parents moving.
i still feel unsettled when i think about the coming four years and the years after that and the notion that really, this bed i'm sleeping in is not going to be my bed anymore.
and this time, it seems like it will be permanent.
i was watching this variety show with a singer i like very much yesterday night, laughing and crying, and wrote this next bit in chinese.
i'll translate it here.
hua chenyu is a very peculiar existence in my heart.
i don't particularly love his voice, but i view his music as a sort of standard for all pop music. he has changed a lot since 2013, when he first debuted, but he still has this aura of aloofness, maybe because of his single-minded obsession with music.
but, when i saw him lift his head to look at his college bandmates on a large screen, over a webcam, the love and happiness in his slightly reddened eyes were indisputable. in that moment, the look of nostalgia and wistfulness in his gaze suddenly made me think that he's grown up a little, aged a little.
(this following part i wrote in english)
they performed a song they used to play a lot in college over some sort of webcamming interface.
but, see, there is a difference.
i used to think that it didn't matter how far away my friends were from me, because technology has taken distance and shrunken it to a few lines of text or a phone call. but, there's something irreplaceable about the voice of a person you love without the tinny grain of the mic, about the warmth of another someone next to you that you can lean against.
sometimes, we are lucky and for a few years of our lives, we have someone who can understand the messy scrawl over a few pages of our stories. sometimes, we are lucky, and that someone takes up chapters and arcs.
(isn't that a very nice thought.)
(华晨宇在我心中是一个很神奇的存在。我并不是特别喜欢他的声音,可是我就是会以他的音乐为目标,为典范。他从2013年 刚开始参加快男到现在 变了很多。但他一直有一种拒人于千里之外的感觉, 也许是因为他对音乐的执着。可是当我看见他抬头看着在屏幕上的大学乐队成员。。。他泛红眼里的爱和快乐是不可忽视的。在那一瞬间 他眼中的留恋突然让我觉得他好像长大了一点,老了一点。)
(i'm like weirdly proud because i couldn't have written this two years ago. see, reading in a different language really helps you learn that language. too bad my students never LiStEnEd.)
(i realize i talk about this creative writing story a lot. it's because it is my story. the story of me and my largest 心结. something like that.)
(maybe i'll post it one day.)
(or maybe not.)
song rec: kevin oh - mortifying love
glossary: the first drama mentioned is 还珠格格 (princess returning pearl erkang = son of the palace official, married to the blood related princess yongqi = 5th prince, one of the most tragic existences in chinese history xiao yanzi = the princess returning pearl, the non-blood related princess, married to yongqi 皇阿玛 = in the qing dynasty, princes and princesses who were sons and daughters of the emperor had to call their father by this greeting 全剧终 = the end the second drama mentioned is 古剑奇谭·(legend of the ancient sword) 心结 = literally, heart knot. i don’t know how to translate it, but i liken it to the freudian concept of a fixation...?
#i feel like everything i write is so depressing#maybe i should just talk about the things i like#maybe the next post is going to be me talking about my top 9 picks for youth with you 2
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Among the group of vultures that surrounded Michael Jackson for most of his life, Myung-Ho Lee – considering the short time he acted as a business adviser – turned out as a central figure in Michael Jackson debt affairs. What was spread by Myung-Ho Lee to the press it was nothing also that pure poisoned retaliation aiming to extort some extra money and get the lawyer fees paid by Michael Jackson. That’s why he disclosed MJ accounting to the press and crafted the baseless voodoo tale that only an idiot like Orth’s could collect and sell it as a gospel.
Lee alleged claimed of having arranged a 140 million of dollars loan for Jackson in 1998 using as a collateral “the complete catalog of Beatles’ songs”. First of all, it’s better to clarify that the ATV company was an ensemble of catalogs and “the Beatles songs” catalog was in there.
List of the Catalogues owned by Michael Jackson. There were more than 4000 songs. Northern Songs Ltd is the original catalog containing about 260 Beatles compositions.
Who actually organized the facility was “the only and the one” John Branca and in fact, he appears as co-signer of the loan documents as co-trustee with Myung-Ho Lee. And the loan was far away from being new. It was an increase in the principal amount of a lending facility already in place.
Michael Jackson was an already well-known client of the bank, having an escrow account where EMI used to credit the catalogs royalties as mentioned in the article 3 (Capital Contributions, Advances, Capital accounts) of the 1995 Operating Agreement of Sony/ATV.
A credit facility with NationsBank then absorbed by Bank of America was already in place since 1993, and guaranteed by some of MJ assets.
The so-called 140 million of December 23, 1998 – so much publicized by an ignorant and mean press – it was nothing else than a restated and consolidated Loan Agreement of a 90 million loan already existing. In simple words, the loan facility was increased of an additional 60 million and the new amount consolidated as principal capital. The expiring date of the loan was December 20, 2005.
It is common practice to open, close and/or expands credit facilities when you have commercial activities. When MJ expanded his activities and in 1985 purchased the ATV companies, he sold a small catalog belonging to him for about 6 million and borrowed something like 40 million of dollars from Chemical Bank. His companies had always credits lines, loans with banks directly or indirectly. Michael Jackson was a brand, a creator of services in the entertainment world, a music industry producer, an international marketing creative. I’m not going to list the number of companies he headed directly and indirectly – the web is full of it – so it’s clear that behind the way the press loved to picture him, especially from 1998 onwards sound a murky and sinister plot.
Fans should remember that after the infamous Chandler story Michael professional life changed sharply. Countless of frivolous litigations arrived on his desk – from alleged provable false molestations claims to crazy women allegedly pregnant or with an already done child by him-.
I think many of us underestimate how desperate people can be. The entertainment industry is rife with beggars and hangers-on. People who attach themselves to a celebrity, leech off them for money, power, fame, and opportunity. So MJ, while trying to contain the whole bad publicity, had to pay out settlements and tremendous fees to lawyers. He was billed tens of thousands every month by the PR consultants and advisors.
In 1993 Michael Jackson recorded a horror-themed song for Addams Family Values and filmed a music video to promote it, “he had invested a large amount of money in the project, which was shelved in the wake of the child molestation allegations”.
From the ashes of that project, MJ produced the short film GHOSTS. The “entire project cost Michael a reported $ 15 million, but he wouldn’t see much of a financial return. Television stations were offered the film as part of an hour-long special but were put off by the high price”.
Most of the music videos of the History album were produced with his own money/credit lines/loans and I have NO documents to check if Sony reimbursed correctly. What I know for sure is that from 1999 Michael started to audit them in order to check his accounts revenues carefully.
Coming back to Myung-Ho Lee, his first official presence in the MJ universe is documented with the constitution of “Jackson International LLC” in summer 1998 he’s nominated as “president”. And regarding his alleged contribution to the loan, documents show that in 1997 Tarak Ben Ammar was still Michael Jackson manager and advisor. He resigned on January 16, 1998, and Mr. Lee official entry as co-trustee in the MJ trusts was on December 23, 1998. Just in time to co-sign the loan with Mr. Branca.
For the occasion, the bank required MJ additionally put up his portion of Sony/ATV Music Publishing as collateral and consequently there is another change of the MJ trusts structures. Up to that moment, Sony involvement to MJ financing credit facility was limited to a guarantee in favor of the bank issued by Sony Capital on November 1st, 1995 and at the Letter of Consent.
This time Sony got into the game adding a new clause in Article 7 – the Put Option – (7.9) of the Sony/ATV Operating agreement. It consisted in the chance to buy each other at the expiration of the loan. It recited that ” from December 1, 2005, and on or prior to February 28, 2006, MJ could require to the Sony Music Publishing Members to purchase his Interest in the Company for a purchase price of $140,000,000 (the “Put Price”). If MJ did not exercise the Put Option on or before March 1, 2006, Sony Music Publishing could require to MJ, from March 1th, 2006 to May 31, 2006, to purchase their SMP Interest in the Company for a purchase price equal to the Put Price”. The period it was not casual, it corresponded at the 10th year anniversary of the company wherein any case there was already set in place the “Trigger” procedure allowing the buyout of each other. In this amendment also appeared modification on future annual retributions and contributions aggravated with Libor and spread to be applied to it.
At this point, Bank of America was the official “holder” of the 50% of Michael Jackson Sony/ATV shares and the MIJAC publishing.
A “strange” comment relating the beginning of this loan I found in a deposition of one of MJ lawers:
Although it appears that Michael Jackson was aware of this loan,
there is no sign of his signature and name in the documents. Everything is under the name of the trust and signed by the two trustees: Mr. Lee & Mr. Branca.
In February 1999 the promissory note of the 140 million loan had been reinstated per the same amount – that’s mean that interests and fees had been paid regularly and the reinstatement was due for an amendment or a documents change-. The applicable interest rate of the loan was 6.16 % per annum, provided however that any overdue amount on principal, interest, fee, payable on demand, at a rate equal of 2% per annum. Signature: Lee/Branca.
On April 5th, 1999 MJ announced an investment in Tickets.com Inc. He partnered with other companies through his “Jackson International LLC” to back the $30 million funds.
Jackson International LLC” owned 20% of Ticket.com for a short period. Right after this investment Ticket.com’s losses started to grow. MJ likely lost or sold his shares losing a lot of money.
It was on 29 September 1999 that a new credit line facility was put in place. This time using as collateral the trust containing MIJAC. As usual, the Security Agreement was signed by Mr. Lee and Mr. Branca and there is a continuing and unconditional guarantee signed by MJ in order to open a credit line of 30 million of dollars.
On July 1st, 2000 it’s been reported that MJ invested into HollywoodTicket.com through his “Jackson International” company. The service was designed to give space to young movie artists, as well to give the fans a chance to get closer to their idols. The website got blank in early 2001 and that the managers of the project sued MJ for alleged unpaid bills. Both the website and the company behind had been shut down in January 2003.
In December 2000 there a third loan guaranteed again by the MJ/ATV trust of 45 million at 7.14 % per annum, provided however that any overdue amount on principal, interest, fee, payable on demand, at a rate equal of 2% per annum. Signed as usual by the couple Lee/Branca.
On September 30, 2002, reinstatement of the loan of 140 and 45 million and a new loan of 11.5 million guaranteed by MJ/ATV Trust.
What ‘s weird about this third loan?
That the sole purpose of these 11.5 million was to fund the cash collateral account as per the loan contract, pay the amendment fees and the remainder to finance MJ professional and personal expenses.
In the light of the above, Michael Jackson words gain a new meaning and confirm he was right by saying that his loan should have been paid with his royalties but the money was not there.
It must be clear that most of MJ royalties and incomes derived from his compositions and the licensing of the publishing catalogs were always linked as a collateral of the various investments he went through his career. That’s how the structure of these loans was.
Michael Jackson earning estimation was around 20 to 35 million annually in the mid ’90. Even with less income due to fewer sales of his records and some money lost into doubtful and insecure transactions, he was up to date with fulfilling his duties with the bank and managing his life. He was very far from being on the brink of bankruptcy, despite Media was writing him off.
To add more, the roughly 115 million of dollars Sony had to pay to him to reach the parity on Sony/ATV shares were paid in different installments in the course of the years and most of the money was kept in the company books to capitalize and to serve operational costs. That’s was the situation Michael Jackson was at that point.
I still wonder what Mr. Branca tried to explain to the judge when he said that “MJ was taking an equalizing amount from Sony ATV and the beauty of Sony Capital guarantee…the beauty of Sony guaranteed was a 9 million cost per year and the structure of the “equalizing amount” was this one:
Equalizing amoµnt shall mean, at any time, the excess of (A) the cumulative amount paid to MJ pursuant to Section 5, 3 (b) (including the applicable portion (determined pursuant to clause (iv) of Section 5.3(a), if any, of the Initial Avance) in the First Guaranteed Distribution Period plus (y) 50% of the cumulative amount paid to MJ pursuant to section 5.3 (b) in the Second Guaranteed Distribution Period, over (B) the cumulative (amount theretofore paid to the SMP Members on account of the Equalizing Amount pursuant to clause (iv) of Section 5.3. (a) 1, and clause (iv) of Section 5 4, and Section 8 2 (c), in each case to the time of calculation.
In simple words:
Let’s take into consideration just the relevant period of guaranteed distribution that was from October 1, 1995, up to September 30, 2002.
To the extent of the Excess Cashflow, the First Guaranteed Distribution Period was 13 million of dollars pro rata the first year. (see *1)
After 1995 should have been 11.5 million of dollars or much lesser due to the fact that it was taken into account the distributions made in preceding Guaranteed Distribution Years pursuant to clause (v) of section 5.3 (a) (1), (see *2)
The amounts distributed to MJ in the First guaranteed distribution period pursuant Section 5-3 (b) (including the initial advance) had to be not less than $32,500,000. By those 32 million guaranteed on papers, Sony deducted from the initial payment about 1 million that was to reimburse Epic for the production of the “Childhood” video and obliged MJ to put a 16 million advance payment received by EMI (see *3) into the escrow account.
As I said more than once, the impression that MJ was partially paid for the sale of the 50% of the ATV shares while he had been heavily billed is very strong. And still, I wonder what Mr. Branca meant about t the Joint-Venture for MJ was a “forced saving“??
How come that a man that in 1995 had to receive 115 million in cash for selling the 50% of his catalogs and had annual revenues of about 25 million of dollars find himself in 2002 to borrow 11 million which five served to pay his accrued loan interests and six to allow the survival his companies and his personal life?
He had a spending habit? Who wouldn’t have got them, being one that earned for most of his life millions of dollars? The real guilties in the tragedy who led him to the other world are the group of financial vultures that have surrounded him the last thirty years. Their bits of advice, their filthy schemes, and their plans have brought him to the brink of bankruptcy. Most of these former advisors are now sitting on their ass counting the millions of dollars they made and still make in fees on his dead body. Whatever it turns Michael Jackson financial issues, his wagon of ex- advisors are far more than outrageous individuals.
Notes:
( * see 1) Sony Capital guarantee was issued at the time of Sony/ATV Joint- Venture constitution and had a cost debited for MJ account of a sweet amount of 9 million per year.
(*2) To all the amounts you have to take off 5% that went straight into Mr. Branca pockets as per their 1994 agreement.
(*3) This is related to the payments due to MJ in accordance with the sale of part of his ATV catalogs to Sony, that “might” have been paid or not, depending on the company priority and at the manager discretion, who could decide to consider the amount as an additional capital contribution instead than distribute to MJ.
(*4) ATV was under contract with EMI for the administration of the catalogs for a period of 5 years that lapsed in 1998.
Sources:
http://articles.latimes.com/1999/apr/06/business/fi-24567
https://www.buzzfeed.com/jaimieetkin/the-addams-family-values-20th-anniversary?utm_term=.ajGqdDvpVa#.fpyBG4D3og
Making Michael: Inside the Career of Michael Jackson by Mike Smallcombe
Avram vs Jackson Case no. 1007622 November 4, 2002
pacermonitor.com/case/16787632/Prescient_Acquisition__Group,_Inc_v_MJ_Publsihing_Trust_et_al 2006-2008
Joe Jackson objection documents case no. bp 117321 November 10,2009
Michael Jackons’s financial problems: the 1998’s media hoax about Bank of America Among the group of vultures that surrounded Michael Jackson for most of his life, Myung-Ho Lee…
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